AMETHYSTSTAR's SparkPeople Blog AMETHYSTSTAR's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community I've had a great morning...time for a nap! I was up at 4:30 this morning(early for a weekend when sleeping in is about 6:00...I'd feel late if it was a work day..I'm odd) I had blood drawn at 5:30 for my followup appointment on Thursday, then grabbed a bite to eat and went to the park to enjoy the lovely morning. <BR> <BR> The sun was just rising and the mountains were gorgeous. The park I went to has a water play area which some one had turned on. I tickled me to no end watching the birds play in the water an cackle to each other... Sat, 25 Jul 2015 13:31:21 EST One down I had my ultrasound today. It will be 2 or 3 days before I find out the results. I am really tired of not feeling good. I am missing who I was more and more! I'm not quite sure what I need to do in order to get me back. I'm really emotional again, really not liking how my thoughts are going no matter how hard I try to change them, and I am finding myself very impatient with a lot of my friends and people that I work with. I'm hoping that this is just a side effect of not feeling well cuz ... Tue, 21 Jul 2015 15:49:14 EST Now it's time for tests... My new doctor is delightful... She feels it very well could be my gall bladder. So now for blood work, an ultrasound and a Hida scan. I guess I will watch what I eat, just in case. I have no idea what will set it off. I really don't want a repeat, although I'm not naïve enough to think it won't happen again. <BR> <BR> So first things first and we will see what happens. <BR> <BR> Thu, 16 Jul 2015 20:54:00 EST I am so very done with this! I had another episode Sunday night...I was up all night with horrible stomach pain and so very sick to my stomach. About 3:30, I got dressed, pulled my futon back together and was seriously going to wake my roommate up and have her take me to ER. <BR> <BR> I sat down for a few minutes, exhausted and sore....when things started to ease up just a little and I actually dozed off for a few minutes. I kind lightly dozed off and on until I forced my self up and went to work. I fell asleep befor... Tue, 14 Jul 2015 22:22:48 EST Getting there... I'm finally feeling more like myself. My stomach is still a little off, but I'm eating all right and my energy is slowly returning. I had to work on my room yesterday, after two weeks of being sick. It wasn't awful, but it wasn't how I prefer it. Now its all clean and tidy...things where they belong and I feel more comfortable and comfy now in my welcoming space. I'm not a neat freak by any stretch of the imagination and I am most certainly NOT a perfectionist, However, since my bedroom is al... Sun, 12 Jul 2015 13:07:37 EST Rain Glorious Rain! Oh what a beautiful evening! We have been having the most wondrous rain storm for the past hour. We have all the windows and doors open and the temp has dropped several degrees. There is a mighty wind blowing and a lovely roll of thunder in the distance. <BR> <BR> I, of course, had to go out and play in the rain! It was the best part of a pretty decent day over all... <BR> <BR> The wind has lightened as has the rain, but it is still pattering outside. It smells SO good, and it is lovely h... Mon, 6 Jul 2015 22:29:45 EST Strange, but unexpectedly good day Headed out for the meeting which the automated yahoo group email said started at noon. I get there (a small, dingy old casino and it's only cafe) and no one is there. I sent a text to my good friend who runs the group, hoping the number I had for him was still good. It was, and as it turns out, yahoo groups had the time set to Greenwich mean time...which means the meeting is at 7:00 tonight. So that was a bust... <BR> <BR> Then, I made a wrong turn on Lake Mead Blvd and actually ended up ... Sun, 5 Jul 2015 21:27:54 EST Feeling better...once again...let's hope it continues this time! I finally started feeling better yesterday afternoon. After eating little more than soup and pudding for the past 3 days, the smell of my roommate barbequing hamburgers set my mouth to watering. I had a proper dinner last night with homemade ice cream and not only did it taste fantastic, but it didn't upset my stomach. In fact, I felt so much better and slept well for the first time since last week. (I weighed myself on a lark yesterday morning and lost another 3 pounds in 3 days...NOT the w... Sun, 5 Jul 2015 11:19:16 EST This really needs to stop! I ended up going to urgent care this morning after being up literally all night vomiting and having the stomach