AMETHYSTSTAR's SparkPeople Blog AMETHYSTSTAR's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community An even longer week and another short weekend(and my health is suffering) Another long, busy week and short weekend. We are on mandatory overtime and I have worked 25 hours of overtime this pay period as of today. I'm so tired that last night I had a slight crying jag. I felt better afterwards and fell asleep very early. I have rediscovered that Benadryl makes a great sleep aid. It has helped immensely. I made it through 4 1/2 hours this morning and felt pretty good when I got home. I did my laundry and changed my room back to the way it was! It feel SO much better... Sat, 23 Jul 2016 20:10:36 EST A long week and a VERY short weekend! Frantic week at work and I have had trouble sleeping for over a week. Falling asleep is no problem...staying asleep, on the other hand, is another matter completely. I awaken 2-4 times a night....I am exhausted, although I did get some good sleep last night. <BR> <BR> We are in the midst of switching to a new medical computer program for our insurance, prior auth, and most importantly my referral department. Theoretically, we are going "paperless." On the up side, no more paper cuts!! WooHoo... Sun, 17 Jul 2016 21:11:40 EST Busy, lovely day! I had the sudden impulse to rearrange my room today! Not only am I getting my cardio in, but I'm getting my strength training too! *LOL* I have started weeding through things starting my fall cleaning early... okay really early!It feels good taking a proactive stance and moving forward with my plans for the year. I'm still in a peaceful grateful, very happy frame of mind! What a great way to spend a day! Sun, 10 Jul 2016 16:53:58 EST Serene Sunday! I am having an exquisite day. I woke up and decided to perform some much needed self-care/love for myself.I deep conditioned my hair, gave myself a facial, had a lovely hot shower and lovingly took care of my precious body with deep gratitude! <BR> <BR> I had my breakfast and some reading time on my patio, enjoying the almost achingly beautiful morning. It was a delightfully warm 82 degrees at 7:00 am and there was a deliciously cool-ish breeze that danced over my bare arms and shoulders, an... Sun, 10 Jul 2016 12:08:10 EST Love, Love, Love 3 day weekends! I'm feeling better and better every moment! Yesterday I finished all my "have to do" shopping and laundry. Now I can really sink into enjoying the next two days! <BR> <BR> I do strike that... want to work on my room (an ever evolving journey), read, spend some more time with Lil Bit (I really missed her while she and her mum were on a much needed, well deserved vacation!), Catch up on some recorded movies off of TCM, study the new Crystal book I treated myself to... Sun, 3 Jul 2016 11:22:40 EST Joy in the morning Yesterday was about letting go. Not just saying goodbye and feeling the grief about my friend, but saying goodbye to a part of me that has been dragging me down for far too long. <BR> <BR> My friend was a truly positive, upbeat person. I didn't realize how much this was true until his funeral Thursday night. Every one who spoke of him said the same thing. Even during his devastating illness, he was always bright, cheerful and full of hope. He was one of those unique individuals who didn't kn... Sat, 2 Jul 2016 10:45:49 EST Really bad day Today's been a really rough day. I attended a funeral for a friend of mine last night , who was taken much too soon! <BR> <BR> <BR> I went for myself but more importantly, went to support my roommate who had been friends with him much longer than I had known him. I handled it well last night, holding her hand and stroking Lil bit's back as she took in her first funeral. <BR> <BR> <BR> I was up late for me; I only got a couple hours of sleep. When I woke up I was crying and I have been c... Fri, 1 Jul 2016 15:13:32 EST Thursday Quikie Had the surprise of my (work) life yesterday when my boss sent me an IM saying that I was doing GREAT! (Her caps not mine) To say I was floored was an understatement! (It actually made me cry...which is really kinda sad) It is amazing how much a very little appreciation goes to lift someone up. <BR> <BR> I just ordered Dance Socks...socks to wear over sneakers so one can dance on carpet! I can't wait to try them out. I will be more likely to do strut my