ANGELWENDYMAMA's SparkPeople Blog ANGELWENDYMAMA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community HI Everyone <img src=""> <BR> It has been a long time since I posted. I've been going through colorectal cancer stage 3b this year. This has included chemo, radiation, surgery, and more chemo which my body couldn't tolerate. Ended up so dehydrated from vomit and diarrhea that my kidneys shut down and I've just spent 21 days in the hospital. I'm very very lucky though, because only two Dialysis treatments seemed to fix it! In t... Sun, 22 Oct 2017 11:03:35 EST Pictures of me Here are a couple recent unflattering pictures taken of my mom and I. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Why is this picture coming up rotated on the side? <BR> Sun, 14 Sep 2014 02:11:32 EST Help! I have gained even more weight.. I'm closer to 275 now.. And I hate it! I hate my body nowadays, I'm so physically uncomfortable and also emotionally distraught about it. I've been dealing with depression for the last couple months. I said I was coming back here when I posted at the end of July, but I didn't. <BR> <BR> So this week my mother and her husband are visiting us and we've taken a bunch of pictures. I've seen some extremely unflattering pictures of myself. Yeah.. So that helps. I... Sun, 14 Sep 2014 02:01:06 EST Difficult Realization I haven't been doing well with weight loss and I know it.. But two things happened in the last 24 hours that really showed me more dramatically that I have got to get it together and focus because I really have a problem. <BR> <BR> 1) I ate half of my son's Whoopie Pie after hubby brought home one for each of us last night as a peace offering. I was pretty upset and it was emotional eating.. I got into my son's after my husband went to bed, in secret. I am ashamed. <BR> <BR> 2) Today my ... Sun, 27 Jul 2014 19:26:32 EST New Things Suggestions? And Hard Baked Eggs Our Biggest Loser Challenge asks us to try something new every day this weekend - which covers Friday through Monday. <BR> <BR> Any ideas? Food or recipes or exercises or ?? <BR> <BR> One person said her new thing was taking a bath and I like that one for one day.. I never take baths, just showers, but I could! <BR> <BR> Here is my idea for all of you. Did you know you can hard boil (bake) eggs by baking them? Put them in a mini muffin pan at 325 degrees for 30 minutes. Then immerse them... Sat, 25 Jan 2014 05:56:36 EST SMART Goals and Wii Fit.. <BR> <BR> My SMART Goals <BR> <BR> Goal for the Biggest Loser Challenge is to get down 9 lbs to 246. (not sure exactly when it ends.. I might aim for lower.. but if it's 10 weeks or less to go then that is good.) <BR> Long term goal is to get to 200. <BR> <BR> Why: Get healthier, make it a routine to use Spark and track food <BR> <BR> Behavioral goal: Track my food, dance regularly, eat five fruits and veggies a day. <BR> <BR> Reward: ?? But DH suggested he would buy me some lingerie i... Sat, 25 Jan 2014 05:53:57 EST Scores at the Food Pantry! Out of money for groceries til next Friday. I went to the food pantry yesterday and am so glad we got some good food! I wasn't able to go on Weds. with DH so I had to go alone yesterday, which is very hard for me on several levels. Glad I did, though. Here are the top foods I got that I am most grateful about: <BR> <BR> 2 bags of steel cut oats <BR> 2 cases of Chobani Greek yogurt (2 flavors and I think it is fat free) <BR> Large package of split chicken breasts. <BR> 6 good quality ora... Fri, 17 Jan 2014 04:15:57 EST Cherish Your Loved Ones On Friday night I found out that a friend died this week in a head on car collision. He was 37 years old and the dad of a four year old girl. This kind of derailed me for 24 hours. I guess I went into depression as I totally lost Saturday.. Like I somehow took less than 600 steps and didn't do anything and had no memory of the prior day on Sunday.. But I didn't drink or do drugs, so no idea what happened. For that matter, my little boy can't remember Saturday