ANNIEONLI's SparkPeople Blog ANNIEONLI's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Living with decisions Every single day, we make decisions. <BR> <BR> Some, of course, are easier than others. <BR> <BR> Some need to be weighed with pros and cons. <BR> <BR> Ultimately we live with those decisions - and the repercussions can either be short lived or long term.... but decisions are what we do everyday, nonetheless. <BR> <BR> Not everyone is always going to be happy with the decisions we make all the time, but sometimes, in a pinch, they have to be made, whether you want to make them or Tue, 25 Mar 2014 08:06:08 EST Time flies by... Well holy cow...the last time I blogged was about a rough patch and that was at the beginning of MARCH! 2+ weeks has flown by and with that, the rough patch too, as life always proves, that this too shall pass.....and things are all status quo here in my world: spring sports start today for the kids, projects are needing to be started for the yard and such, tax season is here upon us and that brings a whole other set of fun! Basically as a family, we are booked solid with weekend activities ... Sun, 23 Mar 2014 09:41:41 EST Rough patch and I will not lie....I even read my last blog about "who takes care of you" and it just goes to show that nobody is perfect when it comes to that. <BR> <BR> This week has been a rough one (and it's only Wednesday)... emotionally draining too. Goes to show how much you are affected by outside energy because you actually care about people, even if they really don't give a hoot about you...or even like you. <BR> <BR> <em>24</em> Meh...moving on. It's all part of the game, I guess. <BR> ... Wed, 5 Mar 2014 05:36:35 EST Who takes care of you? Seriously. Who does? Who ultimately does? <BR> <BR> You....that's who. <BR> <BR> Your kids (if you have) - rely on you. <BR> <BR> Your significant other (if you have one) - supports you in that effort (at least that is what they SHOULD do, right?) <BR> <BR> So it really, ultimately, falls onto YOU. <BR> <BR> <em>40</em> <BR> Yeah....deep stuff, huh? <BR> <BR> And that is where we get overwhelmed with... well... everything! Geez, when we think about it that way, let's just crawl b... Sat, 15 Feb 2014 06:23:04 EST 2008 was when it all began... Indeed....2008 was when I cut off my long, curly hair at the salon... it was when I looked in the mirror and said "Enough is enough - you deserve to treat yourself better than this." and that was the day I joined Sparkpeople and have been here ever since. <BR> <BR> My stats are on my page....I won't ever take them off. <BR> 187 start weight - Feb 7, 2008 <BR> 150 - goal weight - achieved 6 months later and maintained for a year. Nov 2008. <BR> 140 - achieved after I got to know the new me ... Fri, 7 Feb 2014 05:54:30 EST Down and Out Well, yesterday, I was greeted with a number I haven't seen in 2 years.... 129 lbs. <BR> <BR> The last time I was there, I was exiting a maintenance overhaul (tracking nutrition & fitness to get back on track) and it was my littlest sister's wedding and I will openly admit it...I was stressed, but actually eating and drinking (wine) a lot, but the number appeared and I even went down to 127..but to maintain that was very short lived. <BR> <BR> I don't consider myself even wanting to be in t... Sat, 1 Feb 2014 20:43:21 EST Early morning musings It is 4a.m. and I am awake.... <BR> <em>527</em> I have a stuffy nose and wanted some decaf tea with honey. <BR> Some rest and I should be good to go for next week. <em>41</em> <BR> <BR> that you know I am honking my schnoz into a tissue while germing up my keyboard, we can move on now. <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> It's been 10 weeks since I started my Health Coaching Course and I can honestly say that I have learned a lot. Honestly, more about myself and oth... Sat, 25 Jan 2014 04:38:27 EST A "Redo" ??? "A lot of times, we forget to nurture other parts of our lives while focusing on another...we can only fit so many things in, and balance is a hard thing to achieve for SO SO Many... but it is key to becoming the healthier person we can be : MIND, BODY, SPIRIT, RELATIONSHIPS. It's letting go of the past, and being in the NOW. It's forgiving the past and ourselves, not necessarily forgetting, but learning from our mistakes to change our future behavior in the present day." <BR> <BR> I just ... Sat, 18 Jan 2014 05:50:04 EST First full work week... was