ASHLEYROXX's SparkPeople Blog ASHLEYROXX's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community In need of some encouragement Ugh. The dreariness and cold of this winter, combined with the fact that I've been sick for what feels like weeks, are really getting to me. I'm so tempted to not only fall off the wagon, but set it on fire and dance around it while I eat macaroni and cheese!! <BR> <BR> Help! How are you guys coping with this?! What can I do to lift my spirits so that I feel like eating healthy and working out??!! <BR> <BR> <em>24</em> Tue, 28 Jan 2014 08:56:14 EST needing a shove in the right direction You know when you get off track? Like, seriously off track? Like "I can't believe I just ate that" off track????!!! <BR> <BR> Yeah. That's where I am today. Staring at a number on the scale that I cannot believe that I'm seeing. <BR> <BR> I need a shove in the right direction, so I'm shoving myself today. But not in an aggressive a "This is what's best for you, like it or not" kind of way. <BR> <BR> Shoves from others will be greatly appreciated as well. :) Thu, 8 Aug 2013 10:49:03 EST Today's Inspiration <img src=""> Wed, 24 Apr 2013 09:57:33 EST Today's inspiration <img src=""> Tue, 23 Apr 2013 09:39:57 EST Way to go, Danni! Did any of you watch the Biggest Loser this season? If so, the following might be a spoiler (since I'm going to talk about last night's finale)....... <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> I am so proud of Danni for winning last night!!! I have been watching her and have been inspired by her the entire season! I'm also really happy for everyone who found success this season. As a woman, it's always awesome to watch another woman dig down deep and find her inner athlete. <BR> <BR> I'm hoping to do the sa... Tue, 19 Mar 2013 09:31:50 EST Happy Valentine's Day, everyone! Single, married, divorced, other......... <BR> <BR> It doesn't matter your marital or relationship status. Let's instead focus on today as being a day to love OURSELVES! <BR> <BR> After all, there will only be one ME for all eternity.......Celebrate Her!! <BR> <BR> And..........have some good quality dark chocolate. You deserve it! <BR> <BR> <em>334</em> Thu, 14 Feb 2013 12:32:48 EST God Bless Earl Gray Tea's the only thing getting me through this day. <BR> <BR> #feelingundertheweather <BR> <BR> <em>24</em> Wed, 16 Jan 2013 12:13:46 EST Not-so-good-news from the scale this morning Well, my scale has it out for least it did this morning. I behaved myself so well last night, but alas......I saw an increase on the scale this morning. <BR> <BR> Not to worry, though. It was only an increase of 0.8 lbs. I already told myself that it's probably due to the fact that I worked my upper body out really well on Sunday evening, and that increase is due to my amazing muscles recovering. <BR> <BR> So, scale. You THINK you won this round, but I'm still on top today... Tue, 15 Jan 2013 09:07:03 EST Exercising for more than just myself I want to inspire people. It's such a simple idea, and I think I have done so in some areas of my classes, example. But I've never considered myself to be someone who could inspire someone else to be healthier because of my own health habits. <BR> <BR> But maybe I can be an inspiration to others because of my own healthy habits and weight loss success (when it happens, that is!). My Mom was just put on a statin drug for her cholesterol and triglycerides, and my best friend ne... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 10:45:25 EST Feeling great this week! Well, first week back to work after the holidays. I started this week much like I'm sure everyone else did.......feeling overfed and remorseful about all of the holiday goodies I had eaten over the break. But.....I decided to embark on the first steps of my new journey to feeling good by choosing one new thing this week and focusing on it: breakfast. I have always eaten breakfast, but I have not found a breakfast the fueled me with energy and had staying power...until now. <BR> <BR> The ... Fri, 11 Jan 2013 09:04:01 EST Well, at least I'm honest..... Yesterday was one of those know the kind--where you feel like you could eat everything in sight. I have no idea why I felt that way, but it