APATHETIC_WIFE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=APATHETIC%5FWIFE APATHETIC_WIFE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ The Woman In the Attic http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5414203 We've had an influx of fruit flies the last couple of weeks, mainly because I eat so much fruit myself and don't like to keep it in the fridge. Well, I moved the fruit to the fridge somewhat resentfully and hung fly paper in various places around the house. Then, I read that they breed in your pipes and multiply from there, so when a haze of them swarmed me in the bathroom one day, I hung fly paper in there too. Genius. <BR> <BR> When my husband came home in the middle of the night from wor... Mon, 8 Jul 2013 10:37:16 EST Unmotivated http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5407360 I don't know a ton about my own body. I never even thought this could be a problem for me because my parents spent my entire adolescence and young adult years warning me about safe sex and birth control and not getting pregnant before I was ready, and no one EVER thought to talk to me about miscarriages of problems getting pregnant. No one even tried to encourage me to get pregnant, of course, until after my first miscarriage (which only makes things worse in case you're wondering). <BR> <B... Mon, 1 Jul 2013 11:47:00 EST Tick-tock... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5364905 I've got that song stuck in my head... <BR> <BR> "I can see clearly now, the rain is gone, <BR> I can see all obstacles in my way <BR> Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind <BR> It's gonna be a bright, bright, sun-shiny day." <BR> <BR> I started Advocare again after making the choice to start eating right, set some goals and stick to some kind of plan. <BR> <BR> I've really cut down on sweets. Except for the chocolate flavor of my protein shakes, I've been steering clear of chocolate.... Wed, 22 May 2013 18:56:19 EST Progress Report http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5318907 Or lack thereof. : ) <BR> <BR> I had a rough day today, and my week so far hasn't been as successful as I would like. I have the proverbial angel and demon sitting on my shoulders, only for me one is optimism and one is pessimism. My normally optimistic conscience doesn't like this long period of dark pessimism I've been suffering through. <BR> <BR> I used to never let anything get me down. What happened? <BR> <BR> I had a pity party today and went through an entire bag of chocolate cover... Wed, 10 Apr 2013 21:16:58 EST Baby Steps http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5256728 <BR> Ironic, yes, I know. <BR> <BR> I'm writing again because I feel stuck - again. I guess I always feel a little like I am spinning my wheels, because for every positive step I take, I feel that I am backsliding more. I'm doing a few things positive, but I don't truly feel good about them. I'm starting to, but I realized that the reason I can't feel great about my life is because I'm afraid I am going to fail at it - at anything I try. I work out, and hard, but I fail at my meal plan bec... Tue, 19 Feb 2013 21:23:49 EST Fellowship http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5245104 I decided that one thing that contributes to my depression could be my loneliness. I wake up in the morning maybe speak to my husband for a few minutes, and rush to get ready for work. I work all day with people, but they are young adolescent people whose minds I have to help shape and edify. I get a lunch break with co-workers that's maybe 30-ish minutes long, and everyone vents about workplace drama. Then I continue my job until about 3:30 or 4, however fast I can leave, and either rush hom... Sun, 10 Feb 2013 13:00:10 EST Denied http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5224250 I will refine this post later but I want to cover what's on my heart before I go to train this morning. <BR> <BR> I've recommitted myself to fitness and eating right. I am struggling with eating right, because I either eat too much or too little or I will give in to a craving when I walk by something in the store, such as chocolate chip cookies. *I am the Cookie Monster incarnate* <BR> <BR> As far as emotional issues, I'm still not fully dealing with them. I admitted to myself that I have t... Sat, 26 Jan 2013 11:09:04 EST Pandora and the iPhone http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5169618 Spoiler Alert: The following entry will be dark, not pretty, fluffly, or anything else meant to please other people. This is a my Pacific Dumping Ground, and it might be toxic, but it's helping me. <BR> <BR> The first entry actually made me feel better, so I will continue. <BR> <BR> My husband seemed to withdraw a little from me. He would never let me look at his phone, almost as if he were hiding it from me. Trust doesn't come easily for me. I'm not really jealous or suspicious, but I know... Mon, 17 Dec 2012 22:56:14 EST The Blame Game http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5169543 Spoiler Alert: The following entry will be dark, not pretty, fluffly, or anything else meant to please other people. (I've spent far too much of my life pleasing others and putting their needs before my own, which is one reason why I am where I am now.) <BR> <BR> I can't afford therapy, and I'd rather not go the medication route, and since, I pretty much know that I am suffering from depression, this is where I will be exploring all of the factors that led me to this place. <BR> <BR> So if ... Mon, 17 Dec 2012 21:56:05 EST