ANJALI2010's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=ANJALI2010 ANJALI2010's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Setting smaller goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5338189 I am going to try a different strategy: <BR> <BR> Setting a smaller goal- losing 10 to 15 pounds by June 15. The 50 pound goal is just too overwhelming for me. Mentally I can't handle it. Sun, 28 Apr 2013 11:26:35 EST 18! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5202027 My baby is 18 years old today!! I can't believe how fast the time went by Fri, 11 Jan 2013 11:22:24 EST Body Image http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5200289 I had to go through lots of old pictures yesterday to pick some for my son's senior ad in his yearbook. He is graduating this year. I saw lots of pictures of myself in my 20's when I was first married. I was thin, beautiful, young, with clear skin and a bright glowing smile. It's funny because I don't remember feeling that way. I felt fat and ugly. I always felt self-conscious and didn't know how to dress very well. As I look through those pictures I'm wearing lots of baggy sweatshirts... Thu, 10 Jan 2013 10:40:48 EST Falling down and getting up again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5195036 So..I had good news and bad news. The good news was that I didn't gain any weight over the holidays. The bad news is that my blood sugar levels are higher than I have ever had them. I have not been eating the right kinds of foods. I know I am playing with fire healthwise, but it just gets tiring having to be so careful all the time. Scary how easy it is to fall off the wagon. Only one and a half weeks during the holiday week and I feel like I am starting all over again. <BR> <BR> I j... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 13:03:57 EST Christmas week walk plan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5174315 Walk Sunday, Monday, thursday, Saturday. <BR> <BR> Sun, 23 Dec 2012 09:56:54 EST The thing about the whole weightloss, diet, exercise thing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5172712 Well that's the the thing about the whole weightloss, diet, exercise thing- I have to fit it into real life. And real life will always have challenges and stresses. There will never be that time when all conditions are ideal. If that time does exist, it will only last a short while before reality with all it's problems comes crashing in. That's what makes it so hard. Diabetes does't care that it is hard. It's plugging away inside my body, every minute, day by day doing it's damage regard... Fri, 21 Dec 2012 08:33:31 EST No Easy Peasy for me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5169872 So I have been running into obstacles as I try to do this. <BR> <BR> I got a great start on my walking program and goal to walk 100 miles before next doctors appointment. Bu as I have been walking on the treadmill for the last two weeks, the front of my ankles have started to hurt. They stay fine as long as I am at a slower pace, but if I pick up the pace or try to run, it starts to hurt. I will have to get this checked out after the hoidays. <BR> <BR> The food part of this hasn't been g... Tue, 18 Dec 2012 08:21:51 EST For the first time in a very long time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5165967 Today, for the first time in a very, very long time: <BR> <BR> I stuck to my calorie goals for the day. <BR> <BR> I drank 6 glasses of water <BR> <BR> I was very upset with my husband but I did not reach for food. <BR> <BR> I went out to eat for dinner last night and lunch today and just had soup and salad and was happy and satisfied with it. <BR> <BR> <BR> Today, for the first time in recent days: <BR> <BR> I did not go on a binge after breakfast. <BR> <BR> I only had one orange f... Thu, 13 Dec 2012 23:07:35 EST Got it done in the morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5163033 Woke up at 5:30, dressed, made breakfast and lunches and was able to hop on the treadmill for 30 minutes, 1.3 miles and 2 glasses of water before we left for school. <BR> <BR> I will work on this streak- waking up at 5:30. <BR> <BR> <BR> Tue, 11 Dec 2012 09:22:42 EST Consistency is the key http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5162053 I 've made my medium term goal to walk 100 miles by February 28. The doctor's visit is on March 1. It is a full 12 weeks from now until then. So I need to walk 8.33 miles each week to gt there. <BR> <BR> This morning I woke up late at 6:10. Thankfully both my kids wanted to buy lunch in school so I didn't have to spend the 20 