ALLIE4993's SparkPeople Blog ALLIE4993's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Day 9 So this week my mother has been in town visiting. For whatever reason when people come to visit you tend to just let go of all inhibitions to maintain your healthy decisions. <BR> <BR> With a weekend full of bbq, beer, mexican, margaritas, wings, more beer, fries, burgers, even more beer....I feel guilty. <BR> <BR> Not only did I indulge I just thew in the towel and gave up! You have that conversation with yourself "ok one, beer..oh they ordered wings??!! Ok, fine since they ordered wings... Thu, 16 Apr 2015 14:17:49 EST Day 8 2 pounds down and I can feel a difference. Small changes can make an impact helping to drive your motivation to reach that BIG goal. One day at a time and I know I can reach my goal. <BR> <BR> I feel like I am slowly getting a grasp on controlling the amount of food I am eating. <BR> <BR> Next Steps: <BR> Continue to control my food intake <BR> <BR> Begin eating healthier food choices <BR> Begin incorporating exercise 2-3 days per week. <BR> <BR> <em>521</em> <em>20</em... Wed, 15 Apr 2015 10:07:57 EST Day 6 Temptation struck big time this weekend and I certainly indulged. Too many drinks and too much food. In my mind I have this conversation with myself saying I will make better choices...then that conversation seems to be null and void once it comes time to make the decisions. <BR> <BR> This is how I continuously fall off the wagon because I end up giving up on myself and my feat to live a healthier lifestyle. I make some bad choices and then throw my hands up on the air and over indulge. AHH... Mon, 13 Apr 2015 11:39:36 EST Day 3 1 pound down! I feel like I should be more excited about that. I mean it's 1 whole pound!! 3500 calories!! I suppose it is because I haven't done anything to deserve losing it. No exercise, no healthy eating, more like lack of eating. <BR> <BR> Everyone always talks about setting goals, along with smaller goals leading up to the overall goal. My fear is I set those goals and I'll hit a bump in the road and derail my whole feat of living a healthier lifestyle. I need a reality check here to ... Fri, 10 Apr 2015 10:13:33 EST Day 1 Time to get to it...again. <BR> <BR> It sucks saying that...again. You have all the hope in the world that this time will be it to make a change, until you look back days, months, sometimes years later to see that change didn't occur. What went wrong? Regret builds and you start to have self doubt, will this time really be it? Will I stick to my plan in order to reach my goals? <BR> <BR> I recognize questioning my ability won't help me achieve my goals but I do really want to understand w... Wed, 8 Apr 2015 10:04:34 EST Fighting Temptations So I tried my best to fight the temptations around me! Sat, 15 Feb 2014 11:59:39 EST Goal 1 almost complete!!! I'm almost to my first goal!!! Fri, 14 Feb 2014 11:54:56 EST Hula Whoo?? Has anyone Hula Hooped before?? Tue, 11 Feb 2014 18:09:17 EST Feeling Pretty Good Today was a pretty good day! Mon, 10 Feb 2014 17:22:14 EST My Motivation has gone missing... I can't seem to find my motivation. It just seems to have taken a vacation without me. It's not lack of education, I know what I need to do and how to do it. It's just a matter of getting off my booty and doing it. <BR> <BR> I've realized one thing that may be standing in my way is my expectations. I've set them way too high. I expect to feel happy and positive everyday and that I should be working out everyday and eating perfectly everyday. Well what the heck am I thinking?? No one is perf... Sun, 9 Feb 2014 08:48:01 EST Starting Over Just wanted to re-introduce myself to the SparkPeople Community. Glad to be back everyone!! Wed, 5 Feb 2014 15:51:02 EST Getting in the groove of things Well after weeks of NOT getting my butt out the door to exercise, tonight I did it. I went for a bike ride. I kept making excuses..its too cold, i'll go tonight when traffic has died down, I'll go tomorrow, it's getting dark, I'll go after work before traffic gets too bad, I'm tired and the list goes on and on. Any excuse I could think of I would convince myself out of going. <BR> I love to bike and I lost about 30 pounds in High School a long time ago and I loved it. I knew it worked for me... Sat, 30 Nov 2013 18:05:53 EST Becoming more aware So I have been tracking my calories for the past few months or so. I wouldn't say I'm consistent and track everyday however I thought I was doing ok as far as making sure to write down what I eat. I usually wouldn't track on the weekends and if I nibbled on something when I got home from work I wouldn't track it. <BR> <BR> I haven't had much success in losing any weight. I lost a few pounds but then I had a terrible emotional week