ATHENA-NADINE's SparkPeople Blog ATHENA-NADINE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community It never gets any easier Today is my father's 70th birthday. This is always a very difficult time of year for me, because he passed away on May 9, 2004, only a few weeks after his 60th birthday. That day also happened to be Mothers Day that year. <BR> <BR> It has been almost 10 years since he died--due to complications following a stroke that left him completely paralyzed and bedridden for almost 19 months--but I have still been struggling all day not to cry. More than once, I've suddenly burst into tears. It's b... Thu, 24 Apr 2014 20:51:56 EST Quick pic update April 21, 2014 <BR> 174.8 pounds <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Please ignore the dirty mirror. My kids were messing around with it right before I took the picture. <em>246</em> Mon, 21 Apr 2014 19:56:44 EST Thank you! I posted this on the message boards this morning, but if wanted it here too so I can easily be reminded how amazingly wonderful everyone here is. <em>41</em> <BR> <BR> Last week was one of those weeks I normally would have found excuses to stop eating healthy and give up again. My husband was out of town, I couldn't go to yoga all week because I had no sitter, and my weight was up all week from the week before. <BR> <BR> Instead of just saying, "screw it," I read threads by members wh... Wed, 16 Apr 2014 14:32:11 EST I'm Still Here! Good morning! I know I've been quiet for over a week, but I haven't disappeared, I promise! I didn't do so well with my tracking or eating while on vacation, but there's good news--when I weighed in yesterday I was exactly the same weight I was before I left. <em>244</em> With all that I ate I didn't gain an ounce! Must have been all the walking at LegoLand and Magic Kingdom and the playing around on the beach for days. <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> We all had such a great time and the weddi... Tue, 30 Apr 2013 11:28:51 EST Florida, April 2013 - Day 1 Recap, Morning of Day 2 We're here! <BR> <BR> I meant to check in last night before bed but I was so tired i just fell asleep and forgot. I got up at 3:30 yesterday morning because we had to be at the airport by 5. We had a 7:00 MDT flight. It was on time, which I was happy about because a lot of flights were delayed and canceled the day and night before due to the snow. We landed at 12:30 EDT. <BR> <BR> As you can aging, yesterday was not a good food day. I drank a lot of coffee drinks and, while I tried to ... Fri, 19 Apr 2013 09:42:46 EST A bit of a rough end to the day I ate way more candy today than I planned, most of it after 9 PM. I don't usually have trouble sticking to the portions I allot myself when I want a treat, but tonight was an exception. I just kept wanting more sugar. I'm not that far outside of my calorie range, but I felt nauseous afterwards and now I'm unnaturally awake from the sugar. I'll probably crash soon. <BR> <BR> This is the second time I've done this over the last few weeks. I just realized that both times I only drank about h... Tue, 16 Apr 2013 01:18:53 EST Weigh-In day 4/15/13 Today's weigh-in: 178.4 <BR> <BR> I am down a total of 2.4 pounds since April 1st. Awesome! I'm feeling good about most of my food choices and feel like I'm right on track. <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> I'm leaving for Florida early Thursday morning and I'm nervous. I'll be gone for a week and we'll be staying in three different hotels over that time. I'm doing so well at home because I have so much control over my environment, and I'm worried about how easy it will be to make good food choic... Mon, 15 Apr 2013 10:24:07 EST I'm so proud of myself! As I mentioned earlier, I didn't get much sleep last night. I couldn't fall asleep until well after 1 because my brain wouldn't stop babbling at me, and then my husband woke me up at 5:15 while he was getting ready to go out of town. I usually sleep far too soundly for him to wake me, but I felt like I was stuck in a state of half asleep/half awake the whole time I slept. So I got less than four straight hours of sleep, and not good sleep at that. I couldn't take a nap today because my daug... Mon, 8 Apr 2013 20:23:00 EST Weigh In Day - 4/8/13 Monday is my official weigh in day. I'm down .4 pounds this week. I should be happy, and I am, but I think I'm still retaining some water from eating at On the Border on Saturday night. There was so much salt in the food that my feet swelled when we got home. It was crazy! It's amazing to me how quickly my body became unused to having so much salt at a meal. <BR> <BR> Spring Break is over and school is back in session this week. I have as hard a time adjusting again as my son, maybe eve... Mon, 8 Apr 2013 10:19:31 EST Almost the end of week 1 So here we are again. I'm picking myself back up after falling...again. I restarted my journey to living healthy on Monday, April 1. I had breakfast and lunch--I've worked hard not to skip any meals because I have a problem with not thinking to eat all day and then eating everything in sight in the evening after the kids go to bed. I am working