AMETHYSTSTAR's SparkPeople Blog AMETHYSTSTAR's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Making progress Weigh in today...maintained which is okay...the good news is my blood pressure is back to normal. I am a happier camper today. Work is going a wee bit more smoothly and I am working on what I need to work on emotionally. It may not all happen this Full moon, but I know I can release a lot of it. <BR> <BR> 3 days of Walk Away the Pounds...working on a streak...go me! <BR> <BR> So I am cautiously optimistic. Going to work more on my meditation practice, clear more clutter, (both physical and... Tue, 22 Mar 2016 21:46:27 EST Springing into change...for the most part I spent the first beautiful morning of Spring on the patio, listening to calm music and the birds chatting away, eating a healthy breakfast, enjoying the touch of the soft cool breeze wash over me and the beauty of all the green surrounding me, (Oh, and let us not forget, doggie cuddles with Dora!) <BR> <BR> Early Spring is my second favorite time of year. (Autumn being my very favorite!) Now that I am well into my own personal New Year and with the Full Moon Eclipse just around the corner, ... Sun, 20 Mar 2016 18:38:08 EST Working on making things better at work I went to weigh in and get my injections yesterday afternoon. Part of the routine is to check my blood pressure. Last week perfectly normal 120/80...yesterday? 140/90....yeeeah...I blame it on the stress this week! <BR> <BR> A little (okay...not so little) background...I work for a radiology center that has seven locations. (when I started in 1989 we had 2 offices) I work in the referrals department. We process hundreds of referrals a day and we shared most of the work (sorting and... Wed, 16 Mar 2016 22:37:53 EST Trying so hard Changes were made at work yesterday and I am already more than stressed about it. I HAVE to get a handle on my feelings. I woke up dreading going to work. I can't even seem to quiet my mind enough to try to meditate myself calm. <BR> <BR> Life is good, I have a job, I have friends and family I love and who love me. I can do this! I am strong and capable. I am bigger than this! <BR> <BR> Today is weigh in after work. Hopefully I will have something to celebrate tonight. Just remember...It's... Tue, 15 Mar 2016 07:38:22 EST Wooohooo! Despite the now ever present vertigo which has kept me from exercising, I lost two and half pounds(although SP says only two.) I'm not going to split hairs. The shot and my watching what I have been eating is paying off. <BR> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> I got the second shot today and because of them being administered in one injection instead of three separate ones, this time hurt like a mother! Needles have never been an issue for me and now really don't bother me much even after what I... Tue, 8 Mar 2016 21:52:57 EST Better ending to the day than beginning Well, it figures I would feel better 3 hours before bedtime. *LOL* I got a little bit done today so feeling accomplished. What I didn't get done will wait until another time. <BR> <BR> Everything is ready for heading back to work tomorrow. It's going to be a great day! Meals are planned for tomorrow, so no need to think about it...just do it. In the event I don't have vertigo tomorrow when I wake up, I will Walk Away the Pounds. (DVD is in machine ready to hit play) I know what I am wearing... Sun, 6 Mar 2016 22:12:44 EST Little, gentle, baby steps today I woke up with another head spinning bout of vertigo and it is not abating as much as my first bout did. Roomie thinks it may be allergies...we have a mulberry tree in our backyard and I have had my windows open every day for the past two weeks. On top of that, the wind has REALLY kicked up over the last couple of days which may also be a contributing factor. I slept with my window closed last night and I took my allergy pill as I do every night...