AMETHYSTSTAR's SparkPeople Blog AMETHYSTSTAR's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community A great ending to a long week Very happy the week is over! Loved the way it ended. 12 pounds down as of this morning and 3 shirts that fit now! Woohoo! And as I was leaving this afternoon one of my co-workers asked if I was losing weight...she could see it in my face! It certainly gives me the impetus to keep pushing myself. <BR> <BR> I had a rest day, I noticed some little pains in my legs, I may have been over doing it little. Love the results, but I want to be able to keep it up so Fridays will be rest day as well as... Fri, 26 Aug 2016 22:09:22 EST Kudos to All of Us...No matter where we are in our Journey! (Formerly titled Surprised) **Okay, this was at the end of this entry, but it it feels as if it should go first as it was what dancing around my head before I actually said it! <BR> <BR> *I think we get so caught up in the doing (which is not a bad thing) and wishing we could do more (despite knowing we need to take baby steps), and comparing ourselves to others (a huge no no) that we lose sight of how far we have come! I mean, stop to think about it. We all had to start at the beginning, we all have our ups and downs... Tue, 23 Aug 2016 07:44:50 EST Things I look forward to As I progress on my journey there are some things I am REALLY looking forward to in the hopefully near future! <BR> <BR> *My hips not hurting when I walk <BR> *Losing some more of my belly so I can do knee lifts and kicks higher and better <BR> *Being able to raise my arms up with weights more then 3 or 4 times in a row <BR> *Being able to do jumping jacks or jumping rope without being afraid of seriously hurting myself (I don't do these now, but I WILL!) <BR> *Walking for longer and l... Mon, 22 Aug 2016 07:23:07 EST Slow and lovely Sunday What a great day so far! I slept 'til 6:30, Sparked for a bit, had breakfast then walked for 48 minutes while watching DS9. I chatted with a dear friend in England, logged my exercise (I used 3 pounds weights for some upper body strength training as I walked) and I'm now ready for lunch. It seems as if it should be later, but it is only 1:00. Gotta love days that linger and don't fly by. I wish I experienced more of them. <BR> <BR> I hope everyone is having as nice a day! Sun, 21 Aug 2016 16:01:55 EST Busy Saturday Up early again...treated myself to one breakfast burrito and a small mocha frappe at McDonald's on the way to work. Once there I walked for 24 minutes around our parking lot. *grins* Had the waning moon on one side of me and a spectacular sunrise on the other. What a marvelous way to begin my day. <BR> <BR> We got almost all the referrals scanned in! *HUZZAH* It would have been all of them, except my co-worker had another seizure. It was worse this time and she didn't come out of it as q... Sat, 20 Aug 2016 19:50:46 EST The magic of Music Apparently the feelings of yesterday decided to linger through today. I woke up in a foul mood and had to push myself to do my morning WATP...I did the two mile walk just to prove to myself that I could. Grim was VERY loud this morning and pitched a temper tantrum as I laced my shoes up. I almost caved...I was so close...but I shoved a sock in his mouth and did it any way. <BR> <BR> I couldn't stop my brain at all as I tried to meditate...I finally gave up. I knew I had to do something, 'ca... Fri, 19 Aug 2016 07:21:59 EST Not so good day...tomorrow will be better I had a rough afternoon, angry and frustrated with co-workers. Sometimes it feels as if I am the only one in my department. I just finished eating dinner and I am very proud of myself for sticking to my menu. I feel more like myself now and I have to say I am very happy tomorrow is Friday! Some meditation to ground and center myself and I should be good as new. I don't like feeling this is foreign and very not me. <BR> <BR> As for the pizza party, I passed with flying colors! I hav... Thu, 18 Aug 2016 20:47:17 EST Mid Week check in It's been great week so far. I have kept well within my calorie range and only had one little slip up. It didn't affect my calories, I'm pleased to say. I had a craving for the banana roll up I have developed a taste for this week. I wasn't hungry per se, having eaten a little while earlier; but it just sounded good. Against the advice of the little voice in my head (whose name is Lyssa), I ate it. Funny thing, it didn't taste as good as I knew it could and I felt a bit over full. Score one f... Wed, 17 Aug 2016 22:34:13 EST Another