ASHLEYENGELBERG's SparkPeople Blog ASHLEYENGELBERG's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Juice Cleanse Day 3 Hi all! I didn't get a chance to post a video, but I wanted to give a quick update. Day 3 was by far the hardest day yet. It's hard for me to be out and around people because people always only talk about food! WTF? EVERYBODY want to talk about food all the time. I have been pretty good about smelling food, but today I smelled French fries straight from the fryer and I almost cried. I knew this was going to be difficult, but I underestimated it by far! In some ways this is the most I'... Sun, 8 Sep 2013 22:03:41 EST Video Blog- Juice Cleanse Day 2 YAY! I was able to upload a video today! Day 2 is done :) I'm hoping it gets easier from here :) As per usual, feel free to ask ANY questions!! Sat, 7 Sep 2013 19:49:14 EST Juice Cleanse Day 1 So, I made a little video update but sparkpeople isn't letting me add a video blog right now. I'm not sure why! <BR> <BR> Oh well! <BR> <BR> It's the end of day 1 and the worst symptom I have is fatigue. Well...I have been going to the bathroom a lot, but that's really in a different category. The fatigue is pretty intense! I had a long day as it is and even went for a walk on my lunch break to keep my mind off of things. <BR> <BR> I feel hungry, but it's different than the hunge... Fri, 6 Sep 2013 21:15:58 EST Video Blog- Juice Cleanse Prep Day 4 short and sweet little video. Didn't have much to say. Tomorrow I will go into more detail :) Thu, 5 Sep 2013 22:11:06 EST Video Blog- Juice Cleanse Prep Day 3 Day after tomorrow is when it all starts! I'm so very excited!! Hope you are watching and enjoying these videos! Wed, 4 Sep 2013 21:05:42 EST Video Blog- Juice Cleanse Prep Day 2 Okay, a little rambly, but hopefully with more pertinent information. Please flood the comments with questions! I have no idea what I'm doing here so feel free to request more (or less) information! Tue, 3 Sep 2013 20:02:18 EST Video Blog-Juice Cleanse Prep Day 1 This is my first time ever doing a video blog so be nice! Hehe! I just talk about my journey thus far! Enjoy and comment at will! Mon, 2 Sep 2013 15:29:35 EST The Ultimatum So, DH and I have been doing some serious soul searching together to help us get over the incident mentioned a couple blog posts ago. It's been quite a journey and he gave me an honest opinion of my weight loss journey thus far. It was something I didn't want to hear, but I needed to. I have been "on a diet" or "trying to lose weight" since high school and have had a moderate amount of success some of the time. <BR> <BR> A couple days ago when I stopped in to medical weight loss I was p... Fri, 19 Jul 2013 20:27:47 EST Wouldn't it be so much easier? I stopped into a medical weight loss clinic today. They lost me at "The first 3 days you eat nothing but raw green veggies and red meat." What? Why is it that even MEDICAL weight loss sounds like a gimic? <BR> <BR> It would be so much easier if someone would just make all my meals for me and put them in the fridge labeled by day. On tuesday I could just go get the tuesday bag and eat from it until there was no more food. I wouldn't have to make decisions or do any calculations. Someone... Wed, 17 Jul 2013 17:04:41 EST Why I need to be naked (no mature content) There are times when I feel so down on myself and motivation is absolutely nowhere to be found. A serious hiccup in my marriage (let's just say I found incrimminating text messages) a few weeks ago combined with an illness that would.not.go.away (GRRR!!!) sent me into a tailspin. <BR> <BR> I went rogue. Eating whatever, whenever. Not giving a damn about anyone (including myself). I resorted back to my famous tactics of hiding food and purposely scheduling time with me home by myself so... Fri, 12 Jul 2013 14:04:41 EST Spring to Summer Trip Walking Challenge! The Done Girls are posing another challenge. This time to walk to a desired summer destination of our choice. I chose Saugatuck, MI which is 158 miles from my house. It's where my husband and I had our first date (I only lived about 20 miles away from there at the time). It's an artist colony on the coast of Lake Michigan and I loved it but I have been with my husband for 9 years now and I haven't been back there since our first date. I'm getting there this summer if I have to walk there... Thu, 4 Apr 2013 21:34:29 EST This is Why We Fight-RHHC Mini Challenge #3 For this challenge we have to really soul search and get to the root of the real reasons we want to lose the weight and post them in a blog. Here are my reasons <BR> <BR> 1. To be confident in my body and it's physical ability <BR> 2. To look and feel graceful when I dance <BR> 3. To shop for clothes at any store <BR> 4. To have better sex <BR> 5. To have the confidence to try new things <BR> 6. To be able to fit places (stadium seats, roller coasters) <BR> 7. To never worry about a weight... Sun, 29 Jul 2012 23:46:29 EST Red Hot Heartbreaker Challenge #1: For The Body I Want Here are my measurements: <BR> Hips-46 <BR> Waist-43 <BR> Chest-45 <BR> <BR> I hate how little difference there is between my hips and waist. It makes me feel so unfeminine <BR> <BR> My Goals <BR> My goals ~To run/walk a sub 45 min 5k, To kick my bad habit of sneaking food up to bed to eat (I'm only hurting myself!) and to get in 10 minutes a day of exercise even if it's just rocking out to some tunes <BR> Start weight ~ 262 <BR> One Voice (7/25) ~254 <BR> Relaxation (8/15) ~247 <BR> Labor... Sun, 8 Jul 2012 20:43:26 EST If you're going to be an athlete... you're going to have to get used to a little pain. <BR> <BR> I have never used the term athlete to describe myself and I never really considered myself one even when I played soccer in high school. Looking back, high school soccer players are DEFINITELY athletes. But that's not the point here. Moving on... <BR> <BR> In the last few days while I was nursing a bothersome quad and rickety knee I heard two different people give me advice that started with "If you're going to be an athlete."