minutes making lunches for them. I knew if I didn't get the walking in before we left for school, then it wasn't going to happen today. It was 6:45 and we have to... Mon, 10 Dec 2012 11:04:57 EST 100 mile club http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5160126 Goal: To walk 100 miles before next doctor's appointment February 28 <BR> <BR> Today: <BR> <BR> 12/8/2012 1.5 miles in 38 minutes on treadmill <BR> 12/10/2012 1 mile / 25 minutes <BR> 12/11/2012 1.3 miles / 30 minutes <BR> 12/12/2012 1.25 miles / 30 minutes <BR> 12/13/2012 1.7 miles / 40 minutes <BR> 12/15/2012 3.15 miles / 80 minutes <BR> 8.4 for the week! <BR> 12/17/2012 1.25 miles / 30 minutes <BR> 12/18/2012 1.... Sat, 8 Dec 2012 11:27:39 EST Diabetes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5159361 Diabetes is a disease that, perhaps more than any other, depends much more on the patient than on the doctor. <BR> <BR> I read this today on the website mendosa.com, by a guy who decided to specialize in writing about diabetes. His website is a huge resource of information for diabetics. <BR> <BR> This statement, on the homepage just really hit me hard. The progression of this disease rests entirely on my shoulders. I have the power to reverse it, maintain it, or let it progress to a poi... Fri, 7 Dec 2012 13:55:10 EST Fits and Starts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5151737 Good for 3 weeks. Quit for 6 weeks. <BR> <BR> Stopped taking the metformin. Been bingeing on chocolates and cookies and pies. Not drinking water. Sleeping late. Living in complete denial <BR> <BR> Saw the doctor yesterday. He seemed frustrated with me. I am frustrated with me. The reality is not really sinking in I think. I am dooming myself. We'll see what the A1c comes back as. <BR> <BR> This morning at the 2 hour post prandial blood glucose reading it was 213! Yikes!! High... Fri, 30 Nov 2012 14:11:30 EST Slowly working on it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5095152 One month since diabetes diagnosis. After doing lots of blood sugar checks after meals, I am realizing I definitely have a problem. <BR> <BR> I tried exercising at the Y in the evenings with a friend, but it was very hard to get away in the evenings. Now I am starting to walk in the mornings on the treadmill. I find that if I don't do it in the morning, I don't feel lke doing it. It is surprising how quickly the body responds. I have only been doing this for two weeks. I could barely... Thu, 11 Oct 2012 11:04:28 EST Bad news http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5055909 So I found out that I have officially developed diabetes. This is something I have chosen to stick my head in the sand about for the past number of years, knowing it was a real possibility and choosing to be in denial. <BR> <BR> Now I have to deal with it. I started to check my sugar levels after each meal and yes, it is true. I have a problem. <BR> <BR> God, give me the strength to attack this head on and finally do what I have needed to do for a long time. Exercise and diet, lose we... Wed, 12 Sep 2012 11:20:52 EST Splurges and rules http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4937727 So I went to a wine dinner last night. It was my splurge meal for the week and I am okay with it. I didn't drink all of the wine- they served 5 glasses, one with every course. I had maybe a maximum of three- just sipped some from every one. And I didn't finish every course. So I am good with it. I'm not going to let it get me off track, because I knew ahead of time that I was going to go to this. <BR> <BR> Bob Harper's Skinny Rules diet is very monotonous and fairly low carb. I am t... Fri, 22 Jun 2012 13:12:34 EST F*** that scale! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4936389 I weighed my self at the YMCA on Tuesday. 180.00! Just like the doctor's office scale a couple of weeks ago. My scale at home is off by three and a half pounds! Way more than I thought I weighed. I don't think I touched 180 nine months pregnant back when I was ready to deliver my baby. That really got me depressed for a while. But the scale at home is what I've got and the trend is what matters not the number. <BR> <BR> I read someone's blog here today about scale obsession. Along ... Thu, 21 Jun 2012 13:59:05 EST Skinny rules http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4932935 I bought Bob Harper's Skinny Rules book yesterday. Going to try following it for a couple of weeks and see how it is. His "rules" sound like good common sense and it is nice to just have a list of things to do. <BR> <BR> So Rule 1 is to drink a glass of water before every