ANGRITTER's SparkPeople Blog ANGRITTER's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Getting back into gear My year has been plagued with sickness, infections after surgery, now a social security review at the height of the holiday season just getting under way, so Doctor appts to get records & such. Doc says "I'm not concerned that u gained weight, just glad you're still alive". Made me feel less confident about how well I fought infections... Evidently I'm still fighting them & have bone marrow edema too. But I've lost 10 pounds in the past 3 weeks. Not exercising heavily yet per doc orders, ... Tue, 10 Nov 2015 16:34:10 EST Washing 'The Hounds' IS Strength Training! <img src=""> The faux kind! Now, I'm still recovering from 4 surgeries last year, and the BOGO infections I received with those surgeries, so exercise is still a little scattered here & there for me. But I washed the dogs yesterday. With full back bracing supports on so bending was funny. I'm not gonna 'track' it but it WAS strength training because those big boys did NOT want a bath. They haven't had regular... Tue, 27 Oct 2015 16:19:40 EST Walking the Halls of Health? Wy father is having heart ablation surgery today to hopefully stop his "fight" against his pacemaker. We both have screwy heart-wiring so I'm taking notes in what NOT to do when I get older! I'm back at the "killer" hospital today and since I have all day to burn with mom, I think I'll make her walk with me. Walking the halls to keep busy, read a little, walk some more. We're spending 10+ hours there, so may as well use them wisely. I'm taking my walker only because my purse is too heavy... Tue, 1 Sep 2015 05:47:07 EST One small conquest <img src=""> one HUGE BATTLE! I've been glaring at that stationary bike every day since I made Joe rush out in the rain one Saturday so we could pick it up... In late June. We've had a love/hate relationship. I love thinking of getting on it and hitting my usual 19-21mph pace. Then reality tells me "not gonna happen. You're starting over with baaaad bodily damage." Reality usually pisses me off so I bury myse... Thu, 27 Aug 2015 16:39:28 EST Still gaining. Back to basics <img src=""> Since my surgeries have kept me down for 10 months now, and still keeping me down & blue, I have gained back 36 pounds. It sickens me because I worked so hard for that 60-pound loss. But here's the reality, I will not live on salads every day of my life like I did the last time. I can't exercise for 2 hours every day like I did the last time. I also have a husband (common law, but he's mine) to coo... Fri, 3 Jul 2015 13:12:58 EST Caffeine? Heck No! MOSTLY... Yes, I did it. I am on decaf coffee except some on the weekend with Joe, but here's the kicker... I GAVE UP SODAS! And still haven't lost a damn pound. But how can I when people keep sticking their hands in my spine & moving it around. And I refuse to step on the scale again until Friday. I'm trying not to be OCD, and it hurts to stand straight and still. But that's my "good vibe" share of the day. Joe will get me a Starbucks or full caffeine coffee on the weekend but only ... Mon, 30 Mar 2015 22:59:15 EST Duh! Back to square one... I'm am once again 9 days post-op. I herniated the SAME disk that I had my previous laminectomy. Hmm... Could it be that there was only half s disk left and OF COURSE it's gonna rupture! Anyway. I got out if the hospital on the 23rd with another PICC line. Yeah, not so jazzed about that, as you well know. 4 weeks of IV ABX that cost $780 every 10 days!! Yup, not even April and I'm in the donut hole for my insurance. Just in time for the most expensive meds. I'm a lucky gal, you see. ... Sun, 29 Mar 2015 16:00:34 EST Wednesday & Friday!! both days I walked 6 laps around my back yard. 1.1 miles each day. I am just starting again, and I have to remind myself of that every few minutes as I obsess about how I used to pull off 4 miles in 80 minutes. So I keep putting myself in my "disabled" place. So I'm proud. I'm kicking my own butt. I'm doing some clerical work for my dad's Masonic Lodge... As I teach him how the "updated" Excel works. I forget he hasn't had to do it for over 15 years. Haha!! He's a good student though... Fri, 6 Feb 2015 18:29:00 EST Today I'm 40. And about 40 pounds away from my goal as well. I looked at my weight tracker & it says I should be 212 today. I think I'm gonna erase that sucker so I don't have to look at it anymore. That graph is defeatist, and I'm better than that... As we ALL are. My sweety gave me a really sappy card, and gave my parents fresh produce for their 44th anniversary. And the best part is that the doctor said I could take pills instead of IV antibiotics from here on out. I did finish the last 2 bags tha... Wed, 28 Jan 2015 14:04:07 EST 2 days down... After walking the past two days, today is a big fat question mark (?)