ANNIEONLI's SparkPeople Blog ANNIEONLI's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community NYC/Sparkpeople I'm exhausted....but if I don't do this right now, it might not get done once tomorrow gets started! <BR> <BR> Well I went into the city on my own to tool around and be touristy...had a few things on my bucket list to do by myself, so I figured...why not!?! Walk around! <BR> <BR> First stop: Times Square!! Gratuitous tourist ball shot for ya! See the 2015 up there? <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Next stop: Empire ... Wed, 7 Oct 2015 20:44:45 EST Representing Sparkpeople in NYC! Ok...this is some HUGE news I'm going to share here. <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Most of the time, I tend to shy away from announcing anything major going on, but this involves all of YOU to some degree in some way, shape, or form! <BR> <BR> I have to thank Nu (NUMD97) for really bringing this about....she saw that Spark was looking for a mom in the NYC area to represent a success story and she thought and nominated me to them!! <em>304</em> Nu!!! <BR> <BR> Well a few weeks a... Mon, 5 Oct 2015 19:18:44 EST Post blog events....... Ever do a blog venting something....and after the vent is done, somehow, magically, things take a turn towards a different light. <BR> <BR> This happens to me all the time. I just vented about busy things going on here and hugs, and whallah, things smoothed out just in time...busy, but more pleasant than I thought it was going to be....and I actually got tons of hugs this weekend!!!!!! <BR> <BR> Maybe it was being around different sets of people and getting to know each them that was the ... Sun, 4 Oct 2015 19:55:27 EST Rain and Hugs Rain is a good least from where I stand right now....which isn't in any basement flooding or a rising river outside my door thanks to the passing storm. For those of you dealing with have my deepest sympathy. Being a Long Islander, we've seen a lot of that and it's really not all. <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> But for me, last night, the rain cancelled football practice and for that, I am grateful!! The coach (the hubster and volunteer to every organization o... Sat, 3 Oct 2015 07:39:41 EST 5 years on maintenance... thanks Sparkpeople <em>334</em> <BR> It's a neat thing to have to be reminded by the At Goal & Maintaining + Transition to Maintenance team that today was the day I officially entered into Maintenance. I think it happened last year as well! <BR> <BR> You'd think that after all the work of getting to this point, I'd have it tattooed somewhere on my body! <em>246</em> <BR> <BR> But it's a quiet thing that sneaks up on me every year. I remember my first goal date very well, because it coincides with my... Tue, 22 Sep 2015 19:19:55 EST What...a...week School began and it's like the whole place BLEW UP!!!! <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> Papers are everywhere...clutter is everywhere...cups are everywhere...people are scattered everywhere! <BR> <BR> Hello..where are you going? Hello....I am are there...see you later <em>213</em> <BR> <BR> Tuesdays alone has track, religion, karate, and football - all within a 3 hour period. <BR> Fridays has track, karate, football, and scouts - all within a 3 hour period. <BR> <BR> I call them... Fri, 18 Sep 2015 21:18:45 EST 4 weeks and coffee-free It's true!! It's been 4 weeks and I have no real desire to start up again. <BR> <BR> The lovely after effects of coffee <em>40</em> for, you know, regularity <em>243</em> LOL Are really not body can take care of that aaaaalll by itself. And the headache that usually accompanies the withdrawal really wasn't that horrible - only lasted 4 days. <BR> <BR> So what's the reason to go back to it? It makes my gut do flip flops - do I really miss that? no...not really. Is i... Tue, 8 Sep 2015 20:59:32 EST Dear brain, please turn off Dear brain, <BR> <BR> I know you've had a change in chemistry as of late, with me giving up coffee last month, but really...this is getting silly. <BR> <BR> I also know that there's a lot of this swirling around in there...good exciting new stuff that needs to be thought out...but really, can't you work on that in the daylight hours? <BR> <BR> Maaaaaybe, just maybe. if I write about it, you'll leave me alone and let me get those 2 extra hours I so really want because going to bed at 9pm an... Thu, 3 Sep 2015 04:13:14 EST Our influence over others, so why not start today? I'm in a few groups, both on here and on