AMYSHUGRUE3's SparkPeople Blog AMYSHUGRUE3's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Tough Times Christmas is over and New Years is looming. I am grateful for the New Year and the chance to turn over a new page. So much has happened in the last week! <BR> <BR> I've been so worried about my 19 year old daughter. She hasn't started college yet and just can't seem to find a job. She is so depressed and looks to be giving up in her heart. She also lost her little pug, BB, on the Solstice. She had BB for 12 years. It was quite unexpected. And she had had to borrow over $800 from her ... Fri, 27 Dec 2013 17:04:04 EST Despite it all.... Have had a rough week on a lot of different levels. And yesterday was my day to hit the gym after work. Usually my 16 yr old daughter goes with me, and we get our workouts in together. But yesterday she said, "Mom, I'm just too tired. Are you going to go?" Well, I was tired too. I had every good reason not to go to the gym. <BR> <BR> But the night before, as I was laying in bed, I could feel my muscles underneath the fat. I was surprised to find that I could NOT pinch an inch on my th... Thu, 12 Dec 2013 04:32:41 EST Days Off.... For Thanksgiving and Tday-Friday, I gave myself the days off. Off from tracking, off from "having" to go to the gym. Off from minding what goes in my mouth. And what do you think happened? I'm just as surprised. <BR> <BR> I still chose to eat carefully, 1/2 a baked potato last night, not a whole. Two cookies, not twelve. I also got in my exercise by completely painting my little office, and all the shelving as well. I worked steadily for about 9 hours. Now, I'm a little sore. But ... Sat, 30 Nov 2013 07:24:30 EST Physical Labor Today, with the help of a friend and her mom's truck, I accomplished something that I've been wanting to do for a year. Switch mattresses from the house I own, to the house where I live with my fiancé'....and bring a tall dresser to have somewhere to put my clothes. <BR> <BR> A Queen mattress is pretty darn heavy and awkward. We maneuvered it out of my house and into her truck, along with the dresser. Schlepped it about 30 minutes away and hauled both up a narrow flight of stairs and to t... Sat, 23 Nov 2013 18:08:33 EST Flexibility.... Today makes Day 29 of my log in, food tracking and exercise streak. For some reason yesterday, the spinning wheel would not allow me to "spin" but I was able to track my food and exercise. So even though it says "Day One" I know it is Day 29! I AM keeping track! Ha! <BR> <BR> Today I have realized that I am learning to be flexible with my program of eating and exercising. Now that I have started back to school on Saturdays, I've had to make a decision that switches up all my exercise da... Mon, 18 Nov 2013 05:09:33 EST Dedication....devotion.... Winter weather is blowing cold, cold air in from Canada....due to arrive here in the morning. My car is in the garage so no scraping windshields tomorrow morning! The days are noticeably shorter now, and oh boy, I sure didn't want to walk to the gym this evening. <BR> <BR> Reasons not to go to the gym: <BR> <BR> Excuse #1: <BR> Chicken soup has been simmering for 2 days and homemade noodles just added. That darlin' man of mine can't be trusted to mind the pot for an hour. Even with ... Mon, 11 Nov 2013 20:20:43 EST Changes are all around me... I was commenting to a friend in the high desert West earlier this morning, on all the changes I am seeing here on the East coast. <BR> <BR> The leaves are nearly all down now. The winds continue to blow and you can feel the change in the air as autumn blossoms in earnest, and winter cannot be too far behind. In the time that I have started this journey, I've seen reflected around me lots of changes. I take them as portents, as examples of moving through from one state of being to another.... Fri, 8 Nov 2013 05:36:54 EST For Self.... Yesterday I came home from work and went up and changed into my workout clothes, getting ready to hit the gym. Other things came up. A neighbor with an issue. A mattress and box spring that needed carrying out to the yard for special pick up today. A question from darling dearest as to what dinner would be? All set in my path to deter, nay, occupy