ALWAYSCHANGING's SparkPeople Blog ALWAYSCHANGING's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community my why <img src=""> <BR> No long blog post needed. Today is all about reminding me of my why. Above my daughter and grand baby. I want to be around a long time for both of them. <img src=""> my two youngest, I want to see them grow, change and develop into adults and see their children as well. Sun, 6 Sep 2015 10:12:28 EST Life happens whether you participate or not. Man oh man. I swear I blinked and nearly 2 years passed, no ish, seriously 2 years!!! How the heck does that happen? It seemed like at one moment I was simply struggling to keep my marriage on track, figure out what my new career path would be after finishing my final degree and of course fighting what seemed like a never ending battle to hit my goal weight. Oh and did I mention fighting my ever growing battle against depression? And then BAM! Next thing I knew, The universe decided to throw ... Tue, 1 Sep 2015 20:30:31 EST What to do when you hit rock bottom? I woke up feeling okay this morning. I mean I knew I still was jobless (but hey I'm still in the hunt). I knew I was still overweight (haven't dropped a pound in nearly a week and a half) but I did get that nifty new Body Fat measuring tool (can anyone say early Christmas gift that was nice enough to tell me I was 38.9% Bodyfat) in the at least I have a new number to try to lower and a new goal to focus I was still okay. <BR> But then my children asked me for lunch money a... Tue, 17 Dec 2013 11:14:22 EST Where in the world have I been? It's been nearly a year since I have been on the Spark...and I admit I have missed it. I didn't know how much until I watched my weight climb back up to 180 and began to watch my husband become more and more distant. I started to wonder what happened to me, where did I fall off track? What was I doing wrong? For so long everything seemed to be going right. I admit I lost my focus when I tried being a Beachbody coach (I am no longer a coach btw), my journey lost it's focus on my own fitness as... Sun, 8 Dec 2013 13:51:06 EST Write a caption Part 2 One of my friends did this on FB and the responses were hilarious. So I decided to share it here and lighten the mood a bit. Let's see where this goes. Write a caption for the girl on the telephone.... <img src=""> Tue, 24 Jul 2012 12:27:01 EST Coming and going and not standing still. I haven't been on Spark in months, but that doesn't mean I haven't been active. I have been extremely active running my business, getting people started on thier own fitness journeys and working on my MBA. I think of all of my spark friends often and apologize if I left anyone hanging. I have made some awesome progress and plan to log in more here more often. Check out my journey thus far, please help me to play catch up on what's been happening with you all and again forgive me for being o... Mon, 23 Jul 2012 16:46:23 EST Write a caption <img src=""> Thu, 31 May 2012 08:32:07 EST My first Challenge group As I mentioned in a previous blog I recently became my own boss and started my own business as an Independent Beachbody Coach and I have to admit I am LOVING it! For the first time in my 41 years I wake up excited about going to work, excited about what I do and how what I do affects others! Don't get me wrong I loved my time in the military, I loved protecting our country and our way of life, but I didn't feel how can I put this...complete. I didn't feel like I was doing what mattered to me,... Mon, 14 May 2012 08:30:25 EST Public service announcement <img src=""> Sat, 12 May 2012 10:43:34 EST My first 5k! Boy was it colorful Well I did it! I can check one more thing of my fit and healthy life bucket list! I ran my first 5k! And I picked a really fun one! My kids, myself and my running buddy and her husband decided to do the Color Me Rad 5K in Virginia Beach! When we got there we looked like this <img src="">. <BR> Then we ran the course getting hit with color at various color stations (red, blue, orange, green, yellow, pink and purple) and we ended up looking... Sun, 6 May 2012 16:06:06 EST Doing my happy happy joy joy dance I am so happy right now! I mean I am thrilled to pieces. Imagine sitting still and thinking what do I want to do? What kind of job do I want to have? What will make me happy? I know I love fitness, I know I love working out and getting results and I know more than anything I love helping others to reach thier goals. I've been everywhere you can go with my fitness journey, I've been in that pit where you feel like why bother I will never be happy...I've been in that deliriously happy place whe... Wed, 2 May 2012 18:28:34 EST Still a work in progress; but obvious changes are being made It's amazing what you can accomplish when you put your mind to making a change. At the beginning of February I looked like this: <BR> <img src="">. <BR> This was me at 172 lbs, eating beyond bad and I'd been drinking. Can you tell?! <BR> Then I got a challenge from a friend. She