was like that. So, I strayed from my plan in big, leaping bounds. <BR> <BR> But, today when I got to work, I honestly recorded everything I ate in my food tracker. So, even if I didn't stay within my limits yesterday, at least I had the courage to face it and own up to it today. <BR> <BR> So far, I've planned a much more successful day ... Tue, 11 Dec 2012 10:11:24 EST Today's gratitude list Today, I am grateful for: <BR> <BR> 1. The friends in my life...especially the 4 friends I hung out with last night. <BR> 2. Sushi....which I will be having for dinner tonight! <BR> 3. Gel manicures <BR> 4. Green tea <BR> 5. <BR> <BR> I know it's a weird list, but I'm very happy that all of the above things are in my life <BR> <BR> <em>30</em> Thu, 6 Dec 2012 16:03:34 EST 5 Things for Today In the spirit of Thanksgiving and mindfulness, I am going to start celebrating 5 things that I am grateful for each day. I hope that this will keep my mind open to the wonderful gifts that are already in my life while keeping my spirits up and positive. <BR> <BR> For today, November 28th, I am grateful and thankful for: <BR> 1. My peppermint creme coffee from the Fresh way to start the day! <BR> 2. The full 8 hours of sleep I got last night! <BR> 3. My beautiful fingernai... Wed, 28 Nov 2012 14:17:47 EST Fall down six times, get up seven. I am trying to keep myself in a positive frame of mind. It's a daily struggle when it comes to how I feel about my body and the shape it's in (or lack thereof, really). Work is extremely busy for me right now, so I get overwhelmed when I think about setting aside an hour for the gym. <BR> <BR> So...instead of an hour, I am going to try to set aside just 30 minutes to take a walk today. Just 30 minutes. I spend at least that much time thinking about how I need to work out every day! ;)... Wed, 3 Oct 2012 10:48:24 EST having a better day..... Well, yesterday I did something that I haven't done in ages: I had a great "eating" day. By that, I mean that I followed and stuck to my nutritional guidelines on my sparkpeople plan. All the way. The amount of satisfaction that I got from doing that felt better than any junk food would have tasted. Despite the fact that I worked until 8:00 p.m. last night, I stuck with it. I planned ahead. I tracked everything. <BR> <BR> Good job, me! On to continue my progress today! <BR> <BR> <... Fri, 7 Sep 2012 09:17:47 EST feeling down, but not out It's been a rough few weeks, to say the least, in my world. But....that shouldn't be an excuse to stop making forward progress on my goals! In light of all of the stressful situations that I have found myself in during the last 2 months, I am proud to say that: <BR> --I didn't run to my "go to" stress-relieving patterns (i.e. eating terrible foods or too much of the wrong thing) <BR> --I have been trying to make sure to get enough sleep every night <BR> --I have been monitoring my internal ... Thu, 6 Sep 2012 10:51:09 EST So glad I ran across this today............. In one of my emails this morning, I saw a link to the Sparkblog entry entitled "100 reasons you should work out today." Well, knowing that I had blown off my morning workout (once again) this morning, I figured that I could use the inspiration. This list is awesome! Let me share with you a few of my favorites: <BR> <BR> --Because NOT working out isn't working for you (soooooo true!) <BR> --Because it will help you like what you see in the mirror <BR> --Because it burns more calories than... Tue, 10 Apr 2012 13:11:31 EST A recommendation from an apple snob! Honeycrisp apple...........Y-U-M. <BR> <BR> That's pretty much all I need to say. I am a self-professed apple snob. I am very, VERY picky about my apples. They have to be crisp, a little tart, and never ever mushy. <BR> <BR> I usually go for Pink Lady apples, but last night I was tempted to try a giant, gorgeous Honeycrisp apple. <BR> <BR> And...........yes ma'am. It was all of my favorite things about a good apple. Just the right amount of sweet and tart....and crispy.....yes, yes ... Thu, 8 Mar 2012 16:55:47 EST regretting my snooze button Ugh.....once again, I find myself sitting at my desk on a Wednesday morning, thinking "I still haven't gone to the gym this week?!! How is this possible