AIMMICEM's SparkPeople Blog AIMMICEM's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Beginning of January in Wisconsin..Really? As the sun shone through my windows, I decided to take a walk. Looked at the thermometer to check the temp, and it says 40. Wow, mother nature must be off balance this winter season. First there was hardly any snow for Christmas, now whatever we did have has melted. Not that I am a big fan of snow, I guess my concern is how will the lack of snow effect spring? It will be so dry. I know that we still have Feb and March to get some good snow. And I hear from all the old farmers, that the big sn... Sun, 8 Jan 2012 17:30:01 EST New Year, New Beginning I decided after Thanksgiving that trying to be healthy and losing weight was going to be as effective as nailing jello to a tree. So I didn't even try. So here I am again, trying. I don't know how it is going to go, or what I am going to try this time around, But I am going to try. Hope Y'All have a great beginning to the New Year. <BR> <BR> <BR> Sun, 1 Jan 2012 16:39:09 EST Making a Motivational Board I know one of the steps in Stage 1 was to make a motivational poster. I never did it. I'm thinking that I might. There are some things that I want in life. Like I would like to go to New Orleans. I would like to learn how to dance (ballroom). I think I will finally make that poster. Maybe that will help. <BR> <BR> <em>30</em> Tue, 8 Nov 2011 21:26:13 EST Today was good Overall the weekend was pretty good, mood wise. I didn't work Friday so that left some rest time for me. I was feeling really guilt about not working Friday so that I can work overtime on Saturday, but I was feeling really worn down. Although now I don't want to go back to work. Eating I am still not doing the greatest. Haven't lost any pounds. Keep trying I guess. First time I even exercised was today. Been almost a month. Work just takes it's toll on me. I have school work on top of that. B... Sun, 6 Nov 2011 19:45:12 EST Still here Somewhat. Sun, 30 Oct 2011 21:20:05 EST Four uplifting words As we all go through our day to day health and weight issues, there comes a time when someone says something to you so unexpected that it makes you stagger. What are these four glorious words? I think we all should know, and we all love to hear them <BR> <BR> ARE YOU LOSING WEIGHT? <BR> <BR> I think these words are every dieters sunshine. Those words can brighten up your day even when your down in the dumps, with a raincloud constantly over your head. I had such a day on Monday. I was at wo... Wed, 7 Sep 2011 20:32:34 EST Low-Fat vs Low-Carb, Is there a happy medium. Most of my diet journey has been about watching my fat intake, never really worrying about anything else. Although it has helped, I can't say that it has been a total success. I am taking alli, and even with that I seem to be faltering at the same weight. With that said, my husband is a diabetic. Recently his Dr. put him on a low carb diet. I am wondering if following that same diet would help me or not at all. Or if I could balance the both. I noticed looking through low carb diet that the f... Sat, 20 Aug 2011 23:24:05 EST Thank You First of all I just want to say thank you to all those that have posted a comment on my page or blogs. I haven't been feeling up to par to record or keep active. Hopefully now I can get down to business. I have been tired, and pretty much burnt out. Been working a full 40+ hour week and it is taking a toll on me. It has been a long time since I had to do that, usually being 32 hours or less. Which, all in all, is a good sign. My weight has dropped back down before the party, so I am very happ... Thu, 18 Aug 2011 22:50:27 EST Weight limits exceeds.... Well it happened, I gained so much weight that I can no longer use the Wii board. I am so upset with myself. I ate and ate all the leftover party foods even when I was not hungry because I didn't want it to go to waste. Now I am paying for it. <BR> I have been trying to do something physical everyday just to keep going, but it didn't help much I guess. <BR> <BR> Ugg! Thu, 28 Jul 2011 22:23:36 EST The Party is Over. Time to get Serious For the past week I have been planning a party for my graduate daughter. I am not a people person, and I am not a planner. So stress and just being really busy I let down my guard. I didn't track anything. I didn't exercise except for running to the stores to get needed supplies. The party is over and it went really well. But now I have lots of leftovers that I am going to have to freeze. I hate for it to go to waste. So now it is time to get serious again. I was on the treadmill for a bit t... Sun, 24 Jul 2011 19:49:11 EST She's Home - For Now Well to anybody that reads my blogs knows that I have been dealing with my 18 year old daughter. She has gone back to her boyfriend that currently has no job and almost no place to live. She came over on Sunday for awhile, then