either, though I have records th... Mon, 13 Jan 2014 06:02:31 EST Steps! I moved to over 10,000 steps yesterday (Thursday). It took dancing two times about 40 minutes each and a 20 minute (1 mile) walk outdoors. I danced after midnight last night so I had almost half my steps before I went to bed. I will try to dance again tonight so I can make 10,000 again tomorrow. <BR> <BR> This is the first time I've gotten to 10,000 steps in months now. Happy with myself! Fri, 10 Jan 2014 00:43:05 EST Happy New Year~ Plans My goal for 2014 is to get healthy.. Healthier!! My weight is around 252 now. Geez, I had planned to get to 200 more than a year ago, but I haven't. However, I have gone down from like 260 to 252 in the last couple months, so I know I'm doing better, it's just requiring more focus.. I am not doing too badly with nutrition, but if I focus more and track my nutrition I know I can lose a pound a week and feel even better. More regular exercise - even 15-20 minutes a day will help a lot, too! ... Tue, 7 Jan 2014 05:11:59 EST I'm here I am here.. I have been thinking a lot about my health. I need to focus and eat healthy and get more active. Tricky to be active when it is about 100 degrees outside. With AC in living room it is 83. Too hot to take out the dog. I took her for a walk after dark last night, but it was still about 90. I bet the pavement is burning hot. <BR> <BR> There is not much room in my house to exercise. And our water was shut off today on our street for repairs.. But these are all excuses. It isn't impos... Fri, 19 Jul 2013 16:47:36 EST Getting Back on Track Hi Folks! <BR> <BR> Well, my weight went up to 249 and that is 25 lbs heavier than my lightest weight of the last 10 yrs. I want to get back down to 224.. and then 200. But, I am happier with where I am now than when I was 25 lbs heavier.. and definitely feel better than 51 lbs heavier, which was my heaviest at 300. <BR> <BR> Frustrated, though, that my size is up to 3X bottoms and 2X tops. I was a size smaller and almost down to 1X bottoms last year. So this is annoying. I gave away my 3... Tue, 25 Jun 2013 10:50:02 EST Long Time, No Blog HI Spark Friends! Long time, no blog. I haven't stopped trying, though. I mean, I have been eating healthy foods and I walk a lot every day, aiming for the 10,000 step goal on my FitBit One every day.. Sometimes I even get to that! My weight is maintaining - about 240.. but to actually get down to 200, I need to focus more, track food, and exercise a bit more. I am going to try to come back every few days here and check in to start dropping more weight and feel even better. I did make a v... Thu, 9 May 2013 10:32:47 EST The Importance of Support at Home The other day (Wednesday) was my husband's birthday. The one thing he wanted was some intimate time with me, if you get my drift. He came on REALLY strong and I was very resistant and unresponsive. Weds. was also the day I weighed myself and discovered just how bad things had gotten with my weight. Up 18 lbs (since October). I seriously flipped out and I felt just terrible about myself. <BR> <BR> So when he came on to me in the evening, I wanted NOTHING to do with him. He felt rejected. I f... Fri, 15 Mar 2013 08:48:45 EST Here's What's Up with Me Hi Friends! <BR> Here is what's new: <BR> <BR> I've recently been informed that my contract will not be renewed for the job I'm in, so as of the middle of June, I am out of work. This is heartbreaking, but I am trying to see it as an opportunity for positive change. It is hard, though.. Very hard. It's not a good paying job, but one I was very invested in emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. So I have been dealing with depression and trying to find my self worth again. <BR> <BR> Also, my... Wed, 6 Mar 2013 08:56:58 EST Curves, Baby! And Cookies in Moderation So I just got dressed and put on a pair of black cotton jeans. I could not even get them over my hips let alone closed. I know I've gained weight and an inch or two, but this was