AJDOVER1's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=AJDOVER1 AJDOVER1's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ February Progress on my 2018 Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6469275 February Progress on my 2018 Goals <BR> So where am I? I’m a bit off track and disorganized. It’s time to take stock: <BR> 1) I started and ended the month within range, but there were about 6 days where my weight was over the arbitrary limit I set for myself. Plantar fasciitis is contributing to the problem. <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/5b8d1814-626e-4ac2-bb28-0613112ead65.png"> <BR> <BR> 2) My steps are on track in spite of my Plantar fasciitis issue. <BR> <img s... Mon, 5 Mar 2018 14:49:30 EST January progress on my 2018 Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6458385 I'm going to review monthly and see how I'm doing. <BR> <BR> 1) Reach and maintain my “fighting weight.” I consider myself a Lightweight which is the range 130-135 pounds. On January 1, my weight was 135.6. On January 31, my weight was 134.4. I maintained my fighting weight 30 out of 31 days. Here’s the chart: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/309c4664-5883-45c7-a30e-52830a6cb93d.png"> <BR> <BR> 2) Walk 5,000,000 steps. I’m on track to exceed that goal. I need to a... Thu, 1 Feb 2018 11:45:07 EST Goals for 2018 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6445263 <em>411</em> <BR> <BR> I’ve been inspired to write out some goals. Here are my specific ones. <BR> <BR> 1) Reach and maintain my “fighting weight.” I consider myself a Lightweight which is the range 130-135 pounds. Last year my weight fluctuated between 130.6 and 141.4. I need to pay closer attention to my snacking. I log my weight on the Fitbit app and it syncs to SparkPeople <BR> 2) Walk 5,000,000 steps. Last year I walked more than that, but I know if continue to focus on steps, it al... Sun, 31 Dec 2017 22:46:33 EST 10 Year Sparkversary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6424387 Another year.... <BR> <BR> I find myself being less active here on SparkPeople. I still make the time to log my daily food and fitness. I believe that's what has enabled me to keep my weight in check and maintain my healthy habits. I read articles and try new workout moves, but I'm not making big changes. <BR> <BR> The friends I have here keep me logging in each day. Thank you all for being here! <BR> <BR> <em>381</em> <BR> <BR> Mon, 23 Oct 2017 23:13:29 EST 35 days left in 2016 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6272631 Good question, Christine! What is my plan to finish 2016 strong? <BR> <BR> My main plan is to stay on track and ensure that depression doesn't overtake me. This time of year is traditionally difficult for me. I need to acknowledge that and keep up with my healthy habits in spite of it all. Specifically, that means: <BR> <BR> Stay within calorie range. <BR> Eat at least 8 servings of vegetables/fruits each day. <BR> Meet my daily minimum step goal. <BR> Keep my work week under 50 hours. <... Sun, 27 Nov 2016 01:59:18 EST 9-year SparkVersary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6256120 It's time again to step back and take a look at where I am. It's been a very stressful year. <BR> <BR> My job is very uncertain. My relationship has issues that I don't know how to resolve. I've recently received some bad financial news. <BR> <BR> Through it all, I'm still holding on to good healthy habits: I'm logging everything I eat, meeting my fitness goals each day, and maintaining a healthy BMI. <BR> <BR> I have dear friends here. I realize that's what is keeping me going. <BR> <... Sun, 23 Oct 2016 23:57:42 EST Adventure! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6181079 I took the train up the coast to Santa Barbara yesterday. It may seem like a trivial thing to go about 100 miles by myself, but it was a big deal for me. I've wanted a little getaway for a long time, but it seemed there were too many obstacles in the way. I finally broke through those obstacles. <BR> <BR> It was a real victory for me. I couldn't have done it without the support of my dear friends here (you know who you are). <BR> <BR> <em>304</em> Sat, 11 Jun 2016 21:23:23 EST 8 year Sparkversary! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6020094 Wow. Has it really been 8 years? I guess so. <BR> <BR> Overall, I'd like to consider myself a success story. I didn't lose a remarkable amount of weight (about 40 pounts). I didn't lose it quickly (it was about 3 years before I made any progress at all). I did lose it, though, and I've kept it off. There's a lot to be said for persistence. I'm about 2 pounds outside my goal range which is a fairly arbitrary target I admit. I just calculated my BMI and it's 22.2. It seems like a healthy en... Fri, 23 Oct 2015 22:20:02 EST Streaks, Obsessions, Big Round Numbers, and Magical Thinking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5891585 Streaks, Obsessions, Big Round Numbers, and Magical Thinking <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/8/l788448191.