pains I had week before last. I called off work and had to get doctors note since I was sick the day before a holiday day off. *shakes* head. Needed proof that I'm sick and just not taking extra day off for a four day weekend...Jeeze. <BR> <BR> Anyway, I really thought it was food poisoning fro a really bad chicken sandwich from Mickey D's. The doctor seems to think it is a sto... Thu, 2 Jul 2015 18:17:59 EST Not the way I planned on my week... I have not been feeling well since returning from California on Sunday. I thought at first it might be heat exhaustion as it was so very hot in Corona with fairly high humidity. Add to the fact I was laced up in my bodice over4 layers skirts and bloomers, I figured that was the culprit. But I was up all night last night with stomach pain and sick to my stomach. I finally dozed off about 2:30 and was up at 4:00. I feel as if I was put through a wringer, I'm so tired My stomach is still painin... Wed, 24 Jun 2015 07:54:00 EST Excited...exhausted...and a wee bit disappointed Loving my new baby, who has been named "Joy", really looking forward to the weekend when I can take out and really get a feel for her. I have been reading the manual, there are so many more goodies to play tooth and new radio I can play MY music control, on star, phone charger,...not to mention learning her own little idiosyncrasies... <BR> <BR> My routine and rituals have bee so messed up this past month, I have not been getting nearly enough sleep and this past wee... Tue, 9 Jun 2015 21:21:22 EST A quick but bit happier blog today The past 5 days have been emotionally hellish! For reasons too complicated to go into, I spent the better part of Friday night in tears...I was out with a friend at my favorite Irish pub for First Friday and due to a conversation with my roommate the night before, I just lost it. Everything seemed so hopeless. I sat in our little booth with my girlfriend who just let me cry. It continued Saturday morning and I thought I was never going to stop crying. I took a nap and felt a little better. H... Tue, 9 Jun 2015 09:15:28 EST Long days, cranky me Back to working overtime this whole routine and schedule are totally messed up. I'm an emotional person by nature, but find myself crying at the drop of a hat. Depression is rearing it's ugly head again and I need to deal with it quickly. <BR> <BR> Apparently they have hired someone for the position that was walked out on, but for whatever reason (don't get me started) the person is not starting until the 17th. so another week and a half of stress at least...of course the person ... Thu, 4 Jun 2015 09:22:08 EST Can't keep me down! Yep! I'm back on track and feeling really good. I'm making progress on doing the upper body portion of WATP. When I started last week, I couldn't even do two or three of the arm lifts, stretches or whatever you want to call it. Today I could do 90% of them....WooHoo! I found my Richard Simmons 20 year anniversary copy of "Sweating to the Oldies!" I will do it tomorrow, it's been long time. I also have a different WATP to try. Must keep my exercise options current and varied. <BR> <BR> Fami... Sat, 30 May 2015 19:43:24 EST Lost the exercise battle today...but the war is FAR from over! I had a really bad night last, I slept maybe an hour and half and felt awful when I got up. Work was reminiscent of last week. Long story short, exercise was just not in the cards today. Initially I was disappointed, but ultimately... today is just one day. Once, not too long ago, I would have given up with the attitude of what's the point? If I have learned nothing else here at SparkPeople, it's that YOU DON'T GIVE UP! <BR> <BR> So, to quote Scarlett..."Tomorrow is another day!" YES! <BR> ... Fri, 29 May 2015 20:18:37 EST Always have a Plan "B".... I had a hard time getting up this morning, I finally slept really well, and my body wanted to stay that way! So I was up at 4 instead of 3:30 and was disappointed in myself for not dancing for half hour. So I decided to do the 1 mile walk with my WATP, and will walk on my break for 15 so I can get in my morning 30 minutes!. Normally I would have just shrugged it off, but I just couldn't do it today. I HAD to do something this morning! I really surprised myself. <BR> <BR> I have gone old sch... Thu, 28 May 2015 08:49:25 EST I feel So good that I don't even care I had a sucky day ! I was up at 3:30 and danced for 25 minutes. It rocked! <BR> <BR> My roomie was in a really bad mood which made for a strained drive into work. As predicted, the day was freaking busy and my phone never stopped