ANGIEN9's SparkPeople Blog ANGIEN9's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Enjoying new apt. <em>334</em> I am happy in my new apartment. I called a friend I hadn't talked to in about a year. It was so good to talk to her. She can relate to the weight challenge. We are the same age and it was so good to talk to her. She is only working one job. The last 20 years she has had 3 or 4 jobs at a time. Now she is traveling and enjoying herself. She still works, but has good vacation time. She made me feel really good. We talked for an hour. <BR> <BR> I have a good log in streak going.... Thu, 16 Apr 2015 00:16:02 EST Almost moved in... yes. I had some help over the weekend and my storage shed was emptied. It is all in my new apartment now. My own furniture in my own space. I didn't realize how much I had missed having it. The recliner I bought used along with my desk (it looks smaller now). My kitchen table makes me want to make some cards or do some scrap booking. (it is bigger than the one in my soon to be old apartment.) <BR> <BR> Tomorrow I have more help and hopefully we will finish moving things. Now I mostly have bo... Mon, 2 Mar 2015 08:56:47 EST Moving I got a call from the manager of the apartments. I can start moving my small stuff into the apt Friday and Saturday. She lives on site so will just give her back the keys when I am done. I will get the keys officially on Tuesday. I am so excited. I am going to take things out to my car a little at a time. Fragile things, my clothes, shoes and some kitchen stuff. That way if I am over there I can have stuff to cook, dishes and pots and pans. Actually I am using paper plates and plastic ware. ... Wed, 25 Feb 2015 23:08:10 EST Brrrr..... We are in the 20's again with snow falling. Hard to adjust to after such nice weather, but what would we do without our lovely, warm Chinook winds blowing through and melting our snow and giving us 50 degree weather in the middle of winter?? <BR> <BR> I finally figured out that I pulled the ligament the runs over the IT band and hip. I had it massaged the other day. It hurts to touch it now, but using essential oils and heat on it. Walking doesn't hurt as bad. My Licensed Massage Therapist t... Sat, 21 Feb 2015 19:44:28 EST Brighter by daylight Everything looks different in the daylight. I don't feel as discouraged today. Need to get more boxes. The deadline is starting to get closer for moving. I am proud of how much I have gotten done by myself. <BR> <BR> I am off to a funeral and then an appointment with the periodontist. When I have a short-term plan to get back on track <em>334</em> I will blog again. <BR> <BR> Angie Tue, 17 Feb 2015 13:07:15 EST Feeling defeated. I have been thinking today about my initial weight loss and the regain of 30 some pounds. I know part of the regain is medication. The part that just makes me want to scream at myself is the over-eating thus creating pain in my knees and spine from the weight. <em>39</em> I have fallen back into a pattern of unhealthy eating and little to no exercise. <em>15</em> I did so well for 3 years. I took of 80 pounds and was under 200 pounds. <em>9</em> My knees didn't hurt. I wasn't eating... Tue, 17 Feb 2015 00:52:00 EST Warm week We have had some very nice weather. The Chinook winds blew in the past week and our snow is almost gone. So what is in the forecast you ask? Well, snow of course, this is Montana! <BR> <BR> I am glad the roads are clear for this new round of snow. I am not sure how much we are going to get. Hopefully not 2 feet like last time. <BR> <BR> I did <em>237</em> exercises today and walked over 5,000 steps, I think it might be time to move up to 6,000 steps soon. Anyway, I am so tired. I am goin... Thu, 29 Jan 2015 22:28:06 EST Disappointing loss... yes I am talking about the Packers. They really gave the game away. Oh well, there is always next year. <BR> <BR> I go to the pool today for medical exercise. My muscles have been spasming and very uncomfortable since last week. I sat too long on Saturday and that will do it. Now need to exercise them and get them looser. <BR> <BR> I am going to a friend's and cooking my turkey today. Not a big meal. My apartment oven is just too small to cook the turkey. Then I will get to make soup. I m... Mon, 19 Jan 2015 12:26:34 EST The pool clear, blue water and 90 degrees. It felt so good yesterday. My tight muscles were able to relax