ARIELLA_'s SparkPeople Blog ARIELLA_'s Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community INSANITY - Day 19 to 23 This is a belated update, as I got surprisingly busy this weekend! <BR> <BR> DAY 19: <BR> I don't remember what this was (probably Pure Cardio + Cardio Abs), but I did it before my parents came home from New Orleans. :) <BR> <BR> DAY 20: <BR> I missed this workout (Plyometric Cardio)...the first one thus far! I went hiking with a friend, then dinner and a movie with two other friends that evening. But I ate relatively well, and the socializing was VERY much needed! <BR> <BR> DAY 21: <BR> M... Wed, 24 Jul 2013 16:57:32 EST "You're incredibly beautiful..." This morning, I woke up to a message from a college friend. It was in regards to my Headed Healthy blog, which he stumbled upon yesterday. <BR> <BR> He was shocked to hear about my struggles with food and body image during the school year, and had no idea how deeply it all affected me. <BR> <BR> He mentioned how much he likes me as a person, and how he did from the moment we first met. He wished he could have helped me more. Then he spoke to the fact that he knew about the mild crush I ent... Tue, 23 Jul 2013 10:58:05 EST INSANITY - Day 18 Day 18 was Cardio Recovery, and that went well enough. <BR> <BR> My little brother and I went out to Jimmy John's afterwards and had a nice dinner. But when we got about over-eating, ughhh. Lots of ice cream (again) throughout the evening. <BR> <BR> I even took the time to catch up on Hip Hop Abs...and STILL had that sugary nonsense after. <BR> <BR> I wasn't hungry, and I didn't need it. Unfortunately, I have this all-or-nothing mentality (that I'm trying to break!). When I h... Fri, 19 Jul 2013 08:56:15 EST INSANITY - Day 16 & 17 (Fighting Doubt!) I'd like to reiterate: this is the longest I've stuck with the INSANITY workouts, and I'm way proud of myself for that! <BR> <BR> But it is a STRUGGLE to fight off all the doubt I feel. <BR> <BR> There was a clear improvement on my Fit Test, and I'm able to push harder and longer in the workouts. I can make it through the warm-ups without stopping as often, and the same goes for the other circuits. <BR> <BR> But it's almost three weeks into the program, and I haven't SEEN any changes in we... Thu, 18 Jul 2013 16:24:19 EST INSANITY - Day 14 & 15 + Fit Test #2 Results! Yesterday was a rest day, but I had time to go bike and read for half an hour to stay active. It was a slow day, but a restful one! :) <BR> <BR> Today it was back to work. A little bit of a lighter day, since it was the Fit Test...and the results are in! <BR> <BR> Fit Test #2, 7-15-2013: <BR> <BR> SWITCH KICKS = 96 (+10) <BR> POWER JACKS = 41 (+5) <BR> POWER KNEES = 85 (+6) <BR> POWER JUMPS = 34 (+9 woo!) <BR> GLOBE JUMPS = 9 (+0) <BR> SUICIDE JUMPS = 19 (+2) <BR> PUSH-UP JACKS = 11 real, ... Mon, 15 Jul 2013 20:28:40 EST INSANITY - Day 12 & 13 + More Thoughts After tomorrow's rest's official: Week 2 of Insanity is OVER. <BR> <BR> It might seem like a short amount of time, but this is the best I've done so far when it comes to sticking to the workout regimen. I'm really proud about that! <BR> <BR> Now my eating habits these past few days...I'm not proud about that. Actually, I'm super disappointed in myself. I feel really icky and upset - why do I keep compulsively eating? <BR> <BR> I understand that I am still recovering from my eating... Sat, 13 Jul 2013 21:03:56 EST INSANITY - Day 11 + Thoughts Easier video yesterday - Cardio Recovery. I did better on the plank work than usual, so yay! <BR> <BR> I also went biking at the YMCA to burn some calories in a less intense way than Insanity. ;) I think I'll do Zumba tonight...and if not, then Hip Hop Abs and/or some other dance. <BR> <BR> I had a nutritional lapse, yesterday. I didn't bring a lunch for the intern outing, and the lunch they provided was chicken friend steak, mashed potatoes, corn, bread roll, and two cookies. Absolutely no... Fri, 12 Jul 2013 10:42:41 EST INSANITY - Day 10 Woop, quick update! <BR> <BR> Plyo Cardio Circuit = workout today. I took my sweet time getting ready for it, but had good results while doing it. <BR> <BR> Big thing to note was how well the warm up went. Barely took any breaks, and when I was a few steps in place, and then right back to it. <BR> <BR> Still trying hard not to get down on myself. It's time to enjoy the success on the scale today, as