ANNALOBDELL's SparkPeople Blog ANNALOBDELL's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community 4 month update So, on 12/11/12 I got my RNY. In the first 3 weeks I lost 20 pounds and I was so excited. Then for the next 2 months I lost like 5 pounds. I was so discouraged. I was even regretting my descision. Today I weighed in at 244. That is a 54 pounds in 4 months. I am still dissapointed by that number but I am slowly coming to terms with the fact that I am going to be a slow loser. In many ways I have been told that this is better because I might not have as much excess skin. I am just so scared tha... Thu, 18 Apr 2013 15:51:58 EST Approved So, today I got the call that I have been waiting 5 days for. My insurance company approved my surgery! I am definately getting it on 12/11/12. OH MY GOD!!!! I am so happy! I was starting to get a little scared because I had completed all my requirements on the 13th of November so I was expecting to hear from them like a week later, before thanksgiving. When I got the call it felt like a huge weight was lifted off my shoulders. Now it is back to preparing like a mad woman. AAAHHHHHHHHHH......... Mon, 3 Dec 2012 22:35:06 EST Second guessing So, today marks 14 days until my RNY and all day I have been bugging out about wether or not I am making the right choice. I am scared of all the changes that I am going to have to make and how all these changes will affect my family and my relationship. While my husband says that he supports me, he has made it abundantly clear that he does not agree with my choice to have this surgery. I am scared to be smaller. I am scared that I will become someone else. I know logically that this is a nat... Tue, 27 Nov 2012 21:20:27 EST So close So, tommorrow I will be 14 days from the surgery that will hopefully help me get my life back on track. I am super nervous. I have not been eating very well this past week. I think that in my head I am eating all the things that I will not be able to eat after surgery. Kind of a final good by to the food that I love but makes me miserable. On the flip side of that, I am so terrifie that I am going to gain weight and have my surgeon refuse to do my surgery. He wanted me under 300 pounds and my... Mon, 26 Nov 2012 21:20:14 EST Nervous As my surgery date approaches, I find myself getting more and more nervous. I really don't know why. I have had several surgeries. 2 c-sections and my gall bladder removed. I guess I am just nervous because I am unsure of the amount of pain I will be in. I am nervous because it is so close to christmas and we always end up with some last minute shopping to do. Will I feel up to shopping? Can I trust my hubby to do everything that I would normally do if I wasn't recovering from surgery? It is ... Wed, 14 Nov 2012 22:34:31 EST I am back Part 2 So, as promised, I am back to update everyone on what has been happening for the past nearly two years that I have been absent. I have struggled mightily with my weight loss. Losing 20 pounds, gaining 30, losing 30 gaining 25 that in June of 2012 I decided that I was going to pursue gastric bypass. There were lots of other factors, the main one being that in June I was diagnosed with severe obstructive sleep apnea and I now have to sleep with a CPAP machine. So, for the past 6 months I have b... Tue, 13 Nov 2012 20:14:41 EST I AM BACK Sooooooo..... It has been a minute or two since I have been on sparkpeople and alot has changed. I am doing really good with my weightloss. I am at 298. I am just dropping in to write a quick note to say that I am back and that I will be bloging everyday. After my doctors appointment I will write more, but I am pressed for time. Missed everyone. Tue, 13 Nov 2012 08:10:33 EST Frustrated I am so frustrated, I feel like I am getting no support from my husband. This week the scale has been fluctuating so much. Today I am at 332. It is frustrating. I have been doing Leslie Sansone's walking boot camp twice a day since I bought it 2 days ago. I am doing 2 15 minute miles a day. I am struggling to stay motivated, but this is so hard. I get nothing from my husband but a blank stare when ever I mention an issue I may be having. I am excited though, last night was a no snack sleep ni... Fri, 21 Jan 2011 08:00:39 EST Walk bootcamp Wooo!!! For my brthday I purchased Leslie Sansone's Walk weight loss bootcamp. I did a 15 minute mile. It nearly killed me and I couldn't always keep up, but i did the whole 15 minutes. I also bought a watch that monitors heart rate and calories burned and it says that i burned 234 calories in that 15 minutes. I am so happy. I think I will do the walk again right before bed. It has 2 other settings. Walk 2 miles in 15 and walk 3 in 15. I am going to stick with the 1 mile for awhile. I am out ... Wed, 19 Jan 2011 11:32:27 EST Better yesterday So this morning I am at 332. I lost a pound from the 3 i gained. I am ok with that. <BR> <BR> Tommorrow is my Birthday. I will be 32. I can't believe it. I can remember being 21 and thinking that 30 was old. LOL. This year will be a year of great changes for me. I plan on losing a lot of weight. My husband asked me what i was going to do when all the clothes that i have now become to big for me. I told him that we have some great second hand stores in our area and i can buy everything excep... Tue, 18 Jan 2011 08:51:00 EST Today was the day the scale went up....LOL! So, I thought i did a good job yesterday, got a little lax on my snacking because hubby bought a whole case of kit kats and hersheys milk chocolate minis into my house. Last night i banished the chocolate into my attic because at this point, I don't have the willpower to stay away from chocolate. The kit kats come in packages of 8. I would eat 3, which is a serving size, then i would see that there were 5 left in the package and i would eat 3 more, you get the picture. So, when i weighted mys... Mon, 17 Jan 2011 13:26:50 EST Movies and my goal So last night hubby took me to a place called dougs fish fry where i enjoyed shrimp and french fries with cole slaw. We then went to the movie's for a double feature. We went to see The Green Hornet and The