Marvelous Monday! I had a great weekend and stayed on track in spite of all the temptations. I worked half a day on Saturday, and did my grocery shopping, Laundry, cleaning and movie night with Lil Bit rounded out my day. I tried a new treat from SP Recipes...low carb tortilla, 1 T peanut butter and a banana (I added T Nutella) and roll it all up. Very yummy! I didn't get a dedicated walk in but walked a lot through out the day and used my cleaning to my advantage. Yesterday I walk A LOT but didn't have a ded... Mon, 15 Aug 2016 07:29:36 EST Celebrating the end of a GREAT week! HAPPY FRIDAY! <em>410</em> <BR> <BR> 2 pounds down and my determination soars! I haven't felt this good is such a very long time. Everything I do now is with my eye on the first goal by 12/30. Breaking below 300 will send me me in a delightfully, deliriously, ecstatic dance for joy! What a way to bring in the New Year! <BR> <BR> But for now, I keep doing what I am doing and focusing on the here and now. I am calm (okay... just a bit excited), and focused. I'm stronger than I thought ... Fri, 12 Aug 2016 06:49:48 EST Thursday already! YAY! So happy tomorrow is Friday. I can't believe I'm actually looking forward to weighing in. I know I have done my best this week and I will not be disappointed if the scale doesn't move. I've come a long way in my understanding how weight loss works (Thanks to SP!) For the first time in years, I have the confidence I need to do this right. I know I have a long road ahead of me and I plan to enjoy the journey. <BR> <BR> I stayed within my calorie range all week and haven't had fast food s... Thu, 11 Aug 2016 21:06:44 EST What WAS I thinking??? Well, I don't know exactly. ..I am so excited by the progress I am making and the head space I am in at the moment that I signed up for a 5k walk in October for the JDRF though work Each office has a team and I was getting ready to make a donation when suddenly I found myself signing up to walk!!! I can't believe I am giddy with excitement, but it is one more milestone on my journey to work towards. I have plenty of time to prepare and there are some great articles on training for a 5k walk(... Wed, 10 Aug 2016 22:44:05 EST Day 3 of exercise streak (Barely) I am an early bird and obnoxiously cheery morning person in the extreme. I am usually up about 3 hours before the sun and raring to go! I'm usually in bed fairly early. I have found over the past couple of days exercising too close to bedtime doesn't give me enough time to wind down. I was awake way too late and found it difficult to sleep. <BR> <BR> So I am really tired tonight and was going to use that as an excuse not to walk...something in my head(I'm going to name it Grim the Gremlin) ... Tue, 9 Aug 2016 21:47:09 EST A Marvy Monday indeed! I love when a day is as good as today was...Especially a Monday! I woke up smiling and truly looking forward to the day. <BR> <BR> This morning I re-figured my calorie range, having forgotten to reset my exercise goals. It's been awhile since I have exercised for any length of time. Since I have pretty much started the program over again...a clean slate so to speak...I am starting with the fast break stage. I have set my fitness goals for 10 minutes of cardio a day. If I do more..YaY me...... Mon, 8 Aug 2016 22:23:11 EST Time with my precious family and joyful tears watching the Olympics *Disclaimer* Any one who knows me well, knows that I cry at the drop of a hat. I have been told that I am weak, that I have a huge heart, that I feel too much, and that I am empathic. Perhaps this is all true, I don't know...but it is part of who I am. Reading a book, watching a movie, hearing a song, hearing about all the horrible things that are happening in our world, seeing all the beauty in our world...yep...I am a weeper. <BR> <BR> That being said, I had the profound pleasure of havi... Sun, 7 Aug 2016 12:41:31 EST WooHooooo for Friday (and a 2 pound loss!) May vacation approved by supervisor....Check! <BR> Best friend informed and jazzed about said vacation...Check! <BR> Dr. Haas informed of and pleased about said vacation...Check! <BR> First happy steps toward first weight loss goal...CHECK! <BR> <BR> Happy Friday! <BR> <BR> <em>244</em> <em>521</em> <em>185</em> <BR> <BR> Fri, 5 Aug 2016 07:27:05 EST Sunday night already! I can't believe the weekend is over already! While I didn't work yesterday morning, I was still up and out the door at 6:30. I went to Walmart and walked around the store twice before settling down to actually shop. They didn't have one of the