and ate so much food, including a whole tub of chip dip which... Wed, 13 Nov 2013 20:31:27 EST When does this end? I have always had anger problems since I was young. I have been gaining control of this for the past few months by seeing a therapist. I also have terrible anxiety which has improved over the past few months as well. I was never diagnosed with depression however since my bf (wasn't some silly relationship, we were planning our future together)recently broke up with me about 3 weeks ago all I feel lately is anger, sadness, confusion, aggression, the list goes on. I go to work and I dread comin... Thu, 10 Oct 2013 17:37:12 EST Seeing Results! Yay! So when I weigh myself I usually do it in the morning before I take a shower, seems to be the only time I remember. So this morning as my shower starts heating up I weight myself and I weighed in at 173!!!! Yayyyyy I started at 177 and was wondering when would I see progress. I'm so excited that the small changes I have started to make is starting to pay off. <BR> <BR> I've had problems with motivation in the past but seeing that number drop just makes me want to keep doing what I'm do... Sat, 5 Oct 2013 08:58:24 EST Does it get any easier? So today I walked home from work. It's only about 1.6 miles (I live in a major metropolitan city) but it seemed so much further away. It's funny because I compare it to where I grew up, in the suburbs where if I walked 1.6 miles it didn't really seem too far but now that I'm in the city it seems like quite a distance thinking about where my apt is in correlation to my job. So I think I'm going to try to start walking to and from work. Plus that way I won't be taking the bus everyday and I wil... Thu, 3 Oct 2013 20:03:48 EST Trying to move forward The past few day's haven't been easy as far as trying to move forward from the serious committed relationship I had with my bf that he has ended abruptly. It hasn't been easy, I haven't cried but I haven't been ok. I'm still angry and confused and I wish I could talk to him and work this out but I am respecting his decision and the space he says he needs to figure out his life. With that said I have been trying to just focus on myself and try to lose some of the weight I have set out to lose.... Tue, 1 Oct 2013 17:02:47 EST When it hurts so bad I have been dating my boyfriend for about a year and a half. We had a long distance relationship. He is a senior in college. He is 3 years younger than I am. He lives 2 hours away and we would see each other every weekend. We switched off each weekend, he would visit me I would visit him. We spoke every night. He talked about a future together, a lot. He loved me, cares for me, and respects me. We had our normal little disagreements that every couple has. We never argued maliciously. We respe... Mon, 30 Sep 2013 07:22:23 EST Slowly Progressing So today some what marked the beginning of several changes that have been happening in my life. I started a new job, and with that I have been thinking more and more about trying to get healthier and lose some of my excess weight that I don't want to carry around anymore. <BR> <BR> With my new job I won't be driving anymore, I will be taking public transportation which is great because I hate driving. Once I get off at my stop I have to walk about 5 blocks or so to get the my job so essenti... Tue, 24 Sep 2013 19:38:52 EST Changes are happening! Well it doesn't seem like almost a month ago I started back at this. Holy Moly I'm really letting time slip on by. I've been so focused on trying to find a new job and all of my time and hard work finally paid off. <BR> <BR> My 25th birthday is tomorrow (9/23) and I start my job on the 24th. Talk about an awesome birthday present. This is something that I really needed to change in my life and I'm so glad it finally happened. Not only is the job changing but other things will change in my l... Sun, 22 Sep 2013 18:49:54 EST Time to figure out my life Everyone always says your twenties is that period in your life where you are "lost". You don't know what you want to do, you're finishing up college, you're at a job that's headed no where and you don't know who you are. I feel like I am the textbook example of what a 20 something year old is and it sure does scare me. Considering I will be 25 in the next month I really don't want to go through the rest of my 20's feeling like this. Something needs to change. <BR> <BR> I used to be on SparkP... Mon, 26 Aug 2013 20:33:37 EST Fat Mirrorrr talk about being MIA for awhile. Life can really get ahead of you sometimes. Each day you tell yourself the same thing about this being the day you will get on track, then another day goes by, then a week, then months. Before you know it you've gained 10 pounds and worse off than