ANGELAK85's SparkPeople Blog ANGELAK85's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community So much to do...SO little time! I have been MIA....AGAIN! Things have been extremely crazy the last couple of months. In January my husband got an interview for a job in another city. Deep down I was kind of hoping he would not get it, because I did not want to leave my friends and family. But he did get it, and what they offered him we could not pass up. So on Feb. 15th he left by himself, while me and my boys stayed behind to sell the house, let my son finish 1st grade and to just kind of slowly get things done. On Thursd... Sun, 2 Mar 2014 10:32:41 EST Halloween 2013 A few pictures of my boys from Halloween! Matisyn was Thor and Bobby was an evil Jester <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Sun, 3 Nov 2013 13:34:39 EST Something has gotta give! As most of you know, I got help from a clinic for a month. I got appetite suppressant's to help feel full and was put on a food plan to follow. I lost 22lbs in the first month, but 9 of the was from the first week due to water weight. I was very proud of that. But that was 2 months ago. I have not lost anything since then. I have managed to maintain my weight, but I do not want to maintain, I want to lose! <BR> I have had some personal things come up, such as planning/hosting my dad's party ... Thu, 3 Oct 2013 15:03:33 EST Is it really hard for people to believe that big people want to lose weight? I have a body media, and for those of you who do not know what that is it is like a body bugg, it tracks my steps/calories burned/exercise minutes. Lots of people ask me "what is that" and I will just say "a heart rate monitor" because technically that is what it is. Then they will be like "oh, you have a heart condition?" and act like they feel sorry for me. Then I correct them and say "no, it is to track how many calories I burn", their whole reaction changes. The facial expressions they gi... Fri, 12 Jul 2013 17:53:13 EST I am Back! Sorta.. So I tried doing this on my own, and I have stuck to counting calories and exercising and lost nothing. So I ended up falling off the wagon when it came to eating and still stuck to working out. Even though I was exercising I started to creep back up in the weight. So I have gained my 10lbs back. I believe half is water weight, but the whole idea that I went up that much on the scale really depressed me. <BR> I had a heart to heart conversation with my mom. My mom then called me the following... Mon, 1 Jul 2013 13:34:17 EST Saying Goodbye :( After much thought I have decided that I am going to be done with Sparkpeople. It was a tough decision, but I feel it is the best for me, so today will be my last day on here. I love the people that I met and the people that I became close with but I always feel like a failure. There will be moments when I am extremely active on here, but then there are moments that I just stop talking to people and stop participating in anything. The reason being, is because I will have a bad week with food/... Thu, 2 May 2013 08:52:20 EST BLC #17 - What I like about myself #6-10 -Non physical So my first blog had to do with physical appearance, which was really hard for me to do. I find it easier to say things I like about myself mentally/non-physically. So here are my last 5! <BR> <BR> 1. The motivation and dedication that I have found in myself to be able to do this weight loss journey again. I was able to do it once before (with only losing 75lbs), so I knew that the motivation was in me I just needed to find it. I have finally found it, because I am in this 100%. <BR> <BR> 2... Thu, 14 Feb 2013 13:03:10 EST BLC #17 - 10 things I like about myself- here are numbers 1-5 I always hated when people would ask me what I like about myself, because the first thought that would always come to mind is "nothing" because my physical thoughts I have of myself is way low. I look at myself in the mirror and think "Man, I look so disgusting". I am constantly putting myself down. So to really think about the things I like about about myself makes me stop and really think. So the first 5 I am going to write about has to do with physical appearance because I am tired of alwa... Thu, 14 Feb 2013 12:37:15 EST Weight loss rewards!! So I have made a list of rewards for myself for when I hit certain milestones in weight loss! I am going to share :) <BR> <BR> 265 (where I was AFTER Matisyn was born): New haircut, along with purple highlights. I am thinking a medium length bob cut. <BR> <BR> 245 (where I was before I got pregnant): 2 new outfits <BR> <BR> 225 (never been this low, lowest I got was 230): Either re-pierce my eyebrow or finish piercings on my right ear (I am getting them all the way up my ear). <BR> <BR> ... Wed, 30 Jan 2013 11:02:43 EST Matisyn turns ONE!!! Pictures included! Matisyn turns the big ONE today! I honestly can't believe how fast time flew by, this has been an amazing year with him part of our family and I can't wait to see what this next year brings! We had his birthday party at a little amusement park just for kids 11 and under, he had a blast and he was definitely pooped by the end of the day!! <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR>... Sun, 20 May 2012 19:19:39 EST I dont have a fancy title to post lol (pics included) Just figured I have not posted pictures in awhile, so thought everyone would like to see how big Matisyn has gotten. Can't believe he is already 7.5 months old! Time sure flies. Just like my son will be starting school in August EEEK!!! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Christmas Eve <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Playing with toys he got for Christmas <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.s... Thu, 5 Jan 2012 22:04:28 EST No weight loss = Major breakdown!! I am sorry I have been MIA for the past month or so. I have just been so down on myself. The week of Thanksgiving I had a huge breakdown because I have been busting my a$$ since the beginning of August and my weight just did not want to come off regardless what I did.Ever"ryone keeps saying "oh you had a baby, so it takes longer". I understand that, but I am almost 7 months post partum, I should have lost SOMETHING. But nope, the first week I lost 6lbs and then within 3 1/2 months I only lost... Mon, 12 Dec 2011 17:16:55 EST My boys on Halloween So my oldest son is the blue power ranger and my baby is a baby dinosaur. It was a lot of fun, and a friend of ours and their little girl came with us. Heres a few pictures of the boys! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=" Tue, 1 Nov 2011 09:10:57 EST Took more pictures of the boys! My oldest will be 5 in less than a month and Matisyn is just about 4 months, so I thought now was a good time to do pictures again. These are just a few of the MANY I took. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR... Wed, 14 Sep 2011 16:56:52 EST Matisyn is 3 months CONTINUED A few more pictures! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Bobby reading Matisyn a story! He is such a good big brother <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Already a COWBOYS fan :) <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Enjoying a HOT day at the park <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> 12 weeks and still grow... Tue, 16 Aug 2011 14:07:28 EST Matisyn is 3 months Time has surely been flying by! Technically, Matisyn will not be 3 months until the 20th, but close enough. He is such a great baby, and I am very thankful at how easy he has been for me. He has been sleeping through the night for the past 4 weeks, which has been great! I started feeding him cereal at night to help keep him full during the night. <BR> As for me, I have been exercising for the past week doing Chalean Extreme, and so far I have lost 3 pounds. My goal is to lose 25lbs by Oct. 1... Tue, 16 Aug 2011 14:03:00 EST Our FIRST Home!! Me and my husband bought our first house together a couple of weeks ago! We are not moved into it yet, since we can't break the lease of our apartment early or else they will fine us a whole lotta money. BUT I am going to pay Augusts rent early, and we are going to move into our new home next weekend! So this weekend and all next week I really have to get some packing done and some serious cleaning done. Me and my husband have been together for 6 years, married for 3 1/2 of those. We have com... Fri, 22 Jul 2011 10:05:51 EST MORE Pictures I figured I have not posted any pictures in awhile of Matisyn, so I thought I would post some now! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Can't you tell he is so loved! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=" <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeo... Wed, 6 Jul 2011 22:47:11 EST Pictures of just Matisyn These honestly did not come out as good as the ones I did of both of my boys. I had all these ideas in my head but I do not have the props for what I wanted to do. So here are the ones I took today that are my favorite! Next I will hopefully be getting some done with me and my husband in them too! <BR> We are huge Cowboys fans :) <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <... Fri, 17 Jun 2011 12:02:00 EST Did my own "professional" pictures...need opinions! I like to do my own pictures from time to time, so I am going to do my own pictures of my boys. So this is the first of probably 2 sets of pictures. Matisyn was starting to get cranky, so I could not get ones of just him done yet, but I did get some done of both of my boys. I would like opinions on which ones you like better of what you like from best to worst. If you do not like any of them then tell me, it wont hurt my feelings. I am going to list them by numbers, so just let me know which ... Tue, 14 Jun 2011 18:46:00 EST Matisyn!! I was not going to be one of those people who post a lot of pictures, but I figured SOME of you who I have been talking to for quite some time now would like to see pictures often of him! <BR> I have absolutely NO complaints with him! I was expecting things to be tough with him, sleepless nights, crying often, etc etc but it is still the complete opposite! I feel lucky that I am able to get 6 hours of sleep a night, plus a nap from time to time! <BR> My incision is healing really good and t... Mon, 30 May 2011 16:33:33 EST Welcome Matisyn Lee! With Pictures As most of you know, Matisyn came earlier than his planned due date. I was originally scheduled to have a C-section on May 27th, but Matisyn had different plans. <BR> Friday evening after my husband got home, we went to target to get a few things and then we went out to dinner. We were standing by our table waiting for the waitress to put our menus on the table and then out of nowhere I started leaking. I thought that maybe Matisyn was pushing down and I peed myself a little. So I rushed to t... Wed, 25 May 2011 15:04:09 EST What a day!!! I woke up cramping really bad and some moments would be worse than others. I sat it out for 1.5 hours and it would not go away. I do not like to be one of those worry people who always call the doctor over everything lol, I always worry they will be like "man what a stupid lady" but I just couldn't ignore it. SO I called my doctor and told them I was cramping a lot and it was causing my back to hurt a lot more than normal. SO they told me to go to labor and delivery and to get checked and to ... Thu, 28 Apr 2011 18:34:18 EST 34 week Dr. Appointment I am 34 weeks and 3 days today. I had my doctors appointment and got a sonogram (ultrasound) done. I sadly did not get any pictures, but after I left I was ok with not getting any. It was just fun to watch him move and kick. The doctor just wanted to make sure his head was not growing too big and to measure the rest of him. According to the ultrasound, he weighs 5lbs 14oz so far! <BR> I have been having some "leakage" and mucus so he also checked to make sure that my amniotic fluid was not l... Mon, 25 Apr 2011 12:57:11 EST Me being pregnant + Exercise = Does not work! I have tried so hard to keep at the exercising while pregnant, but it is just so hard! The first 3 months of my pregnancy I exercised 5 days a week and I felt great. After that, I started to feel really tired all the time and I could not get the energy to do it after that. I would literally only exercise 1 to 2 times a month, which was pretty pointless. <BR> I started my pregnancy at 255, and I am now at 280 (32 weeks along now)! I do not want to go over 290, and I only have 7 weeks left to ... Thu, 7 Apr 2011 13:43:49 EST I truly have a wonderful husband! As a few of you may know, my husband travels for work from time to time. His latest assignment is in Kentucky (which is where he is right now) and he has been there for the past 2 weeks and will be there until Friday! The times that he is gone are extremely hard, especially when I am 7 months pregnant but I know it is not his choice and the traveling is only temporary! I have been down some lately because I haven't been sleeping well and I just miss him so much, and today I receive a delivery... Sun, 27 Mar 2011 15:27:59 EST What gives me the right