AMBER281's SparkPeople Blog AMBER281's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community May 1 - Week 1 Week 1!!! <BR> <BR> Vision board: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> My initial measurements <BR> Weight 349.6 <BR> Arm (R) 19” <BR> Bust 52” <BR> Waist 53.5” <BR> Hips 62.5” <BR> Thigh (R) 33.5” <BR> Total 220.5” <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <im... Mon, 2 May 2016 16:12:05 EST Save the hero I heard a song called "Save a Hero" by Beyoncé today for the first time.....and the second, third, forth...etc. I was listening to the lyrics and hearing so much of myself in the lyrics. <BR> <BR> It got me thinking.... <BR> <BR> So I wanted to share the lyrics here <BR> <BR> I lay alone awake at night <BR> Sorrow fills my eyes <BR> But I'm not strong enough to cry <BR> Despite of my disguise <BR> I'm left with no shoulder <BR> But everybody wants to lean on me. <BR> I guess I'm the... Sat, 16 Apr 2016 22:35:41 EST March 1 Okay this blog might be a few days early but I know that I won't be able to post on March 1 because of my crazy work schedule right now so I'm taking time today to post. <BR> <BR> This month has been crazy with work and other things but I've done some amazing things this month. I lost 5 lbs (not the 9 I was looking for but I'll take it). But more importantly I have gotten into some healthy habits: <BR> 1. I've been prepping almost all of my meals at home. <BR> 2. I've been tracking my meals... Sun, 28 Feb 2016 19:22:57 EST February 1 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> So January didn't go as planned I ended up getting a nasty head cold that I'm still recovering from and its been 2 weeks. So the old me came back in a hurry and used getting a cold as an excuse to eat crappy/processed foods because I didn't have energy to prep my own food. Excuses...yep! But I am going to move past that and start fresh. <BR> <BR> I am setting myself a goal to lose 50lbs my ... Mon, 1 Feb 2016 22:17:05 EST On to week 2 <img src=""> Last week was a success! Planned my food and got my workouts in. I'm staying away from the scale since in the past I've let the number on the scale determine my mood for the day, so I'm only going to weigh in once a week or less. This weeks meal plan: Breakfast - scrambled eggs with 2 cups of veggies and 1 oz light cheese, banana Lunch - beef stir fry with rice, 1 cup homemade fruit salad Supper - ch... Sun, 17 Jan 2016 18:09:36 EST Observations, questions and this weeks plan So we are 10 days into the new year and it hasn't been the best start but it hasn't been the worst. I hurt my knee before Christmas and this was the first week that I have felt good enough to do some light exercise and I am happy to report that so far so good <em>41</em> <BR> <BR> So the past few months I have found a Doctor, have monthly meetings with a dietician and an exercise specialist, and taken a class in fixing my relationship with food. I still have a long way to go but I have t... Sun, 10 Jan 2016 16:43:30 EST January 1 2016 Today is all about fresh starts and getting real. <BR> So here is how I am starting the year <BR> <BR> Weight = 343.8 <BR> BF% = 45.6% <BR> BMI = 50.9 <BR> <BR> Chest = 53" <BR> Waist = 51" <BR> Hips = 61.5" <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Goals for January <BR> - Exercise 5 times a week for 60 minutes <BR> - Trac... Fri, 1 Jan 2016 12:37:55 EST Starting pictures! I debated if I should post these or not but I decided that I need to be honest and open in order to be successful. So here is my starting point. <BR> <BR> Starting measurements: <BR> Weight – 331.1 lbs <BR> Body Fat – 44.7% or 148.0 lbs <BR> Lean body mass – 183.1 lbs <BR> Chest – 51.0 <BR> Waist – 51.5 <BR> Hips – 60.5 <BR> Total – 163.0 <BR> Clothing – size 3X/4X, 22/24 <BR> <BR> Pictures: <BR> <img src=""> <BR... Fri, 17 Jul 2015 19:29:57 EST Reflections on my birthday! So today is my birthday….I’m turning 35. <BR> <BR> Wow I can’t believe another year has gone by. Near and on my birthday I tend to do some reflecting on my life….what I’ve done, what I’d like to do, and who I am and this year was no different. I’ve made some good changes this year….steps in the right direction but I’m not where I should be. I’ve lost 20lbs and I am in the best