ANGEL_789's SparkPeople Blog ANGEL_789's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community One thing is better than nothing I have a confession. I have a terrible tendency to make elaborate plans with the best intentions to follow through. I plan to have nothing but healthy meals, and work out 5 days a week like a champ. And sometimes I start off and actually stick to my plan, but in no time at all I'm missing workouts and making bad food choices. And once it starts I decide I've failed, so why bother trying at all? It's a terrible cycle and it is often difficult to shake that negative perspective. <BR> <BR> I h... Mon, 7 Nov 2016 06:27:38 EST One small victory at a time Yesterday was a "typical Monday". Work was hectic, and for some reason I was just in a low emotionally. I got home from work and walked my dog, and even though I just wanted go to bed for an extra long nap, I told myself to just try my workout. It's on a dvd, and I could not for the life of me get it to play! I had just used the dvd player late last week with no problem, but for some reason today it wasn't happening no matter what I tried. So sadly I ended up giving up, and I didn't get to do... Tue, 11 Oct 2016 06:14:14 EST The truth about motivation Well, here I am. I made it through my first month of my new job. There are pros and cons, but overall I feel less stressed and make a little bit more money. Guess you can't really beat that. My main struggle is the hours, and how best to arrange my schedule. I get up at 1:45am, which isn't as hard as I thought it would be (it helps that I don't hit snooze anymore!), and currently I am taking a nap when I get home to help compensate for my shorter sleep at night. I'm trying to be in bed by 8, ... Tue, 4 Oct 2016 05:10:49 EST AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The wait is over! I was just informed that I have a start date for my new position... and it's the Tuesday after Labor Day! Sept 6th! I honestly expected to wait for them to hire my replacement (they are still doing interviews at this point), and get them at least partially trained first. However, someone else in the department I'm moving to took another job, so I think that moved up the schedule. My soon-to-be department will be 2 people short at the end of next week, so they're really pushi... Fri, 19 Aug 2016 13:53:23 EST Feeling a bit out of control So lately in the middle of what feels like a waiting game to start my new position, I seem to have abandoned the healthy changes that I thought were basically habits at this point. But it's amazing how easy it is to go right back to doing the same old thing... poor food choices, making excuses to not be active or productive... and for me personally, I've gone on a bit of a spending binge. Is it so bad that we can't pay our bills? No. Is it bad enough that I actually feel a little embarrassed?... Thu, 18 Aug 2016 14:48:01 EST 2 weeks later... I've been getting out of the habit of blogging again. I think in part that's because I don't feel like I have much to say. I'm still waiting to hear about a start date for my new position, which I figured would take a while. No biggie. Even though I'm glad to make the change, it's still new and a little scary, so I'm not TOO anxious to have that date looming... lol <BR> <BR> I haven't been tracking my food for a while. I start strong at the beginning of the year, but then end up letting it d... Wed, 10 Aug 2016 16:01:57 EST 2 weeks later... I've been getting out of the habit of blogging again. I think in part that's because I don't feel like I have much to say. I'm still waiting to hear about a start date for my new position, which I figured would take a while. No biggie. Even though I'm glad to make the change, it's still new and a little scary, so I'm not TOO anxious to have that date looming... lol <BR> <BR> I haven't been tracking my food for a while. I start strong at the beginning of the year, but then end up letting it d... Wed, 10 Aug 2016 16:01:54 EST Nailed it! Things are moving a lot faster than expected! I applied to this new position last Thursday. On Tuesday I was contacted by the recruiter, and Tuesday afternoon I got an interview request for the next day! So today I had my interview, and the hiring manager told me she was going to talk to my current boss about how quickly they could make the transition. I haven't officially accepted yet (they do that process through corporate), but it's basically a done deal. <BR> <BR> I'm really excited and... Wed, 27 Jul 2016 16:43:25 EST The waiting game Now that I've applied