AMYRENEE1967's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=AMYRENEE1967 AMYRENEE1967's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Gearing Up for 2014 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5573065 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/3/l338776916.jpg"> <BR> Jim and I, I am 50 pounds down here <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/0/l602376776.jpg"> <BR> My good friend Rachel and I, I am 50 pounds down here. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/1/l2121117568.jpg"> <BR> Me in Bermuda, days before my surgery. I am 241 here, but weighed in at 237 on the day of surgery (yes I lost 4 pounds in Bermuda- unreal!). I use 237 as my start... Fri, 27 Dec 2013 13:10:31 EST I have FINALLY re-entered the world of ONE-DERLAND! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5511402 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1227810986.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> If you look VERY closely you will see me high up in the trees. I am at Club Getaway, in Kent, CT. This is an adventure camp for kids and adults- it is awesome. I was there with my 7th grade class (90 of them!) and ready to take on all the activities availed to us! I was ready, I am about 40 pounds lighter and not feeling as self conscious as I have about my body and its abilities as I have in the past 20... Sat, 12 Oct 2013 09:44:11 EST I'm feeling good, plenty of NSVs to report..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5498589 For those of you fortunate to never had to diet for long periods of time or numerous amounts of times an NSV stands for Non-Scale Victory. For us chronic dieters, lifestyle changers NSVs keep our sanity! The scale, while revered, can be a cruel way to measure victories for many of us. The scale is just plain wrong when measuring a person's weight loss/life style change efforts, except when it is right! So NSVs are the victories that will ground you and remind you each day that you spend w... Sat, 28 Sep 2013 14:00:30 EST Pity Party Over (well for now, you can never really trust me when it comes to pity parties!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5485403 So my last couple of blogs have been about frustration- to the "I think I might have regrets" level. And today I am hear to say that I am working (and succeeding) at coming to peace with the fact that I am a very slow loser- even with WLS. I am realizing that I have the rest of my life to lose the weight, there is no race, no specific occasion or deadline for this weight to come off-- it is just what I am currently working on at this time in my life. My mother (a WLS patient down 100 poun... Sat, 14 Sep 2013 13:13:56 EST Dazed and Confused, where is my Sleeve Gastrectomy Journey leading me? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5474937 I haven't blogged regularly because I have no idea what the hell is going on! And I have been unable to reach my dietician, but I will keep trying. <BR> <BR> It is like my nightmare is coming true- and I know this is irrational but what else am I to think? <BR> <BR> So what is going on?? Since I weighed in last 8/27, eight days ago- I have gained 3.8 pounds- who the hell eats 2 oz of food per meal, counts calories (under 1000), drinks a lot of fluids and GAINS weight. ME! It is a nigh... Tue, 3 Sep 2013 19:22:22 EST Confessions of a Sleeve Gastrectomy Patient...only 6 weeks in... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5462821 I am mid week blogging to tell you about the horror moment I created for myself! <BR> <BR> I am a smart woman, a master's degree and another 30 credits.. people come to me for help and listen to what I say-- I am smart. But then, I am not. <BR> <BR> I was a complete BONEHEAD yesterday- complete stupidity came out of an overwhelming desire to be "normal" Even when I know my old normal created a morbidly obese body, a potential health disaster. <BR> <BR> When the bariatric specialists tel... Thu, 22 Aug 2013 09:02:34 EST From Soften Mechanical Food to Full Bariatric Diet- finally! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5459856 On August 21st I will be done with all of the "baby steps" to this program- I will have conquered liquid, pureed and soft mechanical food. And what do I say, "Hip Hip Hooray!" <BR> <BR> Well, I will admit I didn't really do the soft mechanical food- I just got so tired of all the work preparing my food, all for one ounce a sitting. So I decided to just cut my meat up tiny with fork and knife. It is SO nice to use a fork and knife again!! And my stomach has done just fine with this. I ... Mon, 19 Aug 2013 11:54:35 EST One Month In... can't believe it has been 4 weeks! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5453053 Wow, and I thought the liquid diet portion of this adventure was difficult. I now have a feeling each stage will have it's own challenges. <BR> <BR> This week has been puree food, so I went CRAZY at the super market and bought $100 worth of puree friendly foods. I laugh at my self!! I even took a picture of the cart full of groceries, I was so thrilled! <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/1/l612624583.