ANZER15's SparkPeople Blog ANZER15's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community One Step Forward, Two Steps Back A year on SparkPeople has come and gone and what do I have to show for it? Not much. <BR> <BR> I took my measurements and there isn't much change, which doesn't add up to me. I am working out harder than I have since I was playing three sports in high school. I am incorporating more healthy foods into my meal plan, now that I am more educated on the subject. If I am doing these two things, why hasn't there been *any* significant change??? <BR> <BR> I was incredibly down yesterday after taki... Fri, 19 Apr 2013 11:37:03 EST Most Busy Time of the Year It's getting down to the last weeks of school, and along with that comes a new season of sports, school and family obligations. Don't get me wrong, a lot of it is fun, but with it all comes a lot of planning and work. I'm glad that didn't siderail my exercise efforts. <BR> <BR> I pretty much always feel better after a workout, just like today, so I'm not sure why it takes some prodding for me to get moving. *Although* it takes MUCH less time than a year ago, I'm proud to say! <BR> <BR> To... Wed, 17 Apr 2013 11:53:09 EST Heartache I have four kids, three boys and a girl. I had them within five years so even though they are each very much their own person, I don't feel like my husband and I raised them any differently. They were born with much of their personality and habits encoded into their DNA, at least from what I can tell. In fact, how they act is remarkably similar to how they acted in the womb. It's an amazing thing. <BR> <BR> From their yearly doctor appointments it seems as though they are all generally healt... Mon, 15 Apr 2013 10:55:55 EST Finding Inspiration I came across a blog by a woman named Andie Mitchell who is absolutely fascinating. She is an incredible writer who comes off seeming down-to-earth and by baring her soul she makes weight-loss an attainable goal. <BR> <BR> Her blog is called "Stay for Dinner" and google it if you want to be motivated, inspired, and find good recipes. One of my favorite things that she talks about--and proves--is how you don't have to run 4 miles 6 days a week to lose weight and maintain. It so much more real... Wed, 10 Apr 2013 11:18:53 EST The horse is waiting, and I'm getting back on Planning. <BR> <BR> That seems to be the key. When I have my water bottles filled and chilling in the fridge, I drink more water. When I plan out my meals and shop for good ingredients, I eat better. When I know that exercising is a part of my day instead of something that I can be talked out of, I'm more committed to working out. <BR> <BR> I got really down on myself because I was exercising hard, but my measurements weren't showing anything. It's going to take more than a few weeks to ge... Mon, 8 Apr 2013 12:18:09 EST Out of whack Last week the kids were on Spring Break and it continues to amaze me that the slightest change in routine can completely disable my workout routine. I got a lot done around the house, running errands, etc., but I did not stick with my exercising. <BR> <BR> The forecast of warmer weather has me having anxiety attacks of swimsuit season. I really need to commit myself to working out every day and this time I need to keep better track of my meals and portion sizes. <BR> <BR> I can do this. Wed, 3 Apr 2013 12:03:27 EST Struggle Today's workout felt really good. Forty-three minutes went by and I didn't look at the clock wondering how much time was left. I know I'm getting stronger and I am very happy with that, but in the back of my mind I keep asking myself why I don't see more results. This seems to be a theme with me in my posts these days! <BR> <BR> That questioning voice is getting quieter, so maybe soon it'll leave all together and I'll know that I'm getting healthier and more fit and the "real" results that I... Mon, 25 Mar 2013 09:55:04 EST Pat on the back One of my hurdles since making a decision to focus on getting healthy and fit was my weekends. I don't eat as well and pretty much never do workouts, although I often do something to get the blood moving. Today I did my workout without even thinking twice! I'm so happy for myself; I really think that I've gotten to the point where exercising is as much a part of my day as taking a shower or having a meal. <BR> <BR> It probably helps that my husband is gone today! Our weeks are so crazy that ... Sat, 23 Mar 2013 11:17:51 EST Keep the ball rollin' I did not want to workout today. I feel so wiped out and did not get a single good night's sleep this