and I feel like I have a young body when I get out. Especially after spending some time in the hot tub, then taking a hot shower. My arthritis doesn't like the cold either, but relaxes some with the workout. I felt good the rest of the day. I tried to walk around my apartment and stand every 30 minutes, so I didn't get stiff. <BR> <BR> <BR> Today the <em>67</em> is shining and it looks like ... Tue, 13 Jan 2015 13:51:05 EST Snow expected We could get 2 - 5 inches of snow today on top of what we got yesterday. I am thankful that my exercise today is to do exercises in the pool. It will be hard today as the water is 90 degrees and I didn't get much sleep last night. <em>237</em> I get a bit tired after I do my exercises and then sit in the hot tub. I won't linger long in the hot tub today. <BR> <BR> I haven't been getting my daily exercise. Seems like eating over the Christmas holiday was what I did. I don't think I gained ... Mon, 29 Dec 2014 08:51:31 EST Starting slow I feel a bit like the tortoise in the story of the tortoise and the hare. I haven't gotten back to the fitness gym for 2 weeks, but have been doing exercises in the pool. Yesterday I finally pulled out a dvd and walked in my apartment. Then I did my PT exercises. Oh are my IT Bands tight and sore. The part of my IT Bands that hurt are from my knee to my hips. I don't have arthritis in my hips, which is a good thing. Just need to get those IT bands stretched. <BR> <BR> Today is Sunday and I ... Mon, 15 Dec 2014 00:28:15 EST I didn't over eat today. Happy Thanksgiving to all. I am a blessed person to be able to spend this Thanksgiving with family; to hear from family in another state ; and to hear from friends all over the USA. <BR> <BR> Happy to say I ate in moderation today and am pleased I was able to do that. <BR> <BR> I am excited to be done with PT and now in a medical exercise program where I can use a pool to exercise and the rehab fitness room on land, too. The pool is great exercise. I never thought I really got that much ex... Fri, 28 Nov 2014 01:36:29 EST september 2014 Still having trouble getting the tracking food routine down. Not really sure why. Maybe it is because it seems like I eat so much I would be tracking all the time. Sigh...I see the Sports Medicine Doctor tomorrow and hoping he will give me a shot in my right knee and maybe prescribe PT for my IT Bands. I went to Sam's Club this morning and I wasn't sure I was going to make it around the store. <BR> <em>311</em> <BR> I did make it through the store with only a few items. That was a good th... Mon, 15 Sep 2014 17:23:39 EST Still struggling with... tracking my food and exercise. <em>198</em> The days I do track I am so far above my calories it is ridiculous!! <em>262</em> And the soda habit is stronger than before I went into the hospital. <BR> <BR> I know I am in charge of what I eat. I know I am in charge of how much I do exercise or not. I know it is partially the medication I am now taking. <em>273</em> <BR> <BR> The doctor said yesterday I can go off it in 3 weeks. I will be so thrilled!! <BR> <BR> Until then I wil... Fri, 25 Jul 2014 18:35:55 EST Starting over... I have been struggling with my mental illness. I attempted suicide and finally realized that God has a plan for me. He will take me when it is my time and not before. I am looking forward to each new day. It is time to reevaluate my exercise <BR> <em>311</em> and eating habits. <em>4</em> <BR> <BR> I really believe I have been given a second chance to prove to myself that I am a good person. My self image needs to be built up some more. I know it is not going to be easy. I am determin... Wed, 18 Jun 2014 02:54:37 EST Spring weather My joints are aching from the spring weather. The L knee has no damage to the partial, but is getting arthritis in the rest of the knee. Got my Fitbit Flex wristbands at Best Buy. Not taking enough steps throughout the day. Only averaging 2,500 a day...not good. If the sun would come out and stay out I might feel more inclined to go for a walk. Don't like to walk on the city streets. Too much traffic and people staring. We have biking paths and I may resort to going to one of them. <BR> <BR... Wed, 9 Apr 2014 16:45:35 EST Exercise put on hold.... until I see my orthopedic doctor on Wednesday. I have had a couple of falls and my knee has been hurting. Besides I haven't been in since 2010 shortly after I had