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I laugh so hard at this now... and I'm thankful for Jim ... Mon, 12 Aug 2013 15:46:51 EST Finally over a hump.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5445141 Okay so I think I suffered a smidge, emotionally from not being able to "eat"- I know I have been feeding myself- but it wasn't eating! I finally got use to it-- AND on Wednesday I get to eat some puree food. I was able to go to a restaurant with family (a favorite restaurant)- and I just drank tea while others ate salads, teriyaki sirloin, a Mediterranean plate, salmon, clams... oh the food looked glorious but I enjoyed my tea and the time visiting with my family. It was not bad to do! I... Mon, 5 Aug 2013 11:01:27 EST Liquid diet sucks! If I can do this, I can do anything!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5437134 It is day 14 post surgery and I have 10 more days on the liquid portion of this diet. At least I am more then half way through it! I will not spend too much bitching about the liquid diet part of my experience as I think anyone (even those that never had to diet) can imagine this type of diet sucks! I will say that I have finally found my groove - getting 64 oz of fluid in, 60 grams of protein in and the 7 pills I have to take. I have a new found love for no sugar added fudgesicles. This... Mon, 29 Jul 2013 09:57:09 EST I am POST Surgery now, first week in... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5429423 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1091556145.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> That is me one week before surgery. I was in Bermuda learning about the history of island instruments- starting with the steel pan (drum). It is my "before" picture and hopefully never again picture. <BR> <BR> I had my surgery on Tuesday July 16th and as of this evening I will have lived one full week as a post-op patient. I had a Sleeve Gastrectomy. My prior blog explains a little more about what... Mon, 22 Jul 2013 13:15:02 EST A Big Decision Made...... and I am scared and excited! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5347729 I have a big announcement to make, one that is just to inform, I am NOT looking for any negativity. When you read this please understand that I just spent the last 3 months going through a very comprehensive clearance procedure that included 10+ doctors appointments, many with specialists such as a cardiologist, a pulmonologist, psychiatry, dieticians, surgeons, etc. This is not a decision I made on a whim, not at all! <BR> <BR> I am going to have Laparoscopic Sleeve Gastrectomy surgery on... Mon, 6 May 2013 18:44:02 EST Week 3 March 26, 2012 Getting the mindset of a loser! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4806221 So I went to my sister's place for the weekend, and this usually is a disaster but ONLY because my sister and I like our wine and our dining out! BUT this visit was different. Not only did we eat better BUT we went on a long walk IN THE RAIN! We were determined. We talked a lot about how we have to move and make adjustments when we get together.... Like we HAVE TO exercise if we are going to have our wine, and our desserts. We just ate smaller portions, and made healthier choices like ... Mon, 26 Mar 2012 20:24:15 EST Week 2 March 19, 2012 Blog... What will I do this week? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4794376 So last week I tried to do everything I listed, my water, having healthy choices in my house, cooking 3 x from Sparkpeople recipes and eat a replacement meal bar shake once a day. <BR> <BR> I got most my water in, fell short 2days during the week and I cooked Spicy Mini Turkey Meatloaves, and a Parm Encrusted Chicken on a bed of Spring Mix and then last night I did Slower Cooker Chicken Salsa. I think I did a bar or shake 4 times out of the 7 days (that was the hardest to pull off!). <B... Mon, 19 Mar 2012 06:02:57 EST Monday March 12 2012- ALL OF MY DUCKS ARE IN A ROW! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4783089 All my ducks are in a row! I have gone to a couple of doctors, have had blood drawn, even had a procedure done that I have been putting off for years- in preparation to get into high gear for losing weight. I am VERY healthy, great blood pressure, fine cholesterol, no precancerous issues, ...... but my chart (and I did see it) says MORBID OBESITY (I have 70+ pounds to lose)... OUCH! AND then my doctor tells me, let me take some pressure off of you, "forget exercise for now"... let's... Mon, 12 Mar 2012 06:12:24 EST Starting back up hurts and is the ultimate eye opener!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4669470 SO first I did walk the mountain yesterday-- over an hour walk but only 3.25 so for many this is a snails pace BUT I had hills... and I have not walked for fitness in a VERY long time.. since April, I know that is horrendous but it is the truth. I was sore from the get go! <BR> <BR> Today I could only walk on the treadmill (not my fav) and did 35 minutes- not stellar but I did it and it is a start. My shins are KILLING me - but that will get somewhat better (can't get new sneaks yet- soon... Mon, 9 Jan 2012 18:29:39 EST January 2012- Sigh.