ringing. There were a few tense minutes I didn't handle well, but over all I survived. AND I got to work my regular Yay me! <BR> <BR> Once I got home, with a slightly cheerier roomie, I immediately changed and walked 2 miles with my Walk Away the Pounds. I even used my resi... Tue, 26 May 2015 20:45:12 EST And She's Off! I'm full of butterflies, I'm quivery in my tummy and full of anticipation for the coming of Summer! I have spent the past three days preparing for what I am determined is going to be a very healthy summer. Thanks to the weight I have lost over the last few weeks, and and the new team I belong to and challenge I in which I am participating, I am revved up and raring to go! <BR> <BR> I danced for 30 minutes this morning and did 1 mile with my Walk away the Pound this afternoon, just to prove ... Mon, 25 May 2015 21:02:25 EST gently was for about 15 Minutes! After my roommates (hereafter known as "family") left for their busy day, I took a long,wonderfully hot, restorative shower. It was then my body decided that I had more energy than my brain thought I did and I have been going ever since! Had a healthy breakfast/brunch, cleaned my room and bathroom, dusted, vacuumed, cleaned and organized my pantry shelf, and threw on laundry! I feel wonderful! <BR> <BR> <em>185</em> <BR> <BR> Now I am waiting for my laundry to dry, then I think I will ... Sat, 23 May 2015 16:13:35 EST Treating myself gently this long weekend My body as declared it is going to be a very lazy day. I think my body realized that we didn't HAVE to do anything and it is really letting me know how unhappy it has been this last week. I hardly have the energy to move. I slept deep and hard until the sun came up just before 5:00, so i just dozed on and off until I couldn't anymore. (I had a REALLY weird dream that I remember, which tells me I was deeply asleep for the fist time in over a week)I do think I am going to get a sleep mask for... Sat, 23 May 2015 12:26:43 EST 1 pound at a time...I can do this! This has been an incredibly difficult week! One of my co-workers just up and walked out Tuesday at 11:30, leaving an already stressed out, over worked department of 3 in the lurch. Now down to just two of us, I have been working just short of 12 hour days since then. I take my lunch break but not my other two breaks, as there are so many referrals to process, so our patients can have their procedures done in a timely manner. For the first time in my life I know the meaning of the word wear... Fri, 22 May 2015 08:27:10 EST A better day than I could have hoped for! In spite the very cranky start to my morning, I had a pretty good day! I walked on both my breaks and stayed well within my calorie range, even with the additional calories from my walks. I am completely satiated, and still had 409 calories left over. Despite myself, I am making progress! <BR> <BR> That makes me happy! Well that and the Thunder storm we had today! I was really , really hoping it rain on me during my first walk. The sky was SO dark and foreboding, the air was rife with the h... Mon, 18 May 2015 21:52:53 EST Mornings like this I woke up cranky and negative this morning, which I absolutely hate! I didn't sleep well (it was too warm) and I tossed and turned all night. Nothing I read this morning is inspiring me, and I'm in one of those dreadful "what's the point" frame of minds. <BR> <BR> I have already set my menu for today and it is especially important I don't allow myself to fall into the feeding myself happy trap. My breakfast and lunch are packed with healthy food. I'm going to have to make myself walk today... Mon, 18 May 2015 09:02:37 EST Celebrating and mourning I've had a great couple of days so far. Did all my grocery shopping yesterday morning, had lunch with a friend and her little girl, after which we went to see the movie! Omigosh!! Loved it! I had a healthy breakfast, a burrito supreme for lunch and some candy at the movie.I'm very good with that. <BR> <BR> Started dinner at 10:00 this morning. After about an hour and a half prep, my mama's spaghetti sauce is simmering nicely and will be ready about 5:00-5:30 tonight. I've been really craving... Sun, 10 May 2015 18:06:06 EST Making progress 1 day at a time Another successful week! I know I said I wasn't going to weigh myself every week, apparently I fibbed! *LOL* I did so well this week I just had to see....I'm glad I did! I know this is not going to be an every week or even every other week loss, but is just what I needed for today. <BR> <BR> Pay day Fridays are usually lenient days for me. My roommate