AKATHLEEN54's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=AKATHLEEN54 AKATHLEEN54's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Spark Solution??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5712131 Ok so I'm looking for some really honest opinions...... I'm trying to get completely back on track. I'm doing a mediocre job of it so far. I was thinking of ordering the Spark Solution and following the diet/exercise plan. I'm just wondering if anyone else has tried it and it you truly find it do-able. I thought when the book first came out that some were saying the diet was sometimes involved and a little too complicated in the way of cooking and preparing meals. I don't have a lot of time, ... Fri, 6 Jun 2014 13:24:05 EST Motivation where are you? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5704216 Well, I haven't blogged in over a month now and since then everything has gone fairly badly. I was motivated post holidays to get back on track and did well for only about two weeks and since, I just can't seem to get back in the groove and/or find my motivation to treat my body the way it deserves to be treated. Every day I wake up and say this is the day; I do well for most of the day and after dinner is usually when it falls apart. Then there's multiple celebrations that have been happenin... Tue, 27 May 2014 09:29:03 EST What's in half a pound? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5663276 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1688433301.jpg"> <BR> Success.... that's what!! I think I'm not alone in being one of the people who complain that "I've only lost half a pound!!" That being said, I've always struggled with weight loss and have really had the most success since I've been a Spark member. I could go on and on with accolades for Spark and all its members, but you all know where I stand on that. My point is simply stated in the picture. A half a pound IS a big ... Thu, 3 Apr 2014 08:39:22 EST BIG MISTAKE!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5663005 Thanks to anybody who congratulated me for losing 13 lbs.... if only that were true. When I was logging in my new weight I typed in the wrong number but then immediately when back and changed it, but I guess it already got "out there" Long story short... I did lose 3 lbs, but NOT 13. I will keep working on that though!! <em>246</em> Wed, 2 Apr 2014 22:07:00 EST Well, it finally happened!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5661592 As most of you know who read my blogs that I walk pretty much every day with my dog in the woods or on any remote roads that I can find away from traffic and a lot of people. I have a favorite spot (actually I have several), but they have all been rough going this winter with all the snow but more so the ICE!! I have been diligently careful to maneuver these trails all winter without falling... well actually, I did fall a few times but without a problem. Well, my luck finally ran out. Yester... Tue, 1 Apr 2014 09:57:23 EST My Ire is Up!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5658432 Sorry Spark Friends. This has nothing to do with nutrition and fitness, but my ire is up and I need to vent. I currently work as an RN in an elementary school (actually PK-8) and have been nursing for over 30 years. This week I had a parent question why they weren't called when their child fell outside and scraped her shin. Now mind you this is a child who I currently have nine pages of notes on documenting her multiple "frivolous" complaints and she is only in third grade. That aside after s... Fri, 28 Mar 2014 08:56:10 EST Reality check http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5655182 Well, its time for a reality check. I have a very bad habit of telling myself that I know what I"m doing..... as in I know what I can and can't eat, I recognize portion sizes and I know how to maintain my weight..... NOT!! As I've blogged recently, I gained weight since Christmas, and I pushed back my ticker thinking that would give me the motivation I needed to get back on track. Well, that didn't work either. I even made a Lenten promise to track all my food. Well, there in lies the truth..... Mon, 24 Mar 2014 09:28:07 EST Where have they gone, but I'm glad you're here http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5651936 I was looking at my Spark Page the other day and I realized that more than half the people that I friended when I started ( I mean REALLY started) a little over a year ago have disappeared. This journey is hard. The fact that people have disappeared I think is proof of that. That being said, there is the other half of people that I friended or friended me that are still here and these are the people who are my strength and my motivation. I honestly don't think I would still be her if it wasn'... Wed, 19 Mar 2014 21:49:08 EST Thank You/Decision Made http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5641961 