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4666080 Here I am again, another New Year- and a few more pounds. During every year I lose weight-- sometimes significant amounts but by the time NYE- I am at my heaviest ever. After all these years my 2012 heaviest ever is overwhelming and sad! I cannot believe my body is what it is right now. But it is- and it is all my own doing. <BR> <BR> This past year, 2011, my philosophy was "working it from the inside out" and I thought I will try therapy and work on my head- my emotions and then maybe ... Sun, 8 Jan 2012 12:12:48 EST Regrouping... not restarting.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4176277 So I have become bored and tired of journaling and of exercising... it has been 16 weeks and I am down 14.2 pounds, not bad at all but it is slow and this pace does not always keep me motivated. <BR> <BR> I have been exercising religiously 3-4x a week, until recently (the last two weeks I have worked out twice) and I am not sure why that has lulled so much. I am guessing I am bored- and that is easy to switch up. The two times I did exercise I was NOT on the treadmill or lifting weights... Tue, 19 Apr 2011 09:20:01 EST Root Canal Saga Continues.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4124545 I AM BACK... I AM DETERMINED... but I was supposed to start on the treadmill today again- even though I knew I was getting the second procedure of my root canal done. I thought it was going to be simple-- just cap it up.. NO.. more drilling, grinding and even cortezone (burning) my tooth. <BR> <BR> I am not getting on that treadmill.. I already took 2 doses of my painkiller because last time.. it hurt like a son of a gun- made me cry. <BR> <BR> I thought I was going to get it all goi... Mon, 28 Mar 2011 16:34:44 EST How I Allowed A Root Canal Let Me Falter http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4121636 Around March 11th I started to feel funky... couldn't really pin point it but didn't feel 100%- I was still exercising and eating the best I could. Then around March 15th this funky feeling turned into tooth pain..not blinding but uncomfortable. The pain at this time was at the top right of my choppers. It felt like some food was terrible wedged between two of my teeth. So I flossed and flossed and brushed and brushed-- only to find NO relief. By March 19th I couldn't take it much more... Sun, 27 Mar 2011 14:17:20 EST Sometimes I need to allow myself to http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4051613 I have been working very hard since Nov. 2010 to "eat to live" allowing myself some slack during the holiday season. Since January I have really felt the benefits of eating to live, and actually have been enjoying it and not feeling slighted or deprived. <BR> <BR> Since I will allow myself time to LIVE TO EAT... I will continue to lose slowly. I had the best time this weekend with some very good friends. One of the days was a wine tasting tour-- so you can only guess that after the se... Sun, 27 Feb 2011 13:37:28 EST I went down a dress size, so I bought 2 dresses.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4035075 I need pants for work, BADLY. I have to wear jeans too many times during the week and I don't feel professional but I only have ONE pair of dress slacks at this point and time. So when I was down closer to where there are retail stores (I live in "hickville"- not close to anything!) I decided I would once again try to find some pants. <BR> <BR> I am a difficult fit. I am a petite- yet in women's size and that is not always so easy to find, even on line. So I spent an afternoon trying sev... Mon, 21 Feb 2011 11:41:16 EST Thank goodness I take my measurements! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4011695 Since I last took my measurements a month ago I have lost a full inch on my waist, 2 full inches on my upper thigh and 3/4 of an inch on my calf.... and while my curvaceous hips did not budge (that will take some work) I am totally thrilled that I have actually lost 3 3/4 inches off my body. That is awesome and it totally motivates me to keep at it!! Can't wait to get to my exercise today! <BR> <BR> I wish I measured my upper arm last month- not sure what happened with that but I look forwa... Sat, 12 Feb 2011 11:13:16 EST What is different from one month ago?? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4007617 As I was working it on my treadmill tonight I was thinking about how far I have come on the treadmill. January 12th I did the Fitness Test and started "the dreaded" exercise journey that I was putting off. On January 15th I told myself all I have to do is 15 minutes- nothing more..... <BR> <BR> And now I am up to a full 60 minutes in 4 weeks time and even walking/jogging intervals.... and (I am scared to death to say it- it is like the kiss of death) I have started to look forward to it..... Thu, 10 Feb 2011 18:18:51 EST More evidence of my desire to succeed.