ANGEL_GRAVER's SparkPeople Blog ANGEL_GRAVER's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Update So, my last blog entry was at the end of September. I was upset with myself for regaining 17 pounds, and I was ready to get back on track. <BR> <BR> On October 10th, I stopped at Planet Fitness during my lunch hour and took a tour of their facility. I liked what I saw. I also had recommendations from friends who had joined there, and they really liked it. I especially like their stance against "gym-timidation" as they call it. I joined Planet Fitness before leaving the building, and I e... Tue, 1 Apr 2014 09:56:11 EST Why Can't I Do This? I *can* do this. That's the thing. I know that I can. In March, I hit my goal. It wasn't the number on the scale that I originally set for my goal. However, I was happy with how I looked and how I felt. It was good. <BR> <BR> Then I stopped.... tracking food... exercising regularly... everything. Why? I honestly don't know. I've now regained 17 pounds, and my clothes are telling me that I have to do something. I've been trying to get back on the exercise wagon for three week... Mon, 30 Sep 2013 12:25:57 EST I Finally Had To Do It So, I lost 71 pounds and felt great about it! So what did I do? Slacked off on exercising and eating right. I gained back 10 pounds. No, that isn't much, but I am so mad at myself for letting it happen! I have been back on track for the past 2.5 weeks. I re-lost 4 of those pounds. Then I keeping going back and forth though on 2 of those... gain... lose... gain .... lose.... ARGH! <BR> <BR> I'm one of those people who weighs in every day. I know that all the experts say that w... Thu, 20 Jun 2013 12:06:49 EST Too Fat to be Photographed Have you ever thought this? I know that I did... all the time. There are so few pictures of me over the years. I made sure that I was always the one taking the pictures so that I wouldn't be in them. I wish that I had read this many years ago. It certainly is eye opening. It's not very long. Please take a moment to read it. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>ing-too-fat-to-be-photographed/ </link> <BR> <BR> <BR> I am better about this now. I try and get a... Sun, 3 Feb 2013 10:45:13 EST Meeting Other Sparkers Wow... I am really bad at blogging. LOL. I have all of these great thoughts, but I just never seem to sit down and type them all out. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I went to a meetup with other Sparkers. I went with the hope that it would be the kick in the butt that I needed to get going and be diligent again. I've been slacking the last two months and gained a few pounds. That is usually my cliff... where I just fall off the edge and give up completely. The meetup worked! I left the library... Sun, 11 Nov 2012 13:16:13 EST Curves update Well, I did it... I went back last week for my fitness assessment. They weighed me, measured me, and asked lots of questions. We talked about goals and commitment. <BR> <BR> (Bit of a side note here... I have only ever measured my waist once, and it wasn't when I was at my highest weight. I was too chicken to do that. Of course, now I wish I would have! However, I did measure my waist July 2011. When she measured me last week, it was 5.5" smaller! Wow! I had no idea it was THAT... Tue, 16 Oct 2012 07:39:25 EST Now I've Done It <BR> In case you didn't know, my doctor has been monitoring my weight loss. I go and see him once a month for progress reports and to make sure I'm staying healthy. It was helping me to stay on track as I know that I will have to explain myself if I don't lose any weight. <BR> <BR> When I went for my appointment a month ago, I had only lost about 4 pounds. Yes, this isn't bad, but he and I were both hoping for more. Then I got sick, and I was baasically off plan for two weeks. That s... Wed, 3 Oct 2012 13:19:37 EST It hasn't sunk in yet Last weekend I noticed that my shorts were pretty loose, so just for 'fun' I decided to go try on the next size smaller. They fit! The part that hasn't sunk in yet, though.... They are a size 8! <BR> <BR> I cannot even remember the last time that I wore a size 8. I believe I was a size 10 when I got married 16+ years ago. Sun, 9 Sep 2012 12:22:56 EST It's the everyday things.... I am a numbers person. I can't help it. That's just the way I am and have always been. Because of that, I used to weigh myself every day. I had to see those numbers. <BR> <BR> I