my mind away from my intent to get to the gym. <BR> <BR> Neighbor; spoken to and commiserated with. Mattress and boxspring to the lawn. D... Thu, 7 Nov 2013 05:37:54 EST Decisions, decisions Got a call regarding a position I may be interested in yesterday, and spoke with the recruiter for about 20 minutes. <BR> <BR> Later in the evening, I got to remembering having a conversation with myself about "quitting" things I've started. I sort of had a flash back moment where I saw many projects, endeavors over the years that I backed out of, for one reason or another, over the course of my life. It started me thinking.... <BR> <BR> ....I'm actually pretty happy where I am right no... Wed, 6 Nov 2013 05:39:55 EST Day 15 Streak Wow, I believe I've set a record for myself here! <BR> <BR> And as of today, I've lost the first 10 lbs and therefore, made my first goal a reality! Now, to start on the next 10 lbs. (When broken down into bits and pieces, the entirety of my ultimate goal does not over power me.) <BR> <BR> Work out clothes are already folded and waiting for me to come home this evening. I come in, change and head right out to the gym! Dinner can wait until I'm finished. It is very important to me to... Mon, 4 Nov 2013 04:59:16 EST A Room of One's Own.... We live in a small row home built in 1937. Made of brick, it is a tough little house, but so sweet as well. Before living here with my fiance' (going on our 2nd year) this house was in sorry shape inside. Two bachelors living together for almost 15 years. Dust! Debris! No sense of balance or beauty. Stagnant! <BR> <BR> Now there is COLOR! Plants, beautiful red, green and deep blue glass! Windows are open and unshaded to allow the light inside. It feel like a home again. <BR> <BR> S... Sun, 3 Nov 2013 05:16:38 EST Who'd of thunk it..... Well, here I sit, sipping coffee and checking in with SP for the 14th consecutive day. <em>465</em> <BR> <BR> Have already dressed in my gym clothes...just waiting for the place to open in about a half hour. On Saturdays I walk an hour on the treadmill, instead of the 30 min I do during the week. <BR> <BR> I actually find myself looking FORWARD to getting my exercise in now, and do not want to miss it. Since I am still recovering from a fractured coccyx in late August, I am not pu... Sat, 2 Nov 2013 07:28:16 EST Streakin' Good morning, and Happy Monday in my part of the world... <BR> <BR> Hopped on the scale this morning and am down another 2.5 lbs this week. I could feel it in my clothing and body this week, and knew the scale would reflect positively. Have made planning ahead a huge component of my days. Already, my work out clothes are laid out for this evening, and I haven't even gone to work yet. My lunch is packed since dinner time last night, full of good healthy fruits, veggies and healthy snacks.... Mon, 28 Oct 2013 04:42:25 EST Sunday, Sunday.... Up early, as usual, on this Sunday morning....last day of my SP week, as it were. Very happy that I committed to working out and eating very well this past week. Planning ahead sure does make a difference. <BR> <BR> Am getting a lot of use out of the SP Recipe collection, and my very finicky 16 yr old daughter, who is VERY concerned with everything that passes her lips, joined right in at supper time this week. The tuna casserole and the skillet lasagne were her favorites! <BR> <BR> Hi... Sun, 27 Oct 2013 06:44:43 EST 3 Days to start Just hopping out of the shower, after 30 minutes very brisk walk on the treadmill. I've set a goal of exercising for 30 minutes/3 times a week, to start off with. Doesn't matter which days I do it, just as long as I do it. Only Wednesday and two down, one to go! I will build from this foundation until I am up and exercising most days of the week, with Sundays off. That is my goal! <BR> <em>104</em> <BR> Wed, 23 Oct 2013 18:49:02 EST Change starts from within I have noticed how much my mindset seems to have changed since beginning my journey. <BR> <BR> Making the effort to track every day, work out every other day (working up to EVERY day!), being ever so mindful of WHAT I am putting into my body as fuel (lots of fruits and veggies!). And I'm not feeling that it is a stretch or burdensome....but a welcome attitude