ANGELN325's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=ANGELN325 ANGELN325's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ A special Thank You to all my Spark Friends! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5833217 As you know, I'm having a hard time with the news of my uncle. After losing 3 family members earlier this year, this is very disturbing to me that I might lose another. The information I get keeps changing and Saturday my aunt said that when she talked to him that the doctor told him that he does not have the normal, slow moving Prostate cancer. He has this rare form that moves faster and is already at stage 4, but he must be healthy enough now because after they remove the prostate, he is go... Mon, 15 Dec 2014 06:41:30 EST Whew! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5832020 Found out I misunderstood the update on my uncle. I heard my dad talking to my cousin when I came home last night and started grilling him about his baby brother/my uncle. They don't know if the tumor in his back is cancer (how I heard shoulder, I don't know). The tumor in his face which was biopsied is not cancer, but they haven't biopsied the ones in his back yet. They are hopeful that they are not cancerous though because they have not gotten larger. I'm so praying that this is the case be... Fri, 12 Dec 2014 16:12:48 EST Rough day, but handling appropriately. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5831479 Today has been a hard day. I'm mailing out my Christmas cards and since I lost 3 family members this year, that pain is coming back to sting me. Also I got more information about my uncle who's beginning his fight with cancer. It's already in the advanced stages as it's spread to his shoulder and he may have it on his face. I feel like I've been sucker punched. I lost three family members earlier this year in 3 months and when I first found out about my uncle's start with prostate cancer, I w... Thu, 11 Dec 2014 15:46:45 EST I think this lunch box will do nicely! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5829832 Had plenty of room in my new lunch box! Was able to pack some broccoli to go with my lunch, an apple, and some canned pears. Loving this! Mon, 8 Dec 2014 18:20:37 EST I'm holding my ground. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5829143 After reaching a new high and then bringing it down a bit, I'm holding my ground. This is actually progress for me. The holidays is generally when I gain at least 10 lbs. With me gaining before Thanksgiving even showed up, I knew I couldn't continue on this path which helped me lose all my excuses of why I can approach the holidays with reckless abandon. This is actually a great time to learn some new lessons. My lunch cooler was falling apart so I got myself an early Christmas present, a new... Sun, 7 Dec 2014 15:05:10 EST Happy Thanksgiving! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5823827 I'm hoping for all those who live in the states that as you get ready for the holiday, whether celebrating on your own, with a few loved ones, or with a big group of people that you take a few moments to reflect on all the things that you are thankful for. One of the keys to being happy is to focus on what we have instead of what we don't have. <BR> <BR> So here's my list of things that I'm thankful for: <BR> 1. I'm here and still have my health. Every day that I'm alive and breathing is a ... Thu, 27 Nov 2014 11:03:28 EST On the road to recovery hopefully http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5822845 I've been kind of MIA. My last blog was in September. I've been very focused on getting a new adventure started. That occurred on Halloween day when the company I've been working as a temp for offered me a permanent position. So that has been one less stressor off my plate. <BR> <BR> All that was left then was to tackle my ankle issue. It's been a long hard road, but with the right socks and inserts, I'm finally starting to make some strides. Hoping this sticks and I can start working back ... Tue, 25 Nov 2014 13:39:46 EST Happy Labor Day weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5769468 I wanted to wish everyone in the US a great holiday weekend. This Labor Day will have significant meaning to me for several reasons: <BR> 1. I used to go up north Labor Day weekend and spend time with my Uncle George, but he is no longer with us. <em>39</em> So it will be sad for that reason. <BR> 2. I'm working as a temp so I work hard and without benefits. I'm happy I will have off that Monday, but it will be without pay. <BR> 3. I'm working hard towards my goal to be healthy. This will ... Fri, 29 Aug 2014 15:41:40 EST Day 2 and feeling good. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5765096 So I've done 2 days of the probiotic and 2 days of the orange smooth and today I tried one of the bars (lemon cranberry) and so far, I'm doing good. I've not noticed anything significant yet, but I'm not feeling bad either. I don't care for the lemon/cranberry combo, but I love how big the cranberries are in the bar. I wish it was just a cranberry bar! Luckily, the lemon isn't too strong and while the bar seemed small, it was very satisfying. My ankle is still healing, but at least my arches ... Fri, 22 Aug 2014 18:18:36 EST I'm so excited!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5763860 <em>252</em> <BR> <BR> Tonight when I came home, I noticed a package on my door step and it was from SparkPeople. I opened it up and I was selected to try out some products from Metamucil. I had put my hat in the ring, but it had been awhile back and kind of forgot about it, but when I opened the package up, I instantly jumped up and down for joy (inside...my ankle hasn't healed yet)! I have a 30 day supply of 2 of the products which I have to do for 30 days and then I have another produc... Wed, 20 Aug 2014 21:38:59 EST I found this today and I had to share! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5762632 I was commenting on a person's wall when I found this comment and I absolutely love it so I had to turn it into a blog as motivation for not only me, but all of us! The only thing I changed was the emoticons because those didn't copy over and so I added my own flair there. <BR> <BR> <em>311</em> L - Little by little does the trick! <BR> <em>194</em> E - Every choice is important. <BR> <em>306</em> T - Trust yourself. <BR> <em>486</em> S - Stumbling is not falling. <BR> <BR> ... Tue, 19 Aug 2014 05:52:43 EST Back to your regular programming. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5760800 This week was a hard week, but I got through it and realize if I want to make grounds in my health realm, I need to deal with this ankle issue. It's getting worse. Now even my good tennis don't protect me if I walk too much. I had my ankle elevated with an ice pack last night and going to take ibuprofen today. My mission is to get me an ankle support that I can wear all the time. Something I can slip over like a sock and if that is not enough to get some better supports in my shoes. Wish me l... Sat, 16 Aug 2014 10:26:03 EST Things are about to get real. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5759812 If you are the type of person who doesn't like intense, dark discussions, WARNING: Do not read this blog! <BR> <em>227</em> <em>227</em> <em>227</em> <em>227</em> <em>227</em> <em>227</em> <em>227</em> <em>227</em> <em>227</em> <em>227</em> <BR> <BR> Go find a happy blog of someone's success or someone who is struggling with their healthy lifestyle, and just needs a little support. This is a cleansing and is very necessary for my own journey. I will not feel offended if... Thu, 14 Aug 2014 19:05:18 EST What a blah day until... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5758449 Woke up this morning tired and with a runny, stuffed up nose. Basically feeling miserable. Great...either my allergies are bothering me or I'm getting sick. So my day was already off to a bad start. Then I find out Robin Williams died and they are saying possible suicide. He was such a funny, talented comedian whose demons finally overpowered him. Just so sad so was very sad about that. Then I'm thinking of some of my own problems and how I'm going to get through my day. I was very mopey toda... Tue, 12 Aug 2014 18:54:33 EST No bronze for me this week. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5755725 I was in a rush to get out of the house today so my Spark Activity Tracker did not make it out with me. Does anyone else who wears one of these feel incomplete without it? When I'm swimming, that's one thing. It's not water proof, but when I'm at work, I want to know how many steps did I walk. Did I get up often enough throughout the day? <BR> <BR> Oh well, I don't have it so I decided today would be my light activity day at work at least. When I get home will be a different story when my S... Fri, 8 Aug 2014 11:38:08 EST I went for a little test run today. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5754596 I decided to go for a little walk on my lunch today just to see where my ankle was at with the healing process. I'm happy to say I made it, but I'm not 100% yet. I had to slow my stride mid-way through the walk. I'm doing these ankle strengtheners and I'm hoping between that, trying some different cardio, and little walks here and there will keep me on the path to recovery. I only trust my good tennis for any "official" walking. The better shoes I got are okay for this job it appears, but I d... Wed, 6 Aug 2014 18:41:37 EST I'm a hero? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5753781 That's what the card my daughter gave to me said last night. I was her hero. Those words took me totally by surprise. Me. Me? How could that be? How did this become so. I've never seen me as anything other than an ordinary person with strong determination. A hero? <BR> <BR> I sat and thought about it for awhile and despite my struggles, I do have some things to be proud of: <BR> <BR> 1. I do not give up. No matter how bad the outcome looks. No matter how many times I fall down. I pick mysel... Tue, 5 Aug 2014 16:59:13 EST Fired up and more determined than ever. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5753031 I got on the scale yesterday and *gasp*, I'm over the 200 mark. 202 to be exact. This is the highest I've ever been excluding my pregnancy weight with Caley where I was 207. I was like "Oh no! This is not happening. Ankle injury or not, I'm going to turn this around." I went for a bike ride with my daughter and then went and got myself a hopefully better pair of shoes for work because I noticed when I wear my good tennis shoes, I do not have any ankle issues. It's just when I wear my work sho... Mon, 4 Aug 2014 15:45:48 EST What the heck is wrong with me? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5749829 I've been so tired this week. I barely got my strength training in Monday, cardio didn't happen yesterday, and the most I've done with my abs is just suck my stomach in throughout today. I thought maybe I wasn't hydrated enough, but took care of that issue. Still tired. Thinking I'm going to go to bed earlier tonight and see if some good sleep does the trick. Wed, 30 Jul 2014 17:38:59 EST Not letting the tired stop me. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5748980 This week I've been so drained. I guess this weekend kicked my butt. However, I did manage to do strength training yesterday. Not for as long as I wanted to, but it's a start! That's what I tell myself. I just need to start and see what I can do. If it's 5 minutes, well then, it's better than no minutes. Also, I know from past history that 5 minutes will become 10, 10 will become 15 and so on. So when my lunch time comes, I'm going to find a routine I can do in my chair. I don't have my good ... Tue, 29 Jul 2014 13:31:54 EST What a weekend! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5748036 This weekend was truly wonderful, insightful, and well...motivating! Friday night I took Caley to a Brewer's game. It was a Girl Scout event and fan appreciation night. Doesn't get better than that! Thanks to us sitting with other Girl Scouts, they made sure we didn't miss out on getting our free Brewer's shirts! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/3/l6362980.jpg"> <BR> <BR> The walking up and down the stairs in my work shoes wasn't too good though and my ankle was re... Mon, 28 Jul 2014 08:27:12 EST Can't wait for Tom to leave. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5746499 I'm in the crampy stage. It came early so I was unprepared with medicine. Everything is cramping, including my legs. I think I will go for another short walk since my ankle hasn't fully recovered. Hope I'm not like this at the ball game tonight. Ugh! Fri, 25 Jul 2014 16:49:22 EST I hate TOM. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5744188 The first time I saw or heard of TOM on SparkPeople, I was like, "Who is this dude?" Then I came to realize what it stood for and thought, "Pretty clever." Well, lately I've begun to hate TOM. I know when he's coming. I get emotional and I hate it because it takes all I can to stay positive and at peace as it is. I find myself letting things go in one ear and out the other while still giving me time to grieve for the family members I lost this year, the job I miss, and of course, pray. Howeve... Tue, 22 Jul 2014 11:50:58 EST The adventures of ankle recovery. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5743217 This weekend, I did not want to be stopped or limited due to an ankle injury. Where I live, nice, hot weather is around for a limited time and we have to make the most of it. Plus the coupons that Caley earns from her summer reading program expire so every weekend is action packed and precious. There are no weekends to lie around and wish away injuries. So I setup a game plan as I wanted to knock out 2 coupons this weekend. <BR> <BR> Saturday we went to the zoo as the weather was perfect. Wa... Mon, 21 Jul 2014 07:55:59 EST Woohoo! My ankle is healing. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5738334 I can walk for small periods of time without any pain. This is so awesome, but I know I won't be able to return to my walks during my lunch just yet. I have to continue to let things heal and then come up with some kind of return plan until I get back to my bronze level of steps. I think this week, I will look and see how many steps I get these next 2 weeks for a base line number and then I can work on setting some goals to work towards my bronze level again. <BR> <BR> It was nice being abl... Mon, 14 Jul 2014 05:36:42 EST Sync spot is back online. Wish my ankle would do the same now. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5735075 Even though I've been listening to my body, somehow I hurt my ankle? My feet were sore on Friday so I changed to my good tennis and that helped...No issues. I didn't do anything crazy Saturday or Sunday so how come when I step out of the car on Monday to take my daughter to school, I can hardly walk. I do feel soreness in my hamstrings and back so I've been stretching to relieve that, but I can barely walk on my right ankle. The pain is in the back part where the hamstring attaches. When I ca... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 06:07:19 EST This Motivation brought to you from Spark People http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5732416 I have found a new form of motivation. Lately, I have been earning a lot of trophies from Spark People. Sometimes I know how to earn them, but sometimes they are trophies I didn't know existed, but I love those little guys. I know I can't put them on my shelf, but they are on the site which is in some ways better because my house is cluttered enough as it is! So these are perfect and so needed because my aunt finally lost her battle to colon cancer. This is now 3 family members cancer has tak... Sat, 5 Jul 2014 09:59:37 EST How far I have come... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5728772 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/3/l83781216.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Scotmama did an excellent blog titled Sometimes it's the little things. She detailed all the changes that she incorporated since joining with SparkPeople and encouraged us to share ours. Naturally, I did and she told me that my comments would make a good SparkBlog of my own so I thought...okay! So, here it is. All the changes I've seen happen since joining Sparkpeople: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.co... Mon, 30 Jun 2014 06:00:33 EST Goal accomplished http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5723639 I made bronze yesterday so my goal will to stay in the bronze level this week and for the next few weeks and then I will shoot for silver. So today when I saw dismal steps on my tracker, I was a little bummed at first, but then I thought sometimes the steps do not show the full story. I mowed my lawn today, weed whacked my trim, and did my gardening. Obviously these things did not generate many steps, but I worked my body hard and in the end, that is what counts. So now it's up for the rest o... Sun, 22 Jun 2014 20:51:46 EST It's decided...I love my Spark Activity Tracker! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5722323 As with any new tool, it takes a bit to decide if the relationship will be a love or hate one. At first, I wasn't sure. There was a couple of days that I forgot to wear it all together, but then I got into a routine and have been pretty consistent wearing my Spark Activity tracker. I got the colored one so it's noticeable so I do get questions about it, but it's really no big deal. I wear it on my shirt because I've worn pedometers on my pants and then they fall off when I'm in the restroom s... Fri, 20 Jun 2014 18:28:28 EST I got one! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5712446 Sparkpeople finally gave me an offer I couldn't refuse and I finally broke down and got me the Spark Activity tracker. It came right away too. Had a lot of fun setting it up last night and today was my first day wearing it. I was a little ambivalent if it was really tracking what I was doing, but when I got home, it did synch and I got to see what I did. This is so cool and will save me some time and definitely motivate me, and I got the free DVD so can't wait to check it out. I'm sparking no... Sat, 7 Jun 2014 00:03:08 EST I'm so proud of me. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5710707 Sometimes on the weekends, I like to really push myself because I have more time so I like to do fun things and enjoy life. Generally that is followed by a few days of soreness and I end up having to really scale back my exercise or rest all together. This weekend I rode bikes with my daughter. (She can finally ride without training wheels...yay!) We rode to the park by her school and took a break and then visited at someone in the area and then did the trek home. I'm definitely out of shape ... Wed, 4 Jun 2014 17:39:41 EST The battles inside my head. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5708623 I understand that part of this journey is to be brutally honest about what is going on inside my head. I was reading an article about what makes some people successful with losing weight and what makes other people (like myself) not. I think the 2 that have been my killers is motivation and approach. I fixed one...approach, but now I have to make sure that motivation stays intact and hence, why I'm blogging about the biggest battle going on inside my head...my reasons for why I want to lose t... Mon, 2 Jun 2014 06:35:33 EST Finding myself again. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5708046 After a very bumpy first half of the year, I'm finally starting to find myself again and reflect on my goals and what I want to accomplish. My exercise program is starting to find traction. I'm pretty much working out daily at various levels. Sometimes it's an intense workout by my standards and sometimes it's light activity or a lighter workout. I definitely have more gains to be made in the cardio area but I'm getting stronger and need to keep up with my weight training if I don't want to l... Sun, 1 Jun 2014 11:34:38 EST Frustrated, but not giving up. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5693137 Well, I decided to weigh myself to see how working my new job is doing for my healthy habits and my weight has gone up! No problem. I will take my measurements to see if I should really be concerned. Gained inches in 3 places. I was so devastated. This is what has stopped me in the past from continuing. It has never been the scale. It's been working out, cutting calories and seeing no positive changes. Then working out harder and making more changes just to see no benefits what so ever. I was... Mon, 12 May 2014 07:40:02 EST When the tough gets going, I keep persevering. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5681711 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/0/l405104849.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This has been a rough year, but I'm so proud of me. Usually a year like this would mean weight gain for me, which would have been devastating because I would have reached a new high on the scale if that happened. While I'm not doing as well as I envisioned myself in the beginning of the year, I'm doing great considering the circumstances. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1087736369.jp... Sun, 27 Apr 2014 15:48:33 EST This is why I exercise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5648013 Today was my womanly physical and when the nurse took my blood pressure, she came back with 116/72. I was so excited! The top number has never been that low and while the bottom number used to be 70, it was creeping up to 80 so seeing it come back down was great! My doctor was very pleased with my exercise program and wants me to keep up with the good work. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/9/l492454861.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I'm so proud of me. Every day this week, I've b... Fri, 14 Mar 2014 21:56:21 EST Feeling like I'm on the right track. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5631594 For the first time ever, I feel like I'm heading in the right direction. It's not like I'm seeing any huge successes this year. It's just a feeling, a change in attitude that says this journey will be different from the rest. I've been focusing and committing myself to small changes and not moving in my usual let's get through this ramp up quickly, then feel overwhelmed and discouraged because there is no progress with this approach. Instead I'm trying to master a few things and slowly ramp u... Sun, 23 Feb 2014 12:27:22 EST Bumps in the road are to be expected http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5612494 After staring off pretty strong, losing 4 lbs, and doing my first fitness test, I had my first bump in the road. This week has been a struggle to meet my water on a consistent basis and exercise. It seems like I have so much on my plate and after awhile I just collapsed. However, I'm not giving up. I just looked at the events and said what am I going to do about it? Well, for one thing, I decided that I will track only the things I'm trying to implement so the most important things I do is tr... Sat, 1 Feb 2014 21:25:43 EST Much needed break http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5600466 I went up north to visit my uncle and had some fun. I went snowmobiling with my daughter. It was a great workout and got me even more committed to strengthening my shoulder. I found a routine for abs that is standing so no pressure on my neck. How awesome! Mon, 20 Jan 2014 18:56:41 EST I'm so proud of me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5596879 I've been really dealing with my situation well. I thought this would kill whatever motivation I had, but nope. I've been hitting the gym or exercising however I can. I haven't been turning to food like I thought I would although I do enjoy a yummy dinner. I did have a couple cries. Mainly because I'm going to miss some of the people there. That place had become my second family. I'm going to miss working from home, my time off, and just having work/life balance. I won't miss the stress and w... Fri, 17 Jan 2014 10:52:05 EST A real test to my resolve http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5594324 I've had some real disappointments this week. <BR> Monday - My daughter and I rush to go to our first Mommy and me yoga class to find out it was cancelled. As disappointed as I was, my daughter was far more disappointed. I'm having the money credited and will have to come up with something to do. I'm thinking doing yoga from my home and if my daughter likes what I'm doing, she can join me. If anyone