well as my success in general with the program so far. Technically 1/6 of the way... Thu, 11 Jul 2013 00:45:10 EST INSANITY - Day 9 + Change on the Scale! Hi guys! I'm confusing myself by posting the day after I do my Insanity workouts...but here's a recap from yesterday. <BR> <BR> After finishing "Pure Cardio" last night, I felt sad. That's strange, because it is my favorite Insanity workout thus far, and I did a good job. <BR> <BR> But I've been feeling down in the dumps a lot lately, probably due to loneliness. I work full-time as a corporate intern, which is awesome for my resume and for networking, but not so great for my social life. S... Wed, 10 Jul 2013 10:15:16 EST INSANITY - Day 6, 7, & 8 Here's some updates I've been neglecting! On the bright side, I'm chugging along on schedule with Insanity. I'm hopeful about sticking to it this time around. <BR> <BR> DAY 6: <BR> The workout was the Plyometric Cardio Circuit - probably tied with Cardio Power & Resistance for my least favorite of the workouts so far. In other words, I didn't want to do it. For some reason or another, I was feeling so down. I DID do the workout, but in the final circuit...I hit a metaphorical wall and starte... Tue, 9 Jul 2013 16:17:22 EST INSANITY - Day 4 & 5 I didn't post about Days 4 & 5 of Insanity, mostly due to family time, lots of driving, and feeling tired. <BR> <BR> That being said, I did complete both workouts! Cardio Recovery and then Pure Cardio were the scheduled ones, and they went well. I feel like I'm pushing myself harder than the other times I tried it, and it feels good. <BR> <BR> In addition to Insanity, I went walking with my mom, my aunt, and my older cousin on the 4th of July. It was nice to get in some exercise before all... Sat, 6 Jul 2013 11:14:51 EST INSANITY - Day 3 Another day, another workout down. Today was the Cardio Power & Resistance round. All the workouts are, well...insane - but this one gets me the most! Oh boy. <BR> <BR> I was going to go to Zumba after, but I got wrapped up in watching Game of Thrones instead. I kind of regret it, now that I saw tomorrow's workout is Cardio Recovery - still important, but I'll burn a lot fewer calories. <BR> <BR> Today was pretty good, all-in-all. Last night, I was feeling exceptionally awesome. I looked i... Thu, 4 Jul 2013 00:15:15 EST INSANITY - Day 2 Woo. Just finished Day 2 of Insanity!! :) It was good, though I do feel like I should do some more cardio somehow. Too bad my parents are already at the YMCA without me...guess I'll have to wait until tomorrow! <BR> <BR> Anyhow, now that I'm home I thought I'd post my Fit Test numbers from yesterday. <BR> <BR> Fit Test #1, 7-1-2013: <BR> <BR> SWITCH KICKS: 86 (previously 76) <BR> POWER JACKS: 36 (prev. 31) <BR> POWER KNEES: 79 (prev. 76) <BR> POWER JUMPS: 25 (prev. 18) <BR> GLOBE JUMPS: 9 ... Tue, 2 Jul 2013 19:44:53 EST INSANITY - Day 1 Hi all! <BR> <BR> This summer, I started and stopped the Insanity program twice. Usually, I'd get into Week 2, miss a workout, feel like I threw the whole schedule off, and end up quitting. <BR> <BR> That's not to say I haven't done other things. I began tracking caloric intake again, exercising (Body Combat, Zumba, cycling, and walking in particular), and really attempting to heal my relationship with food. <BR> <BR> But I want to complete Insanity. I like the workouts. They remind me o... Tue, 2 Jul 2013 17:15:00 EST Recipe + Fight for Progress Hi guys! I've been working full-time, for the first time in my life - so please excuse my inconsistent posting. Two new blog posts are up on my site, though! <BR> <BR> <link><BR>26/i-loave-bread-flaxseed-muffin-recipe/ </link> <BR> <BR> <link><BR>28/fight-for-progress/ </link> <BR> <BR> The first post is about a quick flaxseed muffin recipe I found here! I tried it the other morning, and it's good. Tweaking it ... Sat, 29 Jun 2013 13:51:01 EST Don't Accept Defeat New blog is up, please take a look if you have time! <BR> <BR> <link><BR>24/dont-accept-defeat/ </link> <BR> <BR> I've been thinking a lot about "body acceptance" versus "body defeat". As in, loving who you are and wanting to be healthy, versus disliking yourself and essentially being content to live an unhealthy lifestyle. <BR> <BR> Just some thoughts! :) <BR> <BR> In other news, I had a weight check-in on Saturday morning. Down about 2 pounds, and ... Mon, 24 Jun 2013 22:31:33 EST Greetings, Sparkers! Hello everyone - long time no talk! <BR> <BR> I apologize. I fell off the food-&-exercising-tracking for entirely too long. In the past few months, I also had finals, moved out of my dorm, and landed a full-time summer internship in my hometown. I've been plenty busy, but that's alright. <BR> <BR> I'm here today to share something very special with you new blog: <link> </link> <BR> <BR> There isn't much there yet, besides my personal story. My s... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 11:58:44 EST A Week of Bingeing Guys...oh man. This entire week was awful, and it culminated in my worst day yet. <BR> <BR> SO MANY CARBS. SO MUCH FOOD. AND I'M NOT EVEN HUNGRY. <BR> <BR> This upcoming week is going to be hugely stressful, and as if in preparation...I ate my little heart out. Good gracious, just thinking about it all makes me sick. <BR> <BR> In addition, it was also that lovely time of the month for females - who knows how that affected me? <BR> <BR> Regardless, I know I did some major damage to mysel... Sat, 16 Feb 2013 23:51:00 EST PROJECT FF: Week 5 Project Freshman 15 hit a bit of a snag this week. I don't know WHAT is going on, but boy did I just go wild. My official weight yesterday was 121.4 lbs - .2 less than the week before, but essentially no change. <BR> <BR> Don't get me wrong - I'm glad I didn't exactly gain back the weight I lost. But I am frustrated that I had so many binge days. That binge-and-purge cycle is awful, and I don't want to get back into that. <BR> <BR> This week didn't start out on a good note in terms of eatin... Mon, 11 Feb 2013 17:38:51 EST A Slight Hiccup Oh...the struggle is back. And I was doing so well! <BR> <BR> It's the stress. I know it is. I'm hiding it well, but it's coming out in my eating habits. <BR> <BR> I'm doing plenty of exercise, which is why I don't think these "mistakes" are going to hurt me - but I'm getting so close to my weight and fitness goal! <BR> <BR> Come on, Ariel! Push through!! Wed, 6 Feb 2013 22:22:49 EST PROJECT FF: Week 4 Down about a pound this week, more or less. "Official" weigh-in on Sunday was 121.6. <BR> <BR> I've been doing a good job of going to the gym nearly every day, but I'm feeling the familiar struggles with sweets again. All I ate on Sunday was essentially desserts, and now I'm starting to be more lax with my sugar cravings again. <BR> <BR> "Oh, just a taste of this won't hurt..." but when it's just a taste of a lot of different things, THAT is where a problem starts. <BR> <BR> I think I'm g... Tue, 5 Feb 2013 19:14:30 EST PROJECT FF: Week 3 Little late on the update, but I weighed in on Sunday...and I'm looking at 122.8 lbs on the scale. Not too shabby! <BR> <BR> Things are starting to pick up in class, I just started working last week, and plus...I've met a boy. :o :o So now, even though I'm busy, I really want to make sure I keep this weight loss (and subsequent health benefits) going! <BR> <BR> I DID give in today at dinner and had a yummy piece of cheesecake, strawberries, and some walnuts. However, my actual dinner wasn't... Tue, 29 Jan 2013 19:24:04 EST PROJECT FF: Week 2 Week 2 was a official weigh-in on Sunday was 123.8 pounds, which is great! I'm getting back to where I was towards the beginning of last semester. <BR> <BR> I DID have a hiccup Sunday night. I consumed A LOT more calories than I had in awhile. On the bright side, I did manage to cut back the next day, and yesterday I worked out for the first time in a few days (when I went home for the weekend, I barely did anything!). <BR> <BR> Anyhow, I may have messed up my weight due to tha... Wed, 23 Jan 2013 17:33:29 EST PROJECT FF: Week 1 Project Freshman Fifteen is off to a great start. I'm not certain (I used a different scale than usual, just to get a rough estimate), but I think I lost 2 pounds this week! Wow. <BR> <BR> It was a week of mostly cardio. I went to the gym Monday - Saturday and burned around 500 calories a day, give or take. I coupled this with lower calorie intake (i.e. actually measuring out my portions and not mindlessly snacking). <BR> <BR> But what's the best part? The fact that I can and DID resist de... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 00:48:39 EST PROJECT: Freshman 15 So last semester...all in all, I gained the Freshman 15. <BR> <BR> This semester, I've resolved to lose it! :) <BR> <BR> I've started off on a great note, and I plan to continue. This week is my time to try out different classes at our recreation center as well as look into creating my own routine. I want my muscles back, but I know it will be difficult since I don't have tennis anymore. ): <BR> <BR> Sunday and Monday were fantastic in terms of controlling my eating...and yesterday night,... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 11:36:05 EST 1 Week Back Home ...and it appears I lost about 1 pound. I did stumble this weekend, but even these slip-ups don't compare to the damage I did while at school. <BR> <BR> Still trying to hold myself accountable and really watch what I'm eating - and why. Trying to make sure I eat only when I'm hungry, and not because I'm sad or bored. <BR> <BR> I'm playing tennis after school with my old high school team and visiting a local YMCA with my parents. I went running yesterday for the first time in awhile (oh boy,... Tue, 18 Dec 2012 15:28:58 EST Semester 1 - Over and Done! Hi all! <BR> <BR> I am officially done with my first semester of college! I took my last final (Econ) yesterday morning...and then I was free!! :) <BR> <BR> On the bright side, I have a month of winter break to spend at home with my family and friends. The stress of school is minimal (though I will do some light studying). AND I finally have time to relax. <BR> <BR> On the down side, I must now own up to the weight gain of the semester. I'm so disappointed, especially because I actually ga... Sun, 9 Dec 2012 21:40:29 EST Week 1 Evaluation - Day 7/14 I made it through my first "week of focus"...and it did not go as I hoped. ): <BR> <BR> Definitely, definitely lost my focus. <BR> <BR> I see more clearly than ever that my eating behaviors are a consequence of emotional stress. Sure, having food around me all the time doesn't help. But before classes started, food was everywhere...but I resisted the mindless eating because I was so focused on fighting the dreaded weight gain. <BR> <BR> Then I got homesick, school got hard, I lost more s... Sun, 2 Dec 2012 03:03:03 EST Days 5 & 6/14 I feel myself getting off track, and it's terrible! Today was the worst...SO many desserts, it's kind of ridiculous. <BR> <BR> Whaaat am I dooooing? <BR> <BR> Even more depressing is the fact that for the next 4 days or so, things are going to be bad. Tomorrow I'm getting fro-yo with my New Student Representative group, Sunday is the Masters'/RAs' study break, Monday is the Associates study break, Tuesday is a volunteer fair study seems like there are going to be more study bre... Sat, 1 Dec 2012 01:55:45 EST "Free time" In the Dorm I should be studying...but I'd rather say hello! :) Thu, 29 Nov 2012 21:41:36 EST Day 4/14 Better day in terms of tracking what I ate and getting a good workout in! I felt really great after a 50 minute or so gym session. <BR> <BR> I did indulge in dessert again at frustrating! I technically had enough room, because I had cut back on calories throughout the day, but I know the carb count was high. ): <BR> <BR> Again, it doesn't do me any good to feel guilty, and excuses won't help. I'm aware of my struggles, and I know ways to combat them. I just have to want it bad e... Thu, 29 Nov 2012 02:09:34 EST Day 3/14 I wasn't planning on it...but it seems like today is going down as one of my 2 essentially "freebie" days. <BR> <BR> I did well up until dinner, and then I had apple pie and ice cream and kind of crumbled from there. On the whole, I really didn't eat too many bad things...but that dessert, plus some apple cider, a cookie, and a candy cane granola bar (the latter 3 all eaten after 10 PM at my residential college's council meeting) definitely set me over the edge in terms of both carbs and ca... Wed, 28 Nov 2012 00:33:26 EST Day 2/14 Today was the first full day back at the dorms. Kind of rough...I was so tired after having such a nice break! Not to mention temptations galore. <BR> <BR> I'm happy to say I did a pretty good job resisting. I did have ice cream with my RAs, but I resisted my typical bowl(s) of granola, morning bagel, and the likes. <BR> <BR> I did a decent job budgeting my calories, and I worked out twice. In the morning, I did 35 minutes of cardio on the elliptical, and in the afternoon I did some light ... Tue, 27 Nov 2012 00:28:18 EST "You look good!" - 2 Weeks of Focus (Day 1/14) I ran into a former Academic Decathlon coach today in this huge rest station, of all places. She