AMANDAMNORRIS's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=AMANDAMNORRIS AMANDAMNORRIS's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ January 2012 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4654088 Off to a great start... excited... keeping the world posted... Tue, 3 Jan 2012 12:29:55 EST GOALS http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4493098 Alright. Small goals/rewards. BECAUSE for some reason, I didn't actually use my reward last time. Well... some reason is because when I got to my reward I didn't actually like the way I looked yet. SO I had to reevaluate my goal. <BR> <BR> 155- hot stone massage - I have wanted one of these FOREVER. Its about time to give myself one with good reason. <BR> <BR> 150 - French Bikini wax. Weird I know but I've always wanted to check out the waxing stuff and there is a really neat spa out ... Mon, 19 Sep 2011 14:39:24 EST What I have learned between July 27 and Today. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4480681 Lesson 1) When you quit taking your thyroid medication bad things happen. <BR> <BR> 2) While not on thyroid medication eating normal and maintaining weight is not really possible. <BR> <BR> 3) While not on medication it is a REALLY bad idea to go overboard and expect to only gain a few pounds. <BR> <BR> 4) That not being on my medication is PART of my problem. It is NOT my entire problem, because I made those food choices and the choice not to exercise nearly as much in the insanely busy ... Mon, 12 Sep 2011 12:42:18 EST My exlamation on the scale this morning! Rated PG13 for language... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4390227 "Guess who's gonna be a skinny bitch!?" to my 80lb American bulldog. I know... talking to the dog is a sign of insanity... but it felt really good. I got good and low, then with all the fishing, camping, and traveling I went back up. Now I'm back down. AWESOME!! I'm psyched and the scale filled me in. I'm toning up good too. Its pretty awesome. <BR> <BR> I'm a little nervous... I went in and got my wedding dress fitted yesterday... if I loose another 8 lbs before my wedding is my dress... Wed, 27 Jul 2011 16:29:18 EST Holy cow whirlwind post deployment! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4260082 So this post deployment has been crazy. May 2nd he got on the ground. We have eaten out so much I think I've cooked 5 or 6 times since he got home. I put back on a few lbs. Will weigh in tomorrow to get an official number. <BR> <BR> We're getting married August 28. He asked me when he got off the plane. We were in the airport terminal! First thing he said to me. :-) So what happens? Cake tasting leads to a chocolate rum cupcake for breakfast... tonight is one of our champagne tastin... Fri, 27 May 2011 14:49:37 EST Back on track? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4082179 I have been off track since Valentine's Day! Not waaaay off the beaten path of course, but I think I forgot how to exercise. I know I forgot how to track my calories. I only put back on a pound though! <BR> <BR> First I was tired... then I've been painting inside. I'm still painting inside, but I'm dying to get back to the gym... I think. My excuse this week was I couldn't find the strap to my heart monitor. I ordered a new one. It showed up today. Other than painting I'm out of ex... Thu, 10 Mar 2011 16:32:55 EST An emotional eater without junk food... depressing? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4025558 I am an emotional eater. I know it. The past week-ish has been hard for me. I let chips into my house and the dog helped me finish those without going WAAY overboard. (One for me, one for him) So that wasn't to bad. Last night I was in one of my eating phases. Problem was I couldn't find anything!! I managed to scrounge two Jimmy Dean D-light sandwiches out of the freezer but that was the end of it. Yes, I still went over my calories, but only by one sandwich. As I looked through the ... Thu, 17 Feb 2011 14:30:28 EST My dinner date with dog tags... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4019870 I knew yesterday was going to be hard. I expected to blow it at dinner. I planned on way blowing it at dinner. It was my dinner date with my sweet heart who happens to be deployed. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/2/l423723160.jpg"> That's what I sat across the table from. :-) I ordered the four course meal and a glass of wine. I had a good dinner, a great dessert and was STUFFED. More stuffed than I've been in a VERY VERY long time. It was time to go home. On the way ... Tue, 15 Feb 2011 13:49:06 EST 152.8? Are you sure? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3963282 I dropped pounds... I went from 154.9 on Sunday, my normal weigh in day, to 152.8 today when I felt a hankering just to see what "it who shall not be named" said. Seriously? I'm confused. <BR> <BR> We'll just wait to see what Sunday says. It's going to be a crazy weekend where I don't eat at home at all starting tomorrow night. YIKES! Kid sitting Thursday Night. Parent's house for the weekend - fried chicken flown in from South Arkansas, birthday party, and a community pancake breakf... Wed, 26 Jan 2011 15:24:00 EST Down another pound... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3931683 Hooray! Just gotta keep it up and I'll be ready to do the Law Enforcement 5K for Special Olympics the end of May with boyfriend. <BR> <BR> I started couch to 5Kn yesterday... tomorrow is day 2 and I'm excited. Yay! I've also started doing a new wii game. The Biggest Loser Challenge. Its kicking my butt!! The trainers are a bit annoying, but it registers movement pretty well, and the routines and moves vary. I like that it tests me and suggested a program for me. Then I get to choos... Sun, 16 Jan 2011 22:03:39 EST I've never been more sore in my LIFE!! You'll never guess why... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3827925 Fitness pole dancing. My arms, my abs, my quads, my butt... and class was SATURDAY!! Oye. It was a lot of fun too... I was worried about being embarrassed but it really wasn't. The instructor is not a fitness goddess and the other girl in the class was just as uncoordinated as I was. It's to bad that the poles that are safe to actually do the REAL exercise are $250 + shipping! Oh well... its socially taboo anyway. Not sure how I would explain my future stunningly fantastic physique to ... Mon, 6 Dec 2010 15:26:48 EST Reset Button http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3807044 So the plan failed this week. Oops. It all started Sunday when I put a great new friend on the airplane after an awesome 2 week friendship. She and her little boy were amazing and fun to have around. My house went from filled with noise to absolute silence... again. As an emotional eater we all know what happened. I even found tiramisu. Exercise didn't happen to fit in there anywhere either, I found excuses when she was at the house and then I found excuses this week. <BR> <BR> So I... Fri, 26 Nov 2010 15:02:27 EST "What's the plan?" she asked http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3759980 So here I answer. It's a very good question... one I hadn't really pieced together yet. I've decided that piecing together the future does not necessarily require an overview of the recent past... although I've lost 4 lbs since boyfriend got on the plane for the desert 10-22. Him being gone is depressing, but it makes weight loss so much easier. <BR> <BR> MAJOR GOAL: Lose the weight and keep it off. <BR> <BR> Way to reach that goal <BR> 1) TRACK TRACK TRACK - I didn't track to lose th... Wed, 3 Nov 2010 17:07:44 EST It gets harder when life doesn't listen... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3674405 So life is being a little difficult. I'm having a hard time doing everything right and its taking a toll on my eating. There are oreos in my pantry. Well... there won't be soon if this keeps up. I'm trying to go easy on them, but with the way life is going it is not working out so well. Self - esteem in an ugly place right now. Right down to I overcooked the chili (it wouldn't thicken and then when it finally did I had cooked it so long that the spciy made my nose run) and I couldn't g... Mon, 27 Sep 2010 14:54:35 EST Picking up the pieces is harder than I thought... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3668124 I had all these great habits that made me almost at my goal weight. SO CLOSE! I lost them when the deployment ended. I tried finding them again about half way through and we went on vacation. I lost them again. Pretty sure they went into the crawlspace with the suit cases. <BR> <BR> So here I am trying to find these habits that I loved so dearly and it is not as easy as I thought it was going to be. Last night was my first night that something late at night didn't send me out of my c... Fri, 24 Sep 2010 17:47:01 EST Deployment = weight loss, the return = gain http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3659585 Officially, 18 pounds back on. In the 10 months he's been back in the country - 18 lbs. That's half a lb a week. I quit! I can't do this whole gaining weight thing anymore. I feel like horrific - self esteem, clothes, everything. I've started a few times in the past few weeks, but this time I have got to mean it. I've restarted my journey. I've done really good during all my days... dinner time is when I mess up. It doesn't help that boyfriend is deploying again, so he's splurging e... Tue, 21 Sep 2010 20:37:43 EST Dug my motivation out of the lost and found... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3429743 So I lost my motivation in January. Boyfriend got home. I looked great, felt great, and life was good. I sorta ate healthy and on trackish I thought... I put back on a few pounds and got back on track. Then I went on vacation and BLEW IT! Way blew it. By the time I got back and stepped on the scale I was 13 lbs up total - in 6 months. <BR> <BR> I had been 5 lbs away from my goal... 5! I let it slip back on because I quit exercising all together. So I'd have a big day or two every onc... Wed, 14 Jul 2010 00:25:40 EST My scale hurt my feelings. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3317590 I stepped on the scale this morning... I knew I'd gained weight... I could feel it. I'd gained a little after boyfriend returned from Iraq. Duh, right? Then vacation... and now... the scale was mean to me. There was no gentle let down... they need to have screens that flash something encouraging before they tell you how much you weigh. This cold hard facts thing hurts. <BR> <BR> The part that I think hurts me more? Boyfriend bought me some super amazing jeans that fit really well while... Wed, 9 Jun 2010 13:14:52 EST I tried and I tried and I tried... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3313726 I was on such a roller coaster before I left for vacation. I wanted to lose the last few pounds, but I couldn't maintain the eating. Then I couldn't force the exercise. Exercise right now is nearly impossible... little league is killing me. We have ball games almost every night during the week. Tonight I'm going after the ball games, I have to get back into it. <BR> <BR> I went on vacation and ate whatever was put in front of me. I had no IDEA so much Mexican food was fried. I didn'... Tue, 8 Jun 2010 13:20:25 EST TOP SECRET PT test - the failure that sent me off track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3197843 I won't go into how bad it was... and I only tried sit ups. But after that I couldn't get motivated to try again. Good thing boyfriend is the only one in the Air Force. <BR> <BR> Back into the gym now AND goofing around outdoors. I'm trying to learn how to play tennis. I say trying because what I'm doing I would not consider actually playing tennis. Boyfriend is being very patient with me and its really nice, because as I flop horribly he's not making me feel bad about it and I can ju... Wed, 5 May 2010 13:45:44 EST TOP SECRET PT test, day one! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3034773 So a while ago I set a goal that I wanted to pass an Air Force PT test. I still fully intend to. I'm also not telling boyfriend. I think he knows, but if I fail miserably on some things, I'd like to know and not have to tell him how badly. Its in 4 parts, waist measurement, 1.5 mile run, push ups (in a minute), and sit ups (in a minute). Each portion has a point score for how well you do or don't do. Add them all up and you have to have at least 75 points to pass. <BR> <BR> I sort of ... Tue, 23 Mar 2010 16:33:35 EST Plateau - UCK! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3032135 So I hit a plateau. It completely killed my motivation. This last week (when we had the kids) I totally let go. I didn't work out, I ate pretty much whatever - some days were ok, others were HORRENDOUS! I just wasn't trying and I wasn't exercising. So I stopped losing weight, in fact I think I put on a pound. It was awful. <BR> <BR> I screwed my head back on straight and I think I'll be good to go for a while! All the girl scout cookies and Reese's eggs are gone... when the kids ar... Tue, 23 Mar 2010 00:25:38 EST Support... and a random tangent about overeating. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2938645 I love that everyone supports me. I'm 40lbs lighter than I was 2 years ago because people supported me. You here support me, my parents support me (and have actually joined me on my journey), my boyfriend supports me, it just makes it so much easier and it makes me feel good about myself and my goals. <BR> <BR> Boyfriend actually supports me enough that he bought us a gym membership! We have an AK club REALLY close to the house and its an express, so an "economy" membership isn't all that... Sun, 28 Feb 2010 14:29:18 EST Welcome 2010! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2691874 First I would like to say that the price increase from iTunes is mean. <BR> <BR> That being said, I'm currently downloading the Guilty Pleasures Headphones Only play list from fitness magazine (they have lots of FUN play lists!) to my iPhone so that if the other guy from work comes in that has keys to the gym I can borrow them and go run. :-) <BR> <BR> New Years Eve was AMAZING! Last year was boring and at home. This year I showed off my roughly 25 lb loss and had a BLAST! My girlfriend... Mon, 4 Jan 2010 13:35:42 EST Accountability http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2650248 I really blew it this weekend... Saturday I went to a movie and had a LOT of popcorn, then we went out that night... alcohol has calories and I had a good amount of it. Then the Taco Bell and the Totino's frozen pizza to try and make my stomach feel better... oye! Then yesterday we had our work lunch potluck. I didn't go extremely overboard like I could have, but I know I went over my wanted intake. I don't think I went over my body's daily requirements though, so that wasn't to bad. The... Tue, 22 Dec 2009 12:37:43 EST People are starting to talk... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2605898 I was in the gym the other day and talked with one of the attorneys I work with. In our conversation it came up that I had lost 40 lbs since I moved to Anchorage. Of course he asked how I did it and he commented that I looked really great, hoping that he wasn't out of line. Since then its come up in a few discussions at work. People keep telling me that I look really good and really healthy. One of my bosses says "But you've been really dieting..." and I had to tell him that it wasn't a... Wed, 2 Dec 2009 22:29:31 EST Today stinks. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2579576 Ok, maybe not really but this is getting tough. It might be the stress. <BR> <BR> Boyfriend is still in Iraq and not really doing so well. He's not having a whole lot of danger go on but by doing his job he's making some people in different units REALLY mad. So now he's UBER stressed and it kind of flows over onto me. His ex-wife has gone wacko and I'm not seeing the kids while he's gone because somehow shes decided that its best because she's mad at me. (I understand her being ticked... Sat, 21 Nov 2009 21:15:03 EST Potentially the most insane goal I've ever had... and some rambling. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2547823 SO!!!! I'm back on the exercise wagon. Hip hip Hooray!!!! I'm in the hardest place on my journey I think. I'm close to my goal weight, but I still have that extra cushion. To get that cushion to go away I have to start the real strength training to build up the underlying muscle. Which in turn, will add some weight I've been informed. So I'm putting on weight and losing weight at the same time. I've created a new goal. It is a two phase goal, so right now I'm working on figuring out ... Mon, 9 Nov 2009 16:47:07 EST What size do I really wear? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2535010 I have had a REALLY rough few days... like I'm lucky I still have a boyfriend... I really hurt him accidentally. Therefor I feel AWFUL!!!! Instead of overeating (typical female stress) I have been UNDER EATING... that's how bad it is. Anyway, we're working on getting over that. <BR> <BR> But anyway, to the point. I went to the mall for retail therapy today. I tried on jeans and tops in 4 different stores. I was a size 8, 11, and 12 in jeans... depending on which store I was in. The 8 ... Wed, 4 Nov 2009 19:04:21 EST AAAAAAND I hope I'm back. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2528930 9/22/09 I got sick. I felt like I'd been hit by a bus. I fought it off for a while. I was very sick for probably a good 2 weeks. Then started to recover. Still sick... coughing, sinuses, exhausted constantly but I was getting better. <BR> <BR> 10/6/09 I got better enough that I started to eat on track again. I was doing good, swore to myself on the 16th that I was going to start the gym again, I was almost over this "cold" thing that I had. <BR> <BR> 10/18/09 I woke up with a cough,... Mon, 2 Nov 2009 19:43:26 EST I have been gone... well... SICK http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2457120 I got that bug that isn't the flu but hangs on forever. I've been sick since 22nd of September. I just finally got my nose ALMOST under control but I still have that heavy chest that coughs every once and a while and no energy. When you get sick all healthy eating goes out the window. <BR> <BR> ALTHOUGH I didn't go to over board. Its hard to go overboard when all you're doing is drinking tea and eating ramen and/or chicken noodle soup. <BR> <BR> I can't exercise yet, but I'm back on... Tue, 6 Oct 2009 12:44:36 EST Hooray for undies... and the problem with coupons http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2356477 Two very unrelated subjects... <BR> <BR> So I have these gorgeous cotton comfy underwear that were suppose to look kinda sexy... I never figured out how they looked sexy exactly but they had a cool pattern so I wore them anyway. I have a lot of underwear... so I haven't wore them in a while... probably a month? I put them on this morning and managed to catch myself in the mirror and thought to myself "OH! That's how they're suppose to fit!" I've lost enough weight that they sit where they... Sat, 29 Aug 2009 14:45:47 EST A sad day and elimination of a food... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2354339 OK so not TOTALLY gone, but really, it should be. I'm in a phase right now where I really like fruit snacks. Not the good healthy ones with real fruit and stuff... the cheap ones that are below the granola bars in the grocery stores. They taste DELICIOUS to me. Problem? Basically empty calories. No fiber, no protein, basically sugar + water + flavoring. I've just been in denial about it. <BR> <BR> So now they've become a treat to me. I'll buy a box sometimes, but with my focus on the... Fri, 28 Aug 2009 15:59:42 EST I really like pink lemonade... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2351862 therefore, I really like Special K Protein Water mix in the pink lemonade flavor. Usually, when I dump in it and shake it takes like an hour of shaking on and off and drinking some of it to make it all dissolve in the water. <BR> <BR> Today was different! I poured a little... shook. Poured some more... stirred. When I stirred as I poured there was VERY minimal clumping and within 60 seconds all clumps are gone. <BR> <BR> Useless you say? Uninformative you say? Psh. You go out and t... Thu, 27 Aug 2009 17:16:08 EST She's driving me nuts! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2349093 I have this really fun girl I work with, who is a great person to talk to and I would love to hang out with her outside of work, but she's starting to drive me nuts in one subject. Her health. <BR> <BR> Her doctor told her to start eating better immediately. Immediately! They changed her medications, got her all set up, and told her to be more active. <BR> <BR> So she’s changed her diet. Her stomach feels better, her body is happier. She talks to me all the time about how she needs and... Wed, 26 Aug 2009 18:52:19 EST What would have killed me - didn't http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2339910 We (kids and friends) went for a hike yesterday. I looked up and realized where we were going and thought to myself "I'm going to be embarrassed!" I held conversations all the way to the top. Held hands with the kids, kept the dog and I from going over the edge, etc. It was awesome... a few months ago, last summer, I would have died. Huff, puff, red faced, died. <BR> <BR> You know why this is all possible? Spark. You that are reading this because with out you, I would have never made... Sun, 23 Aug 2009 20:23:39 EST I HATE my middle. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2332334 Sure I'm losing weight. Sure my shirts look great... a lot of them are getting to big. BUT why does my mid section still jiggle? Why does it still look awful? <BR> <BR> When I'm dressed I feel great. When I put on that bikini or even my sports bra and shorts I feel gi-normous. Why? Thu, 20 Aug 2009 17:05:12 EST I can't find yellow bananas! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2328757 I don't like green bananas. I don't like even a hint of green... I like them a bit older. I can't find them anywhere! Everywhere I go has them so green that they could be crayons. My mother says buy them anyway and they'll go yellow eventually... but does that work? <BR> <BR> I miss boyfriend. He would buy them green, eat some of them green and then when they were all yellow they were mine because he doesn't like them that way. Kind of like Jack Scrat and his wife... Wed, 19 Aug 2009 12:18:13 EST Holy Toledo!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2316547 So I'm sitting here finishing up an episode of "what not to wear" before I start my firm "Cardio Party" so I can party myself thin.... corny? Sorry. <BR> <BR> So I was commenting on a message board and was looking at my status bar thingy... I'm roughly halfway there! HOLY TOLEDO... I look at myself in the mirror and am always disgusted. What I always forget to see is how far I've come! <BR> <BR> Lesson learned today... never forget to be proud of how far you've come when you remember ... Fri, 14 Aug 2009 22:07:28 EST I made my own boxed pasta! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2290643 Boxed pasta... yummy. High in sodium and other bad for you things. VERY not portioned control and VERY my weakness. I'll eat the whole box in a heartbeat. <BR> <BR> I made a few ounces of Rotini pasta. Sprayed 5 sprays of I can't believe its not butter, stirred in 2 tablespoons Parmesan and a tiny sprinkle of garlic powder. <BR> <BR> Not the same, but I thought it was good. High fiber and portion controlled. Eventually I'm going to try and figure out the math involved with only maki... Wed, 5 Aug 2009 16:44:45 EST "Call it a vegetable and close the day" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2287303 I'm having a hard time emotionally I think... that and I decided to try and have a meatball sub from my freezer for dinner and my tummy said that it wasn't enough food... <BR> <BR> but after the cheese nips, chocolate chips, TWO subs and extra cheese, I only went 31 calories over my max!!!!! <BR> <BR> I did only minimally exercise, but YAY!!!!! <BR> <BR> My boss has a great saying for when you really screw up... "Call it a vegetable and close the day." That was yesterday. I woke up th... Tue, 4 Aug 2009 15:47:44 EST My stomach tells me when I'm eating wrong... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2283567 When I don't eat right (like this weekend) my stomach tells me so. Not only was my tummy upset yesterday but I'm exhausted today! Oye... <BR> <BR> My body has adapted to a healthier lifestyle, just my brain when it gets upset hasn't. Another step in the right direction I suppose. <BR> <BR> (I actually had to run water over crackers this weekend... it was bad) Mon, 3 Aug 2009 13:50:41 EST I slipped, fell, and gained a pound! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2270325 It was SUPER easy to gain that pound... I thought it was coming though, I just felt heavier. Apparently a weekend with the 6,7, and 11 year old boys is not going to be a free for all anymore. I thought I made good choices, but I'm thinking I really didn't... couldn't have, because I gained weight. SO I HAVE to track on the weekends with them, whether I want to or not, because when I don't, I go overboard. <BR> <BR> So... exercise every day this week again, to try and make up for it... st... Wed, 29 Jul 2009 16:47:15 EST So I slipped and fell http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2262057 into a tub of ice cream. I didn't eat it all, but I definitely ate about a quarter of it. <BR> <BR> I'm just glad the bbq ribs are frozen solid, cause they would have been next. <BR> <BR> What else am I suppose to do when boyfriend is deployed and his wife and her boyfriend decide to sit on my couch and make out while they wait for the kids to get their stuff together? Seriously? I'm an emotional eater and that was a really big trigger. I'm getting better by leaps and bounds, but that o... Mon, 27 Jul 2009 01:08:15 EST an epiphany from a lunch bag... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2236854 I packed my breakfast/lunch this morning in a pretty good rush, but as I was packing it all up I had this major epiphany. <BR> <BR> I was on auto pilot... I packed a salad (in fresh n' fits salad pod... they rock!), an apple, 1 oz string cheese, 1 oz grilled chicken, a granola bar, apple crisps, and a slim fast (I can't eat solid food early AM, makes me sick to my stomach). <BR> <BR> Sounds healthy and yummy doesn't? The epiphany part is that this is now normal! I'm not tearing through t... Fri, 17 Jul 2009 12:39:02 EST SO I finally tried on that bikini... reality check :-( http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2229725 All is not as I had hoped... the two piece swim suit really gives you an idea of where the flub is at! Mine is mostly hiding in my core. UCKY! I look in the mirror every day and go hmm I look alright, I just need a little work. <BR> <BR> Then I put on the bikini <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/7/8/b789745531.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/5/3/b533894884.jpg"> I'm actually pretty disappointed... I'm not enormous... but I don't look nearly as good as I had hoped... Tue, 14 Jul 2009 23:04:59 EST Wow... what a weekend - and a little whining. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2225994 The boys were dropped off at my house Thursday night. We woke up Friday morning, drove to Fairbanks. Spent all day Saturday running around Fairbanks. Drove home Sunday. It was insane. I tried to eat within moderation, though FAILED miserably on Saturday. Did alright Friday and Sunday, though I tracked nothing. Its just to hard... NOW if I had an iPhone, that would have been a different story! <BR> <BR> Iphone here I come... I can't update my contract until the 23rd but I'm almost coun... Mon, 13 Jul 2009 18:10:47 EST "The Firm - Cardio Party" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2202737 Just kicked my butt! Its a combination of 5 instructors and their favorite stuff... a good overview of each one and their styles... I'm trying to find a video right now of my favorite one... <BR> <BR> The dance moves are hard for me... I can't keep up and the little foot steps are hard to see, so I can't catch on. When you can't catch on its really hard to keep up! BUT its a great exercise even if you try and keep up but don't. I sweat... I don't normally sweat, but I did! Sat, 4 Jul 2009 17:44:08 EST Creative ways to use chicken nuggets left behind by boyfriends kids... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2199403 Chicken salads... <BR> Chicken Parmesan sandwiches... (with Sara Lee Bread only 292 calories!) <BR> <BR> any other ideas? <BR> <BR> Thu, 2 Jul 2009 23:38:18 EST Back after pre-deployment break http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2152963 Exercise fell by the way side. I skipped lunch breaks to leave early or go out to lunch with Boyfriend. His mom came to town, his dad came in a week after that... <BR> <BR> I've gained some weight I think... didn't weigh in this morning... <BR> <BR> But I put him on the plane last night... so the working hard begins! I'm a crying mess about ever 2 hours for just a minute or two, so working is hard but I'm doing it. The dog and I are taking a long walk tonight and I'm making sure my p... Mon, 15 Jun 2009 15:24:13 EST