just because I am pregnant?? What gives me the right to eat like crap? I do not know what happened, but lately I just stopped caring what I eat. I still eat fruits and veggies and I do not stuff my face, but I eat a lot of CRAP/fattening food and I feel guilty all the time after! This pregnancy is so weird because there are so many things I can't eat because they make me gag, and one of those foods is EGGS when those are supposed to be one of the healthiest foods to eat! <BR> All I ever want to eat is PIZZA! I can't hav... Thu, 2 Dec 2010 22:44:37 EST Stress Diet BREAKFAST: <BR> 1/2 grapefruit <BR> 1 slice whole wheat bread <BR> 8 oz. skim milk <BR> LUNCH: <BR> 4 oz. broiled chicken breast <BR> 1 c. steamed zucchini <BR> 1 Oreo cookie <BR> Cup herb tea <BR> MID - AFTERNOON SNACK: <BR> Rest of the pkg. Oreo cookies <BR> 1 qt. rocky road ice cream <BR> 1 jar hot fudge <BR> DINNER: <BR> 1 loaf garlic bread <BR> Lg. pepperoni and mushroom pizza <BR> Pitcher of beer <BR> 3 candy bars <BR> Entire frozen cheesecake, eaten directly from the freezer <BR> <BR>... Mon, 8 Nov 2010 11:35:34 EST Change of plan Today I realized that I am physically ready for Chalean Extreme again. I love the program, but when I stopped working out for 3 months, I lost so much strength and went back to being out of shape. I am going to be doing little programs. I will be doing a 30 day program starting Sept. 1 called Brazil butt lift. It not only helps the butt area, but also the thigh and love handle areas, which are my worst. Right now I just want to worry about doing cardio and getting the fat off. I want to do Ch... Wed, 25 Aug 2010 23:13:27 EST Challenge day 2 Today is day 1, but I will start taking challenges for day 2! :) Thanks for everyone's support and help! <BR> <BR> UPDATE: Ok, I have done all the challenges for day 1. Well Paper wings lasts all day lol, but I am sticking to it. I walked for 10 mins, it takes 5 mins to walk to the gym here, and 5 mins back, so there was my 10. Then I did 15 mins on the treadmill (I jogged 1 of those minutes lol). Then I did 20 mins on a stationary bike. So I am very proud of myself. I wanted to make excuse... Wed, 21 Jul 2010 09:46:13 EST Challenge me...please! (Day 1) I have been racking my brain all day on how to start back up, because I just do not have the SPARK I once had to get up and move my butt. I usually wait until Mondays to start, but screw it, I want to start NOW (well tomorrow). I keep making all these excuses of why I can't exercise. For newest excuse is I can't find my DVD player right must be in a box in the garage and I don't feel like looking for it right now. So I can't do workout videos. Then I tell myself I live in... Tue, 20 Jul 2010 20:49:46 EST Ok....this is it.... I have fallen off the wagon, gotten back on, and fell off again. I think a lot of it had to do with being stressed out, living with parents while my husband was jobless but searching for a job, plus some other personal issues going on. I am ashamed to say I have gained 15 pounds back. When I weighed myself I was extremely bummed, I started crying and thought "what happened to that strong woman inside". That woman is still there, just dying to come out again. <BR> Well now I am at 245 again, a... Mon, 19 Jul 2010 20:35:32 EST Falling apart! I am falling apart on my weight loss. About a month ago I kind of just stopped caring what I ate and I have hardly exercised. I think in the last month I have exercised a total of 7 times. I was 3 pounds away from hitting my 80 pound loss mark, and now I just let myself go and have gained a few pounds. I think a lot of it has to do with being stressed with my husband not having a job, me and him being together all the time and other stressful reasons. I am having a hard time getting motivate... Fri, 28 May 2010 19:02:19 EST Moving=Stress=Overeating So as some of you know, my husband quit his job this week. Long story short, they took advantage of him and in the 3 1/2 years he was with that company, doing multiple people's jobs, he not once got a raise. So after taking their BS for so long, he took a chance and a risk and quit. I supported any decision he made, and I still stand by his side. We live in the Houston area now, but we will be moving to the New Braunfels area to be closer to my family. We will be staying with my parents until... Fri, 30 Apr 2010 10:56:32 EST Chalean Extreme: Push Phase Results