where you started from. <BR> <BR> That's exactly how I have been feeling the past 4 months or so. I had a really rough summer experiencing a lot of personal struggles that I never thought I would have to deal with.... Sun, 18 Dec 2011 22:22:44 EST If there's a will there's a way! So there is not point to sugar coat the bumps in the road along my quest to a healthy life. In order to reach my goal I need to be honest and real about the unhealhty choices I have made. First off since graduation I haven't been focused on making healthy choices because I was in a transition phase of my life...trying to find a job and wondering how I am going to pay my bills. Well now that I do have not one but 2 jobs I don't have to worry about that. Now its time to focus and create a plan ... Sun, 19 Jun 2011 14:19:19 EST They like me...They really like me!! So upon my day of graduating from college I knew I had to get my act together and buckle down on finding a job... one that will help me gain experience and allow me to move forward. At my graduation Chris Matthews (host of hardball on MSNBC) spoke and he gave the graduating class these little cards that have informative bullet points on them in order to reach your goals. One of them said to get out there and bother everyone...dont stop knocking on doors until you get what you want....Ok so we... Tue, 7 Jun 2011 17:00:24 EST Spring Cleaning anybody? Ok so granted I could do a little spring cleaning around my apartment but I'd rather start with a little spring cleaning to benefit myself in order to be a better me. I'll get to the apartment spring cleaning eventually, besides that wont take as long as my personal spring cleaning. <BR> <BR> Changing your lifestyle is not an easy task. Change in general can certainly be scary and thats what I am enduring at this moment in my life. Lots of changes...I feel like that happens a lot when your ... Mon, 30 May 2011 17:12:03 EST I've GRADUATED!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ahhhh...what a relief. So Thursday May 12th marked my graduation from college. Finally! Even though I graduated a year late that set back doesnt take away from the amazing day I had. It was gorgeous and Temple had a really nice ceremony. It was a little hot while the 6000+ students lined up anxiously waiting to enter the venue. As we did we felt on top of the world, all of these people were here for us! Our guest speaker was Chris Matthews from Hardball on MSNBC, he gave some great advice abo... Sun, 15 May 2011 16:14:54 EST Personal Bizzzzzzzzzz Big SIGHH! haha ok guys so Im sure some of you have noticed..well Im hoping some of you have noticed that I have been kind of MIA the past month or so. I've been dealing with a lot of personal things in my life parents seperation and my grandmother also passed away a week after I found out about my parents. So a bunch of stuff all at once. I've been kind of stressed with all of those things along with trying to finish up my last weeks of college. 3 weeks and I will gradute! It's very scary be... Fri, 22 Apr 2011 12:52:10 EST Changesss Just some thoughts...and why I havent been around the past week <BR> Sat, 26 Mar 2011 00:46:09 EST When to step in?? sorry for the ramble Tue, 15 Mar 2011 13:32:40 EST Struggling...friends.... and Chicken curry! (Pics of course!!!!!!!!) Hey Sparkers <BR> So ive been struggling with food and trying to get that under control as far as making better choices. I seem to be influenced by others decisions. My friends will go out to eat a lot and I will tag along and of course will order something. It funny how much eating has become a social thing. Of course I want to be with my friends and well when they go out to eat I go with them. Im currently working on this and will continue to in the future. <BR> <BR> Even though I may hav... Mon, 14 Mar 2011 21:46:42 EST What did the snickers say to the Twix?? haha ok so im not sure what the snickers said to the twix...but it told me to eat it!!!!!!!! ahhh Fri, 11 Mar 2011 19:49:03 EST Diversifying Food Ok soo beginning last week I began to count my calories..and I got off track a little last weekend but Im doing better this week. Today Ive been feeling really good about it especially the foods I'm eating. I'm eating things that are foods that I like but didnt always incorporate into my diet as much. For example FISHHHHH. I love fish and I found some good recipes on sparkpeople and I also looked in the spice aisle at the grocery store to get some ideas as well. This has been pretty helpful i... Thu, 10 Mar 2011 18:40:55 EST What???...The Gym is closed?? Ok so I tried to blog about this in a video blog but my video wasnt loading :( I will have to try and figure out something. If anyone knows what file the video has to be in let me know...Ive posted