was headed back to San Antonio, and I was on my way to Rice...what a lovely coincidence! It was great seeing her - I got a hug, and she told me that I looked good. She looks fantastic as well, and it seems like she is really enjoying her retirement. Happy times! :) <BR> <BR> Today I came back to Rice University after a much-needed Thanksgiving break. I ate a lot (of course), but I was also more c... Mon, 26 Nov 2012 00:49:21 EST "Happy Thanksgiving to my favorite Owl." Aww. I need to be thankful for the wonderful support system I have. Between my family, friends, former teachers, RAs...I truly am lucky. <BR> <BR> Just a small update tonight as I consider the past few days... <BR> <BR> I went to the gym yesterday, for the first time in nearly a week. I burned 1000+ calories (double workout), but it was our "College Day" and I ended up consuming much more than that. Hopefully it balanced out. <BR> <BR> Today was sort of the same scenario. I went to the gym... Sat, 17 Nov 2012 23:51:23 EST Okay, Go Ahhhh, here we go again. <BR> <BR> I've been way gloomy this week. So stressed, and really without much reason. I had a Spanish project due earlier, an Econ test in about 20 minutes, a Spanish test tomorrow, and a presentation tomorrow evening. <BR> <BR> Sure, it's crunch time - but not enough to merit the blatant disrespect I continue to show myself. I have not worked out since Saturday, and I continue to eat so many carbs that it's kind of ridiculous. <BR> <BR> I don't want to cut mysel... Wed, 14 Nov 2012 19:39:30 EST Behaving Like the Business Cycle Peaks and troughs, up and downs...goodness! I had a great Saturday morning run. I did 3 miles of interval training and it felt amazing. <BR> <BR> Aaand then today rolled around. Started out fine...and then I had a bagel, and that thing sure did set me off! I did alright during dinner, but then I had way too much sweet potato AND a little piece of pumpkin pie. Then chips, dip, cupcake, animal crackers, etc. in my RA's room while we watched The Walking Dead. <BR> <BR> It all tasted good, but... Mon, 12 Nov 2012 00:37:15 EST 21 Days to Break a Habit? I skyped with my parents the other night, and that is what my mom told me. More about that later. <BR> <BR> First, some observations! Sometimes during mealtimes, I'll watch how thin people eat. There's a variety of behaviors I've noticed, and I want to write them down so I remember. <BR> <BR> - Some people are really health-oriented. There's one girl I see eating salads and lean deli turkey at lunch, and often at dinner. Lots of veggies, too - and she eats pretty slowly. <BR> <BR> - Anothe... Fri, 9 Nov 2012 21:55:55 EST Searching for Happiness Thanks for all your wonderful comments and messages. I've missed the feeling of a community. :) <BR> <BR> 10/30/2012: <BR> - Don't particularly remember what happened on this day. Fairly average, I think? <BR> <BR> 10/31/12: <BR> - Pretty bad on the whole. So...much...sugar... :( :( <BR> <BR> 11/1/2012: <BR> - Negative: Went overboard at dinner...AGAIN. Not as bad as usual, but still more than necessary. It's the same old story. Truly, I have an addiction. <BR> - Positive: I made generally... Thu, 1 Nov 2012 23:11:46 EST "Keep on loving what is true..." "...and the world will come to you." <BR> - Michael Buble, 'Hollywood' <BR> <BR> 10/28/2012 <BR> - Negative: Ate way too many desserts. Ice cream for lunch, cookies in my RA's room... <BR> - Positive: Went to work out and burned a lot of calories at the gym! <BR> <BR> 10/29/2012: <BR> * Goal - Drink water before/during each meal. <BR> - Negative: Again, too many sweets. But this time it was limited to dinner. <BR> - Positive: Accomplished my goal of drinking more water. Also had a more acti... Tue, 30 Oct 2012 01:16:37 EST "You're the best around!" "Nothing's gonna ever keep you down." <BR> <BR> I went back home Thursday night for early voting in San Antonio. <BR> <BR> On the bright side, I had a great time being with my family, visiting old teachers, and catching up with friends. <BR> <BR> But on the not-so-bright side...I devolved into a mess of emotional eating. It's so frustrating and sad! <BR> <BR> It was so tough to get on the bus and return to Rice. I can't see myself at any other university...but man, it is rough. The acade... Sun, 28 Oct 2012 01:50:23 EST "I know every mile, will be worth my while..." One step at a time, right? <BR> <BR> My week is going well