ANEWME1313's SparkPeople Blog ANEWME1313's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community eat more = lose weight ? huh lol I just keep going.. sometimes I do great.. sometimes I fall flat on my face.. but I just pick myself up and keep going along. I am so proud of where I am versus where I was this time last year and am looking forward to continuing and see where I am even a year from now. I was losing at a steady and rewarding pace going into the holidays. <em>224</em> When I returned home and to my program I had little gain in weight. I was happy with that and thought I'd jump right back in to where I w... Sat, 9 Feb 2013 22:22:26 EST January Review As a reflect back on January, I'm proud of my accomplishments and see areas of improvement. On this journey, it's important to look back at the gains I've made and also make a mental map of where I want to go in the next month. I love the tools on SP for this purpose. They're so motivating! <BR> <BR> 1) My fav - the sparksummary calendar (on the start page, on right side under weight) - I see that I did well on my exercise, working out for a majority of days, at least 3 times per week e... Wed, 30 Jan 2013 07:53:56 EST Getting my head back in the game.. I was totally back on track the first week of January and hitting it hard. My commitment and resolve were at an all time height. I started off the second week strong also, but then life had an upheaval in the works for me lol. My guy and I had one of those blow outs that is "the last straw" kind of argument where we're both evaluating if we're moving forward or folding. My daughter and I also had birthdays during this past week. The combination of the two meant a few days skipping workou... Wed, 16 Jan 2013 07:07:39 EST Taking it easy :) Several factors came together to make yesterday and today rest days :) Yesterday was my darling daughter's birthday and I spent the day with her. As a single mom, if I don't do it, it doesn't get done.. so it was up to me to make her day as special as I could. I was also having signs from my body that I was pushing a bit too hard for where I am at this moment. I've been short-changing my sleep a bit too here and there, so I crashed last night and slept like a baby. I even reset my alarm t... Thu, 10 Jan 2013 08:39:06 EST When the scale is the enemy.. :) During the holidays, I gave into temptation and due to being out of town, off my program. When I got home, I was ok with the modest gain of a couple pounds, knowing it was a once-a-year treat and committed to getting right back with my healthier lifestyle and goals. I have done very well with regard to eating and working out, even better than before the holidays. My clothes were even baggier yesterday, so although it wasn't quite my "weigh-in" day, I cheated and took a sneak peek. I was r... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 07:55:31 EST I will not stop.. This is a lifestyle change. This is for me. I am dedicated, I am committed and I am strong. I can do this. I WILL do this. I know I will have tough days, "bad" days, stress, and will miss workouts or eat what I "shouldn't". But, I will not let that stop me. I will get up, dust off my pants, and get right back onto the program. Failure is not an option. I will put in the work and sweat to recognize myself - to be on the outside who I am on the inside. I will not have my weight limit m... Thu, 3 Jan 2013 08:18:38 EST Getting back on track.. again lol I won't make excuses for myself. I got off track during the holidays. While my recently developed better habits did influence my choices, I also gave in to the temptations the holidays bring. Without excuses, I will say the holidays are quite different than my usual lifestyle because my family is from far away, I go stay with them this one time of year, and have to live with their lifestyle choices temporarily. I usually buy groceries there and get out to go hiking (not like I can pop in ... Mon, 31 Dec 2012 11:30:51 EST I'm the cookie monster! lol Ok, so I'm going to confess about yesterday... I blog all the time about the great days, the good choices.. so I'm going to also blog about my cookie monster moment.. lol.. I went into the copy room yesterday completely unaware there were gooey brownies and sugar cookies. Bam! it hit me and I had noooo control. You've seen Sesame Street where the cookie monster is cramming in cookies "Num! Num! Num!" mmm hmm that was me! I'm quite sure there were cookie bits flying every where! I haven't ... Tue, 18 Dec 2012 07:32:36 EST Mid-month review I'll be really honest