wanted me to join her BeachBody April Challenge. I agreed that I would and I actually started getting my diet back under control and lessened my drinking in Marc... Sun, 29 Apr 2012 17:24:20 EST 7 days to go! 7 days to go and I run my first 5k! <BR> Check out the site so you can see the fun I am about to have! <BR> Sat, 28 Apr 2012 11:27:15 EST I DID IT! About 9 months ago (yep the time it takes to carry a child) I found out I had High Cholesterol! I was devestated. true it's not the worse diagnosis that someone can get, but with my family history of heart disease it is a scarey one and not something I wanted to deal with. I decided in no more than a year I would get my eating under control and reverse this diagnosis and I have done it! <BR> Went and saw my doc this morning and I am well within the healthy range! I lowered my cholesterol wit... Wed, 25 Apr 2012 11:28:08 EST Mini-workouts can add up to big cal burns I didn't want to workout today. Woke up tired cause I stayed up way too late reading a really good book (Harlan Coben, Stay Close) and I just didn't feel like moving in the morning. So I stalled and stalled, then I said screw it, I'll do a little something. So I cleaned my hardwood floors to get my blood pumping, then I said if I want to watch something I'd DVR'd it would have to be watched while I was on my spin bike.So I did 1/2 hour on my spin bike...I felt my energy returning...then I did... Tue, 24 Apr 2012 22:11:19 EST Easy trick to beat TOM overeating The first day of tom is always the hardest for me. So today I decided to attack two problems at once. My water consumption had been down my cravings today I decided to get in a gallon of water between 8 p.m., and eat my normal three meals 2 snacks. I would drink the water each time I got the craving to munch. Know what happened? I stuck with my meal plan and that gallon of water was done by 710 p.m. I feel amazing!!! Not bloated and sluggish at all. Plan to do the same thinv t... Sun, 22 Apr 2012 20:17:57 EST I see you! Fitspirations and words of encouragement I'm not going to tell you that this journey is going to be easy, that you will wake up each morning pain free. But I am going to tell you the choices you make, the effort you put in will all be worth it and they will pay off. <img src="">. <BR> <BR> I'm not going to tell you that every morning you will wake up and want to work out! That you will get down on the floor and pump out 100 pushups and a 1000 situps and scream like Xena the war... Fri, 20 Apr 2012 10:40:56 EST Running again So I picked back up running, okay it's more of a 2 to 1 run walk ratio but anyway I am back at it and I am so dang sore! Wondering what folks do to get rid of the tightness in their quads, so they can lace up thier shoes and get back out there the next day...and the day after that? Thu, 19 Apr 2012 09:25:27 EST Recognizing a potential backslide when I see one My fathers health scare sent us all for a loop this past week and weekend. Rushing home, threw me out of whack as is to be expected. But I tried to do as much as I could to limit the amount of backsliding I knew I was at risk for nutrition and exercise wise. <BR> Before we hopped in the car for the road trip home, I packed two cooler bags full of fruit and ice, I made myself pbj on thin sliced Whole Grain Arnold bread, I dug out my old thermoses and pre-made some shakeology smoothies and I p... Sun, 15 Apr 2012 19:01:51 EST Find your passion It is said that a dispassionate young man approached the Greek philosopher Socrates and casually stated, "O great Sacrates, I come to you for knowledge." <BR> The philosopher took the young man down to the sea, waded in with him, and then dunked him under the water for thirty seconds. When he let the young man up for air, Socrates asked him to repeat what he wanted. <BR> "Knowledge, O great one," he sputtered? Socrates put him under the water again, only that time a little longer. After rep... Thu, 5 Apr 2012 10:59:13 EST Setting goals for April and beyond Today the first thing I did once I had my healthy breakfast and a good cup of green tea was to pull out my calendar and log onto Amazon. <BR> I ordered a new Polar Heart Rate monitor (because I am tired of guessing at my calorie burn, or trusting gym equipment) and then I sat down and scoped out my workouts for this month and beyond (barring injury I should be able to plan what I want to do). <BR> This was all about me making a tangible plan, to keep me in line and keep me focused. I have a... Mon, 2 Apr 2012 09:13:20 EST Are you doing your best? Recently I realized I was backsliding...that I was failing at my attempt to lose weight and get healthy. I realized also that I have been on spark for over two years now and though I have cheered countless people on as they hit thier goals, realized their potential and had significant weight loss and successes I'd sat stagnant in my own attempts. <BR> I started to wonder have I simply been trying instead of doing my best? <BR> After reading a really great blog I realized....I haven't