items I needed, it was too early to go to Michael's, so I had a bite of breakfast at Jamba Juice which I haven't been to in a few years. <BR> <BR> I treated myself to a medium Orange dream machine smoothie and tried their Island Pitaya Energy Bowl. It... Sun, 31 Jul 2016 23:11:36 EST Enough is more than enough! I'm so done! I'm tired of being tired! I'm tired and mortified at myself for allowing the fact that I am tired to give me the excuse to eat whatever the frack I want and to not move! <BR> <BR> Many things and thoughts have pushed me to this point. Dr. Haas (one of my favorite doctors at work) and two other doctors have been wanting me to attend the annual meeting of the ACR (American College of Radiology) in Washington DC since well before I got sick back in 2009. (And they will PAY for my a... Fri, 29 Jul 2016 07:29:45 EST An even longer week and another short weekend(and my health is suffering) Another long, busy week and short weekend. We are on mandatory overtime and I have worked 25 hours of overtime this pay period as of today. I'm so tired that last night I had a slight crying jag. I felt better afterwards and fell asleep very early. I have rediscovered that Benadryl makes a great sleep aid. It has helped immensely. I made it through 4 1/2 hours this morning and felt pretty good when I got home. I did my laundry and changed my room back to the way it was! It feel SO much better... Sat, 23 Jul 2016 20:10:36 EST A long week and a VERY short weekend! Frantic week at work and I have had trouble sleeping for over a week. Falling asleep is no problem...staying asleep, on the other hand, is another matter completely. I awaken 2-4 times a night....I am exhausted, although I did get some good sleep last night. <BR> <BR> We are in the midst of switching to a new medical computer program for our insurance, prior auth, and most importantly my referral department. Theoretically, we are going "paperless." On the up side, no more paper cuts!! WooHoo... Sun, 17 Jul 2016 21:11:40 EST Busy, lovely day! I had the sudden impulse to rearrange my room today! Not only am I getting my cardio in, but I'm getting my strength training too! *LOL* I have started weeding through things starting my fall cleaning early... okay really early!It feels good taking a proactive stance and moving forward with my plans for the year. I'm still in a peaceful grateful, very happy frame of mind! What a great way to spend a day! Sun, 10 Jul 2016 16:53:58 EST Serene Sunday! I am having an exquisite day. I woke up and decided to perform some much needed self-care/love for myself.I deep conditioned my hair, gave myself a facial, had a lovely hot shower and lovingly took care of my precious body with deep gratitude! <BR> <BR> I had my breakfast and some reading time on my patio, enjoying the almost achingly beautiful morning. It was a delightfully warm 82 degrees at 7:00 am and there was a deliciously cool-ish breeze that danced over my bare arms and shoulders, an... Sun, 10 Jul 2016 12:08:10 EST Love, Love, Love 3 day weekends! I'm feeling better and better every moment! Yesterday I finished all my "have to do" shopping and laundry. Now I can really sink into enjoying the next two days! <BR> <BR> I do strike that... want to work on my room (an ever evolving journey), read, spend some more time with Lil Bit (I really missed her while she and her mum were on a much needed, well deserved vacation!), Catch up on some recorded movies off of TCM, study the new Crystal book I treated myself to... Sun, 3 Jul 2016 11:22:40 EST Joy in the morning Yesterday was about letting go. Not just saying goodbye and feeling the grief about my friend, but saying goodbye to a part of me that has been dragging me down for far too long. <BR> <BR> My friend was a truly positive, upbeat person. I didn't realize how much this was true until his funeral Thursday night. Every one who spoke of him said the same thing. Even during his devastating illness, he was always bright, cheerful and full of hope. He was one of those unique individuals who didn't kn... Sat, 2 Jul 2016 10:45:49 EST Really bad day Today's been a really rough day. I attended a funeral for a friend of mine last night , who was taken much too soon! <BR> <BR> <BR> I went for myself but more importantly, went to support my roommate who had been friends with him much longer than I had known him. I handled it well last night, holding her hand and stroking Lil bit's back as she took in her first funeral. <BR> <BR> <BR> I was up late for me; I only got a couple hours of sleep. When I woke up I