stuff in my room if I can move and g... Thu, 23 Jun 2016 07:41:26 EST Marvy Monday! I woke up with a smile on my face despite the fact that I had a little dog taking up most of my bed. *LOL* Dora has decided to keep me company while our girl is away on a much needed mommy/daughter vacation. I am generally not a little dog person, I was raised with big "dawgs!" However, Dora stole my heart the first time we met, rotten dog. *Grins* <BR> <BR> I practiced my meditation this morning, still struggling with continuous rambling thoughts. I try to focus on my breath, chant or thin... Mon, 20 Jun 2016 07:12:03 EST Getting Better My knee is feeling much better, though the back of the knee is still a little swollen. We'll see how it goes the next couple of days. Really not too much going on since last time. My roomie and Lil bit left yesterday for a two week vacation to Washington State. I miss my Lil bestie so much. It was odd last night not having her driving me crazy on our weekly date night. *Smiles* The house seems so empty... <BR> <BR> I am eating much better for the most part. Today I made one of the recipes I... Sun, 19 Jun 2016 20:49:11 EST Well, Darn! I took a misstep on the stairs at work and fracked up my left knee. It's swollen and it hurts to put too much pressure on it. I will give it a couple of days and if not better I'll pop into Urgent Care. But for now, Ibuprofen and staying off it as much as I can when not at work. So my diving expeditions will have to wait for a wee bit, but soon enough I will resume! <BR> <BR> In the mean time, we here are getting ready for a heat wave starting in Sunday. I read we are expecting highs 113-115... Wed, 15 Jun 2016 23:04:00 EST New experience...and I LIKED it! (and 3 more pearls) I decided to try a Qi Gong for beginners video I have saved on my Amazon prime list. I am and always be an Amazon Woman... in more ways than one! (I love my Fire TV stick!) Anywho, Between the seven demos and putting all seven sections together I got a good 30 minute workout. <BR> <BR> I watched the "routine" once through and marveled at the grace and flow of the movements. Having always lacked a wee bit in the grace department, I hope it will eventually flow gracefully through me as well. ... Mon, 13 Jun 2016 22:11:51 EST Monday Morning Quickie Went diving yesterday! This is how it sort of went: <BR> <BR> 10 minutes of "Cize for the first time...This is going to take time! I am going to love this, however I am going to HAVE to take it in baby steps. He moves very quickly through the demos, the tempo is very fast after he gives the demo and I am going to have to really modify some moves until I lose a bit of the weight. What I couldn't do, I just danced my own dance...*LOL* <BR> <BR> 10 minutes strength training with hand weights.... Mon, 13 Jun 2016 07:36:33 EST I think I will go diving today <img src=""> <BR> I found the coolest quote just now (and posted it on my status) bears repeating: <BR> <BR> Pearls don't lie on the seashore. If you want one, you must dive for it.- Chinese Proverb <BR> <BR> How many times do I sit at my computer and spend hours reading articles here on SP, doing everything I can to earn points (WooHoo!),getting so jazzed at all the encouraging, motivating things and ideas I... Sun, 12 Jun 2016 13:38:54 EST Progress...Progress and More Progress Long time no blog! This may be a bit on the long side. *smiles* I have been working really hard on my inner and outer self and have made great progress. I am really excited to see the changes in my life as a result of all the hard work I have put into myself! <BR> <BR> I now meditate every day, I work very hard at keeping my thoughts and attitude positive, I talk with the Goddess/God/Universe and my Spirit Guides every day. I am learning to recognize their answers in signs, symbols, sync... Sat, 11 Jun 2016 03:07:26 EST Making progress Weigh in today...maintained which is okay...the good news is my blood pressure is back to normal. I am a happier camper today. Work is going a wee bit more smoothly and I am working on what I need to work on emotionally. It may not all happen this Full moon, but I know I can release a lot of it. <BR> <BR> 3 days of Walk Away the Pounds...working on a streak...go me! <BR> <BR> So I am cautiously optimistic. Going to work more on my meditation practice, clear more clutter, (both