left because we got into a fight (her, her sister, and myself). Later on in the day I asked her how she was, knowing that she don't have any type of air in that small apt. Plus it only has one window. She said that she was doing ok, I told her that she knows she can c... Mon, 18 Jul 2011 21:04:18 EST Friday - A good and bad day. Although I wanted to write yesterday, I just didn't feel up to it. Some things have happened. One of the big things is that I finally got to see my daughter and actually have a talk with her and tell her why I am having such a difficult time with her dating her ex. I had said that I am afraid that he is going to ware her down to the point where she won't be able to accomplish anything. Also I was afraid that when he had to leave his current apartment, that she will feel the need to stay with ... Sat, 16 Jul 2011 21:39:47 EST A heavy heart So this blog isn't about weight or weight loss. I just wanted to express my feelings I have right now. I have an 18 year old daughter that went back to her ex-boyfriend. This sometimes cannot be a bad thing. But, he dumped her after he cheated on her and then he dumped that girl to get back with her. I haven't really seen her in four days. She's been staying at his house. We have been on ends with eachother. She is such a different person when she is with him, like she trys to be what he want... Wed, 13 Jul 2011 21:52:03 EST Nutritional Tracker One thing I like about this is that you realize what is in what your eat. Today we went to Sonic. We don't live in a area where there is one nearby, so we usually stop there when we are in the big city. I thought I ordered something halfway decent, knowing that it wasn't going to be a great choice there. But, I was actually shocked of what i found out when I went to track it. OUCH!. LOL. SO now I know not to go there and get that. If we do I know that there is a grilled wrap that would have b... Tue, 12 Jul 2011 22:30:24 EST Too much, too soon. So I decided to go for a walk today. Once I got to my turning point I decided that I was feeling pretty good so I kept on walking. Bad Idea. The route I had to take took me around the edge of town to get back to my house. Three blocks away from my house I called my husband to come get me, I couldn't go any further. Next time I'll start out with my beginning route. Mon, 11 Jul 2011 21:38:09 EST Surprised I went on my Wii this morning, did the usual body test and seen that my weight went down 5 lbs. That didn't seem right. I usually weigh myself in the afternoon, so I waited till then to do it again. What do ya know. Pretty close to being the same. I don't know how. Sun, 10 Jul 2011 20:31:09 EST Can't eat just one. I try really hard not to buy sweets simply because I have no control. I may ask my husband to get me something small, usually that will tap my need for sweets for awhile. He usually bring back a box of something small. Today it was little debbie snacks. Nutty bars and swiss rolls. Of course I did have one...of each. Darn. I plan on having chicken on the grill tonight so hopefully I won't go over my limits to bad. That is still a work in progress. Sun, 10 Jul 2011 17:42:01 EST County Fair This weekend is the county fair. I am not overly empressed with the fair here, bein g that it is such a small county, there really ian't much to it. One of favorite rides is the Tilt-A-Whirl. Which, by the way, they haven't had for 2 years. I like it because it is the only ride that I can fit in. I love to go on rides but a few years ago I was embarrassed at a much larger fair by getting stuck in one of the seats on the Twizzler. People were watching and laughing. I was smaller then. I have n... Fri, 8 Jul 2011 22:08:01 EST Liking the new Spark. It has been so long since I have been on Sparkpeople, especially to track anything. I was pleasantly surprised at the updated pages. Especially the nutrition tracking. It is sooo much easier and not as tedious to write in your own foods. Thank You Sparkpeople for making it easier to get back into the swing of things. <em>250</em> Thu, 7 Jul 2011 00:20:35 EST Needing Support I hear success stories, and the people that support them. I wish I had support. I have friends who have mentioned their concern for me and my weight, but you know, there is no support there. I don't ask. I am too embarrassed to. I know that if I ask for support that mean they will watch what I do. I don't want to be a disappointment to them that I am to myself. My husband is a big guy, and we should really be supporting eachother. He is diabetic and can contradict himself. I am at a loss as ... Tue, 5 Jul 2011 23:01:00 EST Wish I could change It has been almost a year since my last blog. Well nothing has changed. Still struggle to make something work for me. I just can't shake this black cloud feeling. I can't shake the feeling of being so damn tired all the time. I know that I am depressed. I take something for