physical shape that I have been in a long time. <BR> <BR> I saw this Youtube video yesterday posted by Jeremy Reid.... Thu, 16 Jul 2015 00:22:58 EST An emotional day Today has been a very emotional day. <BR> When I was cleaning up some items I came across this picture <BR> <img src=""> <BR> This is a picture of me and my grandma when I was less than a year old. <BR> <BR> When I found this picture it hit me what day it is. Seven years ago today my Grandma lost her battle with cancer. She was a strong amazing women who loved and supported me unconditionally. I miss her SO much... Sun, 28 Jun 2015 17:16:23 EST Whole 30 round 1 - Completed!! So on January 5th I started doing the whole 30. (Book - It Starts with Food) <BR> <BR> After doing some research I really wanted to give it a try because I had found some people who had skin issues and when they went grain free it helped their skin issues so I thought it would be worth a try to see if it would help with my skin issues. When researching grain free recipes I came across the whole 30 website, did some research and bought the book. <BR> <BR> Basically the whole 30 is vegetables... Sat, 7 Feb 2015 23:51:10 EST Journey to 35 - End of phase 2 (6 months done) Six months ago on my birthday I decided it was time to start the transformation of my life. Yes I had been watching Extreme Weightloss with Chris and Heidi Powell. I started to think if they could do it then so could I. It’s likely I won’t have the dramatic results that they do but it doesn’t mean I can’t work hard to get the life that I deserve. <BR> <BR> Let’s get to the numbers: <BR> Starting weight on July 15 was 340.9lbs (highest weight ever was 350lbs). <BR> Weight at the end of phase... Thu, 15 Jan 2015 09:33:42 EST No excuses November Wow it's November 1st already! That's crazy. <BR> <BR> This year has been a whirlwind of ups and downs but I am so happy to be starting the last two months of the year in the best place and mindset of the year. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> My November goals are: <BR> - Minimum of 30 minutes of activity a day - most days will be more but on days I don't feel like working out I will commit myself to 30 minutes. <BR> - Continue prep... Sat, 1 Nov 2014 16:09:28 EST I'm that girl This weekend as I was cleaning house a s song came on the radio that caught my attention, it was Try by Colbie Caillat. The lyrics start as follows: <BR> <BR> "Put your make up on <BR> Get your nails done <BR> Curl your hair <BR> Run the extra mile <BR> Keep it slim <BR> So they like you. Do they like you?" <BR> <BR> All I could think was wow I'm that girl. <BR> <BR> All of my life I've tried to be the person that people wanted me to be so they would like me. I was so desperate to have fri... Mon, 20 Oct 2014 15:01:22 EST End of phase one - reflections of the last 3 months Three months ago on my birthday I decided it was time to start the transformation of my life. Yes I had been watching Extreme Weightloss with Chris and Heidi Powell. I started to think if they could do it then so could I. It’s likely I won’t have the dramatic results that they do but it doesn’t mean I can’t work hard to get the life that I deserve. <BR> <BR> Let’s get to the numbers: <BR> Starting weight on July 15 was 340.9lbs (highest weight ever was 350lbs). Weight today was 317.3 meaning... Wed, 15 Oct 2014 08:30:49 EST Fighting for a cause close to my heart #thinkpink (pics) As I am sure most people are aware October is breast cancer awareness month. <BR> <BR> For a few years now I have done the Bustin Loose Race to End Breast Cancer. However, this year it meant more to me than ever before. This past year my cousin was diagnosed with breast cancer and underwent a double mastectomy and reconstruction. It was a lot for her to go through and her spirit and strength amaze me. I am happy to report that she is now cancer free. <BR> <BR> So this year not only did I pa... Fri, 10 Oct 2014 16:59:51 EST Todays photo food journal <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I had to share since I'm so proud of how I ate today!! <BR> I'm nurturing my body instead of giving into my emotions - one day at a time! Mon, 15 Sep 2014 23:42:43 EST Journey to 35 - Month 2 September 15, 2014 <BR> Two month into my journey with