ANGELCITYGAL's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=ANGELCITYGAL ANGELCITYGAL's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Home From Our Honeymoon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5746960 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1555859995.jpg"> <BR> <BR> We had a wonderful time on our honeymoon cruise on board the Carnival Imagination! Sat, 26 Jul 2014 13:11:04 EST Summer, Ugh! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5737927 Exercising in the Summer is really hard for me. I don't like the heat. It drains me, and definitely interferes with my performance, not to mention my motivation to even get moving. <BR> <BR> There's a pool at my apartment building, but it is small and generally occupied by squealing kids during the hours I might use it. So I mostly use the pool for a quick dip to cool off, or an activity my daughter and I can share in the heat. It's not really an option for a workout. <BR> <BR> I don't ... Sun, 13 Jul 2014 13:34:48 EST Re-posting: My Secret Weapon Against Fast Food http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5735017 <link>www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo<BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5428191 </link> <BR> <BR> I wanted to share this again, as the weather is really heating up this week. Keep cool, friends! <BR> <BR> <em>259</em> <em>67</em> <em>551</em> <em>274</em> <em>67</em> <em>259</em> Wed, 9 Jul 2014 01:16:05 EST Your Body Is Not Your Masterpiece http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5733139 Here's a good perspective. Have a great day, friends. <BR> <BR> <link>momastery.com/blog/2014/07/06/body-m<BR>asterpiece/ </link> Sun, 6 Jul 2014 14:15:33 EST What You See http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5732609 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/3/l93450976.jpg"> <BR> <BR> We absolutely create our reality through the filter of perception. Notice how our inner conversation (some of which is not even verbal, but merely an emotional tone or habit of attitude) influences experience. I had this driven home to me last night. Throughout my neighborhood, folks were setting off illegal backyard fireworks, shooting them up in the sky so that the entire area was showered in pyrotechnic displa... Sat, 5 Jul 2014 16:01:31 EST I'm Hooked http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5732235 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/7/l673706692.jpg"> <BR> <BR> After a few weeks of yoga practice, I'm hooked. I've found a studio I like, and have begun taking classes once a week, while practicing at home with online classes between. I love the feeling of calm and strength I get from my practice, as well as the improvement I'm feeling in my injured right shoulder/arm (from overdoing it with weight training). <BR> <BR> Some of my favorite online resources for free yoga c... Fri, 4 Jul 2014 23:53:40 EST 1200 Calories http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5640868 Check out this blog from Huffington Post: <BR> <BR> <link>www.huffingtonpost.com/sophia-herbst<BR>/1200-calories_b_4816597.html </link> <BR> <BR> This is the best piece on weight management I've read in a very long time. <BR> <BR> What do you say? Wed, 5 Mar 2014 22:41:15 EST I'm Getting Married! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5637913 My sweetheart and I have set a date: May 24th. It's official! <BR> <BR> We've been through a lot together. We've been friends for over 15 years, and even had a breakup three years ago. But some things just feel right, and this is one of them. After getting back together last year, we know we were right all along. We belong together. <BR> <BR> We're planning a garden ceremony at a friend's house, followed by a dinner reception at our favorite authentic Mexican restaurant in Northeast L... Sun, 2 Mar 2014 18:10:44 EST Coach Nicole's 28 Day Bootcamp DVD: My Review http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5609666 First, the details I must include: <BR> I received this DVD for free from SparkPeople and did not receive any form of payment for my review. <BR> <BR> SparkPeople is in partnership with Walmart to sell this DVD. It is available at Walmart. Members will get 250 SparkPoints for buying the DVD at Walmart and will be entered to win a $500 Walmart gift card for purchasing before January 31, 2014. <BR> <BR> Here is the URL to purchase the DVD: www.sparkpeople.com/28daybootcamp <BR> <BR>... Wed, 29 Jan 2014 22:01:37 EST Anxiety! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5592477 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1102619952.jpg"> <BR> <BR> So the last two weeks have been rough, emotionally. Since Thanksgiving, when I moved to my new place (which I love, love, love, by the way), I've been off-track with my food and fitness. In December, I started working on getting back to the behaviors that really support me, with mixed success. My success has been mixed because I've decided on several occasions, to eat for comfort. <BR> <BR> What's going on t... Mon, 13 Jan 2014 14:19:34 EST One Word for 2014 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5577868 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l186241883.jpg"> <BR> <BR> An author I follow on Facebook, Oriah Mountain Dreamer, recommended this week that her readers pick one word as a kind of theme or grounding point for the New Year. She also advised that it not be one of the "big" words like love, peace, or hope. She suggested we pick a "little" word, one that is perhaps more personal or more concrete. In that word, she says, is contained all the big words, anyway. <BR> <BR> Wh... Wed, 1 Jan 2014 12:44:55 EST Be Awesome http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5573690 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1072195762.jpg"> <BR> <BR> For many, there's an emotional and energetic slump as we head into the New Year. Now is the time to get busy -- not with busy work, but with awesomeness. Take a few minutes to focus on what makes your body feel awesome. Is it a walk in the winter air? A yoga class? A swim at your health club? Some winter sport activity? <BR> <BR> For me, I don't feel more awesome when I indulge in the "I deserve to eat th... Sat, 28 Dec 2013 10:38:29 EST I'm back! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5554067 Whew! Moving took up the past 3 weeks, between packing, the physical move and unpacking. I still have some boxes to unpack, but after yesterday's big trips to the charity donation center, I am at least able to move around more freely. So it's back to my fitness program tonight. Woohoo! Sun, 1 Dec 2013 10:42:53 EST Remember This http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5535370 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/1/l61892833.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Fri, 8 Nov 2013 00:07:18 EST Rebuilding A Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5528802 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/7/l476932302.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I didn't start out to gain anything. Certainly not to rebuild my life. I was much more focused on what I didn't want than what I want and value. I started out to lose weight. I started out to ditch the fat, the unhealthy habits, the fatigue and malaise. I was all about what wasn't working in my life. <BR> <BR> Somewhere along the way, that began to shift. I started not only imagining life without the things ... Fri, 1 Nov 2013 00:10:18 EST ...Simply For the Reason That They Are Heavy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5521729 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/0/l700786755.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This week has been a roller-coaster, emotionally. I'm experiencing elation at reaching my goal weight and dream clothing size. At the same time, my ex has been pushing buttons. It's old stuff -- I can't trust her with money (one big reason we divorced), and I suspect she's being financially irresponsible in ways that will affect our daughter, sooner or later. She talks to me with the old tone of voice, bullying... Wed, 23 Oct 2013 21:34:20 EST Get Moving! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5518448 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/9/l293360470.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I have learned that I require movement. This is still a surprising concept to me. I was the kid who hated PE class. Picked last for teams, I was clumsy and non-competitive. I thought I hated exercise. In college, I would swim laps to pass the time while other friends were working out in the weight room or taking karate class. Eventually, I noticed that it was stress-relieving and rather lovely. But after I g... Sun, 20 Oct 2013 11:23:31 EST We Have to Stop Talking About Weight Loss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5513100 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/1/l515434700.jpg"> <BR> <BR> We have to stop talking about weight loss. The "lifestyle change" we're all creating cannot be fully present as long as we're focused on what we don't want. "I don't want this 10 or 100 pounds hanging around. I don't want these love handles. I don't like my post-pregnancy belly. I am embarrassed by my upper arms. I am so out of shape. I can't walk/run/lift weights. I have too much loose skin." We've all ha... Mon, 14 Oct 2013 10:24:42 EST Have You Had This Illusion, Too? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5506069 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1660676246.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Have you, like me, sometimes thought of your weight management journey this way? "If I could just get my body to do x, I'd have my act together..." <BR> <BR> I'm learning to interrupt these thoughts. I've become convinced that the more I give my body appreciation, the better success I have. I certainly feel better. <BR> <BR> Thinking of my body as separate from me -- as if there's some distinction between ... Sun, 6 Oct 2013 14:21:38 EST Do You Need a Few Words of Encouragement? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5504875 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/2/l629696710.jpg"> <BR> <BR> You have what it takes. All you need to do is what's in front of you today. As my mother would say, "Don't borrow trouble," from the future. Just handle today's tasks. Certainly, some of today's tasks involve setting yourself up for success tomorrow. But you don't need to look ten miles down the road. Be with what's in front of you today. Take care of yourself today. <BR> <BR> Just put one foot in front o... Sat, 5 Oct 2013 00:31:50 EST On a Budget and This Is My Monthly Splurge!? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5499417 Dumbbells. I spent my $30 "mad money" and bought a set of heavier hand weights for my at-home workouts. <BR> <BR> Sometimes, this new lifestyle hasn't caught up with me yet and I find myself shaking my head at what excites me. Like those dumbbells I bought today. Or my new absolute favorite meal: a big bowl of mixed salad greens with avocado, grilled chicken, walnuts and poppy-seed dressing. Seriously? No fries with that? <BR> <BR> <em>252</em> when I catch myself laughing in t... Sun, 29 Sep 2013 16:02:31 EST I'm Guilty! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5493175 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l108909407.