for that new position at work, it feels like I'm just... waiting. And it's barely started! I know it's going to take awhile for the whole process... they have to screen all applicants, then set up interviews, possibly 2nd interviews, then once the position is offered (I am almost guaranteed the job), then they start the process of posting my position and the hiring process begins again, with added time for training before I'll be released to the new job and new schedule.... Mon, 25 Jul 2016 11:25:45 EST Decision made... AHHH!!!! Yesterday I realized I was trying to talk myself into why I should go for the new position, and I realized that as scary as it was, I believe that was the right move. So this morning before I clocked in, I applied online before I lost my nerve. Then I asked my boss if I could talk to her when she had a chance. <BR> <BR> I was worried that she'd be upset or disappointed, but she actually smiled and said she was expecting it. In fact, she told me the manager of that position (the woman I'm no... Thu, 21 Jul 2016 10:56:08 EST I need to make a decision I really need to make a decision on a potential career change, and soon. I rambled on about how I ended up in my current position in my last post, so I'm trying to focus on the pros and cons in this one. This blog is really for my own benefit, but if anyone happens to read this and has any words or encouragement, advice, or wants to flip a coin for me, feel free! ;) <BR> <BR> Option 1: Stay in my current position. <BR> <BR> Pros: <BR> 1. No scary changes or ruffled feathers <BR> 2. Potenti... Tue, 19 Jul 2016 10:06:12 EST Scratch that week... Last week I had a much needed break from work, and a much needed visit from my best friend. Unfortunately, I also took a bit of a "break" from my smart food choices, and had several poor choices at meals and several "treats", along with a few adult beverages that are high in calories. On the plus side, we had a couple of days with a lot of walking, and had several meals that were purposefully healthy. <BR> <BR> The downside is I feel like I slipped back into old habits, and it was just TOO ... Mon, 18 Jul 2016 15:30:05 EST A long short week Here I am, back to work after a 3-day weekend that sure didn't feel like a 3-day weekend. Where did it go? I was exhausted through it all thanks to my large dog who is terrified of thunder and fireworks, of which we had lots of both all weekend. Now today feels like Monday, except it's Tuesday, but it will feel even longer than a typical week by the time Friday gets here. <BR> <BR> This Saturday I have guests arriving from out of town, and I will be off work next Mon, Tues, & Wed. This will... Tue, 5 Jul 2016 10:23:17 EST Oh, hey... it's Thursday! A quick update... this week has flown by! My head is just spinning, mostly from being busy at work. Here lately I feel like I'm losing my mind (or at least my short term memory). I won't remember if I did something or not, I forgot my lunch today, and the other day my husband said I left the back door open when I left for work! <BR> <BR> Just a little bit ago, my bosses boss had our department into her office for a quick meeting. It was to tell us that our AP lady would do longer have a pos... Thu, 30 Jun 2016 15:22:26 EST A case of the Mondays I really, really, REALLY want to start my weekend over. It was one of those weekends where I had all these plans, and now it's Monday morning and I don't know what happened to the weekend! I did do a little work on some projects around the house, like getting a floating stand set up in my new yoga room with a DVD player, and I reorganized all my cake decorating supplies, but wish I had done more. And I can't seem to find a socket that will get the diverter stem out of the hall bath, so it's t... Mon, 27 Jun 2016 11:03:29 EST Glad but sad it's Friday It feels like this has been a very long week. I'm so happy it's Friday, but at the same time I'm a little sad. Only because I planned to do so many things this week (mainly exercise) and don't feel like I really did any of them. I'm down to 4 weeks left before my big summer event where I want to be the best me I can be, and yet I let the last 2 weeks slip by without pushing myself! What a waste. <BR> <BR> It's funny that I keep asking myself why I didn't try... as though I don't know why I ... Fri, 24 Jun 2016 14:08:09 EST I'm tired Today I am tired, and I know exactly why. My very large dog is terrified of storms, and last night after struggling to fall asleep (I think I finally nodded off around midnight), I came to at 4:00am with my dog