AwEsOme!!!!! <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Sure...I was in meetings all day training....and my brain turned to tapioca by Wedesday...but overall...HaPpInEsS!!! <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> The week went fast most of the time...there were a few lulls here and there because the facility is gearing up for the incoming students (I work at a college now...just in case I didn't mention it before....or ever. LOL) and I am in a time crunch to train a crew under me and know what the procedures are ... Sat, 11 Jan 2014 06:42:21 EST Calmness I was just about to turn my computer off and get another cup of coffee (since it is 6 am and I have been awake since 5 am) when I wanted to mention Calmness. <BR> <BR> I was super duper worried about starting my new job yesterday - for you see, we are in blizzard mode here on LI and I now have to commute 20 minutes, and I have no key for the building I am going in to, and I don't know where I can eat, or if I can get anything quick to eat if I am late, or if I should wear boots to work and b... Fri, 3 Jan 2014 06:52:46 EST Blog reading & writing I love blogs. To write read them. <BR> <BR> It's one of those cathartic things for me - when it actually hits a chord deep within that says "Hey, I get that" or "I felt the same way, and look at that...I am not alone." <BR> <BR> Blogging it out... "venting" as we called it during our high school lunch session... is important. <BR> <BR> Heck. It helped me get where I am right now in terms of my weight loss. <BR> <BR> True stuff. Because if I didn't, well, then I would be still... Fri, 3 Jan 2014 06:02:19 EST Quick observations I need to note - Merry Christmas too!!! Happy Christmas to those in the UK! <em>446</em> I say that a lot for some reason...and I am not even of British descent. <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> Anyway.... the season certainly brought out a ton of changes over here in my house. For example: I decided that cookie baking is totally overrated - especially when all it does is bring me grief. <BR> <BR> How so, you might ask? Well, you carve out time, to carve out sugar cookies, year after year, host a decorating party, have them hang ... Tue, 24 Dec 2013 08:02:54 EST Gut feelings I am taking my health coaching course and one of the lectures was about being aware, being in sync with just life around you, living in the moment right now, and being aware of opportunities that arise even when you least expect it...because you never know what being present and going with your gut can do for you. <BR> <BR> Well, I have had many many many experiences with this and usually, when I go with my gut...things work out just fine. <BR> <BR> Sometimes, though, going with your gut ... Sun, 22 Dec 2013 08:28:05 EST "What do I FEEL like eating?" I stood in front of the fridge this morning, like any other morning, and sounding like my kids, I said, "What do I feel like eating?" <BR> <BR> It's not a stupid question when you think about it. It's a very basic question that goes right to the heart of the matter: what do you FEEL like...and how are you going to FEEL after you eat something. <BR> <BR> It's quite visceral...and brings in the whole food/mood equation that not too many people are aware about. Basically: what you eat will a... Mon, 4 Nov 2013 09:49:15 EST A day off & being committed I actually have an honest to goodness day off from work today. <BR> <BR> And I can honestly say that it is well deserved, despite the fact that I am off due to lack of appointments at the office! LOL The one office I am working at has been at full throttle since mid-September (which is good for the practice)...but so has my life, and today, is a day of rest....of not working late... of reconnecting with a BFF... of baking some pumpkin stuff for Halloween... of pumpkin carving... of this an... Wed, 30 Oct 2013 07:54:50 EST Reflection on last night's over-eating Yes, I overate. <BR> <BR> On occassion it happens. <BR> <BR> It usually happens at a party or a special occassion because of this one little mental nugget that everyone has and I will share: It's a special occassion and the food is special, and it's here, and it's paid for, because of such & such, and I really have to eat it... and as much as you can. You live to eat instead of eat to live. <BR> <BR> True? oh yeah it is true. <BR> <BR> <em>337</em> Weddings. - Gotta get what you pai... Mon, 21 Oct 2013 