AMETHYSTSTAR's SparkPeople Blog AMETHYSTSTAR's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community A successful week Somewhere early in the week, something apparently clicked. I stayed within my calorie range all week. I turned down all the offers for snacks, bites, and nibbles from my friend who works next to me. I'm rather surprised to find I was determined to stay in control (Not one of my strong points...obviously, or I wouldn't be here...) I did decide to rethink and reduced my calorie range a little bit, until I start exercising, and much to my delight, I was still determined to stay within the ran... Sat, 2 May 2015 23:08:38 EST What a weekend! I had a fantabulous, splendiferous time at the Highland Games! My friend and I wore ourselves out. The opening ceremony had me in tears. There were several pipe and drum bands participating, I would guestimate 150-200 pipers. I was in tears from the first note to the last. It was truly amazing. I know bagpipes are not everyone's cuppa, but my heart sings when I hear them played. <img src=""> <img src=" Mon, 20 Apr 2015 08:39:39 EST Much better! It is amazing what a difference a great night's sleep can do! I even slept in until 6! Now I am getting ready for the highland games and a day spent in sunshine and fresh air. I'm beyond excited. <BR> <BR> I hope everyone has a spectacular day! BE kind to yourself and do at least one thing that makes you happy! YOU deserve it!!! <BR> <BR> <em>247</em> <em>67</em> <em>335</em> <em>464</em> Sat, 18 Apr 2015 11:26:37 EST Very, Very tough couple of days... Well, I’m sitting in my room in my comfy pjs trying to relax after a rough couple of days. <BR> <BR> One of my friends at work is subject to seizures and unfortunately she had one yesterday afternoon. I sit directly across from her and turned at the keening she was making. I was able to get her safely to the floor and stay with her until the ambulance came. This is the first time I have been with someone having a seizure. <BR> <BR> I was eerily calm and in control during this longest te... Thu, 16 Apr 2015 21:29:05 EST I will NOT be defeated... Okay...I'm doing SO much better! I had a great week and I've had a lovely weekend! I am making progress and feeling more and more like the me I knew and loved...only different...good different. I have been working on releasing a lot f the past and for the most I have been doing well. I have one stubborn area, and I don't know how I am going to ever come to a place of peace about it. However, I will continue to do what I need to do to put it to rest. Maybe I'll address it in another posting, b... Sun, 12 Apr 2015 21:24:37 EST A Well, last week started with bang and ended with a whimper (and some tears). I tripped on the way from the car to the office…2 bruised (to the bone) knees, scrapped up elbow and bruised palm. Honest to goodness, no wonder my knees are so fracked up…I’ve been a klutz since I was a kid. I have to admit, I was a little panicked, as the last time I fell similar to this fall, I found out I had cancer. It didn’t last long, reason (such as it is) asserted itself. So, I think I will be doing... Mon, 30 Mar 2015 22:35:14 EST Day 2-learning (Finally) Moderation I had a great first day back from vacation! Work went much more smoothly than I had hoped it would. I still have some catching up to do, but I'm in good shape. I managed to get in 2 fifteen minute walks on my breaks and will do some upper body resistance band training tonight. <BR> <BR> I did well on my food. I allowed myself 1 Red Vine and 1 oz of mixed nuts. Not bad considering I can eat an entire (small, 3 serving) bag of nuts without even realizing it. I measured out my portion then lock... Mon, 23 Mar 2015 20:34:35 EST New Week...New start...Day 1 I actually lost weight! 2 pounds from the last time I weighed myself! I guessed all the movement fro lifting, moving and cleaning would help...little did I know! (or did I...) I'm still not where my last official recorded weight was... I need 7 pounds to get there. <BR> <BR> I am within 24 pounds of my first major goal... breaking 300 pounds. I have set my goal date for May 31st to be at 299. My Fitness goals are set. My nutrition goals, I am working on. Honestly though? I need to get my tus... Sun, 22 Mar 2015 14:27:46 EST Productive Spring Cleaning Saturday I can't believe my vacation is almost over already! I spent this morning getting my little corner of the garage all organized and tidy, then spent the better part of the rest of the day trying to