AIRMANSWIFE21's SparkPeople Blog AIRMANSWIFE21's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Just. Keep. Moving. It's hard being the mother of a baby. It's even harder (I believe) being the mother of a baby who was born a preemie. Every day you have to make a conscious effort to work with your child in the areas of his development, because if you don't, it will be harder for him to catch up, developmentally, to others his age. <BR> <BR> Then comes the normal stuff with babies: the crying, the fussing, the peek-a-boos, the teething, the rolling over, the coos and goo-goos, lots of playtime and snuggles,... Wed, 25 Feb 2015 22:58:22 EST First day back running... Definitely need improvement! So today was my first day back running since July, before my wedding. I miss my 11-minute miles, I'm telling ya! Matter of fact, I miss being able to make it a mile! As I was running, I was fighting through all the psychology hangups, but then I actually listened to my body. It was telling me plain and clear: If I didn't turn around for the walk back, I wasn't going to make it back! I was seriously pushing the limits of what my body could handle. Firstly, my breathing was poor. I was practica... Mon, 4 Nov 2013 13:28:47 EST Getting Into the Swing of Things It's hard to reach your goals among so many distractions. I think today is the first day I've been "home" in three days! Monday, I was technically home, but we were so busy working around the house that all dietary and exercising went straight out the window. Tuesday, I went with my mother to Raleigh (an hour away from home) to take care of some business, came home and had to rush a sick puppy to the vet, where I stayed for FOUR HOURS, then came home, and had to rush to get ready for my siste... Fri, 7 Jun 2013 18:55:11 EST M.I.A. for way too long! I seriously don't know what it is about being back in this house, but all my motivation and drive is just dead! I haven't been eating right, exercising has become more of a chore than fun, and I really just don't understand! My body is starting to reflect these poor decisions but instead of a loss of muscle-tone, in bloatedness, achyness, insomnia, lack of energy... I'm in so much pain from my poor choices that I honestly would rather have a loss in muscle tone! It literally hurts to get out ... Wed, 29 May 2013 09:57:56 EST M.I.A. for way too long! I seriously don't know what it is about being back in this house, but all my motivation and drive is just dead! I haven't been eating right, exercising has become more of a chore than fun, and I really just don't understand! My body is starting to reflect these poor decisions but instead of a loss of muscle-tone, in bloatedness, achyness, insomnia, lack of energy... I'm in so much pain from my poor choices that I honestly would rather have a loss in muscle tone! It literally hurts to get out ... Wed, 29 May 2013 09:57:55 EST 28-Day Bootcamp - Day 14 So, I kinda took a longer break than I intended. Four days off instead of two really had an impact on my workout. Firstly, because I was just flat out drained. Secondly, because my food choices over the past few days have been absolutely horrendous. Now, I'm not saying a bit of chocolate or sweet stuff isn't good once in a while, but every day?? Definitely not a good thing. Not to mention, the overeating... ugh! I totally felt like a bloated sea cow last night due to all the JUNK I had put in... Wed, 22 May 2013 13:00:34 EST 28-Day Bootcamp - Days 9, 10, & 12 Oh. My. Gosh! My legs are killing me! lol! But thankfully in a good way! I just literally finished up with day 12 of Coach Nicole's 28-Day Bootcamp DVD, and I have to say I have NEVER been more worked up in my life! 42 Minutes of pain! lol! I'm exaggerating a little of course... but I have seriously been worked out today! <BR> <BR> I actually impressed myself just a little with days 9 & 10. I've noticed how just within a week I am finding myself making transitions from the modified exercise... Fri, 17 May 2013 14:05:36 EST 28-Day Bootcamp - Day 7 So... Day 7 was the last day of all the basic stuff. Today begins all the serious training (as I like to call it). The problem is, I am waiting on a set of hand-weights so I can actually DO the exercises! Hopefully I'll have those within the next hour though, so no biggie. <BR> <BR> I am so happy with the results I'm getting! I'm FINALLY starting to notice my belly fat slowly melting away, my posture is improving, and my legs are getting very nicely toned! I'm even gaining some arm strength!... Tue, 14 May 2013 10:18:31 EST 28-Day Bootcamp - Days 4 & 5 So, I've had to switch up my