ANGIEN9's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=ANGIEN9 ANGIEN9's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Still struggling with... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5746537 tracking my food and exercise. <em>198</em> The days I do track I am so far above my calories it is ridiculous!! <em>262</em> And the soda habit is stronger than before I went into the hospital. <BR> <BR> I know I am in charge of what I eat. I know I am in charge of how much I do exercise or not. I know it is partially the medication I am now taking. <em>273</em> <BR> <BR> The doctor said yesterday I can go off it in 3 weeks. I will be so thrilled!! <BR> <BR> Until then I wil... Fri, 25 Jul 2014 18:35:55 EST Starting over... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5720316 I have been struggling with my mental illness. I attempted suicide and finally realized that God has a plan for me. He will take me when it is my time and not before. I am looking forward to each new day. It is time to reevaluate my exercise <BR> <em>311</em> and eating habits. <em>4</em> <BR> <BR> I really believe I have been given a second chance to prove to myself that I am a good person. My self image needs to be built up some more. I know it is not going to be easy. I am determin... Wed, 18 Jun 2014 02:54:37 EST Spring weather http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5668410 My joints are aching from the spring weather. The L knee has no damage to the partial, but is getting arthritis in the rest of the knee. Got my Fitbit Flex wristbands at Best Buy. Not taking enough steps throughout the day. Only averaging 2,500 a day...not good. If the sun would come out and stay out I might feel more inclined to go for a walk. Don't like to walk on the city streets. Too much traffic and people staring. We have biking paths and I may resort to going to one of them. <BR> <BR... Wed, 9 Apr 2014 16:45:35 EST Exercise put on hold.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5655065 until I see my orthopedic doctor on Wednesday. I have had a couple of falls and my knee has been hurting. Besides I haven't been in since 2010 shortly after I had surgery. I remember the doctor saying he wouldn't have done the surgery unless I had lost 100 pounds. Well, I have gained a little back, but I think he will be pleased with the weight I have lost. <BR> <BR> Unfortunately, my appetite is still just like it would be if I was exercising. I am hungry all the time. What gives? I know s... Mon, 24 Mar 2014 05:54:08 EST lost my motivation... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5622486 It was a tough year last year and the new year has started out a little bumpy for me. I am maintaining my weight around 200 pounds. Not were I wanted to be in 2014. I haven't been exercising much, but must start my back, neck and mid-back exercises as I am in a lot of pain. My knees are even hurting again. Not trying to complain...just telling you were I am at today. <BR> <BR> <em>4</em> Food tastes better now and I am not as strict as I was when beginning SP. I never have swore off any ... Wed, 12 Feb 2014 17:45:08 EST Goodbye 2013 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5576985 It is the last day of 2013. I am happy to put it behind me. <BR> <BR> Happy 2014 everyone!! <BR> <BR> angie Tue, 31 Dec 2013 18:05:26 EST I know I have... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5557310 had a good workout when my body doesn't hurt all the time. Thu, 5 Dec 2013 05:15:55 EST meals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5554558 Cereal, soy milk <BR> Pork loin left over, mixed veggies, potato. <BR> Chicken breaded and baked in oven, fresh green beans, steamed, noodles. <BR> <BR> Lets see if I can do it!! <BR> <BR> Sun, 1 Dec 2013 21:19:43 EST one sentence... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5553261 I feel thankful. Sat, 30 Nov 2013 08:40:41 EST my 5 things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5553058 The five reasons why I should exercise. <BR> Help with my weight. <BR> Make me more flexible. <BR> To be more active and keep up with friends and family. <BR> To prevent diabetes. <BR> To hellp with my osteoporosis. <BR> <BR> There are many more reasons, but the most important thing is to start again with the exercising. <BR> <BR> Have a great evening! <BR> Angie <BR> <BR> <BR> Fri, 29 Nov 2013 22:14:46 EST old clothes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5551706 I donated my old clothes. I felt this was a life long change and I would never wear them again. Wed, 27 Nov 2013 18:12:40 EST REMD