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I've read blogs and status reports from SparkFriends who've been frustrated over breaking a login streak. Things just happen: computer failure, power outages, unexpected company, trips, illnesses, family emergencies, mental lapses, etc. They happen to all of us now and then. The system here is unforgiving. Miss a day and break the streak. I know peop... Thu, 12 Mar 2015 08:17:37 EST Thank you all for 2014! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5842339 2014 will be gone in a few hours. It was an interesting year with some new challenges for me. I regret that I didn't handle them all with class and grace. I certainly did learn a lot, though. <BR> <BR> The best thing I learned is I can always count on my friends here. Thank you for all the support, encouragement and inspiration. <BR> <BR> <em>252</em> <BR> <BR> You're the best! <BR> <BR> <em>304</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> Wed, 31 Dec 2014 22:05:05 EST A Little Help from My Friends http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5806295 I don't let my homelife spill into my worklife very often. Yesterday was an exception. I mentioned to a co-worker that I'll be out of the office for a few days due to my Guy's back surgery. She said, "When you go to pick him up from the hospital, put some different-sized pillows in your car. He can use what he needs to make himself comfortable on the ride home." <BR> <BR> Brilliant! I never would have thought of that! <BR> <BR> His surgery is Wednesday around noon. It's a minimally-invasiv... Tue, 28 Oct 2014 11:29:29 EST Little things with big value http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5630135 Okay Friends, I’m looking for some input. Let's hear about little things with big value. <BR> <BR> For example: Several years ago, I used to spend a lot of time and energy looking for my keys. It stressed me out and drove me nuts and a couple of days later I’d be looking for my keys again. I was told repeatedly that the solution was: make a “staging area” near the front door, but for various reasons that didn’t work for me. Finally, I picked up a carabiner keychain at a 99cents store. Probl... Fri, 21 Feb 2014 13:18:56 EST All things being equal.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5602319 I’ve been thinking of my Mom a lot lately. <BR> <BR> I guess it was back in the late 70’s when artificial sweeteners were first gaining popularity. We were discussing the mathematics of weight loss. <BR> <BR> Mom: So if I just use this stuff instead of sugar in my tea, I’ll save about 80 calories a day. All things being equal, I’ll melt off 8 pounds a year with no effort at all. <BR> <BR> I did my own calculations. <BR> <BR> Me: Hey, Mom, That sounds pretty dangerous. <BR> <BR> Mom: Wh... Wed, 22 Jan 2014 12:29:46 EST Looking ahead to my new year http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5597283 My New Year is fast approaching. I was thinking of making 2014: My Year of Sanity. Mind you, I’m not clinically insane, it’s just that I sometimes I step back and find I can’t make sense out of what I’m doing. <BR> <BR> I consider myself at goal for my weight. I’m officially a Lightweight now (130-135 pounds) and it’s working for me. My weight, BMI, fitness level, blood pressure, blood sugar, cholesterol, triglycerides, hemoglobin and bra size are all within normal range. <BR> <BR> Nor... Fri, 17 Jan 2014 17:48:11 EST Good-bye 2013 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5577318 Just out of curiosity, I checked a SparkReport to see where my weight was at this time last year. I was about 5 pounds heavier than I am today. I'm currently about 5 pounds heavier than my lowest point for the year. I'm at a healthy weight and I know what steps to take to maintain my health. <BR> <BR> I guess the biggest change for me during 2013 was in my job. I'm working more hours and it's been a struggle. On the plus side, the additional work has resulted in a bit more money. I met my s... Wed, 1 Jan 2014 00:50:08 EST Grrr http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5507106 I feel bad. <BR> <BR> The neighbor's dog attacked again. No serious injuries, but this is a very serious situation. There can't be a good resolution when people just won't be reasonable. My best hope is they'll move the dog to another home and I'll pray it won't become someone else's problem. <BR> <BR> Mon, 7 Oct 2013 14:56:48 EST My $50 run! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5475567 It happens. It was the day after a holiday weekend. We were running around getting ready for our mini-vacation. My car was having a catastrophic failure. Our day was chaotic. My guy had parked his car on the WRONG side of the street. We were walking back from my car's mechanic when we saw the meter maid turning onto our street and realized what was happening. <BR> Normally this would be one of those "oh, well. Lesson learned. We'll never do that again" moments. It would be a $50 ticket - ouch... Wed, 4 Sep 2013 10:17:50 EST Lola is wagging her tail! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5447039 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2010316421.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Lola is feeling better. She's wagging her tail! <BR> <BR> I initially wrote a long blog about the horror of it all. Thank goodness for the delete key! No gory details here. Just my thanks for all the good wishes and prayers offered by my friends. <BR> <BR> We're keeping a close eye on her. She's still very fragile. Tue, 6 Aug 2013 23:13:43 EST One Million Steps of Summer http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5375173 I track my steps in several different places in addition to SparkPeople. On one of these other sites, someone suggested a One Million Steps of Summer Challenge. <BR> <BR> My first thought: That's INSANE! <BR> <BR> Then I did the math. <BR> <BR> Summer is about 93 days long. That works out to about 10,753 steps a day. I thought that's doable, so that can't be right. Then I realized that I've logged over 100,000 steps a week in my Office walking challenge. That works out to 1,000,000 s... Sun, 2 Jun 2013 00:22:43 EST Am I doing this thing backwards? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5317348 This morning I came upon a Spark Poll question that I've seen before: Would you exercise if you didn't have to? <BR> <BR> Huh? <BR> <BR> I lost weight so I could run -- not the other way around. I WANT to be fit and active. I WANT to run. <BR> <BR> If I could be a skinny slug, would that make me happy? <BR> <BR> Running has been my goal -- not the means to get to a goal. <BR> <BR> When I was overweight, my greatest sorrow was that I couldn't be active without discomfort. Yeah, I wasn't... Tue, 9 Apr 2013 15:39:11 EST Reward or Reality Check http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5210086 Some of my SparkFriends were talking about rewards and that got me to thinking.... <BR> <BR> I don't reward myself very often. <BR> <BR> I started taking my inventory to see if I actually deserve a reward: I'm not perfect, but I'm pretty darn consistent. I maintained my weight over the holidays, in spite of missing my regular sweaty gym workouts. I suit up and show up, even on days I just don't feel like it. I'm in awe of my SparkFriends and I make it a point to tell them. I participate.... Wed, 16 Jan 2013 13:25:42 EST Sparkperson vs. S.P.A.M. (actual workplace conversation) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5202304 Me (SparkPerson): Hi Nancy! <BR> <BR> Nancy the Super-Proactive Administrative Manager (SPAM): Are the printers on the second floor broken? <BR> <BR> SparkPerson: I don’t know. <BR> <BR> SPAM: Jammed? Out of paper or toner? <BR> <BR> SparkPerson: Uh, I don’t know. I don’t use the second floor printers. <BR> <BR> SPAM: But you’re here on the 1st floor using the West Wing Printer. <BR> <BR> SparkPerson: Yeah, I send all my printouts down here. <BR> <BR> SPAM: I can fix that for you s... Fri, 11 Jan 2013 14:29:09 EST Getting back on Track goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5184871 I've had a good vacation. My weight hasn't changed. My eating hasn't been great -- I've definitely had more chocolate and fewer vegetables than I should. I've taken it very easy with fitness, too. I've stuck with walking, sometimes a lot of walking, but rarely breaking a sweat. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow I'm getting back into my weekday routine. I'll have a vegetable smoothie for breakfast and pack my salad and fruit for lunch and snack. Lola and I will do a short run. I'll go to the gym for a swe... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 21:31:48 EST What worked for me in 2012 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5182880 This was a healthy year for me. I'm at a good weight and I'm fitter than I've been in years. This is a good time to look back and see what worked to bring me to this point. <BR> <BR> Running: This is certainly my biggest success. At this time last year I was suffering from a back injury and couldn't run at all. Today I can reliably run a 5k. I've actually run as far as 8.25 miles! Pretty surprising for a woman my age! I've got a lot of room for improvement. I want to run faster and further... Mon, 31 Dec 2012 21:54:14 EST Abundance http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5128461 Abundance <BR> <BR> A 21-day meditation challenge centering on the concept of Abundance begins this week. Yep, it’s Thursday and I’m finally