surgery. I remember the doctor saying he wouldn't have done the surgery unless I had lost 100 pounds. Well, I have gained a little back, but I think he will be pleased with the weight I have lost. <BR> <BR> Unfortunately, my appetite is still just like it would be if I was exercising. I am hungry all the time. What gives? I know s... Mon, 24 Mar 2014 05:54:08 EST lost my motivation... It was a tough year last year and the new year has started out a little bumpy for me. I am maintaining my weight around 200 pounds. Not were I wanted to be in 2014. I haven't been exercising much, but must start my back, neck and mid-back exercises as I am in a lot of pain. My knees are even hurting again. Not trying to complain...just telling you were I am at today. <BR> <BR> <em>4</em> Food tastes better now and I am not as strict as I was when beginning SP. I never have swore off any ... Wed, 12 Feb 2014 17:45:08 EST Goodbye 2013 It is the last day of 2013. I am happy to put it behind me. <BR> <BR> Happy 2014 everyone!! <BR> <BR> angie Tue, 31 Dec 2013 18:05:26 EST I know I have... had a good workout when my body doesn't hurt all the time. Thu, 5 Dec 2013 05:15:55 EST meals Cereal, soy milk <BR> Pork loin left over, mixed veggies, potato. <BR> Chicken breaded and baked in oven, fresh green beans, steamed, noodles. <BR> <BR> Lets see if I can do it!! <BR> <BR> Sun, 1 Dec 2013 21:19:43 EST one sentence... I feel thankful. Sat, 30 Nov 2013 08:40:41 EST my 5 things The five reasons why I should exercise. <BR> Help with my weight. <BR> Make me more flexible. <BR> To be more active and keep up with friends and family. <BR> To prevent diabetes. <BR> To hellp with my osteoporosis. <BR> <BR> There are many more reasons, but the most important thing is to start again with the exercising. <BR> <BR> Have a great evening! <BR> Angie <BR> <BR> <BR> Fri, 29 Nov 2013 22:14:46 EST old clothes I donated my old clothes. I felt this was a life long change and I would never wear them again. Wed, 27 Nov 2013 18:12:40 EST REMD Rapid Eye Movement Desensitization....if I have my letters in the right order. <BR> <BR> Yesterday my therapist used some of this technique to help me with guided imagery. Being depressed I couldn't think of a safe place. I don't feel really safe right now...not suicidal...just not comfortable and safe. So my therapist guided me to a safe place. I found it at home today in my chair for 15 minutes. Not a bad first try. <BR> <BR> The last therapist that tried it used tapping. She was next to ... Sat, 23 Nov 2013 20:09:31 EST 3 things I accomplished today I wasn't going to go anywhere today, because the roads were still bad. Well, I changed my mind. I went to the pharmacy to get some calcium. Went to JCPenney to see about my gift card. I had a service plan on my watch and they couldn't fix it. I got a $35 gift card. I wasn't going to buy a new watch, but I found a really cute one for $9.99. Then I went by the Christmas gift wrap and decided I needed that, so I bought 2 rolls, 2 gift bags...should have waited on those...not such a good deal, an... Thu, 21 Nov 2013 21:34:29 EST A New Week... It is a new week. I keep waking up at night with night sweats. Usually it is because it is too hot in my apartment. Well, it isn't too hot as I have turned my heat down...I think my comforter is too heavy. I am thinking of changing to a blanket to see how I do. I just can't find a happy medium. I may have to start running the fan at night. <BR> <BR> This is at 68 degrees. I don't really want to turn it down too much more than that. I have hot water heat. Usually 68 is just right. Maybe I w... Mon, 18 Nov 2013 11:02:53 EST Dark Dark nights...they are so long. I was helped to realize that my depression really does start when the time changes. I don't like to go places at night which leaves me in my apartment for a long night. <BR> <BR> The chill in the air has also made my arthritis act up. So not only am I dealing with emotional pain...I have physical pain on top of it. <BR> <BR> Dark nights...short days. And yet I can be thankful for my many blessings. I have a house over my head with heat. I have food for my st... Sat, 16 Nov 2013 15:36:07 EST Overwhelmed... This past week I have been totally overwhelmed. I have been slipping into the abyss. My abyss is anxiety and depression. I have noticed I don't want to leave my house and won't go in certain stores or restaurants. So two