AL-EE-SUN's SparkPeople Blog AL-EE-SUN's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community The Struggle Is Real. I'm the worst about this kind of thing. <BR> <BR> Here's what happened: my FitBit Flex quit working. FitBit sent me a replacement, but while I was waiting for it, I decided it didn't matter if I didn't exercise because I couldn't track it anyway. That was obviously the WRONG decision, but my decision nonetheless. <BR> <BR> Then the replacement came and it lasted one day before it too stopped working. <BR> <BR> FitBit and I came to an agreement that I could return the replacement and order... Mon, 31 Jul 2017 13:33:22 EST Sometimes I am the worst. I am my worst critic. Honestly. <BR> <BR> When my period struck in May, it struck hard. I didn't go for any walks (even though I know they make me feel better), I ate whatever I wanted (even though I know that makes me feel worse), and I didn't weigh myself at all (even though I know that helps me make better decisions). <BR> <BR> And you know the worst part, a period is just long enough that ceasing all my good habits for the duration of it basically means I've broken the habits by the e... Thu, 22 Jun 2017 09:03:11 EST I made it to my next milestone. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I made it to my next milestone. <BR> I broke the 240 mark. <BR> <BR> On to smaller and better numbers for me! <BR> This weekend I'm committing to two things: <BR> 1. meeting my step goal for Saturday AND Sunday <BR> 2. planning my meals ahead to prevent overeating at restaurants <BR> <BR> I am not going to let this weekend set me back. Fri, 28 Apr 2017 15:21:00 EST The next hump. I'm stuck above 240. All I want to see right now is a weigh-in of 239 or less for a week straight. <BR> <BR> It's not too much to ask, I know this. I've been seeing 240 on the scale for a week now, why can't it drop just another couple of points? I have this trajectory and it's a healthy one, and stalling at 240 for a week has jeopardized my trajectory. <BR> <BR> Here's what I know - <BR> <BR> -- I haven't been tracking my calories. <BR> -- I have been consistently eating protein bars at ... Wed, 26 Apr 2017 09:10:03 EST Weight Loss Report I'm a bit disappointed to see that I'm back above the goal line on my weight loss report. It's not by much (1.4 pounds), but it's still enough to upset me. I realize it's not the only measure of success, but I lost the first eight pounds and don't want to watch them creep back on. <BR> <BR> I know I increased my activity level to lose those eight pounds - I took bike rides multiple times a week and went for at least two walks a day. Then, the next weeks came and went with less bike rides an... Mon, 10 Apr 2017 11:40:43 EST ya brush your teeth - chh ch-chh-ch ch-ch ch-ch-ch I decided to try something new to help me from the late night snacks. I've taken to brushing my teeth after dinner. We'll see how it works out. <BR> <BR> I kind of fell off the food log wagon and I'm disappointed in myself, but I'm working on getting back on. It's tough. <BR> <BR> My sister asked me the other day if she could join me as a guest at my gym every so often. She's wanting to get healthier too. I'd love to have her, honestly, first step is finding out if I can bring a guest. Ne... Tue, 5 Mar 2013 21:32:37 EST Serious Business and Big Improvements. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Look at those numbers! I'm so pleased with myself this week -- one day of my goal range calorie wise, the rest reigned in pretty well. <BR> <BR> Now, the other factors - fat, protein, carbs -- I'm still working on that, but today was awesome! I'm not even feeling hungry. Did I turn a corner in the nutrition world? No more desire to eat all day? We'll see. For now, I'm just incredibly stoked about my progress. <BR... Thu, 10 Jan 2013 00:11:05 EST This Elliptical is MINNNNE!!!!!!!!! Tonight I OWNED that elliptical. THIRTY minutes. THIRTY MINUTES! THIRTTTTYYYYY MINUTESSSSS!!!!! <BR> <BR> tonight there wasn't anyone at the gym, the cardio room was empty save for one girl when I got in there. She left shortly after I hit the treadmill and was replaced by a really kind woman. I told her I was going to brave the elliptical for the second time ever tonight and was aiming to beat my record of 10 minutes. <BR> <BR> After 12.5 minutes and feeling awesome, I decided to go