Ok, for starters, I apologize about the pictures. My desktop with my pictures messed up, so I had to copy the pictures from my previous blogs, which turned out extremely blurry. But I needed something lol. I look crappy in my "after PP" photos, just finished exercising. If you do not see a difference due to the blur, I do understand. Anyways, I love push month, definitely my favorite month. Though I am looking forward to Lean phase, and hoping for good results. I did not lose many inches duri... Mon, 29 Mar 2010 14:08:08 EST 3 weeks...any advice? On April 15th, we are going to my parents for about a week or so. My brother is getting married while we are there, and it will be on a river. So yesterday I bought a really pretty summer dress in a size 16. Well I tried it on and it is a little tight in the stomach area. I hate to admit it, but I have a girdle and figured it would help with the stomach problem. SO I bought the dress and tried it on with the girdle, and it was still tight in the stomach area. I did not take the tags off of th... Sat, 20 Mar 2010 08:39:50 EST Survey I stole this from SCRAPHAPPY94 :) looked fun <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> 1.What time did you get up this morning? 5:45am <BR> <BR> 2. How do you like your steak? medium rare <BR> <BR> 3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Paranormal Activity <BR> <BR> 4. What is your favorite TV show? I have a few, House, The Biggest Loser, The Big Bang theory, Big Brother and some others lol <BR> <BR> 5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be? Never thought about it, I like to b... Fri, 12 Mar 2010 13:03:43 EST Chalean Exteme: Burn Phase Results Well I have enjoyed the first month of Chalean extreme. I forgot how sore it makes me, but I always felt really good when I was done. I definitely did not get the same results during this first month like I did the last time I did it. I only lost 3 pounds this first month, went from 237 to 234. I am unsure of why I did not lose more, I worked extremely hard. But it is the past, and I will just look to the future and work hard during Push phase. My inches did not change TOO much either, but I ... Sun, 28 Feb 2010 16:27:21 EST A Trip Down Memory Lane :( We have all of our old pictures on an external hard drive and I thought I would kind of skim through some of the pictures. From time to time I like to look at pictures of my son from when he was born up til now. Well there were pictures I came across of myself that I would like to share. I can not believe how bad I really looked until I see myself now! I think my highest weight was 316 <BR> <BR> Sept '06 (A horrible look) <BR> <img src="">... Wed, 3 Feb 2010 10:15:31 EST Chalean Extreme: Round 2 Saturday I started Chalean Extreme for the 2nd time. The first time I did it I lost about 30 pounds, give or take a few pound. I also lost I think 19.5 inches all together. I am not sure if I will get the exact same results as I did last time, but any results will do. <BR> I was originally doing the Last chance workout program, but I am not one of those people who can do the same exercise every day, I get bored easy lol. I did Chalean extreme before, so I know I love it. This time I am not d... Mon, 1 Feb 2010 09:38:07 EST My supposed to be Goal Pants Most of you may know of the plus size store Torrid. Well I went to torrid online to look at their clearance clothes to find some pants that can be my goal pants. In other words, I was looking for a pair that I could work to get into by this summer. So I found a really cute pair of black capris with some yellow accents in them. They had a size 14, 18 and 22. I told my husband that I would really like the pants, and they were on sale for $14.99 (originally $45). So my husband ordered them for ... Fri, 22 Jan 2010 09:36:14 EST The Biggest Loser: Last Chance Workout So for a late Christmas gift, my husband got me the 2 new Biggest Loser workout videos. I did the 30 day jump start over the weekend. It was pretty good. Unfortunately, I have not lost anything in over a month now, and it is starting to really bring me down. So I decided that I am going to do the Last Chance workout program. It is 6 weeks long, and on the cover it says "lose up to 30 pounds". Now I am not expecting to lose 30 pounds, but 10 or even 20 would be nice! <BR> Anyways, I am postin... Mon, 4 Jan 2010 12:50:38 EST Shopping and Such Well