ARIESGURL's SparkPeople Blog ARIESGURL's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Fallen off Been eating like crazy. Even when i'm full. I miss the days when i was working out hardcore now with a fam in the hospital been finding it difficult to balance good foods...... Ok im making the choice to eat bad its not THAT difficult. I will take responsibility for the foods i picked and how much i ate. Wow feels good to say. Well at least i was able to run 3 miles before thenother events took place. It felt great listening to my music and being lost for 50 mins csnt wait to start again when... Wed, 6 Mar 2013 20:26:01 EST This literally scared me <img src=""> so an old coworker sent me and my bff an old pic of us. Im right in the front with the glasses and it shook me to the core. I cannot believe how big i use to be. Im so grateful to be where i am today i know i have a lot more to do though but seeing this pic just makes me want to work that much harder to get to my ugw. If i feel the need to overest, i need to see this pic first as a reminder that this is not where i want to b... Tue, 15 Jan 2013 16:41:07 EST Worst gym experience I respect everyone at the gym but today omg!!! This guy walks away from a machine to socialize i did not know whether or not he was coming back and i waited a few mins just to make sure. He left a towel but it looks like the towels they give us at the gym anyway i put the towel in the hamper and the guy gets an attitude with me and preaches to me about gym manners i go to the gym to workout not socialize i dont hog machines im not using and if anyone wants to use a machine im willing to shar... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 14:50:59 EST No need to stop now!!!! <img src=""> wow im at a lost for words. I havent really thought about taking pics until i saw some big results but this morning i was excited i didnt even realize how far i've come. So this morning i was preparing for an interview and i went for my professional pants. The pants are a size 16 and when i put them on i notice how big the pants are thank god i found a belt but the pants are just too big to wear i am so happy to see that my c... Fri, 4 Jan 2013 13:12:48 EST Reflection So since I'm off from school I will try to get in some extra exercise classes. I did pretty good this week I have a bikini partner and she is encouraging me to attend classes and if i feel the need to have bad food i can just text her and talk to her. I did have a bad food day waaaaaay too many sweets I'm usually good at turning down food but I just went crazy with the sweets and cheese. This week's weigh in will be bad but I'll take responsibility and I don't need tomwait till new year's to ... Fri, 28 Dec 2012 22:48:56 EST Nike Training Session So I made some changes to make Nike Training more upbeat. I purchased a jump rope to jump in between breaks. I had a lot of fun I have to say. When listening to Pursuit of Happiness and Midnight City I was in my own world. I closed my eyes and just kept jumping it was pretty amazing. I even managed to burn 897 calories in 45 mins. I couldn't be more prouder. Now still focusing on the foods abs are made in the kitchen but overall satisfied about my workout gonna find a different workout next t... Fri, 7 Dec 2012 16:17:21 EST 6 months In 6 months I will NOT look like all those girls with shorts and a bikini top on. I will, however, look like myself, but a healthier version. My body type is different than those girls. My curves wont be the same, any indents in my stomach won't look the same. Nothing will look the same except for the smile on my face. In 6 months I will be a better, healthier me. Sat, 24 Nov 2012 13:02:01 EST Planning Well Thanksgiving is right around the corner and it made me think a lot, I really don't want to over eat. So I'm thinking of what I want to eat. I had an interesting conversation with one of the instructors at the gym, and she said the best thing for me to do is to do smaller portions and it's true however I think I'm just gonna add a lot more vegetables. The truth is, my only weakness is mac and cheese. I think I can manage to not over eat I don't really eat a lot of the thanksgiving food my... Sun, 11 Nov 2012 22:45:48 EST It's hard getting back in the swing of things so this morning had an amazing effort with my food. but when i hung around my friends, it went downhill. so for lunch i was like ok let's get a salad from panera. I eat the salad it's delicious as usual and then when my friend was like "let's eat" I turn around and order fried rice and teriyaki chicken bowl after an hour of eating. and then when I came home had a 1 1/2 cup of mac and cheese. I realized it's a lot harder getting back on track but I'll just try again tomorrow. working out has g... Tue, 6 Nov 2012 20:57:39 EST This Holiday So after kickboxing class ( which was really hard to get through thanks to Chinese food, cheese fries, and taco bell) the teacher invited us to a holiday challenge where whoever lost the most weight will earn a monetary prize. I'm entering it just to be more accountable because this past week really scared my to death and with Thanksgiving coming up I don't want to fall off completely. So this is good the only thing I'll hate doing is that I have to weigh in every week and I absolutely hate t... Sat, 3 Nov 2012 14:28:46 EST Phat week over!!!! Well after a week of Chinese food, cheese fries, and taco bell I have not only notice that my stomach is returning but how I feel when walking up the stairs or even