am trying to now limit myself to weigh in once a week... every Friday. It does drive me insane a little bit. LOL <BR> <BR> However, this morning I had one of those moments when I realize that there are a lot of other things besides the number on the scale that can show progress. <BR> <BR> Not too long ago ... Wed, 13 Jun 2012 08:13:33 EST Accomplishments of Week #1 Today is day 8... I woke up early and exercised again today. Go, Me! <BR> <BR> I lost three pounds this first week back. Yah! It's always nice to get that boost the first week. I'm shooting for 1.5 pounds per week from here on out. On my way in to work, I was trying to think about what I accomplished this week. Here is what I came up with: <BR> <BR> <em>208</em> Lost 3 pounds <BR> <BR> <em>208</em> Drank a minimum of 8 cups of water every day <BR> <BR> <em>208</em> Did a... Tue, 10 Jan 2012 08:08:11 EST I Have To Do This So far so good... It's day #3. A couple of weeks ago, I only lasted 1 day. <BR> <BR> I first joined SparkPeople over three years ago. I could kick myself when I realize that I should have hit my goal weight two years ago. I keep trying to tell myself that is in the past. I can't change the past. I can only change the future. (It's easier to give this advice to others than to listen to it yourself!) <BR> <BR> I know that I can do this. I have done this. I just need to stay on it da... Thu, 5 Jan 2012 10:15:22 EST I'm no good at blogging I haven't posted anything since August. Maybe if I was better at blogging, that would help my motivation. I guess I get discouraged because not too many people read them. That's ok. I should be posting my thoughts for me and not for anyone else. I will try to keep that in mind. <BR> <BR> Work has been crazy again, and I've worked a bunch of overtime. That makes it impossible to exercise in the evenings (when I'm working until 9 or 10pm). Working that late also makes it difficult to wa... Tue, 3 Jan 2012 08:29:22 EST Has Anyone Tried Curves? I have always resisted the gym. I've always been too self-conscious. (sp) However, I think I need something to get me out of my exercise rut. There is a Curves not very far from my house. I think this might be better for me as it seems smaller than the other 'big' gyms that we have in town. <BR> <BR> If I go, I'm thinking of going first thing in the morning before work. <BR> <BR> I've never belonged (or even been in!) any gym before. <BR> <BR> Suggestions? Thoughts? <BR> <BR> A... Wed, 17 Aug 2011 21:22:10 EST Now.... Where did I put that track? Aha! I think I've found it! <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> I have been so far off track for the past month and a half that I wasn't sure I could find it again. I tried with my last blog post near the end of June. I thought seeing myself side-by-side with my former self would help to show how far I had come and that the hard work actually does pay off. I just couldn't get motivated. I think I was just burned out. Unfortunately, with my personality, I'm either all or nothing. So I chose noth... Tue, 9 Aug 2011 07:59:34 EST Working On Motivation (w/Pic) Today I am working on motivation. I'm making a motivation poster and a motivation chart. The poster has pics, words and such on it. The chart will help me to keep track of cardio, strength, water, etc. I'm also working on a list of rewards. <BR> <BR> I've not had to use things like this in the past, but I really need something to get me going again. I'm hoping this will help! (Will post pics once they are done and up on the wall!) <BR> <BR> One other thing that I did to help motivate ... Sun, 26 Jun 2011 14:56:02 EST New Clothes Can Make A Difference <BR> It's true; isn't it? New clothes can make you look and feel better. We're all on this journey. Who wants to keep buying a new wardrobe everytime they go down a size in clothes? It can get expensive. We want to buy that wardrobe when we hit our ultimate goal. <BR> <BR> However, we do have to buy a few pieces here and there in order to get by. This week, I bought a new pair of khakis to wear to work. I also bought my first pair of capris. I bought them both in a size 10! That ... Sat, 11 Jun 2011 09:25:30 EST I need your help! If you have read my blog about the month of May, you'll see that I didn't do very well. I only tracked my food 21 out of 31 days. My fitness minutes were down, too. I only lost 1.5 pounds the entire month. I know... At least I didn't gain. I