standing in front of my face, panting and whining. As my husband had to get up at 5, I convinced my dog to come downstairs with me so I could go back to sleep on the couch and hopefully keep our terrified dog from disturbing my husband. <BR> <BR> Of course, it's never that simple. On... Thu, 23 Jun 2016 13:59:04 EST 6 days later... Wow, I can't believe it's been almost a week since I blogged! I was swamped Friday and don't get on over the weekend, so there's that. Monday our server was down at work and I was sent home at 10am, so of course I was swamped again Tuesday.... so here it is, Wednesday almost at the end of the day and I'm just now getting in an update. <BR> <BR> So, first of all I (barely) lost a pound. This was not so much due to my amazing ability to follow my challenge, but more of a fluke from doing a par... Wed, 22 Jun 2016 16:50:44 EST Ouch... Well, my 1st challenge week so far as been a little rough. I'd say I'm keeping up with about 80% of my plan, and really that's not so bad. I will not beat myself up about it, I'll just focus on getting back on track and doing a little better each day! <BR> <BR> I did start the body weight workout, and while it didn't seem like much, I've got some sore muscles! But a little soreness mean progress so ouch... with a little smile. <BR> <BR> Busy day today, and happily a busy weekend ahead! My... Thu, 16 Jun 2016 14:24:34 EST 4 week challenge Yesterday kicked off day 1 of a last minute plan to start a personal 4 week challenge! I have my plan outlined in detail, but here is the general idea: <BR> <BR> 1. Continue to stick to my eating plan - it works for me, but I need to stick with it and make sure I'm getting enough water. <BR> 2. I am long overdue to start adding in some exercise! I am keeping it easy and reasonable to get started, so I don't crash and burn trying to do too much, too fast. I will do a beginner's body weight wo... Tue, 14 Jun 2016 13:21:34 EST Monday reset I've been hit or miss at best on my eating the past couple of weeks. I haven't shown any increase in weight, but also haven't lost any either. I am down to about 5 weeks away from what I would consider the event of the summer for me... I will be attending an awards banquet at the division I worked at for the past 10+ years (I just transferred to a division in another city last fall). I want to arrive looking great, which has been my plan since the beginning of the year, but I haven't made nea... Mon, 13 Jun 2016 11:15:37 EST On it goes... I missed writing yesterday, but work has been so crazy I feel like I barely have time to pee! It is so mentally draining and stressful, and I have a feeling that contributes at least in part to my mindless snacking when I get home. I've always struggled with overeating / snacking, but when I'm stressed and worn down it seems to get a lot worse. I'm trying to do better at not letting things get to me, and taking a few minutes every hour to do a few stretches or even some desk friendly exercise... Thu, 9 Jun 2016 13:43:43 EST Tuesday update Checking in (with myself mostly). Trying to make this a habit! I had my group meeting of sorts last night with real appeal, and this week was about sneaking in extra movement throughout the day, such as finding ways to get up every hour if you work a desk job, or walking in place while you watch TV. I've actually tried to do mini desk exercises at work, but always seem to forget to do them! Guess I should set a reminder to pop up. I just always feel so overwhelmed I feel like I don't have the... Tue, 7 Jun 2016 11:19:10 EST I want to go home. Well, I had myself a nice 3-day weekend. That makes 2 in a row now, but funny it doesn't feel like I worked any less. I took Friday off and went to visit my old co-workers and had a cookout for "my guys". It was nice, but sadly I missed seeing some of the guys so that was a bit disappointing. Just bad timing but at least I tried! I also got to see my niece and nephew for a little bit, and met a friend of mine's new baby girl for the first time. It was good to go for a visit, but sometimes I t... Mon, 6 Jun 2016 14:05:03 EST Trying to focus I feel I've done well for the past 2 months getting my calorie intake under control and managed so that I am slowly losing just about a pound each week. I have been working on eating more veggies and healthier foods in general, and keeping portions in check when I do have higher calorie foods. I know that this is the majority of the reason behind my success so far (and the reason behind previous success). <BR> <BR> But I've reached that point where