AMEENA5's SparkPeople Blog AMEENA5's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Starting from where I left off... <img src=""> <BR> I will improve my health. I have started to visit the doctor regulary, recently met with a naturopath and even had my first massage! I have realized that I need to take smaller steps on this part of my journey. A little daunted by what goals to set...but I will set them! *photo taken by me😊 Sun, 1 Apr 2018 19:42:38 EST Where to start? I really really have to change my eating habits. I just don't know where to start. Tried thinking about it today but found it overwhelming. <BR> <BR> At this time I even find the nutrition tracker intimidating. <BR> <BR> Still happy and feeling blessed. <BR> <BR> I hope all you Super Sparkers are doing well. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Picture courtesy of: <BR><BR>et-glow-over-a-snowy-mountai... Wed, 7 Jan 2015 22:07:14 EST Small things do add up... Realized halfway through the day at work...I did not have a mini dance party celebration for myself on Sunday. <BR> <BR> I decided to review and update my SP goals. In order to do so I had to weigh-in. No excuses. I had my mobile app open and ready to go so that I couldn't use turning on the laptop and logging in as an excuse. <BR> <BR> I weighed myself...then proceeded to do it three more times to verify. I had lost 4 pounds since my last weigh-in in November. <BR> <BR> This is witho... Tue, 6 Jan 2015 22:22:26 EST goes on How blessed I am to have all of you Super Sparkers. Many many thanks for your kindness. <BR> <BR> I didn't succumb to the sweet siren call of chocolate last night. My alternative was no better, I had no sleep. Dumb. Extremely dumb considering I returned to work today after my holidays. <BR> <BR> I realized how blessed and content I can be...if I just allow it. I did voice my discontent of being left out today...and refused to do any 'favours'. Funny you remember me for all the chores ... Mon, 5 Jan 2015 22:01:59 EST What to do when the heart starts to ache?? Not the way I wanted to start the new year but I think avoiding social media (with the exception of might be a good thing. <BR> <BR> I've come to notice over the recent holidays a group of friends have been avoiding/excluding me. I wish I could openly ask what's going on but I have a feeling the answer will be that it's all in my head (I've had that response before). <BR> <BR> I know I'm not perfect and make a lot of mistakes. I'm an adult and I feel childish while I type... Sun, 4 Jan 2015 19:12:52 EST 2015 Say WHAT?!! Where did 2014 GO?! Dear me the last time I touched my blog was exactly a year ago...EEEEEEEK! <BR> <BR> I wish you all an amazing 2015. I wish my fellow Super Sparkers a year that fulfills your hearts, souls, bodies and minds. May you all be safe and happy. <BR> <BR> Remember you are loved, cared for and important. You ARE worth it and you ARE enough throughout every single moment of every single day. <BR> <BR> I don't believe in resolutions but I do believe in momentum. I am extrem... Thu, 1 Jan 2015 20:19:13 EST I am ENOUGH! A Happy New Year to all my fellow 'Sparkers'! <BR> <BR> I wish you a 2014 full of love, happiness, fulfillment and I wish you find yourselves in constant showers of blessings. <BR> <BR> Do you know when you're feeling out of sorts, not quite sad, not quite angry but just not feeling 'right'?!! That's how I was feeling until a few minutes ago. Then I decided to sign-in to Sparkpeople to update my goals and find some motivation. <BR> <BR> The first thing I read as soon as signed in: <BR> ... Wed, 1 Jan 2014 20:41:23 EST It's okay to be OK A lot to think about this week. All I know is that it's okay to be OK. Thu, 5 Sep 2013 23:39:15 EST I'm TRYING!!! I'm trying to get in a little bit of exercise everyday. I'm sore but I'm happy. A goal for the future is to become a certified Zumba instructor. <BR> <BR> My eating habit stink but I'll get there (one of these days). So far I'm trying to get my eight glasses of water a day. <BR> <BR> Staying motivated so far hasn't been too bad. I listen to Sparkpeople Radio on the way into work everyday. After I'm done listening, I then read one or two Sparkpeople articles. It's a positive way to sta... Wed, 28 Aug 2013 21:52:39 EST So much to think much to look forward to!!! I should explain yesterday's blog post lol. It was the worst day at work EVER. Think of anything and everything that could go wrong...and it did. I am amazed we