that. But I dont want to go to work. I don't want to do anything. I try. I know that the more you move the more energy you create. That working out really create that energy and that "feel good" feeling. I am always the ki... Tue, 5 Jul 2011 00:30:33 EST A bit disappointed in myself. I went to go use my Wii workout and I stepped on the board and......exceeds weight limit. I even tried it with just a nightshirt on. I am diappointed in myself because I didn't make a great choice in supper last night. We went to the bar and had 6 boneless wings and shared a 12 in pizza with my hubby. I wanted a BLT, but the pizza beat that out. So now that bad judgement added on enough weight to not allow me to be on the board. Touchy thing...LOL. Curves is not open today so I can't work any... Thu, 12 Aug 2010 18:14:34 EST I did it, I did it, I did it! It happened. I stepped on my scale this morning and it said 328. Well I can step on it 4 times and I will have a different weight. But I thought I'd try the Wii fit Plus today. I got on with the usually anticipation of "weight exceeds my limits". It didn't. It continued thru the program. Yahoo. A small victory conquered. <em>224</em> And according to the Wii scale I am 325.5. Tue, 10 Aug 2010 15:49:12 EST Does he not understand that I am on a diet? Sometimes I wonder about my husband. He supports what my choices are as far as weight loss, but he asked me questions like.."do you want me to start the deep fryer and fry some chicken?" Umm NO. Or he always wants to go out to eat because nothing here is ever interesting. Which I can work around that. What really ticks me off is if I pick a place like he wants me too, then he doesn't order anything because nothing seems interesting. UGG. I love my husband dearly and usually I don't have no is... Sun, 8 Aug 2010 16:11:28 EST I did it. Today I actually got up early and went to Curves at 530. It was kinda nice because nobody else was there. I am not sure how much I weigh. I weighed myself earlier with clothes on and it said 333. SO I am close to being on the Wii! <BR> <BR> Short blog, but sweet. Wed, 4 Aug 2010 00:28:11 EST What if tomorrow never comes? How many of us will plan on doing something, doesn't work out for that day, and you say "I'll start tomorrow"? What if tomorrow never comes? Then what? <BR> <BR> That has been my answer for so long, I would try to stay on track and eat well and exercise. But I always fail, miserably. "I'll start tomorrow" I would say to myself. I'm tired of saying that. I haven't been going to Curves because I am just to tired and sore after work. So I have this great plan. They open at 5:30. I need to be a... Sat, 31 Jul 2010 07:31:36 EST Not doing well I haven't been doing well on my diet. I haven't made it to Curves in over a week. I have been just exhausted. I don't know why. If it is just the weather, which has been wet and nasty to hot and humid back to wet...very little sun. I believe I actually gained weight again. <BR> <BR> Yesterday we had Oscar Mayer at our company. They had the mini wiener mobile. I got a picture taken with it. Boy was it really bad. I don't take pictures or look at myself in a full length mirror because I don't ... Wed, 23 Jun 2010 19:32:07 EST Sometimes To start out with, I joined Curves again. I am real happy about that. There is only one machine that I can't really do because of my knee. So that started this week. I am hoping that I can get on my Wii board soon, Can't believe it is so picky when I am only about 3 lbs off. <BR> <BR> It has been a very emotional couple of weeks here. Last week work was just long. One day ended up being over 10 hours. Other days were nine. Nothing seem to work right. Then to top it off I got a note on faceb... Thu, 10 Jun 2010 22:23:40 EST Good Afternoon There is nothing much going on here today. Got done with work early because I have to take my daughter to an appt. It is 78 degrees here today. Need to start working on getting the pool up. Also need to make my way to Curves and sign up again. <BR> <BR> I have some flowers I need to plant before they wilt. <BR> My diet is ok. <BR> Thank you for looking. :) Wed, 19 May 2010 13:38:49 EST Just checking I am just posting a blog to see if I have my settings set right. Tue, 18 May 2010 16:13:08 EST Monday Blues Ok so I just leraned something new, if you happen to have profanity (I used crap and darn) it completely wipes out your blog. So here I go again. <BR> <BR> Today has been a long day. After a 3 day weekend with a bit of bad in it I wanted to have an easy day. Of course that doesn't happen on a Monday. A crappy start to what looks like to be a crappy week, plus saturday. A Long Week. <BR> <BR> Last Friday was my birthday, I turned 38. Had a great day with the DH going to the greenhouses. We h... Mon, 17 May 2010 21:30:37 EST Mother's Day First of all, Happy Mothers Day. It has been a good Sunday. Nothing major happened here. Did go out for lunch. I wanted to go to Crakcer Barrel but of course they were majorly packed. 