ANEWATTITUDE_'s SparkPeople Blog ANEWATTITUDE_'s Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Much thanks Thanks to everyone for the birthday wishes and goodies! They were much appreciated. <BR> <BR> Just wanted to let everyone that I'm still here, alive and kickin' I've just decided to take a month or two to work on "me"..It may sound odd, but the challenges, I think, were getting to be a much for me, because I was stuck, and letting my teams down, so I decided to step back and be my own challenge..I've not gone anywhere, not quit..Actually, I've lost 2 lbs since not worrying about anyth... Wed, 22 Oct 2008 19:35:11 EST Ugh! I hate cold weather and missing the gym It's cool, here in Iowa, today; lower 60's, but last night was in the 50's, and the clouds rolled in, threatening rain all day..I woke up with every joint and muscle in my body aching, especially my bad hip...and on gym day, of all days..Plus, for various things that had come up (illness one day, car problems, another), we had not been to the gym for about 2 1/2 weeks..Now, granted, we're only able to go twice a week, but that's when I do my strength, on the cybex machines..If you take a look... Wed, 3 Sep 2008 17:13:18 EST Guess you can find ways of burning some calories anywhere Well, if anyone is going to find a weird way of doing things, it's going to be me..I still live up to my mother's description of me and always will..I always march to the beat of a different drummer..Sometimes I wasn't sure how to take But, I liked it, because I liked being unique and different.."Normal" is soooooo boring...Tim says I scare him sometimes, because he can "see" when my mind starts turning and grinding gears, cooking up and scheming lol <BR> <BR> Anyway, if you read... Tue, 2 Sep 2008 23:34:41 EST Irony (And other stuff) Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you <BR> When you think everything's okay and everything's going right <BR> And life has a funny way of helping you out <BR> When you think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up in your face <BR> <BR> A traffic jam, when you're already late <BR> A "No smoking" sign, on your cigarette break <BR> It's like ten thousand spoons, when all you need is a knife <BR> It's meeting the man of my dreams, and then meeting his beautiful wife <BR> And i... Tue, 26 Aug 2008 21:59:24 EST Just took alittle vacation, but not in spirit If any of you have ever had a case of computer or internet burnout, you know what I'm talking about.. <BR> <BR> I just had to get away from it for a bit, but I've not swayed from my goals, and such..Tomorrow, I'll be on, filling in the days I missed on my trackers, posting to assure everyone I'm still kicking lol <BR> <BR> Had the sonogram on my leg, today...Of course, the tech couldn't LEGALLY tell me what, if anything, he saw, but he told me if there were problems, then they wouldn't le... Thu, 14 Aug 2008 00:34:02 EST GRRRR Ok, not making me wanting to eat, or anything like that, although I would like to hurt a couple of attorneys and a judge (no offense to either profession if any happen to read this)! <BR> <BR> My son was SUPPOSE to finally get this divorce and custody mess over with this morning, at 9..He got there, just to be told by his attorney that neither he nor Andrea's attorney had all their papers in order, and the judge only gave them two dates to choose from for a continuance, which one was in Oct,... Fri, 8 Aug 2008 13:12:51 EST Woohoo (Again)! Called Destiny, this morning (yeh, I'm a few hours late blogging..Never said I was good at keeping time lol); I AM OFF THE DIABETES MEDS!!!! <em>224</em> <em>236</em> <em>179</em> First goal met! And good cholesterol is up to 67! For a diabetic, it should be at least 50, so I'm good, there, too.. <BR> <BR> Have an appointment, next Wednesday morning, to have the sonogram done on my leg..From what Ed told me, yesterday, I'm already kind of expecting to be told I'm going to get one o... Thu, 7 Aug 2008 22:16:37 EST Good News, Could Be Better News, and Wont know til tomorrow News Well, went to dr., today..Funny, was seen by a PA student, first, and the first thing he commented on was my leg..Actually, I liked this guy's