ARIANAH73's SparkPeople Blog ARIANAH73's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Liar... <img src=""> <BR> I am a liar. I am a damn good liar, if I may say so myself. I've had a lot of practice, and the more I've done it, the easier it is. I don't necessarily think I lie that much more than most people, but it's enough. <BR> <BR> I lie to get myself out of trouble, to buy myself time when I haven't done something I promised to do, and to make myself appear better or more important than I actually am. And most disturbingly,... Sun, 16 Jan 2011 22:33:27 EST I am an addict... <img src=""> <BR> <BR> There are two kinds of people: those who can moderate themselves and those who can't. After months of success, staying on track, keeping myself from slipping up too badly, I thought I might be in the first category. But the past few weeks have shown me I am smack dab in the second category. <BR> <BR> Christmas, I have discovered, is my arch nemesis. I have avoided excessive refined sugar pretty well over the past... Tue, 4 Jan 2011 12:30:51 EST Glorious Spite <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I love eating. I think most of us feel the same way, or else we wouldn't be here. So losing weight has been an interesting challenge for me. <BR> <BR> I love eating, so doing less of that just makes me pissed off. That's part of the reason I really love exercising. I get to EAT more! Plus Zumba is so fun, there's no real "work" involved in the "workout." <BR> <BR> Three weeks ago, I increased my exercise, going... Mon, 22 Nov 2010 10:03:16 EST I Found Some Old Photos.... I've not been feeling the best about myself for the past few weeks. Over the course of my weight loss, it's never been a proportionate shrinking. Some goes from my arms for a week, then my legs shrink for two weeks, then my chest, my belly, my legs, etc. <BR> <BR> About a month ago, I hit a spot where I was well proportioned, and despite still being overweight, I felt beautiful and proud when I looked in the mirror. .... Then my breasts began to shrink. ... And shrink. ... And shrink. And wh... Fri, 5 Nov 2010 13:46:12 EST Obligation Food... Typically, the fact that I have a gluten intolerance makes it very easy to wriggle my way out of eating "obligation foods," which we eat to be polite. Your friend made cookies? Not a problem! "Oh, those look sooooo delicious, but I can't eat any! Too bad!" <BR> <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> However, this can definitely backfire when someone makes something specially *for you*. For her birthday, my coworkers and I planned to surprise my boss with her favorite things: wine and brownies. Since I do... Wed, 27 Oct 2010 23:03:51 EST Eating Here and Now... <img src=""> <BR> For years, I have been involved in practices that teach mindfulness: martial arts, meditation, massage therapy, acupuncture, qi gong, yoga... And yet, I've had an awfully hard time bringing it into my life, particularly into my eating. <BR> <BR> I am a wolfer. I come from a big family, and if you didn't want someone to steal off of your plate, you'd better eat all your food... and FAST! This era of my life still manife... Sun, 24 Oct 2010 17:02:59 EST I Have a Personal Trainer... Because I Suck at Math... So I finally used the free personal training session that my gym offers with my membership. I liked my trainer immediately, and for some reason, being told what to do made strength training really bearable... almost fun.... <BR> <BR> So when she suggested follow up sessions, I didn't hide my wallet away as I had planned to do, especially when I heard that they offered half hour sessions. And if you buy a series of 10, you get a steep discount! How could I resist? <BR> <BR> The man at the d... Wed, 20 Oct 2010 17:19:35 EST My M&M Punishment... <img src=""> <BR> I can't believe how many M&M's I just ate. I had tried not to let it come to this. When my brain was asking for something sweet, I had some juice with my morning snack. <BR> <BR> Brain: "Not even close. C'mon give me something else." <BR> Me: "You'll have to wait until later. I'm watching my carb intake." <BR> Brain: *pout* <BR> <BR> Later, my brain was still nagging me for something sweet. So I cut up strawberries an... Wed, 15 Sep 2010 15:42:01 EST Dance Like Nobody's Watching... <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Like many people who have been overweight their entire lives, I've never danced. At least not since I was old enough to develop negative body image. At school dances, I milled about in the corner with my friends. I've never been to a club, and I've never really listened to music that could be "danced" to (though I did get very good at headbanging in high school. *tee hee*) <BR> <BR> But I've watched my coworker ta... Sun, 12 Sep 2010 21:30:31 EST My "lie" weight... a success story I couldn't believe it when I stepped on the scale this morning. I've reached (and am actually below) my "lie" weight of 180 pounds. This is the weight I've used since high school whenever anyone asked. I've used it on applications that required the information, on patient questionnaires for doctors (though they weigh you right then, so I'm not sure who I thought I was fooling.) <BR> <BR> It's odd to be at a weight that I automatically and guiltily had blurted out for years when necessary. I... Tue, 31 Aug 2010 08:36:14 EST Done with Moping Around... Apparently, exercising is a huge motivator for me. After almost a week of not being able to get to a zumba class, all of my other good habits fell to the wayside: no motivation to do any other real exercise, not drinking enough water, lapsing back into eating wheat products and a ton of sugar, and having