AILINEA's SparkPeople Blog AILINEA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community A Timeline (with some TMI) June 20, 2008 - I turned 30. <BR> <BR> July 5, 2008 - My father is diagnosed with an aggressive cancer. <BR> <BR> September 20, 2008 - Jeff proposes. The proposal was a bit of a let-down, but had its own story. It was kind of rushed anyway, as I didn't know how much time my Dad had (my mom died in 2000), and I wanted to make sure he saw me engaged to the guy I'd been with for so long. <BR> <BR> October 9-12 - Blizzcon: I paid for the flight, hotel, food, most of the purchases at the conven... Tue, 9 Oct 2012 23:09:58 EST Victories! As I posted in my status update today, I had both a scale victory and a non-scale victory! <BR> <BR> The scale victory is when I get a new low, especially one that gives me a new pound-number, not just lower fraction of a pound. So today I hit 156.8. To me it's a scale victory even though my last low was 157.0. Sure, it's just a difference of 0.2 pounds (maybe as little as 0.1, maybe as much as 0.3, but my scale measures in 0.2 increments) but it got me below 157 so I now have my eyes set on... Sat, 6 Oct 2012 16:17:06 EST Haven't posted here in a while Things have been going surprisingly well. Except for the STILL UNEMPLOYED part. That's getting stressful. But again, I'd rather take the stress of job hunting over what I went through last year. <BR> <BR> Yesterday marked the day Jeff began cheating on me. Not the day I found out, but the day he started. <BR> <BR> He calls me "paranoid" and "crazy." I call him "caught in the act." He calls himself "loyal." I say: <BR> <BR> <img src="">... Thu, 4 Oct 2012 19:03:29 EST Taking advice (long and ranty and blowing off steam) Things have been busy in the Firebudgie household. Most of the action has been in my head. <BR> <BR> First of all, The Guy... <BR> <BR> Finally got my stuff from the apartment. This came after a series of as-rude-as-he-can-be-while-claiming-to-be-<BR>polite text messages to get my stuff on Friday, April 13. It started at 8:30 pm. After explaining that I couldn't get a U-Haul (the place I wanted to get one from didn't have any left) he said there were 2 available in the city: 1 would be avai... Wed, 9 May 2012 10:00:49 EST Fun with statistics, and other things I've had my iPod Nano (6th gen) for HOW long now, and never used the Nike+/pedometer functionality before WHY?! <BR> <BR> I love statistics stuff! It's why I love my heart rate monitor (the watch is still at the apartment, but I need to get new batteries anyway) and tracking my info keeps me motivated because it gives me "personal bests" to work toward. <BR> <BR> So yeah, I've started walking again lately, and discovered that my Nano is BEST THING EVAR...and I'm so excited about it that Jez... Fri, 30 Mar 2012 20:21:16 EST *Putting on a brave face* (Wall of text crits you for OVER 9000!) The past week has had its ups and downs. <BR> <BR> Jezi moving in has been AMAZING. I keep apologizing for coming off as neurotic about things like cleaning up the house and doing dishes or laundry immediately, but it's because I don't want to slip into bad habits that I had in the apartment. But you know what? She's SUCH a good roommate so far! I feel like I have a partner willing to do her share rather than living with a man-child expecting me as substitute-mommy to clean up after him. Ser... Mon, 12 Mar 2012 09:54:51 EST Tired Budgie is Tired Tonight is my last night of living on my own. And this time, it's a good thing. Jezi (Jezi_Sue here on SparkPeople) is in the process of driving up here to move in and be my roommate. She's staying in Atlanta tonight, and should arrive tomorrow afternoon/early evening. <BR> <BR> I'm making the Slow Cooker Lasagna recipe from Chef Meg tomorrow for a move-in dinner. Her parents are driving up with her to help move her in, so I figured this way I could have some yummy, healthy food cooking whil... Thu, 1 Mar 2012 19:42:25 EST I am SO