http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5548636 Rapid Eye Movement Desensitization....if I have my letters in the right order. <BR> <BR> Yesterday my therapist used some of this technique to help me with guided imagery. Being depressed I couldn't think of a safe place. I don't feel really safe right now...not suicidal...just not comfortable and safe. So my therapist guided me to a safe place. I found it at home today in my chair for 15 minutes. Not a bad first try. <BR> <BR> The last therapist that tried it used tapping. She was next to ... Sat, 23 Nov 2013 20:09:31 EST 3 things I accomplished today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5547242 I wasn't going to go anywhere today, because the roads were still bad. Well, I changed my mind. I went to the pharmacy to get some calcium. Went to JCPenney to see about my gift card. I had a service plan on my watch and they couldn't fix it. I got a $35 gift card. I wasn't going to buy a new watch, but I found a really cute one for $9.99. Then I went by the Christmas gift wrap and decided I needed that, so I bought 2 rolls, 2 gift bags...should have waited on those...not such a good deal, an... Thu, 21 Nov 2013 21:34:29 EST A New Week... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5544219 It is a new week. I keep waking up at night with night sweats. Usually it is because it is too hot in my apartment. Well, it isn't too hot as I have turned my heat down...I think my comforter is too heavy. I am thinking of changing to a blanket to see how I do. I just can't find a happy medium. I may have to start running the fan at night. <BR> <BR> This is at 68 degrees. I don't really want to turn it down too much more than that. I have hot water heat. Usually 68 is just right. Maybe I w... Mon, 18 Nov 2013 11:02:53 EST Dark http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5542782 Dark nights...they are so long. I was helped to realize that my depression really does start when the time changes. I don't like to go places at night which leaves me in my apartment for a long night. <BR> <BR> The chill in the air has also made my arthritis act up. So not only am I dealing with emotional pain...I have physical pain on top of it. <BR> <BR> Dark nights...short days. And yet I can be thankful for my many blessings. I have a house over my head with heat. I have food for my st... Sat, 16 Nov 2013 15:36:07 EST Overwhelmed... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5541021 This past week I have been totally overwhelmed. I have been slipping into the abyss. My abyss is anxiety and depression. I have noticed I don't want to leave my house and won't go in certain stores or restaurants. So two days ago I called my doctor and thankfully he had a cancellation yesterday! It seems I am needing to take my medication that I can take as needed...I need right now. So he said even if I am at home and I might not feel anxious...take that medication regularly anyway. Same as ... Thu, 14 Nov 2013 10:59:01 EST Sunshine and warmer http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5539236 We had some snow and cold weather Sunday night and Monday. The weather man at the airport said we got 2.3 inches (??) I think that was what he said. It could all melt today. We may have a 50 degree day! That's why I love Montana! You just never know what the weather might do from one day to the next! <BR> <BR> I took down my Halloween decorations and put up my snowmen. I figured it was time. Probably won't do a lot more than that for Christmas. My cat just gets into everything!! I might pick... Tue, 12 Nov 2013 13:02:18 EST Thursday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5534577 I am feeling hopeful today. Thu, 7 Nov 2013 07:15:50 EST What have I lost? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5534311 Spark Coach said to write a blog about something that represents the weight I have lost. <BR> <BR> All I can compare my lost to is a 95 pound person. <BR> <BR> I don't have a picture to post of a 95 pound person, but you can all imagine it in your head. <BR> <BR> <em>380</em> <em>204</em> <em>9</em> <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> Angie Wed, 6 Nov 2013 21:20:47 EST Spark Coach says "Name one thing you like about your body " http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5530926 I like my blue eyes, my calf muscles, my smile, and my brain. <BR> <BR> My blue eyes draw attention away from my body. My smile can light up a room. My calf mudcles are well defined and look good when I wear shorts. And lasty...my brain, even with having a mental