AMEENA5's SparkPeople Blog

Best BIRTHDAY EVER!!!!

Sat, 16 Feb 2013 23:34:54 EST

I love you all.
Family, friends and colleagues at work....made this the best birthday!!!

Not quite what I had planned.....no worries.

Sun, 10 Feb 2013 22:20:28 EST

Asides from a marathon grocery shopping session this day has been a write-off. I'm not happy about how that's sitting with me now. Couldn't even bear to look at the treadmill because I'm still so sore from Friday night. I spent most of the day in bed.

I'm hoping for a good night's sleep tonight. Tomorrow instead of sweating the small stuff I think I'll spend a good chunk of the day planning overall for the next couple of months across the board.

I did set a schedule and...

And hiding NEVER works....

Sat, 9 Feb 2013 23:09:26 EST

So 13 days ago was the last I had been on SparkPeople....NOT my smartest move. I was down and had pretty much given up when I saw my lack of weight loss...then proceeded to start gaining weight again....ugh dumb dumb dumb move.

I had stopped exercising and tracking my food.

Lessons learned:
*once one starts exercising regularly....one falls in love with it....yes in LOVE...to stop exercising means one has lost the love of their life

*once one stops exerc...

A little sad.

Sun, 27 Jan 2013 22:24:29 EST

I didn't lose any weight this week.

I know that it was because of poor food choices and poor eating habits.
I still exercised this week.

I'm worried because I don't want this to be it. I really need to lose weight.

Being organized helps.....a lot!!!

Sat, 26 Jan 2013 19:19:14 EST

Was seriously sleep deprived today. Stayed up late trying to get my laundry done. Glad I did it though.

I learned an important lesson though while I was at work today. I had a headache and was hungry, I had my hot chocolate mix and my water cup at my desk. As time passed I started groaning thinking I had to go to Tim Horton's during break and grab a bite to eat....but I didn't.

I had gotten my food ready and packed the night before. I've been doing it every night f...

I am grateful

Fri, 25 Jan 2013 21:43:25 EST

Grateful for the job I love.
Grateful for my amazing mother.
Grateful I can live life to it's fullest now, and realize THERE is a life to live!
Grateful that exhausted as I am, I will not lament the fact that I did not manage to do 45 minutes on the treadmill but....
Grateful that I shoveled snow for 20 minutes, and LOVED every second of it.

Tragedies are lessons as well...the hardest ones.

Thu, 24 Jan 2013 21:17:01 EST

Managed to exercise today even though I didn't want to whatsoever, I just wanted to crawl into bed as soon as I got home. Forced myself to...It helped clear my head a little...but not my heart.

A woman was hit and dragged by a bus yesterday afternoon outside of work. Sadly she died this morning as a result of her injuries. My heart goes out to that woman, her fear, her pain...I can't imagine being dragged and pinned under a bus. My heart goes out to her loved ones.

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Augh!!!!!!

Wed, 23 Jan 2013 22:50:24 EST

I am feeling out of sorts.

I can't regret taking control of my eating. By tracking it's made me realize how careless I have been. I don't even overeat as I once thought I did. Instead I UNDER EAT!!!! I feel like food is constantly on my mind.

I continue to exercise, and I continue to enjoy it more and more.

I feel frustrated though with learning how to manage my time better so that I can fit in all these new changes. I can't study because I feel so pres...

Starting to get my groove...

Tue, 22 Jan 2013 18:08:59 EST

I am getting used to exercising. Without exercising it feels like something is missing from my day. Wow can't remember feeling this way since I was a kid. Wow.

Still struggling with my eating habits...hopefully I can improve bit by bit.

Time to hit the books tonight....hopefully I can get some reading done.

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Yikes

Mon, 21 Jan 2013 22:01:32 EST

Oh what a day....I really blew it when it came to being careful of what I'm putting in my mouth. My mind is screaming no but my body had it's own plans :(

I did go on treadmill for 45 min. though, so I'll take some pride in that.

Tomorrow is another day, a better day....I hope.