rest days on the 28-Day Bootcamp DVD. I pretty much have no TV access on the weekends since all the family is home. So I went ahead and did days 4 & 5 between today and yesterday. I can already tell a difference in my stamina and ability. I found it a lot easier to do moves that previously I would be having a lot of trouble doing. However, I can also tell what the lack of a rest day has done to my body. During a lot of the lunges, and especially the squats, my kne... Sat, 11 May 2013 00:36:23 EST 28-Day Bootcamp - Day 2 So, I wish I had thought of this before now, but I decided to track my progress while using Coach Nicole's 28-day Bootcamp DVD. But anyway, today is Day 2 and I am already seeing results. I can tell what muscle tone I had lost during exam week is slowly returning, and I am already getting back my energy, stamina, and control that I had also lost to exam week. Now, just to be clear, I have also been working out with Exhale Spa's Core Fusion Power Sculpt DVD, which combines yoga, cardio, and va... Wed, 8 May 2013 14:38:22 EST Big Things, Friends, Big Things! And big things is right! I graduated from college yesterday morning with my BA in Religious Studies and Psychology, I moved back home, and now it's time to find a job and prepare for a wedding and another move! So many big and wonderful things are happening right now! It's really quite exciting! Starting tomorrow (provided this sinus funk goes away) I'm going to start working out again, and really get on with my life from there. Today, I'm taking it easy. Getting a few things done around the ... Sun, 5 May 2013 14:16:46 EST Getting Back in the Game Wow, I haven't been up here in a while. I do deeply apologize for that. This month has been absolutely crazy and the crazy isn't even over yet. That's what happens when you're in college during exam time. I haven't worked out in three weeks, my dietary habits have turned horrendous. I just can't believe that in spite of all that, I haven't really gained any significant weight! But I also noticed during this time of horrible choices, that it began to affect other areas of my life. Because I st... Sat, 27 Apr 2013 11:03:21 EST Exam Time = Crazy Time! Sorry I haven't blogged in a while, I've been crazy busy trying to get ready for all these exams! Not to mention the two senior seminar papers, one 25-page independent study paper, one psychology research proposal, about five paintings, and two sculptures all due within the next three weeks! Plus you add wedding planning, apartment planning, and packing and moving to that list?? I am pulling my hair out! Only reason I even found time to blog is because I woke up way too late to go to class. I... Thu, 11 Apr 2013 10:24:48 EST The Blessing of Life I was completely caught unawares today by a little blessing from heaven. I had decided after I left dinner, to jog back to my dorm room. I had reached the library (which was about the halfway point) when a girl approached me saying "Excuse me!". When I went over to see what it was she wanted, I learned that she and a group of her friends had discovered on the library porch, what seemed to be an injured bird. They really didn't know what to do with it, but they wanted to be sure that the bird ... Thu, 28 Mar 2013 23:59:27 EST Feeling Creative! Opinions Wanted! So this blog is obviously different from my normal blogs, but I really do want a variety of opinions here. I am getting ready to begin making yoga bags to sell in my Etsy store. I have found a couple different fabrics that I like, and would really appreciate some opinions! Below is a link to pictures of the fabrics I have selected. Please pic a few that you believe many would buy, and list the item numbers in the comments! Also, I am looking to create and sell other items in my Etsy store, an... Wed, 27 Mar 2013 23:33:35 EST Is This Real Life? So, forgive the phrase from that famous Youtube video (for those that get the reference), but it's a question I really had to ask myself today in my cardio class. I remember when I began this class, how I couldn't keep up with anybody. I had good form, but I was always too tired to keep up! Today, however, I was keeping up with the instructor! Particularly on the most complicated moves! It wasn't that awful long ago when I had to stop every five minutes to keep from overheating or worse. Toda... Tue, 26 Mar 2013 23:13:55 EST Falling in Love Again... So this blog's a little mushy I must admit, but I just can't help it! That gorgeous hunk of a man of mine just always somehow makes me fall in love with him over and over again! Truth is, I don't even know what he did to make