again?!" <BR> <BR> Well, it's true. But this week has been filled with some different circumstances. Monday night, I worked until 7:00, then I ran to the mall to get a haircut at 8:00. By the time I got home from all of that, it was too late to get a workout in. Boo. <BR> <BR> Then yesterday afternoon, two of my students got into a bad ... Wed, 7 Mar 2012 09:59:57 EST Incline Walking is NO JOKE!! It's not.....not at all. Just ask my quads today. <BR> <BR> I did this great 20-minute incline walking workout that I found on Peanut Butter Fingers (my favorite blog) and I gave it a try yesterday. <BR> <BR> Yes ma'am. Seriously. This workout got my heartrate up and kept it up much better than the Couch to 5k workouts does. Maybe it works better for me because I like walking so much more than running. <BR> <BR> They say you should find a workout that you really like, and you'll b... Wed, 29 Feb 2012 13:15:21 EST No excuses this morning!! happened. My alarm clock went off at 5:30 this morning--the time I set it to go off to hit the gym before work. <BR> <BR> And then it happened just like it always does...the excuses started coming into my head! I tried to tell myself that I would just work out after work. That my stomach felt too "weird" to make it through a workout. That I needed the extra sleep. <BR> <BR> And then something else happened: I got up. I put both feet on the floor. I flipped on the lights a... Wed, 15 Feb 2012 14:44:28 EST Anyone have a career as a nutritionist out there? I have been thinking lately about the possibility of changing careers...or at least taking my life in a new and different direction. <BR> <BR> I wanted to see if there were any nutritionists out there that would be willing to tell me a little bit about what they do, where they work, the ups and downs of their job as a nutritionist. <BR> <BR> Nutrition has really grabbed my attention lately, so I am curious to hear from people out in the "field" and what their lives are like working with... Thu, 12 Jan 2012 18:51:21 EST Exercise makes me nicer! :) I find that after being so stressed out and easily irritated by little "fires" at work (I teach high school and middle school band.....yeah, tell me about it!), if I have the chance to work out one day after school I will be MUCH more even-keeled the next day. <BR> <BR> It's like irritation insurance for the next day! :) So all day today, its been as though my Annoy-o-meter has been turned waaaay down. I really enjoyed teaching today, and the classes seemed to fly by! <BR> <BR> <BR> ... Wed, 11 Jan 2012 15:37:57 EST Another great motivational quote from The Biggest Loser! So I was watching the first episode of this season's "The Biggest Loser," and Dolvett (my fav) threw out another one of his awesome motivational quotes: <BR> <BR> "If you ain't movin', you ain't losin'!!" <BR> <BR> Well, if that doesn't completely sum it up, I don't know what does!! <BR> <BR> Thanks, Dolvett. You're the best! ( rock <em>30</em> ) Tue, 10 Jan 2012 09:12:58 EST Hunger=Anxiety? Does this happen to anyone else? I am sitting at my desk at work right now, and I am thinking of food. Food, food, glorious food. I can tell that I am hungry. I have the faintest of rumbles in my stomach. <BR> <BR> But I am noticing another feeling: anxiety. My mind is almost racing at the thought of eating something right now. Nothing in particular--just something. It is almost the same feeling as when you hear a funny noise in your house, late at night, and your mind races to con... Mon, 9 Jan 2012 17:18:53 EST A new kind of resolution! So.....New Year's is approaching. And we all know what that means......... <BR> <BR> RESOLUTION TIME, BABY!! <BR> <BR> Well, there have been a few resolutions that I seem to keep making year after year after year. But these resolutions leave little room for mistakes. They've typically been "All-or-Nothing" resolutions (like giving up fast food, Diet soda, or working out everyday before work). <BR> <BR> I'm going to try something new for 2012. My approach: "Back to the Future." Let me... Thu, 22 Dec 2011 09:44:54 EST feeling down.... I have no idea what's going on with me! I feel so strange lately. Things in my life have been overwhelming me, and my stress level has been crazy lately. I