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3993244 Okay so I know that portion control a major issue for me... SO I ordered the SparkPeople food prep cutting board with food scale and an attached measuring tray so you can chop and scrape right into it (and it measure out the portion you should be eating). I also purchased serving size appropriate SparkPeople containers for my lunches.. and they have attached (and detachable) ice packs. Just put it out on my counter- and it has to stay there... Jim will HATE it as he likes the counters CLEAR... Sat, 5 Feb 2011 18:01:28 EST What a difference!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3983965 As I was jogging (yes- jogging) on my treadmill I was thinking that if I was snowed in this much back in December I would have behaved SO differently!! <BR> <BR> This is what what these last few days WOULD have looked like back in December: <BR> <BR> <BR> Sat around ALL day.... snoozing on and off <BR> Cooking fattening comfort foods.. <BR> Eating every hour on the hour.. <BR> Crying because I lost control and did nothing but sit around and eat <BR> <em>15</em> <BR> <BR> What it has loo... Wed, 2 Feb 2011 12:56:16 EST AmI really doing all that I could be doing???? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3973930 NO NO NO NO NO NO!!!!! <BR> <BR> Ugh... I have been at this since November (pre-holiday) and have literally been tossing back and forth the same stupid 2.6 lbs... <BR> <BR> You would think that going from completely sedentary and completely out of control with food to working out 5 times a week and eating at least 6 fruits and veggies a day , and drinking tons of water and logging in and watching calories, fat intake, protein intake and carb intake would SHOCK my body and at least lose ... Sun, 30 Jan 2011 12:02:22 EST Stage 3: Lifestyle Change (here I come....) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3973844 It is time... it is time to commit to the "lifestyle change"- scares the crap out of me and that probably is because I am afraid of failure. Failure has always been an option with diets... if you are tired of it- then you quit. Very simple very easy!! A lifestyle change to me is more of a life determining movement. And if I commit and make a lifestyle change then I am encompassing more then just the food I eat and the activity that I do or do not do. Hummm... not sure that makes it any l... Sun, 30 Jan 2011 11:32:23 EST Enough is Enough... I am finally writing my http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3973779 While I am in Stage 2 (and almost ready to jump into stage 3- that will be another blog) I still have not set my official long term goal. I really wanted to think about it because I didn't want it to be just about the scale number and inches loss because then that is me working on the outside package only, again! <BR> <BR> I write this with full consideration that I can change it at any time... as life changes, goals can too and I have to be flexible- for the present time this is what I wan... Sun, 30 Jan 2011 11:07:33 EST Part II: Chapter 6 and Chapter 7 (review for me- but that is always good!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3952322 I am feeling a little behind in my reading at this point because I have already moved from Stage 1 into Stage 2... I wasn't reading The Spark when I started but got a plethora of information from the website to be able to do this stage move. <BR> <BR> What I like about this lifestyle and Chris's philosophies is that I can do this at my OWN pace and even step back a stage if I feel the need to- after all stepping back a stage is NOT QUITTING... it is like there are finally other options besi... Sun, 23 Jan 2011 10:24:20 EST PART II: Taking time and thought in developing my long term goal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3947946 As I "reaffirm"my focus reading this part of the book, I learn that I was suppose to set a long term goal in Part 1. I was so excited and thrilled with the importance (and ease) of baby steps I totally forgot that I really should have a long term goal. Of course Chris makes this less overwhelming too- and provides questions to answers to help you to be very thoughtful while setting your goal. <BR> <BR> So I will answer his questions: <BR> <BR> What's important to me? <BR> > to live a long ... Fri, 21 Jan 2011 15:36:40 EST Chapter 5 CORNERSTONE: Positive Force http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3937438 This is an interesting chapter, and I like the idea behind it very much. It is alot like the "pay it forward" philosophy. And while I believe Chris's bigger picture is to give to communities by volunteering so you can work on your inner appearance as well as your outer appearance. I also believe the premise is to be kind, a simple random act of kindness can change someone's day positively. And if you choose to stay positive, others will too because it is contagious. Positive forces will ... Tue, 18 Jan 2011 13:49:44 EST My muscles are screaming.... "we are alive!" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3934427 I woke up sore today.. the good kind of sore. My abs and calves have woken up!! I have felt renewed energy- I wish I could box up this feeling so I can pull it out when I get all cry baby like about exercising! This baby step thing is working, the spark point earning, recipes, and support here is working, as I am starting to leave my "fake it 'til you make it" stage in to my "I am ready to take on today" stage. I even finally (after 70days) got brave and moved from level 1 to level 2 of t... Mon, 17 Jan 2011 17:41:24 EST Some Interesting Discoveries Today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3928065 So my goal today was to take measurements of my body and to take the four step fitness test. And after running everyone around town today, I finally got to my goal. <BR> <BR> I learned that while my measurements are HUGE.. and I have alot of work ahead of , that I measured in the Low Health Risk range. I am pear shape, and this is the one thing I have done right... and it is genetic... you know what is going right for me??? It is my pear shape because I carry my fat in a way that LOWERS h... Sat, 15 Jan 2011 16:57:08 EST Chapter 4 Cornerstone: FIRE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3918267 Fire? <BR> <BR> Ahhh..... passion fire, get it! <BR> <BR> I love the building a fire analogy in the beginning of the chapter because it is a visual that I can totally connect with how to grow and maintain my life. Once you build it you must sustain it- even through the worst weather when a fire is difficult to keep lit. And keeping the fire going is absolutely a CHOICE! <BR> <BR> Every day I must wake up and CHOOSE to do and think in ways that keep me positive and optimistic. A cons... Wed, 12 Jan 2011 15:08:24 EST Chapter 3 Cornerstone: Fitness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3917884 Ahhhh..... the chapter I have been avoiding- the chapter that put a complete HALT to reading the SPARK. Fitness=Exercise and I am having a friggin' hard time with the thought of exercise, never mind reading about it and confronting it. But today is WEDNESDAY- my talk the talk and walk the walk day. And I have been on PAUSE long enough and it is time to face the music. And for heaven's sakes it is 20 pages- just 20 pages what could Chris write about exercise that could be all that dauntin... Wed, 12 Jan 2011 13:14:47 EST Waiting on Wednesday!!! Getting ready!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3912817 I am so looking forward to tomorrow-- to eat clean, and to move and to be on the track to physical happiness!! <BR> <BR> I feel gross, gross, gross-- I am experiencing post holiday sugar withdraws and it is hard to stay away from it! People are now bringing in left over sweets that they don't want in their home anymore... yes so instead of a cream puff and half a cannoli in their belly- IT WENT INTO MINE!! WTH! <BR> <BR> But tomorrow that will all change... it will all turn to POISON!... Tue, 11 Jan 2011 06:12:20 EST Wrapping my head around Wednesday!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3908917 Wednesday, Wednesday, Wednesday!!! My kick off day- and I am spending today and tomorrow pumping myself up!! I just can't do this anymore, it is driving me nuts- I had yet again ANOTHER Holiday Celebrating Weekend... ate too much, and too many empty wine calories, and it all has to come under control!! <BR> <BR> Wednesday is my new day... I will start eating healthy, hopefully get on that stupid treadmill for however pathetically short or long of a walk-- I WILL GET ON IT! And I will rec... Mon, 10 Jan 2011 06:07:20 EST Blah, blah, blog.... turning my blah into my blog! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3899981 This is my first blog for 2011 and it ain't pretty!! The holidays did me in, big time. I am fearful of the scale and have not stepped on since before 2011. While the food has been out of control, I will say I still visited SparkPeople almost daily, and at least weekly. At one point I put all of the recipes I have collected in my wooden recipe box and logged them in here (some not so heart healthy)- I did this to keep myself thinking and being as mindful as I could be during the holidays.... Fri, 7 Jan 2011 10:58:55 EST Chapter 2, Cornerstone: FOCUS of the Spark written by C. Downie http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3823130 Ahhh... focusing is the key.... I am not adhd, but in this area of my life I most certainly would qualify as selective adhd, if such a diagnosis existed!!! <BR> <BR> I love the beginning of this chapter, and I may read it to my students when we are on our unit about goal setting. It allows one to visualize and truly understand the importance of goal setting. Yeh, I teach about goals, I know about goals and yes mine get all foggy as I live through my busy life. But my problem is exactl... Sat, 4 Dec 2010 08:31:00 EST Chapter 1 My Story of THE SPARK written by Chris Downie http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3823121 As Chris shares his story and colors for us what lead him to where he is now in his life, he allows us to connect with him and apply what he did to our own lives. <BR> <BR> It is so important to know our strengths and weakness, or better said, the things we would like to improve. His story shows us to take our weaknesses and push ourselves to make them our strengths- but in order to do that we really have to look closely at ourselves. He was a young man terrified to speak, and now he is sp... Sat, 4 Dec 2010 08:19:16 EST I am going to be kind to myself... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3814219 Tis the Season... and I should start off by being kind and forgiving to myself. <BR> <BR> To do this I have decided to stay on Stage 1 until after the holidays, so I don't give it all up. I will track my food (all of it) and drink (all of it) and set goals weekly and keep thinking positively about starting to move. As long as I am AWARE of everything I know I will do OK through this time of heavenly food and beverage! <BR> <BR> I ordered a pedometer so I can start by counting steps- an... Tue, 30 Nov 2010 10:59:17 EST School's Biggest Loser is not working for me... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3799684 Okay- so I join the BL Challenge at my school,and this does motivate me as I have journaled every day and I have stayed with in my calories and balanced my carbs, proteins and fats for 12/14 days... and added a slew of water consumption to my days.... so yes it motivated me. BUT I stayed the same the first week and then the second week I GAIN 1.5 pounds... what the hell??!! The BL Challenge at my school is a "team" thing... and I am making my team a loser team in the sense that they look l... Mon, 22 Nov 2010 13:17:21 EST Saturday's are difficult to be "conscientious" about food choices! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3795705 I love saturdays, because it is really my day. With my daughter in college, and my son at the theater all day and my husband at work.. a perfect day for me to have me time. You would think exercise would be included on such a fine day. Not so much. <BR> <BR> This saturday I am meeting a friend for lunch, and then to night, while my son is at a sweet sixteen party my husband and I are going out to dinner. My kind of saturday! Eat, drink, Eat! <BR> <BR> Now that I am doing this Bigge... Sat, 20 Nov 2010 11:14:16 EST Excuses, Excuses...not even that- just flat out ignoring it!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3790776 Okay... so I planned to start my walking yesterday. My Peapod order was to arrive between 5 and 7pm-- so I dare not walk during that time as I would not hear the truck pull in. So of course the truck comes at 7pm. Well after relaxing for two hours, and putting away $200 worth of courses I just totally COP OUT! <BR> <BR> I think, no biggie, I have a walking date tomorrow after school, I will start then. So around 2pm I email my walking buddy to ask her when she would like to meet me fo... Wed, 17 Nov 2010 18:16:00 EST How lucky am I? I have my own fan club! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3788386 My girlfriends have made my day! They have signed up on Sparkpeople in the spirit to cheer me on- I am very blessed! Everyone should have a fan club! <BR> <BR> Thank you ladies, this is VERY inspiring. And I know, no matter what- if I succeed, if I fail you will be right there behind me for every moment. I am very lucky! <BR> <BR> I love you, you will never know how you have touched my heart! <em>26</em> Tue, 16 Nov 2010 17:31:28 EST Not in LOVE with the Iron Maiden.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3786317 Ahh, today I had to meet with the Iron Maiden (that is what I call the nurses scale) and I stayed the SAME! What is up with that? I tracked, drank water and walked- even though I wasn't perfect at all of those (tracked but went over calories on Saturday, drank more water then before, but not 8 glasses/day yet, and I walked 2 miles once during the week) what I did was WAY better then the mindless eating I have been doing... and I cut back on my wine tremendously (I use to have it with dinn... Mon, 15 Nov 2010 20:31:25 EST Why is my kind of fun so expensive calorie-wise? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3782777 Okay-- <BR> <BR> So Saturday night tends to be date night with my husband. We are lovers of nice restaurants.. and this is a big part of us, and who we are. This does not have to change, we have done it healthily before and we can again. <BR> <BR> Last night I tried... I really did- until the cosmos... <BR> I ordred the 60z filet mignon-- next time I will say, "please, no gorganzola sauce" <BR> I had steamed veggies and an ice cream scoop of mashed potatoes- both of which I needed to ac... Sun, 14 Nov 2010 10:17:19 EST You can't win if you don't play... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3780798 Here I am 43 years old, and fat once again! I lost 60 pounds in 2002 (well it took two years) doing WW, I hit goal and maintenance. I kept it off for two years and I never ever felt so great in my adult life. I swore I would never ever ever be fat again... and here I am and let's be truthful I have been fat again for years. <BR> <BR> When I was 30 I worked evenings and was a stay at home Mom during the day. My husband and I were like two ships passing in the night as we did the switch ... Sat, 13 Nov 2010 07:21:45 EST