exercising. It's interesting to see the effect food actually has on my body and I have to say that eating all this food has been nothing but negative I reminded me of how I use to feel before I went on my weight loss journey. It's hard but just got to continue to keep going because I can not bear to feel like this ever again Fri, 2 Nov 2012 22:27:08 EST Month of October Well here it is the end of the month!!!! Not gonna lie this month has been challenging. For the most part I have been sticking to my workout schedule but there were some issues that did get in my way and unfortunately I did use eating as a way out. At least today I did because right now I am so full I can barely move. When I was fighting with my family I do have to say for the most part I did not use eating as a comfort food and I'm really proud that I did not use that as a solution to my pro... Tue, 30 Oct 2012 00:37:49 EST bit frustrated but still motivated So I went on the scale I can't even tell you why and I found out that I I gained about 2.5 pounds. now I know I've lost inches but I still feel a bit stressed. I would like to see my number go down. I feel like the weight has gone down in a very slow pace so I really do think it's my eating period. I have been faithful about going to the gym something I'm very proud of so it really has to be my eating. So I'm gonna try to give myself a challenge to take of pic of all the food I eat this week ... Mon, 15 Oct 2012 14:05:07 EST Goals to the New Year <img src="">So I had a trainer take my body fat percentage and it was determined that i am losing the pounds but i am not gaining the muscles i need to tone up. When I first started this journey my main focus was cardio now i have to incorporate strength training which for my schedule has been easy to maintain. But looking at these numbers I see that they are considered to be unhealthy. So this morning I decided to make a mini goal by New... Mon, 8 Oct 2012 18:24:19 EST Healthy Support So today when I got to school, I contacted someone who was in my class. She's trying to lose weight for her wedding so it was good to have someone there who knows what you're going through. Anyway, I contacted her because I was really hungry and to be honest the choices we have at school are horrific there is nothing there that is really healthy to eat actually there are no healthy choices at all. Well there is Subway but I'm not a big fan. So we found a place that serves chicken and veggies ... Thu, 27 Sep 2012 23:38:45 EST Eating and Exercising So I had an interesting experience at Taco Bell. It did not make me sick or anything it just made me feel like bleh. I guess my body doesn't respond well to fast food anymore. Maybe the next time I should just eat a smaller portion of it and just drink water. Anyway I'm attempting a no cheat week again hopefully I can make it. I've already prepared some snacks for this week so I won't go crazy and I've learned about the different places that provide fruit at my school so I won't have to use c... Mon, 24 Sep 2012 16:10:50 EST vision So I didn't eat very well yesterday and today so right now I decided that every time I find myself on a binge I should make a blog entry. After I make this entry I should just envision myself about 9 months from now. Right now I see myself in Las Vegas by the pool in a bikini instead of a tankini or even a cover up. I envision myself wearing a pretty dress instead of leggings and a long top in 100 degree weather. I also envision myself with my friends at the beach. Instead of wearing the usua... Sun, 23 Sep 2012 16:04:38 EST Fear <img src=""> When I saw this pic on Tumblr I started to wonder what was I so afraid of when taking this weight loss journey. I guess what I fear the most is the unknown. I don't know what's gonna happen in the future and I've been so use to the way I looked back then that it just scares me. I've envision being at a healthy weight for so long fear has been this big block in my way. It was just so easy to give up and tell myself that it ca... Thu, 20 Sep 2012 20:50:15 EST This Week Well during this past week I've started to receive comments about my weight loss. Honestly this is the first time people started to notice. First one came from a cycling instructor his question was " have you lost 100 pounds?" the second and this was hilarious came from a fourth grader who I was tutoring last year. Her comment was " You got skinny" I was really surprised hearing it from her for some reason probably shocked by her the most. And of course one from my mom she has been supportive... Wed, 19 Sep 2012 19:16:31 EST Trips to the coffee shop Well after making a third trip to the coffee shop to study I realized what I've been doing wrong EATING AND DRINKING WHATEVER I WANTED. This week alone I've had their pasta every time I went plus their carrot cake and their ice chai lattees. When I got home I realized I've slipped into an old habit that I need to change fast. School has just barely started so I know the coffeshop is going to be my hangout spot pretty much every week. So I decided to plan ahead. Since I know my next visit isn'... Fri, 14 Sep 2012 04:07:33 EST Fitness test <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> So I went into for a fitness assesment and although we really didn't get into a lot of exercising it was powerful in the sense of she was really encouraging. I made her cry a little bit when I told her of some situations where people made some hurtful comments and after that she really just helped me prepare for what I needed