find myself getting into arguments with my boyfriend so easily too. I have no idea when this started or what might be causing it. I feel pretty bad about fighting with him so much. It's like I'm just expecting to be unhappy about everything, so I'm finding problems where problems don't really exist. <BR> <BR> I'm sure that eating... Tue, 13 Dec 2011 09:56:07 EST great quote from The Biggest Loser trainer! So.....I love me some Biggest Loser. It's so awesome to watch them working out in the gym and pushing through their barriers. I was watching last week's episode and Dolvett (LOVE HIM!!) was training with Courtney. She was doing squats with overhead presses, and she looked like she was about to die. He got right in her face and said "Can you survive this pain?" He kept saying it over and over again, and she told him that she could. <BR> <BR> What a great quote!! Can we SURVIVE the pain o... Thu, 20 Oct 2011 10:24:14 EST feeling out of control......... Help! I'm having some trouble controlling my compulsivity! I feel like I can't get a grip on my eating, I am constantly picking at my fingernails and twirling my hair, and I can't stop!! I don't know what it is, but these last two weeks have been really difficult to get through. I almost feel like I am on the verge of falling apart at the seams, and all of my compulsive bad behaviors are making it worse!! <BR> <BR> Any suggestions??!! Wed, 19 Oct 2011 11:48:38 EST pulling myself along I feel like I have been pulling myself through my own life for quite some time now. Whether it's dealing with failed relationships, frustrations at work, stress with my family, or working with a counselor to overcome my PTSD, I feel as though I have been pulling myself up by my own bootstraps for YEARS now. <BR> <BR> And you know what? Sometimes, I get tired. So tired of constantly picking myself back up, dusting myself off, and trying to keep moving forward. <BR> <BR> I don't know w... Wed, 5 Oct 2011 11:14:48 EST My SparkStreaks are pitiful!! Have any of you ever looked at your SparkStreaks? You can find a link to them under your "until next trophy" sparkpoints on the Sparkpoints page. I had never clicked on it before, but I did just now. <BR> <BR> Sad. So sad. I've been a member of Sparkpeople for over 2 years now, and my longest streak is only 1 week. ONE WEEK?!!! How sad. I mean, honestly. In all of this time, I haven't managed to keep any consistency longer than 7 DAYS???!!!! <BR> <BR> So......I'm going to get all ki... Wed, 21 Sep 2011 10:59:59 EST All it takes is one workout!!'s amazing to me how much just one workout positively affects all areas of my life! It's like throwing a pebble into a lake....the ripple effect and all that. I'll explain: <BR> <BR> On Monday, I started a 5k Rookie Running plan (I found this on sparkpeople when I joined a virtual 5k race). It was a pretty easy workout, and I didn't struggle at all to finish the 20 minute walk/jog routine. Then I did some weight training. I worked my shoulders out pretty well with some free we... Thu, 15 Sep 2011 12:23:10 EST A little hunger is okay (according to article) Yesterday, I was surfing around sparkpeople and a few other health/fitness websites, and I came across something interesting. A dietitian had submitted an article to Shape magazine entitled "Why a Little Hunger Can Be Healthy." <BR> (you can read it for yourself here:<BR>ss-strategies/why-little-hunger-can-be<BR>-healthy) <BR> <BR> According to this article, a little hunger is normal. AND it's something that you should be experiencing 3-4 times... Tue, 13 Sep 2011 11:44:36 EST Struggling to hold everyone else up.......... Sometimes, I feel like I am spending all of my energy holding other people up and holding them together. But it feels like I'm the only person trying to hold myself together and lift myself up. It gets so tiring. I feel like I have been on the road to weight loss and better health for SO LONG that I've been pulling myself along this path for years. And I'm getting soooo tired of doing it. I wonder what other thoughts I would have rolling around my brain if my mind wasn't consumed with th... Mon, 12 Sep 2011 09:36:27 EST So how do you stop using food for comfort?? Any suggestions?? So things are hard. Join