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2013 and I'm back ;)

Sun, 20 Jan 2013 23:21:53 EST

Wow. It's been over a year since I last posted a blog entry on SP. I didn't realize how much I've missed SP over this last year. I was going to sign up with Weight Watchers when suddenly SparkPeople popped into mind.

I'm so grateful I remembered this online community and downloaded the app onto my phone.

The last two weeks of change has been tough but worth it. I'm feeling really motivated and starting to see some small results.

Here's to 2013 and me droppi...

Oh crud I'm losing weight!!!

Mon, 3 Jan 2011 01:04:26 EST

Holy smokes I weighed myself on Friday....and didn't believe the scale....thought it was broken. I weighed myself 5 more times just to make sure. Wow can't believe I'm actually losing weight.
So excited and motivated now.

As for my room. Still messy but not as impossible as before still have work to do.

Oh dear. Sigh.

Sun, 26 Dec 2010 22:08:27 EST

Omg. I've bitten off more than I can chew. My room is a disaster!!! Ahhhhhhhh, this is so stressful!

Tackling the closet....yikes.

Sat, 25 Dec 2010 23:22:37 EST

I hope that everyone has enjoyed their Christmas Day (if you celebrate, if not I hope you enjoyed your day off!)

Decided that I should drag out the boxes in my closet and unpack them. Holy smokes, I never realized how much stuff I had packed.....eeeeek. I am determined though to have them unpacked and my room tidied by the time I go to bed tomorrow. Fairly big undertaking but I can do it!

Before heading into work on Wednesday I hope to have formed a more solid weight los...

Yikes Happy Anniversary!!!

Fri, 24 Dec 2010 15:21:34 EST

It's been three years today that I first discovered Sparkpeople.....holy smokes. THREE YEARS!!
I hope this year is better!

Struggling is an understatement.

Thu, 23 Dec 2010 23:54:55 EST

About a month ago I logged back into Sparkpeople for the first time since March of this year. Several factors drew me back to Sparkpeople:

**A terrible embarrassing incident in mid September brought on one of the worse bingeing episodes I've experienced in the past ten years. I was beyond out of control till almost the end of November. I will detail this later...right now I don't want to cry before going to bed.
**My health has deteriorated terribly.
**I feel lost.
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HAPPY!!

Thu, 4 Mar 2010 22:35:36 EST

Slowly starting to hit some initial balance with my new schedule....VERY happy with that development. Found a natural remedy to help with the sleep for now. I think I can stop using it soon but VERY happy that it helped 30

My friend just shared some great news with me and I'm SO happy for her, giggle.

I'm really ready to sit down and focus more on ME! Goal for this weekend is to go over my nutrition plan AND an exercise schedule!!!! Can we say EXCITING?!! I'm s...

Still drained...

Tue, 2 Mar 2010 21:14:18 EST

Still feeling drained. Proud to say I'm getting better with my water intake! I'm also working on eating more consistently throughout the day as opposed to waiting till I'm starving.

Hopefully tomorrow will be better.

Any suggestions for some positive reading?

Feeling down, drained and just not so great.

Mon, 1 Mar 2010 22:44:59 EST

I am feeling pretty down right now. Hoping that I'll feel better tomorrow. Just feeling overwhelmed with so many thoughts going through my mind. Worried now that the cluttered thoughts are now leading to physical clutter.

Not sure what to do when I'm feeling like this...

This is how WE do it! Eh?!

Sun, 28 Feb 2010 23:01:52 EST

Omg what an amazing hockey game. Talk about a nail-biter!!!! Crazzzzzy right?!!

WE WON THE GOLD! WOOOO HOO!

I'm so jittery and excited I don't think I can blog very well tonight. I'm so happy....oh so happy 30

I do know I have to watch myself carefully this week. My sleep has been dreadful this past week, I have to make sure that this week will NOT follow suit.

GOL...

Be GRATEFUL!!!

Sat, 27 Feb 2010 22:32:44 EST

After a very,very,verrrrrrrry long time I finally went to the dentist.