FB....and I have even done this myself over the god-knows-how-many years of weightloss efforts: I'm going to start on _________________. <BR> <BR> I'm going to start on Monday. <BR> <BR> I'm going to start on Sept. 1 (ummmm, that's a Tuesday this year) <BR> <BR> I'm going to start right after Labor day - you know, live it up for the last hurrah. <BR> <BR> Sound familiar? <BR> <BR> It is to me. It's like postponing a gyno exam...proctology exam...... Sun, 30 Aug 2015 09:21:06 EST Old friends Like any small town America, my town is just like it - where people buy their parent's house, where friends become extended family - the only thing about my town is that it's right smack dab in the middle of Long Island! and yes, we are surrounded closely by other towns, but we are kinda different in a few ways... <BR> <BR> We don't have a main street - in fact, we are a cut though to get from one major roadway to another. We're close to an airport, that's busy, but not TOO busy. We are su... Thu, 27 Aug 2015 21:06:17 EST Camping & restricted eating (FUN!) WOOHOO! We just got back from camping today - 4 days of family togetherness in a local state park here on the Island. Except for the one crappy day, it was great! LoL <BR> <BR> So the crappy day was the first full day - I was not feeling my perky 110% self. More like the feeling about 80% I've got abdominal issues self, once again. From my last blog, I've been on an elimination diet of sorts....and it's working fine, until I ate funky on Wednesday, which, no joke, consisted of an egg in the morn... Sun, 23 Aug 2015 21:40:52 EST A week and an ER visit later.... So in my status on Tuesday...I said I was resting after a long weekend and post-Dirty Girl run....and that was the truth. <BR> <BR> What I DIDN'T tell y'all was that I didn't sleep at all from Sunday into Monday morning because of abdominal pain that started in the afternoon...and by 5am Monday, I called in sick, woke the hubby, and went to the ER. <em>282</em> <BR> <BR> The pain is not something that is foreign to 2007, when I was, oh, 185 pounds, I had a common bile duct block... Sun, 16 Aug 2015 09:17:52 EST Dirty Girl Mud 5K 2015 I am going to subtitle this "A stroll thru Citi Field" <BR> <BR> Well, it's done!! And we had a lot of fun!! Not so much running, but a whole lot of laughs along the way, with ten obstacles that made you muddy no matter how hard you tried not to get muddy!! LoL <BR> <BR> Were fears conquered? You betcha! Me and another are not that keen on heights believe it or not...The big net wall had me stopping and saying I wanted to go back about a quarter of the way up, but team work persevered!!... Sun, 9 Aug 2015 06:51:22 EST Dear self.... Hello self! I have to write this to you because maybe you will remember it if you ever go back and read it: You work out better on your own terms....and when you put yourself first for the greater good of all. <BR> <BR> You've tried the class thing ---- it was fun while it lasted. The Murphy's law of "you just paid and now you got sick and didn't go and wasted all your money" thing is over and done with...move on. <BR> <BR> You've tried the "prep for the event" thing...and it's pressure..... Wed, 8 Jul 2015 21:09:53 EST Mental yup...I'm doing a blog from my app because I need a reality check. My head is at 187 pounds while my body is at 137 (give or take)'s been like this for a while, so much so that it's enough to note it now. My question to the universe is WTF?!?!! You'd think, after all these years the MX brain would be more dominant. I guess not! When we feel like we have fallen off track...the heavy side sneaks out of its hiding spot and sets up camp...kinda like a squatter, until the police come by a... Wed, 10 Jun 2015 12:49:55 EST Self-sabotage UUUUGGHHHH!!!! <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> We have all been there..and done that, now haven't we. <BR> <BR> For like, the gazillionth time too, it seems. <BR> <BR> I'm a big one for analyzing behaviors, especially my own...and I have totally been doing just that. I've been self sabotaging myself left and right....for months. <BR> <BR> Why?? control over things is the first things that come to mind (work related nonsense - that I now can totally brush aside...blessing in disgu... Tue, 26 May 2015 20:12:11 EST The Blue Dress <img src=""> This dress is my maintenance was a victory in 2011 to get into a size 8 bridesmaid dress (you all know how small those things run!) so I made it my Mx gauge dress. The goal: on May 7th each year...try it on and make sure it fits. I'm happy to say, even with being about 5 to 8-10 pounds heavier (averaging 137 right now) still fits! But it's not all "yay me!"