knows any good workout videos that can be done with my daughter, I'm all eyes! <BR> <BR> Tues... Wed, 15 Jan 2014 05:53:47 EST Checking in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5592536 This year is my fresh start. I wiped the slate clean and acted like I'm a new member to SP. It has been very helpful so thank you to all that supported me and shared your stories of doing the same. Am I doing perfectly? Of course not, but life is messy and through those messes, I learn a lot about myself. Right now, I'm keeping my goals very simple: <BR> <BR> 1. Get 7 hrs or more of sleep a night. Haven't been consistent here, but happy that I haven't been horrible either. Most nights of the... Mon, 13 Jan 2014 15:16:09 EST Sick but still staying positive http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5587163 My daughter came down with an illness on Monday night and still trying to work the bug out of her system. It became apparent last night that I got a milder version of the bug. So exercise has been non-existent with the exception of a little stretching. My food has been off. I did a pretty good job tracking Tuesday, but today I couldn't even tell you what I ate. Just that it happened often because it seemed to ease the tummy pains a little. I have a stuffy nose and I'm coughing and sneezing an... Wed, 8 Jan 2014 17:29:09 EST Off to a good start! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5584741 I've learned so much last year and it's really helping me this year as I work to find out more about me and what I need to do to be successful. One thing that I learned as I timed my meals is that certain distractions are beneficial to me slowing down at meals. While chowing down in front of the TV would be hurtful, eating front of the computer is not. When I was timing my meals eating with my daughter, sitting at the table, with no distractions, my meals were over anywhere from 10 to 15 minu... Mon, 6 Jan 2014 19:08:12 EST Biggest fans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5583446 I always knew that I was my daughter's biggest fan, but today I found out that she is mine. I've been gearing her up and telling her about how Mommy needs to make some changes in her life and preparing her for the changes so it wouldn't be a complete shock and today was the first day implementing some of them. My daughter has cheered me on all the way. <BR> <BR> 1. She praised me on the baked apples I did for breakfast this morning. <BR> 2. She asked me what the time was for when I was timin... Sun, 5 Jan 2014 19:57:38 EST Reflection and motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5582036 So one thing that really hit me today as I was reading some SP articles is that one of the things keeping me moving forward in my journey is motivation. I say certain things, but do I really, deep down inside, believe them? I'm thinking...no because the proof is not only on the scale but the added inches on my frame in several places. <BR> <BR> I decided to wipe the slate clean. Pretend I haven't been a member since like....2007 and this is my year. My fresh start. My year to tackle demons. ... Sat, 4 Jan 2014 15:38:11 EST Looking forward to 2014 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5573632 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/4/l248063320.jpg"> <BR> <BR> It has been a rough two months. My daughter is not doing well in school and the teacher is not very supportive or understanding. To say I've been stressed would be an understatement and I've been dealing with it poorly. Candy jars, cookies, and treats have found their way into my gullet. I developed an aversion to water. Even exercise became harder and harder to do. It's too cold. I'm too tired. <BR> <BR> <img s... Sat, 28 Dec 2013 09:26:06 EST And it begins http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5511550 Another challenge as a beautiful butterfly. I've been working hard to remove the obstacles that have kept me from experiencing real success in the last two challenges, but I'm not complaining. Every challenge I learn more about me and grow more into the person I want to become. This weight did not come on over night. It's not going to leave overnight. I'm going to have to go through the transformation. Like the caterpillar does when he/she becomes a butterfly. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://pho... Sat, 12 Oct 2013 13:22:37 EST Checking in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5498388 I realized I have not blogged in a long time. This month has been crazy busy. I feel like I'm just running from one thing to another and then I got sick so that sucked and meant some weight gain for me. So I've been getting diligent about taking my reflux medicine because I don't want to be eating all the time and also needed to get my water drinking going on again. Well, that is starting up again! Woohoo! Water...how I've missed you. <BR> <BR> My shoulder is like 90% recovered. The special... Sat, 28 Sep 2013 09:46:47 EST