whole demeaner; He did all he was suppose to do, took my blood, which he was good at, thank goodness..Took it out of my hand, because since I have small, disappearing veins, he didn't even want to chance my arm..Didn't even feel the prick..He told me he was a paramedic in another life lol Anyway, I talked to him alittle bit, about the meds, the diabete... Thu, 7 Aug 2008 00:29:02 EST Yipes! Another lesson in reading labels Occasionally, I get these burritoes at the store, when I'm in a hurry to get home..Today was one of those days..I hadn't had one in ages, so I had never really looked at the label; it's around the same size as the ones Tim and I make, so I figured the calories and all that would be around the same..NOT!!!! I realized I had never had one since I started tracking, so I got the wrapper out, and proceeded to about have a heart attack! I read "480 calories" I thought "Not bad for a lunch item" T... Tue, 5 Aug 2008 16:33:26 EST Thank ya'll I just wanted to say thank you for all the comments; they're very much appreciated.. <BR> <BR> First of all, don't worry; I'm not swaying from my caloric intake, and I drink at least 10 glasses of water/day..I may be just a tad under it at times, but that's just cause we've not gone shopping I've gone the route of not eating, voluntarily and unvoluntarily (not a good time, financially, yrs ago), and it obviously didn't work, which is one of the reason's I've had to work so hard to ... Sun, 3 Aug 2008 02:41:07 EST Anyone got a strong vaccuum?? I swear I'm about ready to try some "home" liposuction..Ok, not really, but, geeze! I've done everything but starve myself, and I've gained 6lbs for the month of July..That's 1/2 of what I've lost since March, when I first came back.. <BR> <BR> I still think it's water retention, because I started putting it on about the middle of June, when it started getting warm, but once it really got hot and humid at the start of July, there was no stopping it, and no getting rid of it.. What do I h... Fri, 1 Aug 2008 22:52:51 EST A Good Monday, so far (and this time im not being sarcastic)! Went to see doc, today, for monthly check-up..Since my blood sugar has been in such good control, he's cutting me down to 1/2 a pill once a day; then, next month, we're going to take an A1C, and if it comes back at ;east as good as my last one (5.2), then we're going to go for none at all..If I manage to get that done, I will have hit one of my goals, which is to get rid of my diabetic meds..Woohoo! <BR> <BR> He's also finally listening to me, and weaning me off the antidepressants..I was... Mon, 7 Jul 2008 14:58:15 EST Guess timing was right for a new name Well, I guess the month of June wasn't my month to lose weight, but I did lose some inches..from 6/6 to 7/5, I've only lost 2.6lbs, but I've lost 3.51 ins overall..I still want to see that scale move more, but I can live with the 3.5 ins gone, too lol So, since I came back in March, I'm .4 lbs shy of being able to change my profile to the 15lbs lost on Spark..woohoo! Unfortunately, I forgot to write down my measurements before I started over, so I haven't a clue on that one..I just started ke... Sat, 5 Jul 2008 17:38:02 EST The Good, The Bad, And The Ugly Got the chance to meet two of my wonderful SP friends, Sunday..Had a great time..Are they as crazy and funny as on the boards? weellll...yup! lol That was the good, meeting and talking with them..The bad (which was oh SO good!) was the cheesecake I had! I've not eaten cheesecake that rich in YEARS, but it was but it was very good, and at a place that I had been wanting to try since I lived in MO, as there are 2 about 2-3 hours from where I used to live..The ugly? The way I felt, and the wa... Mon, 30 Jun 2008 18:45:45 EST Woohoo And Yay Me! I am now officially in my smallest jeans I have left! I've been able to wiggle into them and button them up, but still wasn't quite comfortable enough to wear them out; Well, today, I did! And they're alittle loose in the hips in the legs..Now if I'd just lose some in my waist..I'm doing this all backwards than I used to..Usually, whenever I lost weight, my waist (and my chest) were the first places I lost, so that if I wanted