09:20:16 EST Finding joy So now that I am back here....I will elaborate on a few things that have been going on in my world over the last few months. Yeah, yeah...I retired an office after 20 years of being there, I was on unemployment for about 2 seconds (Ok, months) and I decided to drop it because it was a p.i.t.a. to play the "claim game" to keep it open "just in case" I was unemployed again within the next year...ridiculous nonsence really IMHO...don't even get me going on the stupidity of how they do things th... Fri, 18 Oct 2013 10:57:23 EST Back to school...for me. So this week, I decided that something "has got to give" in regard to my happiness in life. <BR> <BR> Work is work. <em>24</em> It sure is not what it used to be (how could it be?), and even though I know is still frustrating and sad for me. Transition wise, I have settled in...and things are what they are. I have coursed out the year in fact...but not in a way that makes me happy inside. And for me...THAT is a PROBLEM. <BR> <BR> I have these ideas in my head that will not ... Wed, 16 Oct 2013 08:51:02 EST Things sneak up on me. Things like my three year maintenance anniversary! <BR> <BR> And guess what? I weighed myself this morning and I have crept out of my maintenance range by almost 2 pounds!!! Ironic, isn't it. <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> But the thing is...I know why. The scale crept up on me because I have been stress eating with my hubby...who is also on maintenance for about a year and a half now. The life change that has been going on over the last few months is culminating into the perfect storm now th... Fri, 6 Sep 2013 07:27:56 EST The hustler - yup, that's me! Move it or lose it! Hustle hustle hustle!!! Stagnancy breeds icky things...and mosquitos! <BR> <BR> So with all the "life changes" going on...I decided to really put myself out there and basically tell people what I want career wise... and guess what: I got answered AND another part time job on top of it! <BR> <BR> OK - the tally is this: <BR> June - unemployed <BR> July - interviews & hired as a part timer <BR> August - part time and realizing I can do my own business if I tried (job #2 I... Mon, 19 Aug 2013 09:02:43 EST Quick life update: So here it is Sparkfriends : I like doing what I am doing. I really like it. :) <BR> <BR> I am taking my time, being a little obsessed here and there (reminds me a lot of when I started Sparking in the beginning....I was a little obsessed with reading, learning, tracking, etc.) and the best thing: I KNOW now that I CAN DO THINGS for myself...BY meself...and BE GOOD AT IT! <BR> <BR> This is a huge thing coming from someone who (believe it or not) has the confidence of a gnat. <BR> <BR> I ... Fri, 9 Aug 2013 06:53:14 EST Things take time You'd think I would be an expert at this... understanding the whole "things taking time" concept... but like anyone, I am impatient. <BR> <BR> So I get anxiety. <BR> <BR> So I get wrapped up in my head. <BR> <BR> So I get stressed. <BR> <BR> And while I am in that solitary world of self-inflicted hell... life is really not that bad as it seems, and I am missing out on a beautiful life... beautiful moments that are being passed by.... all because of my anxiousness for things to "get back... Wed, 31 Jul 2013 22:55:07 EST My own thang So this week was a big one. Since a new part time job was not enough fun (aka stressful) - on Monday I decided to become a consultant for a certain product. You know..those in-home party ones. And No, I will no be soliciting on here Spark...that is just rude. I don't like it when I see others doing it, so I am not going to unless someone asks directly...and then it's a web-based retail purchase at that because goodness knows, we are all OVER the place on here! LOL <BR> <BR> Yup, I took t... Thu, 18 Jul 2013 07:07:10 EST Snap out of it!!! What can I say....I'm trying! <BR> <BR> This week was hard. <BR> <BR> Sure, I started a new job with great potential, that is good for my family's schedule, etc. etc...but I (me myself and I) am having a hard time adjusting to life as I know it. <BR> <BR> Crying at the drop of a hat <em>46</em> <BR> <BR> Change of appetite <em>39</em> <em>4</em> I really don't feel like eating <BR> <BR> Gettin flustered easily <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> Worrying constantly about money <em>24... Sat, 13 Jul 2013 09:02:48 EST Breaking the barrier Oh silly as it may seem, I was