dilema. Both movies were awesome. I totally though i blew my diet last night. I had junior mints and i had some of my husbands nachos at the movies. When i got on the scale this a.m. i was sure i was in for a weight gain. Instead i went from 332 to 330. Which means that i hit my goal of re... Sun, 16 Jan 2011 16:19:43 EST In a month and a half I have... Lost 11 pounds. I am proud of myself. I though i had a crappy day yesterday. I weighed myself and I weighed 335. I weighed myself this a.m. and I was 332.2. I am excited that I am makeing such good, no, Great progress. College started back up wednesday full time. I have keyboarding and transcription and sociology this term. Woo!! The keyboarding is a lot harder than the beginner class I took. I bought a 5 pound dumbell the other day. Every night before bed I do 10 reps of 10 various exercises... Sat, 15 Jan 2011 08:22:09 EST This is who i am? Not any more! I used to just sit around and think to myself, if I were meant to be small, i would be. I became complacent in the fact that i was eating my life away. I ate when i was hungry, I ate when i was sad, hell, I even ate when I was tired. My husband was no help either. He always tells me that he loves me for me. But lately i have begun to realize that I am not happy with me. He of course takes that to mean that I am not happy with him. I am happy with him. Truly, my family is my greatest blessing,... Thu, 13 Jan 2011 08:26:25 EST Lazy day So, i weighed myself this morning and i am up 1.2 pounds. It bums me out a little but it reminds me that i cannot expect to lose the weight by sitting on my duff and watching tv. Yesterday was literally a lazy day for me. I took a break. I was pretty slack with my food journal and i didn't even play jd2 at all yesterday. SO, today, it's back in full bore. I will hit 330 by February 1st. Yes i will. I just have to stay motivated. I can do this. On 1/18 i am going to the YMCA to start a members... Wed, 12 Jan 2011 08:37:28 EST And another one down!!! Today is tuesday, and tuesday is a happy day!! I weighed in at 333.8!!! That means i have lost 10 pounds since December 6. That makes me so happy. One of my mini goals is to hit 330 by February 1st. I think i will be meeting that goal. When i do, i am going to buy myself that recumbent exercise bike i saw at walmart. Then my next goal is to get to 315 by my husbands birthday which is on March 16. I like the idea of setting mini goals. It is scary to wrap my head around the fact that i have to... Tue, 11 Jan 2011 08:53:26 EST Good Morning Hello everyone. I am happy to announce that despite the fact that i didn't log my dinner last night i only gained .4 ounces!!! That thrills me. I was so expecting a pound or two. I had 5 ounces of lasagna,and cheese bread and a cupcake. I was good though and had a tossed salad. Plus i made my lasgna with non fat cottage cheese, 97/3 ground beef and mushroom spagehttii sauce. I did my best to make it as healthy as possible. No one complained eaither. Everyone thought it was yummy. I told my da... Sun, 9 Jan 2011 08:57:23 EST Tired So, it is saturday morning, almost 9 am. I got up, weighed myself and i weigh 335.2 pounds!!!! YAY!! I'm really not sure if it is the alli or the low cal, low fat diet i have been strictly adhereing to lately, but results are results. I am now officially down 5.2 pounds since december 6th. That makes me happy. I know i am going to achieve my goal. I have the will power to do this. I know i can. It's all a matter of how much i want to be healthy. My kids mean the world to me and i do this for ... Sat, 8 Jan 2011 08:58:44 EST Another one bites the dust!! So, last night was a better sleep night, not the best, but better. I woke up feeling semi refreshed. I have lost another pound making the grand total 7 pounds in the month since i found out i weighed 343. I am pleased as punch. I have made a lot of improvements and i am continuing to do so. Today i should be receiving my biggest loser kitchen scale in the mail. That will hopefully make it easier to measure out my portions. Right now i am just guessing with my meats like chicken and beef. I am... Thu, 6 Jan 2011 08:29:27 EST Alli So tonight with much trepidation i started Alli. I want to try it and i am going into this knowing that there is no such thing as a magic weight loss pill, but i have done lot's of research and i am fairly confident that this may be something that works for me. I have bought a 30 day supply, figuring that i should know wether or not it is going to work by the beginning of February. If it works, i will buy more, If not i will continue with the plan that i have now. I am still doing my low calo... Wed, 5 Jan 2011 21:14:43 EST 1 down!!! I weighed myself this A.M. and i am down 1 pound from yesterday. Last night was a horrible sleep night, which led to some late night snacking, but i grabbed 100 calories packs of munchies and didn't completely blow my diet all to crap. I am excited. A pound is a pound. I will take all the progress i can get. I am excited. <em>244</em> Wed, 5 Jan 2011 08:01:18 EST A thought After playing just dance2 for 38 minutes i realized that i feel more energetic than i have in a long, long time. I feel like maybe i am achieving something. My husband, who is a truck driver and gone from sunday to friday, is actually starting to be a little more supportive and actually helping me to read labels and help me to measure out good portion sizes. I feel good. I also think that maybe if i can be more active, that it will lead to better sleep patterns at night and maybe stop the lat... Tue, 4 Jan 2011 15:11:41 EST BIG changes for a smaller me So, today is January 4th and i have officially dedicated myself to ensuring that i live a long and healthy life with my family. I was devastated on December 6th at the doctors office with 2 of my children when i stepped on the scale for the first time in more than a year and i weighted 343 pounds. How did that happen? I had Julia a little over a year before and i weighted 268 pounds. I had put on over 80 pounds in the course of the year. I decided right then as i stood staring slack jawed at ... Tue, 4 Jan 2011 13:10:26 EST