for 2... Sat, 5 Jan 2013 00:16:05 EST Exciting Firsts! A week or so ago, I finally got to the 5 minutes of running point. Eeee! I'm great at walking at a 3.5 to 3.7 pace, but beyond that -- ugh. So I broke through that wall last week and have been trying to maintain at least 5 minutes of running during my 15 - 20 minutes of treadmill time. <BR> <BR> Then, and this is where I'm most amped -- tonight there was so much energy at the gym. I got to the treadmill after strength training to find about seven people, all running, on the treadmills. Ther... Thu, 3 Jan 2013 22:46:54 EST New outlook. First off -- I didn't weigh myself today. I'm going to aim to NOT get on the scale every day. Seems that became a pretty serious habit of mine for awhile. And, unlike some people, I was okay with ONLY maintaining. But any day I'd find myself a pound or two heavier, I'd kind of freak out. <BR> <BR> This time I'm aiming to focus on fitness. My actions were calculated today -- thought out and calculated. I had fresh fruit for breakfast -- not big enough, I'm sure, but healthy! I had a buffalo ... Thu, 27 Dec 2012 23:14:46 EST trying... okay, I'm really trying. <BR> <BR> I mean, I haven't been eating right and I certainly haven't been exercising as much as I should. But I am walking as much as possible and am even incorporating extra steps in wherever I can. I'm drinking loads of water (bought a 32 oz refillable bottle) and have been eating full breakfasts. Lunches are a weakness and dinners are hit or miss. <BR> <BR> I guess my biggest obstacle is the precious, elusive measurement of time. I spend at least 3 hours of my... Wed, 11 Apr 2012 21:54:19 EST casualties and tail spins. quite eye-opening to get on the scale this morning and see I've gained again. Guess I better get my head back in the game. I've been disconnected from so many facets of my life in the last couple months -- if I'm being perfectly honest, I haven't cared about my work, my car, my friends or my body for quite awhile. I've begun noticing things falling apart around me. Things like food spoiling in the fridge, laundry piling up, Olive ran out of food the other day, there is all kinds of clutter in... Sun, 12 Feb 2012 14:09:04 EST love and light. I bought a few books at Barnes and Noble recently. <BR> <BR> 101 Ways to Stress-Free Living <BR> Your Body, Your Gym <BR> and a fitness and nutrition journal. <BR> <BR> I'd previously bought the Spark book too. I'm really making an intelligent, mental effort to become a physically active person. I feel if I educate myself on best practices, purposes, and new ideas, I'll be more inspired to execute them myself. <BR> <BR> The 101 Ways to Stress-Free Living has really influenced me recently. ... Mon, 11 Apr 2011 23:32:57 EST I feel better already... I find myself struggling, friends. I just don't know how to stay committed to Spark anymore. I want so badly to continue losing weight and being successful with my journey to 180lbs, but I've clearly hit a plateau. I've been here, at anywhere between 213 and 211 for months now, and while I am grateful I haven't regained any of the weight I fought and focused so hard to lose, I do wish I could get back to losing. <BR> <BR> As backwards as this will probably sound, I think I'm not as dedicate... Sat, 5 Feb 2011 22:41:21 EST already seeing progress I've been weighing in for the last four days and I've already dropped three pounds. I've done an about-face when it comes to my nutrition, but I still need to get back to exercising. <BR> <BR> I can't afford to renew my gym membership, so I'm trying to be more creative with my exercises. Biking, walking the dogs, yoga, everything. Anything. Sun, 14 Nov 2010 20:36:46 EST Dear SparkFriends I didn't forget again. I've actually been doing well since I wrote. I'm back to being aware of what I'm eating and how much, and I've even begun fitting work-outs into my work-days again. Used to be so easy when I had so much down time at work, now I work in a bank and I'm standing all day long and am hustling from one client to the next, but there's always time if I'm willing to find it. <BR> <BR> I'm back to packing my lunches. Lots of fruit, cheese sticks, grilled chicken. That kind of d... Sun, 7 Nov 2010 23:11:38 EST revisited. I'm kind of back. <BR> <BR> I decided in the shower this morning that I really, REALLY want to reach my goal weight. I'm