been tr... Sun, 1 Apr 2012 20:41:57 EST What did I do?! I thought I was on track. Then I stepped on the scale and I saw this: <img src=""> <BR> That I could do this by myself, no supplements, no gimmicks, no help (I quit weight watchers due to budget constraints in the household) and in less than a month I have gained back 5 lbs, put 2 inches back on my waist and 3 inches on my hips. I had to take another pic I was in such disbelief about the amorphous blog I'd become : <img src="http://pho... Thu, 29 Mar 2012 07:48:05 EST Goals without deadlines are just dreams. I was reading my friend Jensfitjourney's blog today about goal setting and something she said struck a cord in me. To paraphrase she mentioned setting a goal each and everyday! I realized this morning that I set dreams not goals. Let me explain. Dreams are those things we say we are going to do, but they have no set time or structure, goals are those things we say we are going to do and we set a deadline! We set them as something to strive for. I have been saying "I am going to run a 5k" and ... Tue, 27 Mar 2012 08:09:08 EST Slacking never goes as planned So I planned to scale back my workouts a bit...since I am sliding into midterm week and I know my school schedule between tests and papers is always craziest at this point. So I figured...Saturday I would start scaling back...then I woke up with a headache...okay good excuse not to run...but still had to go to class. <BR> I go to my Saturday Org Behavior class and WHAM I start seeing spots! Killer migraine hits, long story short I end up at Doc in the Box also known as Patients First on oxyg... Mon, 26 Mar 2012 15:42:08 EST I didn't want to do it Woke up this morning tired. (That's what I get for taking off my CPAP mask during the night) <BR> Waking up tired of course made me sluggish. I didn't want to eat breakfast, I didn't want to study and I dang sure didn't want to work out. All I wanted to do was crawl back into the bed and sleep another few hours. <BR> That couldn't happen though, had to get the kids up and off to school, check my email to ensure nothing pressing came in from my classmates or professors overnight. Get somethi... Tue, 20 Mar 2012 09:03:00 EST I couldn't stay away I posted a couple of days ago about all the loss I experienced and my plan to stay off of Spark for awhile. But this morning I woke up and realized I needed the positivity of Spark to keep going. I need to keep myself surrounded by positivity and not sink into a funk in which I may never come out of if I dwell there too long. <BR> I went to class yesterday and my friends there couldn't believe I showed up, but I told them that life has to go on, I have responsibilities and commitments to mys... Sun, 18 Mar 2012 08:48:01 EST Life is once more making me feel.... Anyone who has been following my blogs, knows I have been having a series of ups and downs since October. The hits have been fast and furious with me losing loved ones (friends and family members) on average every 3 weeks or so. This week has been super hard as I have lost one young cousin to violence in Philadelphia, an Aunt in New York and now an Aunt in PA all in as little as 5 days. <BR> I realize that we all have our struggles, mine seems to be lately not having time to come up for brea... Fri, 16 Mar 2012 13:50:33 EST Don't speak forgiveness, do it I learned something recently as I read my bible. I learned that I tend to speak forgiveness, but I don't truly practice it. Part of being forgiveness is also praying for the healing and the well-being of the other person who did you harm or caused you pain; (at least that's what I got from my readings, that's what I took away from it). I want to move forward in my life. I want to heal my family, I want to lead my husband to Christ...I want so much and it all starts with forgiveness. It start... Wed, 7 Mar 2012 07:52:01 EST It's best to face all things head on My life in the last few months has been it seems a series of tests. I am not going to lament and do the poor me thing, cause that's just not my style. There are folks out there with so much more going on, facing thier own tests. We all go through things. I am determined to face everything the devil throws my way, because I have God on my side. My husband and I are in a battle for our marriage right now and I've prayed and left it with my heavenly father that ultimately his will be done. I tru... Tue, 6 Mar 2012 09:00:03 EST Journaling I told someone last night that I needed to get my butt in gear, that I'd been slacking. Then I got up this morning and two things showed me that I'd been doing anything but. First I logged on here and realized I'd clocked 500 fitness minutes for February. Then I logged at my journal and I realized, yeah on days when things were extremely busy I may have skipped a workout here and there, but truthfully in 24 days I have only missed 4 workouts! That's why I love journaling, one it keeps you on ... Fri, 24 Feb 2012 08:53:09 EST Another day to say goodbye Today was another day that I