evil. XD How to lose 300+ pounds in a weekend: <BR> <BR> Dump the guy who's mooching off you. <BR> <BR> You'll still have lots of blood, sweat, and tears, but that's from the emotion of going through it, and the workout involved in moving. <BR> <BR> There are a lot of things about it that will suck horribly. But it will be worth it in the end. <BR> <BR> Like today: I went to the store because I basically had NO FOOD in the house. Sure, I made some not-so-good choices (How DID those Doritos get in ... Sun, 26 Feb 2012 01:14:15 EST Finally on my own (another LONG relationship TMI update) I moved yesterday. I had text messages flying between me and two friends (Jezi and Leo) whenever I could take a break, but most of the day was spent schlepping stuff from the apartment to the house, just so I could live here. <BR> <BR> I have a ton of stuff still at the apartment, so I'm not fully moved OUT, but I'm at least comfortable with the staples at the house. <BR> <BR> No big surprise: I moved all my stuff and was going to take my computer last. The Guy came home and said, "So I see... Sat, 25 Feb 2012 16:16:18 EST It's a Beautiful Day! I'm sitting here right now listening to the title song by U2 on repeat with tears rolling down my face. <BR> <BR> Happy tears. <BR> <BR> The Guy had a day off, so he was awake for a while and is napping right now. I don't think he has actually gotten out of bed aside from a bathroom run, but I don't care. <BR> <BR> As for me? <BR> <BR> I called the plumber. Arranged for him to come over on Wednesday. <BR> <BR> Then I called the gas company. They will also be over on Wednesday to turn the... Mon, 20 Feb 2012 16:30:13 EST SOFA KING EXCITED! I mentioned in my last post that I had to go fixture shopping for the bathrooms and kitchen to replace the leaky faucets. The thought of spending money made me groan. <BR> <BR> The other downside to the plumbing issues is that the water filter system is likely shot, so it would be to either replace it, drink tap water, or buy a Brita pitcher or make sure the fixture I buy for the kitchen sink can handle a Brita filter. <BR> <BR> But with getting a new sink fixture, I wanted one with the spr... Sat, 18 Feb 2012 20:29:24 EST Progress (Follow up to last post) I'm still pissed at The Guy, but it has fueled that fire under my butt to get things done. <BR> <BR> Today: <BR> Earlier this week I was trying to get the water turned on at the house. I called last week and they left a note on the door saying there was an open fixture or leak in the house, so they would have to come out again when I was there. I called on Monday and had them come out on Tuesday...but they said they would call me 30 minutes before the water technician was to arrive so I coul... Fri, 17 Feb 2012 23:44:00 EST Updates (and relationship TMI) So I haven't been posting anywhere as much as I wanted to. I've just had a lot going on and on my mind lately. I figured I was due to post an update. <BR> <BR> Haven't been eating or exercising the way I was. I want to, but right now everything's rather chaotic. My sleep schedule is off, and when it looks like it's getting back to normal, I'll wake up from an anxiety attack or the like and screw it up again. <BR> <BR> I've been out of inspiration for eating well. Sometimes it's a miracle th... Wed, 15 Feb 2012 20:31:05 EST Decompressing Long time, no post, I know I know. I haven't posted on my Wordpress blog, either. Or on one of the LJ communities I'm a member of that's all about fitness. Heck, I haven't been so great about eating right and exercising lately. I've put on some holiday weight, not gonna lie. I'm still at/around 165. If I can maintain this through the end of the year, I'll be okay. <BR> <BR> Mostly, I just need to vent right now. Except "venting" isn't really the word. Decompressing works well. Unbottling, ma... Tue, 13 Dec 2011 18:41:55 EST BEST BLIZZCON EVER! Lots of stories to come, but a few highlights: <BR> <BR> Seeing my bestie, Jezzie! And all