ecstatic to see the "2" on my scale today....even though it was followed by a ".9" right after it. <em>100</em> <BR> <BR> It's crazy to have the scale dictate our moods as it does...and I am not saying that it does all that much anymore, but when you have struggled with weight for a loooooooong long time, psychologically, it really does matter. <BR> <BR> Yeah, yeah, yeah...It shouldn't - but for a lot of us... it does. <BR> <BR> And here we g... Sat, 6 Jul 2013 07:19:39 EST More decisions made... So yesterday, I went for an interview and I got the job in 20 minutes. There are pros and cons...the biggest pro being that the hours are just right for me and my family right now, the office is nice and in a good location, there is room to grow hour wise and basically if I do that for the office, then I will get the raise I want. Ok, so the con is that I took a pay cut hourly and it is part time. But I am thinking that the pros outweigh the cons here, so I decided to take it right on the ... Thu, 4 Jul 2013 12:02:39 EST Glad of decisions made The other day I wrote about basically being "little Miss Antisocial" because of not wanting to sabotage my efforts for my "detox" . . . and you know what?? I am SO glad I did what I did. <BR> <BR> I am back in range, debloated, feeling more in control instead of the social scene being in control of me, and it really does make a difference on one's psyche. <BR> <BR> I shouldn't be surprised at this since I have done it for so long now, but really, it always does in a way. . . and I also get ... Tue, 2 Jul 2013 08:53:56 EST The Detox Everyone does it in some way or another...and no, I am not talking about a "cleanse" in the literal term that is used today. Detox basically meaning that you go back to the basics of healthy living, and if it means cutting back or not having something for a short amount of time because it helps you out doing that...then yes, that is the detox I am talking about. <BR> <BR> Today, I went to a bridal shower and basically had this conversation with the table but not saying the "d" work until m... Sat, 29 Jun 2013 18:52:30 EST Summer can officially begin....NOW! Hellllllooooooo there Sparkfriends! <BR> <BR> It sure has been a while since you all have heard from me. Since my last blog, I have been ubersuperbusy....which is busy X 10 in my world. And I can honestly say, that between job hunting and such, I am kinda GLAD not to have been working this past month because hoooooweee! It would have been a rough one with a new job thrown on top of it! I just looked at the past month's calendar, and it's just a whole mess of writing and scribble for who g... Mon, 24 Jun 2013 07:22:50 EST Busy busy busy When we closed up shop last week, I was a bit concerned about occupying my time. <BR> <BR> BAHAHAHAHAHAAAA!! <BR> <BR> How silly of me! <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> I haven't stopped since! The kids and everything related to the end of the year have kept me plenty much so that the house is STILL a disaster from last week! No joke! <BR> <BR> So on the rainy rainy day, I am cleaning and decluttering...and picking the kids up at 11:30 because they have a half day today for some rea... Fri, 7 Jun 2013 10:15:26 EST Ohhh the possibilities that await me... Good morning!!! How are ya? I'm great here! <BR> <BR> Oh...and great AND I am now officially unemployed! WOOHOO! <BR> <BR> <em>101</em> <BR> <BR> And no, I have not lost my mind, but rather I am choosing not to be a Debbie-Downer... and to think of all of the possibilities that I have to choose from ahead of me! <BR> <BR> A client said to me last week that I looked "conflicted" when he asked what I was going to do now that I am "retired." I thought that was a good word to use. "C... Fri, 31 May 2013 07:11:14 EST The poundage creep When I was gaining weight back in the day, I could tell you how I felt with every 10 pounds I gained. <BR> <BR> By the time I would hit the single digit placement of a "6" (ie, 156, 166, 176, 186) I was already resign to the fact that it was too late, I was a failure at life in general, and I was already in the next section of the 10's why bother. And with that, year, after year, I gained weight. <BR> <BR> That was how I thought.... much to my mental and physical anguis... Sat, 25 May 2013 08:01:08 EST Fear Fear can be debilitating. <BR> <BR> You stand there... thinking. <BR> <BR> You know you should do something... act out... but you