30 minutes wait time, maybe. So w went across the street to Famous Daves. LOL. Not what I really wanted, but it was good nonetheless. <BR> <BR> It has been an otherwise normal day. I shouldn't expect it to be any different. I did dishes and laundry. I wouldn't want anybody to do my laundry. LOL They never seem... Sun, 9 May 2010 18:27:50 EST Saturday Evening Musings It is 7:00. Trying to figure out what to make for supper. In our household we are burnt out on food period. There is not mush for restaurant choices in this small town are surrounding areas. We could go to a bigger town but that is an hour trip. I don't know what to make in my household anymore. I have no creativity when it comes to food, and my family is very picky. <BR> <BR> I'm trying to get back into eating healthy again. Hasn't been great, but hasn't been bad. Haven't lost a whole lot ... Sat, 8 May 2010 20:09:24 EST 600 Lbs woman wants to gain more..... get into the Guinness Book of Records. Unbelievable. Why would anybody want to do that? I know that I am pushing alot of weight right now and have difficulty with more personal issues in my life I cannot imagine what kind of issues she is already having and will continue to have if she gains more weight. Not to mention how her heart and everything else is going to handle it. For what? A few minutes of fame. Not worth it in my book. <BR> <BR> I hav... Mon, 22 Mar 2010 11:30:54 EST My Thoughts Well it has been almost a week since I stated that I need to return to Spark and get back on track. Needless to say I haven't started anything yet. In fact I think i gained a few more pounds. So depressing. I am determined to do something because I don't feel comfortable anymore. Being overweight my whole life your body tends to compensate for your weight. At least mine did. This time it won't. I hurt all the time and simple everyday moves are difficult. Certain things I just cry because I ne... Mon, 8 Mar 2010 10:50:58 EST March 4, 2010 I hoping that this time around it will be as easy to start as the last time. Last week on the 24th of Feb I finally had my knee surgery done. I had and anthroscopy done on my right leg after finding out that I had a torn cartilages. When the Doc went in there he found 2 tears and scraped some arthritis. I feel ok. Sometimes it still catches and I ca't turn it a certain way but I am sure it will get better in time. Althoug I haven't been able to do much around the house but I have enjoyed my ... Thu, 4 Mar 2010 23:58:37 EST Time to start over Well it has been over 2 months and 15 added pounds later that I return. I am so disappointed in myself. But I can say it wasn't all my emotions. My body did me in also. LOL. Everybody know that when you go see a doctor of some sort the first thing they say is.....and you know what I am going to need to lose weight, that is one reason why you are having issues. Well I agree. So I started losing weight. Lost 30 lbs. I was so happy. I felt good. I was going to Curves. I FELT good. The... Sat, 17 Oct 2009 20:00:49 EST When your at the bottom... long do you skim the bottom before you start floating up. Seems like I have been a bottom feeder for awhile. I have no motivation. I have nothing. My MaryKay seems to be a failure. I keep holding on to that thin line hoping that something is going to break. That my dau will come. It's not for the lack of trying. <BR> <BR> I came to sparkspeople with such hope and enthusiamn. I was doing to good. I had energy. Good self esteem. Motivation. I have none of that. I don't know what to do. ... Sun, 26 Jul 2009 12:32:51 EST Time to start over Well first of all Happy Independence Day America. <BR> <BR> Now it is time for me to start all over in my weight loss journey. Depressed, stress and knee problems have halted me to a stop. I have no interest what so ever. But I was so proud of myself when I was losing weight that I need to start in again for I have gained 6 or more lbs. I found out my knew problem is part hamstring and part arthritis. So I am going to therapy. I have not gone to Curves in 2 weeks. But I am hoping with therap... Sat, 4 Jul 2009 12:35:45 EST Enthusiasm My enthusiasm has wained in all areas of my life. My first Mary Kay facial party was a bust. Doesn't do anything for the self esteem in selling. But I need to get over my fear and really show myself out there. Start making phone calls. Don't know why that scares me so. I don't know most of the people. Just that fear of rejection. Or maybe that they will actually say yes. I don't know what I was thinking. <BR> <BR> ON a good note, I weighed and seen that I lost a couple of pounds. Yay for me.... Sat, 20 Jun 2009 11:06:14 EST Good Evening. Well I need to get back on the wagon. I feel good. I was surprised to find out that when I jumped on the scale tonight that there wasn't a considerate amount of weight gain. Not even 2 lbs. I