I start to slip.... tracking my food becom... Thu, 2 Jun 2016 10:27:12 EST June has arrived! I love summer.... love, love, LOVE it! And of course each year it seems to take forever to arrive and is over in the blink of an eye. For me, summer usually starts sometime in May once the weather warms, and I drag it as far into September as I can. ;) Of course, this year we had a really chilly and rainy May, so I feel like I've already lost a few weeks of my summer. <BR> <BR> I'm also a bit in disbelief that we have started month #6 of 2016. I was supposed to be at least 20 pounds lighter... Wed, 1 Jun 2016 11:08:49 EST Oh! Hi there... Yep... did it again, but not as bad this time. It was February the last time I logged on, but it's only been about 3 months this time. ;) <BR> <BR> On the plus side, for the past 2 months I've been sticking to a healthy / low calorie diet (diet = way of eating, not a temporary "diet" diet). I have lost about 8 pounds, which is good, but I'm already feeling like I'm losing motivation and focus. This past weekend was probably the worst, celebrating a graduation (went overboard at dinner), then... Tue, 31 May 2016 11:14:29 EST Doomed to repeat history... I have a bad habit of using Spark for a while, then disappearing. It's been over a year since I last logged in, and I thought I'd look at some past blogs... here are some highlights from my first blog in May of 2011... <BR> <BR> -I can't believe I allowed myself to become so lazy and put on this weight. <BR> -I'm still bitter about gaining almost 30 pounds in the months before my wedding. <BR> -I'm uncomfortable in anything that isn't loose jeans and a loose top. <BR> -I have a closet ov... Mon, 22 Feb 2016 11:13:18 EST Beginning week 3! It's the start of the 3rd week, and I'm happy to report that I've been doing well with staying in my calorie range. Some days I may have been stretching the top of my limit, but it has stayed my focus and I've kept things under control. That's a definite win! <BR> <BR> This week I am planning 3 workout days: M, W, F. Tonight I'm planning on something that gets my blood pumping and sweat going. I haven't decided what just yet, but the hubby will be at work and I think it will be a good start ... Mon, 19 Jan 2015 14:58:49 EST Day 8 I've made it into day 8, and I already feel like I need to tweak my goals and refocus. As usual, I set up a plan to work out every day, stay within a specific calorie range, and drink 8+ cups of water. And this plan I'm sure is doable, but it's a bit much for me to change all at once. I know better than to think I'm going to put this "perfect" plan in place, and do everything exactly how I should every day. What really happens is I might do ok for a couple of days, but then life happens and I... Mon, 12 Jan 2015 12:09:42 EST Day 5 Here I am, already at day 5. I've done well staying in my calorie limit, and drinking 8+ cups of water. The consistent workouts, however, continue to be a struggle for me. Like last night, I was going to get on the treadmill for the interval training. When I got home I was starving and was starting to get a headache, so I didn't want to workout then and knew I wouldn't push myself if I did. So I thought I could have dinner, relax for a little bit to digest, and then work out. But as the story... Fri, 9 Jan 2015 11:08:55 EST Accountability Yesterday was day one of my restart. I'm happy to report that I met all of my goals: I drank 8 cups of water, I did my first day of body weight training, and I stayed (barely) in my calorie range. I'm highlighting each sucessful day on my phone calendar as a visual reminder and encouragement to keep the streak going! <BR> <BR> Today I plan to hit at least 8 cups of water again, stay in my calorie range (and not have any candy), and do my first day of my treadmill interval training. <BR> <B... Tue, 6 Jan 2015 10:36:43 EST I'm burnin' up! Ok, ok... my title is a bit misleading. This blog should be about how I had a killer workout and burned tons of fat. <BR> <BR> It's not. <BR> <BR> It is, however, about how I ripped a few new CD's I got for Christmas onto my computer last night, and downloaded a couple new "peppy" songs to play while working out (including one called I'm burnin up). Back when I was jogging on a regular basis I did enjoy getting into the groove with some good music. So I thought some new tunes might be nic... Mon, 5 Jan 2015 14:13:06 EST Plugging along... Today is the last day of 2014. It's been an interesting year with many challenges to say the least. I was going to complain about them, but isn't it