week. My husband has a drastically different style of sleeping than I do and for whatever reason it's really affecting me this week. There must be something else to it because what would be the change this specific week? <BR> <BR> Anyway, I started the workout and with 15 minutes left I was about to throw in the towel but didn't because my daughter was there watching me. She's three so she d... Fri, 22 Mar 2013 10:15:34 EST Rough March The month's not over yet, but I feel like I've had a rough one--as far as trying to get healthy and fit goes. I did hurt my ankle early on, but I took that rest too long and then it was difficult to get back in the swing of things. <BR> <BR> I've also tended to go on binges, something I really need to figure out how to get over. I've been tired and stressed lately, and those are the two biggest culprits for me over-eating. <BR> <BR> And my clothes don't feel any bigger on me, which is wha... Wed, 20 Mar 2013 12:00:24 EST Close call! While working out this morning I landed wrong and twisted my ankle. At the beginning of the video he always says to wear good shoes, have a soft surface, etc., etc. and I just do what is comfortable for me. I get hot easily and feel like I have more control when I workout barefoot. That probably was a bad idea today because I don't think I would have twisted it if I was wearing shoes. <BR> <BR> BUT it is not as bad as I had first thought. My mind went racing back to when I was laid up for ab... Mon, 4 Mar 2013 10:47:00 EST Don't give in to excuses! Today's article by personal trainer Jason Anderson was motivating--not just because he's saying exactly what I deal with on an almost daily basis, but the fact that he is a *personal trainer* and he still has to convince himself to get out of bed and get his workout in. If someone who does this for a living is fighting excuses, then I can cut myself some slack. This isn't easy. The body would prefer to lie on the couch and read a book (well, mine would!). There will always be excuses, but I n... Fri, 1 Mar 2013 09:14:06 EST Babies are the enemy Definitely tongue in cheek title, but man, babies do not want to get on board with my plan to get fit! I watch my 6-month-old niece. My own baby is three-years-old now and it took that long after having my kids to feel like I could make time to take care of myself. <BR> <BR> I don't know what I'm going to do. I keep thinking as she gets older it'll get easier, but right now it seems impossible. She normally takes a long morning nap and that's when I try to get my workout in. She didn't toda... Wed, 27 Feb 2013 11:38:08 EST I peeked! :( Argh... I just needed a boost. I wanted a little glimpse into the progress I've made with the work I've been doing. Bad idea! <BR> <BR> Before my surgery last June I had made some great strides in exercising and eating better. Since the surgery I've been hovering between the same 4-5 lbs. and not getting anywhere. It's incredibly frustrating when I could be doing nothing and still getting the same results. Since I've had my kids I haven't gained any weight, just come down (and I had a lot to come do... Mon, 25 Feb 2013 10:32:02 EST On a Roll + WOW: Thanks so much for all the great responses! My obligations and sick kids got the best of me over the last 10 days and I was feeling like throwing in the towel. Like, I was never going to make any ground in the goal to get healthy and fit. <BR> <BR> I got back on the horse, and have been doing workouts this week, and playing volleyball. I have to keep reminding myself: this is life; I'm not going to be able to focus on my self alone every single day. <BR> <BR> Any progress? Well, yes, I suppose. My pants aren't fitting quite right. ... Fri, 22 Feb 2013 09:01:23 EST Wiped Out For whatever reason this month is extremely busy with the kids' sports, obligations at school, and family functions. I feel like every day I am struggling to keep up with just keeping the kids fed and clean! <BR> <BR> Sleep as always been an issue for me, so it doesn't help when the kids have nightmares or wake up at 4am, ready to start the day. I get them back to sleep but I have yet to learn how to fall back asleep myself. Ridiculous, I know. The problem comes when I have no energy during ... Tue, 12 Feb 2013 10:32:48 EST The Learning Process It's amazing how much I've grown over the past year--and I don't mean size-wise, fortunately. I have such a better understanding of food and exercise. I wish that I had this knowledge since I was younger and I think that I wouldn't be where I am now if I was educated about being healthier. Good thing is, though, that