ASILLA's SparkPeople Blog ASILLA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community strength As I'm re-kindling my Spark growing stronger making better food and drink choices everyday realization that I'm also fighting my own demons is a uplifting revelation. I feel the need to write this is to encourage myself at a time when I need to squash self <BR> doubt. <BR> <BR> My husband who's in his 40's of two yrs marriage, his ankle was bothering him swelling for no apparent reason went to Dr, no breaks was told to go home ice/heat. Five days later admitted to hospital for acute kidne... Sun, 2 Feb 2014 10:22:14 EST Realization The only thing I can change is myself, like a breath of fresh air I realize this. Trying to be aware of where the precious moments of my days are being spent and how they are being spent is a revelation in itself. At my job I help people , I'm very proud of that aspect. I'm trying to manage my time better to somehow get more me time in between work and family. <BR> Most everyone has a degree of stressfulness in their lives. I've mentioned family problems, kids with health issues, divorces, o... Tue, 12 Nov 2013 21:37:56 EST Summer work This summer has been so crazy weather wise. I deeply empathize there's so many hardships by those effected, bless you all. <BR> <BR> I work in an HVAC (heating and a/c) industry. Whenever there are units that break down or are destroyed, part of my job is to make sure they are replaced, logistically not by sales. I'm by no means complaining, I love what I do being able to help people. I'm very grateful for my job, and proud of the work we do locally and internationally. <BR> <BR> Working 6... Mon, 12 Aug 2013 12:27:29 EST Snow pics.. Just about everyone has some, sharing some of the ones from around my house. Shoveling is great cardio! We are very lucky parts of the country have had it a LOT worse, my prayers to them. ...I'm ready for spring now...LOL :) <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=" Fri, 22 Feb 2013 10:32:12 EST My gift Have not bloged for awhile, funny I say that a lot but it's true each time I plan on doing better. I'm not nearly as crafty nor computer savy as most of you are, by the way I love what you all do! This isn't a blog about blogging tho- I wanted to share something. <BR> <BR> I went to the state university hospital for a total screening and this is what came back. The mamo as well as pap was clear for the third year in a row cancer free. This is huge for me mom mom had cancer (RIP) and my mothe... Mon, 24 Dec 2012 10:02:50 EST Doors close, doors open Last Saturday we moved into our new house :D it's so beautiful and still sinking in actually seems surreal at times, it needs work, but that is a great thing to keep me busy :D !! <BR> Sunday we get 'the call' his mother has passed away at 4:30 from her fight with breast cancer. <BR> Monday is our two year wedding anniversary, we spend most of it at the funeral home getting the arrangements in order. <BR> <BR> Today Friday June 29th at 9am my husband and I went to the VA National Veterans Me... Sat, 30 Jun 2012 01:21:00 EST I apologise to my teams. I am sorry I haven't been an active Sparker like I have/had been or still would like to be. I was logging my exercise & foods on the trackers for a very long time and have not been now for a long time. I feel as if I've let my teams down, and for that I am sorry to you all. I do think and care about everyone as individuals and admire you all for the brave life changes that you have chosen to make. <BR> <BR> For several months now have been helping my mother-in-law through her breast cancer, ... Sun, 3 Jun 2012 09:30:55 EST Asthma,broken femur & KEMO It was a week...I'm sure we've all had days,weeks that are a bit out of our "norm"; <BR> all started out just fine, <BR> <BR> Monday & Tuesday two of our CEO's from corporate came to our facility, that all went rather well (TG!) <BR> <BR> Wednesday,a guy at work came in & said another employee (also a dear friend) fell and was calling for me in the whse. I took out like a bat out of he**, rounded the corner right behind two big whse guys to see her laying on the concrete calling for ... Sun, 29 Jan 2012 07:36:20 EST digging deep