! I may have bit off more than I can chew by starting to shave Jacko. His Sasquatch-side of the family is showing through a bit much, and I've found his undercoat matted in some places. And I am feeling defeated by it. Poor Jacko has suffered while I've been suffering & I'm sad for him. But I'm gonna fix it. As soon as my butt and thighs remember that they are strong & powerful & not tight bowls of jelly. I know that ... Wed, 21 Jan 2015 09:58:31 EST My First Steps of 2015!! I am aware that I've been taking small steps inside the house without my wallet, and I've also been doing a tiny bit of Spring cleaning. But today I finally was able to go outside & WALK MY TRAIL IN MY YARD!!! I'm excited yet exhausted as well. I knew not to push it so I sat on the porch with my dad - he was overseeing my walk (ha!) - and took a break in between. I even raised up the handles on my walker so that I could stand straighter when I pushed it along. I did NOT lean on my walk... Mon, 19 Jan 2015 18:49:53 EST Happy Realization to Start 2015 I just realized that after 2.5 years I have been able to keep 40 pounds off my body. (Insert happy dance here!) Granted, it should have been the 60 originally lost, but I'm not gonna sweat 20 pounds after all the hospital-abuse I've taken this year & the fact that I've been stuck in bed for 4 solid months. And I stripped and made my bed today. Yes, that was pushing it and at about 4:30 this afternoon I realized how far I'd pushed it. Yep, the crying started when the pain started in and i... Fri, 2 Jan 2015 00:26:28 EST So I missed out on a lot this year... I'm back. Not 100% as I have to remember that I must learn to walk again before I can get up and run, run, run like I'm used to. I do believe I left you in August stating I had my surgery but them had a twinge in my back at dinner on the 29th. Well, I went straight to the ER & admitted for 6 days & they did nothing but pump me full of steroids & morphine for 6 days & I gained 30 pounds. Yep, in 6 days. Not a grand thing for a spine to handle. So I layed around for a few months & was rea... Thu, 1 Jan 2015 06:02:35 EST Morning blast...with an evening update to come. Hey everyone! I'm baaack. <BR> <BR> So yesterday's one mile feels like 5 miles to my spine today. I really think it's that walking stick. I know they are great for balance and supporting upright walking, but I think dragging it around is a hindrance some days. <BR> <BR> But I am determined to get off my tush here soon and waddle out for the first 2 laps. And if that is all I get done, then fine. I also need to vacuum, but like the child I am being treated like, I have only to do my room... Fri, 29 Aug 2014 11:28:10 EST Funny pictures after surgery... Me right outta the box and without morphine, but with Joe <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Me finding the morphine button finally... <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> My staples up the center of my back. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> The nerve decompression stitching on the side of my left knee... <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeop... Thu, 28 Aug 2014 13:09:10 EST 9 Days Post-Op!! And I'm doing almost great. I hate riding in cars because it hurts like a $%@$^, but I have walked a mile on a few days, a third of a mile on others, and a half mile on a couple. <BR> <BR> I can walk! <BR> I can stand up straight! <BR> I can have normal bowel movements again! <BR> I can sit down and not cry every time! <BR> <BR> It really is amazing and I am so not used to this kind of improvement. I walked 22 hours after my surgery. I first walked one lap around the hospital ward wit... Thu, 28 Aug 2014 12:53:46 EST Everyday woes... Well, Joe has been online looking for jobs. It really sucks that there are so many out there that pay nothing, but unemployment barely covers his child support. Who ever decided what the unemployment pay rate is should have to live on that money for 6 months and see if they can save up for a full roll of toilet paper at the end of the month! They can't, if they plan on eating. <BR> <BR> And now everyone wants him to go back to school for training... He's 54 & they don't