reorganize my room after shifting stuff out of my closet into the garage. I'm very glad I have tomorrow to finish up...start my week back at work stress free. Over all a good vacation. Finishing up the last of my laundry, dinner is done and now I can relax... <BR> <BR> I started Spark Coach again ye... Sat, 21 Mar 2015 21:00:17 EST Moving right along Over all it's been a good vacation. Saturday through Monday I was not at home from morn til evening. I saw two great movies and spent quality time in my two favorite parks . My visit to the Goddess Temple was marvelous as usual, although for the first time there were people out there, a group who came out for a week to do some upkeep. It was feel completely free to do what I normally do, knowing there were people close by. They weren't in the way and I know logically they weren'... Thu, 19 Mar 2015 16:15:20 EST Huzzah for vacation! It is magnificent morning! I slept in until 5:00 today and got some walking in. I had a bite to eat while I was out and as I was eating, the sun rose over the horizon and the song "Ooh Ooh Child" started. It was a sign for me...and I started crying. I have been working really hard on my self esteem, my way of thinking (kicking the negativity to the curb), thinking about what I want to be when I grow up (I really have no idea what my purpose here on earth is and that is just so fr... Fri, 13 Mar 2015 13:20:58 EST A week of contradictions I just had a nice, long, hot shower...envisioning all my frustration, anger, negativity, and other ugly stuff going down the drain. For the most part this has been a great week! I'm finally adjusting to this dreadful time change, I am back in full swing here at SP! I got my new syncpoint all synced up to my Spark Activity Tracker and my computer, so I can log my activity. WooHoo! (Oh! A big shout out to Coach Denise and her help with my tracker issue. She rocks!) I am within my calorie range... Wed, 11 Mar 2015 22:04:37 EST Sunday Serenity (How I have missed it!) Happy International Women’s Day! <BR> <BR> It is absolutely gorgeous this morning. The sun is softly shining, the birds are singing back and forth, there is a softness to the air (if that makes any sense). I am so full of gratitude this morning, my heart is fairly bursting with it! I have missed this feeling so much! <BR> <BR> If you practice manifesting, LOA, positive thinking or just want to feel really good, there is a wonderful artist I was lead to through a Facebook group. Her name is ... Sun, 8 Mar 2015 12:53:03 EST Epilogue for this Saturday I started this day in confusion, chaos and a small bit of despair. By the simple(or not so simple in this case) act of journaling, I have released so much tension, so much negativity, so much sadness and confusion. This is not to say I am where I want to be, but I am now free to head in the direction. <BR> <BR> I spent the rest of the day in a state of joy and relaxation. I enjoyed time outside (my new home has a backyard and patio!!!) eating my my lunch and immersed in a great book. It was... Sat, 7 Mar 2015 20:51:24 EST A day for going deep within... Warning…my thoughts and words are chasing each other like dogs chasing their tails…this is a stream of consciousness blog, it may not make sense, but I am hoping it will gel into a cohesive, understandable piece, the more I let it out. <BR> <BR> This is a slowdown day. After months of running in chaotic full tilt mode, my body and mind (working in cahoots for a change), have decided that I need to stop today, for this moment in time. <BR> <BR> I have slowly come to the realization over the... Sat, 7 Mar 2015 15:57:39 EST Just a short blog this morning <em>524</em> I'm Back! I'm am settled into my new home, but still adjusting to living with three other people. Thankfully, I have my room, which is my hideaway, but more than is my sanctuary and sacred space. I have cleansed and blessed my space so only good and positive vibrations reside here. <BR> <BR> Now that I am situated, it is time to focus on my heath again. One week into my own new year, I am setting new goals, tracking my food again, and figuring out my fitness goals... Mon, 2 Mar 2015 09:21:18 EST The Joys and Pains of Awakening Due to circumstances beyond my control, I am in the midst of getting to ready to move next weekend. In the three months since the decision has been made, I have become so very emotional. I cry at the drop of the proverbial hat and anything can set me off. I know for a fact the Universe has orchestrated this point in