ASHMOMOF4's SparkPeople Blog ASHMOMOF4's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Starting over.... again Well, at the end of last summer, I seem to have "let myself go." I guess this will be a battle for the rest of my life. I even gained this weight while training for a half marathon that was ultimately cancelled last December. This whole time up until now, I felt like I really didn't care. I didn't exercise, didn't calorie count and ate like it didn't matter. How sad! I used excuse after excuse not to follow a health lifestyle and look where it got me. "It's too cold to exercise outside," ther... Wed, 23 Apr 2014 15:10:22 EST Goal Weight! Today I stepped on the scale and it finally said 125! That is actually the top of my goal weight range. I want to stay between 120-125. I've never been below 124 as an adult. <BR> I'm excited to finally be at this weight again, but I really don't feel any different. Yes, I do feel better being a fit person, but I was kind of expecting something else when I saw 125 I guess. I don't know how to describe it. Am I completely satisfied with my body now that the scale says a certain number? That's... Fri, 19 Jul 2013 09:12:07 EST Strange Body Over the past several years, I've struggled to understand why my body loses, holds and gains weight at different times. I've tried to use science as much as possible to figure it out. I wear my Body Media at times to see how many calories I burn compared to how many I eat. I definitely lose when there is a deficit, but not at the times I expect. <BR> I seem to drop a pound or 2 every two weeks. I try to make my calorie deficit so that I lose 2 pounds a week, but my body says no. Maybe it's b... Sat, 22 Jun 2013 12:50:37 EST My New Goal For some time now I've heard about how artificial sweeteners are bad for you for various reasons. Yesterday I read this article: <BR> <BR><BR>22/aspartame-linked-to-leukemia-lympho<BR>ma-in-groundbreaking-study/ <BR> <BR> It was a large study over many years and basically said that there is a huge link between artificial sweeteners and cancer. Particularly leukemia, lymphoma, and multiple myeloma and especially in men. I have consumed so many diet co... Sat, 8 Jun 2013 10:08:30 EST My Numbers So recently I've had a check up at the doctor and an assessment with a personal trainer. Here are my numbers: <BR> Age: 36 <BR> BP: 100/60 <BR> Heart Rate: 68 <BR> Weight: 131 <BR> Height: 5' 6.5" <BR> BMI: 20.8 <BR> Body Fat: 21% <BR> Cholesterol: 159 <BR> HDL: 64 <BR> LDL: 82 <BR> Triglycerides: 65 <BR> Glucose: 80 <BR> <BR> I'm pretty proud of my numbers! My next thing I want to do is to tone up. Hopefully, by working with my trainer, I will be able to finally get the body I've always wan... Fri, 7 Jun 2013 10:44:41 EST I Have 2 Questions... And Need Some Help I haven't posted in a while. I'm still pretty new to the blogging thing, but I think it's really helpful. I've been doing pretty good. These last few pounds are -s l o w l y- coming off. I currently weigh 133 and would like to be between 120-125 and just stay there- forever. So here are my questions. <BR> <BR> 1) What do you do when you start to have urges, cravings, longings, etc to just "forget it" and eat whatever you want? <BR> 2) What do you do to "clean up" yourself afterwards if yo... Fri, 10 May 2013 09:30:53 EST Guilt So, I feel I did really well eating this week. I didn't get as much exercise as I wanted to because of the weather and the kids' schedules, but I did manage to burn my goal Monday through Thursday. Friday is where I felt the guilt. I did great all day and then at the end of the day, my dinner was fine but I decided to have a little sweet- yogurt covered pretzels. I start thinking, "How am going to track 4 pretzels? Where is the nutritional info on this container? Should I just guess? Gosh, th... Sat, 23 Feb 2013 11:05:28 EST Fat Tuesday So, yesterday was "Fat Tuesday." On Monday, I had a great day and went for a walk at lunch and a run in the afternoon. When I went to bed, I realized from my BodyMedia that My calorie burn was really high for the day and I didn't eat enough that day. I decided to go to bed knowing that tomorrow I could eat a little more, especially since it is the day before the start of Lent. I haven't had ANY sweets or treats since Jan 2 so I thought that this would be the perfect time to allow myself this... Wed, 13 Feb 2013 08:56:47 EST Tummy Trouble The past couple days have been tough! I ended up not meeting with the person trainer on Monday night because she was afraid I would bring germs from my kids who have been sick with a stomach bug. I was not happy, but I'm so glad I didn't now because I woke up at midnight that night puking, along with my husband and 2 of my kids. I'm sure I would have contaminated her and her home! Yesterday was hard, I was so weak trying to recover from the night of hell. The only good thing about it was that... Wed, 30 Jan 2013 08:50:13 EST My Very First Blog Post Ever! I've enjoyed reading other people's blogs and have had the desire to write one for some time, but have only had the courage to do my own today. It's hard to let others in on the inside of this battle that I've kept secret for most of my life. I really believe that we are here for each other and that there is real value in the support here. So, today I am opening up so that I, too can benefit from what's offered here. <BR> I've been staying on track since Jan. 2 and have lost 9 pounds since. I... Mon, 28 Jan 2013 12:45:05 EST