meal, no exceptions. I can do that. I went to the grocery store and bought lots of fruit to eat yesterday for snacks to replace junky (the large bag of tostitos I polished off over the course of several days) or carby... Tue, 19 Jun 2012 10:44:35 EST Day 3 - daily tracking challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4923046 Did much better this morning!! I was going for the bagel, then remembered oops, no bagels for me today. So I cut up a LARGE apple and ate it first with a glass of water, then had my slice of toast with peanut butter. The apple and water had almost filled me up and so the toast with peanut butter was like eating dessert. It was enough and I didn't even get to the eggs! <BR> <BR> Thanks for the peanut butter suggestion, Madhu. It made the toast yummier and more satisfying than my usual ... Tue, 12 Jun 2012 10:09:29 EST Day 2 - daily tracking challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4921405 Another almost thousand calorie breakfast- have to figure out how to stop doing that!! Bagel shop bagels seem to be the killer. How can i stick to 1500 for the day if I eat two thirds of that at breakfast and still have an entire day to go. I have been noticing breakfast as a problem for the last month. I am still hungry and want to eat more so I do. <BR> <BR> I will try fruit tomorrow. An egg, a slice of bread and an entire apple- see if I feel full with that. Mon, 11 Jun 2012 10:29:08 EST Insurmountable obstacles http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4920207 "These obstacles are not just obstacles to exercise—they are the same challenges that stand between you and the life you want for yourself." - somone from Sparkpeople <BR> <BR> Yes, losing weight seems like an insurmountable obstacle. Something I have been trying to do for so many years and never succeeding. Feeling very down today, like a failure. Set the goals, reset the goals, and reset the goals again but never to succeed. I'm good for a week or two, then quit. Over and over again.... Sun, 10 Jun 2012 14:00:29 EST Goals revisted http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4897396 From January 25, 2012 <BR> <BR> "I now have a vision and a goal for the next year. Becoming a dancer! For my whole life, even when I was thin, I have never been able to dance. I have always felt awkward at parties, have never been able to groove to the music, have always felt like a dork on the dance floor. <BR> <BR> Buying the dance video game made me realize that these things can be learned, that moves can be learned and practiced. So one year from now, I want to have taken off the weigh... Fri, 25 May 2012 10:07:00 EST Go exercise!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4890938 I am trying to make myself go exercise. These are the "rubber meets the road" daily moments that I struggle with. Making myself do things that i don't want to do. Do i give in to myself and then feel horrible about myself and out of control? Or do I just do it? <BR> <BR> Why does it have to be so hard? Why is it always a fight with myself? Could this be the classic inner child versus adult thing- the child doesn't want to do something, the adult makes him do it. I make my kids do th... Mon, 21 May 2012 09:50:12 EST Sick all week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4875154 My husband has been out of town for work for a week. I had so many plans about everything I was going to get done while he was gone. The day after he left my son came down with something that lasted for 4 days, then I got it and am still trying to shake it. <BR> <BR> So much for plans. He will be back in two days. The house is a mess and nothing got done. No workouts. <BR> <BR> I always feel that I barely make a start up the mountain only to slide right back down. Thu, 10 May 2012 08:50:55 EST Morning workout http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4739875 Squeezed in 17 minutes of Dance Central 2 and one glass of water while my son was eating his breakfast. It felt good because I have been away from it it for a week and a half. <BR> <BR> Now I need to find the energy to get the things on my to do list done. I'm having dinner at the city club tonight and tomorrow night, then Friday night at PF Changs, I need to try to watch what I eat. But I am looking forward to the dinners. Wed, 15 Feb 2012 10:20:59 EST Setbacks don't have to become avalanches http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4738400 I'm back after an 11 day break. After the really nice lunch, the next day we had a terrible fight. I was very upset and depressed, fell off the wagon so to speak. Then I got a