to do in order to meet my goal weight. She also was very understanding that I couldn... Thu, 13 Sep 2012 20:26:16 EST HRM first day <img src=""> ok so I tried my HRM for the first time and I have to admit I was a bit confused but in the end seems pretty easy. unfortunately my high intensity interval training class was cancelled and i really was not in the mood to do any of the machines i seem to enjoy them less and less so i concentrated on my NIKE TRAINING APP instead and in the end I got good results over 500 calories in 45 mins. I'm just really happy I have some so... Sun, 9 Sep 2012 14:25:21 EST advice from my favorite show Felicity THANKS NETFLIX It's short and sweet but still reflects the reason why I fall off the wagon: Advice <BR> Don’t throw away an opportunity to become a more interesting (healthy!!!) person out of fear. When I gave up it never felt like fear but deep down inside I guess I did have concerns taking on such a lifestyle change but it's true I want to become a more interesting and healthy person Tue, 4 Sep 2012 10:53:25 EST Reality Check So during my time at the gym this morning I I randomly called on a personal trainer to see if he was wearing an HRM unfortunately he wasn't but he directed me to the HRM on the elliptical I was on so I decided to finally ask the dreaded question "Is it accurate?" well I finally got my answer " UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH" So all those calories that you think you're burning on the machine it may or may not be accurate. I'm so happy I ordered a HRM I just hope that it works (since I bought it used from a... Mon, 27 Aug 2012 13:09:31 EST High Intensity Interval Training HIIT!!! So I went to a new class called HIIT and it's a bit of a challenge. I needed to start adding strength training into my lifestyle and may I say this was above and beyond insane to me. The class started out with a good 15-20 people. Before we even got into the real workouts people were just giving up and leaving left and right. During our quick break one girl says out loud " after today I'm not coming back" it made me wonder wow do people really just not want to try something new. I mean before... Wed, 15 Aug 2012 23:34:13 EST Apology to myself I took some bad news I received today and punished my stomach. So I just wanted to say I'm sorry. My body is a temple not a garbage disposal. I promise to practice what to do when I receive bad news or just feel bad about anything and not resort to going to the kitchen for pizza and ice cream. And if I do decide to treat myself it's important that I take it in moderation. True I had plans to visit the gym later but I have to start looking for other alternative like walking or Wii sports when ... Mon, 13 Aug 2012 21:08:59 EST Me vs. Me I keep telling myself just skip the high intensity class and workout later more relaxed and then I envision myself next summer the same way I am now and that makes me get up and get dressed ready to go. I rather have someone telling me what to do than going by myself and not challenging myself as much wow my thoughts really have changed now I need to be open to more foods and avocado recipes. Ok I just finished my high intensity workouts and omg I thought I could do it no problem but it was r... Sun, 12 Aug 2012 20:25:45 EST On a positive note!!!! Ok so nooooooo joke panera bread is so amazing to me I love panera bread and whenever I got it I would finish everything all the time. So after kickboxing I went to panera and ordered my usual caesar salad bowl and broccoli soup I only ate less than half of serving size. I put some of the salad into a smaller bowl just to see how I would feel eating smaller portions and I was so full after and I'm really proud. it's a scary comparison seeing how much panera serves you and how much I use to ea... Tue, 7 Aug 2012 00:44:39 EST comparisons bad bad bad Idk why but I was looking through my before pics in a bikini and comparing them to right now and I feel a little discouraged, I don't know if I'm doing something wrong it seems like I'm not making that much progress at all. Ok maybe I shouldn't have looked at a before pic of another person I'm following but compared to her before pic and how she looks currently I felt a little discouraged. She looked like she changed drastically. I mean if she continues to do whatever she does she could very ... Mon, 6 Aug 2012 16:56:51 EST Why?? So I got to thinking why am I doing this?? I'm just gonna be honest. I Just want to be a happier person. I think being able to fit into the cute clothes at the store and let go of the paranoia of people thinking I'm way too overweight and I'm tired of meeting guys that won't associate themselves with people they consider fat ( yes there are guys even some that are pretty heavy that have said they won't get with girls if they think they're fat). This has been a constant struggle all my life an... Sat, 28 Jul 2012 22:39:07 EST New development I DID IT FINALLY!!!!! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Finally!!!!! after a year I've finally got out of the 180s!!!! there are no words to describe this feeling i have right now. I mean it's been hard trying to get rid of these last 6 pounds I mean it's been brutal I was trying anything but I wasn't trying hard enough I guess..... well that's goal #1 DONE!!! now on to goal #2 the 160s. I really hope I don't have a hard time like I did in the 180s I mean I will n... Wed, 25 Jul 2012 16:08:08 EST challenge So I couldn't really get what my friend said out of my head I mean I am really concerned that I'm not working out to my full potential and that is why I haven't been losing as much weight as I hoped. My eating I have to admit to off days but only once or twice a week which I think is really good because I've never focused so much on what I should eat before I just went with whatever I was in the mood for and never paid attention to the amounts!!!! So instead of a 4 min interval I increased it... Fri, 20 Jul 2012 19:37:16 EST Getting lost Woooooooooow so I actually went to the gym twice today. 