here. If I looked at the big picture of what all it would take to meet my long-range goals, I'd probably be very overwhelmed. The problem in becoming very unhealthy is that it takes ALOT to reach healthy lol.. Realizing this, I set myself an infinite amount of small mini-goals to make me feel successful and help overcome frustration. I try to focus on each day, each choice and make it a good one.. as they add up, I am proud of what I have accomplished. Sure, I tell m... Mon, 17 Dec 2012 08:06:41 EST Emotional ups and downs Last night, I got a phone call out of the blue.. it was that sweet makes my heart go pitter patter country boy I've had a crush on lol :) Yes, I giggle, smile, and blush like a 16 yr old school girl with her first crush when I hear his voice. It's complicated due to obligations (he's military) but he's home and he called! :) We talked for hours till the early morning, laughed together so hard he was snorting lol.. and I've had a smile since. <BR> <BR> Got up to take my daughter to get a ... Fri, 14 Dec 2012 22:25:29 EST Replanning my goals About 2 weeks ago, I felt something in my wrist. It was like the story of the Princess and the Pea. I hunted around not quite sure I felt anything. Within the last two weeks, the lump has grown to where it's easily seen. It's under the skin. I called my doctor last week and got in first thing this week. I'm having quite a bit of pain in the wrist. I'll admit I was a bit disappointed when she looked at it, felt of it, and told me there was no need for her to go further into it. She sai... Wed, 12 Dec 2012 21:36:48 EST When I work out.. When I work out, give it my all, and let the sweat pour.... I stink! lol :) <BR> <BR> but I also: <BR> <BR> *am proud of myself <BR> *feel more energetic <BR> *am putting in the work to accomplish my goals <BR> *am making myself healthier <BR> *am more aware of my muscles during my day <BR> *love the way my clothes are becoming baggier <BR> *imagine where this journey will take me physically and emotionally <BR> *have more confidence <BR> *smile as I see the changes in the mirror <BR> *c... Thu, 6 Dec 2012 07:34:51 EST Back on track :) Yay! I got sort of off track from the holidays through this weekend. Time off with friends was wonderful for the soul, but not so great for my exercise routine. lol :) Came back to a cold / flu / allergies, not sure which. Then, my darling daughter caught whatever I had. Ugh! I didn't gain, but didn't lose much during all this either. However, yesterday and today, I'm back on track. I got my workouts in and feel great! I also was otherwise very active yesterday cleaning the house. The chal... Tue, 4 Dec 2012 07:03:37 EST The little engine that could.. So I weighed in for this past month. Only a two pound loss. I had set a goal for more and at the beginning of last month had hoped for more. I started off the month strong and made good choices. I know I was making strides, gaining muscle, improving wellness. Then, the holidays came.. (hear the theme song from Psycho?) haha... went out of town, had a great time, but came back exhausted and within a day or two came down with an icky cold. That's almost 2 weeks of not making my workouts. ... Fri, 30 Nov 2012 08:48:26 EST Chasing after the wagon.. I drove "home" to visit old friends this past weekend. I totally jumped off the healthy eating and exercising wagon! It was a wonderful visit of fish frying, pot lucks, up all night talking and laughing till I was hoarse, and remembering yesterdays, but not conducive at all to my fit for life goals lol :) When I returned home late Sunday, I had to focus on getting our clothes washed and ready for a big presentation I had Monday night after work. Monday's schedule didn't allow for time to g... Tue, 27 Nov 2012 07:23:48 EST You are not alone... I know today is about family and friends, time sharing stories, memories and giggles, but for some of us, today is a reminder of what we've lost. When you see others' posts, it makes some of us sad for those we miss. I buried both my father and mother this year. In years past, I have buried my grandparents, aunts, uncles, and a child. I'm somewhat haunted today by memories of those people on this special day and reminded how different it is now. My darling daughter is at her dad's for vi... Thu, 22 Nov 2012 12:28:07 EST Deal with it.. I was stressed and in a foul mood yesterday. I did get my workout in and used a bit of that extra energy to encourage me to do a little strength training as well. I gave into stress eating last night, but kept it reasonable. I really wanted some