and intentional form of moving forward with my life. <BR> <BR> Each day I repeat a positive affirmation about my body, "I am so gra... Wed, 23 Oct 2013 05:13:39 EST Back in the saddle again... Having fallen too deeply toward being overwhelmed at the sheer amount of weight I want to lose (about 100 lbs), I had begun to feel hopeless. I was NEVER going to be able to get all this weight off my body!! I'd let things go too far for too long! <BR> <BR> Then I decided to break it down into 10lb increments. Well, I dropped 5lbs this week so am halfway to my first goal! Now THAT is something to get excited about. <BR> <BR> I went to the gym once and did some heavy cleaning for two... Mon, 21 Oct 2013 06:09:26 EST Starts with a the right direction Last evening my 16 year old daughter was scheduled to take a LifeGuard class pre-test. This is at our local pool. While she and my fiance' chose to drive down, I opted to walk. It isn't too far, but takes about 10 minutes to get there. I also chose to walk home. So there was a 20 minute brisk walk. A start....a step in the right direction....getting this body moving after my injury in August. <BR> <BR> On another note, a friend, who is currently furloughed from the Gov't left a messa... Wed, 9 Oct 2013 06:14:57 EST View From Behind While browsing the vendors at a recent Festival, my lover (unbeknownst to me) was snapping some pics of me. He seems to do this when I am not looking and this is probably the third pic I've seen where the view is just me from behind. Full body shots, I'm usually looking at or doing something where I am oblivious to the camera. (I usually do NOT like to take photos anymore. Too painful!) <BR> <BR> So he showed me last night a pic he had taken as I am looking over some crafts at a vendor's... Tue, 8 Oct 2013 07:31:50 EST Festival Off to enjoy a local Festival today. It promises to be hot, hot, hot and so am well equipped with water and walking shoes....looking forward to getting some exercise in today and see how my butt handles a lot of walking. Going to get back into the exercise thing nice and easy, so that I don't set myself up to fail. Moving forward! Sat, 5 Oct 2013 08:24:51 EST Square One Reading another blog this evening, I realize that I've fallen into a similar situation. I was doing so well, checking in and logging every day, walking regularly (at one point I was working out every day!), eating right, packing my lunches, lots of fruits and veggies..... <BR> <BR> Then I got sick. A terrible bronchitis, maybe even a pneumonia. Laid me low for about 2 weeks, I mean low. In bed. And after finally recovering, I didn't go back to my daily workouts. I tried at first but fe... Thu, 3 Oct 2013 19:34:55 EST Arrrgh! Am realizing that I am my own worst enemy. I think I may have already known this, though. I am sipping wine, no dinner planned and hoping my friend, Anna, does NOT call me for an evening walk tonight! What is wrong with me?? <BR> <BR> I went though the bill envelopes and put them in the mail slot. Calculating all that is due, my entire pay check is going out in bills this week. <em>40</em> I don't think I'm ever going to get ahead while this house is such an albatross. I need anot... Thu, 29 Aug 2013 17:38:17 EST Careful Last night I stopped to pick up seasoning for the burritos I was making for dinner. I also picked up some chardonnay. I have to be really careful about drinking wine, and making sure that I don't go over my calorie range for the day. I really enjoy it in the evening, but need to be extra mindful of the "empty" calories it gives me. <em>40</em> Will make sure to PLAN ahead and then not go over my daily limits! Thu, 29 Aug 2013 06:14:06 EST Accountable Beginning of week two and I'm discovering how important it is to be accountable to MYSELF. Fudging food/exercise choices is NOT an option any more. I need to trust myself to enter exactly what I consumed each day....even if it not necessarily what I want to face and admit. I need the guidance of the FACTS of my progress....only then will I recognize trends, bad habits and great choices that I am responsible for..... :) Wed, 28 Aug 2013 18:00:37 EST Small steps The first week has passed and I am down 5 lbs! Wed, 28 Aug 2013 05:51:59 EST