my life and I am very grateful. While the physical stuff has been difficult (not the least of which is giving up my fur baby), the catalyst has really been about my spiritual and... Sat, 15 Nov 2014 15:17:51 EST Blessings, Awakenings, and Moving forward! (This is a post I shared on FB, but felt needed to be shared here too...mine is not to question why! *Grins*) <BR> <BR> It is a simply beautiful morning! Laundry on to wash, dishwasher drying, I now enjoy a quiet moment and cuppa before I jump into the chaotic vortex that is my home. <BR> <BR> Years before "Frozen" existed, my mantra was Let it go, Let it go, Let it go, sung to to the tune of "Let it Snow." Of course back then it was to help remind me to let go of hurt feelings, disappo... Sun, 26 Oct 2014 12:03:06 EST Rough month brings big changes This has been a difficult and emotional 5 weeks. I have big (for me) financial problems (my apartment raised my rent to the point where it takes one whole paycheck and part of the other one in order to make my rent, which makes it difficult to meet my other money needs like food and other bills, not to mention saving money for a car and a house and other fun stuff). <BR> <BR> The universe stepped in and one of my workmates (and best friends) who is also going through a rough patch, asked m... Thu, 9 Oct 2014 09:12:41 EST The amazing power of music saves the day again! Good Morning! (It is now!) I woke on the wrong side of the bed this morning, big time! I was so cranky and angry with absolutely NO idea why! I had a great weekend, I'm on track healthwise, spent time with friends Saturday and yesterday. I was so filled with dark, cloudy, murky uckiness! <BR> <BR> Reading happy articles and funny anecdotes which usually brings a smile, didn't help, stroking Shade and feeling her purring didn't even begin to shift the clouds(especially when she nipped at me f... Mon, 8 Sep 2014 09:25:05 EST Baggy britches and faster stair climbing Okay, I can't stop getting excited! The pants I wear to work are about 1 inch away from falling off of my hips, one of my favorite night gowns is loose where it used to snug, my tops are almost hanging on me, AND I am chugging up the stairs a bit more quickly than when I started(and not getting as winded!) <BR> <BR> I have never been so determined and supportive of myself! When I make the conscious decision to indulge myself, there is no guilt, no chastisement, no negative head games! I cont... Thu, 28 Aug 2014 08:11:40 EST Big Day! I am dancing on air today as I have hit my first 20 pounds! The low carb lifestyle rocks! I had a couple of days of over my designated carb range( for special occasions) and it didn't hinder my loss! I must be doing something right! <BR> <BR> My clothes are much looser, I can see it in my face and I feel Wonderful! My nails and hair are growing and people comment on how I look every day. <BR> <BR> Not walking as much as it is just too hot, but started strength training...not to lose wei... Sun, 24 Aug 2014 13:37:24 EST Week one of low carb lifestyle What a great week! I had absolutely no problems with my first week, except the headaches for the first three days. Detox sucks, but I feel so much better! I lost two pounds! I had no trouble whatsoever declining carb laden food my friends would offer me and passed up all the stuff I used to eat when i did some fill in shopping. I am very rarely hungry between meals and even when I am it is not a ravenous hunger. <BR> <BR> I am having trouble calorie wise(as in not a lot) but that will be ... Sun, 10 Aug 2014 11:48:09 EST Sunday MUGGY Sunday I was up at 4:00 this morning to check out the fitness room and see what I could do to raise the bar on my fitness program. It was a bust...a complete and utter waste of my time. None of the treadmills or elliptical machines were working. They only have recumbent stationary bikes and at the moment my belly is to big to use them. I really need (and want) an upright stationary bike. <BR> <BR> I left with the note in my head to contact the office and let them know about the non-working machines... Sun, 3 Aug 2014 08:55:07 EST Musings In the quiet of the morning, I ponder on things. <BR> <BR> How grateful I am for every new morning with endless possibilities! <BR> <BR> How in every moment of every day there are pockets of joy to be found! <BR> <BR> How much the love of my friends and family supports and lifts me up! <BR> <BR> How petting and stroking my cat as she purrs calms and soothes me! <BR> <BR> How the sound of a baby's belly