a video blog before but it was so long ago that I forgot how I did it. Im not even 100% sure how to change the file of the video lol. All I know is when it automatically saved it was a .wmv file. <BR> <BR> Ok I havent been to the gym in the past three days because well My gym was not... Mon, 7 Mar 2011 12:45:54 EST Grocery Shopping Ok so in previous blogs of mine I kept mentioning how pricey produce is in the grocery stores. So today I found the time to check out the market downtown in Philly and it was totally worth it!! Ok so check out what I was able to purchase. <BR> <BR> Grocery list: <BR> Produce Prices <BR> Sweet Vidalia Onions @ $0.50/lb <BR> Tomatos @ $ 1.49/1b <BR> Granny Smith Apples @ $1.49/lb <B... Fri, 4 Mar 2011 17:58:08 EST The cheese and the steak ...or maybe I made a mistake?? Ok so day two of counting my calories is complete and a success. I did not stay in my caloric range though. I went over by 200 calories which at first I was a little disappointed in but after sitting here and analyzing my day of food Im not going to beat myself up over it. The reason I went over my calories was because I treated myself. Living in Philadelphia you have to appreciate the cheesesteak and well since returning back to Philly after a semester abroad I havent had a cheesesteak so to... Fri, 4 Mar 2011 00:20:55 EST Calorie counting...not soo bad after all Ok so today marks my first complete day of calorie counting. It was actually quite a shock to me today. I realized A LOT of things just by counting and tracking what I ate. It kinda sucked having to keep track of everything but by the time dinner rolled around I just wrote it all down while I was making my food. <BR> So my range each day in order to lose weight is 1200-1400. I found this awesome page here on sparkpeople that shows you how to calculate your range in order to lose weight based... Wed, 2 Mar 2011 20:02:42 EST Enough is Enough Ok so my struggle lately has been trying to actually make the numbers on the scale go down. I was weighing myself everyday and I became a little obsessed with it so I told myself I would stop weighing everyday and just weigh once a week. Well I did that last week and I weighed myself yesterday and I went up 4 lbs. I feel kind of defeated because I have been really sticking to my workout plan and making the effort to squeeze that into my day. Last week I went 5 days to the gym and I usually am... Wed, 2 Mar 2011 08:48:00 EST As Tony the Tiger says....They're GRRRREEEAT!!! HAHA ok so this blog isn't about tony the tiger or frosted flakes...I actually don't even remember the last time I had Frosted Flakes. HAHAHA <BR> <BR> So I worked out late last night because on Thursdays I dont get done with class until 8:30 or 9ish and luckily on thursdays the gym at school is open until midnight..every other day its open until 10pm. So I did my cardio for 40 minutes and did some weights. I Felt grrrrreat afterwards!! I had so much energy that my friends were making fun ... Fri, 25 Feb 2011 13:13:39 EST Food sabotaging my goals! Ok so the past 3 weeks I have been doing really good with sticking to my gym routine. I'm actually really proud of myself for being able to make the commitment and stick to my weekly goal of going at least 3 times a week. This week..I count my weeks as they are on the calendar (sun-sat) ....I have gone 4 times this week already and have two days left in the week. The only day I have not gone to the gym so far is Monday. I'm always doing cardio work outs for at least thirty minutes. Sometimes ... Fri, 25 Feb 2011 01:27:28 EST Sticking to it..part 2 haha ok so this morning I was having this angel and devil on your shoulder moment. I couldnt decide whether or not to pack my gym clothes and go to the gym between classes. Well i packed my bag with my gym clothes and just went straight to the gym after class. Im really glad I did. I was really reluctant to go just because of how tired I was and the amount of work I have to do..but that time was for me..alone time listening to my music and I did read part of my book assigned for a class. I ev... Tue, 22 Feb 2011 16:37:42 EST Sticking to it Ok so here in philadelphia we have been having some weird weather...Sunny and 65 one day...and now 35 and snow on the ground. The warm weather and lack of snow has really motivated me to stick to my gym routine and well today..I just had no desire to get out of bed ...even though I have my morning class. Of course I had all intentions of going to class this morning but after my morning class I have a 3 hour break and I always hit the gym between that time so I always have my gym clothes packe... Tue, 22 Feb 2011 08:30:13 EST Non-Motivating Friends I cant mention enough how much I enjoy and depend on Sparkpeople in order to be where I am