days ago I called my doctor and thankfully he had a cancellation yesterday! It seems I am needing to take my medication that I can take as needed...I need right now. So he said even if I am at home and I might not feel anxious...take that medication regularly anyway. Same as ... Thu, 14 Nov 2013 10:59:01 EST Sunshine and warmer We had some snow and cold weather Sunday night and Monday. The weather man at the airport said we got 2.3 inches (??) I think that was what he said. It could all melt today. We may have a 50 degree day! That's why I love Montana! You just never know what the weather might do from one day to the next! <BR> <BR> I took down my Halloween decorations and put up my snowmen. I figured it was time. Probably won't do a lot more than that for Christmas. My cat just gets into everything!! I might pick... Tue, 12 Nov 2013 13:02:18 EST Thursday I am feeling hopeful today. Thu, 7 Nov 2013 07:15:50 EST What have I lost? Spark Coach said to write a blog about something that represents the weight I have lost. <BR> <BR> All I can compare my lost to is a 95 pound person. <BR> <BR> I don't have a picture to post of a 95 pound person, but you can all imagine it in your head. <BR> <BR> <em>380</em> <em>204</em> <em>9</em> <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> Angie Wed, 6 Nov 2013 21:20:47 EST Spark Coach says "Name one thing you like about your body " I like my blue eyes, my calf muscles, my smile, and my brain. <BR> <BR> My blue eyes draw attention away from my body. My smile can light up a room. My calf mudcles are well defined and look good when I wear shorts. And brain, even with having a mental illness is sharp most of the time. It loves to learn new things. And has always been an asset to me. <BR> <BR> Hope you all find something u like about your bodies, too!! <BR> <BR> Angie Sun, 3 Nov 2013 12:21:09 EST restricting H2O This is a very hard thing for me to do. I get hungry faster, because sometimes I am just thristy. <BR> <BR> Low blood sodium can be very serious and have some nasty affects to my body. Hoping and praying I can get it stable. <BR> <BR> I really like my water!!! <BR> <BR> Angie Sat, 2 Nov 2013 20:44:44 EST blood work up is back Well, the lab results I had drawn on Wednesday are back. I got a call from the nurse and she said my sodium is low again like when I was in the hospital. Now I am drinking too much water. I just can't hit a happy medium!! Now I need to cut back on water and add extra salt to my diet. The results of low sodium could be headaches, seizures, restlessness, confusion and weakness. I told my friend/neighbor as she is the closest one...right next door, in case something happens. <BR> <BR> I got my ... Fri, 1 Nov 2013 17:10:30 EST Trying to stay busy. I have so many things on my mind. Just can't quit thinking about stuff. Not good stuff, either. I did take my friend to Walgreen's and I went and volunteered at NAMI for a couple hours. <BR> <BR> I am going to write in my journal about what's on my mind. Yesterday my hand got sore from writing. <BR> <BR> It is 54 degrees here today, but windy. Not a very pleasant night to Trick or Treat for the kids. The snow is all melted already, so that is good for the kids. <BR> <BR> Angie Thu, 31 Oct 2013 17:40:07 EST Encouraged I let my therapist read my journal and he is encouraged that he can help me. Made me feel good instead of hopeless. <BR> <BR> I usually over eat especially at night. Tonight I don't feel the need to over eat. <BR> <BR> I forget how many friends I have, but many friends contacted me today. <BR> <BR> Just 3 things to be grateful about today. <BR> <BR> Tue, 29 Oct 2013 21:11:21 EST Sawing logs... I slept 11 hours last night. I feel a little better today. Get to see my therapist this evening. Things always look brighter in the daylight, although I must admit I am still distressed. I have been writing in my journal to just get it out. <BR> <BR> Let Go and Let God is a hard concept for me. I know what it means...just not good at doing it!! <BR> <BR> My goals for today are: <BR> Eat a good, healthy breakfast, lunch and dinner. <BR> Take a shower. <BR> Go for a short walk outside. <BR> G... Tue, 29 Oct 2013 12:23:47 EST The quiet before the storm. The morning started out beautiful. It was sunny and a little cool (not sure what the temperature was when I got up.) I started feeling sick around 11 am. Not sure what was going on with