ANGEL_789's SparkPeople Blog ANGEL_789's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Doomed to repeat history... I have a bad habit of using Spark for a while, then disappearing. It's been over a year since I last logged in, and I thought I'd look at some past blogs... here are some highlights from my first blog in May of 2011... <BR> <BR> -I can't believe I allowed myself to become so lazy and put on this weight. <BR> -I'm still bitter about gaining almost 30 pounds in the months before my wedding. <BR> -I'm uncomfortable in anything that isn't loose jeans and a loose top. <BR> -I have a closet ov... Mon, 22 Feb 2016 11:13:18 EST Beginning week 3! It's the start of the 3rd week, and I'm happy to report that I've been doing well with staying in my calorie range. Some days I may have been stretching the top of my limit, but it has stayed my focus and I've kept things under control. That's a definite win! <BR> <BR> This week I am planning 3 workout days: M, W, F. Tonight I'm planning on something that gets my blood pumping and sweat going. I haven't decided what just yet, but the hubby will be at work and I think it will be a good start ... Mon, 19 Jan 2015 14:58:49 EST Day 8 I've made it into day 8, and I already feel like I need to tweak my goals and refocus. As usual, I set up a plan to work out every day, stay within a specific calorie range, and drink 8+ cups of water. And this plan I'm sure is doable, but it's a bit much for me to change all at once. I know better than to think I'm going to put this "perfect" plan in place, and do everything exactly how I should every day. What really happens is I might do ok for a couple of days, but then life happens and I... Mon, 12 Jan 2015 12:09:42 EST Day 5 Here I am, already at day 5. I've done well staying in my calorie limit, and drinking 8+ cups of water. The consistent workouts, however, continue to be a struggle for me. Like last night, I was going to get on the treadmill for the interval training. When I got home I was starving and was starting to get a headache, so I didn't want to workout then and knew I wouldn't push myself if I did. So I thought I could have dinner, relax for a little bit to digest, and then work out. But as the story... Fri, 9 Jan 2015 11:08:55 EST Accountability Yesterday was day one of my restart. I'm happy to report that I met all of my goals: I drank 8 cups of water, I did my first day of body weight training, and I stayed (barely) in my calorie range. I'm highlighting each sucessful day on my phone calendar as a visual reminder and encouragement to keep the streak going! <BR> <BR> Today I plan to hit at least 8 cups of water again, stay in my calorie range (and not have any candy), and do my first day of my treadmill interval training. <BR> <B... Tue, 6 Jan 2015 10:36:43 EST I'm burnin' up! Ok, ok... my title is a bit misleading. This blog should be about how I had a killer workout and burned tons of fat. <BR> <BR> It's not. <BR> <BR> It is, however, about how I ripped a few new CD's I got for Christmas onto my computer last night, and downloaded a couple new "peppy" songs to play while working out (including one called I'm burnin up). Back when I was jogging on a regular basis I did enjoy getting into the groove with some good music. So I thought some new tunes might be nic... Mon, 5 Jan 2015 14:13:06 EST Plugging along... Today is the last day of 2014. It's been an interesting year with many challenges to say the least. I was going to complain about them, but isn't it all just life? My in-laws tend to have a poor outlook any time anything goes wrong. They'll say "it just never ends for us", but come on... what about all the other days that are just fine? Life is a roller coaster, with all kinds of ups and downs. You can't always control what happens in life, but you have full control of how you respond. <BR> ... Wed, 31 Dec 2014 10:23:51 EST My weakness I've known this for awhile, but it became painfully apparent last night. I love my couch. I love walking in the door after a long day at work to have it greet me at the door. It always supports me, no matter if I'm watching TV, snuggled up with a book, or taking a nap. We've become really close over the years, and it's hard to leave once we get together. <BR> <BR> This was my problem last night. I took my dog for a walk with my husband (about 3/4 mile), and when we got back, I put on some w... Tue, 30 Dec 2014 07:03:31 EST Let's a gooooooo! Mario anyone? Ok.... <BR> <BR> I survived Christmas... house guests, visiting extended family, gifts, piles of sweet treats... well ok. I don't know that I survived the treats. I had more than my fair share... But, I can't un-eat them, so now that they're all gone it's time to get focused again! <BR> <BR> I got some things for Christmas to help me with my goals... 