at with my weigh-loss/ healthy-living journey. If it wasn't for sparkpeople and all of the amazing and supportive people on here I would not have reached the goals or have even set the goals that I have reached thus far. A lot of people say that having others around you that support you in your weight-loss journey or even join you as a partner/buddy in your weight-loss journey helps you stick to your go... Sat, 19 Feb 2011 13:18:18 EST Activate my life! Ok so this past week I have been getting my butt to the gym here are my college..which I should be taking better advantage of because well we are a D-1 school and we have a pretty awesome facilities on campus. Anyways I have been taking advantage this past week and it really does feel good. I am trying to keep an open mind though and just take it one day at a time. I have my eating habits pretty much under control, now its just getting moving. I think the frigid weather wasn't helping but lat... Sat, 12 Feb 2011 18:55:19 EST Burnt Out...From Life So this won't be one of the most positive postings you'll read but I have no where else to go. Ive been strugglilng everyday just to get out of bed in the morning and get my day started. I hate that process, solely because of a daily struggle that I HATE dealing with. I have Alopecia, which if you do not know put it simply..losing your hair. It started when I was around 13 and now im 22. Almost ten years I have been dealing with this and you would think I would be used to it by now. Ne... Thu, 3 Feb 2011 09:59:58 EST Back in the United States...back to reality?? So now that I am back in the States and back to my normal life and not in another country full of distractions and adventure that I can't wait to unravel I'm hoping that my healthful decisions in Italy will transfer easily back here in the States. I took advantage of the fresh markets and the realllllllllllllly inexpensive produce in Italy...that is not the case here and It is somewhat frustrating because I am a college student and really do not have the means to be spending extra money espec... Thu, 6 Jan 2011 22:44:14 EST Maintaining in Italy Hey guys So I had a busy rest of the summer and into Sept. I am actually studying abroad in Rome Italy for the semester. I have still been watching what I eat and fitting in my exercise wherever I am able to. Since coming to Italy my eating habits have definitely changed. I've noticed I am not eating as much food at one sitting. My portion control is..well .. under control ! I am more focused on my food when I eat. Back home I was always watching TV when I ate my food. Now I sit at the kitche... Tue, 5 Oct 2010 02:29:31 EST 7lbs down Hard work is paying off!! I love that feeling and I think thats what keeps me motivated to get my butt up and go work out. I remember always feeling I needed to be a certain size to be happy. Its not about being that perfect size. Its about being healthy and confident in the body that was given to you. I feel mentally Im at that point of realization. This is a stepping stone to becoming an overall healhty individual!! <BR> have an excellent day everyone!! Wed, 21 Jul 2010 14:02:39 EST sunshine So after the few days of rain here in philly today actually looks like it will be a sunny one!! I got up and did my hour work out again. I was determined to stick to that hour goal. I was at the half hour mark on the elliptical and i was getting bored. So I switched to a different machine for about 10 min and went back to the elliptical then back to another machine!! If I wanted to get through my workout today I knew I had to switch it up. I get bored easily and my attention span doesnt last ... Thu, 15 Jul 2010 11:32:23 EST Not gonna rain on my parade!!! So here in the city of brotherly love it has been raining for the past few days and it coincidently reflects my mood as well. I just recently am getting out of a relationship that took a long long time to realize was unhealthy and knew I deserved better. The past two days while it has been raining in this city I've had an emotional break down. Today I seem to have made an effort in moving through this difficult time and make my life better for me and my future. As it continues to rain I plan ... Wed, 14 Jul 2010 13:46:04 EST 5lbs down So i'd still like some advice that I mentioned in my previous blog so if anyone has any by all means then message me or leave a comment. <BR> So I havent changed a lot of the things I have been eating but I have been controlling the amount of what I eat. Now I need to focus on what I'm eating and incorporating healthier foods. I have exercised more and still want to incorporate more of that but I'm still making the progress of moving forward. The 5 pounds that I have lost has given me the mot... Wed, 2 Jun 2010 14:24:23 EST