laugh always brings about s smile and giggles to me! <BR> <BR> How I am discovering... Tue, 22 Jul 2014 09:21:21 EST Productive day! Didn't everything done, but enough to feel accomplished. All my veggies and fruit are cut up and prepped. I didn't get my chili done as I ranout of energy. I have been up a long time! *LOL* Laundry is done, cat is fed, kitchen is almost more energy. <BR> <BR> I just watched "Muriel's Wedding," and loved it! I don't know how I missed it when it came...whenever it came out! *LOL* I really enjoyed it! I'm too tired to get involved in another movie, I will be going to bed so... Sun, 20 Jul 2014 22:13:59 EST A wonderful start to my Sunday! I was up at 4:30 and walked for 34 minutes! Not quite 1200 steps away from my 5000 step goal, I'm sure I'll make it up as I putter around home today! I actually decided to wear shoes today (FLY Lady would be so proud! *LOL) The ulterior motive however, is so I can keep my activity tracker on to count my steps. <BR> <BR> It was a sumptuous morning for a walk. Cooler than it has been, there was a very slight breeze, the stars were still out and daylight start didn't make it's self known until ... Sun, 20 Jul 2014 12:37:14 EST Busy and some what productive Saturday(and so much fun!) I am wiped out after a wonderful day with a friend. We spent the day shopping...first Costco, then grocery shopping! It was (*and still is) very hot and very muggy! I spent a bit more money than I planned, but if I do everything right, I should have not quite a months worth of frozen meals! We spent 5 busy hour laughing, shopping, and having a bite to eat. <BR> <BR> I forgot how much I love Costco! If we had not had to go regular shopping as well, I would have spent more there, but I didn't ... Sat, 19 Jul 2014 20:36:29 EST A better ending for my Sunday I am so thankful I am feeling better tonight! That being said...It couldn't have happened earlier today?!? *LOL* No matter...I'm good now and feeling so good I may have a problem sleeping now. <BR> <BR> Laundry got done, kitchen..partly done. I had a good dinner with a wee bit of comfort food and I think that is what finally did it. I think I try so hard to "be good" and "stay on program" so to speak, that I forget it is ok to have a little comfort food occasionally. I'm no looking at SP com... Mon, 14 Jul 2014 00:10:24 EST Slow start to a Sunday morning It has been a rough week for me and I am trying my hardest to let it go! I seem to be floundering in the pool of negativity(obviously of my own making) and it seems as if nothing I do can get me out! <BR> <BR> On the up side I maintained this week. Had I been walking all week, I am sure I would have lost a pound or two, but I chose not to do so. Sleep has not come easily for me this week and I am looking into fixing that starting tonight! I miss my walking, even though that ugly part me s... Sun, 13 Jul 2014 13:24:52 EST Lessons learned as I enjoy a quiet Sunday By quiet I mean My television and music have been off all day and I don't anticipate them coming on tonight. It has been an interesting experience! I have spent the whole day with just ME! (Welland Shade of course! *LOL*) <BR> <BR> I have spent most of the day on SP! (in between loads of laundry, cleaning the kitchen and Shade time that is) It truly amazes me how much time I can spend here and never get bored! Aside from the fact that I work hard to get my spark points, I spend time just ex... Sun, 6 Jul 2014 20:10:58 EST A onesided chat (talking to) from my bestie on the inside...She really does love me... Hey kiddo! <BR> <BR> You have had a rough few days and I am so happy you are feeling better! *about time too!* Erm...I'm glad to see you are doing a few light, productive things around the house and not stressing about getting EVERYTHING done! It is just what Lily Hill teaches: "1tiny act of power!" I know you had forgotten this and am so pleased you have remembered it! Ya know, You really need to post this where you can sit it everyday...Ah sheesh! It will help you stay on track!! <BR... Sun, 6 Jul 2014 16:55:31 EST Wednesday Realizations Another 90 degree morning(at 4:00!) I jumped out of bed as soon as my alarm went off...yesterday I had to drag myself out of bed...what's up with that? *shrugs* I'm not going to over think it...I'm just running with it! <BR> <BR> I discovered a couple of things this morning...I truly don't care about what people think of me...especially walking that early! Pants too big...tank top, and a baseball cap to hide my bed