illness is sharp most of the time. It loves to learn new things. And has always been an asset to me. <BR> <BR> Hope you all find something u like about your bodies, too!! <BR> <BR> Angie Sun, 3 Nov 2013 12:21:09 EST restricting H2O http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5530357 This is a very hard thing for me to do. I get hungry faster, because sometimes I am just thristy. <BR> <BR> Low blood sodium can be very serious and have some nasty affects to my body. Hoping and praying I can get it stable. <BR> <BR> I really like my water!!! <BR> <BR> Angie Sat, 2 Nov 2013 20:44:44 EST blood work up is back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5529455 Well, the lab results I had drawn on Wednesday are back. I got a call from the nurse and she said my sodium is low again like when I was in the hospital. Now I am drinking too much water. I just can't hit a happy medium!! Now I need to cut back on water and add extra salt to my diet. The results of low sodium could be headaches, seizures, restlessness, confusion and weakness. I told my friend/neighbor as she is the closest one...right next door, in case something happens. <BR> <BR> I got my ... Fri, 1 Nov 2013 17:10:30 EST Trying to stay busy. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5528543 I have so many things on my mind. Just can't quit thinking about stuff. Not good stuff, either. I did take my friend to Walgreen's and I went and volunteered at NAMI for a couple hours. <BR> <BR> I am going to write in my journal about what's on my mind. Yesterday my hand got sore from writing. <BR> <BR> It is 54 degrees here today, but windy. Not a very pleasant night to Trick or Treat for the kids. The snow is all melted already, so that is good for the kids. <BR> <BR> Angie Thu, 31 Oct 2013 17:40:07 EST Encouraged http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5526851 I let my therapist read my journal and he is encouraged that he can help me. Made me feel good instead of hopeless. <BR> <BR> I usually over eat especially at night. Tonight I don't feel the need to over eat. <BR> <BR> I forget how many friends I have, but many friends contacted me today. <BR> <BR> Just 3 things to be grateful about today. <BR> <BR> Tue, 29 Oct 2013 21:11:21 EST Sawing logs... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5526501 I slept 11 hours last night. I feel a little better today. Get to see my therapist this evening. Things always look brighter in the daylight, although I must admit I am still distressed. I have been writing in my journal to just get it out. <BR> <BR> Let Go and Let God is a hard concept for me. I know what it means...just not good at doing it!! <BR> <BR> My goals for today are: <BR> Eat a good, healthy breakfast, lunch and dinner. <BR> Take a shower. <BR> Go for a short walk outside. <BR> G... Tue, 29 Oct 2013 12:23:47 EST The quiet before the storm. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5525157 The morning started out beautiful. It was sunny and a little cool (not sure what the temperature was when I got up.) I started feeling sick around 11 am. Not sure what was going on with my stomach. <BR> <BR> Then I had a meltdown. I know Heavenly Father watches over us, because the Bishop noticed I wasn't in church and called me. He came over later. It is so nice to talk to him. I feel safe in his presence and I can feel the Holy Ghost comforting me when he gives me a blessing. <BR> <BR> ... Mon, 28 Oct 2013 02:47:17 EST Beautiful Saturday!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5524052 I got up this morning and went to the grocery store. ( Yes, I ate breakfast first! )Unloaded groceries and put my chicken in water and broth to boil. I decided I would make chicken veggie and noodle soup. <em>485</em> <em>291</em> <em>373</em> <em>194</em> <em>369</em> and some egg noodles were added to half the meat without skin or bones. I also add a can of cream of chicken soup to my soup. I think it gives it a good flavor and since I don't use many spices I like that flavor... Sat, 26 Oct 2013 17:35:07 EST Remember.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5521207 it is what you make it, so make it <em>250</em> !! <BR> <BR> <em>252</em> <em>381</em> <em>386</em> <BR> <BR> Angie <em>213</em> Wed, 23 Oct 2013 10:37:53 EST Wii http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5520601 So glad I hooked up the Wii. I have been bowling, golfing and boxing. Today I knocked out 3 of my challengers! 