just not satisfied with where I've settled. Granted, I'm still down from where I was when I started, but I'm not to my goal weight ... and I've grown complacent. <BR> <BR> I've got to find my inspiration again. Well, maybe not inspiration, but MOTIVATION. <BR> <BR> Well, I'm out to search for it. Wed, 3 Nov 2010 12:44:09 EST My big sister, Susan. As many of you know, the reason I started this journey is partially because my sister has been in need of a kidney transplant and I was in line to donate, supposing I was healthy enough. <BR> <BR> Now, to fill you in without getting too into Susan's personal information, she's scheduled to have a transplant, and I am not donating. There are a few reasons for this. But most importantly, SHE IS SCHEDULED FOR A KIDNEY TRANSPLANT. The date of the surgery is 2/15/10 and 2/16/10 -- so literally a... Mon, 1 Feb 2010 01:49:56 EST Today... Today at noon I have plans to meet my entire family at Chili's to celebrate my birthday. I'm pretty excited, but it's the first test of whether I can control my food intake still. I know Chili's has some healthier options, so I should be fine. I'll keep myself accountable and keep you all posted though. <BR> <BR> Oh, and I never did run that 5k I was training for. I don't even have a real excuse, I just didn't go. =( <BR> <BR> Getting back into Spark is like pulling away all the magician'... Sat, 30 Jan 2010 10:47:11 EST Where have I been the last few months!? Let me start from the beginning. Let me be completely and openly honest. And let me not leave a thought out. <BR> <BR> I haven't lost any weight since June of last year. That was the point when I had to stop losing to fit into a dress for a friend's wedding. I wasn't happy being part of her wedding. I did it for her and she was less than thankful. And, physically, I've been in a frozen state since then... until December. It was in December that I stepped on the scale for the first time in a ... Sat, 30 Jan 2010 01:58:17 EST Christina Hendrickson <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> I want a body like hers. End of story. <BR> <BR> I can get it, right ladies? <BR> Fri, 2 Oct 2009 14:57:48 EST To fill you in... 1. A friend of mine and I are officially training for the 5k that takes place before our town's Christmas Parade. I'm pretty damn excited about it. No lie. <BR> <BR> BUT! <BR> <BR> What I writing about is something totally unrelated to the 5k.... <BR> <BR> MY HOT STONE MASSAGE from last Saturday! <BR> <BR> My best friend, Patrick, bought me a gift card to Cloud 9 Spa way back in June. I finally got to use it last weekend. <BR> <BR> I bought myself a hot stone massage and I wouldn't have... Thu, 1 Oct 2009 16:31:32 EST Hot Stone Massage I have a question for you ladies (and gentlemen if there are any reading). <BR> <BR> My best friend gave me a gift certificate to a Spa. And I scheduled a hot stone massage for Saturday! WOOOOO! <BR> <BR> It's my first time ever doing anything like this ever... I'm nervous. A lot. <BR> <BR> And the lady I talked to at the spa today told me that it's a full body treatment, so I have the option to be naked, or not. <BR> <BR> What do you think I should do? <BR> <BR> I'm feeling a little awk... Wed, 23 Sep 2009 14:49:35 EST 5K. I'm going to run a 5K. Any advice? <BR> <BR> That's all. Fri, 11 Sep 2009 14:08:31 EST Things I know I need to do. Some of these are fitness/health related, some aren't. Life is that way. <BR> <BR> These aren't even goals. They're just things I'm aware I need to improve on. <BR> <BR> 1. I want to start walking my dogs -- at least in the evenings -- again. We all deserve it. <BR> 2. I want to get to the gym at least once a week. (how easy that sounds....) <BR> 3. I want to get all my art supplies into one place, organized, and funtional. <BR> 4. Sign up for a 5K that takes place right before the town C... Thu, 10 Sep 2009 11:39:25 EST Long Overdue. There are only so many triumphant returns I can make to Sparkpeople before you guys start calling my bluff. I'm sorry I've been so detached from all my friends here. And as much as I say I've missed it, it probably seems hard to believe because I haven't been coming back. And I feel terrible that I've abandoned some of you I used to keep closely in touch with. <BR> <BR> Maybe it would help me get started again by explaining what's been going on with me. <BR> <BR> 1. My