*shrugs* <BR> <BR> I had a busy day pla... Sun, 6 Mar 2016 14:17:34 EST First Steps Taken...Calm Center, Bright Outlook! Yesterday was wonderful! Calico Basin was lovely, even though it is still a wee bit early for wild flowers. There were lots of signs that Spring is on the way though. I hope once I download the pictures, they will show it! I walked the the entire "trail", but stopped too often for it to be counted as "exercise," however it does count as activity... so go me! I plan to go back next month to see Spring progress. <BR> <BR> I took a side trip to Bonnie Springs as well, just a few miles down the... Fri, 4 Mar 2016 21:09:13 EST Thursday already! My goodness this week is simply flying by! Last week the days seemed long and I still had another relaxing week ahead of me. Now here it is Thursday and I have to start slowly getting myself ready to go back to work. If nothing else, I am far more relaxed and in such a better place than when I left. <BR> <BR> Today is explore someplace I have never been before day! I'm going to venture to Calico Basin Red Springs at Red Rock Canyon. I'm hoping we have had nice enough weather that the wild ... Thu, 3 Mar 2016 13:09:49 EST Wonderful Wednesday! This morning I slept in until 7:00 (which is really rare for me, 5 is as late as I will "sleep in" as a rule) When I went out to fix my breakfast, Roomie's mom said she was going to be working at Lil Bit's school today, for at least a couple of hours, possibly all school day! Whoop! Yeah baby! I am very rarely in this house alone (except for Dora the dog) for more than an hour ...maaaaaybe two a week! This changed my whole game plan for today! I had planned on going out to Calico Springs, bu... Wed, 2 Mar 2016 12:04:55 EST YES! Oh YES! Well now, yesterday was a ball! I had my mani-pedi and remembered how nice it feels to pamper myself. It seems silly to be so tickled at having bright fuchsia finger and toe nails, But it makes me feel good. <BR> <BR> I spent the whole morning at the park! It was so lovely, cool and breezy! I drank in every bit of it! I started reading a wonderful new book that has me so jazzed I can hardly see straight AND I went to the weight loss clinic. I found a groupon for the clinic and signed up for... Tue, 1 Mar 2016 20:05:50 EST Moving forward I had a fabulous first week of vacation. I have been thinking really hard about how I want this year to go, I believe I'm laying the foundation for what promises to be an exciting and fulfilling year. Planning, meditating, searching deep within to do what I know I can and need to do! <BR> <BR> I also had fun! Spent time with an old friend I have reconnected with after a long separation.(Life ya know, has a way of causing that!) After our separate adventures and heartbreak, we are back tog... Mon, 29 Feb 2016 13:26:39 EST I'm back and feeling good! 2015 was a rough year. Major depression settled in and I once again became a recluse. It seems as if I fought it all year. So many ugly thoughts that scared me. That is not to say there weren't good moments...these I embraced and filed away in my heart to pull out when things seemed darkest. <BR> <BR> My eating got out of control and I have gained back so much weight. I see it in my belly and my face. My clothes still fit but are not loose like they were. The despair I felt drove me deeper i... Sun, 21 Feb 2016 16:55:30 EST A Lovely Sunday...I'm ready for a great week! I had a small episode on Friday, came home a couple of hours early and slept for several hours. I took easy yesterday, was careful about what I ate and as a result I felt fantastic today. <BR> <BR> So, grocery shopping done... laundry done...exercised and tracked my food. Read great stories, informational and uplifting... I have my week's menu and my wardrobe planned for the week. My sanctuary is clean and cleansed and I feel so at peace! <BR> <BR> Well, I have gotten addicted to "Under t... Sun, 13 Sep 2015 20:29:01 EST A Wonderful Holiday Weekend comes to a close It's so sad to see such a wonderful time come to an end, but I have many happy memories and some lovely new friends! <BR> <BR> We had gorgeous weather! I spent some happy hours with friends at the hotel pool and hot tub. I felt and (to me anyway) looked great. Buying couple of smaller sized tops didn't hurt and I really love my hair. Small things make a huge difference in self confidence. <BR> <BR> I did my best to eat within reason, but did over indulge a couple of times. I have proba... Mon, 7 Sep 2015 21:59:59 EST Ginormous sigh (and a couple of tears) of relief I know this is going to sound kind of drama queenish...but with all the problems I have been having over the last few month, the fear of something more than a gallbladder problem has weighed heavily upon me. <BR> <BR> Aside from a small hiatal hernia, and a very small 0.2 cm nonobstructing calyceal calculus in my right kidney, I am good! NO