my stomach. <BR> <BR> Then I had a meltdown. I know Heavenly Father watches over us, because the Bishop noticed I wasn't in church and called me. He came over later. It is so nice to talk to him. I feel safe in his presence and I can feel the Holy Ghost comforting me when he gives me a blessing. <BR> <BR> ... Mon, 28 Oct 2013 02:47:17 EST Beautiful Saturday!! I got up this morning and went to the grocery store. ( Yes, I ate breakfast first! )Unloaded groceries and put my chicken in water and broth to boil. I decided I would make chicken veggie and noodle soup. <em>485</em> <em>291</em> <em>373</em> <em>194</em> <em>369</em> and some egg noodles were added to half the meat without skin or bones. I also add a can of cream of chicken soup to my soup. I think it gives it a good flavor and since I don't use many spices I like that flavor... Sat, 26 Oct 2013 17:35:07 EST Remember.... it is what you make it, so make it <em>250</em> !! <BR> <BR> <em>252</em> <em>381</em> <em>386</em> <BR> <BR> Angie <em>213</em> Wed, 23 Oct 2013 10:37:53 EST Wii So glad I hooked up the Wii. I have been bowling, golfing and boxing. Today I knocked out 3 of my challengers! 3 of 3...not a bad record so far! <BR> <BR> <em>326</em> <BR> <BR> It was a beautiful sunny day here today. Got out with a friend from church to do some visiting teaching. Love to get together with her! <BR> <BR> <em>149</em> The ladies we visit are great and fun to visit. <BR> <BR> Going to Linda's for dinner. Nothing too calorie laden. I had an afternoon snack to curb m... Tue, 22 Oct 2013 18:41:02 EST Rough day yesterday. Went to the dollar store yesterday. I think I was around way too many people as I had to hurry to get home. I started getting really anxious in the car driving home. <BR> <BR> Then I had a rough evening and chose to go to bed earlier than normal. I went to bed with earphones on listening to Pandora One Radio. I turned it to a Ocean waves channel. It was soothing. <BR> <BR> Slept 10 hours so must have need it. I didn't go to church today as I just wasn't up for it today. Still feeling a litt... Sun, 20 Oct 2013 20:32:21 EST We need sodium...but do you need to eat less salt? Spark Coach Challenge today - Watch your sodium intake and the sodium in your foods. Sat, 19 Oct 2013 11:32:28 EST More on Spark Coach Challenge Eat slower! Taste your food! Eat less! Wed, 16 Oct 2013 13:17:20 EST October 16, 2013 Spark Coach Challenge Today's challenge is particularly hard for me. The challenge is to slow down and savor your food. I am a fast eater. When I was working I had 30 minutes to eat lunch. Well, I am not proud to say I was also a smoker at the time. If I ate quickly I could smoke a couple cigarettes and since we had a designated smoking area that might be the only ones I would get in 8 - 10 hours. <BR> <BR> I am pleased to say I gave up smoking many years ago. It just got way too expensive. It wasn't even becaus... Wed, 16 Oct 2013 08:45:28 EST Vet to Go update... Vet to Go called and said...oops Lucie is a Lewie! No wonder he was so rambunctious! Maybe now he will settle down a little <em>241</em> ! Tue, 15 Oct 2013 19:01:49 EST Vet to Go I drove my friend and her kitten to get spayed this morning. I thought it was at the Yellowstone County Animal Shelter after all she made the appointment over 3 weeks ago. (I have a pretty short memory. Especially for something that isn't an appointment for me.) Anyway, we had to come back to the apartment and get the address. Well, I got all turned around looking for it and it was getting closer to 9 am which was the appointment time. My friend was panicking. I remembered...I have a cell ph... Tue, 15 Oct 2013 17:25:15 EST Up Early... I am up early today for a doctor's appointment. I thought I might see a little snow on the ground, but fortunately it is 38 degrees so no snow!! I am not quite ready for snow. I missed out on most of the summer by being in the hospital and I am enjoying the cooler fall weather. Not ready for winter yet! <BR> <BR> <em>27</em> It does look wet outside, so must have continued to rain some last night. <BR> <BR> Have a pleasant day! <BR> <BR> Angie Mon, 14 Oct 2013 07:27:13 EST 10 minutes a day... Walked 10 minutes yesterday and a little over that today. Trying to keep that up. Eating good. Got a Bountiful Basket yesterday. 10 year anniversary of Mom's passing. Keeping it together quite well! Sun, 13 Oct 2013 12:34:22 EST