...there is room to improv... Thu, 21 May 2015 19:30:11 EST The Boston 5K...a little late <img src=""> Very late and only one pic because I haven't uploaded them yet! Time has a way of getting away with me lately....just how it is right now. was really a great experience. I finally got to me Jenni (AKA OAKBORN on here) and it's like we've met before for some reason!!! Ok...ok....being on Spark and following one another on here and then on FB was probably why, but it sure was neat to meet and do a run together!... Thu, 14 May 2015 19:08:34 EST Intuition/Update I go with my gut.....pretty much all the time. Sometimes, however, there is a battle between the brain and the gut, and it takes a lot to restrain from reacting and let things play out the way they kharmically should. <BR> <BR> "Opportunity seldom knocks twice" is a phrase I believe. The timing of playing the opportunity card does have some weight when it comes to actually doing things....and that's when my gut usually kicks in. <BR> <BR> Now...while things are playing out....trying not t... Tue, 7 Apr 2015 06:45:38 EST Recovery It's the 22 of March and boy....has it been "FUN!" (Notice how "fun"is in quotation marks.) <BR> <BR> February was waaaay better when it came to exercise - cardio kickboxing was awesome, then a snowstorm hit, and then March came in like a lion and that was that... My evenings became crazy with helping with the evening run arounds for Basketball, Music rehearsals, Football registrations, Scouts, et al...and something had to give....which was me going at night to exercise because I was just d... Sat, 21 Mar 2015 06:50:35 EST Surrender What a very "50 Shades of Gray" title! LMAO!!! <BR> <BR> But it's not where I'm going at all..... um... weeeeellll... ok... well..... ummmm... no... wellll... sort of?... maybe?..... lol Let's just keep moving on, shall we? LoL <BR> <BR> I was running on the treadmill yesterday, the first in about 2 weeks...but I've been doing combat cardio kickboxing at least twice a week, so I was interested as to how the "new-found" muscles were going to work... so I was just going to see if I could ... Sun, 1 Mar 2015 06:36:00 EST Feeling young I feel SO much younger than my age....I work with people my age and for some reason, they seeeeeeem so much older.... and I feel so much more younger and inexperienced 80% of the time. Maybe that is the key - the experience for where I am at right now. But if you think about it.....I actually have a ton of it and am just selling myself short. <BR> <BR> That's what I do all the time: sell myself short. <BR> <BR> I think a lot of people do's a total hang up that we have to get ove... Fri, 20 Feb 2015 06:09:51 EST Intuition & Valentine's Day I am a BIG believer in intuition. It takes time, though...on finding it, trusting it, learning from NOT listening to it (sometimes hard lessons are learned that way), and analyzing the bajeezus out of that inner voice we all have and need to hear. <BR> <BR> Why am I bringing this subject up now? Well, intuitively I know that it's time! <em>246</em> <BR> <BR> Just kidding.....but THAT is funny stuff right there! <em>246</em> <BR> <BR> Actually, I had a week where I had bells going... Sat, 14 Feb 2015 08:00:16 EST 7th Sparkyear <em>507</em> + <em>504</em> <BR> <em>334</em> <em>252</em> <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> Every Sparkiversary I try and take the time to blog....and this year is no different. Well, except that I remembered it was today, um, yesterday..and today I almost completely forgot until I saw my old status! <em>246</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> Seven years ago I was turning fast forward and I am going to be turning 42! and I guess we can say that age is setting in!! LoL <BR> <BR> Wow...... Sat, 7 Feb 2015 09:16:38 EST Home sick...been an "off" week The snow reeeeeeallly has got to go! <BR> <BR> It was good up until.... oooohhhh, Sunday...and now I am done. <BR> <BR> I do a lot of behind the scenes stuff at work to coordinate people, so at this point, I am tired. <BR> <BR> More tired than I thought because I just got the chills and a fever. <BR> <BR> Looks to be a quick acting virus....but still, I thought the initial chill on Monday night was a draft...and totally didn't listen to my yawning at work until it was toooooo Wed, 4 Feb 2015 16:52:07 EST With coffee in hand... It's 6 