ridiculous! I pulled and pulled and they were not going up. I nearly cried. Were they the 20s I'd been wearing comfortably for the last few months or maybe new 18s I didn't quite fit into? Well, relief flooded me when I realized they were neither.. I finally took them off and checked the size..38/32.. they are my... Tue, 15 Jan 2013 15:24:47 EST Face Pix of Me Today - looking inspired! Just a couple pictures of me that I took during my afternoon walk today. I like these pictures of myself. I see good progress in my face and I LOOK inspired and happy, I think. ;) <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I am not giving up! Are you? Hope not! Come say hi! :) <BR> <BR> Fri, 4 Jan 2013 23:39:06 EST Never Give Up! I just made a video blog for you as I was walking in the frigid temps.. all bundled up in my huge 3x now oversized goosedown red coat, wool gloves, and wool hat. It was too cold for my phone, though, because when I went to shut it off after, the phone had crashed. I guess it's meant to be a written blog. <BR> <BR> The main point of my message was to never give up. Don't give up even if you have gone backwards.. have gained 5 lbs, 7 lbs like me, or 10 or 15, 20, 30, 50, or 100.. Don't give u... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 17:18:55 EST Happy New Year! Wishing you all a year of good health, better health than you have every had before, more consistent healthy eating and regular exercise you enjoy, and more pride and comfort with your own body! Make it happen! :) <BR> Mon, 31 Dec 2012 23:51:43 EST Add Me as FitBit Friend Do you have a FitBit? Add me as your FitBit friend? Here is my link: <link> </link> <BR> To find yours - go to your profile on and look on top for the public URL. <BR> Fri, 28 Dec 2012 17:26:38 EST Post Christmas Re-Focusing! Hi SparkPeople! <BR> <BR> I had a pretty wonderful Christmas and to be honest, mostly because I have a 5 year old son who was super excited and totally into the magic of Santa. :) I cherish this time of innocence and wonder. He got a big domino race set from Santa as well as Light up Laser Pegs, some Thomas trains and his stocking full of stuff. We also had a few neat toys for him from Mom and Dad and he had a great time. <BR> <BR> I was very lucky to get the thing I'd been asking for sin... Wed, 26 Dec 2012 23:09:52 EST A New Vlog! Catching up with you - about my recent meditation and finding my inner motivation and commitment again. Also major changes in my home life coming. Sat, 8 Dec 2012 01:32:37 EST I Am Back! I have been struggling with my sparking for the last three weeks. I had not even tracked my fitness since Nov. 9th. I haven't stopped walking, though. I have walked every day. I finally danced again Tuesday night. I eat healthy most of the day, and it is only nights that mess me up. I think that by sparking more, I will be more focused and stay on track better. <BR> <BR> I have been tracking food on Noom, an app. I have on my smartphone, which gives a good estimate, but not exact data. I w... Thu, 29 Nov 2012 04:19:49 EST Angel Checking In My last blog was on 11-15, a call for help. The post before that was 11-9.. Prior to that I used to post almost every day for about 16 months in a row.. then in mid-October it got spotty and then November I wasn't here much at all. <BR> <BR> I don't want to quit. I don't want to lose my momentum, but I am. <BR> <BR> I'm not sure what is going on and why I'm losing my Spark. I am not losing any weight really, as I have two pounds that keep coming and going and coming and going. 