RECURRING CANCER! I was so afraid....But this stuff... I can handle! <BR> <BR> Now I can get on with my life... Fri, 4 Sep 2015 01:51:38 EST Let the weekend commence! Getting ready to head to the airport to pick up a friend I haven't seen in 5 years! Group of online friends getting together at the SunCoast hotel for a five day party...WooHoo! I will check in when I can...I hope everyone has a wonderful Holiday weekend! <BR> <BR> <em>244</em> <em>185</em> <em>353</em> <em>67</em> <em>298</em> <em>464</em> <em>232</em> <em>530</em> Thu, 3 Sep 2015 13:22:35 EST *sigh of relief* Last exam I wait for about 24 hours for the results...All day long I have been writing and chanting quietly: "I am healthy and my CT is normal." This is my mantra until I get the results. <BR> <BR> Good thoughts very much appreciated... <BR> <BR> Now I can relax and maybe get some decent sleep tonight... Tue, 1 Sep 2015 20:54:16 EST An excited quickie I just bought two tops at Walmart size 26/28...Go me! *LOL* <BR> <BR> <em>244</em> <em>185</em> Sun, 30 Aug 2015 15:56:38 EST Almost September! I am so ready for Autumn! Our mornings are little cooler, though the days are still hot! We have had a lot of cloud cover and wind, so that tempers the heat a wee bit. It has been a summer to remember, although not all of it has been good. <BR> <BR> On the up side, I got my car! Yippee! I have also spent some wonderful hours at the park with my niece playing in the water park! It's so funny that no adults will get in and play with their kids until they see me making a total fool out of mys... Sun, 30 Aug 2015 11:40:00 EST I can do this! (Waiting is the hardest part) 3 tests down, 1 to go....and this one I am really dreading. (it's kinda psychological....I found out inadvertently from a CT scan that I had cancer...) <BR> <BR> So tally for tests: ultrasound-gallbladder polyp, Hida scan -dysfunctional gallbladder, Mammogram NORMAL! (I always worry now) now it is up to the CT scan to hopefully shed light on whatever is going on. Just got the corrected referral co-worker is getting it authorized and I will have it done ASAP. <BR> <BR> In t... Thu, 20 Aug 2015 20:10:38 EST I survived! (Time for bed now!) Thank you all so much for your support! I can't tell you how much I appreciate it! *HUGS* <BR> <BR> The hida scan was not as bad as I was led to believe it would be. According to my nuc med technologist. most facilities inject the cck (the radioactive agent used to stimulate the gallbladder) all at once,which can cause the pain and nausea I was told about. Our technologists infuse the agent over 5 minutes; if there is going to be a reaction, it is mild and minimal. I had no pain, just a to... Thu, 13 Aug 2015 21:52:53 EST Going to be a long day Today is the dreaded hida scan. I couldn't sleep last night...mostly dozed in and out. Not to mention, apparently something is blooming, because my allergies flared up big time about 2:00 am. <BR> <BR> I'm trying not worry, but lack of sleep tends to make my imagination run wild. I know I'll be fine, but I am ready for my life to get back to relative normal. Next up after this test is a CT. I am REALLY hoping I don't have to have my gall bladder out. <BR> <BR> In any case, onward and upwa... Thu, 13 Aug 2015 07:35:29 EST Happy Day I finally broke 30 pounds! It's taken me a long time, but I did it...7 pounds more and I break below 300...I CAN DO IT! <BR> <BR> <em>185</em> Wed, 12 Aug 2015 07:50:22 EST More evidence that soda(Non diet and diet) is horrible Soda is something I am doing my best to eliminate from my life completely. I don't drink it often, usually reserved for when I am really dragging or at the movies. I know it is bad in a lot of ways, but an article I read really drove it home (especially in light of the problems I have been suffering with lately!). So today I begin what I hope is a life long streak! No more soda of any kind for me! <BR> <BR> The name of the article is "7 Amazing Things that Happen to Your Body When You Give ... Tue, 11 Aug 2015 07:36:07 EST Wonderful Weekend...and exercise too Best Star Trek Con yet! 2 whole days of my favorite Trek actors, dear friends, and laughter...lots and lots of deep, long, often hysterical laughter. <BR> <BR> Patrick Stewart! I finally got to see Patrick Stewart! Wheeeeeeeee! Oh and the whole Voyager cast for their 20th anniversary...I saw William Shatner for the first time, and George, Terry