didn't get angry at one another! THAT'S when you know you work with solid people. <BR> <BR> A few things happened today that triggered a lot of thinking for me: <BR> -sorted through three boxes of 'skinny' clothes that I had packed away for more than two years <BR> -listened to an amazing segment on the radio about technology and... Mon, 26 Aug 2013 00:13:31 EST Silence. Sometimes silence is the best thing ever. Sat, 24 Aug 2013 23:58:43 EST Dealing with Clutter! Have to say I'm not as much as a clutter hog as I used to be, had to work very hard to improve myself. <BR> <BR> I realized recently after posting my blog entry I wasn't happy with my untidy room when I looked around. While I was tidying I realized it had been a while since I had done a thorough sorting/clearing. I used to do it every 2 months. <BR> <BR> I've still got a bit to go though but I'm very happy with the progress I made so far. <BR> <BR> I realize that I have to approach my ... Mon, 19 Aug 2013 22:33:10 EST Peace. Thank goodness my friend's brother was found and he is now reunited with his family. <BR> <BR> Thank God. Wed, 14 Aug 2013 22:49:54 EST I am blessed. WE are blessed! A few hours ago I heard the sad news that the brother of a young woman I've known since I was ten has been missing since Saturday. <BR> <BR> Ya Rab, Ya Allah please ensure the safe return of this father, husband, son and brother to his family's embrace. Ya Allah please ease the ache within the open arms of his loved ones waiting for his embrace. Ya Allah please ease the aches and fears that passing through the minds of those who are counting the seconds that pass from when they last saw him.... Tue, 13 Aug 2013 23:20:49 EST Can't look at 'chores' the same way... I don't know if any of you use your phone as a lifeline more than the actual/ initial purpose of the phone (to make/receive calls). <BR> <BR> I have had an Android phone for just under a year now. I never EVER freaked out if I had left my blackberry at home once upon a time....but NOW I miss everything if I forget my phone at home. <BR> <BR> Looking over my to do list on my "Any.Do" app today. I adore this app but haven't really taken full advantage of it. I just keep delaying my tasks o... Mon, 12 Aug 2013 22:27:58 EST It's a process...and I have to love myself So if I had posted a blog entry yesterday it would have been full of doom and gloom...on top of a WHOLE lot of self-loathing. <BR> <BR> What brought me back to Sparkpeople yesterday was a serious trigger Friday night. I had to pack my clothes to go for a dinner the following day. Wasn't practical to come home from work and get ready.... <BR> <BR> I dashed downstairs to grab some formal wear to try on...well the deciding factor didn't take long. 90% of the outfits no longer fit.....EEEEEE... Sun, 11 Aug 2013 23:51:31 EST Best BIRTHDAY EVER!!!! I love you all. <BR> Family, friends and colleagues at work....made this the best birthday!!! <BR> Sat, 16 Feb 2013 23:34:54 EST Not quite what I had worries. Asides from a marathon grocery shopping session this day has been a write-off. I'm not happy about how that's sitting with me now. Couldn't even bear to look at the treadmill because I'm still so sore from Friday night. I spent most of the day in bed. <BR> <BR> I'm hoping for a good night's sleep tonight. Tomorrow instead of sweating the small stuff I think I'll spend a good chunk of the day planning overall for the next couple of months across the board. <BR> <BR> I did set a schedule and... Sun, 10 Feb 2013 22:20:28 EST And hiding NEVER works.... So 13 days ago was the last I had been on SparkPeople....NOT my smartest move. I was down and had pretty much given up when I saw my lack of weight loss...then proceeded to start gaining weight again....ugh dumb dumb dumb move. <BR> <BR> I had stopped exercising and tracking my food. <BR> <BR> Lessons learned: <BR> *once one starts exercising falls in love with it....yes in stop exercising means one has lost the love of their life <BR> <BR> *once one stops exerc... Sat, 9 Feb 2013 23:09:26 EST A little sad. I didn't lose any weight this week. <BR> <BR> I know that it was because of poor food choices and poor eating habits. <BR> I still exercised this week. <BR> <BR> I'm worried because I don't want this to be it. I really need to lose weight. Sun, 27 Jan 2013 22:24:29 EST Being organized helps.....a lot!!! Was seriously sleep deprived today. Stayed up late trying to get my laundry done. Glad I did it though. <BR> <BR> I