like his diploma a... Tue, 5 Aug 2014 16:56:13 EST I finally did it... I finally fell in love with a man that can handle me. ALL of me & doesn't want me to lose a single pound. But since men know diddly about carrying around extra poundages on the degenerating joints, he's been told that I get to lose at least 45 pounds and he can't say a word. And he's finally okay with it after a 10-day stint in his truck when I went over-the-road with him. Haha!! <BR> <BR> You REALLY get to know someone by living in an 8x10 cube & sleeping crammed up on the other perso... Thu, 31 Jul 2014 19:26:51 EST Saying goodbye to my namesake My aunt, Adra Dawn Rix Thurman, left this world yesterday afternoon after 45 minutes in the ER. She was a warrior who fought uterine and ovarian cancer for YEARS. <BR> <BR> A month ago, she kept asking my mother when she was coming to visit her for a couple of weeks. We now know that she was waiting for her 2 final wishes to come true. The first was to have her 2 estranged children stand in a room with her and not fight with each other This happened the first weekend my mother was there. ... Mon, 7 Apr 2014 18:19:46 EST I'm dropping in to say hello! Well. I have lived through the month of March and things haven't changed much. Shingles spread to my other ear, of course. So the second one is working its way out of me. I've been taking meds every day for the Bell's Palsy... its getting better, but I can't believe the pain that I still feel when I touch my face. It's ridiculous. <BR> <BR> I have a follow up on 4/2 and a mammogram (BLAH!) so I will ask him how long the pain in the cheekbone and cheek flesh and chin and temple area is ex... Thu, 27 Mar 2014 18:57:31 EST I Feel Like I've Let Myself Down and All of You Too. I am sorry that I have fallen down on the job with the challenges, but I do have a good reason. There are some health issues I am now dealing with that if I had not had the 2 surgeries, I would have never known about. It involves my heart and my thyroid... and it's a convoluted mess. <BR> <BR> On a funny note, I did leave the house today to go to Lowe's to pick up No Trespassing signs and KEEP OUT/PRIVATE PROPERTY signs and BEWARE OF DOGS signs. Why? Dinah, my old shoplifting roommate, i... Tue, 18 Mar 2014 17:59:07 EST Hello 3 Little Piggies! Dang! I lost 3 pounds and got into the almonds and gained them back. Poop. But I'm not sweating it because I did eat a whole bag of Honey Roasted Cashew Halves and that was like 9 MILLION calories and I am maintaining. Not that I am making a practice of this, nor do I plan to, but even after the ablation I am still having normal PMS symptoms. LOL Guess I can't get away from them. LOL <BR> <BR> I didn't work out today because the past 2 days were causing me a little pain in my chest wh... Thu, 6 Mar 2014 20:40:16 EST Walking on Cloud.... ZERO :-) Well, I can assure you that dragging around this medieveal torture device... Das Boot... is evidently a workout. I am just afraid that now I will have one butt cheek exercised more than the other! HAHA <BR> <BR> And the reason I am not on cloud 9 is because this boot is so heavy, I would have fallen through even cloud 1. LOL <BR> <BR> The weather is getting a little nicer but still a bit chilly. I am thinking positive thoughts on a daily basis and trying to see things in a pretty light.... Sun, 2 Mar 2014 11:47:02 EST I've been abducted by Aliens! My, my, where have I been? <BR> <BR> I have had facial pain since my ablation and thought it was from the air tube or anesthesiology and I even called it "stroke face" and sent pics to my family. And I thought it would wear off by the weekend. However, the pain just kept getting worse, so I finally made an appointment. Turns out that I have Bell's Palsy and Shingles. I am even too young to get the shingles shot, because I asked for it when I got the flu shot because I wanted all bases co... Thu, 27 Feb 2014 13:46:01 EST I took your advice... And I took the day off. I cleaned my bathroom somewhat and straightened up what I could <BR> in my room. Nothing major. I read some of my book, chatted with some people online, and just RELAXED. Thank you for the suggestion and I will do more of this! <BR> <BR> I made myself a badass salad last night with a wonderful leftover grilled pork chop and yankee cheese (Cuba Cheese Factory in Cuba, NY), I had that salad beautifully way and it was so yummy looking. <BR> <BR> And as I was wheeli... Sun, 16 Feb 2014 20:26:29 EST Sore Today I washed the dogs last night. Neither were impressed