physical and... Tue, 22 Mar 2016 21:46:27 EST Springing into change...for the most part I spent the first beautiful morning of Spring on the patio, listening to calm music and the birds chatting away, eating a healthy breakfast, enjoying the touch of the soft cool breeze wash over me and the beauty of all the green surrounding me, (Oh, and let us not forget, doggie cuddles with Dora!) <BR> <BR> Early Spring is my second favorite time of year. (Autumn being my very favorite!) Now that I am well into my own personal New Year and with the Full Moon Eclipse just around the corner, ... Sun, 20 Mar 2016 18:38:08 EST Working on making things better at work I went to weigh in and get my injections yesterday afternoon. Part of the routine is to check my blood pressure. Last week perfectly normal 120/80...yesterday? 140/90....yeeeah...I blame it on the stress this week! <BR> <BR> A little (okay...not so little) background...I work for a radiology center that has seven locations. (when I started in 1989 we had 2 offices) I work in the referrals department. We process hundreds of referrals a day and we shared most of the work (sorting and... Wed, 16 Mar 2016 22:37:53 EST Trying so hard Changes were made at work yesterday and I am already more than stressed about it. I HAVE to get a handle on my feelings. I woke up dreading going to work. I can't even seem to quiet my mind enough to try to meditate myself calm. <BR> <BR> Life is good, I have a job, I have friends and family I love and who love me. I can do this! I am strong and capable. I am bigger than this! <BR> <BR> Today is weigh in after work. Hopefully I will have something to celebrate tonight. Just remember...It's... Tue, 15 Mar 2016 07:38:22 EST Wooohooo! Despite the now ever present vertigo which has kept me from exercising, I lost two and half pounds(although SP says only two.) I'm not going to split hairs. The shot and my watching what I have been eating is paying off. <BR> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> I got the second shot today and because of them being administered in one injection instead of three separate ones, this time hurt like a mother! Needles have never been an issue for me and now really don't bother me much even after what I... Tue, 8 Mar 2016 21:52:57 EST Better ending to the day than beginning Well, it figures I would feel better 3 hours before bedtime. *LOL* I got a little bit done today so feeling accomplished. What I didn't get done will wait until another time. <BR> <BR> Everything is ready for heading back to work tomorrow. It's going to be a great day! Meals are planned for tomorrow, so no need to think about it...just do it. In the event I don't have vertigo tomorrow when I wake up, I will Walk Away the Pounds. (DVD is in machine ready to hit play) I know what I am wearing... Sun, 6 Mar 2016 22:12:44 EST Little, gentle, baby steps today I woke up with another head spinning bout of vertigo and it is not abating as much as my first bout did. Roomie thinks it may be allergies...we have a mulberry tree in our backyard and I have had my windows open every day for the past two weeks. On top of that, the wind has REALLY kicked up over the last couple of days which may also be a contributing factor. I slept with my window closed last night and I took my allergy pill as I do every night...*shrugs* <BR> <BR> I had a busy day pla... Sun, 6 Mar 2016 14:17:34 EST First Steps Taken...Calm Center, Bright Outlook! Yesterday was wonderful! Calico Basin was lovely, even though it is still a wee bit early for wild flowers. There were lots of signs that Spring is on the way though. I hope once I download the pictures, they will show it! I walked the the entire "trail", but stopped too often for it to be counted as "exercise," however it does count as activity... so go me! I plan to go back next month to see Spring progress. <BR> <BR> I took a side trip to Bonnie Springs as well, just a few miles down the... Fri, 4 Mar 2016 21:09:13 EST Thursday already! My goodness this week is simply flying by! Last week the days seemed long and I still had another relaxing week ahead of me. Now here it is Thursday and I have to start slowly getting myself ready to go back to work. If nothing else, I am far more relaxed and in such a better place than when I left. <BR> <BR> Today is explore someplace I have never been before day! I'm going