ANGELN325's SparkPeople Blog ANGELN325's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community I hate TOM. The first time I saw or heard of TOM on SparkPeople, I was like, "Who is this dude?" Then I came to realize what it stood for and thought, "Pretty clever." Well, lately I've begun to hate TOM. I know when he's coming. I get emotional and I hate it because it takes all I can to stay positive and at peace as it is. I find myself letting things go in one ear and out the other while still giving me time to grieve for the family members I lost this year, the job I miss, and of course, pray. Howeve... Tue, 22 Jul 2014 11:50:58 EST The adventures of ankle recovery. This weekend, I did not want to be stopped or limited due to an ankle injury. Where I live, nice, hot weather is around for a limited time and we have to make the most of it. Plus the coupons that Caley earns from her summer reading program expire so every weekend is action packed and precious. There are no weekends to lie around and wish away injuries. So I setup a game plan as I wanted to knock out 2 coupons this weekend. <BR> <BR> Saturday we went to the zoo as the weather was perfect. Wa... Mon, 21 Jul 2014 07:55:59 EST Woohoo! My ankle is healing. I can walk for small periods of time without any pain. This is so awesome, but I know I won't be able to return to my walks during my lunch just yet. I have to continue to let things heal and then come up with some kind of return plan until I get back to my bronze level of steps. I think this week, I will look and see how many steps I get these next 2 weeks for a base line number and then I can work on setting some goals to work towards my bronze level again. <BR> <BR> It was nice being abl... Mon, 14 Jul 2014 05:36:42 EST Sync spot is back online. Wish my ankle would do the same now. Even though I've been listening to my body, somehow I hurt my ankle? My feet were sore on Friday so I changed to my good tennis and that helped...No issues. I didn't do anything crazy Saturday or Sunday so how come when I step out of the car on Monday to take my daughter to school, I can hardly walk. I do feel soreness in my hamstrings and back so I've been stretching to relieve that, but I can barely walk on my right ankle. The pain is in the back part where the hamstring attaches. When I ca... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 06:07:19 EST This Motivation brought to you from Spark People I have found a new form of motivation. Lately, I have been earning a lot of trophies from Spark People. Sometimes I know how to earn them, but sometimes they are trophies I didn't know existed, but I love those little guys. I know I can't put them on my shelf, but they are on the site which is in some ways better because my house is cluttered enough as it is! So these are perfect and so needed because my aunt finally lost her battle to colon cancer. This is now 3 family members cancer has tak... Sat, 5 Jul 2014 09:59:37 EST How far I have come... <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Scotmama did an excellent blog titled Sometimes it's the little things. She detailed all the changes that she incorporated since joining with SparkPeople and encouraged us to share ours. Naturally, I did and she told me that my comments would make a good SparkBlog of my own so I thought...okay! So, here it is. All the changes I've seen happen since joining Sparkpeople: <BR> <img src=" Mon, 30 Jun 2014 06:00:33 EST Goal accomplished I made bronze yesterday so my goal will to stay in the bronze level this week and for the next few weeks and then I will shoot for silver. So today when I saw dismal steps on my tracker, I was a little bummed at first, but then I thought sometimes the steps do not show the full story. I mowed my lawn today, weed whacked my trim, and did my gardening. Obviously these things did not generate many steps, but I worked my body hard and in the end, that is what counts. So now it's up for the rest o... Sun, 22 Jun 2014 20:51:46 EST It's decided...I love my Spark Activity Tracker! As with any new tool, it takes a bit to decide if the relationship will be a love or hate one. At first, I wasn't sure. There was a couple of days that I forgot to wear it all together, but then I got into a routine and have been pretty consistent wearing my Spark Activity tracker. I got the colored one so it's noticeable so I do get questions about it, but it's really no big deal. I wear it on my shirt because I've worn pedometers on my pants and then they fall off when I'm in the restroom s... Fri, 20 Jun 2014 18:28:28 EST I got one! Sparkpeople finally gave me an offer I couldn't refuse and I finally broke down and got me the Spark Activity tracker. It came right away too. Had a lot of fun setting it up last night and today was my first day wearing it. I was a little ambivalent if it was really tracking what I was doing, but when I got home, it did synch and I got to see what I did. This is so cool and will save me some time and definitely motivate me, and I got the free DVD so can't wait to check it out. I'm sparking no... Sat, 7 Jun 2014 00:03:08 EST I'm so proud of me. Sometimes on the weekends, I like to really push myself because I have more time so I like to do fun things and enjoy life. Generally that is followed by a few days of soreness and I end up having to really scale back my