am here in NY right now....and snow/rain/ick is falling outside this LOVELY morning. <BR> <BR> It's just me and my cuppa coffee in hand in the silence of the house, surfing the web (OK, not the web, really just Spark and Facebook) and observing what other people put out there into the universe. <BR> <BR> My contribution today is this: The recap blog <BR> <BR> <em>38</em> My "What ifs" mindset really has been a nice thing to have's more about thinking twice before doi... Sat, 24 Jan 2015 06:42:24 EST What if.... The phrase "What if...." has bopped around my brain since the beginning of the year, so there must be a reason right? <BR> <BR> For example: What if I got my exercise clothes on after work? <BR> <BR> Yup...perfect example. Because when I thought the thought, and then did the action, the result was "I would exercise" ---almost a forced fulfillment action because let's face it, y'all know by now that I am not a great consistent exerciser! <BR> <BR> The next "what if" that lined up wou... Sun, 18 Jan 2015 06:55:55 EST "You did this to me" <em>40</em> Say WHAT? <BR> <BR> The title came from a conversation I just had with my 12 year old son on Thursday. I was in my room, needing to change out of work clothes and into my workout clothes because dammit, I was going to do SOMEthing that night! LoL....and he followed me in talking the whole time about his day and the kids at school and all things we need to hear as a parent. Good stuff...which is good, but c'mon honey! I have GOT to change! <BR> <BR> In my world, they can s... Sat, 17 Jan 2015 17:15:55 EST An app blog! Look at that! trying this app blog thingy out right now....let's see how it goes! Well...the week has been aok with exercise... Got back into just getting my gear on and doing it! The other night was at 9:00pm. Not the greatest sleep after the great workout, but I got it done! And Holy cow I was so beat the next day until noon! So today was another workout day and I changed it up: the kids joined in too! Basically calisthenics in the living room - never have I ever done 150 jumping jacks!!! LoL and 100 ... Thu, 15 Jan 2015 21:24:57 EST An April date I woke up this morning at 5am....feeling more normal than I have in the past month really....the last 2 weeks I have had a head cold that really was crappy and's finally breaking up. I just thank the gods that I did not have the flu, so the head cold, I would gladly deal with! <BR> <BR> The first person that popped into my head was my Sparkbuddy Jenni (aka OAKBORN) <BR> <BR> We are going to finally meet - face to face - in April of this year! <BR> <BR> We have been spark... Sat, 10 Jan 2015 06:38:22 EST 3rd deleted blog of the night Yup...I deleted 3 so far. <BR> <BR> All were a mish-mosh of thoughts and feelings...none of which are all that wonderful....or inspiring....or awesome in any particular way. <BR> <BR> Mostly, they were kinda bummy....all because of the simple fact that when I came home, no one wanted to hear about my day. <BR> <BR> We had dinner right away...I walked in the door, it was there..ready to eat because hubby had to go drop off and pick up the boys.... so in all that hub-bub, the telling of my d... Thu, 8 Jan 2015 21:28:52 EST Closing out 2014 & Welcome new Sparkers!! Our plans for the Eve have fallen through...last year, I was sick...this year, my sister we cancelled the gathering. <BR> <BR> And that is OK because I had something brewing the last 2 days and as of right seems to be on its way out....I'm thinking it's thanks to all my water, tea with honey, and soup, and relaxing this past week....and to looking forward to going away this weekend. <BR> <BR> Right now...we are all in our pjs at 7:30 - the hubby is planning on going to bed ... Wed, 31 Dec 2014 20:00:03 EST The Aftermath, part 2: The realization Weird that things have calmed down so quickly in relation to the gas and bloating....the distress is almost gone...and I am truly thinking it had more to do with my nerves and crazy stress hormones going off than anything else. <BR> <BR> I even read an interesting part of a book that honed into how the season and the body would normally react, but as humans....we basically kick any hibernation and cozy thoughts to the curb this time of year in order to get stuff done. Yup, I fell into that ... Tue, 30 Dec 2014 19:36:52 EST The Aftermath, Part 1: the Lull The holiday aftermath....we have hit the lull in between the holidays here, where my bloated gas-filled body does not feel my own and I am reaching for the comfy stretchy pants