3 of 3...not a bad record so far! <BR> <BR> <em>326</em> <BR> <BR> It was a beautiful sunny day here today. Got out with a friend from church to do some visiting teaching. Love to get together with her! <BR> <BR> <em>149</em> The ladies we visit are great and fun to visit. <BR> <BR> Going to Linda's for dinner. Nothing too calorie laden. I had an afternoon snack to curb m... Tue, 22 Oct 2013 18:41:02 EST Rough day yesterday. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5518790 Went to the dollar store yesterday. I think I was around way too many people as I had to hurry to get home. I started getting really anxious in the car driving home. <BR> <BR> Then I had a rough evening and chose to go to bed earlier than normal. I went to bed with earphones on listening to Pandora One Radio. I turned it to a Ocean waves channel. It was soothing. <BR> <BR> Slept 10 hours so must have need it. I didn't go to church today as I just wasn't up for it today. Still feeling a litt... Sun, 20 Oct 2013 20:32:21 EST We need sodium...but do you need to eat less salt? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5517695 Spark Coach Challenge today - Watch your sodium intake and the sodium in your foods. Sat, 19 Oct 2013 11:32:28 EST More on Spark Coach Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5515210 Eat slower! Taste your food! Eat less! Wed, 16 Oct 2013 13:17:20 EST October 16, 2013 Spark Coach Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5514958 Today's challenge is particularly hard for me. The challenge is to slow down and savor your food. I am a fast eater. When I was working I had 30 minutes to eat lunch. Well, I am not proud to say I was also a smoker at the time. If I ate quickly I could smoke a couple cigarettes and since we had a designated smoking area that might be the only ones I would get in 8 - 10 hours. <BR> <BR> I am pleased to say I gave up smoking many years ago. It just got way too expensive. It wasn't even becaus... Wed, 16 Oct 2013 08:45:28 EST Vet to Go update... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5514528 Vet to Go called and said...oops Lucie is a Lewie! No wonder he was so rambunctious! Maybe now he will settle down a little <em>241</em> ! Tue, 15 Oct 2013 19:01:49 EST Vet to Go http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5514475 I drove my friend and her kitten to get spayed this morning. I thought it was at the Yellowstone County Animal Shelter after all she made the appointment over 3 weeks ago. (I have a pretty short memory. Especially for something that isn't an appointment for me.) Anyway, we had to come back to the apartment and get the address. Well, I got all turned around looking for it and it was getting closer to 9 am which was the appointment time. My friend was panicking. I remembered...I have a cell ph... Tue, 15 Oct 2013 17:25:15 EST Up Early... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5512918 I am up early today for a doctor's appointment. I thought I might see a little snow on the ground, but fortunately it is 38 degrees so no snow!! I am not quite ready for snow. I missed out on most of the summer by being in the hospital and I am enjoying the cooler fall weather. Not ready for winter yet! <BR> <BR> <em>27</em> It does look wet outside, so must have continued to rain some last night. <BR> <BR> Have a pleasant day! <BR> <BR> Angie Mon, 14 Oct 2013 07:27:13 EST 10 minutes a day... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5512304 Walked 10 minutes yesterday and a little over that today. Trying to keep that up. Eating good. Got a Bountiful Basket yesterday. 10 year anniversary of Mom's passing. Keeping it together quite well! Sun, 13 Oct 2013 12:34:22 EST October 8th, 2013 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5507783 I slept great and feel excellent today! Tue, 8 Oct 2013 09:28:02 EST What would I do with an extra hour in a day?? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5506591 Blogging about having extra time is a challenge for me. You see I rarely have trouble finding that extra hour. I am disabled with a mental illness. (It is Mental Illness Awareness Week this week!) <BR> <BR> That extra hour of time so many people desire makes my days long especially during the long winter nights. <BR> <BR> If I can sit still and concentrate I will often read. Or I make cards or scrap book my pictures. Then there is that much needed thing we all know so well...exercise. Why ... Mon, 7 Oct 2013 04:23:22 EST My relationship with food. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5505778 Spark Coach wants to know about my relationship with food. Right now I would have to say about a 3 on a scale where 1 is not so healthy and 10 is healthy. <BR> <BR> My reasoning is that I am not eating in moderation and my food choices are not the best...just the most convenient!! <BR> <BR> I need to pre-package my favorites. Reduce buying treats. And cook more often for myself. I can make a meal and freeze it instead of heating up something frozen. It will be more nutritious and I will hav... Sun, 6 Oct 2013 08:40:22 EST Weigh in day is now Tuesday. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5501833 Just a quick hi to all my fellow Sparkers out there! Tue, 1 Oct 2013 21:06:38 EST Size 2X to a 16 in 3 years! WooHoo!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5499496 This video was hard to make without help. I used my laptop, because I have tried to use my phone and a mirror without success. I also posted some new pictures on my Spark Page. Anyone know how to rotate the one? Sun, 29 Sep 2013 18:01:29 EST A good old fashioned blog. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5498357 Thanks to everyone that commented on my video blogs. Technology or should I say the laptop technology, is the only way I could have accomplished them. My XP on my old desktop is not at all as user friendly as this Gateway laptop. My Gateway is actually a notebook, but the screen is 15 by 6 like a laptop. It just doesn't have all the bells and whistles of a more expensive laptop. What it does offer is what I use and it is easy to use. <BR> <BR> If you have a computer with a camera you too ca... Sat, 28 Sep 2013 09:15:35 EST 2nd Vlog by Angie http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5497729 Update on how I am doing. Fri, 27 Sep 2013 11:45:32 EST My First Video Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5494988 A short video. Tue, 24 Sep 2013 14:38:57 EST Challenges http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5490419 Today I am focusing on my challenges. It has been a long summer with stays at several hospitals. Relapses with a mental illness can be confusing and very frustrating. Losing insight into what I need to do to stay healthy made it rough. I am back taking care of myself and praying I can keep it up for a long time!! I am slowing getting back on SP. Sorry I disappeared. It was truly not intentional!! <BR> Have a good evening! <BR> Angie <BR> Thu, 19 Sep 2013 17:14:42 EST 6/16/2013 Ate too much before bed... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5390522 I had a real sweet tooth last night and over did it before I went to bed. It wasn't even fifteen minutes after I ate that I went to bed. I just wanted lots of sugar. The main mistake was eating chocolate before bed. That usually gives me bad heartburn, if I eat it less than 2 hours before laying down. <em>493</em> It did taste good!! Don't think I will do that again any time soon! I am too miserable to sleep. I did get 4 hours and maybe I will get a nap before church. I have to teach the ... Sun, 16 Jun 2013 05:08:26 EST 6/14/2013 Drink more water! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5388883 Today on Spark Coach the challenge is to drink more water. To carry around your water bottle all day and refill as needed. I am pleased to say I always carry water around with me when I go places. I also refill and refrigerate many water bottles to keep them handy when I am home. I know I drink 12 to 14 cups of water a day. Some days it might be 10 cups. When you think about it...one 20 oz bottle is more than 2 cups of water. Drink 4 of them a day and you have 80 oz. of water a day. <BR> <BR... Fri, 14 Jun 2013 10:03:40 EST 6/10/2013 Today's challenge... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5384531 Today's challenge on Spark Coach is to prepare your lunch for tomorrow before morning. Pack it tonight, so you don't go eat fast food. <BR> <BR> I am not currently working so I will plan what I will have to eat and make sure I am home to eat it. I tend to stop at Subway or Pita Pit if I am out and about, but at least they are healthier than other places I could stop and eat. <BR> <BR> I am a little less stressed today. It sure was a long weekend! I hope to continue to get good sleep and na... Mon, 10 Jun 2013 12:25:19 EST 6/9/2013 Stressful weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5383876 I have been really stressed all weekend. Actually I am a basket case!! It started Friday evening and has just gotten worse everyday. I don't really want to say much about it, except that I need some support from my Spark Friends. <BR> <BR> Have a good evening and remember me in your thoughts and if you pray, your prayers! <BR> <BR> Thanks! <BR> <BR> Angie <em>198</em> Sun, 9 Jun 2013 22:25:33 EST