2 pairs of running shoes (and a third I snapped up on clearence!), a new yoga mat, and even some reusable water bottles to help ... Mon, 29 Dec 2014 15:36:27 EST A long, painful realization... Losing weight is easy. You eat healthy, exercise, and you lose weight. Right? <BR> <BR> It's easy, but it's not simple. Sometimes you think you're eating healthy, but you're consuming far more calories than you realize. Or you make those bad choices a little more often than you realize (or want to admit). And maybe you exercise here and there, but it's not even enough to combat the hours spent sitting at your desk job, let alone burn the extra calories to lose weight. You tend to be lazy, y... Fri, 19 Dec 2014 09:05:45 EST Seriously... Ok self... I get it. You've been struggling to meet your goals for 2 weeks now. You planned to do a countdown to Christmas challenge for 24 days, and today is day 15 and you've only hit your goals here and there. And it's frustrating and you're mad at yourself, and it makes you want to say "I've screwed up this far, what's the point in trying the last 10 days?". <BR> <BR> Well here's why: You aren't going to be perfect. Ever. Just get that out of the way now. However, you CAN do your best ... Mon, 15 Dec 2014 10:34:14 EST Day um... 10? Oops... haven't exactly been keeping up with my blog. I'm now on day 10 of what was supposed to be my countdown to christmas challenge. I've pretty much failed miserably on that. I hate that I hold myself back. I have been doing better with being aware of my calories and tracking them better, but I'm still making poor choices when it would be so easy to make good ones. It might not be quite as bad when I'm still in my calorie range, but instead of those cookies, I could have had a more fillin... Wed, 10 Dec 2014 10:02:24 EST Day 3 Day 3 wasn't too terrible. I ate well throughout the day (this is made easier since I plan and bring food from home), drank enough water, and even tried a new healthy recipe for dinner (chicken with a sweet potato, corn, and kale bake). A small negative: I made cookies last night for a function at work, and not only did i eat 2 (I had to make sure they were good, right?), but I also ate some of the dough, which was at least another cookie. <BR> <BR> But, even with the cookie eating I can se... Thu, 4 Dec 2014 07:47:33 EST Day 2 I will not get discouraged. I will not beat myself up. I will not give up. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was day ONE of my self-imposed countdown to Christmas challenge. Eat healthy (i.e.: stay in my calorie range every day), drink 6+ cups of water, and do some form of exercise every day. Well, I stayed in my calorie range and drank enough water, but I didn't manage to work out.... <BR> <BR> Here comes the excuse... ;) I was going to try a new DVD, and I realized I never replaced the DVD player in th... Tue, 2 Dec 2014 12:01:58 EST Wait... what happened to summer? I can't believe not only is Thanksgiving over, but it's December! I'm still in shock that it's not summer anymore. I suppose I need to do some Christmas shopping and decorating... :) <BR> <BR> So, I believe fate brought me to sparkpeople today. I admit, I have not been a faithful sparker, and only log on or post sporadically. But today I updated some things and calculated how long it would take me to get to my goal weight if I lose a reasonable 2 pounds per week. Do you know what it told me?... Mon, 1 Dec 2014 15:07:38 EST Blood, sweat, and tears... many, many tears I'm feeling pretty down right now. In August I started the "couch to 5k" running program because I decided to sign up for a color run. I was obviously being held at gunpoint because I don't run. Ever. In fact, I despise cardio in general. But I got a friend to sign up with me and figured that was a great goal / deadline for sticking to the program. <BR> <BR> Fast forward to now. I'm in the middle of week 6, and have stuck with the 3 day/week schedule. I'm just not progressing past the week... Wed, 10 Sep 2014 19:18:03 EST Turning the big 3-0... I'm still trying to absorb the fact that I turned 30 on Monday. Huh... how did that happen? Last I checked I was 20-something. I guess that's just how life is sometimes. You