head! *LOL* Oh and singing along with my walking songs...not too loudly a... Wed, 2 Jul 2014 09:46:48 EST Just Another Sunday Morning...or is it? I had a lovely surprise this morning when I weighed in...4 pounds down. So yeah..It's okay...I's not everything...I'm big thing... Aw, who am I kidding??? <BR> <BR> *Happy Spark Dance* Yes, I know the scale is not the only indicator...but HOT DOG! 4 pounds...which brings the total to 7 since I started this round! <BR> <BR> I have walked everyday day this week, yesterday in front of the TV watching "Buffy." I got my time in (30 minutes is my goal...I did 52) but less tha... Sun, 29 Jun 2014 13:18:38 EST Whimiscal Wednesday Back to work this morning and I am feeling great. I was up at 4:00 and hit the pavement at 4:10 for THREE times around the complex this morning, 51 minute walk, 2.6 miles! YaY me! Of course, now I need a nap, but it will get easier! Oh yeah, I hit 500 fitness minutes this morning! Rocking the walk... Oh yeah!! <BR> <BR> I can't say enough great things about the Spark Activity Tracker. Yesterday I walked non stop all the around Wal-Mart twice just to get steps in, parked far away, and gene... Wed, 25 Jun 2014 09:43:24 EST Sunday Afternoon Decisions In betwixt playing games on FB, texting with friends and deciding what I wanted for lunch...I have been making my grocery list. I will be spending Tuesday making my own healthy,frozen meals. I can't wait to see what I eventually come up and how many meals I can realistically make. I am so excited! <BR> <BR> So many choices...I'm having so much fun! I am so relaxed and at peace. I am having a "Buffy" marathon and will be walking in place while watching some of it. I also need to do some str... Sun, 22 Jun 2014 17:57:31 EST Sunday Morning Smiles After a day of rest...I did absolutely nothing but rest, read, and watch dvds...I hit the floor running (well...walking) this morning at 4:15! I'm glad I got out a little earlier as it was much warmer this morning than it has been all week at the same time. I already miss my cool mornings! That being said, I rocked the walk yet again and walked a complete 2.1 miles, going two and a half times around the complex. I actually went over my 5000 step goal in one walk! Yea me! I'm thinking my day o... Sun, 22 Jun 2014 09:49:43 EST I'm Baaack! WooHoo! Day 3 of my walking streak and 3 pounds down!(weight loss since the first of June) I have had a few speed bumps in months since my vacation, but they were just that...speed bumps...not Stop signs. <BR> <BR> I bought the Spark Activity Tracker and it has spurned new enthusiasm and determination. From the day I received, I have walked more and more each day. This morning I was up at 4:15 this morning and went walking for a half hour. (36 minutes actually! *LOL* I watched the day begin as I wa... Tue, 17 Jun 2014 09:44:05 EST Best Birthday Vacation yet! I'm into the last 3 days of my vacation and it has been wonderful! I've puttered, shopped, cut all my hair off, went to the Goddess Temple for some soul nurturing, spent time with my baby girl cat, learned all the ins and outs of my new TV and Blu ray, spent time with my adopted family, and am generally relaxed and oh so happy! <BR> <BR> <em>409</em> <em>410</em> <em>179</em> <em>107</em> <BR> <BR> Oh yeah, I almost forgot...went to the movies and was automatically given the s... Fri, 21 Feb 2014 13:27:57 EST Vacation Lesson (Disclaimer: Ramble ahead! This is simply observation and how I am working through certain aspects of my life and ways of thinking.) <BR> <BR> I have been ruminating a lot this vacation and here is one of the topics that continue to chase around my brain: <BR> <BR> While I wholeheartedly appreciate the excitement of upcoming holidays and special events, every time I see a post that counts down to a certain holiday or time...I feel as if people are living in the future instead of living and ... Mon, 17 Feb 2014 17:35:44 EST New year and creating a better me! My the time has passed quickly! I have gotten a lot done(not that you can tell by looking at my apartment! *LOL*) Bags of trash to take out, boxes of books to donate, bags of clothes to donate. I have brought stuff out to the living room to sort through as I watch the 49ers...Also have laundry going...Now to watch with baited breath to see who wins the game. GO 49ers! <BR> <BR> I have been with Spark People for 7 years this month. I am back to the weight at which I started SP. This is in no... Sun, 5 Jan 2014 17:19:51 EST Revving up for the holidays and a