Hello Everyone and thank you to all my Sparkfriends who took the time to welcome me back and once again offer me kind words of understanding, support and encouragement. <BR> I have decided it would probably be in my best interest to turn my ticker back. If I see "that number" (even though that is not always what this should be all about) I am owning the fact that I let myself slide and undid a lot of hard work. For me that makes it real and I can't just pretend that it didn't happen, and I t... Fri, 7 Mar 2014 08:45:15 EST I've been "away" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5641141 So I've been "away" in a matter of speaking. I've logged in every day and I've tracked my fitness minutes which have still been pretty good considering its still winter here in CT and I still walk my dog every day. That being said, since Christmas I kind of lost my Spark and took a "wayward walk" Truth be told I gained 10 lbs since then just from simply making the wrong food choices, not eating enough vegetables and not managing my portions correctly. The thing is I know exactly where I went ... Thu, 6 Mar 2014 08:39:53 EST Friend or Foe? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5588618 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1751756690.jpg"> <BR> Well, it warmed up nicely today.... it was a balmy 22 degrees, but compared to what we've had lately it was actually quite nice. I went to my usual spot with my dog Gibby and that was a mistake. Its a rather hilly area with rough terrain and narrow pathways. During the winter, the beginning of the trail is typically icy so starting out I wasn't terribly concerned. So I kept going and by the time I got to the point of no... Thu, 9 Jan 2014 22:05:53 EST Merry Christmas http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5570732 It's been a very long time since I have written a blog, but I have been quite caught up in the holiday madness. Welcoming kids home from college, decorating, office parties, shopping, baking, wrapping etc..... I'm sure you all have been very busy doing much of the same. I hope to get back to sparking in the new year because I know that if it wasn't for this site I would not have been able to lose the weight and I certainly would never have been able to maintain. <BR> So I would like to take ... Mon, 23 Dec 2013 21:43:55 EST My "Littlest" is 2 today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5528148 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1173335981.jpg"> <BR> Well happy birthday to my puppy! Actually, I'm not sure what day is is actual birthday as he is a rescue dog. We chose Halloween because it seems to coincide with his "monster" personality. But as anyone knows who reads my blogs I love him to death! He's a great dog and a great companion. He is very high energy, very playful and still all puppy, and I hear that I only have about five more years until he 'begins" to calm... Thu, 31 Oct 2013 09:20:03 EST Am I in maintenance? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5508881 I think I'm in maintenance only I don't know it yet. I've been gaining an losing the same 2-3 pounds since the summer. In reality I am still 2-3 pounds (the same 2-3 pounds) away from my original goal. Now therein lies the problem. Should I still be pushing myself to lose those last three pounds or should I just recognize this as my goal weight and be happy with that. I have knee pain, but unfortunately that is due to osteoarthritis and I don't believe losing more weight will help relieve the... Wed, 9 Oct 2013 11:18:32 EST I'm not stuck in the middle of the forest! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5489277 So glad I am here to tell you this today.... I have been exploring new walking trails. Recently I found a great place to hike in a local state park. The problem being: I don't know my way around it very well yet and the trails are not really trails. Its more like a maze of rocks, tree roots, fallen trees and and brooks and streams that you have to wade across without getting wet. I have to closely follow the blazes on the trees so as to not get lost. Well you knew this was coming... yest... Wed, 18 Sep 2013 12:41:31 EST Thank you Sparklers.... Life is Good!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5488258 I'm not sure why, but I've been feeling the need to blog. Not that I have anything to say, but I guess there doesn't always have to be a reason to blog. I just feel as though I haven't been in touch with a lot of people since the beginning of the summer and here it is almost fall... where does the time go? But I've come over a lot of speedbumps since then, came out fairly unscathed and now life is good. My daughter is settling into college again and apartment life is going well. Thank you to... Tue, 17 Sep 2013 12:19:07 EST Why isn't the "fat lady" singing? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5434625 Well isn't that what they say... it isn't over until the fat lady sings? I really need the "reign of terror" of what ever keeps "attacking" my dog to be over! He is my absolute best walking partner and I think those days are over... at least until we have a hard frost and everything in the woods is dead. We went to one of our favorite walking spots today (which was different from the last one) and had a great time. He ran, he swam.... everything was great until we were riding home and he star... Fri, 26 Jul 2013 20:43:31 EST Swimming Gibby http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5432294 Just a "little funny" of gibby jumping into the lake. He jumps about 15-20 times clearing about 15 ft. each time!! Wed, 24 Jul 2013 20:18:19 EST We have an apartment!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5431134 Well it's been a long time coming but for those of you who don't already know my daughter has finally found a place to live in Boston so she can start school in the fall at MassArt. <em>224</em> .She will be living in Brookline in an old Victorian style house on the second floor with three other transfer students going to the same college. It is in a very beautiful residential area, a very safe area, and a very walkable area to the the bus and the T. I am feeling much less anxious. Now I ca... Tue, 23 Jul 2013 22:33:28 EST FLOUNDERING?????!!!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5417737 Yes, I am. I'm writing this because some of my wonderful Spark friends have asked... can I help? This is not at all health related... or I guess maybe it is because it is causing me a great deal of stress. All I want is for my daughter to be able to go to college, have what used to be called the "great college experience, get a college degree and be happy and able to provide for herself. <BR> As it happens there are a lot of obstacles in our way. Many of you know that the college is not provi... Thu, 11 Jul 2013 10:52:22 EST The Sky has never been the limit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5408363 <BR> <BR> <BR> What is our potential? It isn’t something that we are assigned like homework for school. Once you complete it… it’s done and now you have nothing else to do. Your potential is limitless!! <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/1/l212084826.jpg"> <BR> <BR> For those of us (myself included) who have doubts, who wonder why we are on this journey, who wonder can I do this?, who sometimes take one step forward and two steps back, who try and fail... Tue, 2 Jul 2013 09:35:30 EST Where is everybody? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5387460 I had the most beautiful walk this afternoon. When I got out of work I knew I had to go out for a walk since this is probably the only dry day again until Saturday. Monday and Tuesday my dog and I walked in the rain, which actually wasn't so bad either. Today I was at a beautiful land trust that was left to "the people" by a local family; acres and acres of wooded land with ponds, rivers, streams, rock and tree rooted paths as well as grassy and pine needle laden paths. It was an absolutely ... Wed, 12 Jun 2013 22:45:34 EST Thank You http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5380346 I just wanted to say a big thank you to all of my Spark Friends you reached out to me yesterday when I was having a bad day. You sent hugs and well wishes and messages to cheer me up and that in itself made me feel so much better. I could feel the hugs and they made me smile just knowing that you were all there wishing me a better day. I do so appreciate the concern and support. It was just one of life's stumbles..... "kid issues" and summer employment issues, losing job benefits, and major ... Thu, 6 Jun 2013 12:45:19 EST I won!! The muffin lost!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5365489 So I had a box of bakery chocolate chip muffins sitting on my kitchen counter. I wish they weren't there, but I still buy them for the family. I know I shouldn't but with kids still in the house I feel like I still have to have some grab and go breakfast items. Again, I know there are plenty of better grab and go choices, but that's another blog. <BR> Anyway, I packed one of those muffins to take to work for my "breakfast" two days in a row, knowing full well, it was not a good choice. BUT.... Thu, 23 May 2013 09:41:55 EST God Bless Oklahoma http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5363944 I have been sitting here this evening watching an NBC news special about the devastation in Oklahoma. I am completely humbled by watching and listening to what these people have to say. Just one day ago, their town for all intents and purposes was wiped off the face of this Earth. They have lost homes, cars, pets, personal belongings, friends and relatives, and God bless them even children. Yet they stand before the TV cameras saying that they are blessed to be alive. They are not angry, they... Tue, 21 May 2013 21:53:28 EST I am so not a city person! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5362235 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l206090202.jpg"> <BR> Well the best part it that even though the day was long..... left at 6am and returned at 11pm, I was more than glad I went to see my niece graduate from college!!! And yes, the ceremony DID last 5 hours!! But I finally got to see her beautiful campus at Fordham University and I was so happy to be part of the day and so very proud of her for graduating Magna Cum Laude!! <BR> The challenging part of the day came after the... Mon, 20 May 2013 12:03:55 EST Long Day Ahead http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5359336 Well tomorrow is going to be a LONG day and as much as I feel like I should be excited about it, I'm just not looking forward to it. I have twin nieces who are graduating from College this weekend. And much like they've done everything together for their past 21 years, they are graduating on the same day so the family has to split up. One of the is at Fordham in NYC and the other at Skidmore, in Saratoga Springs, NY. <BR> So I will be leaving on the trip to Fordham at 6am which means I have ... Fri, 17 May 2013 13:00:47 EST I've been "Sparked" again!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5354968 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1979133831.jpg">Well, Mother's Day is over and what a wonderful day it was!! We celebrated my daughter's 20th birthday with a party at our house, and the best part was that the whole family and some friends were there to celebrate not only her birthday, but we celebrated all the Mom's in the family as well, from Grandma's to Mom's to Auntie's to a brand new Mom. It was a perfect day of family and friends being together and celebrating and ... Mon, 13 May 2013 10:27:42 EST The Honeymoon is over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5348031 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1855827853.jpg"> I knew this day was coming. I guess I just didn't expect it to get here so soon. I have only been a "real" Sparkler since January. Of course then I was highly motivated, excited, determined and optimistic. I logged onto my Spark page every day, read every article I could, read every blog I could, read spark tips and motivational quotes, tracked everything I ate religiously, drank 8 glasses of water (at least) every day, exer... Mon, 6 May 2013 23:09:10 EST What really counts? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5340844 So as many of you know I have been attempting to complete the 28day Bookcamp challenge. I originally chose to do this because I wanted to increase my strengh training. Well, stuff happened and I missed week three. So after I week off I got back to it and now here is is Week 3 AGAIN, which should be Week 4 and I am going nowhere. So I don't know if this is just a ranting blog, a complaining blog or if I am looking for approval/validation. <BR> I work full time, come home to cook dinner for th... Tue, 30 Apr 2013 14:03:08 EST HAPPY MONDAY!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5339456 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/3/l736471105.jpg"> <BR> Happy Monday Sparklers. I just wanted to share this with everyone. <BR> I am happy for all that I have (blessings) <BR> and I am happy for all that I don't have (burdens) <BR> Today I am celebrating life, the beauty of spring and the start of hopefully a productive week. <BR> Wishing you all a happy week. Keep Sparking!! Mon, 29 Apr 2013 12:28:52 EST No structure = Fell off the wagon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5329203 It's amazing to me how a lack of structure can immediately throw me off my game. I was on spring break from work this week and for the most part I didn't do that badly. I managed to get in my cardio most days, I stayed within my calorie range and for the most part I still drank all my water and in a few cases a little extra, but what I am upset about is falling off of the Bootcamp wagon. I had successfully completed week two and was feeling very confident and was even beginning to feel strong... Fri, 19 Apr 2013 23:24:57 EST Where did that come from???? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5318515 Well I got back on track yesterday after having a very hectic day on Monday missing my workout (altogether... no walk; no bootcamp) . I took my dog like I usually do do our favorite 3 mile loop around a pond. The day here was absolutely gorgeous.... temps in the low 70's, no humidity, bright blue skies... perfect!! As I'm walking along my body is saying run.... run.... com'on you know you want to... and I did!! By the time I was done I ran probably half way around the pond and I walked the r... Wed, 10 Apr 2013 14:00:14 EST Days I hate! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5316911 So weather wise, yesterday was the most beautiful day we've had to date.... and I didn't even get to enjoy it. I worked all day, stopped at the post office, hadto make a dash into the grocery store so my daughter could whip up a salad for dinner, hurry to the Vet to make our 4 o'clock appointment (and then sit and wait because they are running behind <em>28</em> ) , pay the bill (because who has pet insurance and just the annual shots are astronomical) , hurry back home to make dinner, mak... Tue, 9 Apr 2013 09:31:34 EST Bootcamp Hijinx!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5312468 Well, now this whole Bootcamp thing is just getting comical!! My DVD arrived yesterday just as promised. So I popped in in after dinner to get in my day #4 routine. OK.... first problem solved: I had already been for my 3 mile walk so Gibby was asleep in the chair (I'm rather offended that he takes no interest in my well-being- only his own.... and for those of you who don't know I am referring to the dog not my husband!! LOL!) So jokingly I say to my son who is also reclining.... want to to ... Fri, 5 Apr 2013 10:33:59 EST Bootcamp and Buffering http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5309908 Well Day #2 of Bootcamp itself went pretty well. I took the dog out for his walk so there was nothing trying to "eat me" while I was exercising. I managed not to attack myself either. So other than still having to modify some exercises because of my knees (BOO HOO!) the bootcamp went pretty well. The challenge came afterward. I was feeling good so I wanted to do more. Nobody was home, the dog was asleep <em>244</em> and dinner was ready for when everyone got home. (I have no idea how that ... Wed, 3 Apr 2013 09:33:41 EST Bleeding, Biting & Bootcamp http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5308634 Well yesterday was my first day of the 28 Day Bootcamp Challenge. I had just barely begun the video when I noticed I had blood streaming down my finger. Somehow, I had managed to slice the tip of my finger (how I did that without noticing is beyond me) but now I am trying to stop the bleeding without interrupting my workout. So I put pressure on my finger with my thumb and continued to exercise..... problem #1 under control. Now my dog decides: "if she is jumping around the family room like... Tue, 2 Apr 2013 09:44:06 EST Not the Journey I expected????? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5307473 Hello Spark Friends!! <BR> I started this journey approximately 3 months ago looking for yet another "diet" that would help me lose the weight. I logged onto Sparkpeople about 1 year before that, but that was as far as I got. So this time I said something has to be different. I had been reading about sparkpeople in a couple of magazines and had heard about it on the news. Some people were having great success with it, but even then I assumed as with many ads for weight loss programs and produ... Mon, 1 Apr 2013 12:02:19 EST Panic setting in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5300761 So Easter is just 5 days away and I'm not really sure why I am feeling this way. I haven't really lost any more weight, but I also haven't gained any. I already have the answers to my questions, but I'm still very apprehensive about the upcoming holiday. There will be pastry in the morning then usually a dinner of ham (lots of salt) delicious creamy scalloped potatoes, (yes, there are always plain veggies), sometimes jello salad, coleslaw and always the dreaded cheesecake! Let's not even me... Tue, 26 Mar 2013 12:19:17 EST Be kind to someone today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5294978 This was passed on to me via email from a friend. I thought it was appropriate to pass on to all of the Sparkters. Each of us is on this journey but every journey is different. It has different meaning for each of us, and we each have a goal in mind. Unfortunately, along the way, many people have to deal with obstacles and unforeseen circumstances that hamper their success. I think that sometimes we forget that, and we may be quick to judge others attitudes or behaviors or the comments th... Thu, 21 Mar 2013 12:21:59 EST Happy St. Patrick's Day!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5289852 Just want to wish all of my Spark Friends and the Community a HAPPY ST. PATRICK'S DAY!! Luck o'the Irish to ye!! God bless you all!! <em>438</em> <em>440</em> <em>137</em> <em>441</em> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2022715269.jpg"> Sun, 17 Mar 2013 12:56:52 EST LAUGHING OUT LOUD!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5285052 I just want to say a big thank you to all the Sparklers this morning who have posted blogs that made me smile and some that just made me plain LOL!!! For the last few days, for whatever the reason, cold wet weather, time change, winter blues, I have been feeling a little gloomy and less motivated. I have not fallen off the wagon so to speak, but I have not felt the outright "Spark" and motivation that I did originally. I tend to do that ..... start out all gung ho, ready to take on the worl... Wed, 13 Mar 2013 10:08:56 EST Chair cardio is not for Wimps!