was crying and I have been c... Fri, 1 Jul 2016 15:13:32 EST Thursday Quikie Had the surprise of my (work) life yesterday when my boss sent me an IM saying that I was doing GREAT! (Her caps not mine) To say I was floored was an understatement! (It actually made me cry...which is really kinda sad) It is amazing how much a very little appreciation goes to lift someone up. <BR> <BR> I just ordered Dance Socks...socks to wear over sneakers so one can dance on carpet! I can't wait to try them out. I will be more likely to do strut my stuff in my room if I can move and g... Thu, 23 Jun 2016 07:41:26 EST Marvy Monday! I woke up with a smile on my face despite the fact that I had a little dog taking up most of my bed. *LOL* Dora has decided to keep me company while our girl is away on a much needed mommy/daughter vacation. I am generally not a little dog person, I was raised with big "dawgs!" However, Dora stole my heart the first time we met, rotten dog. *Grins* <BR> <BR> I practiced my meditation this morning, still struggling with continuous rambling thoughts. I try to focus on my breath, chant or thin... Mon, 20 Jun 2016 07:12:03 EST Getting Better My knee is feeling much better, though the back of the knee is still a little swollen. We'll see how it goes the next couple of days. Really not too much going on since last time. My roomie and Lil bit left yesterday for a two week vacation to Washington State. I miss my Lil bestie so much. It was odd last night not having her driving me crazy on our weekly date night. *Smiles* The house seems so empty... <BR> <BR> I am eating much better for the most part. Today I made one of the recipes I... Sun, 19 Jun 2016 20:49:11 EST Well, Darn! I took a misstep on the stairs at work and fracked up my left knee. It's swollen and it hurts to put too much pressure on it. I will give it a couple of days and if not better I'll pop into Urgent Care. But for now, Ibuprofen and staying off it as much as I can when not at work. So my diving expeditions will have to wait for a wee bit, but soon enough I will resume! <BR> <BR> In the mean time, we here are getting ready for a heat wave starting in Sunday. I read we are expecting highs 113-115... Wed, 15 Jun 2016 23:04:00 EST New experience...and I LIKED it! (and 3 more pearls) I decided to try a Qi Gong for beginners video I have saved on my Amazon prime list. I am and always be an Amazon Woman... in more ways than one! (I love my Fire TV stick!) Anywho, Between the seven demos and putting all seven sections together I got a good 30 minute workout. <BR> <BR> I watched the "routine" once through and marveled at the grace and flow of the movements. Having always lacked a wee bit in the grace department, I hope it will eventually flow gracefully through me as well. ... Mon, 13 Jun 2016 22:11:51 EST Monday Morning Quickie Went diving yesterday! This is how it sort of went: <BR> <BR> 10 minutes of "Cize for the first time...This is going to take time! I am going to love this, however I am going to HAVE to take it in baby steps. He moves very quickly through the demos, the tempo is very fast after he gives the demo and I am going to have to really modify some moves until I lose a bit of the weight. What I couldn't do, I just danced my own dance...*LOL* <BR> <BR> 10 minutes strength training with hand weights.... Mon, 13 Jun 2016 07:36:33 EST I think I will go diving today <img src=""> <BR> I found the coolest quote just now (and posted it on my status) bears repeating: <BR> <BR> Pearls don't lie on the seashore. If you want one, you must dive for it.- Chinese Proverb <BR> <BR> How many times do I sit at my computer and spend hours reading articles here on SP, doing everything I can to earn points (WooHoo!),getting so jazzed at all the encouraging, motivating things and ideas I... Sun, 12 Jun 2016 13:38:54 EST Progress...Progress and More Progress Long time no blog! This may be a bit on the long side. *smiles* I have been working really hard on my inner and outer self and have made great progress. I am really excited to see the changes in my life as a result of all the hard work I have put into myself! <BR> <BR> I now meditate every day, I work very hard at keeping my thoughts and attitude positive, I talk with the Goddess/God/Universe and my Spirit Guides every day. I am learning to recognize their answers in signs, symbols, sync... Sat, 11 Jun 2016 03:07:26 EST Making progress Weigh in today...maintained which is okay...the good news is my blood pressure is back to normal. I am a happier camper today. Work is going a wee bit