just plug along and life drifts on by... <BR> <BR> But anyway, I'm hoping that beginning my 30's will help me start again. I lost about 20 pounds last year (my first significant weight loss since I put on my extra weight 7+ years ago), and while I may have put a few back on, I've basically plateaued where I'm at. Not a ... Wed, 23 Apr 2014 08:02:10 EST Don't mean to complain. In light of the tragedy in Newtown on Friday, I feel like everything I've ever complained about is petty and pathetic. My heart breaks for those children, teachers, and their families, and I can only hope that in time they will find some measure of peace. <BR> <BR> Even though my "problems" are insignificant, they are still challenges for me and my weight loss / health goals. And since life moves on for those of us blessed to have another day, I suppose I better get back on the wagon. <BR... Mon, 17 Dec 2012 11:34:48 EST Uh-Oh... I've been doing well with my workout plan. I worked out Mon - Fri last week, and again yesterday (Monday) to start this week off right. The problem? I'm starting to have back muscle spasms again. I dealt with these for months a while back when I pulled my back trying to move some furniture by myself (BAD move). <BR> <BR> I've been doing Turbo Jam, and there is a lot of twisting. I'm wondering if that's what the problem is? But I REALLY don't want to quit now! I'm going to try again tonight,... Tue, 11 Dec 2012 11:13:34 EST Making it happen Day one of my challenge was almost undone. Sometimes the time thing really IS an excuse, but still, only if you let it... <BR> <BR> I thought I'd save some time by stopping for a few groceries on my lunch break. I stashed the cold items in my fridge at work, and in my rush to get out the door I left them in the fridge. Of course I needed those ingredients for that evening... so I rushed home, stopping to pick up dinner for my hubby to take to work, and barely made it home in time to meet my ... Tue, 4 Dec 2012 16:32:32 EST Ready, set, GO! The official start to the Christmas countdown challenge is today! I'm thinking of it more as a countdown to new years eve, since that's exactly 4 weeks from today. I need to state my goals and how I'll get there. Hmm... My ultimate goal is to lose 40 pounds, but I think over the next 4 weeks if I can lose 10 I'll be doing good. <BR> <BR> M-F I plan to work out at 6pm after getting home from work and seeing my hubby off to his job on the nights he has to work. I think I'll do the turbo jam D... Mon, 3 Dec 2012 15:41:48 EST Yesterday was a success, today will be too! I just wanted to point out to myself that I stuck to my plan yesterday and it felt good! I took my dog for a walk and also did a 45 minute turbo jam workout. Phew! Even though I HATE cardio I'm finding the turbo jam is a little more fun. I've had the DVD's for a while now, guess it's time to make use of them! <BR> <BR> I also joined a "challenge" group that begins tomorrow. A friend I "met" on SP has overcome her weight problems (over 100 pounds lost!!) and is now a beachbody coach. Hey, it ... Fri, 30 Nov 2012 07:24:24 EST Pedal pusher I've often found myself sitting at my desk at work, wishing there was something I could do to burn calories. From 6:00am - 5:00pm I'm either sitting in my car going to/from work, or sitting at my desk at work, and as I'm sure everyone knows, sitting on your butt all day only helps it expand. <BR> <BR> I finally broke down and bought a mini elliptical (sort of like a pedal bike / hand bike). At first I was too embarrassed to actually bring it to work. The worst part is there are actually ver... Thu, 29 Nov 2012 16:15:48 EST Well, that's no good. I saw something on TV last night that said if you sit on your butt for 5-6 hours a day (desk job anyone?), that 30 minutes of activity won't offset being sedentary that long... so since I have a desk job where I sit over 9 hours a day, what does that mean for me? I'm not only trying to offset the time spent tied to my desk, but I'm unsuccessfully trying to lose weight. Last time I blogged (back in April mind you, 7 months ago!) I was trying to lose 30 pounds... now I'm up to 40. <BR> <BR> I... Tue, 27 Nov 2012 12:38:53 EST One year older and starting over! My birthday was on Saturday. I realized I had planned to be at least 1/2 way to my goal weight by now. And I am exactly where I was then. Hmm... apparently not doing much or doing nothing at all still doesn't work. <BR> <BR> So here I am, just turned 28 and it's time to do something about this extra weight. I did my first day of P90X last night (admittedly the "lean" version, which is hopefully less brutal but still effective). It was more of a work out than I think I've done all year. If I... Tue, 24 Apr 2012 16:42:57 EST The Crisco diet! Have you ever seen the big tubs of Crisco on the shelf at the supermarket? I'm talking about the ones that I'd guess are close to the size of my head. Now, I do some baking, but I've never had the need to buy a big ol' tub of Crisco. However, my Grandma used to make pies with homemade crusts, and she always had a tub or 2 in the house. <BR> <BR> Picture that tub in your mind. Got it? That tub of shortening weighs 3 pounds. 