Ouch.Ouch.OUCH. I deserve it big time though, since I neglected myself (and teeth) so badly for so long.

Then I start thinking about other things and let my mind wander and realize I should be grateful for such pain (sounds crazy right?).

This is why I am grateful:
1.
I can feel the pain, (I am alive and well).
2.
I have a job with benefits with some dental coverage whi...

Oh my word...

Fri, 26 Feb 2010 22:08:54 EST

Can we say exhauseted? Pardon me, can we SHOUT exhausted?!!

What a week. It went by fast enough but sheesh I am tired. Beyond tired...I just adjusting schedules even by a couple of hours isn't as easy as it looks.

I am improving on my water intake. I think meal planning will work best for me. I'm going to try that a for a few days this week at least.

Just because...

Thu, 25 Feb 2010 23:06:48 EST

Ok I'm struggling to adjust to my schedule, no biggie but I'm feeling really really tired. Ah but it'll work out, that I am sure of.

Good thing about having a regular schedule is that I'm realizing and focusing more on my eating habits (and tendencies lol). I'm determined this weekend to go over my goals and update my Sparkpeople start page and mySparkpeople page.

But I am at peace. I am happy and I'm determined to make all of this work.

:)

Sat, 22 Aug 2009 18:12:39 EST

I don't have much to write today....been a very quiet day but one that I've really enjoyed. Did quite a bit of cleaning and sorting and am very pleased with that.

Fasting today was great....a few more hours left until I can break my fast but so far so good. I do need to stop shopping though that's what all this sorting today has revealed to me. I shop waaaaaaaaaaay too much. Any ideas on how to stop?

Ramadan Kareem to everyone! I hope that you all are having a fabulous w...

Ameena LOVES me time!

Fri, 21 Aug 2009 18:26:58 EST

So I had some me time today and LOVED it. Cost $$$$ but not regreting a penny spent. Day went very well and am happy of the decisions I made today :)

Hope the weekend goes well too.

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Tee hee!!! (Giggle) and a little shake of my big booty!

Thu, 20 Aug 2009 23:25:13 EST

Wow I really stood up for myself today!!! I am so happy and proud of myself. All in all the day was ok....I was a little frustrated with how my breaks were scheduled for today so I ended feeling really, really drained...ah well such is life.

I can't wait for tomorrow!!! Scheduled some me time for myself.....woo hoo!!!

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Le sigh!

Wed, 19 Aug 2009 19:40:34 EST

I went to my Weight Watchers meeting at work today and boy am I sad. Nope not about my weight but about the leader that we actually have.

Let me explain....

We had a new leader come in today because ours in on holiday. She was: FANTABULOUS!!! Yes, FANTABULOUS!!! She was kind, hard working, motivating and understanding. She gave out all these incentives and was great to EVERYONE.

Ours is a HUGE big lazy butt. Yes I may be bad but that`s how much the difference ...

Whoa....

Tue, 18 Aug 2009 18:43:22 EST

I had very interesting meetings with both my manager and another manager today. It came out of the blue but made me stop to think how lucky I am to have a manager who believes so much in me.

Our Holy Month of Ramadan begins at the end of this week, when we fast from sunrise to sunset everyday for a month. I'll take these meetings as a blessing from the month to come. I'm going to sit down and set some goals for the month including those that are spiritual in nature.

I am...

Ewwww and oooooooooouch.

Mon, 17 Aug 2009 18:18:48 EST

All in all my day has been great!!! I`m starting to feel very positive and am sure that I`ll be able to get back on track and STAY on track!!!!

I can`t focus on much more right now because my eye is really really hurting me. I`m going to a clinic to get it checked out.

Happy!Happy!Happy! Ouch. Ouch. Happy!Happy!Happy! Ouch. Ouch.

I am feeling so BLESSED!