learned an important lesson though while I was at work today. I had a headache and was hungry, I had my hot chocolate mix and my water cup at my desk. As time passed I started groaning thinking I had to go to Tim Horton's during break and grab a bite to eat....but I didn't. <BR> <BR> I had gotten my food ready and packed the night before. I've been doing it every night f... Sat, 26 Jan 2013 19:19:14 EST I am grateful Grateful for the job I love. <BR> Grateful for my amazing mother. <BR> Grateful I can live life to it's fullest now, and realize THERE is a life to live! <BR> Grateful that exhausted as I am, I will not lament the fact that I did not manage to do 45 minutes on the treadmill but.... <BR> Grateful that I shoveled snow for 20 minutes, and LOVED every second of it. Fri, 25 Jan 2013 21:43:25 EST Tragedies are lessons as well...the hardest ones. Managed to exercise today even though I didn't want to whatsoever, I just wanted to crawl into bed as soon as I got home. Forced myself to...It helped clear my head a little...but not my heart. <BR> <BR> A woman was hit and dragged by a bus yesterday afternoon outside of work. Sadly she died this morning as a result of her injuries. My heart goes out to that woman, her fear, her pain...I can't imagine being dragged and pinned under a bus. My heart goes out to her loved ones. <BR> <BR> ... Thu, 24 Jan 2013 21:17:01 EST Augh!!!!!! I am feeling out of sorts. <BR> <BR> I can't regret taking control of my eating. By tracking it's made me realize how careless I have been. I don't even overeat as I once thought I did. Instead I UNDER EAT!!!! I feel like food is constantly on my mind. <BR> <BR> I continue to exercise, and I continue to enjoy it more and more. <BR> <BR> I feel frustrated though with learning how to manage my time better so that I can fit in all these new changes. I can't study because I feel so pres... Wed, 23 Jan 2013 22:50:24 EST Starting to get my groove... I am getting used to exercising. Without exercising it feels like something is missing from my day. Wow can't remember feeling this way since I was a kid. Wow. <BR> <BR> Still struggling with my eating habits...hopefully I can improve bit by bit. <BR> <BR> Time to hit the books tonight....hopefully I can get some reading done. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> This picture is courtesy of: <BR><BR>k_... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 18:08:59 EST Yikes Oh what a day....I really blew it when it came to being careful of what I'm putting in my mouth. My mind is screaming no but my body had it's own plans :( <BR> <BR> I did go on treadmill for 45 min. though, so I'll take some pride in that. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow is another day, a better day....I hope. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This picture is courtesy of: <BR><BR>2066/ <BR> <BR> Mon, 21 Jan 2013 22:01:32 EST 2013 and I'm back ;) Wow. It's been over a year since I last posted a blog entry on SP. I didn't realize how much I've missed SP over this last year. I was going to sign up with Weight Watchers when suddenly SparkPeople popped into mind. <BR> <BR> I'm so grateful I remembered this online community and downloaded the app onto my phone. <BR> <BR> The last two weeks of change has been tough but worth it. I'm feeling really motivated and starting to see some small results. <BR> <BR> Here's to 2013 and me droppi... Sun, 20 Jan 2013 23:21:53 EST Oh crud I'm losing weight!!! Holy smokes I weighed myself on Friday....and didn't believe the scale....thought it was broken. I weighed myself 5 more times just to make sure. Wow can't believe I'm actually losing weight. <BR> So excited and motivated now. <BR> <BR> As for my room. Still messy but not as impossible as before still have work to do. Mon, 3 Jan 2011 01:04:26 EST Oh dear. Sigh. Omg. I've bitten off more than I can chew. My room is a disaster!!! Ahhhhhhhh, this is so stressful! Sun, 26 Dec 2010 22:08:27 EST Tackling the closet....yikes. I hope that everyone has enjoyed their Christmas Day (if you celebrate, if not I hope you enjoyed your day off!) <BR> <BR> Decided that I should drag out the boxes in my closet and unpack them. Holy smokes, I never realized how much stuff I had packed.....eeeeek. I am determined though to have them unpacked and my room tidied by the time I go to bed tomorrow. Fairly big undertaking but I can do it! <BR> <BR> Before heading into work on Wednesday I hope to have formed a more