exercise or rest all together. This weekend I rode bikes with my daughter. (She can finally ride without training wheels...yay!) We rode to the park by her school and took a break and then visited at someone in the area and then did the trek home. I'm definitely out of shape ... Wed, 4 Jun 2014 17:39:41 EST The battles inside my head. I understand that part of this journey is to be brutally honest about what is going on inside my head. I was reading an article about what makes some people successful with losing weight and what makes other people (like myself) not. I think the 2 that have been my killers is motivation and approach. I fixed one...approach, but now I have to make sure that motivation stays intact and hence, why I'm blogging about the biggest battle going on inside my reasons for why I want to lose t... Mon, 2 Jun 2014 06:35:33 EST Finding myself again. After a very bumpy first half of the year, I'm finally starting to find myself again and reflect on my goals and what I want to accomplish. My exercise program is starting to find traction. I'm pretty much working out daily at various levels. Sometimes it's an intense workout by my standards and sometimes it's light activity or a lighter workout. I definitely have more gains to be made in the cardio area but I'm getting stronger and need to keep up with my weight training if I don't want to l... Sun, 1 Jun 2014 11:34:38 EST Frustrated, but not giving up. Well, I decided to weigh myself to see how working my new job is doing for my healthy habits and my weight has gone up! No problem. I will take my measurements to see if I should really be concerned. Gained inches in 3 places. I was so devastated. This is what has stopped me in the past from continuing. It has never been the scale. It's been working out, cutting calories and seeing no positive changes. Then working out harder and making more changes just to see no benefits what so ever. I was... Mon, 12 May 2014 07:40:02 EST When the tough gets going, I keep persevering. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This has been a rough year, but I'm so proud of me. Usually a year like this would mean weight gain for me, which would have been devastating because I would have reached a new high on the scale if that happened. While I'm not doing as well as I envisioned myself in the beginning of the year, I'm doing great considering the circumstances. <BR> <BR> <img src=" Sun, 27 Apr 2014 15:48:33 EST This is why I exercise Today was my womanly physical and when the nurse took my blood pressure, she came back with 116/72. I was so excited! The top number has never been that low and while the bottom number used to be 70, it was creeping up to 80 so seeing it come back down was great! My doctor was very pleased with my exercise program and wants me to keep up with the good work. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I'm so proud of me. Every day this week, I've b... Fri, 14 Mar 2014 21:56:21 EST Feeling like I'm on the right track. For the first time ever, I feel like I'm heading in the right direction. It's not like I'm seeing any huge successes this year. It's just a feeling, a change in attitude that says this journey will be different from the rest. I've been focusing and committing myself to small changes and not moving in my usual let's get through this ramp up quickly, then feel overwhelmed and discouraged because there is no progress with this approach. Instead I'm trying to master a few things and slowly ramp u... Sun, 23 Feb 2014 12:27:22 EST Bumps in the road are to be expected After staring off pretty strong, losing 4 lbs, and doing my first fitness test, I had my first bump in the road. This week has been a struggle to meet my water on a consistent basis and exercise. It seems like I have so much on my plate and after awhile I just collapsed. However, I'm not giving up. I just looked at the events and said what am I going to do about it? Well, for one thing, I decided that I will track only the things I'm trying to implement so the most important things I do is tr... Sat, 1 Feb 2014 21:25:43 EST Much needed break I went up north to visit my uncle and had some fun. I went snowmobiling with my daughter. It was a great workout and got me even more committed to strengthening my shoulder. I found a routine for abs that is standing so no pressure on my neck. How awesome! Mon, 20 Jan 2014 18:56:41 EST I'm so proud of me I've been really dealing with my situation well. I thought this would kill whatever motivation I had, but nope. I've been hitting the gym or exercising however I can. I haven't been turning to food like I thought I would although I do enjoy a yummy dinner. I did have a couple cries. Mainly because I'm going to miss some of the people there. That place had become my second family. I'm going to miss working from home, my time off, and just having work/life balance. I won't miss the stress and w... Fri, 17 Jan 2014 10:52:05 EST A real test to my resolve I've had some real disappointments this week. <BR> Monday - My daughter and I rush to go to our first Mommy and me yoga class to find out it was cancelled. As disappointed as I was, my daughter was far more disappointed. I'm having the money credited and will have to come up with something to do. I'm thinking doing yoga from my home and if my daughter likes what I'm doing, she can join