more smoothly and I am working on what I need to work on emotionally. It may not all happen this Full moon, but I know I can release a lot of it. <BR> <BR> 3 days of Walk Away the Pounds...working on a streak...go me! <BR> <BR> So I am cautiously optimistic. Going to work more on my meditation practice, clear more clutter, (both physical and... Tue, 22 Mar 2016 21:46:27 EST Springing into change...for the most part I spent the first beautiful morning of Spring on the patio, listening to calm music and the birds chatting away, eating a healthy breakfast, enjoying the touch of the soft cool breeze wash over me and the beauty of all the green surrounding me, (Oh, and let us not forget, doggie cuddles with Dora!) <BR> <BR> Early Spring is my second favorite time of year. (Autumn being my very favorite!) Now that I am well into my own personal New Year and with the Full Moon Eclipse just around the corner, ... Sun, 20 Mar 2016 18:38:08 EST Working on making things better at work I went to weigh in and get my injections yesterday afternoon. Part of the routine is to check my blood pressure. Last week perfectly normal 120/80...yesterday? 140/90....yeeeah...I blame it on the stress this week! <BR> <BR> A little (okay...not so little) background...I work for a radiology center that has seven locations. (when I started in 1989 we had 2 offices) I work in the referrals department. We process hundreds of referrals a day and we shared most of the work (sorting and... Wed, 16 Mar 2016 22:37:53 EST Trying so hard Changes were made at work yesterday and I am already more than stressed about it. I HAVE to get a handle on my feelings. I woke up dreading going to work. I can't even seem to quiet my mind enough to try to meditate myself calm. <BR> <BR> Life is good, I have a job, I have friends and family I love and who love me. I can do this! I am strong and capable. I am bigger than this! <BR> <BR> Today is weigh in after work. Hopefully I will have something to celebrate tonight. Just remember...It's... Tue, 15 Mar 2016 07:38:22 EST Wooohooo! Despite the now ever present vertigo which has kept me from exercising, I lost two and half pounds(although SP says only two.) I'm not going to split hairs. The shot and my watching what I have been eating is paying off. <BR> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> I got the second shot today and because of them being administered in one injection instead of three separate ones, this time hurt like a mother! Needles have never been an issue for me and now really don't bother me much even after what I... Tue, 8 Mar 2016 21:52:57 EST Better ending to the day than beginning Well, it figures I would feel better 3 hours before bedtime. *LOL* I got a little bit done today so feeling accomplished. What I didn't get done will wait until another time. <BR> <BR> Everything is ready for heading back to work tomorrow. It's going to be a great day! Meals are planned for tomorrow, so no need to think about it...just do it. In the event I don't have vertigo tomorrow when I wake up, I will Walk Away the Pounds. (DVD is in machine ready to hit play) I know what I am wearing... Sun, 6 Mar 2016 22:12:44 EST Little, gentle, baby steps today I woke up with another head spinning bout of vertigo and it is not abating as much as my first bout did. Roomie thinks it may be allergies...we have a mulberry tree in our backyard and I have had my windows open every day for the past two weeks. On top of that, the wind has REALLY kicked up over the last couple of days which may also be a contributing factor. I slept with my window closed last night and I took my allergy pill as I do every night...*shrugs* <BR> <BR> I had a busy day pla... Sun, 6 Mar 2016 14:17:34 EST First Steps Taken...Calm Center, Bright Outlook! Yesterday was wonderful! Calico Basin was lovely, even though it is still a wee bit early for wild flowers. There were lots of signs that Spring is on the way though. I hope once I download the pictures, they will show it! I walked the the entire "trail", but stopped too often for it to be counted as "exercise," however it does count as activity... so go me! I plan to go back next month to see Spring progress. <BR> <BR> I took a side trip to Bonnie Springs as well, just a few miles down the... Fri, 4 Mar 2016 21:09:13 EST Thursday already! My goodness this week is simply flying by! Last week the days seemed long and I still had another relaxing week ahead of me. Now here it is Thursday and I have to start slowly getting myself ready to go back to work. If nothing else, I am