and finding I haven't posted a blog for some time now, nor have I tracked like I used to every day. Am finding myself at a crossroads, as we all do sometimes. <BR> <BR> First off (why aren't there spell checks on this this thing :) <BR> I didn't want to post a whiney blog, which I've pondered truley for months now. When you all stopped hearing from me a few months ago... <BR> <BR> Since August,have been getting up at 3:45 am to be at work by 5 workng till 5pm which is ok however, covering for one gu... Sun, 27 Nov 2011 14:19:09 EST Passing along lifesaving info- Subject: Wasp Spray <BR> <BR> I know some of you own GUNS but this is something to think about...--- <BR> <BR> If you don't have a gun, here's a more humane way to wreck someone's evil plans for you. Did you know this? I didn't. I never really thought of it before. I guess I can get rid of the baseball bat. <BR> <BR> Wasp Spray- A friend who is a receptionist in a church in a high risk area was concerned about someone coming into the office on Monday to rob them when they were counting ... Sat, 16 Apr 2011 08:25:56 EST need suggestions please This last few weeks spring has been uncertain and unpredictable here in the midwest, 70 one day 30's the next and snow. It's ok we're used to it, all over the nation this winter the weather has been very unusual, and it's not over yet. <BR> <BR> When the weather was warm I was so very happy I was running around in shorts :) then a very unpleasant thing happened. Somehow in my usual uncoordinated fashion, I've managed to get poison ivy blisters behind my legs from mid-calf halfway up the bac... Sun, 27 Mar 2011 12:03:05 EST ok, well what the heck... This really is a note to myself I guess, a recap to try to figure out...well, what the heck?! <BR> <BR> Ok, it's good, it's great right now. I had two different cancer tests (opposite ends of my body) and this time am delighted to say I passed with flying colors :-D <BR> Was I worried, yes. Should I probably not. <BR> Worry has never brightened a day, solved a problem, or cured a disease!! <BR> <BR> So, here's yet another ramble since it's 3 a.m and I can't seem to get my eyes to close. I... Sun, 16 Jan 2011 04:46:18 EST What the he** just happened?! How can one Dr visit make such a big change so fast? <BR> <BR> I called to get a mamo to follow up on my cancer,( which I should have done over a year ago), anyway they wouldn't do one unless I had a Dr to read the results (I canned my old Dr of 7 yrs) so I went to see new Dr Friday/yesterday. <BR> <BR> I have an appmt to get the new mamo Tues Dec 21st, another appmt/test for colon cancer the 1st part of Jan, & follow up mid Feb w/new Dr. <BR> "IF there is anything wrong in the re... Sat, 18 Dec 2010 08:25:18 EST Activity If no one reads or comments, it’s ok too. <BR> I think we all came here for one common goal, to improve our lives in one way or another. That need, want, desire, whatever prompted us here truly can be achieved by utilizing the recourses available from this website. I am aware of how hard it is to change habits, especially the ones we don’t even realize we need to change. The combination of diet and exercise is the healthiest modifications we can make for our well-being. This affects ourselv... Mon, 6 Dec 2010 11:35:58 EST A Mirror or a 2-Way Glass? : Mirror or 2-Way Glass? <BR> <BR> Good to know! <BR> <BR> <BR> COATED SIDE - no gap between finger and reflection <BR> <BR> UNCOATED SIDE - gap between finger and reflection <BR> <BR> A Mirror or a 2-Way Glass? <BR> <BR> How can you tell when you are in a room, restroom, <BR> motel etc. with a mirror or a 2-way glass? <BR> <BR> Here's how: I thought it was quite interesting! And I <BR> know in about 30 seconds you're going to do what I did <BR> and find the nearest mirror. <BR> ... Sun, 19 Sep 2010 16:34:29 EST "C" is for cancer Please join the Susan G. Komen team. It is one of the new SparkAmerica's Leading Non-Profet teams. Your fitness minutes will count on this team's ranking on the LeaderBoard. As a breast cancer survivor myself, I am joining. <BR> <BR><BR>s_individual.asp?gid=43868 Sun, 29 Aug 2010 08:15:30 EST My Sparkvisary + pics It's my three year Sparkvisary and a LOT has happened during this time! I have lost 130+ pounds, yes really! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I have learned that I have a better way to live now, a lifestyle that I really do deserve {WOW, if you only knew how hard it is for me to say that}. I love the trackers, most of all the people that are here. There are so many that are deeply in my heart. I have learned that I can trust people again... Sun, 25 Jul 2010 18:07:13 EST Gettn' married TODAY!! Yes, I'm getting married today-this evening at 6 actually. I can't sleep... don't know why am nervous/excited...but I am. Very small & simple, in a park. I hope my silly nerves settle down, I know everything will be ok...I think I'm giving myself a pep talk here. <BR> Hope everyone has a great Friday! <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Fri, 25 Jun 2010 03:41:56 EST House pictures!So excited! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> We are moving the end of next month, am not looking forward to the move itself but very anxious to be there. It's been all remodeled,kitchen, bath, new windows, plumb, elect, roof, deck, etc.etc. <BR> Sits on an 1 1/2 acres, level back yard w/privacy fence. (really don't know who would be looking in, but hey, it's ok with me) <BR> <BR> Oh, ya and there's a SIX foot wide fireplace! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://pho... Sat, 10 Apr 2010 08:32:57 EST Pic of me in SEXY undies! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Yes, it's me in my sexy underwear that I've been wearing this winter!! <BR> <BR> I would never have thought that I would ever post my picture wearing my underwear on any web site before Sparkpeople. I really am proud of the weight I've lost using this great web site. All of the fantastic people that are here are so encouraging have really been an inspiration for me! <BR> <BR> I'm worried that I might only hav... Sun, 28 Feb 2010 13:01:30 EST Officially ENGAGED! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Am officially engaged now! I'm still in surprise really... BF gave me a ring with one diamond for each year we've been together (going on 9)! He's a little bit ;) younger than me, never been married, no children. Wedding date to be in June when he's has a break from school so we can go on a honeymoon (gasp)! It's almost surreal to me. When I woke up I looked at my hand to make sure ring was still there and I didn't ... Sat, 13 Feb 2010 07:21:12 EST Blog, blog, bloging to blog <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> I'd just realized that next week is Autumn/Fall/Mabon/the end of summer. Where did it go, why is it seeming to be leaving us so quickly? I dearly love the changing of the seasons, and autumn is one of my fav's, truly. Now on my walks I can enjoy the dew on spider webs. Weird I know, but I think they are beautiful, like a string of little dimonds. All of the colors of nature, we try to duplicate, and come close so... Sun, 20 Sep 2009 11:28:13 EST Am home-ok I wanted to give my most heartfelt thankx for each one of you sending encouragement, advise , good thoughts, and prayers my way. I did have a ride to & from so I didn't have to drive, taxi's are a good thing. I can not say I was alone, I felt your presence with me at the hospital. There was no familiar person there with me to place a hand on my shoulder, nor hold my hand. The words & wishes you sent me were in my heart and it gave me courage. Thank each one of you very, very much. <BR> It wa... Tue, 9 Jun 2009 07:17:15 EST Surgery Monday Going to have surgery Monday... more than a little nervous right now. <BR> <BR> They are going in to take out "all of the bad cells" they are saying definitely partial to possibly full mastectomy. Hopefully outpatient "depending on how it goes". If no complications arise I'll only be there five hours, best scenario. <BR> <BR> After that, we'll see what they say and go from there. I know medicine has advanced so dramatically and progressed in so may positive ways for both patients and Drs... Sat, 6 Jun 2009 07:43:49 EST cancer biopsy I was not going to write about this. Not at least until I knew what the results are going to be. But as the day (tomorrow, Tues) grows closer I am growing more nervous. I have been racking