Farrel, oh and so many more! <BR> <BR> Caught up with old, dear friends and made a new one. I am exhausted and so relaxed...Now planning ... Mon, 10 Aug 2015 08:11:19 EST Totally unrelated to much of anything... I am so excited! I just received my Ancestry DNA results. It's most cool and just wow! Just thought I'd share... <BR> <BR> Europe 100% <BR> <BR> Europe West 39% <BR> Ireland 23% <BR> Scandinavia 16% <BR> Italy/Greece 11% <BR> Great Britain 9% <BR> Trace Regions 2% <BR> Sat, 8 Aug 2015 11:27:54 EST Pushing through...making progress The last couple of weeks have been somewhat better. Still not feeling 100%, stomach pains daily, but not like the three episodes that had me doubled over for hours on end. I am more and more determined to get back to normal as much as I humanly can. Ultrasound done, Hida scan next Thursday and a CT in the near future. (My new doctor is a wee bit overly cautious, but I can live with that!) <BR> <BR> On the upside...all my labs came back "Pristine," to quote my very happy doctor! Everything is... Fri, 7 Aug 2015 21:55:33 EST I've had a great morning...time for a nap! I was up at 4:30 this morning(early for a weekend when sleeping in is about 6:00...I'd feel late if it was a work day..I'm odd) I had blood drawn at 5:30 for my followup appointment on Thursday, then grabbed a bite to eat and went to the park to enjoy the lovely morning. <BR> <BR> The sun was just rising and the mountains were gorgeous. The park I went to has a water play area which some one had turned on. I tickled me to no end watching the birds play in the water an cackle to each other... Sat, 25 Jul 2015 13:31:21 EST One down I had my ultrasound today. It will be 2 or 3 days before I find out the results. I am really tired of not feeling good. I am missing who I was more and more! I'm not quite sure what I need to do in order to get me back. I'm really emotional again, really not liking how my thoughts are going no matter how hard I try to change them, and I am finding myself very impatient with a lot of my friends and people that I work with. I'm hoping that this is just a side effect of not feeling well cuz ... Tue, 21 Jul 2015 15:49:14 EST Now it's time for tests... My new doctor is delightful... She feels it very well could be my gall bladder. So now for blood work, an ultrasound and a Hida scan. I guess I will watch what I eat, just in case. I have no idea what will set it off. I really don't want a repeat, although I'm not naïve enough to think it won't happen again. <BR> <BR> So first things first and we will see what happens. <BR> <BR> Thu, 16 Jul 2015 20:54:00 EST I am so very done with this! I had another episode Sunday night...I was up all night with horrible stomach pain and so very sick to my stomach. About 3:30, I got dressed, pulled my futon back together and was seriously going to wake my roommate up and have her take me to ER. <BR> <BR> I sat down for a few minutes, exhausted and sore....when things started to ease up just a little and I actually dozed off for a few minutes. I kind lightly dozed off and on until I forced my self up and went to work. I fell asleep befor... Tue, 14 Jul 2015 22:22:48 EST Getting there... I'm finally feeling more like myself. My stomach is still a little off, but I'm eating all right and my energy is slowly returning. I had to work on my room yesterday, after two weeks of being sick. It wasn't awful, but it wasn't how I prefer it. Now its all clean and tidy...things where they belong and I feel more comfortable and comfy now in my welcoming space. I'm not a neat freak by any stretch of the imagination and I am most certainly NOT a perfectionist, However, since my bedroom is al... Sun, 12 Jul 2015 13:07:37 EST Rain Glorious Rain! Oh what a beautiful evening! We have been having the most wondrous rain storm for the past hour. We have all the windows and doors open and the temp has dropped several degrees. There is a mighty wind blowing and a lovely roll of thunder in the distance. <BR> <BR> I, of course, had to go out and play in the rain! It was the best part of a pretty decent day over all... <BR> <BR> The wind has lightened as has the rain, but it is still pattering outside. It smells SO good, and it is lovely h... Mon, 6 Jul 2015 22:29:45 EST Strange, but unexpectedly good day Headed out for the meeting which the automated yahoo group email said started at noon. I get there (a small, dingy old