today I went shopping for some desperately needed clothes with birthday money. We stopped by a resale shop here in town, they normally have some decent clothes from time to time. I saw a REALLY cute long black coat for $75 and was a size 14. I was thinking to myself "this is NOT going to fit" but I tried it on anyways, and it fit! My husband ended up buying it, which was really sweet of him. Then we went to some other stores, and I was finally able to buy a size 16 jeans, I was SO exci... Sat, 14 Nov 2009 16:21:10 EST If you are down, just pick yourself right back up! No one is perfect, so everyone has the moments during their weight loss where they just want to give up, and some people do, and others push through. There are never any hard feelings towards the ones who give up, because it is tough, you have to be physically and mentally ready for the life long journey! <BR> The first time I actually tried to lose weight was not because I really wanted to but was because I HAD to. When I was pregnant with my son, I was on the verge of having gestational di... Mon, 26 Oct 2009 09:58:49 EST Chalean Extreme: Lean Phase Well I am finally finished with CLX. I have to say that I am excited lol. I loved the program, but this last month has been tough, because on top of CLX, I was also doing Insanity! Instead of posting pictures from last month to this month, I am posting pictures from before I started CLX to the ones I took today (after CLX). During CLX I have lost a total of 32 pounds!! I am also going to post my starting measurements to my ending measurements! <BR> Before/After: Total Lost: <BR> Arm: 17.5 / ... Sat, 26 Sep 2009 16:43:44 EST 1.8 Miles....WOW! Last night was a new accomplishment for me, I was able to jog 1.8 miles with only stopping to walk for 30 seconds the whole time. Now I was jogging at a slow pace, but because of that pace I was able to keep going and going. It is amazing to think and know that I was able to jog that long. Normally I could only jog for 1 minute max and would be done, last night I jogged for 30 mins straight. I am extremely proud of myself. My Mother In Law jogged with me, but she walked more than I did, but ... Thu, 24 Sep 2009 07:58:16 EST INSANITY: 2nd Fit Test! I have to say, Insanity is definitely TOUGH. Personally, it is pretty emotional. A lot of the times I feel like I am hugging the floor begging for mercy lol. Embarrassing to say sometimes I feel like I want to cry, but I always suck it in and make sure I finish strong! <BR> I have to say, I thought that this month was going to go extremely slow but these last 2 weeks have flown by, and I am sure these next 2 weeks will be the same. <BR> I was not sure how well I would do on my fit test thi... Mon, 14 Sep 2009 10:06:55 EST September 12,2009 I decided that I am going to start making "diary" entries on my blogs from time to time to post how I am feeling and post my thoughts. <BR> Well today was officially a horrible day for me. First I stepped on the scale this morning and it said I gained about 2 pounds from what I lost last week. I know a lot of that was due to the high sodium I had 2 days ago, so I know that will eventually go away! Then I measured myself just to get a peak at where I am and it said I gained inches, now weigh... Sat, 12 Sep 2009 22:07:27 EST INSANITY: 1st FIT TEST Well today I started INSANITY. Today was just the fit test, but it was extremely intense. I was happy with myself, and a little bummed with myself on some of my results. I do know that this is the first week, so I am hoping to be able to do a few more when I do it again in 2 weeks. Burpees (or Suicide Jumps) and Push ups are my major weakness, so I was not able to do many of those. Here are my results for today, for those of you who do not know what the numbers are for, they are how many o... Mon, 31 Aug 2009 18:31:42 EST Chalean Extreme: Push Phase Results Today was my official DONE day of Push phase of Chalean Extreme. This month was a little tough, but it was great. My favorite workout of Push phase was Push Circuit 3, that one just felt great. I have to honestly say I am tired of the Burn intervals lol. My starting weight before Push phase was 272, as of this morning I am down to 263, so I have lost a total of 9 pounds for August. Normally my weigh in days are Sundays, but I was too excited to wait lol. I am posting my measurements in the ... Sat, 29 Aug 2009 20:11:20 EST