can't. <BR> <BR> Instead of moving forward, you take the whole situtation, crumbling it up into a tiny wad, and shove it back into your pocket, where you secretly hope it will be forgotten about, or fall out of your pocket, or even better, it will just get destroyed in the wash. <BR> <BR> But it doesn''s still there in some form, even after the wash. <BR>... Tue, 21 May 2013 11:58:18 EST Found a cute pic <img src=""> Wed, 15 May 2013 11:11:49 EST NSV - Perfect blood work results <em>334</em> <em>334</em> <em>334</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> To say that I am happy and smiling is an understatement. <BR> <BR> I am ELATED to the 15th power!!! <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> I will not lie...the last time I had blood work done I was pregnant with my 3rd (he's almost 7 now) and I was heavy...and even then it was pretty good for my weight...maybe a little on the higher side for cholesterol (I think I remember a 190 or 209 number somewhere)..maybe that was from my p... Fri, 10 May 2013 13:26:58 EST The wine fairy Once upon a time, not so long ago, there was a fair maiden who was tired and low because day in and day out, all those she loved and cared for did not say thank you as much as they should... and the humdrum monotony of life was starting to take its toll. <BR> <BR> Distraught, she turned to the her mystical online friends and typed in her plight...that all she wanted was a hug and a nice glass of wine. <BR> <BR> Little known to her, a friend saw her need and grabbed a bottle of wine out of h... Thu, 9 May 2013 09:56:43 EST Where I go when I am quiet on Spark Not anywhere really. <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> I think a lot...and I "lurk" instead of interact... I read things...but I don't comment. <BR> <BR> I a sponge...and I try to figure people out, like I'm on CSI. <BR> <BR> As in "figuring out", I try to see where people are, how they got there, etc. etc. and their plan of action and how or why things are working or not working for them. <BR> <BR> I also look around all those Sparkfriends in my list. ** sigh** <em>39</em> some... Tue, 7 May 2013 15:05:12 EST Dove Beauty Sketches <link> </link> <BR> <BR> Please watch... Dove hits the nail, right on the head. <BR> <em>247</em> <BR> Annie Tue, 23 Apr 2013 09:03:26 EST Breathing a sigh of relief...literally You'd breathe a sigh of relief if you've been holding in your pee for 2 days too! <BR> <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> Today, the angels sang and brought me an angel on earth in the shape of a man who unglogged the drain in the house....and now, I have a new cesspool company too!!!! <BR> <BR> WOOHOO! <BR> <BR> I got the recommendation from a friend, and when my guy came over and couldn't do any more...I gave the number a shot and THANK GOD! The nice man cleared the clog!!!! <BR> <BR> Ever not ... Mon, 22 Apr 2013 14:53:19 EST What to do when the $hitter$ full <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> No joke. The septic system is completely and utterly full. Main tank AND overflow tank... so last night after dinner, what we THOUGHT was a clogged main line thanks to my youngest's poop wiping mitt...was in fact NOT that at all (and I apologized to him for accusing him of the clog - trust me, I did). <BR> <BR> So now what do we do, besides wait for the truck to come and pump us out....we called last night too, at 6pm, but they were basically done for the night an... Sat, 20 Apr 2013 12:06:44 EST Run, Forrest, Run! Exercise slump broken this week after a month of "I really shoulds" <BR> <BR> Don't know if it's because I have routine blood work that needs to be done on Monday, and I want to have good results - whatever that would be for me as a non-pregnant, non-heavy individual...I really don't know, so maybe it's me "putting my best foot forward". <BR> <BR> But today's run was one of those "Well, I have all the stuff on, but I really don't want to, but really you should, but the kids have a half day,... Fri, 19 Apr 2013 11:09:18 EST Track it. For pete's sake....track your nutrition. <BR> <BR> Be truthful and honest. <BR> <BR> Take the time to do it....the more you do it, the easier it gets. <BR> <BR> It works. <BR> <BR> I wouldn't say it time and time again if it didn't work. <BR> <BR> Whether you are just beginning or on maintenance....track your nutrition.... It will give you insight into yourself more than you