dark chocolate... I drank a bottle of water.. I walked around the house.. I tried to satisfy it with some carrots.. but still wanted it, so I gave in and went to the store to get one bar. (I have long ago quit keeping temptations in the house). I... Wed, 21 Nov 2012 12:09:58 EST So you want to play dad... Ok, today I'm venting. I apologize in advance if my post offends anyone and also recognize the really great dads out there. <BR> <BR> My daughter's dad and I divorced 6 years ago. My daughter has been my sole focus all that time. Due to medical reasons (epilepsy), he agreed to supervised visits with our daughter (since she was only 2 at the time and he didn't live with anyone in the event he had a seizure). He is unconscious and / or extremely confused for hours after a seizure and the... Tue, 20 Nov 2012 11:06:38 EST I'm nervously ready for today lol Increasing my exercise program duration has really got the scale moving again, for which I am thankful. Unfortunately, today is our community Thanksgiving dinner! I live in a very small town and the school where I work sponsors an annual Thanksgiving dinner for the whole community. It's a big (huge) tradition. It's also a big deal to my daughter for me to come eat with her and her class as most of the parents do come. This could easily become mega-calorie day lol.. I brought a couple bag... Mon, 19 Nov 2012 11:51:31 EST You have got to read this... I read this article on yahoo last night and just had to share it with everyone.. I am a late morning breakfast person so the info here literally shocked me. I knew I should eat breakfast... but seriously up to 450 percent more likely to become obese???? and more... <BR> <BR> Not only do people who skip their morning meal—or begin the day with only a cup of coffee—have less energy, worse moods, and poorer memory those who eat breakfast, studies show, but they also face some serious health r... Wed, 14 Nov 2012 06:26:09 EST I'm the lurker... :) When you write a blog, I'm the one up early in the morning, surfing through them.. scouring for motivation, compassionate stories of challenges and strength, sympathizing with your bad days and silently cheering you on with your successes.. I may not always post, usually because I don't feel I have anything worthwhile to say on the topic, or may be on the run to my workout and needing some quick inspiration, but I'm there with you giving you a hug when you need it or doing a cheer with my ... Tue, 13 Nov 2012 06:28:35 EST Living Life One of my major goals has been to become more fit so I can live the life I want to be living with my daughter. As I pursue my other goals, I find it is improving my life overall and I wanted to celebrate these changes. Not only am I more conscious of my diet and fitting in regular exercise (still sweating from this morning's bike ride), but my daughter and I are engaging in more activities together. Friday night we went roller skating at the local rink and Saturday we went for a hike / roc... Mon, 12 Nov 2012 06:24:26 EST The incredibly shrinking mommy.. bonus blog Sorry for flooding the blogs but I had to jump on and celebrate! As I was getting ready for work this morning, my daughter came in and gave me the "you're wearing that?!!" look. I stopped and said, "What?" :) I thought I looked pretty good. She said that she wasn't trying to hurt my feelings, but I needed to change my pants. "You're beginning to look like one of those gangsters mom. Your pants are hanging down too far." I told her I knew they were getting baggy, but that I was kind of in ... Tue, 6 Nov 2012 08:17:12 EST One of those mornings... I'll admit, this was one of those mornings I just didn't want to get up early and workout. I wasn't overly tired. I actually got the right amount of sleep. I just didn't want to do it. :) I wrestled myself to the ground, "You know once you get started, 5 minutes in and you'll be singing and moving to the tunes." The bed beckoned me, sweet talking.. my spot was still all nice and warm. I could just climb back in, pull up the covers, and go right back to the tropics where I'm bikini-worthy... Tue, 6 Nov 2012 06:31:29 EST "Bad" Dinner lol When my daughter got home from visitation with her dad, it was still very nice outside, so we worked outside on the yard a little. We came in a little later for dinner than usual, and I was kind of rushed cooking. I had planned a healthy meal with lots of veggies. Unfortunately, it was one of those flukes where you go through the trouble to cook it, take one bite, and realize something is very wrong! LOL I'm not sure what was