a lot of ups and downs but I have made some real changes…still a long way to go but it’s a start. <BR> So let’s start with the numbers. One month ago I weighed 327.5 lbs, today I weigh 326.3lbs. So, I’m down 1.2lbs from one month ago and 23.7lbs from my highest. I find this small loss this month very frustrating, however I am learning to not define myself by the numbers on the scale. This month I really struggled with finding a groove and... Mon, 15 Sep 2014 10:58:27 EST Home body fat test results - Week 2 Here is the link: <BR> <link><BR>me-body-fat-test-2774-143.html </link> <BR> <BR> Have you ever wondered what your "goal" weight should be?? The above test is supposed to calculate what you currently have for body fat and lean mass to help you calculate an ideal weight. <BR> <BR> When I did the test this was my result: <BR> You have 48% body fat. <BR> You have 159.8 Pounds of fat and 173.2 Pounds of lean (muscle, bone, body water). <BR> <BR> Accordi... Sat, 6 Sep 2014 12:32:48 EST Struggling to get back on track Once again I find myself struggling to get back on track with both food and exercise. <BR> <BR> About 3 - 4 months ago I had hit my highest weight of 350lbs for not the first time and the last time I said I would never see that number again and there it was. I knew I had to make changes so I did and in the process I lost about 10lbs. On my birthday I made a commitment to myself to focus on me and making the necessary changes before I turned 35 next year. I was doing really well sticking to m... Fri, 5 Sep 2014 00:21:47 EST Saving my step at a time! This blog consists of two journal entries that I made a month apart so it’s kind of long but I felt it was necessary to post both in one blog. <BR> <BR> <BR> July 15, 2014 <BR> So today is my birthday….I’m turning 34. I was doing some reflecting on my life…what I’ve done, what I’d like to do, and who I am. I came to the realization that I needed to make some changes because my life was not what I wanted for myself and not what I would want for anyone I loved. I also realized that things I ... Sat, 23 Aug 2014 00:09:51 EST Fighting for Fitness Week1 Week One Challenge <BR> <BR> Regular (30 points) - Do at least 15 minutes or cardio at least 3 times a week for the regular points <BR> <BR> Bonus (20 points): Blog or write about one thing you think keeps you from reaching your goal at this point. This may stay the same or may change over time so what is happening right at the time of this writing. What are you going to do to overcome it. <BR> <BR> Regular challenge - Done - Cardio consisted of kickboxing and walking <BR> <BR> Bonus: <... Thu, 8 May 2014 23:33:57 EST Starting over...and getting real Well I survived another tax season but not without gaining weight which happens every year and I was so determined to not let it happen this year but it did <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> So today is May 1st and its time to start over. <BR> Back to basics which includes clean eating and daily exercise. <BR> A couple of my friend are starting a challenge that starts today and I start another challenge this weekend with my Sunny Gal sisters so that's just what I needed to get my butt in gear. <BR> ... Thu, 1 May 2014 11:42:59 EST Being open and honest...(heartfelt and emotional) I originally wrote this as a journal entry with NO intention of sharing it with anyone because I was afraid that other people would think that how I was feeling was silly or telling me I didn’t need to feel that way. Just like sometimes you can’t help who you love I can’t help how I feel. However, after thinking about it for a few days I realized that as part of my journey I needed to learn to open up and let others see the real me. Another reason I decided to make this public was for other p... Sat, 1 Feb 2014 17:32:31 EST Accident (pics) and positive changes for the new year So as I mentioned in my previous blog my Christmas day ended with us (dad, mom and myself) hitting a deer on the highway while driving back from my sisters. On Wednesday their car was towed back to the city where my mom and dad live so I was able to take some pictures. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I realize that it could have been much worse and I am so grateful that none of us were hurt. It was just a bad ending to an already bad day. <BR> ... Sun, 5 Jan 2014 18:26:27 EST New Year....Fresh Start! Tonight we said goodbye to 2013 and hello to 2014 and I could not be more excited. The last 16 months have been really busy and filled with some unhappy events. Sister's stroke, my eye surgery, loss of my Grandma, and the failing health of my Grandpa. This past Christmas was one of the worst Christmas's of my life which ended with us hitting a deer on the highway and wrecking my Dad and Mom's car one week before they were supposed to leave on holidays. So I was pretty happy to say goodbye to ... Wed, 1 Jan 2014 04:25:53 EST Stepping away from Spark....for a while I just wanted to let all my Spark friend know that after I finish the current spark challenge that I am doing (so in about 2 weeks) I am going to be taking a break from Spark. I'm not shutting down my page, I'm leaving it as is for me to come back to when the time is right. This was not a decision that I made lightly but I really feel like its for the best right now. <BR> <BR> I used to love checking into spark everyday, sometimes multiple times a day, to track everything, read articles, due... Sun, 6 Oct 2013 20:49:29 EST "A year from now you will wish you started today" So I wrote a VERY similar blog to this one 2 months ago and you know what happened.....nothing. No wait I gained 5.5lbs. (Bad Amber) <BR> <BR> Well here I am at my highest weight ever of 320lbs and I am DONE. So I have decided to re-start my own 1 year journey to see how I can push myself if I really set my mind to something. <BR> <BR> "A year from now you will wish you started today" is a favorite quote of mine and is going to be my personal mission statement for the next year of my life.... Wed, 4 Sep 2013 19:52:51 EST New hair cut Before pictures <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> After pictures <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I am loving it so far. Can't wait to try it curly tomorrow! Fri, 30 Aug 2013 23:16:33 EST I'm not beautiful..... ….but I’m an amazing person if you can get past the exterior. <BR> <BR> Society is so focused on the perfect exterior just look at all the magazines, it doesn’t matter if its fashion, fitness or tabloid. They all have headlines “Lose 20lbs and 20 inches in 20 days”, “Get the perfect butt in 10 minutes a day”, “How to look perfect in jeans”…etc. Many industries also use sex to sell music, clothing, perfume, automobiles, etc. Is it any wonder why so many of us have insecurities and self-esteem... Sun, 11 Aug 2013 01:38:09 EST This weekend This weekend was just what I needed.....a couple of days away. <BR> <BR> I'm not sure what exactly happened to me last week but by Friday little things that don't usually bother me were getting under my skin. So when I left work Friday I decided that even though I didn't want to I should go for a walk just to let off some steam. While I was out walking it was like my body let go of everything....I was walking faster than I have in a while and I just started to cry. I was just glad that the r... Mon, 29 Jul 2013 21:07:36 EST July 26, 2013 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Breakfast - Egg white omelet with spinach, mushrooms and onion. Banana. <BR> Snack #1 - Greek yogurt, almonds, cucumber (not pictured) <BR> Lunch - Salad with 2 tbsp. of dressing and soup (no bun!!) Went out for lunch and forgot to take an actual picture. <BR> Snack #2 - Forgot at home <BR> Supper - Ceaser salad (only 2 tbsp. dressing), steak and 1/2 a toasted bun <BR> <BR> Fitness: <BR> Walked after work... Fri, 26 Jul 2013 23:26:45 EST July 25, 2013 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Breakfast - Egg white omelete with spinach, mushrooms and onion. Banana. <BR> Snack #1 - Greek yogurt, almonds, cucumber <BR> Lunch - Salad with chicken and 2 tbsp. of dressing <BR> Snack #2 - Cottage cheese w/ green onion, almonds, carrots <BR> Supper - Ceaser salad (only 2 tbsp. dressing) with chicken <BR> <BR> Fitness: <BR> Went to Curves on my lunch hour for ST <BR> Fri, 26 Jul 2013 23:23:51 EST July 24, 2013 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Breakfast - scrambled egg whites with spinach, mushrooms and onion. Banana. <BR> Snack #1 - Greek yogurt, raspberries, cucumber <BR> Lunch - Quinoa with cucumber, tomato, onion and almonds (not pictured) <BR> Snack #2 - Raspberry/vanilla protein shake made with almond milk, carrots <BR> Supper - Chicken pita <BR> <BR> Fitness: <BR> Went to Curves on my lunch hour for ST Fri, 26 Jul 2013 23:22:49 EST July 23, 2013 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Breakfast - Egg white omelete with spinach, mushrooms and onion. Banana. <BR> Snack #1 - Greek yogurt, almonds, cucumber <BR> Lunch - Salad with chicken and 2 tbsp. of dressing <BR> Snack #2 - Cottage cheese w/ green onion, almonds, carrots <BR> Supper - Ceaser salad (only 2 tbsp. dressing) with chicken <BR> <BR> Fitness: <BR> Went to Curves on my lunch hour for ST <BR> Walked after work Fri, 26 Jul 2013 23:20:16 EST July 22, 2013 So....last week my birthday was on Monday and I used that as an excuse to eat crappy all week with very little exercise. So I decided that this week (maybe more) I would do daily accountability blogs to keep me accountable with my nutrition and fitness this week. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Breakfast - scrambled egg whites with spinach, mushrooms and onion. Banana. <BR> Snack #1 - Greek yogurt, almonds, cucumber <BR> Lunch - Salad ... Mon, 22 Jul 2013 23:21:02 EST Extreme Makeover Amber Edition - Phase 1 I have been reading Chris Powell's book and watching Extreme Weightloss....and I am inspired to start my own 1 year journey. I know that weight struggles will be life long but I want to see what I can accomplish during the year if I put my mind to it and focus on me for a whole year. Yes that sounds selfish but in the long run its not as I will be better able to help others once I have helped myself. I have all the tools necessary to be successful. I know that there will be challenges (work, ... Mon, 1 Jul 2013 15:06:48 EST Secret Four: Unite I've been reading Chris Powell's book where he talks about the 4 secrets to life transformation: <BR> Secret One: Believe <BR> Secret Two: Keep your Promises <BR> Secret Three: Fall without Failing <BR> and last but not least, secret four: Unite! <BR> <BR> You need support from others to help you believe in yourself and keep your promises. Three positives from group energy are: <BR> 1. Accountability – you are more likely to fulfill commitments to yourself if you share with others. <BR> 2. M... Tue, 25 Jun 2013 20:34:12 EST Power Promises & Secret Three: Fall without Failing From Chris Powell's book " Choose More, Lose More for Life" where he talks about the 4 secrets to a successful life transformation <BR> <BR> Secret One: Believe <BR> <link><BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5395823 </link> <BR> <BR> Secret Two: Keep your Promises <BR> <link><BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5399347 </link> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Power Promises <BR> <BR> Power promises are realistic promises that y... Mon, 24 Jun 2013 20:42:40 EST Secret Two: Keep your Promises I am reading Chris Powells book "Choose more, Lose more for Life" all I can say is WOW! <BR> <BR> He talks about the 4 secrets to a successful life transformation. <BR> <BR> Secret One : Believe <BR> - check on my blog <link><BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5395823 </link> <BR> <BR> Secret Two: Keep your Promises <BR> <BR> There were two quotes that stuck out from this section: <BR> “The more you honour your integrity, the more dignity you have” <B... Sun, 23 Jun 2013 17:31:13 EST Secret One: Believe I recently bought the book "Choose More, Lose More for Life" by Chris Powell. So far I am amazed by what I have read. It has really opened my eyes to things that I never thought of. One of the quotes from the first couple of chapters is: <BR> "You eat too much and you're overweight because you hate yourself. You don't believe in yourself and you don't know how to love yourself" <BR> As a person who has struggled with self esteem issues for most of my life, this really struck a cord with me. I... Thu, 20 Jun 2013 00:35:49 EST Season of the Beast challenge - Week 1 You'll have four beastly goals to choose from: <BR> <BR> 1) Mastering the Pullup <BR> 2) Completing the 100 Pushups Challenge <BR> 3) Completing a 10K (Walk or Run) / <BR> -K-Training-Guide-Novice-Program <BR> 4) Increasing your Daily Stair Usage <BR> elnge.html <BR> <BR> 1. MAIN CHALLENGE <BR> This week, the main challenge will be to think about these options and pick the goal t... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 11:57:08 EST It's time.... Wow....a lot of things have happened in my life the last 9 months. A lot of things have gotten in my way for staying on course for my weight loss journey but last weekend I turned a corner and realized that there would never be a perfect time and that those that loved and cared for me would want me to be happy. The only way to do that is for me to be happy in my own skin....which right now I am not. <BR> <BR> So here is the short version of what has been happening: <BR> <BR> In September 2... Sun, 2 Jun 2013 12:18:50 EST May 2013 - Getting back to basics Hey everyone.....I know its been awhile since my last blog but things in my world have been a little crazy lately. As a tax professional for the last 2 months I have been putting in lots of hours at work but tax season is officially over!!! YAY! I wish I could say that I maintained my healthy lifestyle through this crazy busy time....but that would be lying. The truth is I fell off the wagon and I fell HARD! I am not going to make happened, I can't change that fact and its time ... Tue, 30 Apr 2013 17:20:30 EST March 2013 Vision Board <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This vision board is about keeping myself motivated and remember why I am doing this, especially on bad days. Fri, 8 Mar 2013 21:09:17 EST Workout games I found some neat workout games on pinterest, there are games for every show, event etc. These are the two that I am going to try this week. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I am going to adjust the first one to 15 crunches because I can't do a tuck jump yet. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I am not sure what a Russian Twist is so I am changing it to crunches <BR> <BR> Can't wait to try th... Sun, 24 Feb 2013 19:32:59 EST The ABC's of introduction I posted this in one of my spark team chat threads but I thought it might be nice to share with my other spark friends. If you decided to do your own ABC's let me know so I can check them out! <BR> <BR> A=Available or Married? Available - however not currently focused on looking. Right now getting myself healthy is my top priority. <BR> <BR> B=Book you are reading? The Forgotten Garden by Kate Morton - Its a great book so far. I started reading it before my eye surgery and with not being ab... Sat, 23 Feb 2013 11:33:38 EST Body fat calculator I was told about a body fat calculator by some spark friends and I thought it would be interesting to check out. I wish my results were a surpise but I really wasn't that shocked. All I need to do is take a look in the mirror to see how out of shape and unhealthy I have been. But its a good starting point. <BR> <BR> My results were: <BR> Body fat % = 62.49% <BR> Lbs of Body Fat = 185.27 <BR> Lbs of lean body weight = 111.23 <BR> <BR> Based on the body fat chart for women <BR> Essential fat ... Fri, 22 Feb 2013 22:29:39 EST Learning to deal with the unexpected Wow it's February 18th and I have have yet to set some goals for 2013...CRAZY. But I will get to that. <BR> <BR> First things first. These past 5 months have been crazy and full of unexpected things and I have really had to learn how to deal with everything. Near the end of September one of my sisters had a stroke. Thankfully she is okay, she is getting better each and every day. She returned back to work January 1st. It was a very frightening experience, especially because before this she w... Tue, 19 Feb 2013 00:03:38 EST My heart is just not in it…I have lost my Spark In August I made a promise to myself to get myself on the right path, and I did….or I was until about 6 weeks ago. I was doing so good, down 22lbs and was feeling great. Then life happened. I understand that life isn’t going to pause and let me get healthy. I know that I need to find a way to work around life and events, especially ones that are out of my control. I tried, I really did….but then I lost my spark. I have desperately been trying to get it back but it doesn’t seem to be happenin... Fri, 14 Dec 2012 21:15:00 EST