something to fit in the waist, it'd be snug in the hips and butt... Thu, 26 Jun 2008 01:16:33 EST Now I know why some animals eat their young Yesterday, Kim, Tim's oldest, and at this moment good child, came down to help me clean out Amy, the youngest and the rotten child's room.. <BR> <BR> I can't do all the bending and such, so Kim offered to come down and finally clean out this room, since Amy, now almost 20, has been promising to clean it out for almost 2 years..I refused to touch it; It was HER room, HER mess, HER responsibility..yeh right..Kim, with a dust mask and rubber gloves on, headed into the pig sty, and dug in, shovi... Mon, 23 Jun 2008 00:43:52 EST Friday The 13th Comes on Tuesday Ok, I know Friday the 13th is suppose to be bad luck, but isn't it also suppose to end ON the 13th?? Since Friday, which ironically, was a pretty good day, if it weren't for bad luck I'd have no luck at all, as the saying goes.. I was MIA, yesterday, because my computer decided to take a nosedive..So from 4 in the afternoon, until 2 this morning, I was working on this thing..So much for progress and it making our lives easier..Yeh, right; if you enjoy the feeling of your head exploding and w... Wed, 18 Jun 2008 10:42:32 EST Learning things the hard way (Or if this road gets any more twists in it, I'm gonna meet myself com You'd think after 40+ years, I would've learned by now, that not all lessons have to be learned the hard way..But guess what; I haven't..Big surprise, eh? lol <BR> <BR> About 3 weeks ago, Tim decided he wanted to go back to his old position in the company he works for..He doesn't like the new position, and I told him to go for it; go back to where he wanted to be; The raise wasn't much of one and even it was, if he wasn't happy, it wasn't worth it..Well, his boss, supervisor, whatever she... Tue, 17 Jun 2008 02:26:29 EST Going A New Route To Go With The New Attitude! In case, you haven't noticed, my ticker and my goal weight has changed..I read the "The 10% Solution" article (which is in my favorites, now), and yet another "duh" moment..Well, not really..Ok, kind of..I was THINKING the 5-10 lb range, but had a 50lb goal on my ticker ..I was feeling overwhelmed and aggravated every time I looked at that ticker, because it looked like sooooo much to lose, in such little time, and I wasn't getting any of it done, even though, my ticker doesn't show it, I rea... Sat, 14 Jun 2008 04:57:17 EST Yeh, I know I'm a few days behind on reporting my goals I'm behind..So what else is new? I never have, nor will I ever claim to be on time everytime for anything; My mom used to say I'd be late to my own funeral..Personally, I'd just as soon be as late for THAT appointment, as possible <em>20</em> I've still got a lot of annoying people left in me..I plan on living long enough that I can say what the hell what I want, when I want, the way I want, about who I want , to their face and not care... I'll be old and will have earned it! (Wait, I'm ... Wed, 11 Jun 2008 23:16:24 EST June Goals-This is to keep me in line I have decided to do a blogging/June Buddy thingy with PamiJane, one of my bestest buds on here..Matter of fact, one of the first ones to meet, I do believe.. *waving to Pami* <BR> <BR> Ok, so I'm a few days late on starting the blog, but I've kept my goals up, so far..Well, except for the 5 lbs for the month..A tad early in the game for that one lol <BR> <BR> I've been averaging between 10-12 glasses of water a day, so far.. <BR> I don't do drinks with sugar in them, period..Since the fi... Wed, 4 Jun 2008 21:56:57 EST NOW I figure it out You're not going to believe this..Ok, considering who it is, you probably will.. <BR> Let me preface this by saying that I had done Cybex machines at another Y, but they were alittle different; These machines went to a minimum of 10lbs, and had 5lb weights you could add in between the next level; ie: You have it set at 10lbs, then slide over one weight, and you've got 15...The ones I'm using now are a little different..No big deal.. Uh huh.. <BR> Since March, I've been using these Cybex mac... Sun, 1 Jun 2008 19:34:56 EST Who Knew? I realized something, today..I've been back to SP since