the crowd, right? I know. I am very grateful to have all of the things that I have in my life right now: a job, a relationship, a nice place to live, friends and family, etc. But, despite my thankfulness, there are issues. <BR> <BR> First, my job has just recently become a great source of frustration for me. I used to greatly enjoy certain parts of my job, but things have changed. New people have been hired to do the parts of my job that I loved the most. Ouc... Wed, 31 Aug 2011 09:44:23 EST seeing small changes... So I am noticing some small changes that are happening--both inside and outside my body. I should tell you that I haven't stepped on the scale in about 2 weeks. My reason for avoiding it? Fear. That's right. I'm afraid that it is going to tell me that the work I have been doing hasn't changed anything. And that will completely derail all of my efforts and this new-found inspiration to exercise that I have. So I have decided to avoid the scale for a little while longer so that I can jus... Wed, 4 May 2011 09:45:12 EST being "nicer" to myself today... So........after work today, I came home to de-stress for a minute. I decided to make dinner a little earlier than usual so I could hit the gym later on in the evening. I probably should have worked out first.....because i didn't make it to the gym after all. I made pasta for dinner (whole wheat, of course). I also added 1/2 cup of fresh spinach leaves to my sauce. For dessert, I made cinnamon apples in the microwave (soooo yummy!!). My stomach was grumbling soon after that, so running ... Mon, 2 May 2011 21:18:24 EST fun at the gym? yeah, I was surprised too! I really wish that my brain and my body would communicate much better. Let me explain: Yesterday, when I got home from work, I knew that I had a fairly good amount of time to spend at the gym. However, my brain started trying to convince me that I was too tired to workout and that I needed a nap. My body, however, remained very quiet while my brain was talking. Reluctantly, I drug myself off the couch, grabbed my swimming gear, and hit the road. <BR> <BR> I had a good plan for a workout... Tue, 26 Apr 2011 09:26:40 EST struggling today.... I'm having a rough day. Well, to be honest, a rough month. I'm taking a trip to Europe at the end of May, and I've been trying to get myself in shape for the beaches of Croatia! But.....things have gotten in the way of my weight loss. I hopped on the scale this morning (for the first time in a few weeks), and I have only lost about 2 pounds. I'm so upset. I have a goal weight that is 30 pounds away, and it feels like it will take forever for me to get there. I didn't think I would hit ... Sat, 23 Apr 2011 12:38:27 EST getting past the feelings... So I am reading a wonderful book right now called "Women, Food, and God." If you haven't read this one, you have to. Simple as that. It has revolutionized the way that I think about food and eating. <BR> <BR> Last night, as I was reading before I went to bed, I came across a chapter that talked about allowing yourself to feel your feelings, examining them, and then allowing them to be alive...rather than allowing your brain to tell you why you are feeling something and that it's your faul... Tue, 12 Apr 2011 10:49:46 EST I am my own worst enemy I admit it. I can be so mean to myself sometimes. The things I say to myself in my head are things that I would never, EVER say to another human being. Why is that? Is it because it's just me talking to myself? Why have I allowed myself to be so mean to myself for so long? It has become a very nasty habit, and I definitely fell victim to it yesterday. <BR> <BR> Thanks to a very good conversation with my sister, I have a new plan of action for today. She suggested that for one day, I s... Sat, 5 Mar 2011 10:29:31 EST feeling down today Last night was both a really happy night and a really sad night for me. Two of my very good friends came into town yesterday. They have been living in Europe for a few years, and I haven't seen them since last March. I was so excited to see them and get a chance to catch up. <BR> <BR> We spent so much time laughing yesterday! I was so happy to see them. I left to go home, I was filled with another feeling: regret. I know that