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Sometimes you just have to <em>321</em> for yourself, right? <BR> <BR> I've been struggling lately to give the attention to my fitness and food program. Stress and excess demands at work have eaten into my evenings, which is my "me" time to workout, plan my meals, prep for the next day, etc. <BR> <BR> Today I did my 55 minute workout, planned and made my lunch (and my daughter's) for Monday, and ate well ... Sun, 22 Sep 2013 21:16:55 EST The Body Achieves http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5492086 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/8/l587551560.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Watch your self-talk this week. Interrupt "I don't feel like it" and "I can't do it" immediately. Replace your self-defeating or self-scorning thoughts with positive affirmations. Don't say "I'm not good enough." Also don't say "I will get healthy." Neither of these acknowledge where you ARE right now. <BR> <BR> Try "I am living a healthy lifestyle," "I am strong," "I eat to reach my goals," or "I am a wor... Sat, 21 Sep 2013 16:57:09 EST The Real Goal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5485542 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1128589487.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Goal weight is a minimally useful concept. The number on the scale does not define your physical health, your emotional wellness, your spiritual connectedness, your mental acuity. It does define your relationship with gravity on this planet. That's all. <BR> <BR> You know what else is true? Reaching the end of the weight-loss journey is a complete fiction. If you're actually in this to win it, you can't ex... Sat, 14 Sep 2013 17:08:45 EST How to Keep From Starting Over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5473720 (I just posted these thoughts in response to another member on the message boards, and I want to remember them for myself. Maybe they'll be useful to someone else, too.) <BR> <BR> <BR> Consider all the setbacks part of one journey. Then, when you encounter them, you don't see them as an end or a failure, just a rough patch. Remember that what matters is that you keep going, no matter how many times you've faltered, fallen down, gained some weight back, gained it all back, etc. We've all do... Mon, 2 Sep 2013 17:17:13 EST Goal! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5473650 I did it! I made it to my goal weight on September 1st. So it took me just less than 6 months to lose 32 pounds on the DASH Diet Weight Loss Solution. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1063135282.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I wish I had something brilliant to say. I'm mostly just tickled. And looking forward to maintenance. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1091654449.jpg"> <BR> <BR> So what's next? I'm adding just 100 calories per day right now, to see... Mon, 2 Sep 2013 15:35:18 EST A hike on the Pacific Crest Trail http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5465606 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1533334300.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Yesterday I went hiking with my very inspiring friend Leigh. After the death of her 21-year-old daughter, she gained about 40 pounds in her grief. Then she decided to survive the loss by getting strong. Three years later, she's dropped the weight and is an accomplished trail runner and obstacle course racer. At 50 years old, she's in incredible shape, with muscles, stamina and expertise I admire. <BR> <BR> ... Sun, 25 Aug 2013 10:27:37 EST A quick thought for your Sunday morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5458728 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/3/l430041552.jpg"> <BR> <BR> It's not about getting to a certain number on the scale. It's not about "fixing" yourself after a setback. It's not about any of the self-critical messages. <BR> <BR> It's about meeting yourself exactly where you are today with kindness and giving yourself the structure and guidance you need to thrive. <BR> <BR> Love yourself. Sun, 18 Aug 2013 09:49:13 EST In the end, these things matter most... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5455678 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1179707565.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I'm letting go of perfectionism. I'm tired of holding myself to higher standards than I'd ever enforce on anyone else. With compassion, I'm letting go of being afraid of my own humanity. <BR> <BR> What about you? Is there something that you need to let go? <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1874449164.jpg"> Thu, 15 Aug 2013 02:15:36 EST Small Minds or Big Dreams? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5452153 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/7/l370791251.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I choose my big dreams! <BR> <BR> Sun, 11 Aug 2013 21:19:07 EST Five Months on DASH -- Progress Report http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5451865 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1828677774.