must spend realizing that life is unpredicatable and can be cut short unexpectedly. Again my family has lost another loved one, my cousin Billy passed at the age of 40 this weekend. HE was a good man, a great friend and a good husband. He was quick to smile, laugh and share a joke. He will be missed. <BR> You must live each day to the fullest. That is what I am challenging each person to do. <BR> I am honoring him today as I run as far as I can. Mon, 20 Feb 2012 09:07:13 EST New GYM Rules My blogs normally are full of my life. Today I want to have a little fun and maybe in the process make going to the gym a bit more enjoyable. When we walk into the gym we see all sorts of signs for the rules like "Please wipe down equipment", "Please refrain from using your cell phone on gym floor" etc...seems most folks ignore these signs. IF you could post a sign for gym etiquette or new gym rules what would your sign say? I'll start it off.. <BR> "When wearing a sauna suit, please refrain ... Fri, 17 Feb 2012 13:41:03 EST You can only fail if you quit I have started many exercise programs (turbofire, chalean extreme, p90x and insanity) and I have finished none of them. Sounds like I have a pattern going on and for awhile I was beating myself up and calling myself a quitter. But then it hit me, just because I didn't finish the programs in the allotted amount of time (most are 60-90 day programs) doesn't mean I failed. I am not one for structured play (fitness) never have been. But I am the type of person who takes what I can from each progr... Wed, 8 Feb 2012 08:56:51 EST Easy ain't happening It would be so easy to quit...just give up right now. <BR> Or would it be? True I wouldn't have to measure, weigh or eyeball my portions anymore...but last time I went without doing that I overate, felt bloated and when my hubby wanted to play I wanted to sleep (that does not make for a healthy sexy marriage). <BR> I could just give up now and skip the gym in the a.m. <BR> But then I'd be missing that great euphoric high I feel when I hop off the treadmill and I'd miss the admiring glance fr... Sat, 4 Feb 2012 16:47:57 EST Coming back to me How many of us wish we could just skip to the end of this journey? You know the part where we are at goal, we have conquered our demons and we are sliding into the maintenance portion of our lives? I know I've wished that on more than one occasion, but a wiser part of me realizes that in order for this journey to mean something. In order for the lessons I learn along the way to stick, I have to go through the good and the bad things...I have to have some great weeks of loss and some setbacks ... Sun, 29 Jan 2012 16:17:05 EST 4 minute workout. What if you told you that you could burn mondo calories in just 4 minutes? I know you would scoff at me, cause I know I laughed in my girlfriends face when she threw that challenge at me yesterday. But then I did it and thought about weeping for my momma...I should have known when she made me promise to give it my all and not slack that something was up. I mean really how else could I scorch fat in 4 minutes and not give it my all? But then I thought how hard can it be if it only takes 4 min... Thu, 26 Jan 2012 09:44:55 EST 1 Mile Mom, that's all, let's go That's what I heard from my son this afternoon when he came in from school. He knows I've been running (okay it's more of a run/walk combo thing) so today he wanted to go with me. I told him I was doing homework...he said fine when would I be taking a break? I hadn't planned on taking one.... I was going to work clear through til it was time for me to start dinner. He shook his head...he said that wouldn't work. <BR> I told him fine give me a 1/2 hour or so. 29.5 minutes later he was standi... Tue, 24 Jan 2012 19:36:02 EST My first four days on WW Points Plus Program I had to make a determination. Did I want to ditch dieting and trust a process? Did I want to seriously change a pattern I'd fallen into of extreme yo-yoing and adapt to something that allowed me to eat the foods I want and still lose weight? We've all seen the commercials "Believe" and "Yes it works" for weight watchers. Heck my husband even got intrigued when he saw Charles Barkley in a commercial, looking slimmer and trimmer than he did even when he was playing basketball in his heyday....... Mon, 23 Jan 2012 06:54:35 EST So much going on So My life is pretty full right now. I am doing my Masters, tending to the matters of my brothers estate, setting up things for my father to come live with me, etc...etc...etc!!! I have a lot of stuff on my plate so here is my warning in advance. I won't be on Spark alot, but I will check in as often as I can. I hope that you all keep pressing on your journey! Thu, 19 Jan 2012 23:19:12 EST Forget who you were! Too often here on spark and various message boards on the web I hear people lamenting on how they weighed 110 lbs when they were 19 years old, now they're 42 have had 4 kids and they want to be the same weight again. I want to scream and rant when I hear that. I