me. If anyone knows any good workout videos that can be done with my daughter, I'm all eyes! <BR> <BR> Tues... Wed, 15 Jan 2014 05:53:47 EST Checking in This year is my fresh start. I wiped the slate clean and acted like I'm a new member to SP. It has been very helpful so thank you to all that supported me and shared your stories of doing the same. Am I doing perfectly? Of course not, but life is messy and through those messes, I learn a lot about myself. Right now, I'm keeping my goals very simple: <BR> <BR> 1. Get 7 hrs or more of sleep a night. Haven't been consistent here, but happy that I haven't been horrible either. Most nights of the... Mon, 13 Jan 2014 15:16:09 EST Sick but still staying positive My daughter came down with an illness on Monday night and still trying to work the bug out of her system. It became apparent last night that I got a milder version of the bug. So exercise has been non-existent with the exception of a little stretching. My food has been off. I did a pretty good job tracking Tuesday, but today I couldn't even tell you what I ate. Just that it happened often because it seemed to ease the tummy pains a little. I have a stuffy nose and I'm coughing and sneezing an... Wed, 8 Jan 2014 17:29:09 EST Off to a good start! I've learned so much last year and it's really helping me this year as I work to find out more about me and what I need to do to be successful. One thing that I learned as I timed my meals is that certain distractions are beneficial to me slowing down at meals. While chowing down in front of the TV would be hurtful, eating front of the computer is not. When I was timing my meals eating with my daughter, sitting at the table, with no distractions, my meals were over anywhere from 10 to 15 minu... Mon, 6 Jan 2014 19:08:12 EST Biggest fans I always knew that I was my daughter's biggest fan, but today I found out that she is mine. I've been gearing her up and telling her about how Mommy needs to make some changes in her life and preparing her for the changes so it wouldn't be a complete shock and today was the first day implementing some of them. My daughter has cheered me on all the way. <BR> <BR> 1. She praised me on the baked apples I did for breakfast this morning. <BR> 2. She asked me what the time was for when I was timin... Sun, 5 Jan 2014 19:57:38 EST Reflection and motivation So one thing that really hit me today as I was reading some SP articles is that one of the things keeping me moving forward in my journey is motivation. I say certain things, but do I really, deep down inside, believe them? I'm because the proof is not only on the scale but the added inches on my frame in several places. <BR> <BR> I decided to wipe the slate clean. Pretend I haven't been a member since like....2007 and this is my year. My fresh start. My year to tackle demons. ... Sat, 4 Jan 2014 15:38:11 EST Looking forward to 2014 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> It has been a rough two months. My daughter is not doing well in school and the teacher is not very supportive or understanding. To say I've been stressed would be an understatement and I've been dealing with it poorly. Candy jars, cookies, and treats have found their way into my gullet. I developed an aversion to water. Even exercise became harder and harder to do. It's too cold. I'm too tired. <BR> <BR> <img s... Sat, 28 Dec 2013 09:26:06 EST And it begins Another challenge as a beautiful butterfly. I've been working hard to remove the obstacles that have kept me from experiencing real success in the last two challenges, but I'm not complaining. Every challenge I learn more about me and grow more into the person I want to become. This weight did not come on over night. It's not going to leave overnight. I'm going to have to go through the transformation. Like the caterpillar does when he/she becomes a butterfly. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://pho... Sat, 12 Oct 2013 13:22:37 EST Checking in I realized I have not blogged in a long time. This month has been crazy busy. I feel like I'm just running from one thing to another and then I got sick so that sucked and meant some weight gain for me. So I've been getting diligent about taking my reflux medicine because I don't want to be eating all the time and also needed to get my water drinking going on again. Well, that is starting up again! Woohoo! I've missed you. <BR> <BR> My shoulder is like 90% recovered. The special... Sat, 28 Sep 2013 09:46:47 EST I did really well today too I kept my eating light most of the day so I came in under 1300 calories. I also surprised my daughter by showing up at her school with her scooter when I picked her up from the after school program so we went around the track. I walked and she rode her scooter. Then we came home and played with Barbies and now I'm ready for bed. I can tell I'm out of shape right now, but that will change as my body gets used to these forms of exercise again. While my body is used to walking, no in this heat a... Wed, 4 Sep 2013 19:48:38 EST School's back in session and so am I. My daughter is back in school and it's great for me because no excuses. After work, I hit the gym. I haven't been there in so long, I felt almost sheepish, but you know what? No one gave me a hard time...nothing. I just went to the ARC and worked out lower intensity for 10 minutes. Then