far more relaxed and in such a better place than when I left. <BR> <BR> Today is explore someplace I have never been before day! I'm going to venture to Calico Basin Red Springs at Red Rock Canyon. I'm hoping we have had nice enough weather that the wild ... Thu, 3 Mar 2016 13:09:49 EST Wonderful Wednesday! This morning I slept in until 7:00 (which is really rare for me, 5 is as late as I will "sleep in" as a rule) When I went out to fix my breakfast, Roomie's mom said she was going to be working at Lil Bit's school today, for at least a couple of hours, possibly all school day! Whoop! Yeah baby! I am very rarely in this house alone (except for Dora the dog) for more than an hour ...maaaaaybe two a week! This changed my whole game plan for today! I had planned on going out to Calico Springs, bu... Wed, 2 Mar 2016 12:04:55 EST YES! Oh YES! Well now, yesterday was a ball! I had my mani-pedi and remembered how nice it feels to pamper myself. It seems silly to be so tickled at having bright fuchsia finger and toe nails, But it makes me feel good. <BR> <BR> I spent the whole morning at the park! It was so lovely, cool and breezy! I drank in every bit of it! I started reading a wonderful new book that has me so jazzed I can hardly see straight AND I went to the weight loss clinic. I found a groupon for the clinic and signed up for... Tue, 1 Mar 2016 20:05:50 EST Moving forward I had a fabulous first week of vacation. I have been thinking really hard about how I want this year to go, I believe I'm laying the foundation for what promises to be an exciting and fulfilling year. Planning, meditating, searching deep within to do what I know I can and need to do! <BR> <BR> I also had fun! Spent time with an old friend I have reconnected with after a long separation.(Life ya know, has a way of causing that!) After our separate adventures and heartbreak, we are back tog... Mon, 29 Feb 2016 13:26:39 EST I'm back and feeling good! 2015 was a rough year. Major depression settled in and I once again became a recluse. It seems as if I fought it all year. So many ugly thoughts that scared me. That is not to say there weren't good moments...these I embraced and filed away in my heart to pull out when things seemed darkest. <BR> <BR> My eating got out of control and I have gained back so much weight. I see it in my belly and my face. My clothes still fit but are not loose like they were. The despair I felt drove me deeper i... Sun, 21 Feb 2016 16:55:30 EST A Lovely Sunday...I'm ready for a great week! I had a small episode on Friday, came home a couple of hours early and slept for several hours. I took easy yesterday, was careful about what I ate and as a result I felt fantastic today. <BR> <BR> So, grocery shopping done... laundry done...exercised and tracked my food. Read great stories, informational and uplifting... I have my week's menu and my wardrobe planned for the week. My sanctuary is clean and cleansed and I feel so at peace! <BR> <BR> Well, I have gotten addicted to "Under t... Sun, 13 Sep 2015 20:29:01 EST A Wonderful Holiday Weekend comes to a close It's so sad to see such a wonderful time come to an end, but I have many happy memories and some lovely new friends! <BR> <BR> We had gorgeous weather! I spent some happy hours with friends at the hotel pool and hot tub. I felt and (to me anyway) looked great. Buying couple of smaller sized tops didn't hurt and I really love my hair. Small things make a huge difference in self confidence. <BR> <BR> I did my best to eat within reason, but did over indulge a couple of times. I have proba... Mon, 7 Sep 2015 21:59:59 EST Ginormous sigh (and a couple of tears) of relief I know this is going to sound kind of drama queenish...but with all the problems I have been having over the last few month, the fear of something more than a gallbladder problem has weighed heavily upon me. <BR> <BR> Aside from a small hiatal hernia, and a very small 0.2 cm nonobstructing calyceal calculus in my right kidney, I am good! NO RECURRING CANCER! I was so afraid....But this stuff... I can handle! <BR> <BR> Now I can get on with my life... Fri, 4 Sep 2015 01:51:38 EST Let the weekend commence! Getting ready to head to the airport to pick up a friend I haven't seen in 5 years! Group of online friends getting together at the SunCoast hotel for a five day party...WooHoo! I will check in when I can...I hope everyone has a wonderful Holiday weekend! <BR> <BR> <em>244</em> <em>185</em> <em>353</em> <em>67</em> <em>298</em> <em>464</em> <em>232</em> <em>530</em> Thu, 3 Sep 2015 13:22:35 EST