me do that! lol! But when I talked to him tonight, it felt like God had given me the world! I cherished every word he spoke to me... even though it was really meaningless conversation. Just hearing his voice after such a long day was one of the biggest blessings I could ... Mon, 25 Mar 2013 23:08:19 EST Cafeteria Nightmares As a college student, I've pretty much had no choice but to eat in the school cafeteria. That cafeteria is the biggest roadblock in my weight loss goals. I have little to no choice in what I eat - especially on the weekends. Most of the foods, while low in calories, are crazy high in fats and carbs. Not to mention, there are so few proteins! While students have constantly asked for better foods, the answer typically involves something about the budget. So needless to say, the food isn't chang... Sun, 24 Mar 2013 20:50:57 EST I Refuse to be a Slacker! Lately, I've gotten slack in multiple areas of life. I've gotten slack in school, I've gotten slack in personal responsibilities, I've gotten slack in wedding plans, and worst of all, I've gotten slack in my weight loss goals! I hate being a slacker. I've just been so exhausted lately, that all I've wanted to do has been lay around and do absolutely nothing. Sadly, this has led me to program my brain to do just that, instead of tend to the responsibilities I need to tend to! This even include... Sat, 23 Mar 2013 21:50:17 EST Tuck and Roll! I just had to blog about this instance that happened to me in Bootcamp today, mainly because I find it so stinking funny! So we were doing this drill where we ran up on one side of the line of cones, and run backwards on the other side through about three lines, like, five times. Before I continue, let me also point out that my tennis shoes are beyond the point of worn out and I desperately need new ones! Well, I'm there, last one in the line, coming back on my last backwards run for the fift... Thu, 21 Mar 2013 23:49:44 EST My First Yoga Class So my college just offered a yoga class that meets on Wednesdays now. I've come to really enjoy yoga since I first "discovered" it thanks to the Wii Fit, and even more so over Spring Break, when I needed workouts to do in my teeny tiny room. So when I heard of this class I was totally excited! Now, I did have a few reservations. I'm not into the spiritual aspect of yoga. The concepts of "energy", or "chi" or "chakra" do not at all align with my personal spiritual beliefs. I'm not (completely)... Wed, 20 Mar 2013 19:16:36 EST What Happens When You Partner with the Instructor So I have Cardio on Tuesdays, and today we just happened to be doing some partner work. So who doesn't end up with a partner? That's right. Little ol' me! So I ended up partnering with our instructor who is CRAZY fit! Seeing as how I was the instructor's partner, it wasn't like I could just sit out whenever I wanted to. So I pushed through it. It bout near killed me, but I pushed through it. I couldn't have been happier that I did! I got an AH-MAZ-ING workout, found that my body could do thin... Tue, 19 Mar 2013 23:54:25 EST Life Just Comes With Ups and Downs: Happy SparkVersary to Me! I'm sorry I haven't been too awful active over the past few days... needless to say, they've been a bit crazy. Long story short: Everyone around me seems to just want to get under my skin in any way possible, and the fact that I've gone off of my depression medication hasn't helped any of it. Not to mention, withdrawal has been the WORST! I could tell some of the kids in my choir class could tell something was odd about me today... and I'm sure a lot of other kids did too. It's kind of hard n... Mon, 18 Mar 2013 23:53:14 EST Little Black Dress My first video blog, which documents the progress of almost a month's work on This video also includes a "surprise" visit from a tiny furry friend... Sun, 17 Mar 2013 01:37:40 EST White Tanks and Blue Jeans Lately I have gotten into the habit of leaving the blinds open to my second-story dorm room. I'm in the back of the dorm which faces the woods, so it's really no big deal. But I've gotten into this habit, because honestly, I love looking at myself in it! I don't have a mirror in my room, so the window's the closest thing I've got. But I was getting ready for dinner, pulling on my jeans (which are getting a bit large for me now, btw), and looked in the window and just admired myself for a whil... Wed, 13 Mar 2013 22:47:09 EST Still A Pretty Awesome Day Today wasn't completely awesome, but I can't say that it was bad! I have actually been rather productive today! I'm catching up in my schoolwork, I definitely have an appetite