am happy with that. But now I can start getting back on track. Getting back to eating healthy and tracking my food. Sat, 13 Jun 2009 22:01:30 EST Starting Again/Feeling Ok Well I took a few days off from dieting, journaling, tracking food and what not. My knee is better but not great. If it doesn't seem to be getting better in the next couple of weeks then I may have to quit Curves. I don't want to. But sometimes you just got to realize that it may not get better. <BR> <BR> On another note, I did decide to be a Mary Kay Consultant. Big jump from I ever thought about my life. It's only going to be part time. I should have an inventory started but I just don't h... Fri, 12 Jun 2009 14:05:19 EST Taking a Break/ So Scared. I'm takin break this week from added my foods, checking my weight, going to Curves. I hurt my knee on Sunday and I decided to give it a break from working out. I'm an not going to stress myself out with tryin to put all my foods in either. Been busy. So I decided to just take a break. <BR> <BR> ON another note. I decided to join the Mary Kay team for extra money. I have been scared ever since I signed up. Right now I am on the verge of tears because I am not sure I did the right thing. I wan... Wed, 10 Jun 2009 17:56:54 EST Another Blog :) I want to write a blog but I am sitting here thinking about what. I don't want my blogs to be depressing and pitiful. I guess that is just the kind of week I had. Seems to be the consenses of everyone I talk to. It is June 6th and it is only 47 degrees at 10 am. Pathetic. I even had to turn on the heat just to take the chill out of the house. <BR> <BR> Been another one of those 1 step ahead and 2 steps back week. If you had read any of my previous blogs then you'd know that my vans transmiss... Sat, 6 Jun 2009 12:01:06 EST End of the week rundown Well it is Saturday. A beautiful Saturday at that. It has been kind of a down week. Only makde it to Curves once this week. Didn't eat well. I even didn't even track my nutrition all to well. Didn't make an attemp to track my goals. *Sigh* It seems like when you get ahead a step you drop back four. I got my gas turned back on. Oh how I missed a hot shower. All seems well. Right? Wrong! I seen my van blowing out fluid. Which means the trannys about to go and I don't have 3000 to fix. We need 2... Sat, 30 May 2009 13:35:47 EST Surprising! This week was not a good week. I had no energy and only went to Curves 2 times. My roots to the couch have sprouted once again. Even after all this I still lost a pound. Really? LOL. I thought I had blown my little goal and gained a couple of pounds, but no. Happy Happy. <BR> We had eatin out alot. I am not a griller. We have no gas and unfortunately my stove and hot water heater is gas. I was making payment and even made $200 this month alone, but apparently It wasn't good enough. So I made ... Sat, 23 May 2009 09:09:17 EST I DID IT! Well I stepped on my new scale this morning, 3 times, and it all came out the same 300.2! I made my mini goal. Yahoo! Just out of poops and giggles I went to work and stood on that one. That one is the dr office kind with the weights. Another shocker..I was able to move the big weight (50 lbs) back so that i don't have to put it on 300 anymore! <BR> <BR> I'm so happy! Mon, 18 May 2009 19:33:36 EST In Memory Of Mom ~ Carol So it's finished. We built a little flower garden for my mother-in-law. We decided to do this because my Hubby has no place to just, well remember. She was creamated. There is nothing for him to go just to reflect on memories. I came up with this idea because my sister in law had given us a gift certificate for a greenhouse. Plus a little donation from my Mom and Viola! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> It's mainly going to made up of most... Sun, 17 May 2009 19:45:08 EST The little things I see ~ personal I always told myself that my weight wasn't a problem until I couldn't wipe my own butt. Well it never got that far, but damn close. Certain things I couldn't use (tampons). Now I am almost to my goal (mini goal, 1 lb to go). I started weighing 333 (that's a bad number right there!). Now my last weigh in at Curves I was about 301. I almost cried. It has been so long since I seen that number. I never ever thought I could do it without drugs or surgery. Never thought I was strong enough. I just... Sat, 16 May 2009 19:40:43 EST What a Glorious Day! Today went pretty good. I even surprised myself. My Hubby took me up to a greenhouse in Point. I love going there because they have nice roses and unusual plants. Of course I bought 2 rose bushes. Then we went to Menard to get some landscaping timber to build the memorial garden. We were going to head home and decided to stop at IHOP for lunch. My DH wanted to go to Golden Corral, but I didn't want to stuff myself with all that good food. I am happy to say that I had a simple chicken sandwhic... Thu, 14 May 2009 21:52:13 EST