ALLIBERRI's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=ALLIBERRI ALLIBERRI's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ thinking healthy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5570067 So I am thinking healthy and strong. I have spent some time on interest to see what healthy strong bodies look like and am using them in my daily journaling to keep my minds eye on the prize. Healthy, strong me. <BR> I have learned over the past couple of days that being obsessed about being obsessed with food has not been helpful for me. It is better for me to keep my eyes on the road ahead. I thought about how I used to run and too often it was with my eyes down looking at each step I to... Sun, 22 Dec 2013 20:37:14 EST i can't believe it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5568023 wow,,,how amazing is that? I came to my page and looked at my blog and the very same challenge came up this morning - imagining that I am throwing away my clothes that are too big. I have a whole different visual about it this morning. it is easy to toss those clothes aside and get on with my life. I see myself walking away with a spring in my step on a warm sunny day, happy and content in my life. <BR> it is also a big scary because I am, once again working on my food addictions. I struggle... Thu, 19 Dec 2013 13:10:33 EST letting it allllll go http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5540315 the spark coach lesson for the day has me imagining that i am dropping off my old larger clothes to a drop off spot. quite frankly, i am having trouble letting go of the bag - all the what ifs of the world are pounding at my brain....what if i need these clothes again, what if no one really cares that i have lost all this weight, what if no one even notices that i have lost all this weight and the biggest one - what if i can't maintain my new weight? what if i stop being diligent and start sl... Wed, 13 Nov 2013 16:24:47 EST I WILL win! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5503317 feels like a century since i have written here. my long uphill battle continues. i decided to just stay off the wagon for a long while. the wagon is looooong gone, but i am slowly making my way up the hill. it's been a battle. i actually told myself to quit trying and just use food as my solace - until my clothes starting getting tight again. i have been really worn out from my working environment. things finally crashed on September 4th and i made a monumental decision to not let this place ... Thu, 3 Oct 2013 09:33:33 EST uphill battle http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5401247 first i fell off the wagon, and now i am trying to get back on the wagon, but it seems to be headed uphill at the present moment. i am letting every little 'thing' along the way turn into a lie i tell myself for 'allowing' myself to 'eat better' and 'nourish my body' etc., etc., etc., <BR> yup, i am being hard on myself, but i am not being honest with myself right now about what i am eating and why i am eating so.... <BR> i guise it under 'i need more nutrition while i am healing' - heck - i'... Tue, 25 Jun 2013 10:57:11 EST back to work http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5395266 Aptly titled.... <BR> <BR> I went back to work - and fell off the spark wagon...it's hurts really, if anyone has ever done such a thing. I was scared to come back...sorry that I have disappointed people, afraid to face myself. I know that falling off the wagon hasn't hurt anyone else but me. <BR> <BR> My knee is doing great - finally...it has been a long journey through physio and i have been getting back to my exercise, but not as fervently as I had previously, nor have I been as conscient... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 13:45:10 EST measures of success http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5278797 SUCCESS - the Canadian oxford dictionary defines it as: <BR> 1) the accomplishment of an aim <BR> 2) the attainment of wealth, fame or position <BR> 3) a thing or person that turns out well <BR> <BR> I believe I measure success not as much as the accomplishments or attainments in my life, but in the final outcome. While accomplishing that weight loss of 2lbs, or the loss of 2 inches on your waistline; and the attainment of Spark friends cheering you on every day in your journey - the joy and... Fri, 8 Mar 2013 11:46:19 EST the dark alley http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5257378 i once read a book that began with the scenario of finding yourself in a strange dark alley with no one else around. it encouraged one to acknowledge the emotions one might have being in such a situation and also have a plan for those emotions as well as anything other things that one would imagine - good or bad. <BR> the basis of the book was to encourage a person to look inside themselves; see and feel what was inside there and at some point, choose to come out of the dark alley back into ... Wed, 20 Feb 2013 10:59:58 EST body language http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5246543 i would have never in all my born days believed that recovery from this knee replacement would be such a life lesson. in the assessment phase prior to the surgery, they make sure you are physically fit and ready for the procedure. they prepare you mentally, telling you that it is a long and arduous journey, but no one talks to you about how to listen to your body as you heal. <BR> i have been a very active person all my life. i would categorize myself as an athlete, especially in my secondary... Mon, 11 Feb 2013 14:32:43 EST sleeping beauty revised http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5241888 Once upon a time, in a faraway place lived a beautiful little girl. She was innocent as children are, learning how to walk and talk, and play. But life was not good in the kingdom that she was born into. The queen of the castle was not a happy queen. The king had left the kingdom never to be found again, and there she was trying to be a good queen mother to her small princess. Many suitors came to the castle seeking the queen's hand in marriage, but finding out that an unhappy queen lived wit... Thu, 7 Feb 2013 17:12:59 EST today i will... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5240125 REWARD MYSELF! <BR> Through <BR> Positive encouragements to myself <BR> Remembering all the people that are out there cheering me on <BR> Drinking enough water <BR> Eating healthy <BR> Doing my exercises <BR> <em>224</em> Playing a game on the computer <BR> Paying my bills <BR> Getting myself organized <BR> Random acts of kindness for others <BR> <BR> Sheesh...I'm pooped...enough rewards for today...luckily there is still many tomorrows Wed, 6 Feb 2013 11:36:27 EST to my sabatoguer http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5238400 Dear little girl, <BR> I know that you have been hurt and ignored, shamed and treated badly for a long, long time. I know that people were well meaning when they took food away from you when you were hungry, and forced you to eat food when you weren't hungry, and when you were sick, or the food made you sick. I am here to set you free. <BR> You are an adult now, and you don't have to live by anyone else's rules but your own. You are a smart woman, and you have made good decisions in your life... Tue, 5 Feb 2013 09:04:26 EST optimism - front & center http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5233247 accentuate the positive. there is a type of therapy that is used called Brief Solution Focus therapy. the whole goal of the therapy is to find the exceptions in one's life and keep doing the things that are working. it is an awesome tool, and can work for anyone. Coach Nicole's chat about positive thinking reminded me of this tool, and that i sooo need to remember - what are the things that are working well? <BR> - motivation no matter how deep the snow, how cold it is out (canadian weather ... Fri, 1 Feb 2013 12:56:43 EST why? why am i doing this..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5231447 why am i doing this? <BR> because - i want to be healthy <BR> because - i want to enjoy my life with my children and grandchildren, my partner and friends <BR> because - i've already lived a life of can't do's ... <BR> because - i have no energy <BR> because - i can't move the same as others who are slim and muscular <BR> because - i am tired of being tired and not meeting my goals in life <BR> and <BR> BECAUSE - I DESERVE IT! <BR> <BR> <em>351</em> Thu, 31 Jan 2013 09:46:18 EST i can hear... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5226823 i can hear people cheering me on at the finish line...regardless of whether it is an exercise challenge, a weight loss challenge, or a life challenge. <BR> yesterday when i woke up my operated leg was soooo stiff. i just longed for the day when i could just jump out of bed and move like i did prior to the surgery. not that it wasn't full of pain, but i wasn't as stiff as this. <BR> today, i woke up and was able to get out of bed with much more ease, and you know what I think? i think it is ... Mon, 28 Jan 2013 09:46:28 EST thank goodness for the spark community http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5217300 i have no grand insights, only a thankful heart for the spark community. <BR> i have no grand mistakes to report, or slip uprs, only praise for the spark community. <BR> without the spark community, i would be like a lost puppy, still searching for a place to come home to, a place to find nourishment and rest, and rejuvenation. <BR> THANK YOU to all who make this a safe place and encouraging place to come and learn more about me and the 'eating' world I live in. <em>304</em> Mon, 21 Jan 2013 16:00:37 EST my Mt. Everest http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5214257 Exercise today from Spark Coach was to blog about excuses that I may use to not exercise. What me?! No, not me, I love to exercise... <BR> Well, that is usually my take on life, except...when I stayed up too late the evening before - knowingly; when I just like the warm covers too much and want to stay wrapped up in them; when I feel I deserve the extra sleep; when I feel like my partner never gets to snuggle with me in the morning (now that is just down and dirty using other people as excuse... Sat, 19 Jan 2013 12:12:09 EST two challenges http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5195295 And the gaunlet has been thrown down. I was first challenged in my video today to blog about my progress (not including the numbers on the scale), and secondly, I have been challenged to blog about what helps me stay motivated. <BR> Firstly, my progress...where to start. I think the biggest progress I have noted is that my clothes have gotten bigger. It feels good to have baggy clothes-so much so that I am hating to buy clothes that are constricting. I am having to shop much more carefully no... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 15:29:18 EST Good thoughts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5172809 I will admit i am a bit of a hermit when it comes to weight loss and exercise, so entering into the 'spark community' is a big deal for me. i love to go read others progress and how well they are doing. it is a big motivator for me. i believe that i need others to continue on my journey. as i have begun to lose weight, i start to find more of me. it is a wonderful thing. i do not want to lose this momentum this time. i am finding spark coach a wonderful tool to stay motivated and with like mi... Fri, 21 Dec 2012 10:57:21 EST I've been sparked! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5169990 Wow, <BR> Have I been sparked. I say that to say how much insight I am gaining into my life and how I attach food to my emotional life just by logging into this site. By reading other member's pages, the motivational things, some funnies, and doing the daily tracking and asking questions, I am learning, learning, learning. <BR> I began years ago, and have faltered along the way, but am working this program with some other information that I have available to me and am learning how much we can... Tue, 18 Dec 2012 10:06:42 EST busy month http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4814614 It has been a busy month and I did not get here as often as I wanted. <BR> I spent time this morning reading blogs getting inspired for the week. What a fantastic way to start this week. <BR> Sunday is my day of rest. The day of the week were I take the time to sit down, go through the week's menu and plan for all the exciting new and wonderful foods I am going to try, and also some of the old favorites that I always enjoy (like spinach salad with chicken and fruit). I also look at my exerc... Sun, 1 Apr 2012 09:01:23 EST gettin my mojo back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4794635 Last week - not so great. i didn't log in here much at all, but i am printing out my menu stuff and tracking it on paper. that helps. <BR> The sugar quota - over what it needs to be, but i am more aware of what i am putting into my body. it is an incredible thing. i went on a huge sugar binge last week...crazzzzzy stuff. obviously just couldn't stand it anymore. felt crappy and it was harder than ever to say no to sweets and fats. imagine that. got to stay away from that stuff for sure. <B... Mon, 19 Mar 2012 09:41:20 EST you is sweet enough girl http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4775270 So I ate three marshmallow bunnies last night. <BR> As I was headed to bed, i felt like i just wanted to eat a little something (i was tired) and i reached for sugar. i even heard a voice in my head say no...don't do it, but alas, i had some anyway. <em>39</em> <BR> I realized that i really hadn't made an exact plan not to eat them. so the exact plan is NO - i is sweet enough already! <BR> today is a new day, and i plan to use that line every time i have to! <BR> i am proud of myself that... Wed, 7 Mar 2012 09:37:06 EST sugarholic no more http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4774077 nothing feels as good as being sugar free.... <BR> lately i have been using little sayings to help me get through the day. i haven't been reallly good about exercising lately, but i noticed the kick the sugar habit challenge and am gonna set out some goals for me to cut back on the sugar in my life. <BR> 1) no more chocolate bars, or candies for the rest of the month of march <BR> 2) no more sugar in my tea - make herbal teas <BR> 3) no more cookies for the rest of the month of march <BR> ... Tue, 6 Mar 2012 16:06:20 EST you can teach old dogs new tricks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4598738 I still can't believe it. <BR> As I sit here reading Spark Successes, I am amazed and thrilled at other people's successes.and now I have one of my own. I am finally getting it. After dilly dallying on Spark People for about 2 years now, I think that it has finally clicked. <BR> I have been following the menus - a bit, and tracking what I have been eating - a bit, but (there is that big excuse word) have always found - yes, excuses, as to why I got off track. Two weeks ago, I went to anothe... Fri, 25 Nov 2011 09:44:34 EST back at it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4351009 so i see that i was all gungho for a while, and as usual, dropped off the edge of the planet...well, i am back. i need to get it set in my mind that this is a life style change not a fair weather change. i need to set myself as a priority cuz i ain't gettin' any younger. i do not want to hit 50 and be a fat chubby gramma. i want to be able to set a good example for my grandsons. <BR> i want to start taking this a day at a time or a minute at a time and just be glad that i have the abilities ... Sat, 9 Jul 2011 10:10:21 EST weekend blitzing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3841027 looking on my entries for the week i see that weekend are definitely a downfall. i don't log in, i don't enter anything, i don't always check to see what i should be eating, in fact i keep thinking - it's friday, i can eat silly, and then it gets to saturday and i think, i can eat silly, and then it gets to sunday and i 'treat' myself before the week starts again. how dumb am i? i know that i was careful at the party, but baking those cookies was a downfall. i just couldn't resist having some... Mon, 13 Dec 2010 09:53:57 EST rally driving http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3831645 initially i was going to title this feeling discouraged, but i don't totally feel discouraged. in fact at times i feel that little glimmer of hope and know what i want and how i want it to be. i dislike the rallying back and forth. i know that i am tired and just want to sleep in and have my own schedule for a week or so and not have a ton of deadlines. i don't know how people live with constant big looming deadlines in their heads alllll the time. can't do it, not made for that. <BR> i real... Wed, 8 Dec 2010 09:24:54 EST onward... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3831040 it doesn't look like much on my stats, however, i can see that i am making changes in my life. i am more aware of the kinds of foods that i am eating, especially for snacking - tonight is one of those nights. instead of rummaging through the cupboards for something to snack on, i grabbed an orange and filled in my food for the day. filling in my food for the day - no cheats - i filled in all the little things, and now i am done for the day. i don't feel like i need to eat anything else. <BR>... Tue, 7 Dec 2010 22:52:46 EST on track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3822241 so today i am on track. i got up at a decent time, rode my recumbent bike for 30 minutes and then even shoveled snow for 30 minutes. i then paid some bills and went for a massage. <BR> my eating hasn't been so great - i definitely not eaten five fruits and/or vegetables. i suppose i could snack on an orange, that makes 3 veggies/fruits for today. i hope they have salad tonight, because then i can eat half a baked potato, and half the steak and then salad. mostly greens and not so much meat. ... Fri, 3 Dec 2010 17:21:18 EST new experiences http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3819404 did something new - went to curves for the first time. i was sooooo dreading it, but it turned out to be a wonderful experience, and why you ask? because of the staff primarily. she was sparky and bubbly and i enjoyed my time there. i felt a bit bad because i feel like i was using up her time to help another person in the gym..it was a good visit. there are machines that i cannot use because of my arthritis and limitations, but alas, we are trying to find ways to work around that. i suppose i... Thu, 2 Dec 2010 12:31:42 EST on track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3814989 a new week...and trying hard to stay on track. i am at home, and it is difficult not to keep snacking. being at work is easier, no access to food continually. <BR> it started in the grocery store, but i resisted...i told myself if i still wanted to eat crappy food i could come back later in the week. then, i told myself i could have an extra piece of bread if i exercised - but i don't see myself exercising to get rid of the butter or bread i ate. there is still time though, but i don't feel a... Tue, 30 Nov 2010 16:56:00 EST the weekend is loooming http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3806524 so the dreaded weekend is on it's way. it starts today actually for me, but i am planning. i am trying to remember allll the tips that i have read here and other weight loss sites for staying on track for the weekend. <BR> i am planning for taking some foods with me. <BR> i know that i will get exercise as it is a work bee weekend. <BR> i have already packed my vitamins. <BR> i need to buy a case of water. <BR> i also will enlist the help of a friend to keep me on track throughout the week... Fri, 26 Nov 2010 09:20:34 EST keep the ball rolling http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3805181 wow, who woulda thunk...this week has been a looooong one. i really intended to stay on track, but going away for the weekend is hard, and eating out is hard. i didn't keep my promise to myself to exercise last week either, but i am going to say this - i was looking out after myself. i am exhausted. having two deaths of people close to you in two weeks kinda knocks the winds out of a person's sails. i am feeling better today though and am looking forward to getting back on track. it has felt ... Thu, 25 Nov 2010 09:28:38 EST onward and onward http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3789162 Day 2 <BR> Was concerned about tonights menu - ate out, and didn't follow the menu plan, but came in under par. i was very conscious about how much a 3 oz serving of meat was and didn't deviate, plus i used lots of veggies on my plate, and was careful with my snacking before supper. i ate late and was STARVING! but reminded myself that i was not going to blow this, and I didn't. I was under the top of my calorie count. <em>244</em> <em>345</em> <BR> i was feeling a bit bad this morning tha... Wed, 17 Nov 2010 00:34:18 EST beginning of the new week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3784752 <em>249</em> <BR> So today is the first day.... and I am gonna stay on track with my eating, with checking in here, and with exercising. <BR> A bit disappointing this morning - went to the pool to swim, only to find out it is closed now until January. What a bummer. I was looking forward to a swim. Oh, well...I can swim in the pool in the hotel on the weekend. I will take up my recumbent again, and running, and start in on some weight training again. A new routine, but it gets me back into... Mon, 15 Nov 2010 09:25:17 EST I refuse to quit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3783641 My quote for this month was - It is hard to beat a person who won't quit...and I want that to be me. <BR> As look back over the last month, I see a lot of not so fun things that have happened, yet, it is just a snap shot of my life - some not fun things have happened over the years but I haven't given up. I need to remember to look at my food control/dieting/work out in the same way. Not every day is going to be a wonderful day, and bad days are not here to stay forever. I have to remember ... Sun, 14 Nov 2010 19:00:38 EST