and i stop by Jack in the Box for breakfast and buy lunch. As I sit here and do my normal morning Spark routine, I know I can't do my "usual... Fri, 8 May 2015 08:54:24 EST A successful week Somewhere early in the week, something apparently clicked. I stayed within my calorie range all week. I turned down all the offers for snacks, bites, and nibbles from my friend who works next to me. I'm rather surprised to find I was determined to stay in control (Not one of my strong points...obviously, or I wouldn't be here...) I did decide to rethink and reduced my calorie range a little bit, until I start exercising, and much to my delight, I was still determined to stay within the ran... Sat, 2 May 2015 23:08:38 EST What a weekend! I had a fantabulous, splendiferous time at the Highland Games! My friend and I wore ourselves out. The opening ceremony had me in tears. There were several pipe and drum bands participating, I would guestimate 150-200 pipers. I was in tears from the first note to the last. It was truly amazing. I know bagpipes are not everyone's cuppa, but my heart sings when I hear them played. <img src=""> <img src=" Mon, 20 Apr 2015 08:39:39 EST Much better! It is amazing what a difference a great night's sleep can do! I even slept in until 6! Now I am getting ready for the highland games and a day spent in sunshine and fresh air. I'm beyond excited. <BR> <BR> I hope everyone has a spectacular day! BE kind to yourself and do at least one thing that makes you happy! YOU deserve it!!! <BR> <BR> <em>247</em> <em>67</em> <em>335</em> <em>464</em> Sat, 18 Apr 2015 11:26:37 EST Very, Very tough couple of days... Well, I’m sitting in my room in my comfy pjs trying to relax after a rough couple of days. <BR> <BR> One of my friends at work is subject to seizures and unfortunately she had one yesterday afternoon. I sit directly across from her and turned at the keening she was making. I was able to get her safely to the floor and stay with her until the ambulance came. This is the first time I have been with someone having a seizure. <BR> <BR> I was eerily calm and in control during this longest te... Thu, 16 Apr 2015 21:29:05 EST I will NOT be defeated... Okay...I'm doing SO much better! I had a great week and I've had a lovely weekend! I am making progress and feeling more and more like the me I knew and loved...only different...good different. I have been working on releasing a lot f the past and for the most I have been doing well. I have one stubborn area, and I don't know how I am going to ever come to a place of peace about it. However, I will continue to do what I need to do to put it to rest. Maybe I'll address it in another posting, b... Sun, 12 Apr 2015 21:24:37 EST A Well, last week started with bang and ended with a whimper (and some tears). I tripped on the way from the car to the office…2 bruised (to the bone) knees, scrapped up elbow and bruised palm. Honest to goodness, no wonder my knees are so fracked up…I’ve been a klutz since I was a kid. I have to admit, I was a little panicked, as the last time I fell similar to this fall, I found out I had cancer. It didn’t last long, reason (such as it is) asserted itself. So, I think I will be doing... Mon, 30 Mar 2015 22:35:14 EST Day 2-learning (Finally) Moderation I had a great first day back from vacation! Work went much more smoothly than I had hoped it would. I still have some catching up to do, but I'm in good shape. I managed to get in 2 fifteen minute walks on my breaks and will do some upper body resistance band training tonight. <BR> <BR> I did well on my food. I allowed myself 1 Red Vine and 1 oz of mixed nuts. Not bad considering I can eat an entire (small, 3 serving) bag of nuts without even realizing it. I measured out my portion then lock... Mon, 23 Mar 2015 20:34:35 EST New Week...New start...Day 1 I actually lost weight! 2 pounds from the last time I weighed myself! I guessed all the movement fro lifting, moving and cleaning would help...little did I know! (or did I...) I'm still not where my last official recorded weight was... I need 7 pounds to get there. <BR> <BR> I am within 24 pounds of my first major goal... breaking 300 pounds. I have set my goal date for May 31st to be at 299. My Fitness goals are set. My nutrition goals, I am working on. Honestly though? I need to get my tus... Sun, 22 Mar 2015 14:27:46 EST Productive Spring Cleaning Saturday I can't believe my vacation is almost over already! I spent this morning getting my little corner of the garage all organized and tidy, then spent the better part of the rest of the day trying