casino and it's only cafe) and no one is there. I sent a text to my good friend who runs the group, hoping the number I had for him was still good. It was, and as it turns out, yahoo groups had the time set to Greenwich mean time...which means the meeting is at 7:00 tonight. So that was a bust... <BR> <BR> Then, I made a wrong turn on Lake Mead Blvd and actually ended up ... Sun, 5 Jul 2015 21:27:54 EST Feeling better...once again...let's hope it continues this time! I finally started feeling better yesterday afternoon. After eating little more than soup and pudding for the past 3 days, the smell of my roommate barbequing hamburgers set my mouth to watering. I had a proper dinner last night with homemade ice cream and not only did it taste fantastic, but it didn't upset my stomach. In fact, I felt so much better and slept well for the first time since last week. (I weighed myself on a lark yesterday morning and lost another 3 pounds in 3 days...NOT the w... Sun, 5 Jul 2015 11:19:16 EST This really needs to stop! I ended up going to urgent care this morning after being up literally all night vomiting and having the stomach pains I had week before last. I called off work and had to get doctors note since I was sick the day before a holiday day off. *shakes* head. Needed proof that I'm sick and just not taking extra day off for a four day weekend...Jeeze. <BR> <BR> Anyway, I really thought it was food poisoning fro a really bad chicken sandwich from Mickey D's. The doctor seems to think it is a sto... Thu, 2 Jul 2015 18:17:59 EST Not the way I planned on my week... I have not been feeling well since returning from California on Sunday. I thought at first it might be heat exhaustion as it was so very hot in Corona with fairly high humidity. Add to the fact I was laced up in my bodice over4 layers skirts and bloomers, I figured that was the culprit. But I was up all night last night with stomach pain and sick to my stomach. I finally dozed off about 2:30 and was up at 4:00. I feel as if I was put through a wringer, I'm so tired My stomach is still painin... Wed, 24 Jun 2015 07:54:00 EST Excited...exhausted...and a wee bit disappointed Loving my new baby, who has been named "Joy", really looking forward to the weekend when I can take out and really get a feel for her. I have been reading the manual, there are so many more goodies to play tooth and new radio I can play MY music control, on star, phone charger,...not to mention learning her own little idiosyncrasies... <BR> <BR> My routine and rituals have bee so messed up this past month, I have not been getting nearly enough sleep and this past wee... Tue, 9 Jun 2015 21:21:22 EST A quick but bit happier blog today The past 5 days have been emotionally hellish! For reasons too complicated to go into, I spent the better part of Friday night in tears...I was out with a friend at my favorite Irish pub for First Friday and due to a conversation with my roommate the night before, I just lost it. Everything seemed so hopeless. I sat in our little booth with my girlfriend who just let me cry. It continued Saturday morning and I thought I was never going to stop crying. I took a nap and felt a little better. H... Tue, 9 Jun 2015 09:15:28 EST Long days, cranky me Back to working overtime this whole routine and schedule are totally messed up. I'm an emotional person by nature, but find myself crying at the drop of a hat. Depression is rearing it's ugly head again and I need to deal with it quickly. <BR> <BR> Apparently they have hired someone for the position that was walked out on, but for whatever reason (don't get me started) the person is not starting until the 17th. so another week and a half of stress at least...of course the person ... Thu, 4 Jun 2015 09:22:08 EST Can't keep me down! Yep! I'm back on track and feeling really good. I'm making progress on doing the upper body portion of WATP. When I started last week, I couldn't even do two or three of the arm lifts, stretches or whatever you want to call it. Today I could do 90% of them....WooHoo! I found my Richard Simmons 20 year anniversary copy of "Sweating to the Oldies!" I will do it tomorrow, it's been long time. I also have a different WATP to try. Must keep my exercise options current and varied. <BR> <BR> Fami... Sat, 30 May 2015 19:43:24 EST Lost the exercise battle today...but the war is FAR from over! I had a really bad night last, I slept