cold and felt lousy with that for a couple of days. <BR> <BR> I suppose the thing is that these kinds of things will always happen. This whole thing is not just about losing weight. It is about doing the hard work to change habits that have become ingrained over years and decades. That isn't going to happen in ... Tue, 14 Feb 2012 11:37:05 EST The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4720198 The Good: <BR> <BR> I went to the Y yesterday morning to do a Zumba class. Got the day wrong- no Zumba. There was a beginner step class that I ended up in. It was quite an intense workout. I couldn't keep up with all the crazy steps. I don't know why they have to make it so complicated. It is intense and doesn't have to have so many crazy moves. It felt good to a) make myself go the Y and b) workout hard in the class. <BR> <BR> I had actually started on the treadmill but ditched it a... Fri, 3 Feb 2012 10:29:53 EST Tired and ravenous yesterday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4716268 I just couldn't get it going yesterday. I kept putting off working out until I finally decided that I just didn't want to do it and accepted it. I was also very hungry and snacked more than I should have. <BR> <BR> I have done better today. Got up at 4:40am, made lunches and breakfasts, worked out to Dance Central 2 for 35 minutes (down from 60 last week) took a shower, took my kid to school and came back and had breakfast by 8. It felt good. I am tired, but it's because I don't sleep u... Wed, 1 Feb 2012 11:01:58 EST Up and down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4708553 I don't get all the weight fluctuation. My weight varies by 4 pounds over the course of the day! I go to bed at one weight and when I wake up it is 1.5 pounds lighter. It's hard to know what it actually is. <BR> <BR> Supposedly between yesterday adn today morning I gained 1.5 pounds. I know I snacked a little more than I should have but !.5 pounds more? I don't think so, maybe 300 calories more at max. <BR> <BR> I have to plan a decent afternoon snack. I am noticing that everyday I ... Sat, 28 Jan 2012 11:34:43 EST So far so good http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4706701 60 minutes Dance Central 2 again this morning plus 4 glasses of water. <BR> <BR> Feels good to get it done but now I am tired and have to find the get up and go for the rest of the day. I am definitely sleeping better- need to work on sleeping enough. Went to sleep at 11:45 in front of the TV again. Have to cure myself of this habit. <BR> <BR> I went to Walmart and bought Your Shape Fitness Evolved 2012 last night because I was sore and kinda feeling like not getting up in the morning t... Fri, 27 Jan 2012 09:35:46 EST Water water everywhere http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4705033 Both yesterday and today I did 60 minutes of DC2 as my exercise for the day first thing in the morning. I need to get up very early to do it before I have to get everybody going for the morning. Today I got up at 5am, but it wasn't enough time. Will try to shoot for 4:45 tomorrow- hopefully will be able to get up. <BR> <BR> Drank 6 glasses of water by 8am with the exercise, then spent the rest of the morning giving it back. But it feels good to have it all done- water and the exercise- i... Thu, 26 Jan 2012 11:07:49 EST My vision http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4702910 Okay, so last year I desperately wanted to do the mini-triathlon at the YMCA and that kept me motivated for about 2 to 2.5 months to workout. <BR> <BR> But after I finished it, I felt lost. I didn't have the motivation to keep exercising because I had reached my goal and I couldn't find a new goal. I thought about trying to run- the goal would be running one mile. But I didn't really want to do it. So my whole plan just fell apart. I went to Spain, came back, got sick and then even af... Wed, 25 Jan 2012 09:50:08 EST Discovered Dance Central 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4701776 I bought Dance Central 2 for the kinect and I love it! It is so much fun learning the dance moves. Started three days ago. I did 50 minutes today! Way way better than the treadmill that I absolutely despise. <BR> <BR> Maybe that is the key. It is fun and I am motivated to learn the dance moves. I have never been able to dance, always two left feet and no sense of rhythm, but this makes me realize that it can be learned. And it makes me out of breath and get me going. I manage to dr... Tue, 24 Jan 2012 18:43:23 EST Day 7 - Lousy day so far http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4671026 So the the