to reorganize my room after shifting stuff out of my closet into the garage. I'm very glad I have tomorrow to finish up...start my week back at work stress free. Over all a good vacation. Finishing up the last of my laundry, dinner is done and now I can relax... <BR> <BR> I started Spark Coach again ye... Sat, 21 Mar 2015 21:00:17 EST Moving right along Over all it's been a good vacation. Saturday through Monday I was not at home from morn til evening. I saw two great movies and spent quality time in my two favorite parks . My visit to the Goddess Temple was marvelous as usual, although for the first time there were people out there, a group who came out for a week to do some upkeep. It was feel completely free to do what I normally do, knowing there were people close by. They weren't in the way and I know logically they weren'... Thu, 19 Mar 2015 16:15:20 EST Huzzah for vacation! It is magnificent morning! I slept in until 5:00 today and got some walking in. I had a bite to eat while I was out and as I was eating, the sun rose over the horizon and the song "Ooh Ooh Child" started. It was a sign for me...and I started crying. I have been working really hard on my self esteem, my way of thinking (kicking the negativity to the curb), thinking about what I want to be when I grow up (I really have no idea what my purpose here on earth is and that is just so fr... Fri, 13 Mar 2015 13:20:58 EST A week of contradictions I just had a nice, long, hot shower...envisioning all my frustration, anger, negativity, and other ugly stuff going down the drain. For the most part this has been a great week! I'm finally adjusting to this dreadful time change, I am back in full swing here at SP! I got my new syncpoint all synced up to my Spark Activity Tracker and my computer, so I can log my activity. WooHoo! (Oh! A big shout out to Coach Denise and her help with my tracker issue. She rocks!) I am within my calorie range... Wed, 11 Mar 2015 22:04:37 EST Sunday Serenity (How I have missed it!) Happy International Women’s Day! <BR> <BR> It is absolutely gorgeous this morning. The sun is softly shining, the birds are singing back and forth, there is a softness to the air (if that makes any sense). I am so full of gratitude this morning, my heart is fairly bursting with it! I have missed this feeling so much! <BR> <BR> If you practice manifesting, LOA, positive thinking or just want to feel really good, there is a wonderful artist I was lead to through a Facebook group. Her name is ... Sun, 8 Mar 2015 12:53:03 EST Epilogue for this Saturday I started this day in confusion, chaos and a small bit of despair. By the simple(or not so simple in this case) act of journaling, I have released so much tension, so much negativity, so much sadness and confusion. This is not to say I am where I want to be, but I am now free to head in the direction. <BR> <BR> I spent the rest of the day in a state of joy and relaxation. I enjoyed time outside (my new home has a backyard and patio!!!) eating my my lunch and immersed in a great book. It was... Sat, 7 Mar 2015 20:51:24 EST A day for going deep within... Warning…my thoughts and words are chasing each other like dogs chasing their tails…this is a stream of consciousness blog, it may not make sense, but I am hoping it will gel into a cohesive, understandable piece, the more I let it out. <BR> <BR> This is a slowdown day. After months of running in chaotic full tilt mode, my body and mind (working in cahoots for a change), have decided that I need to stop today, for this moment in time. <BR> <BR> I have slowly come to the realization over the... Sat, 7 Mar 2015 15:57:39 EST Just a short blog this morning <em>524</em> I'm Back! I'm am settled into my new home, but still adjusting to living with three other people. Thankfully, I have my room, which is my hideaway, but more than is my sanctuary and sacred space. I have cleansed and blessed my space so only good and positive vibrations reside here. <BR> <BR> Now that I am situated, it is time to focus on my heath again. One week into my own new year, I am setting new goals, tracking my food again, and figuring out my fitness goals... Mon, 2 Mar 2015 09:21:18 EST The Joys and Pains of Awakening Due to circumstances beyond my control, I am in the midst of getting to ready to move next weekend. In the three months since the decision has been made, I have become so very emotional. I cry at the drop of the proverbial hat and anything can set me off. I know for a fact the Universe has orchestrated this point in my life and I am very grateful. While the physical stuff