226-224-226-2... Fri, 23 Nov 2012 01:47:54 EST Unmotivated, Please Help Well, not sure even how to start this. I haven't been on here much lately and have been feeling unmotivated. I'm not quitting.. It is a lifestyle, I mean eating healthy foods most of the time and exercising regularly.. but I am struggling with motivation and with the actual weight loss. I did drop 1.5 lbs since last week, but that was from my period to post-period, so I expected that. <BR> <BR> Feeling kind of depressed, I think. <BR> Going to try to dance to get my endorphins up.. <BR> <B... Thu, 15 Nov 2012 23:34:58 EST Dance Party Set List Here are some songs and videos you can dance along with: <BR> <BR> Basshunter - "All I Ever Wanted" - <link> </link> <BR> <BR> Basshunter - "Boten Anna" - <link><BR>feature=relmfu </link> <BR> <BR> Katy Perry - "California Gurls" - <link> </link> <BR> <BR> Katy Perry - "Hot and Cold" - <link> </link> <BR> <BR> Katy Perry "Hot and Col... Fri, 9 Nov 2012 22:22:34 EST Angel Update Hi everyone! How are you? Nothing really major is going on for me and this is a really good thing. I am trying to detox from the Halloween candy that is finally gone. <BR> <BR> I think I'm doing ok on my eating.. Ate pretty low carb today. Still under 100 carbs today. Also I'm only at about 1100 calories and that is too low for me. Hungry, though, and can't figure out what to have that is low carb. At night I always want higher carbs. Well, I still have to eat something. Maybe some popcorn... Wed, 7 Nov 2012 23:33:29 EST Carb Cycling - Suggestions Needed So I am trying to do carb cycling, which is recommended by Chris Powell and was shown on the Dr. Oz show recently. <BR> <BR> See it here: <link><BR>s-plan-cut-carb-cravings-7-days-pt-1 </link> <BR> <BR> A chapter from Chris Powell's Book "Choose to Lose: The 7 Day Carb Cycle Solution" Chapter 4, The Furnace: <link><BR>7-day-carb-cycle-solution </link> <BR> <BR> So I have been trying this for several days and d... Mon, 5 Nov 2012 09:45:45 EST Stupid Halloween Candy Combined with PMS Cravings Stupid Halloween Candy! Weak me.. for not being able to resist it! PMS Cravings suck and what horrible timing for them to hit when we have this stuff in the house! <BR> <BR> I binged on collected Halloween candy last night.. right after Trick-or-treating and long after my son went to bed.. from his collection of the night. We said we'd share, but OH the Shame! <BR> <BR> I woke up totally determined to eat clean, to exercise a lot and to stay away from the candy. I did walk for a full hour... Fri, 2 Nov 2012 01:38:29 EST Chocolate Pumpkin Cupcakes? I am thinking of making chocolate pumpkin cupcakes today because if I do, I can have a couple of these and not need to eat the trick-or-treat candy, maybe.. Well, not all of it. OMG this is going to be so hard for me <BR> <BR> To make the chocolate cake very low calorie, use one cake mix of dark chocolate cake, 1 can of pumpkin (not seasoned), 1 egg white, and about 1/2 cup water. I think that's right. You don't need whole eggs nor oil in this. I think I've seen you can use just the cake mix... Wed, 31 Oct 2012 09:16:44 EST Checking In I made a vlog on my phone during my walk today, but don't have time to post it. Happy I got a walk, as it looked like we might have storms all week! Heading out for Animaterra (chorus) rehearsal in a few minutes and need to prep my son's dinner first. I'm not feeling great today. Upset stomach. <BR> <BR> Yesterday - emotional eating during the storm. I was really worried and I found myself eating a lot of candy and bread. Couldn't go outside and our house was crowded with son out of school... Tue, 30 Oct 2012 17:16:08 EST Try an Emoticon Blog This was my Sunday: <BR> <BR> <em>43</em> <em>288</em> <em>296</em> <em>150</em> <em>387</em> <em>311</em> <em>335</em> <em>355</em> <em>354</em> <em>102</em> <BR> <BR> Try an emoticon blog.. <BR> <BR> Teammates.. we need some blogs to comment on for the points for commenting on blog of a team mate. Thanks! <BR> Mon, 29 Oct 2012 02:12:28 EST Music Videos to Dance to Monster Mash - <link> </link> <BR> <BR> Purple People Eater - <link> </link> <BR> <BR> Witch Doctor - Ooh Eeh Ooh Ah Ah Ting Tang Walla Walla Bing Bang - <link><BR>feature=related </link> <BR> <BR> Beetlejuice Day-O (The Banana Boat Song) - <link><BR>feature=related </link> <BR> <BR> My Sharona by The Knack- <link> Mon, 29 Oct 2012 01:19:21 EST Busy Work Day and Prepping for Hurricane I am totally exhausted today. Lack of sleep, plus