in my closet. It's been a full-on, eat this, get gas, expel gas, eat this get more gas, expel gas kind of a week for me. <em>15</em> <em>2</em> <em>15</em> <em>2</em> <em>15</em> <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> Really attractive. <em>15</em> <BR> <BR> Even my kids are like, "Mom, what the heck is wron... Sun, 28 Dec 2014 16:52:17 EST Holiday kick-off begins!!! With Hanukkah! <em>500</em> <em>499</em> and we are not even Jewish! <BR> Yup...tonight we celebrate Hanukkah with our adopted Jewish grandparents....because 7 years ago, they invited us over and it became a tradition in our family, and as long as they live near us, we will be celebrating with them! It really is nice...all I have to supply is a clean house and they bring the food's actually here in the fridge because it's all pre-made and frozen from one of Bubbie's marath... Sat, 13 Dec 2014 07:19:59 EST Too much of a good thing... Ahhhh....Kashi. <BR> <BR> Depending on the food product chosen from that particular brand, it can be great <em>334</em> or it can be bad <em>39</em> <em>24</em> <em>15</em> <BR> You get my drift. <BR> <BR> I've run into this before, so why am I so surprised!?!? Because this was a new product for me...and I was so excited to have a healthy snack bar for work.... <BR> <BR> So today, I brought my whole sale club's worth of snack bars to work and had one at 10 am. <BR> <BR> ... Mon, 24 Nov 2014 20:21:00 EST The white flag I joke about raising a little white flag of surrender when things get too crazy, busy, chaotic. <BR> <BR> I even do a little motion with my hands and my fingers raise a teeny tiny imaginary rope to raise the teeny tiny white flag up a teeny tiny flag pole. <BR> <BR> Go ahead and admit it - I know if you are reading this you just tried it yourself. <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> But that is what I do and I say to people when they seem as stressed out as me... my girlfriend did it the other da... Sat, 15 Nov 2014 07:31:48 EST Once upon a blog... I wrote one last Saturday....then I deleted it. <BR> <BR> I wrote another the week before that....and then I deleted it. <BR> <BR> I start to wonder why at this point....the whole deleting thing. <BR> <BR> The writing thing has a lot to do with change, unsticking oneself so as to see another angle after the words are out there and on the "page"...but my angle has really changed in the last few months for some reason or another. <BR> <BR> I find myself in that typical 9 to 5 job...with the... Tue, 28 Oct 2014 23:53:13 EST Moving on Yesterday was an emotional day for me....because after a year and a half of closing the office I ran for my father... the office was dismantled for reconfiguration and change. <BR> <BR> And change is good.....but at the same time, when I was cleaning up the things that have basically sat for a year, as if time stood still, I found things that brought back memories from my life 2 years ago...and it made me cry. <BR> <BR> My dad found me in the bathroom crying...and patted me on the back. My... Sun, 19 Oct 2014 07:08:16 EST Sensitivity/New & Good news I am truly amazed at how sensitive I am, depending on how I care for one little comment can send me into a spiral of negative self-talk and self-abuse. <BR> <BR> This week...was a really good week. Life affirming even. <BR> <BR> So why is that one stupid comment from one stupid person can make that all come crashing down? <BR> <BR> Why is it that I have to pick up every single piece off the ground again even after such an awesome week? <BR> <BR> I know I will tel... Sat, 4 Oct 2014 07:27:55 EST My Weight loss brain vs. my Mx brain There are 2 distinct brains that are going on here: the weight loss brain and the Maintenance (Mx) brain (forgive the shorthand, but I use it constantly at work - might as well introduce it here to everyone since writing it out is a pain in the butt sometimes.) <BR> <BR> I am currently trying to get back into my Mx range of 130-135 but something dawned on me that I was in the wrong mindset in trying to get back there - weighing every day and expecting to see that change is a Mx mindset link... Sat, 13 Sep 2014 09:14:47 EST Twitch begone! Would you believe it that the twitch I wrote about a few days back is on its way out? Noticeably changed....almost nonexistent! <BR> <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> So what was the change? <BR> <em>273</em> a vitamin a day - I actually felt in my gut that I was lacking something and that vitamins was it, especially since