am happy about that! <BR> <BR> I was ready to start June off with a bang! However, I somehow managed to twist a muscle in my back. I haven't been able to exercise for four days now. I am finally feeling better, and I plan to get back to exercis... Sun, 5 Jun 2011 17:56:39 EST May 2011 Recap My daily calorie goal was 1430-1780. For the month of May, my average daily calorie intake was 1734. (I tracked only 21 out of 30 days.) <BR> <BR> My start weight for the month was 155 pounds. <BR> <BR> I completed 1,993 fitness minutes (between cardio and strength). <BR> <BR> I burned 14,039 calories with cardio exercise! <BR> <BR> I finished the month at 153.5. One and a half pounds lost! <BR> <BR> On to June! <BR> <BR> <BR> Start Weight 9/1/2008 = 204 <BR> 1/3/2011 = 181 <BR... Sun, 5 Jun 2011 17:04:46 EST Mid-May 2011 Update I have finally done it! I hit that elusive 50 pound mark! Wow! I'm still in shock. I just stood there staring at the numbers on the scale at first. Then I smiled. Then I cried. LOL. <BR> <BR> I'm now officially at the weight I was when I got married over 15 years ago. <BR> <BR> I'd like to lose another 23.5 pounds. At that point, I'll reevaluate and see where I am. <BR> <BR> My next mini goal, though is to lose another 13.5 pounds. That will put me at a "healthy" weight for the f... Tue, 17 May 2011 07:58:23 EST April 2011 Recap <BR> My daily calorie goal was 1440-1790. For the month of April, my average daily calorie intake was 1723. (I tracked 28 out of 30 days.) This is an improvement over March! <BR> <BR> My start weight for the month was 160 pounds. <BR> <BR> I completed 2,165 fitness minutes (between cardio and strength). <BR> <BR> I burned 15,779 calories with cardio exercise! <BR> <BR> I finished the month at 155. Five pounds lost! <BR> <BR> On to May! <BR> <BR> <BR> Start Weight 9/1/2008 = 2... Sun, 1 May 2011 19:15:02 EST Mid-April Update and Realization <BR> Today I have officially lost 46 pounds from my highest weight. That puts me just one pound away from where I was a year ago at this time. Only one more pound to have re-lost the weight that I regained over the past year. Wow! I didn't think I would make it this far. <BR> <BR> When I recommitted to SparkPeople and my weight loss journey at the beginning of the year, I was so mad and disappointed in myself. I had regained 24 of the 47 pounds that I worked so hard to lose. Thinking... Tue, 19 Apr 2011 12:32:56 EST Me? A Motivator? Hubby just got all worried about me because I am sitting here on the couch crying. Nothing is wrong. Really! <BR> <BR> I just received an email from SparkPeople telling me that YOU have named me as a SP Motivator. Wow! I am in shock... awe... You've made me speechless. (That is no small feat. Just ask the Hubby!) <BR> <BR> I do love each and every one of you. I'm here trying to make myself healthier, and I'm trying to support the rest of you on that same journey. I don't think t... Sun, 17 Apr 2011 20:15:15 EST Just Thinking "Out Loud" <BR> I really need to get back to strength training. I know how important it is and how much it will actually help me in my weight loss journey. I just don't like it. It's really hard to do something that you don't like. I started out great. I participated in the SP 28 day BootCamp workout challenge in February. That had me doing strength training in one area every day for the whole month. In March, I created my own calendar and picked out different strength training videos on SP that... Thu, 7 Apr 2011 07:57:21 EST March 2011 Recap <BR> Well, March was not the best month. I was sick for three days, and I was out of town for another three days. I thought that I did my best to not veer too far off the path. Let's see how I did overall: <BR> <BR> My daily calorie goal was 1450-1800. For the month of March, my average daily calorie intake was 1829. (On the days I was able to track.) Oops! This is something that I need to concentrate on more in April. <BR> <BR> My start weight for the month was 166.5 pounds. <BR> ... Mon, 4 Apr 2011 12:31:19 EST Handling Being Sick By the end of the day on Tuesday I was sick. I had the worst head cold you could imagine. Thankfully, I had already completed my exercise for the day. However, I had to take the next three days off from exercising. <BR> <BR> Unfortunately (ha!) I was not sick to my stomach. This head cold seemed to make me hungrier than ever. I ate so much over the three days! Of course, I didn't pick