so far! I've been having salads for lunch, and I'm resisting the usual sugary desserts at dinner. <BR> <BR> I feel as if I'm starting to regain control of not only my eating habits, but also my life. <BR> <BR> I gave in at lunch today and had a few slices of banana with granola and a spoonful of whipped cream as my "dessert". It was more carbs than I wanted, but definitely a better choice than the tres leches cake I could have ea... Wed, 24 Oct 2012 13:48:46 EST "You have to believe before you can achieve." Today, my body showed me just how badly I've been treating it. My head was pounding, I felt lethargic and sick to my stomach, and was generally an emotional wreck. <BR> <BR> This comes after a week of binge eating, with yesterday being the peak. <BR> <BR> Well, my body has had enough - and so have I. I'm so sorry, my poor body...thank you for the wake up call. <BR> <BR> I'm a good person. I'm an athlete. I'm at a great college. I have a loving family. I have caring friends. I'm intelligent... Sun, 21 Oct 2012 00:25:49 EST "My Little Owl!" [Revival!] Quote comes from my Stats teacher. He signed my yearbook yesterday...and let's just say that he and all of my other teachers are so thrilled that I'll be attending Rice University this fall. :) <BR> <BR> Anyways, hello! Yes, I am still here! I have not blogged in awhile, but I've been attempting to track my food from my phone. I can't lie - I have not been so hot lately. With all the traveling, banquets, graduation parties, and the likes - on top of not playing tennis or working out consist... Wed, 30 May 2012 13:01:36 EST "I really admire you!" [Days 14-16] A girl in my AP Government class stopped me in the hall on Friday to tell me how much she admires the strong, independent, empowered girls she knows - and she considers me one of them. It was such a lovely, unexpected compliment, and I can't even begin to describe how amazing it made me feel. I'm so glad that is the image I perpetuate; I want to be remembered like that. <BR> <BR> Anyways! Time for the daily musings. <BR> <BR> Day 14 - <BR> Started off on a good note, but as the day progres... Mon, 23 Apr 2012 19:14:36 EST [Days 12 & 13] Just a brief update tonight/this morning, as it is past 2 AM as I write this. I think the looming college decision I must make is making me anxious, but I'm trying to take it in stride. My choices are down to Rice University, Southern Methodist University, and Arizona State University. Ohh, I don't want to think anymore! <BR> <BR> That aside...! <BR> <BR> Day 12 - <BR> Generally good day. I had time to take a core class and a body combat class at the YMCA. Both were vastly different than m... Sat, 21 Apr 2012 03:37:02 EST "You know it only gets better..." [Days 6-11] "Life’s already been hard enough <BR> Without you giving up on yourself. <BR> When you’re down at the bottom <BR> You know it only gets better." <BR> - Patrick Stump, "Coast" <BR> <BR> The weekend went something like this: <BR> <BR> Relax, eat, and NOT work out. <BR> <BR> Monday and Tuesday were like this: <BR> <BR> Plane rides, lots o' snacks/meals, college tour, and NOT workout. <BR> <BR> And finally, was more like this: <BR> <BR> School, eat, AND workout. <BR> <BR> ... Wed, 18 Apr 2012 23:50:45 EST "I'll be there someday, if I can be strong." [Day 2-5] "I Can Go The Distance" from Disney's "Hercules". Love that song. <BR> <BR> Things have been better, at least somewhat. I'm trying to get myself back into a groove. Baby steps. <BR> <BR> Day 2 - <BR> It was difficult to stay on task, since I traveled up to SMU for a college visit. They insisted on feeding us multiple times throughout the day. I did alright on the whole, but did have a few splurges on the sweets that I felt guilty about - especially since my flight got me home too late to wo... Thu, 12 Apr 2012 23:28:56 EST "This is the day your life will surely change..." [Day 1] Ariel. Look at what you've done. Within the past week and a half, you threw away months of hard work. And for what reason? <BR> <BR> Because you were sad? Because you were tired? Because you were focusing on everyone and everything EXCEPT yourself? <BR> <BR> Stop it. Right now. <BR> <BR> This is where you're at - where you decided to put yourself because you couldn't control your emotions. Well guess what? <BR> <BR> You're going to chill the heck out, first of all. Then you're going to ... Mon, 9 Apr 2012 00:42:28 EST