want to tell folks forget who you were and concentrate on who you want to be right now!!! <BR> I remember myself as a 19 year old, I worked 2 jobs, I partied to the wee hours of the morning and I would do that over and over again wi... Sat, 14 Jan 2012 12:12:06 EST 5 days flew by Really?! I haven't blogged in 5 days?! Well I guess the saying is true that time flies when you are having fun. I have been doing a hybrid workout program, combining Insanity, Chalean Extreme, Spin classes and chillaxing (okay that last one isn't a program, just much needed downtime) and I would love to tell you I am seeing amazing results. But since this isn't an infomercial you won't hear about any overnight successes in weight loss or inches lost. What you will hear is that I am sleeping b... Mon, 9 Jan 2012 16:28:30 EST Insanity Plyometric Cardio Circuit So I didn't die. That's a plus in my book. After my crazy workout at the gym yesterday morning, it took me til nearly 930 at night to get the balls to do my day 1 Insanity workout (Plyometric Cardio Circuit), and even once I got up the nerve to do it, I still stalled out til 10 p.m. when the Biggest loser ended to get started. <BR> Let me say first, doing a spinning class and elliptical in the morning already had my legs feeling some kind of way. Soooooooooo maybe doing the plyo wasn't the w... Wed, 4 Jan 2012 10:12:56 EST Just walk out the door! Sometimes the hardest part of a workout is simply walking out the door. I know this is the hardest part for me anyway. I have my mind all set to go work out but then I get distracted by a million other things I have to do concerning my house and family. This morning I had a list a mile long of things I needed to do and of course working out was in the top 5 but after getting my son on the bus, and my daughter off to school and seeing my work weary hubby drag himself in from his overnight shif... Tue, 3 Jan 2012 18:20:39 EST 1st day of Insanity, FIT Test results and beginning pics I warn you this is hard for me to do. Not only doing the workout but showing the pics of exactly how I let grief take over my body. Showing pics of how far I slid back down the mountain and seeing in color how far I have to go. I will tell you all I am human meaning just like everyone else I am far from perfect. I am a fighter though. I have taken the time to grieve the loss of my best friend my brother. I know he wouldn't be happy seeing how far I let myself go, so it's time to get it togeth... Mon, 2 Jan 2012 20:12:28 EST New year new start At the beginning of every year everyone makes resolutions, I choose to set goals. <BR> This year is full of so many new things for me. I start my Masters program in a few days so my first goal has to do with that. <BR> Goal 1: Give my best everytime to every assignment and tasking in my Masters program, work hard to get no less than a grade of B in every course. <BR> Because I am no longer working, I have more time to focus on my fitness goals so that is where goals 2-5 come in. <BR> Goal... Mon, 2 Jan 2012 08:38:02 EST Carving out a diamond They say when enough pressure is put on a lump of coal it eventually turns into a diamond...or the saying is something like that. I have to assume with all that has been happening in my life the last few months, God has plans to turn me into a heck of a sparkling jewel. October= loss of brother (ultimate low spot in my life), November= Accepted into MBA program (high spot), December left my job (not really crying too much over that one as I made the choice to pursue my degree full time), end... Tue, 27 Dec 2011 11:15:30 EST Climbing out of the Pit Unintentionally it happened. Life sent me so many punches at once I checked out. I mean I have been functioning in as far as getting up out of the bed daily, going to work, tending to my family, eating (not good food, but not starving myself) and drinking (ALOT). But recently I realized. I haven't been living. I have been waiting for all the pain to go away, (here's a lesson learned, grief won't go away overnight no matter how much you want it to) and wishing that I could just go back 2 month... Fri, 16 Dec 2011 09:30:19 EST Sometimes Life can gutpunch you A week ago life gave me a really harsh gutpunch. In the space of a breath I lost my brother. In the space of a blink the man who had been my confidant, protector and best friend was gone from this earth and gone from my life. It was unexpected as I'd just spent the weekend prior going on my first cruise with him and his beloved. Then just like that his spark was extinguished and my family was in mourning for a soul gone too soon. <BR> My brother was the core of our family, the go-to guy, th... Mon, 7 Nov 2011 07:43:16 EST Just a quick blog Just a quick blog to say I am still sparking, just not being as vocal about what challenge I am doing, what I am eating and so forth. I am simply focusing on one meal at a time, one movement at a time, one step at a time. Wishing you all the best! Keep the push on to reach your goals! Wed, 26 Oct 2011 12:51:06 EST