Bright and Shiny New Year! Happy December! I have been AWOL a few days, or perhaps it's a couple of time sense is off a bit apparently. Anyway, it has been a rough one. The dark "UGH" returned three fold as several friends have lost loved ones over the past couple of weeks. My ex-husband lost not only his nephew to cancer, but his mother two weeks later, also from cancer. I have been feeling so helpless as I see my friends suffering. I know there is nothing I can do. I have spent a lot of time talking with... Sun, 1 Dec 2013 14:58:10 EST Sensational Saturday in the works! Never in a million years would I ever have considered waking up at 6:00 sleeping in! *LOL* It is a beautiful and cool morning here in Vegas. I have all my windows open and I am raring to go! I woke up feeling so good and motivated, I decided I can't let anything get in the way of getting stuff done! <BR> <BR> I actually followed the FlyLady's admonition to get get dressed to the shoes. (I hate wearing shoes and never wear them when I am at home!) I am going to see if this helps keep me mot... Sat, 16 Nov 2013 10:22:19 EST Morning Blessings! What a spectacular way to start the day! I have watched the dark give way to the light and the sky is aflame with the beautiful sunrise. The clouds are breathtaking...So pink against the blue sky. This is one of my favorite reasons for getting up so early! <BR> <BR> I think I will take the long way to work this morning! Have I mentioned I LOVE this time of year? <BR> <BR> Good morning my darling friends! Happy Tuesday! Have a blessed day and know you are loved! <BR> <BR> <em>129</em> ... Tue, 12 Nov 2013 09:12:28 EST Turning around a bad start to the day I woke up frowning and upset from a dream I can only remember bits and pieces of...I'm very disconcerted and upset at the moment. So I decided I was in desperate need of a long walk. So with walking shoes, IPod, and water in hand, I faced the beautiful morning for an attitude readjustment! <BR> <BR> I had a fabulous walk to the park and around the walking/jogging path 3 times and then home again. I said hi to some dogs and their humans, stopped and did some stretching and hugged my favorite... Sun, 10 Nov 2013 14:46:20 EST NEWS FLASH! 11/8/13 Doing happy dance all morning... I'm wearing jeans I haven't been able to wear in over a year!!! <em>244</em> Fri, 8 Nov 2013 13:11:58 EST I control how I feel...Lesson for a lifetime! I suffered for the last day and a half from this feeling of...dark UGH... since yesterday. I have two friends who are going through really rough times right now and I let their sadness and troubles infiltrate me. I hurt for them and wish with all I am that I could do something to help ease their pain, Logically, I know I can't...but that doesn't mean I stop wishing I could help. On top of that, I spiral into my own negativity. <BR> <BR> I needed to do something in order to get back to my ha... Sun, 3 Nov 2013 19:25:37 EST Having a "Jeeze the time is whizzing by" moment! What happened to enjoying the season and living in Honest to goodness, my head is spinning at the rate this year is moving! Autumn is my favorite time and it is by far the shortest season! Not really of course, but it seems once Labor day is here, Christmas is the next day. I know I am exaggerating big time, but it feels that way. Of course commercialism being what it is, doesn't help with putting out holiday stuff, before the current holiday is even here yet. And poor Thanksgiving inevitably gets left out in the to speak. Even th... Sun, 27 Oct 2013 12:36:34 EST Making lots of progress! I took the extra long way to work yesterday! From front door to work desk, 45 minutes, 5200 steps, and 2.30 miles. Almost 15 minutes a mile. I usually slow down about 5 minutes before I hit Tenaya and Peak as I start cooling down. <BR> <BR> Blessings for a beautiful day and remember that you are loved! <BR> <BR> <em>244</em> <em>521</em> <em>311</em> <em>185</em> Wed, 23 Oct 2013 09:04:50 EST Totally Terrific Tuesday! Had a great walk to work yesterday...went the long way and it only took me 5 minutes longer to get to work! Today I am going the EXTRA long way, as I am ready to up my steps to 10000! Who would ever have imagined I'd be this excited and MOTIVATED to increase the distance I can walk!? Not Me! <BR> <BR> I love how I feel, physically and especially emotionally! I have always been a happy and positive person, but now it seems to be overflowing! I still have little bouts of negativity, but I ov... Tue, 22 Oct 2013 09:17:09 EST