the best foods, either. <BR> <BR> I'm not beating myself up over it, though. I'm feeling better ... Sun, 13 Mar 2011 10:01:25 EST February 2011 Recap My daily calorie goal was 1520-1870. For the month of February, my average daily calorie intake was 1549. (I actually thought it would be higher than this because there were a few days that I was right around the 2000 mark.) <BR> <BR> My start weight for the month was 174 pounds. <BR> <BR> I completed 2,403 fitness minutes (between cardio and strength). <BR> <BR> I burned 19,551 calories with cardio exercise! <BR> <BR> I finished the month at 166.5. Seven and a half pounds lost! <BR>... Tue, 1 Mar 2011 08:00:16 EST YUMMY! <BR> I was really craving a fruit and granola parfait from McDonald's. Who wants to go to McD's at various times of the day and night? Not me! So when I went to the store today, I picked up the stuff to make my own. <BR> <BR> I mixed Yoplait fat free vanilla yogurt and frozen fruit (strawberries, blueberries, raspberries and blackberries). I sprinkled on Bear Naked natural granola. It was yummy! <BR> <BR> Sat, 26 Feb 2011 20:44:38 EST January Recap My daily calorie goal is 1430-1780. For the month of January, my average daily calorie intake was 1625. <BR> <BR> I began on January 3rd. <BR> <BR> My start weight for the month was 181. (Ugh) <BR> <BR> I completed 2,660 fitness minutes (between cardio and strength). <BR> <BR> I burned 21,624 calories with cardio exercise! If 3500 calories is one pound, then that worked out perfect! That means that I am on the right track! 21,624 divided by 3500 = 6.18 <BR> <BR> I finished the mont... Wed, 2 Feb 2011 20:00:31 EST Apologies I hate having to apologize. That means that I was wrong. Who really likes to admit that they were wrong? <BR> <BR> My last blog post was in May 2010. Everything went downhill about a week after that post. Work increased (again) to 60-70 hours a week. Forget exercise... forget eating healthy.... forget even seeing my family on a weekday! My daily routine was wake up... go to work... go home... go straight to bed... Then start the same thing all over again. This leads to the apolo... Sun, 23 Jan 2011 21:42:12 EST Catching Up Did you think I left? Don't worry! I didn't. I have still been here... just not as consistently. <BR> <BR> The last two months have been a bit topsy turvey. I had some personal issues at home (that are now wonderfully resolved, thankfully!), plus I've been working 55+ hours a week again. It's hard to get any exercise in when you are working 10 or more hours a day, and working 6-7 hours a day. It also makes it easier to eat poorly. <BR> <BR> One of the biggest things that helps me to ... Mon, 31 May 2010 20:52:55 EST The Paperclip Chain Is Growing! Remember when I first posted about my paperclip chain? <BR> <BR> <link><BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=2785718 </link> <BR> <BR> I change colors every 10 links (which represents 10 pounds). <BR> <BR> It finally got too long! I could no longer see it past the edge of my desk. I had to loop it! Woohoo! <BR> <BR> Just another 8 clips to hit the 50 pound mark! I hope to get there by the end of April. <BR> <BR> Thanks to all of my SparkFriends fo... Fri, 19 Mar 2010 22:19:41 EST Reinvention So, we are all working on reinventing our bodies and our lives. What about those 'special' clothes that are way too big for us that we just can't bear to get rid of? <BR> <BR> I have given away many articles of clothing to a friend who is also losing weight, but started out at a larger size than I did. I've also taken clothes to Goodwill. <BR> <BR> However, I have several tshirts that feature Barry Manilow. If you know me at all, then you know that I LOVE Barry! Some of my Barry shirts ... Fri, 12 Mar 2010 21:04:57 EST Heather's Helpful Hints #1 <BR> LOG EVERYTHING if you are not already doing so (and doing it consistently). I think this is the best tool ever to help you on your journey. Even if you go over or under, log it! This will hold you accountable to yourself. Set a goal for yourself... If you log all of your nutrition and fitness (even if it's just a 10 minute walk around the block) for two solid weeks, then give yourself a reward. Maybe a new book? Then once you have the hang of tracking down, you can concentrate o... Tue, 9 Mar 2010 14:20:44 EST I Cried at Wal-Mart <BR> This weekend, I ran into Wal-Mart to grab something quickly. I had a few extra minutes, so I decided to