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I started following the DASH Diet Weight Loss Solution five months ago, on 3/8/13. Today, I'm down 30.5 lbs on DASH and 33.5 altogether. I've lost 8.25 inches from my waist and 4.25 inches from my hips. I've gone from a size 16 to a size 6/8. <BR> <BR> I started working out again in late March, and now am looking forward to new fitness challenges, including training for a 5K obstacle course race. <BR> <BR> ... Sun, 11 Aug 2013 15:12:03 EST My Ex Says I Can't Do It http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5447850 I have to vent. I know you'll understand. <BR> <BR> My ex (with whom I share my daughter, so of course I have to see her often) has always been very strong, and has worked in construction most of her adult life. She is also former military, and you know those folks are strong! Anyway, for the past 15 years or so, she's been steadily gaining weight, so although she continues to have great upper body strength, she's carrying about 70 lbs of extra weight and may even be into the "obese" ca... Wed, 7 Aug 2013 15:54:26 EST Wonderful to Go, Wonderful to Come Home http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5438654 I celebrated my birthday with my dear friend in Youngstown, and stuck to my eating plan about 80% of the time. I guess shaking it up by being on vacation was good, because the scale is down this morning. I am thrilled that I lost 1.5 lbs while on my vacation. I'm at 140 lbs, my new low since I started Sparking over 3 years ago. <BR> <BR> The best birthday present I could ever give myself is this sense of peace. <BR> <BR> <em>144</em> <em>179</em> <em>144</em> <em>408</em> ... Tue, 30 Jul 2013 13:34:55 EST My Secret Weapon Against Fast Food and Summer Heat http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5428191 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1614467864.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Ta da! This is my Vector car cooler. Okay, this isn't my actual cooler, but I have this exact model. It plugs into the cigarette lighter/outlet in my car and keeps my lunches and water cool all day, like a little mini-fridge. I keep it in my car, and each morning I bring out my provisions for the day, turn it on, and off I go. On very hot days here in Los Angeles, I add an ice pack, too. <BR> <BR> Because I... Sun, 21 Jul 2013 11:37:38 EST Why the Anti-obesity Establishment Keeps Failing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5421343 "The latest clinical trials suggest that all of us would benefit from fewer (if any) sugars and fewer refined grains (bread, pasta) and starchy vegetables (potatoes). This was the conventional wisdom through the mid-1960s, and then we turned the grains and starches into heart-healthy diet foods and the USDA enshrined them in the base of its famous Food Guide Pyramid as the staples of our diet. That this shift coincides with the obesity epidemic is probably not a coincidence. As for those of u... Mon, 15 Jul 2013 02:08:30 EST DASH Diet Four-Month Progress Report http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5413484 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/1/l910218041.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I started following the DASH Diet Weight Loss Solution (author: Marla Crill Heller) on March 8, 2013. This is the way of eating I've been looking for all my adult life. It has helped me learn how to eat. Not just the basics of nutrition, which I picked up from Sparkpeople, Weight Watchers and other sources, but how to eat to manage my insulin. I no longer experience the food cravings, blood sugar crashes, and ... Sun, 7 Jul 2013 18:19:24 EST Walking to Ohio, Month 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5406792 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l192456795.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I'm doing a challenge on the Leslie Sansone Walking DVDs Team: I've decided to virtually walk from my home in Los Angeles to my friend's home in Youngstown, Ohio. It's a walk of over 2400 miles. I started June 9, and have walked 40 miles so far. This month's walk took me out of the Los Angeles area and part way to Barstow, California, along interstate 210. Here are some pictures of the mountains that border th... Sun, 30 Jun 2013 22:20:29 EST A Shout Out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5402882 I want to shout out to all my sister and brother lesbian, gay and bi folk who, like me, find ourselves single on this historic day. Yes, we're having a different experience than our coupled friends, but don't you feel the ancestors wrapping angelic arms around us? We get to live through this dreamed-for, worked-for, bled-for time. We get to see the triumph of love and equality. Whether we're happily single or searching for partnership, we win, too. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.spar... Wed, 26 Jun 2013 21:36:37 EST A Lifelong Romance http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5399042 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1111184176.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I keep thinking that my initial reaction to this quote was to reject it as trite and irrelevant to my journey. But the longer I sit with it, it points me to all the many ways I have sought value outside myself. Grasping at relationships with others is one form of this. As is losing weight for the "wrong" reasons -- to assuage a damaged ego, to get compliments from others. <BR> <BR> What does it mean to reall... Sun, 23 Jun 2013 11:20:17 EST I refuse! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5398670 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1953163400.jpg"> <BR> <BR> There is so much personal power to be gained by refusing to participate in body-bashing. As I lose weight, I'm also working on laying down the burden of self-hatred. <BR> <BR> Sat, 22 Jun 2013 22:48:44 EST Size 10 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5390861 Yesterday, I hit my favorite thrift store because I had a problem: My size 12 work pants were saggy and I kept having to hitch them up. So, off to Sun Thrift I went. I left with 3 pairs of size 10 work pants, some jeans and capris in my new size. Feels great to be in a 10 again. <BR> <BR> When I got home, I cleaned out my closet and bureau and made several bags of great clothes to go to friends and the Goodwill. It does so much good to my psyche to eliminate the too-big clothes, even ... Sun, 16 Jun 2013 13:41:16 EST Be Willing to Change http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5383046 As I shared in my last blog entry, I was asked for weight-loss advice recently. I told the person that I could talk about what I'm eating and what I'm not eating, but my biggest tips have to do with behavior. I talked about finding a foundational habit and building on it (in my case, that's exercise). <BR> <BR> My other advice is to be willing to change. I notice that so many of us, myself included, are often quick to throw up reasons why we can't do something new, before we've even tri... Sun, 9 Jun 2013 03:29:54 EST What's your foundation? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5377060 I was recently asked for some advice as to how to stick to a weight-loss/health-improvement program. I'm no expert, and there are lots of people on Sparkpeople with more weight loss and years of success maintaining. But at the time, I was on the spot and here's the first part of what I said (I'll save part two for another blog entry): <BR> <BR> You want to know how to stick to your weight-loss program? The same way a house sticks to the ground. The house needs a solid foundation, or it w... Mon, 3 Jun 2013 17:44:54 EST Back from vacation! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5374567 I shared an incredible few days with my college housemates. We stayed in the vacation home of one of the group, on the Sonoma, California, coast. I was thrilled to wear a bathing suit in the hot tub, and come down stairs for breakfast in my jammies, and not be constantly thinking about my body and how it must look. Best of all, we went on a four-mile hike one day and it didn't faze me at all. <BR> <BR> My next goal is to get to "normal/healthy" BMI by July 1. I have five pounds to go. ... Sat, 1 Jun 2013 12:10:03 EST Down a pound! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5360226 I've been having grumpy conversations with myself about the scale. Thank goodness I took my measurements a while ago, so I could see on the tape that I'm losing inches. And I've been exercising and had my food on track. But my goodness, why wasn't the scale showing me any love? This morning, at last, it moved down a pound. I have one more week until I leave for a mini-reunion with friends I haven't seen in years, and I really want to be down to 150 before I go. One more pound to go to ge... Sat, 18 May 2013 13:07:58 EST Happy Thanksgiving, One and All! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3804592 What's on your menu this year? <BR> <BR> We're having loving company, sweet memories of celebrations past, poignant thoughts of those who can't be with us, and lots and lots of gratitude for life's bounty. <BR> <BR> We're also having turkey, roasted vegetables, green salad, pumpkin pie and diabetic-friendly mini cranberry tarts. <BR> <BR> Happy, happy holiday, Sparkers! <BR> <BR> "For, after all, put it as we may to ourselves, we are all of us from birth to death guests at a table which... Wed, 24 Nov 2010 21:57:10 EST Food doesn't console... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3783404 Food "doesn't console. It doesn't fill up anyone's psychological gaps. All it replaces is the lack of God." -- Marguerite Duras. <BR> <BR> I just ran across this line by one of my favorite authors. She writes about alcoholism. But, for me, this sentiment applies to abusing food, as well. <BR> <BR> I can see this truth in action in my life in the moments when I've been in the most pain around food, eating and my body. At those times, I haven't been relying upon connection to the Univ... Sun, 14 Nov 2010 16:15:56 EST On Waiting to Love Exercise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3773418 I've just seen another thread on the Fitness and Exercise board begun by a Sparker who is troubled by her/his distaste for exercise. This Sparker asked "what if you hate exercise?" In that question, I hear an assumption that one must love, or at least like, exercise in order to do it. It's as if one's revulsion for exercise is whatsoever relevant to the task at hand (crafting a lifestyle change toward good health). <BR> <BR> While many other Sparkers posted helpful suggestions of strategi... Tue, 9 Nov 2010 17:22:53 EST It's All Good -- a quick update to my last two blogs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3765974 My last couple of blogs have been painful. If anyone's been reading and is left hanging, I figured I should update you... <BR> <BR> 1. My ex's new wife (kiddo's stepmom) is finally out of the hospital (as of yesterday). She had a total of 3 surgeries, and will need more, but so far is medically doing well. She spent a couple of weeks in ICU, but her young age and overall positive attitude seem to be helping her to bounce back. I continue to pray for her healing. <BR> <BR> 2. My gir... Sat, 6 Nov 2010 12:27:26 EST Sadness on My Doorstep http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3723839 Bad news this week. My ex's new wife (my kiddo's stepmom) is 34 years old and in the hospital with a pulmonary embolism following surgery to remove a cancerous tumor from her groin. Her prognosis was guarded before this happened, and now it's looking grimmer. <BR> <BR> Also my dear friend's mother is in the final stages of Parkinson's disease. She's hospitalized and my friend is hearing her express a desire to "not go on like this." <BR> <BR> I think I'm holding on by my fingernails ... Mon, 18 Oct 2010 16:11:13 EST