I feel like my husband and I are making a conscious effort to teach our kids. Not brainwashing them with skinny images or some crazy "anti-whatever's popular today" diet. They ar... Thu, 7 Feb 2013 15:47:16 EST Better Perspective I started this post on Monday and between now and then I've had some ups and downs. <BR> <BR> On Monday I was feeling pretty down because every week I make plans to exercise over the weekend and so far that's fallen through each time. After I worked out I was feeling much better about, not being so hard on myself. If this is going to stick, I have to realize that weekend are really busy with the kids and other family obligations, so maybe I can just work harder during the week. <BR> <BR> I... Wed, 6 Feb 2013 13:04:38 EST Throwing Away the Scale (or, at least hiding it away.) <BR> <BR> My mind's idea of success it too tied to what the scale tells me. I am doing so much more work than I've done in the past and the changes will come, I'm sure of it. I just can't keep looking at the scale each week and expect for it to tell me that I'm doing a good job. <BR> <BR> I can feel changes in my legs even if I don't see them yet. I do see some (subtle) changes in my arms and face. There's not a lot of noticeable difference in my middle, but ... Fri, 1 Feb 2013 09:06:56 EST Some days you win... ...and some days you lose. My husband and I had planned on working out after the kids went to bed last night but it didn't happen. His brother stopped by, had dinner, and stayed to hang out after the kids went to bed. It was fairly late when he left--later than we normally start exercising--and I was on the fence, hoping my husband could push me over to the motivated side. It didn't happen. <BR> <BR> This morning I did the workout we were supposed to do last night, and I'll probably do it ag... Wed, 30 Jan 2013 11:33:24 EST The Swimsuit This upcoming June I will be married for ten years. Getting ready for our honeymoon I bought three different swimsuits--something I've never done before because I don't like shopping for a single swimsuit, let alone three! But I did, and we had an incredible trip and I sincerely enjoyed being in the suits, not worried about what I looked like. <BR> <BR> Nine month later I had a baby. And continued to be pregnant for five years! I am slowly recovering from that. I didn't spend anytime taking... Tue, 29 Jan 2013 13:58:53 EST "Hungry for a Change" I really don't mind folding laundry and ironing, but I have a hard time sitting still. My brain is filled with all the things I *should* be doing. What helps is when I have something to watch that forces me to sit still. <BR> <BR> The other night I was watching a documentary on Netflix called "Hungry for a Change." I wasn't sure what it was about or if I'd like it, but I figure that the more stuff I expose myself to that is dealing with healthy living, it can only be good for me in reaching ... Mon, 28 Jan 2013 10:37:21 EST Getting There Last night I really focused on pushing myself with the shoulders and arms exercises. I do ok with my regular hand weights, but wasn't feeling the burn so I wasn't sure if I was doing as much as I could. <BR> <BR> Boy-oh-boy, I felt like I was in conditioning in high school again. I even heard my coach yelling at me to keep pushing. I'm glad I went with the higher weights. I struggled on the last few reps, but at least I know that I'm working toward something. <BR> <BR> The Ab workout is so... Thu, 24 Jan 2013 08:28:59 EST One more thing... Normally when I step on the scale it is first thing in the morning, before I've had anything to eat or even a sip of coffee. I am hopeful that I'll see some magical number that I haven't seen in a long time if I take these precautions. <BR> <BR> Because I'm a glutton for punishment, I checked today, after I had breakfast and drank a pot of coffee. And...I lost five pounds! It's probably been a week and a half since I last checked, and I have been working out really hard and it's probably all... Wed, 23 Jan 2013 10:51:14 EST Digital Frustrations After the kids went to bed last night my husband and I sat down on the couch, me reading stuff on the iPad and he fell asleep on my shoulder! We both had a rough night of sleep and long days. I woke him up after a half hour and asked if he was ready to "bring it." Fortunately, he said yes because if he didn't I was having a hard time getting myself downstairs by myself! This has been the coldest week so far this winter and it's hard to get a body going! <BR> <BR> We did plyometrics last nigh... Wed, 23 Jan 2013 10:31:09 EST I just know it I haven't had an major changes (scale, clothes size, etc.), but I can just feel changes happening. I'm feeling some crazy muscles working that I know that I haven't used before! And even though I don't work out everyday like the program wants me to, I do work out on average five times a week, which with the intensity is definitely way more than I used to. <BR> <BR> It's a nice feeling to go to bed and be really tired, although I was so thirsty last night that I had a big glass of water and e... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 11:02:32 EST Focus I keep thinking about what has changed since the last time I tried this program. The time of day, of course, was a huge obstacle that I couldn't overcome. But my mindset is different--and the fact that the kids are a bit older and self-sufficient definitely helps! <BR> <BR> What occurred to me while I was exercising is I used to agonize over THE HOUR that the dvd took to complete, and just how quickly an hour can fly by while looking through Pinterest or Twitter or anywhere on the internet. ... Fri, 18 Jan 2013 17:38:42 EST Good Days & Bad Days I don't know what happened as the day wore on yesterday. I did not get my workout in last night; in fact, I was in bed by 9pm, something that almost never happens. Apparently I needed it, though, and I'm not going to stress about not completely continuous days of p90x. I honestly don't know how people can. Life gets in the way. I was up two nights straight with my sick daughter and yesterday I was dragging with a terrible cold in my chest and head. <BR> <BR> A good night's sleep worked won... Thu, 17 Jan 2013 11:49:01 EST Feeling Good Last night we had an hour and a half of YogaX. From our memory the last time we attempted P90x Yoga was by far our least favorite. But this wasn't nearly as bad as I remembered. I definitely couldn't do all the moves that they were doing, but I feel like I did more than the last time I attempted it. My core must be stronger, and I can only go up from here. I also like that we ended the day with it. It's such a peaceful, calming way to exercise, and doing it at 5am all I thought abou... Wed, 16 Jan 2013 08:26:52 EST It's Simple I only heard about ten minutes of the interview, but it reinforced what I already know: 1) eat less sugar; 2) eat more fiber; 3) eat real foods that don't need nutrition labels. <BR> <BR> The person being interviewed just wrote a book about weight, and dispelled some myths about weight and health. From the few minutes that I was listening he said that there are plenty of overweight and obese people who pass all the health tests out there. The reason is because they exercise. He also said th... Tue, 15 Jan 2013 13:44:13 EST Back at it So, I am disappointed in the way the weekend went, but it's behind me and there's not a lot I can do about it. <BR> <BR> I have a volleyball game tonight, so I made a point to get the workout in this morning, which mid-morning again seems to be my best time of the day to get it done. It's wasn't super-strenuous because it was weight training and abs, but it felt good to get back on track. <BR> <BR> Two things I need to work on: getting back in the habit of drinking more water, and cut down... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 15:16:10 EST A Misstep + A Question What's worse: 5am or 9pm? I've written before that my ideal time of the day for working out is 10am. However, with an infant and toddler in the house that's not always going to happen. Plus, I really enjoy working out with my husband and I think it's good for us. <BR> <BR> So, that exercise time will be 9pm, or somewhere close to it. Last night, it didn't happen. I was pumping myself up but the baby spent the day in some sort of exhausted-crazy-crying-refusing-to-sleep place that took its t... Fri, 11 Jan 2013 09:48:42 EST Having a partner definitely helps! After a terrible night of sleep and day full of infant and toddler crankiness I was not in the mood and didn't have the energy to do a 60-minute plyometrics routine. I put the kids to bed and was ready to fall asleep myself! Luckily, my partner in crime was there to convince me that we have to keep "pressing play." <BR> <BR> I'm so glad my husband motivated me! I felt great afterward, even though I didn't do all the moves exactly right, or maybe not as long as the people on the video did. I ... Thu, 10 Jan 2013 10:46:35 EST So far, so good :) Monday night I played my first volleyball game of the winter season and it was awesome. It's going to be a good season where every game is a great workout! <BR> <BR> Last night, after the kids went to bed, my husband and I started P90x. I have come to the realization that he is ok if I push him. He wasn't feeling well because of a nagging cold, but I told him that after Monday's volleyball game my head congestion was almost cleared up. I know that he wants to, but his days are long at work, ... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 10:55:04 EST Teamwork! It is January and once again for a clean start. I am not looking at this as a "clean start," a "New Year's resolution." This isn't just about diet or exercise. Before Christmas I began a mission to simplify my life. I want to get down the basics and it is my hope that by doing this, a couple of benefits will be getting healthy and fit. <BR> <BR> My mind has been cluttered for a while now with the worries of modern life: the debt that we have; what our kids do or don't have; what my husband ... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 11:04:48 EST What is wrong with me?! I had an awful night of sleep. I tend to not sleep well when my husband is on these trips. The plan was to ease into the day, exercise, shower, then head out to run errands. In the "easing in" part of my morning I got the notification that my husband was on Skype. Yes! I was able to relax a bit, knowing that he arrived safely. We talked for a while and then he had to go to bed. <BR> <BR> It was after our call that I realized I couldn't muster up the motivation to do my workout. Instead, I de... Wed, 14 Nov 2012 12:17:05 EST Making Changes Thanks again, SP people, for the personal insight and support. Your comments really do mean a lot! <BR> <BR> Today it took two hours to drive my husband to the airport and back, then I was late getting my boys to school. I got to help with my daughter's preschool class today, so needless to say, as far as getting back on track today's been a wash. I have a meeting tonight and then it slows down tomorrow, so I think I'm going to sit down and plan out meals and an exercise schedule to help gui... Tue, 13 Nov 2012 16:06:28 EST Awful Bender :( I'm so frustrated with myself. For a few weeks now that awful voice inside me has been saying, "You know, you're not in such a bad place. You may not be losing weight but you sometimes exercise and you're really not 'that big.'" UGH. Who let that voice out?!? I am not healthy. I am not where I want to be. I have fallen off the wagon and need to make major strides to get back on it. <BR> <BR> My husband leaves the country tomorrow for at least three weeks and I am using that time to focus on ... Mon, 12 Nov 2012 09:29:37 EST Struggling Today :( During my normal workout time today I volunteered to man the polls for our school's levy. When I got home I was freezing and in no mood whatsoever to workout. I'm not so worried about no exercising as I am the fact that it's cold and a warm casserole sounds a heck of a lot better than a cold salad! <BR> <BR> I've also been in a funk of a mood lately. Not sure where that's coming from, but I would like to figure it out and climb out! I hope that this isn't a sign of things to come this winter... Tue, 6 Nov 2012 17:35:54 EST Finding Momentum (+ Day 5.2) I blew up any hope I had last week and went on a crazy bender. Had a good time...but I need to get to the point where I can go to gatherings, enjoy myself, but not go overboard. Goodness. <BR> <BR> Today's workout was tough at the beginning. It had been four days since I last worked out and for me it's really hard to go that long and then get back in the swing of things. But, by the end of the workout I was feeling good, so that's something to hang my hat on, I suppose. <BR> <BR> I need to ... Mon, 5 Nov 2012 09:51:56 EST When Falling, Fall Hard (+ Day 4.2) Why is it that when I fall off the wagon I don't just make a small mistake, I jump in headfirst and then crash to the bottom? Yesterday I didn't have time to exercise, so instead of just having that I also ate terribly. And once I take that first step I feel like I can't back out or stop. <BR> <BR> I'm frustrated with myself. <BR> <BR> I worked out today but feel like it wasn't 100% effort. I may be lagging because of all the nonsense I put into my body yesterday. A new day to right myself,... Wed, 31 Oct 2012 10:52:24 EST Only Minutes Away from 1,000 (+ Day 2.3) I'm only about 70 minutes away from getting to 1,000 fitness minutes this month, with two more days in the month to go. I have a volleyball game tonight so that will add to it, but I really need to find more ways to fit in the minutes! <BR> <BR> It's so silly that I am competitive with myself, but before SP I had no idea