March, and I'm not going I've actually taken the advice, joined groups, and am truly enjoying it.. I joined July of last year and lasted all of 2 months..I didn't do anything but use the food tracker, thinking I didn't need all the other stuff; I "knew" all I needed to know..NOT! lol This time, I joined a couple groups, I'm involved with them, not just lurking, but actually posting, and joining in the competitions and I'... Wed, 28 May 2008 21:26:33 EST Woohoo! After a week and a half, I FINALLY was able to go to the gym, today! I feel sooooooo great! I really missed it..Been laid up with a pinched nerve, as ya'll know, who read my blog..And even laying basically flat on my back for a week and a half, I still managed to lose a pound and an eighth..You bet I'm not forgetting that 1/8 lb..every little bit counts! lol Had to take out about 4 machines, per doc's order, but there are floor and chair exercises that make up for those, so no biggie..Bes... Sun, 25 May 2008 15:42:42 EST When it rains it pours.. And literally, here, the past couple days! Well, about the time Lee got sick, my back decided to go out, without my permission, and without me, period..Between calling him, making sure he was ok, and me otherwise laying on the couch snoozing off pain meds, until I could get to the pain doc, this past Wednesday, I've been kind of MIA, but not really.. I've been lurking or commenting when I could..kind of a "wakeful, yet loopy, still" moment allowed me to sit at the computer for an hour or so... Fri, 23 May 2008 18:32:43 EST Another motivation (bottom of list, but still a motivation) I'm tired of shopping in the Plus side, where most things, unless you go to a speciality shop, which I can't afford, are either more work oriented, or in such hideous prints my grandmother wouldn't have even worn them! What is the deal, the industry makes these horrible fabrics then says "We goofed..Aw well, make it into "fat" clothes, they don't have a choice but to wear it"?? <BR> <BR> When I lose my weight, or maybe even before, depends on if my belly is flat, and my butt is shaplier, but... Thu, 22 May 2008 01:06:19 EST If this doesn't inspire me, make me more determined, nothing will If you've been reading my blogs, you know that my light, my baby, my son, Lee is in the hospital. First of all, thank God, he's going to be alright, yet stuck in the hospital until Friday (so he's not a happy camper lol), to keep the continuous antibiotics through the iv going. After that, in 6 weeks there is a big possibility of surgery to remove the affected part of the colon. <BR> <BR> Now, here's the thing; I did research on diverticulitis, and it's very very rare that in people in th... Tue, 13 May 2008 22:43:39 EST Better Mother's Day (sort of) Well, Lee got his room, last night, FINALLY..they definitely don't get in any hurry about that stuff..Of course twerp wouldn't tell me just how much pain he was actually in, but for him to voluntarily take himself to ER, he had to be hurting.. Of course, hurting or not, he tried to sneak out, as I mentioned yesterday, for a cig, and got caught and hauled back in..Complained that he only got two puffs off of it, before they nailed him lol Don't know where he gets that stubborn streak from ... Sun, 11 May 2008 23:59:54 EST What a great Weekend (yes, that's sarcasm) Here I was, enjoying a quiet Saturday afternoon, with a quiet, although busy Sunday, with gym, shopping, and just spending time with Tim, when I get a phone call. <BR> <BR> It was Lee, my son..."Mom, I'm in ER..They're going to admit me" Excuse me?!? Of course, I'm thinking car accident, accident at work, if he was working, today.. <BR> <BR> "I have diverticulitis (think that's how it's spelled)". Again.. "You have WHAT?!?!" I had to look it up on the web to be sure I was understanding... Sat, 10 May 2008 17:31:42 EST Playing catch-up, and a big OUCH OUCH OUCH!!! Man, It's been forever, it seems, since I've made any noise (well on here, anyway)-and those who have gotten to know me, stop the smirking and laughing already..I said noise on HERE, not in the forums :P <BR> <BR> lets see.. <BR> <BR> 4/24: Went to a Y closer to our home, and had an appointment with a wellness coach, to get back in the swing with the machines I knew, and work up the settings for the ones I hadn't used there.. 