aunt got really sick,... Wed, 2 Sep 2009 09:45:00 EST One more quick one before I go. Because I accidentally double-posted and I don't know how to delete a blog... here's another for you. <BR> <BR> Tonight I'm going to the gym to run. I'm not inclined to do this when I go with my gym buddy because I think it slows her down. For instance, she's a trained swimmer -- lots of practice, been swimming leisurely since she was two and swam competitively in high school, but when we get in the pool at the gym, she doesn't move. It's like... I literally have to hound her. Why go if she... Wed, 15 Jul 2009 15:55:09 EST Some kind of lousy update. First of all, thank you to EVERYONE who's excited that I'm back. You guys are the reason I love this place so much. I benefit from the positive reinforcement. <BR> <BR> So I wanted to post some kind of maintenance/progress photo on here to show you all what I've been up to. Actually, I wanted to write an entire blog about my battle with maintenance mode, but work seriously inundated me today and I didn't have any down-time! Unacceptable! <BR> <BR> However, I do have the time to show you thi... Wed, 15 Jul 2009 15:53:55 EST Reunited and it feels so good! Well ladies, I'm back. Totally, 100% back in the game. <BR> <BR> A few of my spark buddies were diligent in keeping in touch with me; and I am eternally grateful for that. <BR> <BR> Now that Traci's wedding has passed (and wow! was it beautiful), I'm back in the game as far as busting my hump to lose some weight. I have goals, one of which I am sharing with my friend Melissa (Liss, on here). We both want to lose 10 + pounds by her birthday, August 11. I think it's possible, but at the same... Tue, 14 Jul 2009 22:22:49 EST I should have stuck around... I officially started a temporary maintenance period recently in order to neither gain, nor lose weight between now and July 11. Unfortunately, I went about things all wrong and have, as a result, gained a few pounds. <BR> <BR> I'm not logging that in though, because I know it's going to come off in a couple days. =] <BR> <BR> When I say I went about things all wrong, I also mean that I quit exercising almost all-together. DUMB, I know. But the mentality I had was that I was exercising to L... Thu, 18 Jun 2009 16:37:46 EST Like Katherine Heigl, I'm working my way to 27 dresses. 1. Went to Tampa to pick up a Maid of Honor dress on Saturday. This is the dress (but mine is black): <link> </link> <BR> <BR> I've lost twenty pounds since I ordered the dress, although I'm still not convinced that's noticeable. For the most part, all my old clothes still fit. I'll get into this later. <BR> <BR> I've been convincing myself that the 20 pounds would make no difference with this dress. And then I put it on. When I walked out of the fitting room, Traci's mom look... Thu, 21 May 2009 10:01:09 EST still struggling, but at least I recognize that. I still struggle with staying active on SP. <BR> <BR> I'm doing my best to stay active (even in the slightest ways) in life, but I really have no excuse for not logging in and keeping up with my SP. I sit at a computer for work every day except Saturday and Sunday. I should be on here. Period. <BR> <BR> So let me re-cap real quick before I head home (because when I go home, I'm going to be busy.) <BR> <BR> What I am doing: <BR> I have been staying as active as possible lately, but I haven... Wed, 13 May 2009 16:47:49 EST AWOL Sorry I've been AWOL lately. Got a lot going on -- and that's a good thing. <BR> <BR> 1. I'm starting the 100 Push-Up Challenge on Monday. For my initial test, I could do 10 modified push-ups. I surprised myself. The cool thing was, Angela encouraged me. I did five and she was watching my form, when I started to give up after 5, she was like, "no, no, no. you can do better." And sure enough, I did five more. <BR> <BR> Also, a cool thing happened when I announced on Facebook that I was star... Fri, 1 May 2009 14:22:29 EST Did I shake off my laziness? Oh yes. So I went for a swim last night instead of hitting the treadmill with my iPod. <BR> <BR> A while back I promised my best friend that on the nights she didn't feel like going to the gym, I'd make her. She didn't want to go last night, so I compromised. I wanted to run, but I needed to make her go. And she's a trained swimmer. I finally got her in butt in gear and we went to the