did the prescribed weight exercises I could do and I felt really good doing them then finished up with stretching. The water kick isn't going so well so I'm happy to have a victory here. The water for some rea... Tue, 3 Sep 2013 20:21:30 EST Change of perception There used to be a time when I hated when SparkPeople would announce my losses after I gained weight and then at least one person would like it, and I would think, "Why? I'm just losing the weight I gained back." But now, I see the victory in that. Whenever the scale goes up, it's very discouraging. We always want it going down, but when it's that time of the month, I do not escape gaining weight. I'm bloated and feel like I have a tape worm so to find the scale going down afterwards is somet... Sun, 25 Aug 2013 09:09:39 EST Finally an LTGL goal that I can breeze through This week will be eating on 9 inch plates. Well, my largest plates which I call the good plates with flowers is 9 inch plates so I'm usually eating on something smaller than that! So I'm very excited about this challenge because all I have to do is make sure I'm not eating seconds and then I'm in like Flynn. <em>41</em> Sat, 24 Aug 2013 12:27:03 EST Back to basics With my shoulder taking a setback after the CT scan, I felt things were spiraling out of control. My body is used to 7 hours of sleep. Anything less than that for more than one day affects me. So when my shoulder was waking me up and leaving me with 6 hours of broken, non restful sleep not one, not two, not three, I was in trouble. When I'm tired, I have no energy which makes it difficult to exercise. Thank God for the challenge or I wouldn't have done the 15 or 20 minutes I did every day. It... Fri, 16 Aug 2013 20:28:20 EST I bought myself another year. Had my physical and I'm still in pre-diabetes stage. I was a little disappointed because I was hoping to be out of that mode, but I'm looking at the positive. I bought myself time and can still work on it! My A1C is at 6.3 so above normal, but not diabetes yet. My goal is to get that down along with my Triglycerides which are at 197. Everything else though was good and within range so yeah! I'm going to continue to exercise and work on healing my shoulder so I can get back in the gym with str... Fri, 9 Aug 2013 05:42:49 EST A nice, relaxing get away I went technology free from Friday night after physical therapy until Monday night. It was good to just be out in the peace and quiet and enjoy nature. Caley and I did not want to come home, but we did because I got to register her for school today and she's dressed cute for her school pics. Tue, 6 Aug 2013 12:25:18 EST Pretty good start to the summer challenge The first two days of the challenge have gone great as far as exercise. I planned some fun, active things for Caley and I to do so lots of exercise was fulfilled and my legs are sure feeling it today as they weren't even recovered from the first event before going out there and doing it some more. We went to the Racine County Fair on Saturday which is a very good size fair so lots of walking since the rides were on one end, but the tiger show was on the other end as well as the barns for the ... Mon, 29 Jul 2013 04:57:38 EST Just what I needed... I have been so stressed about numerous things that I don't want to delve into and it was taking its toll in the form of chest pains so yesterday after mowing the lawn with the push mower, I took my daughter to the beach. She got to be in the water and have a great time plus good exercise and fresh air for her lungs, and I got some much needed relaxation. A chance to escape and just enjoy the sand between my toes and sometimes the rocks and water and be a kid again. I couldn't go swimming so I... Sun, 21 Jul 2013 10:03:42 EST Today I just wanted to scream So I thought...step back and blog it out. Maybe there might be one person who knows exactly what I'm going through, has been what I went through, or maybe there will be a lifeline of something I can work with to get me feeling good again. The frustration level has been rising and it hit a peak today. That peak where I just want to say, ''Screw this. This is just too hard and I'm done." Gasp...right? Say it isn't so. Well, I said I want to...not that I was ready to. I reminded myself that ever... Wed, 17 Jul 2013 15:05:30 EST What I'm learning * Exploration/experimentation is good. It's good to break out of the norm. Good, bad, or indifferent, trying new things helps us grow. I found that fresh fruit on bran flakes and shredded wheat brings new life to those cereals. As a single Mom, I can't spring $3 to $5 for a small box of cereal, but when it comes to the off brands, there's very few choices. Adding raspberries or strawberries makes the cereal taste new again. I could probably do dried fruit too since that works with my oatmeal.... Thu, 27 Jun 2013 16:24:34 EST So how do you deal with people like these? One obstacle I'm still working through is how to deal with what I call the "weight-loss" police. It's one of the reasons why I don't announce that I'm trying to lose weight anymore. I make healthy lifestyle changes secretly, and with the exception of this board do this pretty much alone. This has helped me tremendously and I was free of them until recently when one of my co-workers decided he wanted to lose weight. He's trying to do this strict plan