all just life? My in-laws tend to have a poor outlook any time anything goes wrong. They'll say "it just never ends for us", but come on... what about all the other days that are just fine? Life is a roller coaster, with all kinds of ups and downs. You can't always control what happens in life, but you have full control of how you respond. <BR> ... Wed, 31 Dec 2014 10:23:51 EST My weakness I've known this for awhile, but it became painfully apparent last night. I love my couch. I love walking in the door after a long day at work to have it greet me at the door. It always supports me, no matter if I'm watching TV, snuggled up with a book, or taking a nap. We've become really close over the years, and it's hard to leave once we get together. <BR> <BR> This was my problem last night. I took my dog for a walk with my husband (about 3/4 mile), and when we got back, I put on some w... Tue, 30 Dec 2014 07:03:31 EST Let's a gooooooo! Mario anyone? Ok.... <BR> <BR> I survived Christmas... house guests, visiting extended family, gifts, piles of sweet treats... well ok. I don't know that I survived the treats. I had more than my fair share... But, I can't un-eat them, so now that they're all gone it's time to get focused again! <BR> <BR> I got some things for Christmas to help me with my goals... 2 pairs of running shoes (and a third I snapped up on clearence!), a new yoga mat, and even some reusable water bottles to help ... Mon, 29 Dec 2014 15:36:27 EST A long, painful realization... Losing weight is easy. You eat healthy, exercise, and you lose weight. Right? <BR> <BR> It's easy, but it's not simple. Sometimes you think you're eating healthy, but you're consuming far more calories than you realize. Or you make those bad choices a little more often than you realize (or want to admit). And maybe you exercise here and there, but it's not even enough to combat the hours spent sitting at your desk job, let alone burn the extra calories to lose weight. You tend to be lazy, y... Fri, 19 Dec 2014 09:05:45 EST Seriously... Ok self... I get it. You've been struggling to meet your goals for 2 weeks now. You planned to do a countdown to Christmas challenge for 24 days, and today is day 15 and you've only hit your goals here and there. And it's frustrating and you're mad at yourself, and it makes you want to say "I've screwed up this far, what's the point in trying the last 10 days?". <BR> <BR> Well here's why: You aren't going to be perfect. Ever. Just get that out of the way now. However, you CAN do your best ... Mon, 15 Dec 2014 10:34:14 EST Day um... 10? Oops... haven't exactly been keeping up with my blog. I'm now on day 10 of what was supposed to be my countdown to christmas challenge. I've pretty much failed miserably on that. I hate that I hold myself back. I have been doing better with being aware of my calories and tracking them better, but I'm still making poor choices when it would be so easy to make good ones. It might not be quite as bad when I'm still in my calorie range, but instead of those cookies, I could have had a more fillin... Wed, 10 Dec 2014 10:02:24 EST Day 3 Day 3 wasn't too terrible. I ate well throughout the day (this is made easier since I plan and bring food from home), drank enough water, and even tried a new healthy recipe for dinner (chicken with a sweet potato, corn, and kale bake). A small negative: I made cookies last night for a function at work, and not only did i eat 2 (I had to make sure they were good, right?), but I also ate some of the dough, which was at least another cookie. <BR> <BR> But, even with the cookie eating I can se... Thu, 4 Dec 2014 07:47:33 EST Day 2 I will not get discouraged. I will not beat myself up. I will not give up. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was day ONE of my self-imposed countdown to Christmas challenge. Eat healthy (i.e.: stay in my calorie range every day), drink 6+ cups of water, and do some form of exercise every day. Well, I stayed in my calorie range and drank enough water, but I didn't manage to work out.... <BR> <BR> Here comes the excuse... ;) I was going to try a new DVD, and I realized I never replaced the DVD player in th... Tue, 2 Dec 2014 12:01:58 EST Wait... what happened to summer? I can't believe not only is Thanksgiving over, but it's December! I'm still in shock that it's not summer anymore. I suppose I need to do some Christmas shopping and decorating... :) <BR> <BR> So, I believe fate brought me to sparkpeople today. I admit, I have not been a faithful sparker, and only log on or post sporadically. But today I updated