I have been off with my eating lately. It seems I was right! Immediately notices a change. Coincidence? I think not! <BR> <BR> <em>91</em> hydration - making sure I ... Thu, 28 Aug 2014 21:28:05 EST The twitch The twitch started last Thursday. It's a neck thing, that is the only way I can describe it, and it does catch me off guard at times, but I am pretty sure it is stress related.....and I am monitoring it, so no...I have not gone to a doctor yet.... but don't worry, I will if it continues... but first.... <BR> <BR> First I have to analyze what is going on in my world, because usually, stress gives me a pain in the neck with stiff muscles...and this is in the same area, so that's why I am not... Tue, 26 Aug 2014 19:22:01 EST The small things Just when you think it's safe to go back in the water..... <BR> <BR> Just when you think the good week you are rocking is going to continue as such... <BR> <BR> <em>530</em> You get a "reality" check that makes you doubt and kick yourself down to the curb..... <BR> <BR> but then...... <BR> <BR> Out of the blue, you get a compliment that was unexpected, and you hold onto it for dear life as that one positive thing that can float you along for a little bit because, for some reason, yo... Thu, 7 Aug 2014 05:56:22 EST There is no magic pill Ugh.... diet drinks. <BR> <BR> Hi everyone, my name is ___________, and if you buy my magic diet drink, you too can look like this in 30 days! <BR> <BR> Ugh.... supplements. <BR> <BR> Hi everyone, my name is __________, and this brand supplement drink shake___________ will help you lose adipose tissue. <BR> <BR> Ugh... vitamin pills. <BR> <BR> Hi everyone, my name is ________, and if you take these 4 vitamin pills of these various plant extracts, you too can loose adipose tissue. <BR> ... Thu, 31 Jul 2014 06:22:12 EST Twenty five years & order among chaos Sunday is the 25th Anniversary of my Mom's death. <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> In years past, depending on how life was going, my siblings and I would have a really crappy week right before the anniversary date.... it would fluctuate between all of us who would get the crap end of the stick that year ( like last year, it came and went and I barely noticed) but for some reason, this year is a doozy for me. <BR> <BR> Bad mood. <em>39</em> <BR> Neck ache that won't go away. <em>24</em> <B... Fri, 25 Jul 2014 06:17:26 EST Seven years Seven years is this magic amount of time...."they" say it takes 7 years for all of your cells in your body to change/regenerate and that basically you have a whole new you every 7 years... and "they" it takes 7 years for someone who lost a loved one to move on. <BR> <BR> It makes sense if you actually think about them being tied together in some way. <BR> <BR> Basically, this 2 theories are what I have "believe" and have noticed in my own life, so therefore, I have absolutely no problem pa... Thu, 17 Jul 2014 06:26:53 EST Don't interrupt me when I am hangry <em>4</em> <BR> I WILL bite your head off. <BR> <BR> At 3:30 today...I was getting hungry..tummy grumbled, grabbed a few nuts real quick, drank some water. I had 1 hour to go until I went home to try and figure out what to eat, but the hunger wheels had already started to turn, and I looked up a few takeout menus by 4:00 and pretty much decided on a fresh Mexican place for a homemade burrito (without rice in it - just fresh stuff, so yummy! and I hadn't had it in years...) <BR> <BR> At ... Mon, 7 Jul 2014 19:25:13 EST Happy 5th of July!!! <em>232</em> <em>283</em> <em>195</em> <BR> <BR> The weather was horrific and very I have decided to redo the my own way. <BR> <BR> I have been eating way better the last week and yesterday went off the usual....because it was a holiday....and by the time I hit the 6th helping of chips and dip (white bean dip that I made myself btw) .... I knew the day was going to end up with me having gastrointestinal issues. <BR> <BR> Add a bloody Mary to that ... Sat, 5 Jul 2014 07:19:32 EST Silence is loud sometimes. is day 3 of the most quiet this house has ever been since the family went on vacation without me. (Ewe!!! that sounds so sad and pathetic!!! but it's it in a nutshell, right?) <BR> <BR> I woke up at 4 am moving by 5 am...working out and running on the treadmill by 5:30 and listening to my lecture series for school. <BR> <BR> Yesterday and the day before were rest days since the weekend was so active and fun-filled. And I am serious about that one....the weekend I ... Wed, 2 Jul 2014 19:38:07 EST