to venture to Calico Basin Red Springs at Red Rock Canyon. I'm hoping we have had nice enough weather that the wild ... Thu, 3 Mar 2016 13:09:49 EST Wonderful Wednesday! This morning I slept in until 7:00 (which is really rare for me, 5 is as late as I will "sleep in" as a rule) When I went out to fix my breakfast, Roomie's mom said she was going to be working at Lil Bit's school today, for at least a couple of hours, possibly all school day! Whoop! Yeah baby! I am very rarely in this house alone (except for Dora the dog) for more than an hour ...maaaaaybe two a week! This changed my whole game plan for today! I had planned on going out to Calico Springs, bu... Wed, 2 Mar 2016 12:04:55 EST YES! Oh YES! Well now, yesterday was a ball! I had my mani-pedi and remembered how nice it feels to pamper myself. It seems silly to be so tickled at having bright fuchsia finger and toe nails, But it makes me feel good. <BR> <BR> I spent the whole morning at the park! It was so lovely, cool and breezy! I drank in every bit of it! I started reading a wonderful new book that has me so jazzed I can hardly see straight AND I went to the weight loss clinic. I found a groupon for the clinic and signed up for... Tue, 1 Mar 2016 20:05:50 EST Moving forward I had a fabulous first week of vacation. I have been thinking really hard about how I want this year to go, I believe I'm laying the foundation for what promises to be an exciting and fulfilling year. Planning, meditating, searching deep within to do what I know I can and need to do! <BR> <BR> I also had fun! Spent time with an old friend I have reconnected with after a long separation.(Life ya know, has a way of causing that!) After our separate adventures and heartbreak, we are back tog... Mon, 29 Feb 2016 13:26:39 EST I'm back and feeling good! 2015 was a rough year. Major depression settled in and I once again became a recluse. It seems as if I fought it all year. So many ugly thoughts that scared me. That is not to say there weren't good moments...these I embraced and filed away in my heart to pull out when things seemed darkest. <BR> <BR> My eating got out of control and I have gained back so much weight. I see it in my belly and my face. My clothes still fit but are not loose like they were. The despair I felt drove me deeper i... Sun, 21 Feb 2016 16:55:30 EST A Lovely Sunday...I'm ready for a great week! I had a small episode on Friday, came home a couple of hours early and slept for several hours. I took easy yesterday, was careful about what I ate and as a result I felt fantastic today. <BR> <BR> So, grocery shopping done... laundry done...exercised and tracked my food. Read great stories, informational and uplifting... I have my week's menu and my wardrobe planned for the week. My sanctuary is clean and cleansed and I feel so at peace! <BR> <BR> Well, I have gotten addicted to "Under t... Sun, 13 Sep 2015 20:29:01 EST A Wonderful Holiday Weekend comes to a close It's so sad to see such a wonderful time come to an end, but I have many happy memories and some lovely new friends! <BR> <BR> We had gorgeous weather! I spent some happy hours with friends at the hotel pool and hot tub. I felt and (to me anyway) looked great. Buying couple of smaller sized tops didn't hurt and I really love my hair. Small things make a huge difference in self confidence. <BR> <BR> I did my best to eat within reason, but did over indulge a couple of times. I have proba... Mon, 7 Sep 2015 21:59:59 EST Ginormous sigh (and a couple of tears) of relief I know this is going to sound kind of drama queenish...but with all the problems I have been having over the last few month, the fear of something more than a gallbladder problem has weighed heavily upon me. <BR> <BR> Aside from a small hiatal hernia, and a very small 0.2 cm nonobstructing calyceal calculus in my right kidney, I am good! NO RECURRING CANCER! I was so afraid....But this stuff... I can handle! <BR> <BR> Now I can get on with my life... Fri, 4 Sep 2015 01:51:38 EST Let the weekend commence! Getting ready to head to the airport to pick up a friend I haven't seen in 5 years! Group of online friends getting together at the SunCoast hotel for a five day party...WooHoo! I will check in when I can...I hope everyone has a wonderful Holiday weekend! <BR> <BR> <em>244</em> <em>185</em> <em>353</em> <em>67</em> <em>298</em> <em>464</em> <em>232</em> <em>530</em> Thu, 