up my minutes for activities/ cardio/ strength etc. because I've had so much nervous energy to burn off. Am trying to "put on my big girl panties" and be positive. I thought just maybe writing about it would help myself be strong. <BR> I had two "unfavorable" mammograms in April. So, May 20th they did a b... Mon, 1 Jun 2009 08:04:35 EST pragmatic <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Quote of the Day <BR> "Despise not small things, either for evil or good, for a look may work thy ruin, or a word create thy wealth. A spark is a little thing, yet it may kindle the world." <BR> – Martin Farquhar Tupper <BR> <BR> Climbing back on the surfboard and catching the next spark wave. I had fallen off and was treading water for a bit. Then I realized I just needed to swim back over to my board and get... Fri, 17 Apr 2009 08:16:17 EST nothing left in me I think i am done, it's been a blast. Thank-you for being there or not... does not matter anymore. Guess I'm doing something wrong. I will miss the trivia, but the stories most of all, really loved them. <BR> Everything I said on my page is true, not made up or fabricated. Perhaps I said too much, or not enough. If there is something I said to someone I meant it. To those who wrote me, goodies, notes, mail, thank-you, good or bad. <BR> <BR> There are so many things I want to write, things... Sun, 22 Mar 2009 20:19:55 EST A Christmas/Yule poem Christmas Poem <BR> > <BR> > <BR> > <BR> > The embers glowed softly, and in their dim light, <BR> > I gazed round the room and I cherished the sight. <BR> > My wife was asleep, her head on my chest, <BR> > My daughter beside me, angelic in rest. <BR> > Outside the snow fell, a blanket of white, <BR> > Transforming the yard to a winter delight. <BR> > <BR> > The sparkling lights in the tree I believe, <BR> > Completed the magic that was Christmas Eve. <BR> > My eyelids were heavy, my br... Fri, 19 Dec 2008 07:24:55 EST Fantastic ~"crabby old man" will make you laugh & think! xoxo CRABBY OLD MAN <BR> <BR> <BR> When an old man died in the geriatric ward of a nursing home in North Platte, Nebraska, it was believed that he had nothing left of any value. <BR> <BR> Later, when the nurses were going through his meager possessions, they found this poem. Its quality and content so impressed the staff that copies were made and distributed to every nurse in the hospital. <BR> <BR> One nurse took her copy to Missouri. The old man's sole bequest to posterity has since appeare... Thu, 11 Dec 2008 19:34:10 EST I'm almost there- thank-you! I had an opportunity to see someone whom I hadn't seen in a couple of years, it took them a minute to recognise me. This happens and didn't surprise me, what did was what they said. They didn't realise it was me because I had lost weight. <BR> I really hadn't stop to think about how far I've come along really because I've been focused so much on where I want to be. So I stopped to figure it out, I've lost so far, about 48% of my body weight and 12 sizes. I'm no longer a type t... Wed, 17 Sep 2008 07:14:23 EST IMPORTANT INFO ON VOTING, PLEASE READ!~no joke Subject: Fw: WHY WOMEN SHOULD VOTE <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> I had never heard of this - and this was only 90 years ago!!! <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> WHY WOMEN SHOULD VOTE <BR> <BR> This is the story of our Grandmothers and Great-grandmothers; they lived only 90 years ago. <BR> <BR> Remember, it was not until 1920 <BR> <BR> that women were granted the right to go to the polls and vote. <BR> <BR> The women were innocent and defenseless, but they were jailed <BR> nonethel... Mon, 8 Sep 2008 08:07:51 EST Defeated, yet thankful... Please bear with me. I have never written any blogs, ever. Just had not felt a need to do so and have always been a bit nervous about it really. I'm doing this in hopes of it being a bit therapeutic for me. So if you are so inclined to take time to read this I really do appreciate it, and hope I don't ramble so much you don't fall asleep, oops doing it already. <BR> In my life I have truly lived times that; when it did not kill me (literally) it has made me a stronger person. <BR> I'm feelin... Sun, 27 Jul 2008 10:04:55 EST