ALANAMEADE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=ALANAMEADE ALANAMEADE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ 2 hours of sleep with 6 more hours of work to go http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5104763 So very sleepy. That TOM showed up yesterday and the suffering set in around 1030 last night (this is fairly typical for me with PCOS and other known issues) and did not stop until 5am...No sleep for me. <BR> <BR> I am predicting that a nap will be happening at some point today..Hopefully not at my work desk. <em>24</em> Fri, 19 Oct 2012 10:08:39 EST Day 4 of no scales http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5102742 I have not really thought about what I weigh all day... <BR> <BR> I have counted my calories and planned out what I will have this evening to stay within range, made quite a few mental notes of what I could be doing better, talked to hubby about finally going and getting my gym membership..All is going well. <BR> <BR> I think I may measure myself in the morning and see what is happening there, but I'm thinking I may actually wait until the end of the month to weigh myself and see how it all... Wed, 17 Oct 2012 15:58:37 EST Day 3 of no scales http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5101454 Today is day 3 in which I do not possess a set of scales...To ensure that I won't be hugely disappointed in myself when I weigh in next I am being very careful with my nutrition. <BR> <BR> My eating is going fine, but I find I am going through daily weigh in withdrawal. I keep wondering what I weigh?, did I lose yesterday?, did hubby add salt to the spaghetti he made for supper last night? etc. <BR> <BR> I obviously have a problem with weighing daily which never occurred to me before now. ... Tue, 16 Oct 2012 14:39:54 EST Compliments are so nice! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5101439 At work this morning on my way to a meeting a co-worker/friend of mine was waiting for me at the office door about 50 feet away and gave me what I thought was a funny look. I thought I was late for the meeting...When I got up to the office door she looked at me again and said "Wow you look like you have lost a ton of weight!! Good stuff lady!" <BR> <BR> Have to say, starting my work day with a compliment like that was kinda great. <em>334</em> Tue, 16 Oct 2012 14:30:04 EST Weekend challenge - total failure http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5099642 Well I had great intentions and plans for this weekend and they all went to pot. <BR> <BR> I have no one to blame but myself and laziness. <BR> <BR> I'm not going to beat myself up over this, but I have set my mind to getting back on track and I have asked hubby to intervene when I start suggesting self sabotaging foods for supper/snacks etc. <BR> <BR> I am without a scale this week, my scale had died previously but came back to life with a new battery but now it is completely messed up. I... Mon, 15 Oct 2012 09:48:31 EST The weekend challenges aweight...see what I did there? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5096656 So I have noticed a trend in my food tracking, I have no problem tracking through out the work week, staying on track is pretty easy Monday to Friday, but by Friday at 5 is when I feel like I lose control over my time and what food is available to me. <BR> <BR> My soon-to-be DH is one of those annoying naturally thin people that can (and does) eat every bad (but delicious) food available and never gain a pound, he dosen't work out either..Jerk..He's lucky I love him. <em>334</em> <BR> <... Fri, 12 Oct 2012 15:45:38 EST Giving up coffee? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5095155 Anyone that knows me is well aware of my affinity for the warm nutty goodness that is called coffee. I am dependent it on it and fairly grumpy without it. <BR> <BR> I went cold turkey once in college and felt wonderful. Had more energy my TOM was easier and my skin looked great then I'm pretty sure end of term exams came up and I went back to my old love..coffee. <BR> <BR> My fiance and I are avid coffee drinkers, to the point that our wedding party favors are coffee related...I haven't mad... Thu, 11 Oct 2012 11:06:34 EST If I'm honest with myself - Gets a little serious readers be warned. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5093990 Well today I have been on sp for 45 days, I was down a total of 16 lbs for a while, got a little lazy and didn't lose anything for a week and then went MIA for about a week to 10 days in which I gained 6 lbs, so 45 days and 10 lbs down. <BR> <BR> I could be angry with myself about the re-gain, or about failing on my first few goals, but really what is the point. The goals I had set myself were very aggressive and I think that is what made me give up (momentarily) in the first place. There w... Wed, 10 Oct 2012 12:30:49 EST Bad day- total downer vent - readers beware! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5083546 Yesterday sucked. <BR> <BR> My sister had been badgering me for the better part of 2 weeks to try a ladies boot camp class with her. I kept telling her that I thought it would be way above my fitness level and that I would rather wait till after Christmas when my fitness has improved/I have more weight off. Well I gave in against my better judgement. <BR> It was supposed to be ladies only and the instructor my sister had been speaking to said that I would be able to modify most of the workou... Tue, 2 Oct 2012 09:52:29 EST 10 lbs in 31 days self-challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5082353 I have decided that I am going to challenge myself to be 10 lbs lighter by the end of October. I weighed this morning at 226.5 but I had a very naughty weekend at the cottage with lots of "campfire" treats and high cal mid-afternoon snacks so I am sure that in a day or 2 of clean eating I will be back at the 224 that I have been stuck on for the last week or 2. <BR> I have been stuck because I have been putting more bad food in my mouth then the good stuff, so I have to reverse this. <BR> <... Mon, 1 Oct 2012 14:28:46 EST 31 on Sparkpeople http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5078638 I passed the 30 day mark yesterday without even realizing it. The ironic thing is that my 1 month milestone was celebrated by me by eating everything that crossed my path. <BR> <BR> 2 chocolate bars <BR> 2 bags of chips <BR> Chinese food for lunch <BR> <BR> About 3 million calories over my range.... <BR> <BR> Needless to say last night I felt sick. Emotionally and physically. <BR> I was so mad at myself, but a friend kinda turned it around telling me that none of us are made of stone and ... Fri, 28 Sep 2012 16:19:36 EST Treading water - instead of sinking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5069317 I am feeling kind of unmotivated today. I did not eat well yesterday, even though I stayed within my range, my new scale told me what I was afraid to hear..That my old scale was off by a good 4 lbs, so blah. <BR> <BR> So today I am just going through the motions (with food anyway), I had my healthy breakfast, my chicken and salad for lunch, usually things I enjoy, but today they seem tasteless. <BR> By now I usually have planned what I am going to prepare for supper, how I'm going to tweak ... Fri, 21 Sep 2012 14:26:49 EST Some things that used to taste good but now surprisingly..does not http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5068805 It's only been about 3 weeks since I have been tracking, eating very clean and really avoiding processed foods as much as I can. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I was running late and failed to pack my lunch, no problem, I have a little coffee shop across the hall from my work that has healthy options...It was chilly yesterday so I went for one of my favorites, a Mushroom bisque soup. Tracked my calories which were within the range I shoot for for lunch and dug in. <BR> <BR> I would normally add some s... Fri, 21 Sep 2012 08:20:07 EST Doubts - Just like fat, easy to gain, tough to lose http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5066232 This morning my bathroom scales died. (RIP Scales you've had a large weight to bear over the last 10 years). <BR> <BR> Normally a small home appliance going kaput wouldn't throw me into a world of doubt about my efforts and successes. But this particular machine has me doubting now if I have lost as much as what I have thought. <BR> <BR> What if the last week of weigh in's are incorrect as my machine was working towards going to the repair shop in the sky? <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> This... Wed, 19 Sep 2012 11:22:59 EST 7 Week Goal - Not to give up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5065145 I have been on basically every diet that you can think of (like a lot of us on here). I start out strong, hard core even, have great results for about 5 weeks and then...Burn out. <BR> <BR> This is when I historically start saying well, I can have a "small" bag of chips or that extra bit of cheese won't hurt so on and so forth until I am completely back to my self destructive eating habits and have gained back all of the weight I had lost plus a few more pounds for good measure. <BR> <BR> T... Tue, 18 Sep 2012 15:56:06 EST