ANGIEMUNSON's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=ANGIEMUNSON ANGIEMUNSON's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ why http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5095864 I need to understand why when i eat one thing off my plan of eating i just say hell with it lets eat like a pig...So mad at myself, and so stressed out with life...but I will not give up and i will continue to write about my struggles until i get it. Thu, 11 Oct 2012 22:56:02 EST For Today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5092114 So today was a very bad stress day for me at work i feel very under appreciated, my husbands van broke down and now we have to share a car. I was hoping to find a new job, because right now my husband is in school and not working and my job has made some cuts, now that can't happen. SO I felt very upset, very disused with how my life was going, self pity and on and on. However today I did not over eat, I wanted to but i didn't. I kept my eye on the big picture that was a huge thing for me as ... Tue, 9 Oct 2012 00:32:21 EST Dreams http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5090728 Picture five things you want in your life, whether they are people, goals, experiences or things. How will reaching your small goals today help you achieve those dreams, too? <BR> <BR> 1. I want to have a baby <BR> 2. I want to be free for medical issues <BR> 3. I want to walk a 5k <BR> 4. I want to fit into all table, booths, rides ect <BR> 5. I want to feel peace <BR> <BR> By sticking with my small goals and adding to them will help me see that i'm worth it in the long wrong. Mon, 8 Oct 2012 01:27:30 EST OA http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5088990 Went back to OA today its so nice to hear people talk about the same struggles that i have it makes me feel that maybe i'm not crazy or there isn't something wrong with me, its a disease. I'm committed to working this OA plan this time, I'm going to get a sponsor, work the steps and really do it for myself. I find myself saying oh its too much time away from my husband and or i'm so tired cause i work all the time. This time its for me. Sat, 6 Oct 2012 13:07:42 EST Reality http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4864650 So a month ago I was travelling around Seattle area for a few weeks, in a car and developed superficial blood clots. I was told many things like they wont go deep vain, then told they could in someone my size and so on and so on. I came home saw my doctor who told me "I pissed of my system" whatever that is suppose to mean. So hear i am over a month later and i'm still no farther than I was when they first happened. I did see a surgery whom told me that in 14 years I would be dead from weight... Thu, 3 May 2012 12:00:22 EST