gym. <BR> <BR> It felt great for me. Exhilarating. I love swimming -- I'm an Aquarius; think that has anything to ... Fri, 24 Apr 2009 15:44:15 EST shake off my laziness. Since I rocked that wedding on Saturday, I haven't done jack. How bad is that!? Not only have I not done anything, but I've eaten big lunches twice and gone out for dinner to (as if it could get any worse) Sonny's! What is wrong with me?! <BR> <BR> On Tuesday I met Angela, my housemate and we went to Blue Highway -- an amazing local pizzeria -- for lunch. We got a veggie pizza and I had a small caesar salad with it. But We split a small pizza, meaning I had half a pizza for lunch. Last week ... Thu, 23 Apr 2009 16:25:59 EST Well ladies.... Saturday happened... So... <BR> <BR> Saturday happened. The day of the ex-boyfriend's sister's wedding. The day I'd aimed to lose 20 pounds by, and the day I wanted to show JM just what he let go of when he broke up with me. <BR> <BR> I talked to Meg that afternoon on my way to the wedding... I was nervous and chatty and kind of frazzled, but composed on the outside, of course. =] She calmed me down, whether she realizes it or not. <BR> <BR> I parked kind of far from the entrance of the country club so I co... Mon, 20 Apr 2009 15:00:14 EST faster than a walk! I think I might have gotten into a groove last night. It was awesome. <BR> <BR> The gym was fairly empty. I was able to get on the treadmill closest to the wall -- which also happens to be the only machine that doesn't have another machine facing it from across the gym. No one was on any of the treadmills in my line. It was nice. I warmed up with a 3.5 walk for two minutes. <BR> <BR> Then Cake's Fashion Nugget came on my iPod and I sped the machine up to a 5. I jogged at a 5 for six minute... Wed, 15 Apr 2009 10:43:25 EST Today's plan Hi All! <BR> <BR> I've been thinking a lot about the Spark community lately and how I feel like I can always count on the friends I've made here, even when I don't log into Spark every day. For me, just thinking about SP makes me want to do better -- be more active, eat healthier. <BR> <BR> I know you're all going to be reading my blogs and looking for me to be making strides in the right direction. I stay motivated this way. <BR> <BR> Vocalizing my goals helps me to obtain them. Here's ... Tue, 14 Apr 2009 15:53:23 EST Weekend Update 1. Friday night was fun, but a bad nutritional idea. My housemate, my sister, another friend, and myself all sat around my living room drinking midnight margaritas and eating chips with salsa, queso, and spinach artichoke dip. I did my best though. I didn't have very much of the spinach dip, which is really tempting to me. I ate mostly chips and salsa -- opting for the best of three dangerous snacks. <BR> <BR> 2. Saturday Susan and I hung out with my brother and his girlfriend. We had coupo... Tue, 14 Apr 2009 11:27:50 EST Half my family! I'm so excited to say that I've encouraged yet another member of my family to join SparkPeople. <BR> <BR> We're now graced with Susan, my sister at <link><BR>LYROSE1982 </link> <BR> <BR> And just today -- just minutes ago -- my MOM joined SparkPeople! You can find her here -- <link><BR>IGHTSPARK711 </link> <BR> <BR> I'm so excited about this. I have much such great progress with my life through SP -- such awesome... Fri, 10 Apr 2009 14:04:28 EST Tonight RULES! I went to the gym again tonight. I brought my iPod this time and listened to some pretty blood-pumping music. <BR> <BR> I started out on the stationary bike, actually, I feel like it's a pretty nice leg warm-up. I rode for ten minutes. Then, I was feeling especially comfortable and confident because there were only two other people in the gym. Yay for dead gyms. <BR> <BR> I got off the bike and got on a treadmill. This is where the music comes in. On the bike I was reading. <BR> <BR> I ... Wed, 8 Apr 2009 23:53:20 EST 1 - 8: Things are great. Heh. Time to catch you all up, I suppose. <BR> <BR> This blog's going to be about a lot of things. Not necessarily fitness/wellness related stuff. <BR> <BR> 1. I have a blog on <link> </link> The things I write there are different than things I write here; it's a very diverse blog. Some of the posts might not be safe for work because of occasional language. (one of my vices is cussing like a sailor sometimes) <BR> <BR> 2. Things on the boyfriend ... Wed, 8 Apr 2009 16:33:12 