3 Sep 2015 13:22:35 EST *sigh of relief* Last exam I wait for about 24 hours for the results...All day long I have been writing and chanting quietly: "I am healthy and my CT is normal." This is my mantra until I get the results. <BR> <BR> Good thoughts very much appreciated... <BR> <BR> Now I can relax and maybe get some decent sleep tonight... Tue, 1 Sep 2015 20:54:16 EST An excited quickie I just bought two tops at Walmart size 26/28...Go me! *LOL* <BR> <BR> <em>244</em> <em>185</em> Sun, 30 Aug 2015 15:56:38 EST Almost September! I am so ready for Autumn! Our mornings are little cooler, though the days are still hot! We have had a lot of cloud cover and wind, so that tempers the heat a wee bit. It has been a summer to remember, although not all of it has been good. <BR> <BR> On the up side, I got my car! Yippee! I have also spent some wonderful hours at the park with my niece playing in the water park! It's so funny that no adults will get in and play with their kids until they see me making a total fool out of mys... Sun, 30 Aug 2015 11:40:00 EST I can do this! (Waiting is the hardest part) 3 tests down, 1 to go....and this one I am really dreading. (it's kinda psychological....I found out inadvertently from a CT scan that I had cancer...) <BR> <BR> So tally for tests: ultrasound-gallbladder polyp, Hida scan -dysfunctional gallbladder, Mammogram NORMAL! (I always worry now) now it is up to the CT scan to hopefully shed light on whatever is going on. Just got the corrected referral co-worker is getting it authorized and I will have it done ASAP. <BR> <BR> In t... Thu, 20 Aug 2015 20:10:38 EST I survived! (Time for bed now!) Thank you all so much for your support! I can't tell you how much I appreciate it! *HUGS* <BR> <BR> The hida scan was not as bad as I was led to believe it would be. According to my nuc med technologist. most facilities inject the cck (the radioactive agent used to stimulate the gallbladder) all at once,which can cause the pain and nausea I was told about. Our technologists infuse the agent over 5 minutes; if there is going to be a reaction, it is mild and minimal. I had no pain, just a to... Thu, 13 Aug 2015 21:52:53 EST Going to be a long day Today is the dreaded hida scan. I couldn't sleep last night...mostly dozed in and out. Not to mention, apparently something is blooming, because my allergies flared up big time about 2:00 am. <BR> <BR> I'm trying not worry, but lack of sleep tends to make my imagination run wild. I know I'll be fine, but I am ready for my life to get back to relative normal. Next up after this test is a CT. I am REALLY hoping I don't have to have my gall bladder out. <BR> <BR> In any case, onward and upwa... Thu, 13 Aug 2015 07:35:29 EST Happy Day I finally broke 30 pounds! It's taken me a long time, but I did it...7 pounds more and I break below 300...I CAN DO IT! <BR> <BR> <em>185</em> Wed, 12 Aug 2015 07:50:22 EST More evidence that soda(Non diet and diet) is horrible Soda is something I am doing my best to eliminate from my life completely. I don't drink it often, usually reserved for when I am really dragging or at the movies. I know it is bad in a lot of ways, but an article I read really drove it home (especially in light of the problems I have been suffering with lately!). So today I begin what I hope is a life long streak! No more soda of any kind for me! <BR> <BR> The name of the article is "7 Amazing Things that Happen to Your Body When You Give ... Tue, 11 Aug 2015 07:36:07 EST Wonderful Weekend...and exercise too Best Star Trek Con yet! 2 whole days of my favorite Trek actors, dear friends, and laughter...lots and lots of deep, long, often hysterical laughter. <BR> <BR> Patrick Stewart! I finally got to see Patrick Stewart! Wheeeeeeeee! Oh and the whole Voyager cast for their 20th anniversary...I saw William Shatner for the first time, and George, Terry Farrel, oh and so many more! <BR> <BR> Caught up with old, dear friends and made a new one. I am exhausted and so relaxed...Now planning ... Mon, 10 Aug 2015 08:11:19 EST Totally unrelated to much of anything... I am so excited! I just received my Ancestry DNA results. It's most cool and just wow! Just thought I'd share... <BR> <BR> Europe 100% <BR> <BR> Europe West 39% <BR> Ireland 23% <BR> Scandinavia 16% <BR> Italy/Greece 11% <BR> Great Britain 