3 pounds of thick, heavy, gloppy, greasy goop. I realized that tub i... Fri, 24 Feb 2012 11:21:02 EST When does it end? I have a small purple notebook I received just before I turned 8. My first entry was written in a messy, large, loopy cursive, that I imagine I had just learned how to write. Throughout the next 20 years I wrote in that notebook off and on, a sporadic, random diary. <BR> <BR> I was looking back through the pages just the other day and saw an entry from when I was about 12 years old. "Dear diary," it began, "I can't believe it! I just weighed myself and I weigh 143 lbs!!! How did this happen... Tue, 21 Feb 2012 10:44:54 EST Harder than it seems... Here it is, half way through February and I feel as though I've fallen off the wagon again. Jan 29th I weighed in and had lost 3 pounds. Feb 5th I weighed in and stayed the same, didn't gain but didn't lose either. But that weekend I also made cupcakes for 2 different events, and all last week I've been having about a cupcake a day (stupid leftovers I didn't get out of the house). I also majorly slacked on my workouts, and didn't even dare to weigh in on the 12th (I try to weigh in each Sunda... Tue, 14 Feb 2012 16:28:43 EST I'm afraid to get TOO excited... My "discovery" that I only need to work out 20-30 minutes a day to burn approx 150 calories to lose weight seems to be helping. Of course, this also means keeping my eating in check, and some days that is a real challenge. I weighed myself in the first part of January at 174 pounds. Last Sunday (Jan 29th) after a solid week of calorie control and work outs I weighed in at 171! Could it be this plan is working? <BR> <BR> I do think my biggest struggle will be controling my eating. I'm a graze... Fri, 3 Feb 2012 07:28:17 EST Seriously? August? Dear me, <BR> <BR> I just realized that I haven't posted a blog on here since last August! Which also means that I probably haven't been working out or tracking my eating habits since then either. No wonder the last time I got on the scale I had GAINED 10 pounds! What is WRONG with me? I have never, EVER been this overweight in my entire life, and it keeps getting worse. <BR> <BR> Yes, I have low self-esteem, always have. And yes, I know I'm unhappy where I am and need to take steps to chan... Tue, 24 Jan 2012 09:01:44 EST Haven't seen you in a while... Have you ever been belittled by a video game? It goes something like this... <BR> <BR> "Hi! It's been a while since I've seen you. Been too busy to exercise huh? Well, let's get you on the scale... OH! That's overweight! Hmm... looks like you've gained a little since last time! You aren't going to reach your goal at this rate. What are you doing wrong? Snacking, overeating, not exercising? To be at healthy weight you need to be 30 pounds lighter! Let's set a new goal..." <BR> <BR> So... I r... Fri, 19 Aug 2011 11:02:43 EST 11 days and counting... 11 more days until my 1st mini goal of 5 pounds by 8/6/11. I think (hope?) I'm starting to see changes from my workouts. I feel like my arms and legs have a bit more firmness to them, and I'm pretty sure I have at least a little more endurance than I did a few weeks ago. Or I'm at least trying harder. <BR> My Wii fit board still mocks me when I weigh in ("that's overweight!") but that line on the graph is slowly creeping down. And I do love stamping the calendar each day after I work out. I ... Tue, 26 Jul 2011 16:44:28 EST I think I can, I think I can... I've surprised myself in the past couple of weeks. No, I haven't been perfect. I'm sure I had days I ate too much, although I've been consciously trying to pick healthy foods over junk. And I haven't worked out every day, but 2-3 times a week is a lot better than none! But I have lost 5-6 pounds in the last 6 weeks or so. I'm sure that number could be higher, but I honestly haven't committed 