again after yesterday's horrible stomach bug, and I worked it at my Cardio Funk aerobics class! Though, I'm still feeling a few remaining effects of that bug, and I'm having to eat when I don't want to just to avoid coming up UNDER my daily nutritional goals (for once!), and then you have the usual hateful people that j... Tue, 12 Mar 2013 23:46:24 EST Just for the Girls! (But Guys, Feel Free to Read!) First of all just let me say: I am SO thankful to be able to eat again! That stomach bug was the worst! So thank you everyone, for the prayers and well-wishes! Now on to what I want to talk about! <BR> <BR> I of all people know about low self-esteem. If you really need proof, just read my past two blogs and you'll know exactly what I mean! It's hard to have good self-esteem when you look in the mirror and all YOU can see is a "blob" staring back at you! So how do you get past this? I have a ... Mon, 11 Mar 2013 21:06:06 EST Just Not My Weekend I Guess... So, today apparently wasn't much better than yesterday. I'm sure it would've been great if I had just stayed locked in my dorm room all day, but I needed to wash my clothes so I left for the future in-laws. Now, I love my in-laws. They are just wonderful people. I guess today was just a wrong-side-of-the-bed day! Every time I talk to anyone about the wedding my blood just starts to boil. I can't explain it, but it does. Maybe it's because everyone from everywhere keeps offering their opinions... Sun, 10 Mar 2013 23:27:54 EST The Worst Good Day EVER! Today was both good and bad. The good part was that I got my wedding dress paid for and my bridesmaids dresses picked out! I was so excited about that! But other than that, the day just kinda stunk! I kept getting picked on by my own mother, I ate WAY too much at Five Guys restaurant and felt like a bloated cow, and to make matters worse, we went clothes shopping after that. Now, I like clothes shopping, but not when I'm with my sister. She's about half an inch taller than me, wears a size 3/... Sat, 9 Mar 2013 18:16:13 EST Man! I look GOOD! So I'm just dancing around my room like a crazy person, when all of a sudden I caught a glimpse of myself in the reflection of my window. I couldn't help but stop and look. I was totally shocked at the simple fact that I look different! I mean... I looked... Healthy! I could see the definition in features of my body that were once covered by fat, I could see the glow on my face that had previously been exhausted, and I gotta tell ya.... for the first time in a long time, I could sit there and... Thu, 7 Mar 2013 23:59:28 EST Four Months, One Week and Six Days! That's how much longer it is until my July 20th wedding! I'm getting more and more excited as well as more and more anxious! I keep working on all these wedding plans, and seeing things all start to come together! It's fantastic! I can't wait for tomorrow, especially! My mom has the day off work, and so she'll be with me and my best friend/bridesmaid working on all sorts of wedding things! I can't help but be excited! <BR> <BR> Knowing that I had a semi-productive day just makes the whole p... Wed, 6 Mar 2013 23:04:38 EST Meanwhile, on the Home-front... I am missing him terribly! If you want even an inkling of an idea as to what a military spouse/significant other goes through on these things called deployments, watch the Jeep commercial from the Superbowl. It won't even show you half! So here I lay, in bed, after Skyping with the most amazing man I've ever met, wanting to cry my eyes out! I miss him so much! It's like they take a piece of your heart and ship it so far away from you, that you have no hope of reaching it. It doesn't get bette... Tue, 5 Mar 2013 22:41:18 EST "I Can Hear the Bells!" "I can hear the bells! Just hear them chiming, I can hear the bells! My temperature's climbing! I can't contain my joy 'cause I've finally found the boy I've been missin'! LISTEN! I can hear the bells!" ~Nikki Blonsky "HAIRSPRAY" <BR> <BR> Okay, so please forgive me for the "HAIRSPRAY" reference, but I just can't help myself! All day my best friend and I have been working on things for my wedding, and it has just been FANTABULOUS! All I can think of is that gorgeous hunk of Godly, all-americ... Mon, 4 Mar 2013 22:38:37 EST Healthy College Eating First of all, before I say anything else, Thanks so much to everyone who's been praying about my hip! It feels a zillion times better than it did and I haven't even been to see the doctor yet! But I've been on my feet all day and it hasn't bothered me once! God really does answer prayers! <BR> <BR> Secondly, on to what I planned on