9% <BR> Trace Regions 2% <BR> Sat, 8 Aug 2015 11:27:54 EST Pushing through...making progress The last couple of weeks have been somewhat better. Still not feeling 100%, stomach pains daily, but not like the three episodes that had me doubled over for hours on end. I am more and more determined to get back to normal as much as I humanly can. Ultrasound done, Hida scan next Thursday and a CT in the near future. (My new doctor is a wee bit overly cautious, but I can live with that!) <BR> <BR> On the upside...all my labs came back "Pristine," to quote my very happy doctor! Everything is... Fri, 7 Aug 2015 21:55:33 EST I've had a great morning...time for a nap! I was up at 4:30 this morning(early for a weekend when sleeping in is about 6:00...I'd feel late if it was a work day..I'm odd) I had blood drawn at 5:30 for my followup appointment on Thursday, then grabbed a bite to eat and went to the park to enjoy the lovely morning. <BR> <BR> The sun was just rising and the mountains were gorgeous. The park I went to has a water play area which some one had turned on. I tickled me to no end watching the birds play in the water an cackle to each other... Sat, 25 Jul 2015 13:31:21 EST One down I had my ultrasound today. It will be 2 or 3 days before I find out the results. I am really tired of not feeling good. I am missing who I was more and more! I'm not quite sure what I need to do in order to get me back. I'm really emotional again, really not liking how my thoughts are going no matter how hard I try to change them, and I am finding myself very impatient with a lot of my friends and people that I work with. I'm hoping that this is just a side effect of not feeling well cuz ... Tue, 21 Jul 2015 15:49:14 EST Now it's time for tests... My new doctor is delightful... She feels it very well could be my gall bladder. So now for blood work, an ultrasound and a Hida scan. I guess I will watch what I eat, just in case. I have no idea what will set it off. I really don't want a repeat, although I'm not naïve enough to think it won't happen again. <BR> <BR> So first things first and we will see what happens. <BR> <BR> Thu, 16 Jul 2015 20:54:00 EST I am so very done with this! I had another episode Sunday night...I was up all night with horrible stomach pain and so very sick to my stomach. About 3:30, I got dressed, pulled my futon back together and was seriously going to wake my roommate up and have her take me to ER. <BR> <BR> I sat down for a few minutes, exhausted and sore....when things started to ease up just a little and I actually dozed off for a few minutes. I kind lightly dozed off and on until I forced my self up and went to work. I fell asleep befor... Tue, 14 Jul 2015 22:22:48 EST Getting there... I'm finally feeling more like myself. My stomach is still a little off, but I'm eating all right and my energy is slowly returning. I had to work on my room yesterday, after two weeks of being sick. It wasn't awful, but it wasn't how I prefer it. Now its all clean and tidy...things where they belong and I feel more comfortable and comfy now in my welcoming space. I'm not a neat freak by any stretch of the imagination and I am most certainly NOT a perfectionist, However, since my bedroom is al... Sun, 12 Jul 2015 13:07:37 EST Rain Glorious Rain! Oh what a beautiful evening! We have been having the most wondrous rain storm for the past hour. We have all the windows and doors open and the temp has dropped several degrees. There is a mighty wind blowing and a lovely roll of thunder in the distance. <BR> <BR> I, of course, had to go out and play in the rain! It was the best part of a pretty decent day over all... <BR> <BR> The wind has lightened as has the rain, but it is still pattering outside. It smells SO good, and it is lovely h... Mon, 6 Jul 2015 22:29:45 EST Strange, but unexpectedly good day Headed out for the meeting which the automated yahoo group email said started at noon. I get there (a small, dingy old casino and it's only cafe) and no one is there. I sent a text to my good friend who runs the group, hoping the number I had for him was still good. It was, and as it turns out, yahoo groups had the time set to Greenwich mean time...which means the meeting is at 7:00 tonight. So that was a bust... <BR> <BR> Then, I made a wrong turn on Lake Mead Blvd and actually ended up ... Sun, 5 Jul 2015 21:27:54 EST