6am this morning to do 40 mins of running and then back this evening for some strength training. before the gym I had and interesting conversation with my sometime gym buddy she said that she was surprised I haven't lost a lot more weight since I've been putting in extra time. that had me thinking. Have I been doing something wrong??? Am I going too easy on myself??? I just barely started to go a full hour on the cardio machine. I do int... Thu, 19 Jul 2012 01:45:16 EST Operation fit into!!!! So I went to H&M about a year ago and bought these cute pair of shorts. I thought I could fit and I bought them before trying them on. When I tried them on at home I could barely lift them over my thighs Now that I'm battling this plateau ( I'm calling it WW180s) I feel determined to fit into these shorts. I feel that if I can fit into these shorts I can do anything. I've already increased my cardio time to a full hour and it seems to be going well so far now I want to fit into some clothes ... Sat, 7 Jul 2012 19:58:31 EST Something new!! So i changed my workouts just a tiny bit. When going on the treadmill, instead of setting my usual limit of 15-20 mins on the treadmill I just left it on the 60 mins and decided to run as much as I want to. now I didn't run straight I put it on 4 min running interval and 2 min walking interval. I was amazed to find just how long I made it. I actually went about 40-45 mins twice this week totaling in at about 6 almost 7 miles. I'm still using the machine to calculate my calories but honestly I... Fri, 22 Jun 2012 23:58:37 EST Mistakes Mistakes Mistakes So I had a good run before Coachella. I was watching what I eat, exercising like crazy, and recording every single detail. Well that was before Coachella. Well let me start off by saying I did not eat a lot there surprise surprise. The new clothes I did buy were actually a tad bit longer which made me feel good. But then I returned home. I figured I'd give myself a little break which was only suppose to last a week so I can catch up. well the week turned to 3 maybe even 4. I started slacking ... Fri, 11 May 2012 14:35:42 EST Coachella coming up!!! I'm so excited to go to Coachella!! It's really a once in a lifetime opportunity to see all of my favorite bands. I was proud of myself for actually researching what type of food they planned on serving there. Water is definitely going to be a must because it's always hot. The plan for me is to look for the grilled food and mostly have vegetables. They have some food for vegetarians and vegans so I might check that out as well. I'm proud of developing a habit to plan my foods. I haven't weigh... Tue, 3 Apr 2012 23:45:43 EST even more adjustments unfortunately i am not losing weight at the pace that i want. it's the same struggle i've had the last time trying to get past the 180s. so now i have to tweak my nutrition even more. i thought i was getting the appropriate amount of calories but now i need to try to have even more veggies. water for me is not a problem good thing now i just need to focus more on what i'm putting in my mouth. i don't want to deprive myself of anything. i just need to have smaller amounts theres always room fo... Sun, 25 Mar 2012 11:04:17 EST Change of pace I see that I've been focusing a lot on my nike training club. and even though i enjoy earning rewards I need to tweak my program and focus more on the cardio. so i'm gonna try to jog a 15 min cardio tomorrow and see how I feel after. will continue to update Wed, 21 Mar 2012 00:32:07 EST First Steps So to prepare for my trip I went shopping today. I did go in with the hope that somehow I had dropped a few sizes (big hope). Well I have to say I was a little disappointed ok I was very disappointed. The clothes made today they really do run small. All I know is that I don't want to have another summer just wearing leggings. I only felt bad for 2 seconds. All I know is that I have to keep schedule. and I've decided that whenever I eat out I'm going to actually consider vegetarian food from t... Mon, 19 Mar 2012 00:37:45 EST Just a thought I was thinking about the efforts I'm making and although it has been less than a month, I have to admit I'm a little frustrated. The ab work is incredibly hard. I look in the mirror and I feel that it sucks that I put myself in this position. I made a new year's resolution to lose at least 30 by April and I really really didn't take myself seriously. Ok enough self-loathing for not meeting my goal. I can only stick to my schedule and continue to make decisions about the food I eat. Tonight I ... Fri, 16 Mar 2012 17:44:33 EST My year of stress I started off the New Year not so great my relationships weren't going in the direction that I wanted, I couldn't find a job, and just felt completely alone. On a scale of 1-10, I'd say my stress level was at a 7. So I decided to take a break and just take some time to myself and I have to say it was a good decision to do. I'm putting myself first for a change. Fri, 16 Mar 2012 11:56:34 EST