'Course we wound up using most of my hour, talking about SparkPe... Tue, 6 May 2008 14:53:06 EST I don't wanna hear BODY COMPOSITION, again!! Ok, First of all, I had to get up earlier than usual, so we get stuff done, to get back so Tim could work on his daughter's car, who stayed with us all weekend..She kept me up until almost 3 am, then I had to drag my butt out of yesterday was gym day at Riverfront, which is where I use the scale..I gained a 1/4 lb!! I kept pushing that little thingy around, but it wouldn't cooperate; insisted I gained that quarter lb..Ever trying arguing with a scale? Doesn't work..they don't listen, ... Mon, 21 Apr 2008 16:41:19 EST Men! Gotta love 'em, or..well just gotta love 'em... Ok, so as I've mentioned in posts (I think), Tim and I had a regular membership with the "extra" fitness center, at the YMCA..Due to some medical bills that need to be paid (that for once aren't mine!), we had to downgrade to a regular membership (Ohhh my joints miss that whirlpool!), and since we downgraded, we also qualified for the sliding scale membership dues, which helped even farther, let me tell ya..Anyway, There is a Y only about 15 miles from us, which personally, I like..I was goi... Wed, 16 Apr 2008 20:26:48 EST Yikes! Well, I did it; I got the pics of me on the page..OMG!!! I knew I was big, but that full length was biiiggg eye opener (no pun intended, for once)! This just makes me all the more determined! <em>33</em> Fri, 11 Apr 2008 14:43:18 EST Critters are sooooooo much help! So I was so impressed with myself, this morning..After using the weight machines, yesterday, for the first time in almost a year, I wasn't sore! My biceps were alittle sore, but I can live with that.. <BR> <BR> Anyway, as I was saying, I was impressed (not to mention a tad proud), I decided to do another circuit training session, at home, today, with floor exercises..This is where it gets interesting... <BR> <BR> First, picture an arthritic 47 yr old, with fibromyalgia, and a defect in the... Thu, 10 Apr 2008 23:30:13 EST What a Day! (I mean that in a good way) Wednesday-gym day! First day I had to go upstairs to do my thing, because we downgraded our membership at the Y..First, I had to find my way around the locker room..Geeze, I swear I think it's bigger than our house! lol Roamed around, trying to find this and that..Had to ask how to get to the pool..went out one door to the pool, didn't pay attention, went back in the locker room through another door, and I thought "well good lord, where am I now??" Kinda sad that a locker room is an adventure... Wed, 9 Apr 2008 20:20:45 EST Just hand me a spoon! (not) Oh brother, has this been a couple of days! Yesterday, I went for a walk and walked 3.25 miles in an hour and 6 mins..4 of those were cool down..not a championship walk, but not bad for a fat broad that smokes (yes I have that nasty habit on top of it thing at a time!) Did my stretches, at the park, before I left, felt great; not winded, nothing hurting, etc..I'm thinking "Hey, this is alright!" I was tired, so after a bit, I laid down for a few, then got on the puter and looked t... Sun, 6 Apr 2008 18:00:22 EST Change is in the wind... Well, this past Wednesday, I had my first visit with my wellness coach at the Y. We've changed which one we've been going to, thanks to gas prices, among other things, so this one has different equipment than the other..And come to find out, the Y has changed their policy of only 3 visits with a coach, then any more after that, costs so much an hour; Now, you have a coach that will check in with you, now and then, if you have questions, or feel a need for another session, go for it, no extr... Fri, 4 Apr 2008 23:52:06 EST I've been thinking (uh oh)..but it's good stuff, this time.. After my last blog, and all the support, which is more appreciated thank ya'll will ever know, I started thinking about all the the past things that has happened, that I carried guilt for, or just plain hadn't gotten over...Weird as it probably sounds, I actually found blessings in each instance, that