with that particular Valentine's treat. Then I decided that I needed to get on the bike to burn off nervous energy. And after hopping all around the Department of Agriculture & dealing with some really funny women who seem to enjoy their jobs, my tail end and back feel like they've gone 3 rounds with a boxing KANGAROO! <BR> <BR> So today I opted to relax a bit. Then I rode the bike for 12.5 miles & I felt great. But time for me to hit... Sat, 15 Feb 2014 21:34:25 EST "Hot date" situation explained Okay, so I don't have a definite date, per se. I have 2 men that had asked me out and since i was headed for surgery, I opted out until I could get my walking situation straight. I would never go on a date with my walker, and i want to be able to kick if i have to, as well. You know, always be prepared. <BR> <BR> One guy is German & works for Mercedes Benz here in Jax. The other guy works as a motorcycle & marine mechanic & paints too. He lives in Daytona, only about an hour or so away.... Fri, 14 Feb 2014 12:04:20 EST I am moving again!! I took a gamble today & popped on the recumbent bike today, strapped my cast to the pedal and ride my 20 minutes to my own victory. This means I can stop the muscle deterioration before it gets too bad. I want to br able to walk normal when I am free of this cast because I have a hot date waiting on me to be able to walk. :-) <BR> <BR> I am not overdoing it, but i figure I can do it 3 times a day - spaced out for hours - and this should work out. I am keeping the pressure on the ball of... Thu, 13 Feb 2014 16:32:20 EST Is my scale broken? I have been weighing myself every day because I am afraid that laying around will have me gaining a horrific amount of weight. Yep, I have worked too hard to screw up now. I have dropped my caloric intake to try to stay under 1200 calories. You don't burn much by reading all day. <BR> <BR> So, tonight after dinner, the worst time of course, and in every place I put the scale, it said 236. SHOCK isn't even close to what I felt. <BR> <BR> I have not been active except for the leg lifts or... Fri, 7 Feb 2014 20:51:06 EST Another Medical Malfunction... as usual Okay... here's today's medical malfunction for me. My thyroid is evidently failing, but he says it has nothing to do with the cyst that was found in an MRI last January. So I am being put on a low dose of Synthroid for 6 weeks to see if it helps any. If not, they operate and do whatever, but I told him I didn't want to hear about all that just yet - stopped him dead in his tracks. The good news is that my cholesterol has dropped 46 points since last year's blood work. So that is normal and I ... Wed, 5 Feb 2014 22:42:35 EST Finally Validated!!! BTW, I wrote a nice, length blog earlier but it was mostly written in anger so maybe it was a good thing I deleted itself. But boy did that anger me!!! haha <BR> <BR> Well, I just got a call from my jerk face doctor. Guess what? My bloodwork came back and lo and behold, my thyroid numbers are all over the place. Gee, I wonder if that could be related to the CYST that was found on my thyroid during an MRI I had in January 2013. Same cyst he said he wasn't going to bother with until it g... Tue, 4 Feb 2014 15:02:55 EST Day 3 - Attempting the Shower Okay, so I have not had any more falls since the first night. I was in a panic thinking that maybe I fractured or sprained something and I couldn't feel it because the entire thing was numb. But I have been careful, the feeling has come back to me, and I am more stable. And nothing feels pulled or broken, and _Linda, I am super bendy and flexible. But I can still feel the large bruise on my side from falling against the bathtub. <BR> <BR> My shower was great. I sat on a metal folding c... Sun, 2 Feb 2014 19:15:08 EST Surgery successful... I hope I wrote this last night but my tablet was fighting the site all night long so I am posting this late. <BR> <BR> Good evening, all. I had my surgery today. What should have taken an hour, took 2. I now have a really heavy & cumbersome 2-piece cast wrapped all the way up to my knee. The cast is 15.5 inches around my ankle, which is normally 9 inches, and my calf is 19.5 inches, normally 15. So you get a image of how big this monstrosity is. <img src=" Sat, 1 Feb 2014 19:14:13 EST What 39 looks like... So this will be a birthday picture blog for sure. I went out to dinner with my parents as it is also their anniversary. We had seafood and I LOVED it. We always enjoy going there. And Scotty played some of my favorite songs. <BR> <BR> So here are my birthday snapshots. And you can see that my lazy eye is getting worse... maybe it should be next on my list of things to get fixed. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src="http:... Wed, 29 Jan 2014 10:52:44 EST Feeling a bit better today! I am so excited. I am starting to feel a little bit better and I am so thankful!! <BR> <BR> I bought a TENS unit at Wally World today and I have used it in 6 places between my back and hips where I have been having most of my pain from these days. And now I can sit up in bed and type, so maybe this thing will help. Gonna have to buy mass quantities of batteries to keep it going! <BR> <BR> And I lost pounds in 2 days by getting my stomach straightened out. We have a family full of peo... Sun, 26 Jan 2014 23:24:32 EST 7 more days!! I have spent the entire day from 8am to 4pm in doctor's offices. I am exhausted. The last appointment got me yet another shot in my back, but it still seems to be doing nothing. He prescribed me another anti-inflammatory instead of increasing my pain meds. Well guess what? Angela has be operating under severe pain and that's when "AngeLaw" comes into effect. Meaning that I am going to do it my way and you had better move! LOL So I will chill out tonight, take some extra meds and stay... Fri, 24 Jan 2014 18:47:13 EST One Appointment Down... 50 to go! Well, it seems like 50, but it's really only 7. But that is still too much. <BR> <BR> Today I met my cardiologist. He and his staff are really sweet. I did the chemical stress test and he wants to look over it some more. Plus the EKG was still off a bit. So he's putting me on a beta blocker, and wants to see me back tomorrow for an echocardiogram. Of course, I have 2 pre-op meetings before I get to do that. Somewhere after all that I need to get an order for blood work and do that. <... Thu, 23 Jan 2014 16:27:20 EST Plan of Attack... Successful! My early morning attack on the doctor's office has paid off. I am having a chemical stress test tomorrow morning at 7:30am. Then an appointment with the Cardiologist so he can explain what is happening and let me know whether or not I am cleared for surgery. I sure hope I am because I don't think I could do this under a local anesthetic. Plus I need the release for the ablation I am also trying to get done. Oh, on top of that, I think they give you anesthesia for a root canal, which I al... Wed, 22 Jan 2014 19:39:32 EST Pretty Great Day Today was a pretty great day for me... even with all the stress from the doctor visits that are coming this week. <BR> <BR> I woke up to watching Silver Linings Playbook. If you haven't seen it and you know someone who suffers from rage or depression, it's a must-see. I loved that movie and it made me think about the silver linings to all things instead of seeing the negative and fighting for what you "think" you want, versus what is there in front of you that makes you happy. :-) <BR> ... Sun, 19 Jan 2014 18:28:54 EST I DO Have A HEART!! It's just broke! My heart is not BROKEN, just broke. It just ain't working right. <BR> <BR> I failed my pre-op physical today. Did the EKG twice and they both showed me having a heart attack on each one. Heck, the very first one said there was an "unknown artifact", but neither the nurse or myself knew what that meant, so we did it again. Then again. So now I have to do a stress test. But this is exactly what my father just went through in December. How uncanny is that? <BR> <BR> And I hope they schedule... Fri, 17 Jan 2014 17:10:49 EST Turning Over a New Leaf... or Two So I finally made the decision to separate myself from Alaska Man as I am finding he isn't being honest. So I am feeling clear headed about it and happy to know where I stand. Someone not telling you pertinent info because "I didn't want to hurt you", just hurts worse. So that dream is over and I am moving on quickly and with a positive attitude. And <BR> I cried last night but today I am surprisingly okay with it all and ready to move on. I'm smiling. I think not being around him was ... Thu, 16 Jan 2014 18:43:18 EST First Ankle Surgery Scheduled! AGH!!! Well, it's coming. And fast! I am having my first ankle surgery on January 31st. I'm excited and scared spitless at the same time because I HATE getting cut on. But it's my ankle... and that's gonna put me out of commission for 3 weeks. Maybe it's a good thing I haven't been on bed rest 100% this week. I'm gonna be on it soon enough for the ankle. Maybe that will help with my back at THAT time. <BR> <BR> So