how much my efforts were paying off. This is such a great tool to see that I have a goal and that goal is within reach each week, each day. <BR> <BR> I accidently did my w... Mon, 29 Oct 2012 10:41:21 EST No Set Workout As usual with Saturdays, this day was jam-packed with stuff that needed to get done. Our school has a levy up, so the kids and I went door to door to hand out a flyer with information. Lots of hills and steps up to people's houses! I didn't know how to calculate the walk, so I didn't mark it, but it was definitely a good workout! <BR> <BR> We had two games after that and then when we got home we did some yard work--raking leaves and the like--so I got my heart going today even though it wasn... Sat, 27 Oct 2012 20:23:05 EST Fight Through the Gloom (+ Day 2.2) After a gorgeous week today is gray and gloomy outside. I'm assuming that played a role in why my body felt zapped of all its strength during my workout. I tend to be sensitive to what's going on outside the window! <BR> <BR> But I did it, and while I was exercising a thought came to my mind. Soon my sister will be going back to work after her maternity leave and I will have a newborn at my house three days a week. Seeing as I've gotten into a rhythm where I workout during the week at certai... Fri, 26 Oct 2012 11:18:22 EST Strategies (+ Day 1.2) Today starts a new session of the 30 Day workout. I bought Dr. Scholl's athletic inserts yesterday because I tweaked my toe at Monday's game and yesterday I feel like I didn't put 100% into the workout because of it. Last night I had a volleyball game and during it the inserts felt great. I was pretty sore afterward, but I'm not sure if that's because I had already done the workout and walked earlier in the day. <BR> <BR> I've always done this video in my bare feet, so it will take some gett... Thu, 25 Oct 2012 09:50:39 EST Day 30: A Recapitulation This definitely wasn't 30 days in a row as the program is supposed to done, but I believe that I got a lot out of it even though there were days (and, a time or two, a week) that went by without the workout being done. <BR> <BR> The scale didn't go down as much as I would have liked, but as I learned in the book I'm reading, exercise alone is not going to make me lose weight. This next round I need to get better at keeping track of what I eat. Why is that so hard? I think a lot has to do wit... Wed, 24 Oct 2012 09:23:55 EST In a Funk Today I've been feeling so down. I woke up with a pain in my foot (I had foot surgery in June), one that I had hoped would go away overnight. While playing volleyball last night I tweaked my toe and am hoping that a day off today from doing any sort of exercise will help it feel better. <BR> <BR> I started out all right with eating today, but I took a long time while running errands and by the time I got home I was starving and grabbed something from the fridge rather than making a good choi... Tue, 23 Oct 2012 13:44:16 EST A Process (+ Days 28 + 29) I'm not sure why I'm feeling so down on myself today. After a long weekend of wedding extravaganza I do feel a bit bloated and definitely tired, so I should be feeling great. <BR> <BR> Friday began the wedding fun with manicures and pedicures with family and friends, then lunch at a new restaurant. Even though I very easily could have skipped my workout because of the day's schedule being full, I squeezed it in before we left for the salon. Definitely a different mindset than six months ago!... Mon, 22 Oct 2012 11:20:55 EST Getting there! (+ Day 27) Today is my 6 month Sparkiversary. I'm feeling really good. I don't make great decisions 100%, but through this process I've come to realize that I'm ok with that. I am such a different person that I was before I started with SparkPeople. I could have completely given up after I had surgery on my feet but I came back and I'm making progress little by little. <BR> <BR> The walk last night with the youngins in the double stroller went well. I usually get in four loops around the park before p... Thu, 18 Oct 2012 10:07:21 EST Learning (+ Day 26) This book has been so interesting and I believe it will be invaluable in helping me continue on this path. Something I read yesterday was that research has proven that exercise alone cannot help you lose a significant amount of weight; however, exercise alone *can* help you maintain (although, you may not want to do that for a number of reasons). <BR> <BR> I really need to get better at my portions, and making good decisions when not at home. I'm cooking more, using healthier recipes, and tr... Wed, 17 Oct 2012 09:52:38 EST