solid weight los... Sat, 25 Dec 2010 23:22:37 EST Yikes Happy Anniversary!!! It's been three years today that I first discovered Sparkpeople.....holy smokes. THREE YEARS!! <BR> I hope this year is better! Fri, 24 Dec 2010 15:21:34 EST Struggling is an understatement. About a month ago I logged back into Sparkpeople for the first time since March of this year. Several factors drew me back to Sparkpeople: <BR> <BR> **A terrible embarrassing incident in mid September brought on one of the worse bingeing episodes I've experienced in the past ten years. I was beyond out of control till almost the end of November. I will detail this later...right now I don't want to cry before going to bed. <BR> **My health has deteriorated terribly. <BR> **I feel lost. <BR> ... Thu, 23 Dec 2010 23:54:55 EST HAPPY!! Slowly starting to hit some initial balance with my new schedule....VERY happy with that development. Found a natural remedy to help with the sleep for now. I think I can stop using it soon but VERY happy that it helped <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> My friend just shared some great news with me and I'm SO happy for her, giggle. <BR> <BR> I'm really ready to sit down and focus more on ME! Goal for this weekend is to go over my nutrition plan AND an exercise schedule!!!! Can we say EXCITING?!! I'm s... Thu, 4 Mar 2010 22:35:36 EST Still drained... Still feeling drained. Proud to say I'm getting better with my water intake! I'm also working on eating more consistently throughout the day as opposed to waiting till I'm starving. <BR> <BR> Hopefully tomorrow will be better. <BR> <BR> Any suggestions for some positive reading? <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Tue, 2 Mar 2010 21:14:18 EST Feeling down, drained and just not so great. I am feeling pretty down right now. Hoping that I'll feel better tomorrow. Just feeling overwhelmed with so many thoughts going through my mind. Worried now that the cluttered thoughts are now leading to physical clutter. <BR> <BR> Not sure what to do when I'm feeling like this... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Mon, 1 Mar 2010 22:44:59 EST This is how WE do it! Eh?! Omg what an amazing hockey game. Talk about a nail-biter!!!! Crazzzzzy right?!! <BR> <BR> WE WON THE GOLD! WOOOO HOO! <BR> <BR> I'm so jittery and excited I don't think I can blog very well tonight. I'm so happy....oh so happy <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> I do know I have to watch myself carefully this week. My sleep has been dreadful this past week, I have to make sure that this week will NOT follow suit. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> GOL... Sun, 28 Feb 2010 23:01:52 EST Be GRATEFUL!!! After a very,very,verrrrrrrry long time I finally went to the dentist. <BR> <BR> Ouch.Ouch.OUCH. I deserve it big time though, since I neglected myself (and teeth) so badly for so long. <BR> <BR> Then I start thinking about other things and let my mind wander and realize I should be grateful for such pain (sounds crazy right?). <BR> <BR> This is why I am grateful: <BR> 1. <BR> I can feel the pain, (I am alive and well). <BR> 2. <BR> I have a job with benefits with some dental coverage whi... Sat, 27 Feb 2010 22:32:44 EST Oh my word... Can we say exhauseted? Pardon me, can we SHOUT exhausted?!! <BR> <BR> What a week. It went by fast enough but sheesh I am tired. Beyond tired...I just adjusting schedules even by a couple of hours isn't as easy as it looks. <BR> <BR> I am improving on my water intake. I think meal planning will work best for me. I'm going to try that a for a few days this week at least. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Fri, 26 Feb 2010 22:08:54 EST Just because... Ok I'm struggling to adjust to my schedule, no biggie but I'm feeling really really tired. Ah but it'll work out, that I am sure of. <BR> <BR> Good thing about having a regular schedule is that I'm realizing and focusing more on my eating habits (and tendencies lol). I'm determined this weekend to go over my goals and update my Sparkpeople start page and mySparkpeople page. <BR> <BR> But I am at peace. I am happy and I'm determined to make all of this work. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://phot... Thu, 25 Feb 2010 23:06:48 EST SMILE!! You ARE beautiful!!! **Thank you again for all your support, it motivates me to work harder, not give and most importantly...keep logging back into Sparkpeople*** <BR> <BR> Well today proved to be very interesting, and showed what a 'ditz' I can be. A gold medal to my mother dearest who was so kind to pack a very good and healthy meal for me to take to work. A piece of lead for me for forgetting I had a packed lunch and went and bought one. <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> I won an award yesterday recognizing my results... Wed, 24 Feb 2010 21:52:42 EST Happy happy HAPPY!!! I finally got full-time hours permanently at work!!! It's really really competitive for those positions and only a few open up about twice a year. <BR> <BR> I HAVE A STEADY SCHEDULE!!! <BR> <BR> So much to be grateful for and I'm starting to exerecise again!!! How cool is that?!!! <BR> <BR> Doing a happy happy dance now <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Tue, 23 Feb 2010 21:05:06 EST Not so smart. Realized one of my many weakness'. In this case with M&M's and chocolates I'm going to start seriously limiting my quantities. Banning won't work because it leads to wanting and longing. <em>15</em> <BR> <BR> In this case out sight out of mind would actually work for me. This I know. Working on increasing my water intake. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Mon, 15 Feb 2010 20:21:43 EST THANK YOU! <em>214</em> First off Happy Valentine's Day!!! <em>214</em> I had a great day with my Dad (Mom's out of town so I got to be Valentine!!!) annnnnnnnnnnd I did not pig out on chocolate or on poor food choices. HOW COOL IS THAT?!! And V-Day treat was great :) Isn't great when Dads save the day (or weekend in this case). <BR> <BR> Thank you all for all your support and kind words. It really REALLY helps that you understand, support and do not judge. I don't feel crazy anymore. <BR> <BR> So I... Sun, 14 Feb 2010 23:48:53 EST Kind of hard... Thank you for the welcome back! Very much appreciated :) <BR> <BR> I'm finding it extremely difficult to get back on track but I refuse to give up <img src=""> Sat, 13 Feb 2010 23:01:59 EST Holy smokes it's been AGES!!! Had a very rude awakening a few days ago that brought me out of 'lala' land. <BR> <BR> I was trying on clothes, clothes that are in pictures on this page....they do not fit.... <BR> they do not fit...... <BR> THEY DO NOT FIT!!!! <BR> THEY ARE TOO TIGHT!!! <BR> <BR> I ran to the scale and weighed myself. <BR> <BR> Serious denial is OVER!!!! I really need to focus and get back on track. Fri, 12 Feb 2010 22:23:29 EST Sniffle.... I've been struggling with the sniffles....trying to keep them at bay. I will have to bow out of attending a wedding reception tomorrow night :( <BR> <BR> I didn't track my food today. Not good. <BR> <BR> I did keep up my water intake though and I feel good. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR><BR>/2007/08/big-storm-clouds-over-beach.jpg Mon, 28 Sep 2009 21:12:23 EST :) Thank you!!! <BR> <BR> I'm battling a cold, le sigh. <BR> <BR> My goal for tomorrow is keep track of all the food I eat. I'm walking around with my WW tracker...starting tomorrow. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Sun, 27 Sep 2009 20:31:23 EST Whoa a month...... a WHOLE month! It has been forever since I last posted on my blog!!! <BR> <BR> Well I'm trying to get back on track now. I'm hoping for some progress I really do want to meet some of my goals.... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Sat, 26 Sep 2009 22:02:42 EST Remember the little things. Ramadan is going very well. My eating is fabulous! I'm not overindulging when I break my fast and am noticing that I'm eating much much healthier. Yipeee! <BR> <BR> On the way home today I was just looking around me and realized how much we take for granted. I am truly grateful for what I have. Praise God for all that He has provided. <BR> <BR> I went to my weight watchers meeting today. The gaining has FINALLY stopped! I lost 2 pounds!!! HUGE sigh of relief! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://p... Wed, 26 Aug 2009 22:32:55 EST :) I don't have much to write today....been a very quiet day but one that I've really enjoyed. Did quite a bit of cleaning and sorting and am very pleased with that. <BR> <BR> Fasting today was great....a few more hours left until I can break my fast but so far so good. I do need to stop shopping though that's what all this sorting today has revealed to me. I shop waaaaaaaaaaay too much. Any ideas on how to stop? <BR> <BR> Ramadan Kareem to everyone! I hope that you all are having a fabulous w... Sat, 22 Aug 2009 18:12:39 EST