... Wed, 2 May 2012 19:19:34 EST And the day came when... And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom-Anais Nin <BR> <BR> Today is that day! Last night I was looking at all the spark pages from the most motivational members and so many have pictures from their 1st 5k (and 2nd and 3rd and...) and yet again thought *some day* <BR> <BR> But when? <BR> <BR> October 6th, 2012 <BR> <BR> I decided that at some point each successful person stopped talking about doing it, and just did it. If... Sun, 8 Apr 2012 21:30:23 EST Awesome Health News and a GREAT Salad! So...I'm 26 (I'll be 27 in May) and at age 20 my doctor told me I had "dangerously high cholesterol" basically my total cholesterol was somewhere around 300 and Triglycerides were in the 400s and even my good cholesterol was too high. Because I was only 20 years old and very physically active (and 30+ lbs lighter than I am today) he didn't put me on medication and told me to try and lose weight and keep exercising to see if I can reduce it on my own. In 3 months I lost 20lbs and had cut the... Sat, 17 Mar 2012 20:32:45 EST Getting In Touch With My Id I made a box (more accurately I put contact paper a shoebox and cut a whole in the top) That I call my Id box. I want to better understand my most basic instincts and desires and understand the what, why and when behind my cravings for everything from happy meals to shopping sprees. So, any time I have a carnal urge for something I'm going to write on a sheet of paper as follows: <BR> <BR> I want: Frosting <BR> Because: There is a whole tray of cupcakes in front of me and the frosting lo... Wed, 23 Nov 2011 17:11:36 EST A promise to myself: I'll do me I'm feeling hella motivated. I'm done sitting around waiting for motivation to find me. I'm kicking ass and taking names and nothing will stop me. I'm done holding back and losing out. I'm finished with the excuses. <BR> <BR> It's on like Donkey Kong baby!! <BR> <BR> I have all these dreams and for so long I blamed external factors for keeping me from them, but just like no one can make you feel bad without your permission, nobody can hold you back without your permission. If externa... Sun, 20 Nov 2011 23:04:27 EST It all started with a bag of apples Last year around this time is when I made the decision to take control of my life and lose weight once and for all. More than lose weight, though, I just wanted to feel better about myself and be more comfortable with myself. <BR> <BR> A few weeks into my new journey, I bought a bag of "lunchbox macs" which are just smaller sized macintosh apples. They were literally half the price of their full-sized siblings (only $5 for a whole peck) and the perfect size for someone re-learning the art ... Wed, 21 Sep 2011 17:32:53 EST Channel Your Inner Classic Movie Star Folks, I am a huge classic film fan. I don't watch them as often as I'd like, but every once in a while between hockey games I can snag the TV from Hubby for a couple hours and sink into a good old film. <BR> <BR> Yesterday afternoon it was Now, Voyager starring the incomparable Bette Davis as Charlotte Vale, this "ugly duckling" who gets a second chance when she goes on a cruise in someone else's place and meets the dreamy Jerry Durrence (played by Paul Henreid) and, know... (... Mon, 18 Apr 2011 08:43:01 EST HEALTH INSURANCE Effective Tuesday I will officially have health insurance again! I haven't had insurance for almost 3 years and I can't wait to get it back. It's one of those things I didn't appreciate until it was gone. I am already making plans to have my cholesterol checked again. <BR> <BR> I have a feeling I'm going to need to be on medication for it because last time I checked it was through the roof and that was when I was 30lbs lighter. I may ask the doctor to give me a few months to see if I c... Sat, 26 Feb 2011 15:04:17 EST Dear Food, I love you but... Dear Food, <BR> I need you in my life to survive and that makes you dangerous. My mother told me I should never need a man because I should be strong enough on my own, but I do need you. I can't quit you cold turkey. I can't vanquish you from my house and pretend you don't exist. <BR> <BR> And because I love you so much I have let you walk all over me. I sacrificed my life for you because I was completely devoted to the short term happiness you gave me, but then you left me broken and ... Sat, 12 Feb 2011 13:55:09 EST Get a little umph! I stumbled upon a healthy habits survey, but a lot of it is for people who have already had great success so I am altering it a