EST I found confidence in the form of a well-fitting dress. Some really great stuff to talk about today: <BR> <BR> 1. I'm down to 219.6! <BR> <img src=""> <BR> How is this happening? It seems to be coming off quickly; better work double hard not to gain it back. So today I'm going for another hardcore bike ride. I'll get home, walk the dogs for a long time, put on my biking clothes and hit the street -- maybe with my iPod this time. <BR> <BR> 2. Monday morning as I was getting ready for work, I wa... Wed, 1 Apr 2009 13:58:32 EST my boyfriend did an idiot thing. I'm looking better today than I've looked since we started dating. I'm feeling more alive and more on fire. And I haven't felt this positive in years. And my idiot boyfriend called last night and dumped me. <BR> <BR> what.a.moron. <BR> <BR> That's all I can really think at this point. He dumped me. After three years of on again off again struggling, I finally feel like we're on great ground -- living closer together, having better lines of communication as far as needs and wants, and feeli... Sun, 29 Mar 2009 13:32:04 EST I lost something! Well guys!! I finally lost something I've been hanging onto for far too long -- I am officially - 10 pounds! <BR> <BR> Here's a picture of my scale. It's digital. I had to take the picture without me on it, otherwise, holding my DSLR would have added pounds to me! That sucker is heavy! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Anyway!! I am so freaking thrilled!! <BR> <BR> yesterday I did a cardio bike ride from my house to downtown for the firs... Thu, 26 Mar 2009 10:36:58 EST ONE pound away from the Florida Museum of Natural History! That's right, I'm down 9 pounds! I'm so excited. SOOOO EXCITED! <BR> <BR> <BR> GO ME! <BR> <BR> And when I reach the 224 mark, I'm treating myself to a trip to the Florida Museum of Natural History. I love that museum, it's right up the road for me, and it has sentimental value. <BR> <BR> Three years and three months ago, my boyfriend, Jon-Michael, too me there for our first date. <BR> <BR> (one of my first dates ever) <BR> <BR> When we were on our way, I got a call from my family. My... Thu, 19 Mar 2009 14:00:58 EST Thank you Lucy and Blondie! I moved into town over the weekend. Sunday started my REQUIRED walking routine with the girls. I spend 15 minutes in the morning before work, walking around the neighborhood with my dogs, come home and spend 15 minutes during lunch time, and then walk for 15 minutes or more after work. <BR> <BR> I think I'm already feeling the difference. <BR> <BR> AND . . . today on my lunch break, I lost track of time. When I looked at the time, I was several minutes from the house and due to be on the w... Tue, 3 Mar 2009 16:11:01 EST struggling. It seems I'm floundering now that I've achieved my mini-goal of dipping below 230. I ended up eating out with my co-workers the other day -- accidentally ordered the crabcakes assuming they'd be baked -- they were FRIED! <BR> <BR> Then yesterday was National Pancake Day and so . . . naturally I had some for breakfast and for dinner. <BR> <BR> What's wrong with me? Why can't I just stay on track? <BR> <BR> I know I'm being hard on myself, but it actually makes me sad to think I finally go... Wed, 25 Feb 2009 14:40:40 EST "If I could talk to my 8-year-old self, I'd say... don't rush it, kid." <BR> <BR> I sat here with a blank slate of a blog post window for 20 minutes reflecting on my childhood. There are events in my life that I do wish I could change, but none so poignant as my overall childhood wish to 'just grow up already.' <BR> <BR> Today, at 24-years-old, I can still smell the scent of my elementary gifted teacher's aftershave. I can feel the texture of the rubber mats underneath our kindergarten playground. I don't feel like 24 years have gone by. B... Mon, 23 Feb 2009 15:04:16 EST 229.5 For the first time in a long time -- I actually wish I could remember how long -- I'm below 230 pounds! <BR> <BR> THANK YOU, SPARKPEOPLE! <em>304</em> <BR> <BR> It's not by much -- half a pound. But it's incredibly rewarding. The last few days I've been struggling with snacking. Not at night, but mid-day. I love Hershey kisses. I can eat eight in a day, which isn't really much in your hand, but it adds up to 200 + calories. And for what? <BR> <BR> But apparently I'm still doing fairly... Wed, 18 Feb 2009 09:52:56 EST