beginning Day 1. I didn’t jump right into this one because my life is and has always been about lack. Abundance is a foreign concept to me – something far from my reach – something I don’t deserve – something I’ll never have. <BR> <BR> Beginning today I will look at abundance. I will face that abundance exists. I will not fear abundance. I will not see... Thu, 8 Nov 2012 12:44:29 EST Lotto Fever http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4812914 It's an epidemic in my office. The prize is like $640,000,000 -- more than half a billion! I can't count the number of times I've heard the phrase, "somebody has to win this week." Ahem, no one HAS to win tonight. No one has won it in weeks, hence the huge prize. There's been endless talk among my co-workers. They're discussing "strategy." I was repeatedly asked to join the lottery pool. I wish I had $5 for every time they had an office pool -- oh wait, I do, because I don't play. <BR> <... Fri, 30 Mar 2012 22:34:49 EST Q4 2011 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4481192 There's a little more than a quarter of this year remaining. I'm back from my vacation and it's time to get focused. The days will soon be getting shorter and I need to have some structure and direction before I find myself completely off track. <BR> <BR> I slacked off on my exercise last week, but today I've set the pace for the rest of the year. I need to do 4-5 mornings at the gym for at least 30 minutes. I need to walk at lunchtime for at least 20 minutes. I'll make my next traine... Mon, 12 Sep 2011 17:46:20 EST You guys are awesome! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4212357 Thanks so much for the encouragement! I know I've got a long way to go, but I'm going to keep at it. Your comments really help! <BR> <BR> Hugs to you all! Thu, 5 May 2011 13:26:32 EST Woo Hoo! I reached the minimum! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4204989 Today I did the eliptical for 40 minutes at Level 3. This is what the trainer said should be my minimum level for cardio. <BR> <BR> Thanks for all the comments and support here! It really helps. Mon, 2 May 2011 14:24:40 EST 5 days in a row! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4199278 I hit the gym 5 days in a row this week! <BR> <BR> Monday was my strenght day with the trainer and 15 minutes on the treadmill. <BR> <BR> Tuesday was an agonzing 30 minutes on the eliptical with my muscles aching all day (actually, things weren't too bad unless I moved, or breathed, or thought about moving or breathing). <BR> <BR> Wednesday was 30 minutes on the eliptical -- trust me, I definitely didn't want to do it, but I did and actually didn't feel too bad the rest of the day. <... Fri, 29 Apr 2011 19:51:08 EST The Mental Challenge of the Gym http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4192289 Who knew the gym would challenge me mentally, too. <BR> <BR> It's changing my routine and that's tough for me. It's not even a drastic change, but even those subtle changes can be a challenge. <BR> <BR> Previous routine: get up, work out, shower & dress, go to work. <BR> <BR> New routine: get up, go to the gym and work out, shower & dress (AT THE GYM), go to work. <BR> <BR> What a difference location makes! Showering and dressing at home -- no problem! I can do that with my eyes clos... Tue, 26 Apr 2011 16:28:24 EST Joining a gym http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4166110 I've resisted this for a long time for a lot of reasons, but this might be a good time to do it. <BR> <BR> Convenience: It's next door to my office, so I'll have easy access 5 days a week. I already have a reserved parking spot. It's a major gym with lots of equipment. It seems popular with lots of very fit people. <BR> <BR> Financially -- Gyms are expensive. But tomorrow I'll have a one-time opportunity to join for $30/month on a month-to-month basis, with no registration fee. Since ... Thu, 14 Apr 2011 18:04:18 EST Let's ignore water weight! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4146881 We've all heard the equation: calories in minus calories out equals total weight. One pound equals 3,500 calories. <BR> <BR> "But, wait!" I said. "I gained 3 pounds overnight. I know I didn't eat 10,500 calories more than I burned yesterday." <BR> <BR> "Of course not," said the expert. "That's just water weight. That's different." <BR> <BR> But how is it different? Water has zero calories, but it certainly has an impact on my weight. I'm not just talking about the 3 additional pounds... Wed, 6 Apr 2011 13:12:22 EST Planning for a long weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4025522 I just realized I have a long weekend coming up. I guess it's time to plan. <BR> <BR> I had an extra long weekend in January -- I tagged a couple of vacation days onto Martin Luther King Day. I called it my Mini Boot Camp. Mike didn't have any