little here and there to make it more applicable to my situation. Maybe it will give me a little more umph on the culmination of a decidedly mediocre week! <BR> <BR> 1. What did you eat for breakfast? <BR> an egg mcmuffin (maybe I should have done this on a day I could be a little more proud of my food) <BR> <BR> 2. How much water do you drink a day? <BR> 64+oz ... Sat, 5 Feb 2011 21:16:07 EST I confess... I am a binge eater. <BR> <BR> I have struggled with binge eating disorder since I was a child when I would hoard cakes and candy in my room and eat enormous amounts in secret. I have tried a lot of different things to overcome my food issues but I have never announced my disorder to the world and I have never been able to really get it under control. <BR> <BR> It's so hard to admit to it, but being in this community where a lot of people are struggling with similar problems I feel safer.... Sat, 29 Jan 2011 21:38:11 EST The Polish Market & WIR Sundays are a special day around my house. I now have Sundays off work and it's the only day Tony (the husband) doesn't have work right now. This morning I woke up and rolled over to give DH a squeeze and he says "do we have extra grocery money this week?" <BR> <BR> We did and he suggested that we go somewhere different. I live in the Detroit area and in the suburb of Hamtramck is The Polish Market. That's the original one but it's too far from my house so I went to the one in Troy much ... Sun, 23 Jan 2011 19:26:35 EST Bright Yellow Love When I was getting close to rock bottom at the end of last year my husband and I got together and talked for hours and hours about what in our lives is working and what isn't, and what we can do to change that. He said with as much respect as possible that I am not the same person I was when we met. Not that I turned into a biatch or anything, I am just not as happy. <BR> <BR> He is right. <BR> <BR> He said I used to be bursting with life...effervescent and like a big ball of sunshine... Tue, 11 Jan 2011 21:18:03 EST 2011 Commitments I am so pumped about this year. My financial situation is improving, hubby and I have been really getting along great and I actually bought some sexy bras the other day (which to me says my confidence is improved). With that being said, I did pack on an extra 6 lbs this holiday season and that needs to be dealt with. <BR> <BR> Today I feel great. It was a day I worked from 7:45-4:45, then went straight to the grocery store to buy a crap load of good foods then I came home, made a late d... Sun, 2 Jan 2011 22:54:02 EST A Desk Job I have been working on my feet all day every day for most of my life. It's so very difficult to develop and stick to an exercise plan when I work erratic hours on my feet all day. Fortunately, all that is about to change. <BR> <BR> I got a full-time, mostly monday-friday (with an occasional saturday morning) desk job a couple weeks ago. I start January 10th and I truly can't wait. Especially because I'll be making more money and I'll have a much more predictable schedule (with PAID TIM... Sat, 1 Jan 2011 17:24:27 EST Losing Steam I have been stressed out and kinda depressed because my back injury has been hindering exercise. As a result I have been eating. A lot. My most recent vice has been pretzel sticks dipped in Nutella. Not as bad as my past indulgences of loads of orange chicken or a metric ton of chips and queso dip, but when it puts me solidly over 2000 calories consistently it's still "bad." (I use the quotes here because I have been careful to not label specific foods as bad or good because I have a thing... Fri, 5 Nov 2010 21:01:56 EST Becomming a Runing Convert When I was getting started on SP and poking around people's pages I was mystified by the number of people here who run for exercise (and gasp! for fun). My whole life I hated running. I hated it when boys would chase me at recess. I hated warm-ups for soccer and volleyball when we had to run laps. And that, combined with a certain anxiety about running, is probably why I was NEVER very good at it. <BR> <BR> But since many people here are so enthusiastic I set a (admittedly half-hearted... Tue, 19 Oct 2010 18:42:44 EST 8 pounds the old fashioned way Today at work I was talking with a friend of mine who is also trying to lose weight. She said to me "I have lost 8 pounds since Tuesday." I responded with a "wow that's great" but proceeded to pout like a petulant child as soon as she turned her back. <BR> <BR> It's hard to hear the progress of others sometimes, especially when it's SIGNIFICANTLY faster than my own. And at lunch I mentioned my tantrum to another friend. He replied with "She is taking pills to help her lose weight and y... Sun, 26 Sep 2010 00:35:05 EST Getting Started: Reflections on Week 1 Week one was not without its hiccups. There may have been some mac and cheese consumed and I'm afraid I cannot comment on the incident regarding the McDonald's quarter pounder. Even with a couple indiscretions 3.5lbs came off. I have a small medicine ball that weighs 3lbs and before I brush out what would seem like a paltry amount, I picked up that weight and told myself that much weight is no longer on my body. <BR> <BR> I'm a big fan of instant gratification (which may explain part of... 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