try on a pair jeans the next size smaller. I knew that I my current jeans were a little loose, but I wasn't quite ready for the next size. I just wanted to see how close (or how far) I was. <BR> <BR> I started this journey wearing a size 20W. I can now wear a size 14!!!!!! I didn't have to "suck it in" or anything! They fit perfectly! I just stood there looking in the mirror a... Mon, 8 Mar 2010 12:51:22 EST Over Halfway to my GOAL!!! <BR> Wow! What a Weigh-In Wednesday! I have officially passed the halfway point to my ultimate goal! <BR> <BR> I started this journey at 204 pounds. My goal is to lose a total of 74 pounds, which would put me at 130. I think that would be a good weight for me. (I'm only 5' 3".) There are some articles and other things that I've read that said I should be 124. I'm shooting for 130, though. Once I get there, then I'll reevalutate, and see what I think. <BR> <BR> I have officially l... Wed, 3 Mar 2010 11:00:43 EST February 2010 Wow! February is over already! Did you meet your SparkPeople goals? Here is what I accomplished in February 2010: <BR> <BR> **Exercised a total of 2187 minutes <BR> **Lost 5 pounds <BR> **Exercised 27 out of 28 days <BR> **Drank my 8 cups of water all 28 days <BR> **Tracked my nutrition 27 out of 28 days <BR> **Tracked my fitness 27 out of 28 days <BR> **Earned 1437 SparkPoints <BR> <BR> That's what I can come up with at the moment! I took an updated pic today (before posting my star) o... Sun, 28 Feb 2010 20:45:48 EST Been Awhile Since I Blogged! Wow! I didn't realize that I hadn't blogged since the 6th! Well, I'm still here. I'm still logging all of my nutrition and fitness. <BR> <BR> Hubby and I weigh in every Wednesday. As of today's weigh-in, I am officially down 35 pounds. That puts me at 169 and no longer in the obese category! Hooray! Just two more little pounds, and I'll be at the halfway mark to my goal! <BR> <BR> I hope that you are all still hanging in there! Keep on exercising and eating right, and we'll all ... Wed, 24 Feb 2010 20:22:05 EST My Support <BR> I just finished eating lunch. While I was making my sandwich and weighing my options, I realized something.... I would never be able to succeed at this without my husband. He and I are doing this together. <BR> <BR> We sit down every two weeks and plan our menus for the next two weeks. From those menus, we create a shopping list. Then we go grocery shopping together. We support each other in our choices for lunches and snacks that we take to work. We also exercise at the same ... Sat, 6 Feb 2010 13:07:03 EST I had French Fries, and it's OK! You've probably seen previous blog posts regarding the first half of 2009 at work. Things went crazy, and I was working 60-70 hours a week. Some co-workers and I created "Beer Thursday." Every Thursday at 5:00, we would walk to the bar behind the office to meet for a beer or two and some food. Then we would go back to work for a few more hours. It would help break up that day and get us through the end of the week. Even after work slowed back down to a normal pace, we continued our "Bee... Thu, 28 Jan 2010 20:07:19 EST January 2010 January is almost over... just one week left! <BR> <BR> Did you accomplish what you hoped to this month? Can you meet your goal this last week? Give it one last push! I bet you can make it! <BR> <BR> I had hoped to lose 5 pounds this month. At last Wednesday's weigh-in, I had already lost 9! Woohoo! <BR> <BR> That is a great kick start being back at SP! I know that I won't continue to lose that much each month. However, it's a good feeling, and it gives me motivation to keep going... Sun, 24 Jan 2010 13:39:05 EST Another Visual Motivator <BR> As I said in my previous blog post, visual motivators are a huge thing for me. Another visual motivator that I use is a paperclip chain. This chain hangs on the wall of my office at work (since this is where I spend most of my waking hours.) I add a new paperclip for every pound that I lose. I change the paperclip color after every ten pounds. <BR> <BR> It is awesome to watch the chain grow! I can't wait until it's longer than the top of my desk. Then I'll have to start draping i... Sat, 23 Jan 2010 12:38:52 EST Visual Motivation and Competition <BR> Two of the biggest things that keep me going are visual motivators and healthy competition. <BR> <BR> I purchased a poster size full year calendar. Every day that Brandon (my husband) or I do at least thirty