realize. <BR> <BR> That knowledge will become your power. Thu, 18 Apr 2013 08:08:27 EST Deleted blogs I am just going to save this now...and continue on it as time goes by in the next hour or two, so don't be surprised if things change while you are actually read this one. <BR> <BR> WHY????? <BR> <BR> Well, because at 4am, when I couldn't sleep - I poured my heart out into a blog and when I hit 'post' was just not there. <BR> <BR> It has happened before to me. Maybe I just take to long to post a blog...because I actually THINK and PROCESS while I write things out. <BR> <BR> ... Sun, 14 Apr 2013 08:55:23 EST Giving some kudos Just received a nice email from a HUMAN BEING about a position in a corporate company about an application I put in. <BR> <BR> So basically I wrote back a little bit, slightly long, but concise email (can that even be? LOL) back answering the questions and giving the weightloss history of me. Yup, Spark was mentioned - how could I not! LOL I hope it doesn't shoot me in the foot though! LOL <BR> <BR> Anyway, It's all about what you bring to the table right? About another path in life. <B... Fri, 12 Apr 2013 15:07:44 EST The 5K Wog and other stuff So last everyone heard from me is that I was training for a 5K...and the treadmill workouts were great (I only did 3 of them) but still, they were great because I ran 2 miles straight without stopping on the darned thing and I went from 26 minutes to 23 minutes in 4 days. Not too shabby for someone who doesn't run all the time and also for someone who really hasn't worked out in months. <em>211</em> Thank you muscle memory. Thank you crazy life for keeping me always on the move so my c... Fri, 5 Apr 2013 09:36:51 EST Practice makes perfect. I have been thinking a lot about long term maintenance lately. I am technically 3 years in, but really, I myself count it as 5. <BR> <BR> Why 5? Well, that is when things "clicked" for me and I changed my attitude and mind set for good...for life. My Sparkpage was titled "Enough is enough" back then...and it was. <BR> <BR> What made that time different than all of the other times before. Maybe it was maturity. Maybe it was coming to terms with past life issues. Maybe it was wanting a health... Wed, 20 Mar 2013 13:17:49 EST An ode to my pot belly You and I have been together, <BR> Since I ever could remember. <BR> You been patted, squished <BR> Criticized, mushed <BR> Been the torment of my youth. <BR> <BR> You have never truly gone away, <BR> And maybe that is why today <BR> I barely tend to think of you <BR> As really something, not that new. <BR> <BR> You have come and gone through pregnancies <BR> Hanging out inside my jeans. <BR> Whether then size 16 or now a 6, <BR> You always seem to get your kicks <BR> By hanging out and st... Sun, 17 Mar 2013 08:29:49 EST NSV - 60 jumping jacks Yup - 60 jumping jacks <BR> <BR> Not that big to some, but for's HUGE!!!! <BR> <BR> Why? <BR> <BR> Well because I didn't wet my pants! That's why! <BR> <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> Just think about it <BR> - 3 kids born au natural <BR> - heavy for lots of my life <BR> - not a big exerciser prior to the last 5 years <BR> <BR> All that adds up to some, um, leakage at some point! <em>100</em> <BR> <BR> I'm not to proud to admit it either... this is a HUGE HUGE thing to actually... Wed, 13 Mar 2013 20:43:43 EST Is Sparkcoach helping? This is a very very very informal poll... I am just curious. <BR> <BR> Please answer the following if you are using Sparkcoach: <BR> <BR> a) I am more motivated now than ever before: Yes or no <BR> <BR> b) Has this made the difference? <BR> <BR> c) Is guilt (ie, I am paying for it so I have to use it) a factor in your success? or does it not matter (like in any other paid online diet plan - WW, eDiets, Jenny C) <BR> <BR> d) If you have used other programs (as I mentioned above) - what ma... Wed, 13 Mar 2013 08:40:35 EST Taking chances Sometimes life is a gamble... I am learning this a little late, especially since I am usually on the safer side of the fence: don't disrupt the order of things, don't run with scissors... you know... that kind of being. <BR> <BR> But sometimes, life throws you are curveball and things NEED to change and you HAVE TO take a chance on something new, and the only thing that is really holding you back, you. <BR> <BR> sad is that to think of! <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> But th... Mon, 11 Mar 2013 12:08:07 EST