bad, but something was.. the food was inedible. I look at the ... Mon, 5 Nov 2012 06:24:40 EST November Goals and reflection... Reflecting on October, I do wish I had done more. Don't get me wrong, every small step matters and I am proud of what I did accomplish, but it would be really nice to have a sense of "Yeah! I really worked it this month and it shows!" Instead I see that I made improvements and those matter, but I'm still very much a work in progress. :) I can do more to achieve my goals and I have no reason not to. There are no good excuses. <BR> <BR> Having said that, I do feel this past week has been mor... Fri, 2 Nov 2012 07:18:55 EST Goals big and small... Apparently I'm feeling a bit philosophical today. I'm on a roll, starting each morning with a workout before the sun has risen (and my darling daughter as well). I've been eating well, and getting enough rest. I'm feeling really good about this week. As I'm in the shower (I always do my best thinking there), I challenge myself to go just one full week feeling like I did it right. I don't expect perfection... but I do expect balance from myself. I mean, I'm almost halfway there already..... Tue, 30 Oct 2012 07:04:45 EST Happy Start I'm feeling really great this morning! I got my workout in yesterday and even got up and jumped right on it first thing today. I love it when I can go about my day knowing I already got it in and anything throughout the day is just a bonus! <em>334</em> Mon, 29 Oct 2012 06:42:12 EST 10 lbs gone! <em>9</em> <em>252</em> <em>334</em> It's working! :) I cheated this morning and jumped on the scale even though it's actually a week early for me. I had been busy for over a week and wanted to see what it had done to my goal. I then had to jump on the scale several more times thinking somehow there was an error! lol :) I knew I could feel the change in my clothing, but wasn't sure how that would translate to the scale as sometimes what it chooses as my weight is a mystery to me. In... Tue, 23 Oct 2012 07:43:51 EST I'm still here.... lol So I'm more than slightly shocked to see my last blog was 9 days ago.. where did I lose nine days? lol :) Oh, yes, my darling daughter decided rather belatedly.. well pleaded I should say more than decided... that her "perfect" Halloween costume this year was one she needed me to sew for her... gack! And, of course, our community has their costume contest 2 weeks before Halloween, so I had to really get on it! lol :) I've been spending day and night every free moment (around work and being ... Mon, 22 Oct 2012 09:02:34 EST Whammied! Yesterday morning I awoke to feeling like I was swallowing around golf balls, body aches, fatigue, and fever. I stayed home from work. I just slept / laid on the couch all day. I didn't even have the energy to eat. I did suck on a couple low cal ice cream bars I had since my throat hurt when I swallowed. Fever seemed to break last night. Went to bed at 8 pm. Got up to get ready for work this morning and my throat feels better but I'm still sooooo tired. I even broke a sweat trying to ... Fri, 12 Oct 2012 07:16:46 EST One small victory... Although I've been a member for 3 weeks now, I really haven't been taking it seriously until the last week.. don't get me wrong, I slowly made healthier changes during the first two weeks, but it was more like I was on the start line revving my engine before the take off! :) I have read enough to know to not let the scale rule me, though I'll be honest, when one is obese, the scale does matter... I've read many times "muscle is more dense than fat, so don't worry if the scale isn't showing t... Wed, 10 Oct 2012 06:58:31 EST Resting.. I'm sore! LOL After an epic hike yesterday, I awoke this morning still tired and sore. I slept soooo good though! lol :) My muscles are protesting all of my fun and hard work! The scale is reflecting a several pound gain since yesterday too! lol.. Since I know what I had to eat, how hard I worked, and the consistent amount it has shown, I think (hope) that the "gain" is really due to swollen muscles that are sore and got over-worked yesterday. I'm giving myself a break today from training as every musc... Tue, 9 Oct 2012 07:07:01 EST I'm starving.. sabotage? I took my daughter on an amazing hike today. This was extreme hiking. It was only 3.6 miles, but rugged terrain, until the last 1 1/2 - 2 miles. Then, we hit extreme! It was vertical the whole way.. yes, hands cupped in hand holds in the rock facing, climbing up for much of it (no gear required) or extremely steep trails.. we're not talking the kind that