bottom line is 1.5 pounds lost from last week's stomach adventure. Not too shabby. I knew the 3.5 pound loss so quickly couldn't be real, and it wasn't. <BR> <BR> Today is just lousy. I feel awful and have loads and loads of laundry to do- at least 8. I figure that 3 a day for the next three days should get me caught up, but I'm not looking forward to it. <BR> <BR> I need to redeem the day by getting going and accomplishing some of my tasks in the next three hours before I... Tue, 10 Jan 2012 10:47:33 EST Day 4 - the obstacles start http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4663837 I found the key for the treadmill yesterday. Got working finally and then as soon as I walked for 10 seconds, it died. I don't know what happened. Thankfully, it is just under the one year warranty, so I will call Sears/NordicTrack and see if they will come fix it. <BR> <BR> 3.7 pounds lost in 4 days does not seem quite right, but that is what the scale said this morning! It gives me motivation to keep going next week. <BR> <BR> I think I am going to buy a BodyMedia armband. I think ... Sat, 7 Jan 2012 11:11:58 EST Day 2 of nondiet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4658939 Nothing like stomach virus/diarrhea to keep me from eating. Just ate a banana today for breakfast. This is a good reminder that I have been putting too much junk into my body because now I can't have any. An involuntary toxic cleanse! <BR> <BR> Added bonus of stomach virus: 2.7 pounds lost between yesterday and today- okay so it is water weight, but I'll take anything and it feels good to see the scale come down. <BR> <BR> Did pretty well yesterday with food tracking. I ended up not ... Thu, 5 Jan 2012 08:40:22 EST 2012 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4656570 Focus on long-term lifestyle changes that I would be willing to do for the rest of my life. No point making temporary changes because any weight lost always comes back to me! <BR> <BR> <BR> Daily goals: <BR> <BR> 10 minutes of exercise <BR> No mindless snacking <BR> 6 glasses of water- 3 regular 3 sparkling <BR> <BR> <BR> Overall goal- to get to 1000 minutes of exercise for month of January <BR> That would be 250 minutes/week or 35 minutes/day or 50 min 5 times/week <BR> <BR> So 20-25 ... Wed, 4 Jan 2012 10:33:49 EST Setting goals again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4533459 Set goals again: <BR> <BR> Week ending October 15 <BR> 1. Pack workout bag and find combination lock <BR> 2. Review the knee exercises. <BR> 3. Start doing knee exercises this week at home in front of TV <BR> <BR> Week ending October 22 <BR> 1. Join the Y <BR> 2. Get up early enough to get ready to go to Y after dropping N off at school at 7:30. <BR> 3. Do this at least 2 times next week. <BR> Thu, 13 Oct 2011 09:45:24 EST 2011 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4138265 Goal for 2011: run 1 mile <BR> <BR> Sun, 3 Apr 2011 09:12:34 EST Mini-Triathlon!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3612519 I did it! <BR> <BR> I did it better than I thought I could! <BR> <BR> 12 laps in the pool--17:59 minutes- It was taking me 30 minutes. <BR> <BR> 5 miles on indoor bike- 30:10 - the best time I had before was 42 minutes <BR> <BR> Treadmill run 1 mile (walk for me) - 19:14- I had never been able to beat 22 min <BR> <BR> So overall it was great. I expected to take 90 minutes and only took 67 minutes. <BR> <BR> Of course, I have felt wiped out the rest of the day...but this was something... Mon, 6 Sep 2010 19:05:43 EST I did it! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3559342 I got in the pool at the Y. <BR> <BR> Had to shave at home first. Completely. Then find the bathing suit and flipflops, pack up shampoo, conditioner, facewash, makeup and hair stuff and find a bag to put it all in. <BR> <BR> Thankfully the locker rooms had a couplel of little stalls with curtains to change in. Changing on a bench would have done me in. <BR> <BR> I can't swim so i strapped on an Aqua Jogger belt and got a kickboard and got in. At least the water was warm so it was... Sat, 21 Aug 2010 08:58:43 EST Get in the pool already!