typing! <BR> <BR> As most already know, I am a senior in college. When I first came to this school, I weighed in at about 130 pounds. I will be the first to say... Sat, 2 Mar 2013 21:53:19 EST Totally Not My Day Today was probably the most "BLAH" day I have ever had in a while. You know, one of those days where you knew you should've called in sick and just stayed in bed. Today was a serious down day in terms of my depression (which is weird because I actually remembered my medication). It got better for a while between talking to my best friend and art class, but then my stress levels just skyrocketed! I was late for a class I had an exam in, totally forgot all the answers to the multiple choice par... Thu, 28 Feb 2013 19:44:40 EST Feeling Ah-MaZ-ING! What a wonderful day! I'll admit, it didn't start out that way, but WOW! Woke up this morning feeling totally emotionally drained from (admittedly) crying over my fiance's deployment, so I emailed my professor and went back to sleep. I woke up, feeling MUCH better than I had, got dressed, ate a huge, yet surprisingly healthy, lunch and proceeded on with my day as I normally would. Then I went to Cardio Funk (another exercise program held here at my school) and boy did I work it! I put it in t... Tue, 26 Feb 2013 22:54:53 EST Mind Games So. Today has been a very interesting day. First with the obvious of my fiance leaving on deployment today, then with the crazy-stress food cravings! My mind has just been a crazy roller coaster all day! I'm so proud of myself for sticking to my guns on my calorie limits! I still went over, but not by as much as I typically would! That's pretty good when you're dealing with the crazy-stress of a first-time deployment! I'll admit, I'm still craving some spinach dip and chips, but who knows! Ma... Mon, 25 Feb 2013 22:00:47 EST Not Ready for Goodbye I know it's 12:10 in the morning and that I should probably be asleep right now, but how can I knowing that the love of my life, my very heart, is being deployed to a country on the other side of the world!?! I can't help but think of all I'll miss: the hugs, the laughs, the kisses, the annoying little things he does... How do I sleep knowing he will be out there, working for the sake of our country, and me being here worried about his very safety!?! I know where he is going is not a terrible... Mon, 25 Feb 2013 00:23:26 EST Where's the Panic Button!?! Today has been very good in terms of calories taken in. As of right now I sit within my limit of intake. However, I'm really banging on the panic button right now, because I have finished my dinner, and I am STILL HUNGRY!! All I have room left for is an apple, and it is like the LAST thing I want right now! What I really want is my spinach dip and tortilla chips and chocolate... lots and lots of chocolate... and more spinach dip... mmm.... spinach dip... Okay, I'm back! Where was I? Oh yeah..... Fri, 22 Feb 2013 19:14:59 EST A Thing Called "Bootcamp" At the college I go to, there is a workout class on Thursdays that is called "Bootcamp". And rightfully so! I know everybody's heard of the INSANITY program... well, "Bootcamp" isn't far behind! It was INTENSE!!! Tonight was week one, and I am sooooo sore! My face is so red, it looks like a giant tomato! It consisted of four high-intensity circuits. I officially cried on circuit three I was in so much pain! But I pushed it and couldn't be more proud of myself! I thank GOD for getting me throu... Thu, 21 Feb 2013 19:45:28 EST The Cost of Counting Calories I've never been one to count calories in dieting. Truthfully I never really payed full attention to what I ate. I just assumed whether or not an food item was healthy, without really doing any research. So while I've been counting calories since joining SparkPeople, I have horrified myself over and over again at seeing just how much the foods I love are unhealthy for me! Even the supposedly "Healthy" foods. Like salad... who knew that bacon bits, cheese and dressing could add up to so much!?!... Thu, 21 Feb 2013 15:31:12 EST Preparing for the Worst (While Planning for the Best) It's so hard to think of planning a wedding as a senior in college. There are so many questions people start to ask you. Questions like: "What are you going to do when you get out?" or "Are you going to go to graduate school?" or "So what do you want to do with that [degree]?". Truthfully, I only know the answer to the second question (which is a big fat NO!). Right now the only thing I know is that I have a lot of work to do in order to graduate, and it does not get easier to plan a wedding ... Wed, 20 Feb 2013 17:42:40 EST