on retraining myself to not eat unnecessarily at night out of habit. <BR> <BR> After almost a week of adjusting my eating habits and consciousl... Sat, 6 Apr 2013 17:37:59 EST I'm still here! It's been a really tough month+ for me. My shin splints were worse than was first thought and I was pulled off all exercise until they fully healed. It took over 6 weeks for them to heal, and I became really depressed about it a few weeks ago. I started eating badly again and stalled my progress. I didn't let myself completely lose it, at least, so I haven't gained again back more than a pound, thankfully. <BR> <BR> I was mad at myself for letting my eating go, but I spent the last two w... Mon, 18 Jun 2012 14:15:38 EST JMBR, Week 2 Day 4 Tired today. <BR> <BR> Last night's stationary bike workout was tough. My legs were pretty sore and tired this morning. My upper abs are sore from yesterday's ab workout too. I never thought I would say this, but I was looking forward to this morning's workout just to help get rid of the soreness. So odd that I would feel that way. lol <BR> <BR> So far I'm still feeling good about my dietary changes. I'm no longer eating past 9 PM and I'm no longer wanting to either. My sugar craving... Thu, 10 May 2012 12:51:47 EST JMBR, Week 2 Day 3 I decided to do JM's Six Week Six Pack this morning instead. I could have ridden my stationary bike, but I didn't care for the thought of doing that twice today. I already do it every evening. <BR> <BR> The only thing I can say is, OMG! <BR> <BR> I knew my core strength was bad, but I didn't think it was THAT bad. I struggled harder and was more out of breath through this workout than I ever got during the Cardio 1 workout. Side planks and burpees? No more, please! lol I thought I wa... Wed, 9 May 2012 16:21:51 EST JMBR, Week 2 Day 2 Happy Tuesday, everyone! I didn't get around to blogging yesterday, but I didn't miss my workout. Did Workout 1 yesterday morning and 30 minutes of intervals on my stationary bike in the evening. My official weigh in day was yesterday. I'm down 2.8 pounds! <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> I did Workout 2 this morning and am feeling good. I increased the weights and think I will increase them again for some of the circuits on Friday. It was kind of funny. I was a little surprised when I reac... Tue, 8 May 2012 12:49:37 EST JMBR, Week 1 Day 6 I completed Week 1! <em>224</em> I'm so excited! I did workout 1 instead of the cardio workout because of my shins and will do intervals on my bike tonight like I did last night. Whew! Those intervals last night were tough! Hopefully my shins will be up for the cardio workout again on Wednesday. If not, I'll find another substitution. <BR> <BR> Rest day tomorrow and weigh in day Monday morning! Now I have to go get ready for T ball and then a party with some of my best friends. Ever... Sat, 5 May 2012 10:23:37 EST Probably my biggest obstacle... Being overweight is a relatively new thing for me. It's not something I ever had to deal with until 6 years ago. <BR> <BR> I was always the one who everyone made snide comments to, like, "You're going to blow away in the wind!" I was always between 105 and 100 pounds as an adult. Watching what I ate was a foreign concept to me. It wasn't that I was able to just eat anything I wanted in huge quantities; it was that I had no desire to gorge on food and only ate when I was hungry. I was al... Fri, 4 May 2012 18:10:41 EST JMBR Week 1 Day 5 - Workout 2 I had to skip the extra evening cardio yesterday because my shins are still hurting with any impact. Going up and down the stairs a few times while putting the kids to bed cause the muscles to swell again and I had to ice them down right after. Until they heal completely I'm going to have to get the cardio in with no impact. Thankfully, workouts 1 and 2 don't cause me any problems. <BR> <BR> Finished Workout 2 this morning. My form is getting better, but I still have to pause the video... Fri, 4 May 2012 12:10:43 EST JMBR, Week 1 Day 4 - Workout 1 Workout 1 was a pleasant reprieve today. Bicycle crunches almost bring me to tears because my abs burn so bad, but it's all good. In a few months my core will be as strong as it once was so it's all worth it. <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> My legs were so so happy for the stretching they god during this workout. And I am happy to report that my shins had no problems at all. I did switch shoes this morning too. <BR> <BR> I was feeling pretty discouraged last night after my cardio workout. This... Thu, 3 May 2012 12:05:53 EST JMBR, Week 1 Day 3 - Cardio 2 Finished my second cardio workout of the day a few minutes ago. <BR> <BR> So, it seems that I have shin splints. In both legs. I'm going to have to skip the cardio workout tomorrow and ride my recumbent bike instead. Hopefully that will ease the pain and I will be able to start the cardio again on Friday. We'll see. I'm also going to get some new shoes, in case they're causing me problems. <BR> <BR> I ended up going out to eat tonight with my husband and kids. We went to Chili's and I... Wed, 2 May 2012 23:32:22 EST JMBR, Week 1 Day 3 - Cardio 1 <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> I was really not wanting to do this when I got up this morning. My front calf muscles were so sore I was half afraid I was going to fall down when I got out of bed. Day 3 was Cardio, and after doing it for two evenings I knew it was going to hurt. I was dreading it and looking forward to it at the same time. I was dreading the pain I knew was going to come during the workout, but was looking forward to the soreness I woke up with going away (how strange to say th... Wed, 2 May 2012 12:12:28 EST JMBR, Week 1 Day 2 - Cardio Am I crazy? My calf muscles and shins hurt SO badly after that! I think every muscle in my lower leg got an insane workout. The good news is the stiffness and other soreness I was feeling before doing the cardio tonight is gone now. <BR> <BR> I DID THE ENTIRE RUNNING MAN ON THE LAST CIRCUIT! <BR> <BR> Yay! <BR> <BR> Right now I'm just under 1200 calories for the day. Tue, 1 May 2012 23:02:49 EST JMBR, Week 1 Day 2 Just finished Workout 2. In some ways it was easier than Workout 1, in some ways it was harder. I'm going to need to increase the weights for this workout, but my form SUCKS. So I'm going to spend this first week working on my form and will increase the weights next week. I also have trouble wrapping the resistance band around my feet evenly, like I'm supposed to. I'm sure practice will fix that as well. <BR> <BR> My core is hurting--not from the crunches, but from all the stretching. ... Tue, 1 May 2012 12:27:30 EST Jillian Michaels Body Revolution, Week 1 Day 1 I'm really hoping I can stick it out this time. I realized about a month ago that I really have no desire to run. As much as I wish I could, I just don't like it. At all. I don't have any fun while I'm doing it and kept giving up without making any progress. I tried the 30 Day Shred and realized that I like workouts like that much more. I found out about JM's Body Revolution about two weeks ago and ordered it almost immediately. I received it last Wednesday. After speaking to my husba... Mon, 30 Apr 2012 22:36:39 EST Net to self Self, when you wake up with legs screaming in pain from your last workout, making it difficult to go down stairs, IGNORE the voice telling you it would be a good idea to set the incline on the treadmill at 4 to work the kinks out. If you don't, you will be in even more pain two hours later than when you started. :P Thu, 3 Nov 2011 10:32:51 EST Snow day! I didn't get up at 6:30 like I planned because my daughter fell out of bed last night and ended up sleeping with me. She kept waking up after that telling me she didn't feel well/couldn't sleep. I don't see anything wrong with her now. lol <BR> <BR> I'll have to work out later instead because the kids have no school today. It's a snow day! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=" Wed, 2 Nov 2011 11:28:39 EST Thinking I might be crazy I completed Day 1 of the 30 Day Shred this evening. My arms and legs feel like rubber and it's hard to lift them. I'm really proud of myself, but the soreness is beginning to set in to my legs. I can't help but wonder if I'm out of my mind to attempt this. With these jelly arms and legs, will I have the strength to do this again tomorrow without falling on my face? Wed, 2 Nov 2011 00:29:19 EST First time doing any strength training in over 15 years I was able to finish: <BR> <BR> 10 squats <BR> 10 lunges <BR> 15 calf raises <BR> 8 situps <BR> 30 jumping jacks <BR> 1 30-second plank <BR> 1 30-second cobra stretch <BR> Thu, 15 Sep 2011 00:11:56 EST Starting over It's been almost a year since I made an entry here. It's been a really rough year, full of financial difficulties. My husband works in the mortgage industry and we had to file for bankruptcy last year and let our hour foreclose. It was heartbreaking. We are getting back on track financially now, but the fear and sadness from the last few years' stress lingers. <BR> <BR> I started school last January, to finally get the Bachelor's Degree I always wanted. I will be 40 when I graduate. Th... Fri, 4 Mar 2011 12:25:02 EST Back on track! It's been a rough few days with eating and working out. I had oral surgery on Friday morning, and wasn't allowed to run or do anything else that would increase my heart rate because of the bleeding risk. I'm still not able to eat anything crunchy that might scratch the surgical site, or anything that may get wedged in there (like seeds or nuts or some grains). <BR> <BR> But I can exercise again! Yay! I repeated W1D2 of the C25K last night because I haven't done anything in four days. I'... Wed, 21 Apr 2010 11:48:38 EST Couch to 5K (Week 1 Day 1) I finally told myself today that I need to stop procrastinating and get started. I quit smoking on February 16th, after starting again last April (I had quit before that for 4 years). Almost 2 months is long enough for my lungs to get over the worst of it. I spoke to my doctor and she told me that I should be fine as long as I continue taking my AdVair twice a day, keep my rescue inhaler on hand, and take it very slow until my lungs strengthen again. <BR> <BR> So, doctor's blessing in han... Wed, 14 Apr 2010 00:26:41 EST