straight 8 hr work day without a break. We had a committee meeting which are the days I have to stay and not get a lunch. I did have a greek yogurt, cocoa roast almonds, and two granola fiber bars with me and I got a brownie (a FANTABULOUS-OMG-THAT-WAS- <BR> TOTALLY-WORTH-THE-CALORIES-Brownie!) and a healthy carrot-nut muffin from the coffee hour. DH snagged those for me. Immediately after work I went shopping for gasoline, and emergency supp... Sun, 28 Oct 2012 21:49:39 EST NSVs I've Noticed Lately Here are some Non-Scale Victories (NSVs) I wanted to share. There are more than 4 here so I want these to count for the Weekend Challenge, too. <BR> <BR> My rings are looser.. almost falling off. I need to find a way to make them stay on or put them on a chain.. I mean my wedding band and diamond engagement ring. When I got them I weighed 300 lbs. I think my ring size HAS changed! <BR> <BR> My undies are butt baggy.. That's amazing! These are already down to size 10's.. and I remember so ... Sat, 27 Oct 2012 01:09:30 EST Temporary Setback Weight is up 3 lbs.. Disappointed.. Trying to figure out why Wednesdays are the highest weigh-in day for me. Hard when that is the weigh-in day for the BLC Challenge! <BR> <BR> (just weighed in again after bathroom visit - 226.5 which is up 2.5 lbs since last week. Sigh!) Wed, 24 Oct 2012 10:02:31 EST One Word Answers Meme Where is your cell phone? <BR> desk <BR> <BR> Spouse? <BR> yes. <BR> <BR> Your hair? <BR> brown <BR> <BR> Your mother? <BR> friend <BR> <BR> Your father? <BR> missed <BR> <BR> Your favorite thing? <BR> dog <BR> <BR> Your dream last night? <BR> nope <BR> <BR> Favourite drink? <BR> water <BR> <BR> What room are you in? <BR> LR <BR> <BR> Your hobby? <BR> knitting <BR> <BR> Your fear? <BR> snakes <BR> <BR> Where do you want to be in 6 years? <BR> wealthier <BR> <BR> Wher... Tue, 23 Oct 2012 17:38:42 EST Low Energy and Why I Asked for Support I should probably post why I feel I need some support today.. <BR> <BR> Lack of sleep!!! <BR> Eating poorly today.. <BR> umm. yeah.. Four english muffins.. Two wheat and two pumpkin.. with butter on all and lowfat cream cheese on three of them. Sigh. Not great choices. I did take a walk, but no energy to do much more. <BR> <BR> Got a call from my son's school principal because Nicholas punched a little girl at recess time. So, I picked up Nicholas early from the after-school program to t... Tue, 23 Oct 2012 17:26:41 EST Live from the Pumpkin Festival Here is a short vlog from the Pumpkin Festival in Keene, NH - after dark looking at some of the jack-o-lanterns. We left before the announcement of the number of lit jack-o-lanterns. We'll find out tomorrow, perhaps. <BR> <BR> Unofficial total is 22,700, which is probably not a record, but may have beaten the other town we are in competition with in the Pumpkin Wars that will be aired on HGTV on Halloween. <BR> <BR> -- <BR> <BR> Update - official count for today (2012) is 29,381. We are ju... Sat, 20 Oct 2012 20:43:53 EST Update on Angel and the Pumpkin Festival This was taken on a walk today, not FROM the Pumpkin Festival.. Updating you on me so you know I'm alive and all.. <BR> <BR> Discussing some of my food splurges..turnovers, cotton candy (a few bites), and Krispy Kreme donuts.. But it's not awful.. it's my life. One donut, not six. It's OK. <BR> <BR> Right now I'm eating a turkey sandwich on wheat flat bread with cheese and Romaine, lots of baby carrots with hummus, peas, and a tiny bit of the buttercup squash (1/4 cup). Sat, 20 Oct 2012 17:20:43 EST Birthday Girl Pictures - and What Should I Get? Some pictures of me taken on my birthday, today! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> 44 Today! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Blue Orchids I fell in love with ... Wed, 17 Oct 2012 11:31:29 EST Hair Vlog Showing you my new hair color in the sunshine yesterday..Short 2.5 min. video. Wed, 17 Oct 2012 09:20:50 EST Hair Before/After Pix My emoticons of the day: <BR> <BR> <em>320</em> <em>402</em> <em>405</em> <em>417</em> <em>416</em> <em>102</em> <em>102</em> <em>102</em> <em>311</em> <em>313</em> <em>388</em> <em>335</em> <em>339</em> <BR> <BR> Ok.. the hair.. <BR> <BR> BEFORE: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> AFTER: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> BEFORE: <BR> <img src=... Tue, 16 Oct 2012 17:07:42 EST Hair not right Starting to feel better. <BR> I colored my hair for the first time ever tonight. I used an eSalon kit which does customized color and the first set is free for just the shipping of $4.99. I don't think it worked to cover my gray very well.. Well, I have more white than gray and now the white kinda looks like light brown highlights. It was a light brown color and I could swear I ordered medium brown. Yep, I did. I checked. Hrm. Well, it's not awful, just didn't do what I expected and hoped. ... Tue, 16 Oct 2012 02:08:07 EST Fall Foliage Walk and Update Come take a walk with me and hear about how my life is going, starting with a huge victory! Filmed yesterday, October 12. <BR> <BR> I talk about the BLC's Tightening and Toning (TNT) three exercises a bit, too. <BR> <BR> Today I am more sick with the cold down in my chest. I have had trouble breathing all day and a lot of coughing. Not sure if I'll get to work tomorrow or not. <BR> <BR> Sat, 13 Oct 2012 22:44:09 EST Sick I am sick, sick sick. <BR> <BR> I have a bad cold with major head congestion and the drippiness. Despite taking decongestant and antihistamine, I am still a mess tonight. Thank goodness for Ricola Natural Throat Lozenges. I love those things when I am sick. <BR> <BR> I'm behind in my sparking!! <BR> <BR> Gotta catch up with the BLC challenge and my Committed 365 Team BLC, too. So behind! But.. I am trying to get to 10,000 steps.. and I'm at 8541, so like 15 min. of dancing should do it. Th... Thu, 11 Oct 2012 21:08:02 EST Clothing Organization Progress I ended up doing a major project with Nicholas and we feel accomplished and shared some quality time together. <BR> <BR> First, we moved a backless bookcase from the new office area hallway to the bedroom. This makes that walkway more passable. <BR> <BR> We needed to move clothing from N's room into my bedroom where he usually gets dressed, at least until we get the new bureau on Saturday. His clothing bureau in my room has just summer clothing - t-shirts and shorts mainly. So we were havi... Wed, 10 Oct 2012 19:29:28 EST Purple Cauliflower This is a purple cauliflower. It tasted like a regular white one, I think. It was good. <BR> This was one of my "Open to New Freggies" piece of the BLC Challenge. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Note - it maintained it's color after steaming - maybe just a tiny bit faded because I like it pretty soft, not crisp. Awesome that it was still purple after cooking (florets). BUT I did get a lot of gas from it.. which could have happened wit... Wed, 10 Oct 2012 15:39:07 EST Hard Day So I am having a very hard day today. <BR> <BR> My son is home for the second day in a row - home sick from school with a bad cold. Today he missed the class field trip to a play, the school book fair (his class's time to go), and tonight we won't be going to Open House at his school. Also, he missed Project KEEP again, the after school program he loves. I feel badly for Nicholas. I had to cancel working at the school book fair, too. I am coming down with this bad cold, too, and let me tell... Wed, 10 Oct 2012 15:36:20 EST Food Swaps Challenge This is about the food swaps I did over the weekend for the Food Swaps Challenge. The challenge included making food swaps for healthy foods and sharing that with our teammates. We could get a bonus of 75 points for doing a vlog about it, too! Here it is! <BR> <BR> We also had to Focus on sodium and stay in range on that, Open to new freggies and share about what we tried (purple cauliflower, different kinds of apples, a pluot, buttercup squash), Organize something each day, Do it (30 min. i... Tue, 9 Oct 2012 19:03:58 EST