has been difficult (not the least of which is giving up my fur baby), the catalyst has really been about my spiritual and... Sat, 15 Nov 2014 15:17:51 EST Blessings, Awakenings, and Moving forward! (This is a post I shared on FB, but felt needed to be shared here too...mine is not to question why! *Grins*) <BR> <BR> It is a simply beautiful morning! Laundry on to wash, dishwasher drying, I now enjoy a quiet moment and cuppa before I jump into the chaotic vortex that is my home. <BR> <BR> Years before "Frozen" existed, my mantra was Let it go, Let it go, Let it go, sung to to the tune of "Let it Snow." Of course back then it was to help remind me to let go of hurt feelings, disappo... Sun, 26 Oct 2014 12:03:06 EST Rough month brings big changes This has been a difficult and emotional 5 weeks. I have big (for me) financial problems (my apartment raised my rent to the point where it takes one whole paycheck and part of the other one in order to make my rent, which makes it difficult to meet my other money needs like food and other bills, not to mention saving money for a car and a house and other fun stuff). <BR> <BR> The universe stepped in and one of my workmates (and best friends) who is also going through a rough patch, asked m... Thu, 9 Oct 2014 09:12:41 EST The amazing power of music saves the day again! Good Morning! (It is now!) I woke on the wrong side of the bed this morning, big time! I was so cranky and angry with absolutely NO idea why! I had a great weekend, I'm on track healthwise, spent time with friends Saturday and yesterday. I was so filled with dark, cloudy, murky uckiness! <BR> <BR> Reading happy articles and funny anecdotes which usually brings a smile, didn't help, stroking Shade and feeling her purring didn't even begin to shift the clouds(especially when she nipped at me f... Mon, 8 Sep 2014 09:25:05 EST Baggy britches and faster stair climbing Okay, I can't stop getting excited! The pants I wear to work are about 1 inch away from falling off of my hips, one of my favorite night gowns is loose where it used to snug, my tops are almost hanging on me, AND I am chugging up the stairs a bit more quickly than when I started(and not getting as winded!) <BR> <BR> I have never been so determined and supportive of myself! When I make the conscious decision to indulge myself, there is no guilt, no chastisement, no negative head games! I cont... Thu, 28 Aug 2014 08:11:40 EST Big Day! I am dancing on air today as I have hit my first 20 pounds! The low carb lifestyle rocks! I had a couple of days of over my designated carb range( for special occasions) and it didn't hinder my loss! I must be doing something right! <BR> <BR> My clothes are much looser, I can see it in my face and I feel Wonderful! My nails and hair are growing and people comment on how I look every day. <BR> <BR> Not walking as much as it is just too hot, but started strength training...not to lose wei... Sun, 24 Aug 2014 13:37:24 EST Week one of low carb lifestyle What a great week! I had absolutely no problems with my first week, except the headaches for the first three days. Detox sucks, but I feel so much better! I lost two pounds! I had no trouble whatsoever declining carb laden food my friends would offer me and passed up all the stuff I used to eat when i did some fill in shopping. I am very rarely hungry between meals and even when I am it is not a ravenous hunger. <BR> <BR> I am having trouble calorie wise(as in not a lot) but that will be ... Sun, 10 Aug 2014 11:48:09 EST Sunday MUGGY Sunday I was up at 4:00 this morning to check out the fitness room and see what I could do to raise the bar on my fitness program. It was a bust...a complete and utter waste of my time. None of the treadmills or elliptical machines were working. They only have recumbent stationary bikes and at the moment my belly is to big to use them. I really need (and want) an upright stationary bike. <BR> <BR> I left with the note in my head to contact the office and let them know about the non-working machines... Sun, 3 Aug 2014 08:55:07 EST Musings In the quiet of the morning, I ponder on things. <BR> <BR> How grateful I am for every new morning with endless possibilities! <BR> <BR> How in every moment of every day there are pockets of joy to be found! <BR> <BR> How much the love of my friends and family supports and lifts me up! <BR> <BR> How petting and stroking my cat as she purrs calms and soothes me! <BR> <BR> How the sound of a baby's belly laugh always brings about s smile and giggles to me! <BR> <BR> How I am discovering... Tue, 22 Jul 2014 09:21:21 EST