I have to go back and see my nasty-attitude doctor this Friday... I just saw h... Wed, 15 Jan 2014 15:38:32 EST Bed Rest is for Sissies! And I am only part sissy, so I did get on the bike today. After 40 minutes, I came back to bed to rest. I plan on trying one more trail on the bike tonight - a more difficult one since I can't walk outside. I tried to go out and walk 2 miles with my walking stick for extra support, but its FLOODED outside! Standing water everywhere in my "psycho-path". I do hope it starts soaking into the ground as we are expecting a lot of rain this weekend. <BR> <BR> So I took extra medication this af... Tue, 14 Jan 2014 17:20:27 EST Doctor's Suck!! I went to my doctor today for an emergency visit as I still cannot stand still or sit or even lay down without screaming. I have not been able to go to the bathroom now because it has pinched that particular nerve so I have packed on 5 freaking pounds since I weighed in LAST NIGHT. That does NOT make me happy at all, but at least I know what is going on. He told me that not being able to go to the bathroom concerns him. Well, yeah. It concerns me a lot more than it concern him. I wanted to sa... Mon, 13 Jan 2014 19:24:35 EST Shaving the hound... a HUGE job. I don't have much to share today. My parents had to dress up for a lodge installation this evening. They were both like "OMG, It's so hot in these dress clothes!" It was 77 degrees in the house, after all. Now it is raining like all get out, so mom's hair has gone flat and she wasn't impressed about going in the first place, so I am sure she is red-faced by now. <BR> <BR> I am shaving Jackson. Well, starting to shave Jackson, I guess you should say. He is a Border Collie mix and has ... Sat, 11 Jan 2014 18:25:56 EST I saw a "3" today! I have been in the 240s for too long now. I was 225, then up to 250 (for goodness sake!), then down to 245-ish. After being off the scale for 4 days, I decided to step on see how the transition to cycling more than walking was working out. I was at 239.2. 239.4 this morning after being up until 4am last night. I think I ate a turkey dog and the remaining mac 'n' cheese at 3am because I lost my dinner to the porcelain again... dang medication! <BR> <BR> So I shook up the program and it s... Fri, 10 Jan 2014 12:45:22 EST Can't sit still. Can't stand still. Gotta Walk! I have had it with my spine. It hurts to lay down, sit up and stand. So I walked. I planned to just walk 2 miles, but my back said "hey, let's do 3!" So I rolled up my sweatpants, pulled up my shirt sleeves and walked 3 miles. The final mile in the drizzling rain, which felt kinda good since I was somewhat overdressed. It's 57 degrees out, cloudy, but no wind - thank goodness! So it was a good day to walk, especially after having to sit on my bum all day yesterday. <BR> <BR> Now I nee... Thu, 9 Jan 2014 14:34:38 EST New Ankles on order from Amazon! NOT REALLY! But it was a great title! <BR> <BR> I saw my podiatrist today for the first time ever. Not only is he hunky and cute, but he has a couple of tattoos and is a riot. He loved it when I told him I haven't been able to wear hooker shoes since I was 25!! HAHA!! His response was "Yeah! Who doesn't want that!" So I think we are going to hit it off just fine. <BR> <BR> I took my shoes and socks off. As soon as he saw my feet hanging limply from the end of my legs, he shook his h... Wed, 8 Jan 2014 18:52:15 EST Worked Out Like a Mad Woman Today!!! It is COOOOOOOLLLLLDDDDD in NE Florida today. I woke up to 25 degrees, feeling like 10. Of course they say it'll be 79 on Saturday. And people wonder why Floridians are crazy and can't do simple things like vote correctly. HAHA <BR> <BR> So today was a day of me switching up my old workout routine so I can try to break this plateau. I ended up riding the bike for 13 miles, hit the weights for 40 minutes in a room that was only 40 degrees. Yep, I worked up a sweat in 40 degrees... perfe... Tue, 7 Jan 2014 20:22:53 EST Finding my "Whatever" Attitude It seems that my attitude is finally swinging back around to the "whatever" philosophy I try to achieve on a daily basis. I don't want to be sad, angry, depressed, broken, bruised, etc. anymore. <BR> <BR> So I am dropping off bags of "wasteful thoughts and people" at the curb for trash pickup, and I am moving on. I can't kick my own butt any more than I already have. And my aggression is just fueling the depression. So... I do have a mental health consult appointment on Friday after my... Mon, 6 Jan 2014 16:54:14 EST