minutes of cardio exercise, we get to put a star on that day on the calendar. He uses green, and I use blue. Those are our favorite colors. It hangs on our bedroom wall where I can see it as soon as I wake up in the morning. Seeing the stars grow every day is great incentive t... Sun, 17 Jan 2010 21:42:45 EST What a topsy turvy crazy year it's been! <BR> I joined SparkPeople at the beginning of September 2008. By February 2009, I had lost 45 pounds. I was feeling great and starting to like the way that I looked. Unfortunately, my work life exploded in January 2009, as I posted in a previous blog entry. I was working 60-70 hours a week. All that I did was work and sleep. I didn't have time to exercise. I was too tired. I also started eat all of the wrong things. I'm a stress-eater. I admit it. I ended up regaining 29 pounds. ... Fri, 15 Jan 2010 19:50:16 EST Time to Recommit... For Real <BR> Remember me? I'm sad to say that I fell off the SparkPeople wagon. I love this site and all of you. It's because of this website and this team that I lost 45 pounds from last September through January. I tried to get back to it in March (my last blog post), and I lasted a whole day and a half. <BR> <BR> Unfortunately, in January work exploded. I was working 60-70 hours a week. If I wanted to spend time with my kids, then there was no time for exercise. I also fell back into a ba... Fri, 4 Sep 2009 19:26:05 EST Today is the day! Hello to all of my SparkFriends! <BR> <BR> You may have noticed that I've not been around lately. Since New Year's, work has been crazy busy. I've been working anywhere from 60 - 70 hours per week. I've been way too tired to exercise. I've also let old habits creep back in. I'm a stress eater. And what's better to eat when you're stressed than really fatty, greasy food? Well, that's they way I always thought for years. That's what I fell back to these past couple of months. I have m... Mon, 9 Mar 2009 07:52:43 EST I did it!!! <BR> I weighed in at 159 this morning! Woohoo! I haven't weighed under 160 since before I was pregnant with my first child back in 1995. <BR> <BR> Some days I just sit here and think, "I can't believe I'm actually doing this." Then I just have to look in the mirror, and see that I really am! <BR> <BR> YOU can do this, too! Wed, 14 Jan 2009 08:17:06 EST Update Well, I've made it through Week 1 of the New You Bootcamp. It's really helped me to get my strength training in. <BR> <BR> It's interesting using an exercise ball. I have never used one before. I really wasn't interested in using one. However, I picked on up at Wal-Mart for $10. I actually find it fun. I'm enjoying using it. It makes Strength Training more enjoyable. This is a good thing! That's the hard part for me. <BR> <BR> Anyway, I started the week at 166, and I am now at 16... Mon, 12 Jan 2009 21:45:31 EST New You BootCamp <BR> How many of you are participating in SparkPeople's New You BootCamp? I've decided to give it a shot. I hate watching videos on the computer, but I thought I could give it a shot for 10 minutes a day. <BR> <BR> I gained some weight back over the holidays, so I'm back to 166 pounds at the start of the bootcamp. By the end of it (January 31st), I hope to be at 156. That would be ten pounds. That would put me within a couple of pounds of my weight both before I got married and before ... Sun, 4 Jan 2009 12:14:09 EST Happy Anniversary! Today is my 13th wedding anniversary. The hubby and I are celebrating (as we do every year) by watching a 'marathon' of our creation on tv and going out to eat. This year we are watching the first season of Survivor. Wow! That show has changed a lot since it first aired. <BR> <BR> I realized something today, though.... I am only about 10 pounds heavier than I was when we got married. That is some incentive! I can't wait to weigh less than I did on my wedding day. <BR> <BR> Fri, 2 Jan 2009 14:24:50 EST Went shopping today! I received a VISA gift card for Christmas, so I decided to go shopping today. As I've said before, I'm not really much of a shopper, but I was hoping to catch some good after Christmas sales to help add some better fitting clothes into my wardrobe. I plan on getting a whole new wardrobe once I reach my ulitmate goal weight. (I've been saving my pennies... literally... and nickles, dimes, and quarters!) However, I do need to supplement my wardrobe here and there until I reach my final ... Mon, 29 Dec 2008 19:10:56 EST