100%. I think as I get more stamina the workouts will be dreaded less, and the better I eat the more m... Fri, 22 Jul 2011 07:33:50 EST Not bad.... Yesterday I got home from work and did a 20 minute workout (Jillian Michaels 30-day shred DVD), and took my dog for a quick walk, probably 3/4 of a mile. I tried to stay positive during my workout and focus on how it felt GOOD, even though I was tired and my muscles were fatigued, and I really didn't want to do it... lol <BR> <BR> Then I decided to pop in my Wii fit and use it for my scale since I don't own one. My little "Mii" ballooned out as it announced I was overweight, and that I had g... Thu, 30 Jun 2011 15:56:14 EST UUUUHHHHGGGG.... It's Wednesday, a beautiful, blue sky & sunshine Wednesday... and I feel like I have a hangover, although no alcohol was consumed. Sometimes I just wake up with a headache (I'm the only person I know where sleeping makes a headache worse). But some Kashi cereal and a diet soda will hopefully help my headache and state of wakefulness. <BR> <BR> So, along with my headache I sit here shame faced. Last night from about 7:30pm until I went to bed at 11pm (so much for going to bed early), I had t... Wed, 29 Jun 2011 07:51:50 EST Knowing isn't doing... What do I know? I know that I've had high cholestrol since at least age 22, at which point I weighed 143 pounds. I know that I am now 27, still with high cholestrol, and now weigh 170 pounds. I know that I am not satisfied with my current weight/size, regardless of the health issues. I know that to change my weight and size I need to eat healthy and smarter, and exercise to burn calories and tone muscle. I know that I need to make it a priority, or else it isn't going to happen. I know that ... Mon, 27 Jun 2011 12:23:32 EST I'm a procrastinEATER I've come to realize one of my biggest downfalls of losing weight.. My inability to stop shoving food in my mouth every waking moment. I now realize I am a procrastineater. At work when I'm putting off doing something I may shuffle papers or organize my desk... but lately i've been pulling out another snack. Sometimes it's not too bad. A couple of prunes, an apple... but then there's the sandwich crackers, the "fruit' (sugar) snacks, and heaven forbid... the snack cakes. <BR> <BR> It's not m... Thu, 16 Jun 2011 09:26:24 EST Back on the wagon. I thought I would track my food faithfully while on vacation, but that didn't work out so well. I did try to be somewhat mindful of what I was eating and how much, but hey, I WAS on vacation... And we didn't go anywhere, just did work around the house so I know I was burning more calories than I do sitting at my desk all day at work. Especially the morning I worked from 7 - 9:30 hauling old wood from our deck out of the back yard, up a hill, and to the street to the waiting dumpster. Whew! ... Wed, 8 Jun 2011 10:15:27 EST Day 3... go me! I've made it to lunch on day 3. It's really not so bad except I feel like I'm starving not long after I just ate. I'm hoping my stomach has just been stretched out from my constant overeating and will shrink back down to a normal size. At least, I've heard that's what it does. I've been trying to make smart choices so I'm eating nutritious foods, and eating mini meals throughout the day. But I'm still hungry. <BR> <BR> I get out of bed at 6:00am, and get to work shortly before 7, at which p... Thu, 26 May 2011 12:05:29 EST Day 2! Day 2 of my healthy habits / weight loss restart. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I did ok, especially with my restart being a bit spontaneous. I didn't work out how I had planned last night, but I did some crunches and sit-up variations along with some chest flys, pushups, squats and stretches while I watched TV. It sounds like a lot, but was maybe only 10 - 15 minutes worth of sporadic moves. Better than nothing, but my brain screamed at me "put in a workout DVD!" several times which I ignored. I fol... Wed, 25 May 2011 12:44:21 EST Here I go again... I feel like I'm talking to myself since I don't imagine anyone will actually read my blog. But hey, that's ok. Maybe I'll start answering myself too. So, out with it... <BR> <BR> I can't believe I allowed myself to become so lazy and put on this weight. I'm still bitter about gaining almost 30 pounds in the months before my wedding, when I had been the same weight before that since I was in high school! By some miracle I was squeezed into my dress...My wedding was beautiful and the pictures ... Tue, 24 May 2011 14:34:28 EST