time off, so I focused on extra exercise and clean eating. I went to the zoo to walk briskly up and down the hills for a couple of hours three times in those five days. Even on the days I didn't go to the zoo, I walked and exercised. I ate very he... Thu, 17 Feb 2011 14:14:16 EST Lessons learned http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3966028 Mike called me at work yesterday and said, "The package you've been waiting for was delivered today. You can quit whining about it now." Ouch! I immediately got defensive. "I wasn't whining. I was just frustrated over the way that order was handled." "That's whining." <BR> <BR> Lesson 1: Quit whining! Even the man who loves me doesn't want to hear about it. <BR> <BR> Lesson 2: Never call anyone a whiner. It really stings, it's dismissive, it discounts their feelings, it doesn't make things ... Thu, 27 Jan 2011 12:53:09 EST Honesty http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3962829 I decided I should be honest and tell Mike how much I weigh. It's not like I've been hiding my weight from him -- can't hide the elephant in the living room, right. It's just that the number -- 175 -- is shocking to me. He was shocked, too. He blurted out, "Wow, if you didn't do all that healthy stuff, you'd weigh 200 pounds!" <BR> <BR> I know there are people who have different issues and who weight more, but I'm not compairing myself to anyone else. This is my struggle. <BR> <BR> I... Wed, 26 Jan 2011 12:45:39 EST Disappointment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3954073 My parents always told me that if I was disappointed it was because my expectations were too high, I wanted to much, I was unrealistic. I learned a lot from that kind of upbringing. I keep my expectations low. I try not to think about nice possessions or notice what other people have. I have a very strict definition of realistic -- if I don't have it, I probably never will. There's no point in feeling sorry for myself. I need to change my focus to gratitude. I am blessed. I've got my life ... Sun, 23 Jan 2011 20:39:50 EST the Zero-Calorie Holiday Party http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3854265 The office party was Friday evening at a place called "STK" <BR> It was rainy and dark. I was alone, driving on the unfamiliar streets of Hollywood and West Hollywood. Traffic was extremely heavy. I was armed with my directions printed from GoogleMaps. I know I was on the right street, the right block, even the correct side of the street. I simply could not find the restaurant. According to the website, STK is noted for its understated elegance. Apparently, being understated means they don'... Mon, 20 Dec 2010 15:41:19 EST Seasonal Fluctuation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1941971 Maybe I'm just not meant to weigh the same from in July as I did in February. Gaining weight in the winter may be a natual process, not a moral failure. I've decided to start my new season today. I'm going to add more exercise to my routine, walk more, sit and read less. I'm going to eat more fruits and veggies, less saturated fats. I'm going to take advantage of the warmer weather, the longer days, the fresher foods and the joys of nature. Losing some weight may be the natural response to th... Sat, 4 Apr 2009 09:11:01 EST Happy New Year! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1898030 The new year used to begin in the Spring and that makes sense to me. The days are longer, the weather is getting better, I've got more energy and I'm ready for a new season in my life. January 1 is a ridiculous time to start a year if you ask me. So Happy New Year! It's time for me to make some resolutions. I need to add some form of strenght training to my routine. I've got the cardio underway, but I know it's not enough. I've already made some really good changes in my diet and I need to... Fri, 20 Mar 2009 19:04:31 EST It's not the strongest of the species that survive, nor the most intelligent, but the ones most res http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1866851 It's not the strongest of the species that survive, nor the most intelligent, but the ones most responsive to change. - Charles Darwin <BR> I've been learning about the benefits of being adaptable. I have no control of the world around me. Instead of being frustrated by events, I'm learning to roll with them. I'm learning to keep my distance from people who aren't good for me. Most important, I'm learning to treat myself right. Tue, 10 Mar 2009 14:19:53 EST A good cook is a sorceress who dispenses happiness. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1863104 A good cook is a sorceress who dispenses happiness.