some things and calculated how long it would take me to get to my goal weight if I lose a reasonable 2 pounds per week. Do you know what it told me?... Mon, 1 Dec 2014 15:07:38 EST Blood, sweat, and tears... many, many tears I'm feeling pretty down right now. In August I started the "couch to 5k" running program because I decided to sign up for a color run. I was obviously being held at gunpoint because I don't run. Ever. In fact, I despise cardio in general. But I got a friend to sign up with me and figured that was a great goal / deadline for sticking to the program. <BR> <BR> Fast forward to now. I'm in the middle of week 6, and have stuck with the 3 day/week schedule. I'm just not progressing past the week... Wed, 10 Sep 2014 19:18:03 EST Turning the big 3-0... I'm still trying to absorb the fact that I turned 30 on Monday. Huh... how did that happen? Last I checked I was 20-something. I guess that's just how life is sometimes. You just plug along and life drifts on by... <BR> <BR> But anyway, I'm hoping that beginning my 30's will help me start again. I lost about 20 pounds last year (my first significant weight loss since I put on my extra weight 7+ years ago), and while I may have put a few back on, I've basically plateaued where I'm at. Not a ... Wed, 23 Apr 2014 08:02:10 EST Don't mean to complain. In light of the tragedy in Newtown on Friday, I feel like everything I've ever complained about is petty and pathetic. My heart breaks for those children, teachers, and their families, and I can only hope that in time they will find some measure of peace. <BR> <BR> Even though my "problems" are insignificant, they are still challenges for me and my weight loss / health goals. And since life moves on for those of us blessed to have another day, I suppose I better get back on the wagon. <BR... Mon, 17 Dec 2012 11:34:48 EST Uh-Oh... I've been doing well with my workout plan. I worked out Mon - Fri last week, and again yesterday (Monday) to start this week off right. The problem? I'm starting to have back muscle spasms again. I dealt with these for months a while back when I pulled my back trying to move some furniture by myself (BAD move). <BR> <BR> I've been doing Turbo Jam, and there is a lot of twisting. I'm wondering if that's what the problem is? But I REALLY don't want to quit now! I'm going to try again tonight,... Tue, 11 Dec 2012 11:13:34 EST Making it happen Day one of my challenge was almost undone. Sometimes the time thing really IS an excuse, but still, only if you let it... <BR> <BR> I thought I'd save some time by stopping for a few groceries on my lunch break. I stashed the cold items in my fridge at work, and in my rush to get out the door I left them in the fridge. Of course I needed those ingredients for that evening... so I rushed home, stopping to pick up dinner for my hubby to take to work, and barely made it home in time to meet my ... Tue, 4 Dec 2012 16:32:32 EST Ready, set, GO! The official start to the Christmas countdown challenge is today! I'm thinking of it more as a countdown to new years eve, since that's exactly 4 weeks from today. I need to state my goals and how I'll get there. Hmm... My ultimate goal is to lose 40 pounds, but I think over the next 4 weeks if I can lose 10 I'll be doing good. <BR> <BR> M-F I plan to work out at 6pm after getting home from work and seeing my hubby off to his job on the nights he has to work. I think I'll do the turbo jam D... Mon, 3 Dec 2012 15:41:48 EST Yesterday was a success, today will be too! I just wanted to point out to myself that I stuck to my plan yesterday and it felt good! I took my dog for a walk and also did a 45 minute turbo jam workout. Phew! Even though I HATE cardio I'm finding the turbo jam is a little more fun. I've had the DVD's for a while now, guess it's time to make use of them! <BR> <BR> I also joined a "challenge" group that begins tomorrow. A friend I "met" on SP has overcome her weight problems (over 100 pounds lost!!) and is now a beachbody coach. Hey, it ... Fri, 30 Nov 2012 07:24:24 EST Pedal pusher I've often found myself sitting at my desk at work, wishing there was something I could do to burn calories. From 6:00am - 5:00pm I'm either sitting in my car going to/from work, or sitting at my desk at work, and as I'm sure everyone knows, sitting on your butt all day only helps it expand. <BR> <BR> I finally broke down and bought a mini elliptical (sort of like a pedal bike / hand bike). At first I was too embarrassed to actually bring it to work. The worst part is there are actually ver... Thu, 29 Nov 2012 16:15:48 EST