a couple of drinks. Oh, and then there was the fried calamari that I couldn't stop eating. Yeah, it was a bad week. <BR> <BR> And guess where my mood went while I was channel surfing and th... Sun, 15 Aug 2010 13:56:41 EST The Power of Now... I am a procrastinator. I always have been. In high school, if I wasn't up until 3 am the night before a paper was due, something was wrong. <BR> <BR> I procrastinated in getting my weight under control and working toward the life I wanted. It was just never the "right time." Now that I'm doing it, and feel great, I have no idea what I was waiting for. <BR> <BR> I'm trying to bring the power of "now" into my life more. Part of my search for simplicity in my life is doing things as I go so t... Sun, 8 Aug 2010 12:10:25 EST A Letter to My Body... To you, I apologize. <BR> I acknowledge that I have knowingly hurt you. <BR> I have ignored you, neglected you, given you hardly a thought. <BR> I have never given you a kind word; only harsh, abusive language thrown at you day in and day out. <BR> I have denied you the freedom and bliss of movement, locking your limbs in tight, forcing you to sit unmoving before the television. I have kept you locked in stasis. <BR> I have hidden you away, called you ugly, told you how much I hated you. <BR>... Mon, 2 Aug 2010 19:01:36 EST The Dress... My boss was wearing a new dress today. She looked gorgeous in it and I told her so. She then told me about another dress that she had just bought for herself that she decided she didn't like, she offered it to me. (It's definitely my style.) <BR> <BR> Now my boss is probably a size 6. And I have just recently (i.e. within the past 3 months) been *able* to shop in a non-plus-sized store. But for some reason, as she handed me the bag with the dress in it, she was convinced that I would be able... Sat, 31 Jul 2010 20:17:02 EST What do you mean, "sedentary"?!?!?! I'm a little peeved and need to vent. I went to a weight loss coach today because the consultation comes free with my gym membership. I told her that I had been tracking my food intake and fitness on spark people, and said that the site suggested a daily calorie intake for me of between 1800 and 2100. This is because I do a lot of activity. I exercise for at least an hour (and often 2.5 or 3) 6 days a week. <BR> <BR> When I told the coach this, she said, "You're really eating too many calori... Tue, 27 Jul 2010 20:35:12 EST The New Scale... So I've never been into scales. I prefer to put on previously tightly fitting clothes, and watch them hang on me. So I hadn't weighed myself in years, until I was helping my sister set up her Wii Fit, and while she chased her baby around, stepped on the Balance Board to help get things going. Oof! That's a slap in the face. <BR> <BR> Since then, I've been randomly pulling out my mom's dial scale, which she received for a wedding present... 49 years ago... Inaccuracy didn't really matter to m... Sun, 25 Jul 2010 15:54:11 EST The Sprint... I haven't really run in years. And each brush I've had with running has reminded me exactly why I haven't run in years. All that pounding the ground and sucking wind just doesn't do it for me. So, I've avoided running like a champ.... until yesterday. <BR> <BR> The downpour that afternoon made it impossible to see through my windshield while I puttered home through the flooding streets in my tiny car. Once there, I promptly sat in front of my computer, then in front of the tv... and then I s... Sat, 24 Jul 2010 20:22:24 EST The Visitors... Visitors are great! When you have visitors, you know that when you get home at the end of the day, you aren't going to have a boring couch-fest. Visitors mean things to DO, places to GO, and lots and lots of stuff to EAT! And that last one is what gets me in trouble when we have company. <BR> <BR> My nutrition tracker has been pretty mad at me this past week. I'm eating the correct number of calories, but all the nutrients I'm tracking kind of went into the toilet. You mean that the sweet, ... Mon, 19 Jul 2010 12:12:35 EST The Old Pants... My sister is visiting, and made a comment to me about this being the skinniest I’ve ever been. I thought of other times I’ve lost weight. “I’ve definitely been thinner than this,” I said with a dismissive wave of my hand. She disagreed, but we left it at that. <BR> <BR> Last Wednesday, a shelf broke in the particleboard bookshelf in my bedroom, causing my stereo and a pile of books to tumble to the floor. I looked on the mess with apathy, turned around and marched out of the room. The tempe... Sun, 11 Jul 2010 15:18:29 EST Instructor is Sooooo Important.... So after singing the praises of Zumba yesterday, imagine how excited I was when a patient canceled, leaving me time to make a 6:30 class last night at the gym. This was a different teacher, and oh what a difference. I didn't realize each teacher does his/her own choreography for classes, so the style of dance was completely different. Whereas the teacher I had seen previously had more of a Latin dance crossed with belly dance style, this was far more hip hop crossed with pole dancing (not a k... Thu, 8 Jul 2010 21:58:42 EST The Dreaded Gym.... I've always hated the gym. I mean, why would anyone want to be a rat on a treadmill, when you could be *outside* doing the same thing!? They've just always seemed so sterile and disconnected to the actual enjoyment of moving.But, after years of steering clear of gyms, I joined the Fitness Edge today. <BR> <BR> It was in the mid 90's on Monday, and too hot to go for a hike. I didn't want to sit like a lump in front of the TV all day, though, and remembered that you can often get a free trial... Wed, 7 Jul 2010 11:59:31 EST