Sun, 16 Aug 2009 21:31:43 EST

My personal trainer met with me today outside of the gym. Yup we went out and had FUN!!! I understand that she had nothing to do with the message on Friday and she has stated with me that we're together for LIFE! I found a constructive way to file a complaint and the director WILL be dealt with!!

Word of advice: If you need to speak with someone and leave a message MAKE SURE IT'S POLITE. Why? Because messages can be saved and played again.

It may not have been a product...

Slowing down it ok, slowing down is ok, slowing down is ok.....

Sat, 15 Aug 2009 19:03:53 EST

As you can tell I decided to slow things down drastically for today. I did make it for my weight watchers meeting this morning. I am very glad that I went! It was extremely motivating.

I had to slow things down because I had very little sleep, my fault for staying up too late but I don't regret it as long as I don't fall back into this habit again. (I've been training myself to go to bed earlier these days and it has made an enormous difference).

By slowing down I reali...

To feel or not to feel?

Fri, 14 Aug 2009 19:36:32 EST

1. Never ever skip breakfast, doing so can almost certainly set a poor tone for the rest of the day.
2. Having sugary snacks instead of breakfast can make you sick to your stomach.
3. Don't take things personally, just not worth the stress.

All in all my day was ok. I was annoyed and upset with a really rude message left for me by an employee at my gym. Oh wouldn't life be perfect if I could regularly attend three sessions a week...but I need to work so that I can afford ...

Not feeling very well :(

Thu, 13 Aug 2009 21:39:18 EST

Today started out very well but I started feeling exhausted by late afternoon...god I don't feel so well...annnnnnnnnnnnnd I really blew it with my eating today too.

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Not so sleepy, feeling good!!!

Wed, 12 Aug 2009 20:50:51 EST

Omg today was so so so odd. But first:
My eating was great today and health wise I was feeling on top of the world.

Emotionally it was so odd....I did a placement today that I needed to do for work. I was blessed to meet some great people but I also had horrid experiences with others. What a seesaw.....BUT I didn't not go running for any sugar once I was done with my work day, I did get a smoothie but I did catch myself making healthier choices without even realizing it!!!!

I'm sleepy....

Tue, 11 Aug 2009 19:54:59 EST

And that is the thought that I carried with me throughout the day.....so badly I didn't have an appetite. Not good. Ah well I'm still happy that I'm back working hard to improve myself.

I'm going to head to bed early. Don't want to feel like this again tomorrow.

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So far so good....still keeping fingers crossed.

Mon, 10 Aug 2009 20:01:31 EST

So I've realized that I REALLY need to learn to deal with my emotions in a healthy manner. Especially when I'm angry, upset or frustrated (or all three)...it's very easy to run to something sweet to gulp down in a few seconds....only thing is I KNOW this will not make things better.

So instead of running for the sweets I decided to come here and blog first and see things go for the next couple of moments.

All in all my day was great! I enjoyed work and was happy with my ...

WOW! It's been a while!!!!

Sun, 9 Aug 2009 19:52:26 EST

My goodness it's been forever (and a day) since I've been on Sparkpeople....I'm trying to get back on track. I've updated my Sparkpage and am working on my goals. I started Weight Watchers again. I'm desperate to get back on track and am hoping I can start focusing again.

Keeping my fingers crossed.

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Starting to hope...

Sat, 25 Apr 2009 23:38:05 EST

I went for a lovely walk today in the park. I'm starting to feel a little hopeful about getting back on track. I hope I can do this.

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Oh no....

Thu, 23 Apr 2009 19:33:08 EST

I've been in serious denial for quite a long time. But I'm back now on Sparkpeople and hoping to get back on track.

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I think I can do this....

Sat, 10 Jan 2009 20:48:22 EST

I am very grateful for this web-site and I don't want to seem ungrateful. It's just after spending a day in from of the computer at work, it's so hard to come home and sit in front of the computer again.

I have been to the gym regularly now. I'm really starting to really enjoy my sessions with my personal trainer, I keep trying to push myself more and more. It's a great way to vent stress and I'm starting to sleep well again.

I'm slowly improving my eating and I'm ...