I never noticed, before... <BR> <BR> My abusive marriage, yep, nasty short thing it was, BUT, I got my son out of the deal, and he's the light of my life..I never knew what love really was unti... Wed, 2 Apr 2008 16:14:28 EST Geeze, not a good time of the year... I wound up going to that darn convenience store, today..I have a box of milk duds and a bag of mini chips ahoy in my drawer..I had bought a frappucinno, too..Not a good thing, but I had that w/ a banana for my lunch, because it had dawned on me what I had done..I've been doing so good not buying this junk, because I couldn't eat just a small amount and leave it alone, I always had to eat the whole package in one seating..When I got home, my first thought, when I looked at it was "omg I can't ... Tue, 1 Apr 2008 17:00:21 EST Lightbulb moment I was sitting here, last night, and today, reading and replying on msg boards of my sparkteams when it dawns on me- I'm actually interacting with people! I know, most who are reading this, are thinking "well, duh"..But, for me, this is a new thing; on boards I've joined before, I've usually stayed in the background, not saying much, if anything at all..But, I feel like I've finally found people who's been or are where I am, or I've been where they are, and can actually relate to ya'll! Annnn... Fri, 28 Mar 2008 23:49:34 EST a good news/ bad news kinda day Welp, went to dr today, for blood test results..mine were all fantastic (yay me!) bad cholesterol is way low, which isn't the reason I'm on cholesterol meds anyway..Of course I gotta be backwards..I'm on it 'cause my good cholesterol is TOO but it's up from 24 to 31, so that's a good thing..blood sugar was all below the range, so that's good..but, still no weight loss :( Had no time to go to gym, today..takes forever at our dr..but hopefully the weather holds out, and I can go to th... Wed, 19 Mar 2008 18:20:54 EST start, stop, start, stop, start.. Ok, well, I've never stopped the gym or changing my eating habits, but I, once again, stopped coming here, and did it ever make a difference! I didn't really realize just how much visually keeping track of what you're doing and eating can make a difference until I came back and put in my first day's worth of eating, since august of last year(doesn't seem like that long). Oy vey! I thought I was doing really well, and in some ways I was, and some ways I wasn't..this site definitely makes yo... Sun, 16 Mar 2008 21:22:06 EST I'm baaaackkk Geeze, if it's not one thing, it's another! I can't believe I've not been here for almost a month..I was being so good about coming here everyday, good or bad... <BR> <BR> Between gas prices, and bf working on truck on his only days off, I only got to the gym once since the last time I was here.. :( No excuse, I know, 'cause I could've exercised at home...I I'm the world's worst at being motvated to work out at home..too easy to say "I'll get to it later"... <BR> <BR> We fi... Thu, 30 Aug 2007 18:50:15 EST learned about missing a couple days the hard way One "strength" day I had the doc's appt, the next one, I was having a bad fibro day, so didn't go.. today, I went.. good lord, I felt like I was starting over! But I got through it.. Wed, 1 Aug 2007 00:10:17 EST yay me! Went to doctor, today, so missed my strength day, though improvised at other gym..He's decided we're going to try doing 1/2 a metformin twice a day! at this rate, hopefully, in a couple months, I'll be off of it.. <BR> <BR> His nurse, Destiny, cracks me up..I have to go in every month; Now, everytime I walk in, she gets excited and can't wait to weigh She's a real sweetheart and lots of support. Thu, 26 Jul 2007 00:16:55 EST Whoa I should've written this part yesterday, when I first joined, but I was too busy being <BR> <BR> Ok, I know if and when you see my weight you're gonna think "yeh right", but I have developed an aversion to food..ok, not to food per se, but to calories..I almost had a panic attack when I saw how many calories I'm suppose to consume a day...over 2000?!? There's no way...I've never liked breakfast, so a compromise for me is slimfast...lunch, too, for that matter..I'm a binge eater, an... Tue, 24 Jul 2007 18:16:35 EST