and he doesn't want to do it alone so he's ... Tue, 25 Jun 2013 16:32:54 EST I am still a success This was an awesome blog by SparkPeople. I swear sometimes I think SparkPeople is psychic. Maybe they see my tracker and think...hmmm...she's kind of waning here, maybe she needs some motivation. Maybe it's divine intervention. Who knows? Whatever the case, this blog was so timely because I haven't felt successful this week. It's been a crazy, stressful week and feels like at times things are falling apart and I hate that. I'm to the point where I feel it when I don't eat healthier and take c... Sat, 22 Jun 2013 08:51:24 EST I love my body I really have come a long ways! I remember a time when I didn't love my body and as I took the spark quiz about whether or not I had a healthy image, I surprised myself how far I've come. Like I remember a time when my answer to one of the questions was about goal weight and I remember when my answer would be a specific what I was in high school. Then when I remember when I relaxed a little and said healthy BMI, and now I'm to the point that, "Hey...when I was just slightly over... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 13:10:37 EST Awareness This is the new habit I've been incorporating into my life. I've been doing a lot of reading and I've come to the conclusion that being aware and present in the moment or mindfulness is key to a healthy lifestyle so that's what I'm doing more. When I woke up today, I did my stretches and thought about how my body felt when I did them. My back was definitely tight and sore as well as my legs and my shoulder was bothering me. After I got done stretching, I asked myself how I felt. Back not so s... Tue, 18 Jun 2013 06:04:39 EST The 180's <img src=""> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> First picture was in February when I realized that I needed to stop the weight gain I was experiencing or I would be back to where I was when I got pregnant with Caley. Second picture is in my 180's. As you can see, not a whole lot of change between the two, but most of the changes have been subtle. I'm starting to feel more energy and it's not as ... Mon, 17 Jun 2013 07:17:11 EST Going off the grid <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I'm going to my favorite place that really inspires me to eat healthier and exercise. I'm so excited. The 2 lbs I gained last week was water weight and I'm back to where I was before that time of the month. I'm hoping this break will get me even more positive results on and off the scale and recharge my batteries. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I plan on sp... Sun, 9 Jun 2013 12:27:01 EST Just blah since yesterday I don't know what's going on with me, but I've been blah this week and there was a little naughty eating and falling off my menu plan. I decided to plan an indiscretion today to keep me more on my plan and looked in the mirror and asked myself, "You've come so far. Do you really want to continue the road you are on?" I replied, " I don't." I'm finally starting to see some changes and I want to continue on the right path. I love my push mower. I told my dad today I love that thing! So e... Wed, 5 Jun 2013 13:13:14 EST Gained but not sweating it... Because I always seem to gain during that time of the month, and I had my tape measure out to see what my measurements were. Looks like I lost a half inch off of my arms and a 1/4 inch off of my calves. I definitely been losing in my face because I'm starting to see my cheek bones again so the NSVs are what I'm striving for any ways. I know it will take a lot more to actually take some inches off, but I'm learning a lot and see some more changes coming in my diet. That's what it's all about..... Mon, 3 Jun 2013 05:51:50 EST I'm sore but feeling good I've been working my body all this week although not for as long as that long weekend last weekend. Today has been my somewhat rest day because I'm sore, but I've been stretching and doing things. I'm learning with exercise just like anything else in life, there needs to be balance. It's not all or nothing and the object is not to keep pushing until I break. It's about listening to my body. My body is the guide and that strength is not acquired from exertion alone, but the repairing of the da... Sat, 1 Jun 2013 17:20:57 EST I thwarted a binge today I found that cold is a powerful hunger trigger today, but I beat off the binge by putting on a jacket and then thinking warm thoughts. I figured if that didn't do the trick, I would have a cup of hot chocolate which would end up being less calories than a binge with food. Pretty excited that I knocked that demon off of my shoulder today. Every meal has been a hot dish to help keep her off my shoulder. LOL Tue, 28 May 2013 20:14:03 EST Today wrapped up the Ultimate Celebration This was the final day of celebrating me and I have a lot to celebrate: <BR> * 10 day streak of sleeping 7 hours or more a night. <BR> * 30 day streak of spinning the Sparkpoints wheel. <BR> * 4 week streak of eating at least 1 serving of fruit every day. <BR> * 5 week streak of exercising 120 minutes or more a week. Most times a lot more as I got my trophy for doing 1000 minutes this month! <BR> * 5 week streak of getting 60 minutes or more of Mom (me) time. <BR> * 4 week streak of doing 1 s... Mon, 27 May 2013 19:54:23 EST