- Elsa Schiapirelli <BR> I think it's odd that this is a SP quote. To tell the truth, I'm trying to get away from finding happiness in food. I do enjoy nice meals with Mike, but that's because I love his company, not because of the food. Don't get me wrong -- I do enjoy eating, but I'm trying to make my meals be more about the event than the entree. Mon, 9 Mar 2009 12:15:39 EST Attitudes are contagious. Is yours worth catching? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1860767 Attitudes are contagious. Is yours worth catching?- Anonymous <BR> I know I'm not an optimistic person, but I certainly don't mope and complain. I don't walk around oozing negativity. I don't think most people know I'm not optimistic about my future, or even my present. I make a conscious effort to offer encouragement to others. I put on a cheerful front every morning. I smile at people all the time. It doesn't matter what I think of myself. I don't have to be negative to others. Sun, 8 Mar 2009 16:15:22 EST The first sign of a nervous breakdown is when you start thinking your work is terribly important. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1859040 The first sign of a nervous breakdown is when you start thinking your work is terribly important.- Milo Bloom <BR> That's a cute quote. I do try to keep my job in perspective. The way the economy is now, though, I can't lose sight of the importance of having a stable job. I don't think my job interferes with my relationships or with my own growth. I still make time for my meetings and my hobbies. I especially make time for Mike. This has been the only job where I really feel supported in my ... Sat, 7 Mar 2009 20:17:52 EST Fortune favors the bold. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1853494 Fortune favors the bold.- Juvenal <BR> I've never considered myself bold and I don't think I hunger after fortune. I am quietly persistent however. I accomplish what I want and I get a good amount of respect. The world has to make room for people with different personalities. I'm not a loser just because I'm kind and quiet. Thu, 5 Mar 2009 16:05:40 EST The groundwork for all happiness is good health. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1851127 The groundwork for all happiness is good health.- Leigh Hunt <BR> I've been taking care of my health since I've been with Mike. He started it by being so concerned about me. I've been careful about nutrition and exercise. I've been taking care of myself emotionally and spiritually, too. It all adds up. Wed, 4 Mar 2009 21:31:05 EST The best inspiration is not to outdo others, but to outdo ourselves. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1847403 The best inspiration is not to outdo others, but to outdo ourselves. - Anonymous <BR> I've heard people getting upset because they haven't reached a goal, but then I've learned that their "goal" was to beat another person. I read a post from a woman who was devastated that she would not reach her "goal" of getting married before her brother. That just made no sense to me. I set my goals to better myself, not to beat another. I can't control another person's behavior, only my own, so I set my... Tue, 3 Mar 2009 17:48:37 EST You'll never miss the water, 'til the well runs dry. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1843642 You'll never miss the water, 'til the well runs dry.- W.C. Handy <BR> I don't need anything as trivial as "Survivor" to remind me to be grateful for the little things. It just wasn't that long ago that I escaped with only the clothes on my back. I've gone from having nothing to having a home, clean clothes, good food, and most important -- people who love me. I had none of those things a few years ago. Mon, 2 Mar 2009 15:46:15 EST If you think twice before speaking once, you will speak twice the better for it. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1839546 If you think twice before speaking once, you will speak twice the better for it. - William Penn <BR> My ex-therapist was all about me speaking my feelings, but I could never understand the value in it. I've never been one to blurt out how I'm feeling at any given moment. It has never done any good for me. It just puts scattered and often negative thoughts into the air. Once words are spoken, they cannot be unsaid. Feelings aren't facts and they change from moment to moment. It makes more sens... Sun, 1 Mar 2009 11:25:45 EST You can complain because roses have thorns. Or you can rejoice that thorns have roses. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1838183 You can complain because roses have thorns. Or you can rejoice that thorns have roses. - Ziggy <BR> Most of the time, I try to portray myself as a positive person. My co-workers probably think I'm very positive and upbeat. Most of the time, here at SP, I'm giving positive feedback or encouragement to people. Deep inside, I'm still a very hurt and frightened person. I've learned many skills not to show it. I think that has helped me a great deal. When people think well of me, it's easier to ma... Sat, 28 Feb 2009 19:46:47 EST