the last time I saw these two friends, I was f... Fri, 4 Mar 2011 10:27:24 EST Surprising myself.... So, yesterday I went to the gym right after work....which hasn't happened in ages! I decided that I wanted to start back on the Couch to 5K Program (once again...I'm getting really good at starting over!). I was surprised at my endurance yesterday. Just when I used to start feeling fatigued, I still had energy reserves. I tacked on a 25 minute bike ride at the end (to make it an even 60 minutes of cardio). I am shocked at how I managed to finish the bike ride strong as well. <BR> <BR> I... Wed, 2 Mar 2011 17:53:59 EST I come!! It's official!! I'm going to Santorini in June!! <BR> <BR> You know what that's time to get really serious about losing weight. I know that my body needs to be pushed physically because it wants to stay at this weight naturally. Nutritionally speaking, I am doing alright.....well, all except for the beer. But...fear not! Because I have just bought my plane ticket to Europe, I can't really afford to go out and by drinks like I used to! I'm thinking one--maybe two drinks if ... Mon, 28 Feb 2011 15:13:49 EST you just have to start somewhere..... I don't know about anyone else, but I've come to understand something new about myself when it comes to exercise: If I go one day, no matter how much I don't want to, it motivates me to go back to the gym the next day. <BR> <BR> I can't explain it. I don't understand why, but it seems that for me, all I have to do is go ONE TIME--after that, I find myself wanting to go back to the gym the next day. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was the perfect example of this. When I got home from wor... Thu, 24 Feb 2011 09:28:35 EST overwhelmed by how far I have to go Well, today is definitely a "blah" kind of day. I woke up in a bit of a funk, and I have been trying to snap myself out of it. I suppose that it's due to some thoughts I have been having about myself. Thoughts such as "I can't believe that I have let myself get to this weight." "I have sooooo far to go." "I have wasted so much of my life being overweight and unhappy with myself." "I wish I could be more in shape and better-looking for my boyfriend." <BR> <BR> Bad thoughts. Mean though... Thu, 17 Feb 2011 14:18:36 EST 100 DAYS!!!! I did it! I've made it to 100 days since my last soda!! Woo hoo!!!! <BR> <BR> <BR> I am shocked that I have stuck to this streak for as long as I have. I'm very proud of myself for this, and i think its appropriate for me to celebrate this accomplishment by telling the world I DID IT!!! <BR> <BR> <em>209</em> Wed, 9 Feb 2011 15:49:47 EST life is funny sometimes Well, all I have to say is this: Be careful what you wish for. I have longed for several things in the last few years. Two of those things have been a good relationship and better career opportunities. Who knew that both of these things would show up in my life at exactly the same time. But....the catch is that I have to choose one over the other. And so I find myself at a crossroads. <BR> <BR> I was in Cracker Barrel this weekend, and I found this great little tile that is handpaint... Tue, 8 Feb 2011 11:23:56 EST Great words to remember for all Sparkers!! So....I ran across this statement that the late and great Jack LaLanne used to say: <BR> <BR> "Exercise is King, and Nutrition is Queen." <BR> <BR> Now, as every woman knows, the King is nothing without his Queen. They are a team that must work together. If one is missing, the kingdom suffers. Well....our bodies are the same! And I realized much of a "girls rock" sort of person I am, I have been totally neglecting my "King." I have been so good about my nutrition ... Wed, 2 Feb 2011 13:30:01 EST tea time=great mornings! Alright, so I have tried to reason with myself that drinking my morning coffee wasn't the reason I was feeling so strange and off in the afternoons. Well just might have been my Chock-full-o-nuts that was causing me to feel bad. So, I took a page from the Brits and decided to switch to tea instead. What a difference! I know that it might be totally mental at this point, but I do feel better. I don't feel so "heavy" after drinking a cup of tea, and I think it has just enough ... Tue, 1 Feb 2011 09:24:00 EST