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5277511 So yesterday was cold and miserably windy here in CT. When will winter be over?? It was one of those days when I didn't have a lot of time or motivation to go for my walk with my dog. So what to do? That was certainly no excuse not to exercise. So I decided to search the Spark web site as I have before and do a few of the video workouts. I had done a few in the past and found them fairly easily doable. I always felt however, that I was getting a longer and better workout with my walks. So an... Thu, 7 Mar 2013 13:46:38 EST Why do the "good" get all the "evil" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5275885 I have been touched the past couple of days with "bad" things happening to "good" people. Lately it seems that those with the heaviest burdens to bear have been laden with even more to carry. Perhaps it is significant to those of us who are Catholic and remember especially during our Lenten season that we all have "crosses to bear". But why do those who suffer seem to suffer trifold or more? Not only that but it seems those who have been stricken with these burdens whether it be illness, fin... Wed, 6 Mar 2013 12:20:56 EST Grateful http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5269938 I was reading blogs this morning and got to feeling a little depressed. There are so many people out there who are going through a very rough time who are blogging about it and just reaching our for some support from our community. There are people who have a hx of depression, who are morbidly obese and cannot find the motivation to lose weight, people with major health issues and people with financial problems. I feel like such a whimp complaining that "OMG, I've done everything I'm suppose... Sat, 2 Mar 2013 15:27:57 EST Grateful http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5269937 I was reading blogs this morning and got to feeling a little depressed. There are so many people out there who are going through a very rough time who are blogging about it and just reaching our for some support from our community. There are people who have a hx of depression, who are morbidly obese and cannot find the motivation to lose weight, people with major health issues and people with financial problems. I feel like such a whimp complaining that "OMG, I've done everything I'm suppose... Sat, 2 Mar 2013 15:27:54 EST What's with the Deprivation?? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5265974 I'm confused.... I keep reading blots from multiple members who seem to be depriving themselves. They are mentioning all kinds of crazy "diet" plans that they are following....all protein this week, no veggies, no grains or breads! Madness!! I thought this plan was all about choosing a lifestyle that you could sustain! I thought it was all about balance! I thought it was all about everything in moderation! If you deprive yourself you are only going to be longing for that one food you told you... Wed, 27 Feb 2013 12:28:02 EST Temptation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5263146 <em>24</em> . Ok So I am only on day 5 of my streak... I am trying not to measure my success by stepping on the scale. It was all going very well until I had a frightening realization yesterday. The whole wheat pita breads I have been enjoying.... well it turns out I didn't read the serving size correctly and I should have only been eating HALF of what I've been consuming. ( no wonder I thought they were so good ). Anyway until then I had confidence in my diet and exercise plan and was sure... Mon, 25 Feb 2013 09:44:39 EST CLOWN PANTS! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5257230 So today started like everyday.... I get out of bed and the first thing I do is get on the scale. I know.... I'm a slave to the scale but it is a very bad habit that I cannot seem to shed. Well, just like every day for the past 2 weeks the number did not change. =(. That certainly can set the tone for the day.... another reason it is a bad habit. <BR> That being said, I wake up fairly early to go to work in the morning. My third bad habit is that I tend to not get out of bed when I should, s... Wed, 20 Feb 2013 09:13:49 EST I SURRENDER!! (not) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5253600 So I was really excited to wake up and get out of bed today. I was going directly to the scale.... "do not pass go; do not collect $200" Yes, and that's the way it happened...... I went directly to jail!! Today was the day that the scale was suppose to move downward, but instead I found nearly two pounds. UGH!! I've been walking nearly 2-3 miles a day and staying within my calories and drinking gallons of water. So what happened? Nobody knows; nobody will every really know. Normally I would ... Sun, 17 Feb 2013 12:42:28 EST