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3552484 <BR> i have a major hangup about putting on a bathing suit and getting into a swimming pool. I have tried to make myself do it for the last two weeks but always found an excuse even though I have to go sit there for 45 minutes each day for my son's swimming lessons. <BR> <BR> I can't do the Y's mini- triathlon on September 6 without getting in the pool and working up to 12 laps anyway. I have been able to do the 5 miles on an exercise bike plus one mile walking on a treadmill. This is... Thu, 19 Aug 2010 06:14:12 EST 1000 fitness minutes in August tracker http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3523129 I can't figure out Sparkpeople's way of tracking fitness minutes, so I'm keeping my own. <BR> <BR> Last week: 188 minutes <BR> Monday 8/9 20 minutes elliptical <BR> Tuesday 8/10 20 minutes TV exercises - leg raises, crunches <BR> 23 minutes treadmill - 1.03 miles <BR> 15 minutes recumbent bike - level 3 <BR> 30 minutes strength/knee rehab- leg press + leg extension <BR> <BR> Total s... Tue, 10 Aug 2010 19:24:58 EST New goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3510049 1. Complete the YMCA mini-triathlon on September 6. <BR> <BR> It is 1 mile on treadmill <BR> 5 miles on upright bike - level 5 random program <BR> 12 laps in the pool anyway you want <BR> <BR> Making progresss on the bike and treadmill. Have to get myself into the pool next week to get started on that. <BR> <BR> 2. Complete 1000 fitness minutes in August challenge. That means 250 minutes per week. Or 50 minutes per day 5 times a week. Fri, 6 Aug 2010 14:42:59 EST Think of it as a game http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3464059 I've been going to a group at the YMCA facilitated by one of their staff members. It's a 10 month program to support people with whatever their health goal might be. We meet once every two weeks. Of course, everyone (4 members) wants to lose weight. <BR> <BR> This week the staff member, Jennifer, said to think of getting fit and healthy as a game (like a sport, for example). Something you want to do well at, to win. Naturally to become good at it means that it will require lots of pr... Sat, 24 Jul 2010 07:24:03 EST Saw pictures of myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3463316 We had a family reunion this past week in Myrtle Beach with my husband's entire family from all over the country. They did a slide show and video of family history. I saw pictures of myself from years ago -10 years, 20 years. I don't remember being that thin. I was always heavy in my mind and had weight issues in my head. For decades. It was startling to see that I actually was thin back then. Fri, 23 Jul 2010 21:30:25 EST It's about competition with yourself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3253125 For me this journey is about continually picking myself up off the floor and getting started again. <BR> <BR> February 19 to April 9, I lost 5 pounds and was ecstatic about it. I had started exercising farily regularly and was eating better and drinking more water. I was going to bed at reasonable hours and had more energy during the day. The blood sugars were getting much better. <BR> <BR> But then I stopped. In the last 6 weeks, from April 10 to today May 20, I have gained it all b... Fri, 21 May 2010 09:11:41 EST Getting back up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3147971 So we went to Paris for a week - April 2-9 - walked everywhere all day every day sightseeing. I ate. Maybe all the walking made the difference because I DIDN"T GAIN ANY WEIGHT. No knee problems either. I was ecstatic. It was a great vacation. And we missed the volcano by a few days. <BR> <BR> That was 13 days ago. I have done nothing after getting back home. The first week it was jet lag. I felt lousy and sleepy all the time. Maybe getting up and exercising would have made a diffe... Thu, 22 Apr 2010 09:23:36 EST Small changes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3021003 Something seems to changing. <BR> <BR> I feel better - I think the sleeping more definitely makes a diference. Still a challenge to work on though. I have to stop staying up so late watching TV. I will aim for 10pm for this coming week. <BR> <BR> Weight- it fluctuates over the course of the day by 1 or 2 pounds. It's always the lowest in the morning so that's what I like to go with. I saw the number 174.9 yesterday morning- haven't seen that in a long time, so I was thrilled. It f... Fri, 19 Mar 2010 23:23:55 EST I didn't get derailed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3010829 We spent the week dealing with a stomach virus at my house. My younger son had to be picked up from school last Friday because he threw up. And continued to do so for two days along with diarrhea. Then my older son got it from him Sunday night. They both stayed home from school Monday and Tuesday. For a while it seemed like i was getting it too, but thankfully, I've escaped so far. It's been fun here cleaning vomit off carpet and bedding and doing loads of laundry. <BR> <BR> They're... Wed, 17 Mar 2010 11:40:03 EST