go up and down or even level out... it was weaving up up up and away! According to spark tracker, I burned a massive amount of calories... Mon, 8 Oct 2012 23:12:05 EST Turning anger into a good thing! :) I have trust issues. I'll just say it right out. I'm hopeful that I will find the love I'm looking for in this lifetime, but I have had enough heartache to make me cautious. The main things to me are trust, integrity, and communication. Without those, there is no reason to move ahead in a relationship. After knowing this guy a couple years casually, we started dating. We have dated pretty seriously for almost a year now. We had progressed to the conversation (initiated by him) whereby ... Sun, 7 Oct 2012 15:21:38 EST Weighing in... or not :) I'm wondering about the accuracy of scales, yet, there is nooooo way I'm going to the store and stepping on scales to try them out. The one I have here at home is fickle. I can step on it and see a different weight every time, just by how I'm standing.. lean slightly to the back, I've lost 5 lbs! slightly to the front, a gain! Try to stand perfectly upright .. it's anybody's guess. So, although that ticker keeps staring at me, wanting me to input my current weight, I'm waiting... When I f... Thu, 4 Oct 2012 06:30:39 EST Good choices.. I wanted to celebrate making good choices today .. I ate within my calorie range, with good, healthy foods, even after being stressed out at work and tired when I got home. I also am aiming to sleep at least 7 hours a night (which is a big change from the past when I was guilty of only 3-4 hours many nights). I even traded a couple "evil" cravings for a healthy choice.. so I'm feeling pretty good. Didn't get to be as active as I'd like, but I'm working on it :) I'm climbing this mountain..... Tue, 2 Oct 2012 21:52:06 EST Great Day Yesterday! :) My daughter and I had a wonderful day yesterday. I feel like I'm really getting in the swing of helping both of us be more active and engaged in life! :) We woke up early and wrote down a list of what had to be done (chores) and what we wanted to have time for (fun activities). Then, we worked together to tackle the list! :) We went geocaching again to another site on the other side of town (walking to get there). It sure felt like more than 2 miles, but we had a great time and were all s... Mon, 1 Oct 2012 07:29:43 EST The good, the bad, and the just plain ugly... I like to end on a positive note, so I'll take the title backwards.... :) <BR> <BR> The plain ugly - Friday was a horrrrrrrible day for food choices. It started with a little planned splurge to go ahead and enjoy that half order of biscuits and gravy even though I knew how bad it was.. promising myself to eat like a rabbit the rest of the day to make up for it! lol :) But.. it was also treat day at work.. and the treats were in the copy room.. and I had a lot of copies to make.. ugh.. an... Sat, 29 Sep 2012 23:46:02 EST Hello.. I'm a coffee addict... lol Awoke this morning early (4:30am.. ugh), determined to get that workout in.. my darling daughter woke up at the same time.. so, I put the workout to the side so I could deal with all the "mom, where's my white shorts?" and "Should I paint my nails pink or purple?" lol :) Sidestepped her to make my morning cup of coffee (I've limited myself to that one cup now) ... but was out of sugar. :( Expedited getting her ready so when the local gas station opened we could go grab some sugar, cleaned ho... Fri, 28 Sep 2012 08:02:46 EST It's Thursday already?? I cannot believe how fast this week has flown by. I had really planned to work in more time for exercise than I have.. I really need to focus on our schedule and how to shift things around. I wish there were more hours in a day! :) It seems I'm on the run till I fall into bed! I could give up sleeping.. but that has it's own drawbacks lol.. I have done well with making healthy eating choices and also staying active during my busy days, but need to do better. Maybe I could shift things ar... Thu, 27 Sep 2012 08:12:43 EST A day at a time.. On Sept 10, my beloved momma and best friend passed away from a sudden massive heart attack. I start with this, as it was my catalyst and the reason I have to get healthier not only for me, but also for my darling daughter. I have flirted with getting healthier longer than I care to admit to myself. Until the past year, I just honestly didn't see myself as I was. In January, as many do, I resolved to do better and began by eating healthier and exercising more. I began seeing results, but... Sun, 23 Sep 2012 14:58:27 EST