maybe an hour and half and felt awful when I got up. Work was reminiscent of last week. Long story short, exercise was just not in the cards today. Initially I was disappointed, but ultimately... today is just one day. Once, not too long ago, I would have given up with the attitude of what's the point? If I have learned nothing else here at SparkPeople, it's that YOU DON'T GIVE UP! <BR> <BR> So, to quote Scarlett..."Tomorrow is another day!" YES! <BR> ... Fri, 29 May 2015 20:18:37 EST Always have a Plan "B".... I had a hard time getting up this morning, I finally slept really well, and my body wanted to stay that way! So I was up at 4 instead of 3:30 and was disappointed in myself for not dancing for half hour. So I decided to do the 1 mile walk with my WATP, and will walk on my break for 15 so I can get in my morning 30 minutes!. Normally I would have just shrugged it off, but I just couldn't do it today. I HAD to do something this morning! I really surprised myself. <BR> <BR> I have gone old sch... Thu, 28 May 2015 08:49:25 EST I feel So good that I don't even care I had a sucky day ! I was up at 3:30 and danced for 25 minutes. It rocked! <BR> <BR> My roomie was in a really bad mood which made for a strained drive into work. As predicted, the day was freaking busy and my phone never stopped ringing. There were a few tense minutes I didn't handle well, but over all I survived. AND I got to work my regular Yay me! <BR> <BR> Once I got home, with a slightly cheerier roomie, I immediately changed and walked 2 miles with my Walk Away the Pounds. I even used my resi... Tue, 26 May 2015 20:45:12 EST And She's Off! I'm full of butterflies, I'm quivery in my tummy and full of anticipation for the coming of Summer! I have spent the past three days preparing for what I am determined is going to be a very healthy summer. Thanks to the weight I have lost over the last few weeks, and and the new team I belong to and challenge I in which I am participating, I am revved up and raring to go! <BR> <BR> I danced for 30 minutes this morning and did 1 mile with my Walk away the Pound this afternoon, just to prove ... Mon, 25 May 2015 21:02:25 EST gently was for about 15 Minutes! After my roommates (hereafter known as "family") left for their busy day, I took a long,wonderfully hot, restorative shower. It was then my body decided that I had more energy than my brain thought I did and I have been going ever since! Had a healthy breakfast/brunch, cleaned my room and bathroom, dusted, vacuumed, cleaned and organized my pantry shelf, and threw on laundry! I feel wonderful! <BR> <BR> <em>185</em> <BR> <BR> Now I am waiting for my laundry to dry, then I think I will ... Sat, 23 May 2015 16:13:35 EST Treating myself gently this long weekend My body as declared it is going to be a very lazy day. I think my body realized that we didn't HAVE to do anything and it is really letting me know how unhappy it has been this last week. I hardly have the energy to move. I slept deep and hard until the sun came up just before 5:00, so i just dozed on and off until I couldn't anymore. (I had a REALLY weird dream that I remember, which tells me I was deeply asleep for the fist time in over a week)I do think I am going to get a sleep mask for... Sat, 23 May 2015 12:26:43 EST 1 pound at a time...I can do this! This has been an incredibly difficult week! One of my co-workers just up and walked out Tuesday at 11:30, leaving an already stressed out, over worked department of 3 in the lurch. Now down to just two of us, I have been working just short of 12 hour days since then. I take my lunch break but not my other two breaks, as there are so many referrals to process, so our patients can have their procedures done in a timely manner. For the first time in my life I know the meaning of the word wear... Fri, 22 May 2015 08:27:10 EST A better day than I could have hoped for! In spite the very cranky start to my morning, I had a pretty good day! I walked on both my breaks and stayed well within my calorie range, even with the additional calories from my walks. I am completely satiated, and still had 409 calories left over. Despite myself, I am making progress! <BR> <BR> That makes me happy! Well that and the Thunder storm we had today! I was really , really hoping it rain on me during my first walk. The sky was SO dark and foreboding, the air was rife with the h... Mon, 18 May 2015 21:52:53 EST