the other Portent Alliance people! <BR> <BR> Meeting Fyreuni of Daiy Quests comic (, and getting all her buttons to decorate my lanyard. <BR> <BR> Being able to get Leo's goodie bag, badge, t-shirt, and other items. He was feeling down that he couldn't go, but it really helped cheer him up. <BR> <BR> Yes, I have signed up for the annual pass. TYREAL'S CHARGER?! HELLS T... Tue, 25 Oct 2011 21:04:35 EST *deep breath* I did it. I had The Talk. Two days ago I had a "straw that broke the camel's back" moment regarding The Guy and our relationship. Last night I sat him down, told him about what I knew (not all of it, but it wasn't necessary), and that it's just not working out. I've done my share of "I haven't been the best girlfriend and I'm sorry" bad stuff, but since our last fight I've been trying to do better for him...but haven't seen it reciprocated, and in fact his behavior has gotten worse. We've grown apart. And this fact ha... Thu, 6 Oct 2011 16:25:59 EST Self-sabotage? I'm seeing a pattern here that I don't really like. I get worked up and ready to diet and exercise again, do well for a few days, then feel ill like I ate something that upset my stomach and I get off track. Then I work myself up again, get back on the wagon, and tweak my back. I get through that, get going again, and then catch a cold... <BR> <BR> These are not conscious things that I'm doing to myself, and not a result of my diet or exercise. The "I think I ate something bad" wasn't from f... Wed, 28 Sep 2011 15:36:50 EST JE LiveFit Day 9 Ugh, did NOT want to do my workout today, but knew it would make me feel better. I just feel so BLEAH lately. Part of that is depression, I know. The rest? Maybe it's the weather. It's overcast, humid, and still warm. No longer 100-and-Firelands degrees, but the humidity gets me. <BR> <BR> Anyway, I muscled through it. This post is gonna be short because I need a shower before dinner and the now-nerfed-to-the-ground raid. <BR> <BR> Wide-grip Lat Pulldown: <BR> 3 sets, 12 reps <BR> Used resi... Tue, 20 Sep 2011 18:35:26 EST JE LiveFit Day 8 Slept horribly last night. To make things worse, the people upstairs have a small child who was running the entire length of the apartment from 9 am-2pm. Seriously, FIVE HOURS of "thumpthumpThumpThumpTHUMP SLAM! thumpthumpThumpThumpTHUMP SLAM!" as they went from one side of the apartment to the other doing what sounded like a jump at each end. <BR> <BR> I tried doing some schoolwork (Flash animation for a class project) but couldn't focus. There was no escaping it. I couldn't go into a room ... Mon, 19 Sep 2011 15:29:13 EST JE LiveFit Day 6 and Retail Therapy I don't know what to really say about Day 6 since it's a rest day. I need to work on my food issues, and haven't been drinking enough water recently either. I feel bloated. Some of that is from not eating right, most is from body retaining water to repair muscles and that I'm not drinking enough, and I'm sure no small amount is due to the fact that I should be getting my period this week at some point. <BR> <BR> We went to Target last night to try to find some good dinner stuff to prepare th... Sat, 17 Sep 2011 19:21:44 EST Jamie Eason's LiveFit Day 4 (5?) Since I took a day off on Wednesday, I'm technically a day behind (hence the Day 4 to relate to her calendar) but I'll be jumping to Day 6 tomorrow since my rest days will catch up and I'll be right back on track come Monday. <BR> <BR> I'm still not sleeping well, but last night's sleep was a bit better than the past. It helps that we had a high of 60 degrees today and it was overcast and raining. That made for one of those days when you just want to cuddle down into your blankets and nap al... Fri, 16 Sep 2011 18:50:48 EST Jaime Eason's LiveFit Day 3, and other stuff Yesterday was supposed to be Day 3. I took the day off. I needed it. Anxiety sucks. =P I keep waking up from these dreams which I can only interpret as being the result of the upcoming changes. Like I had a dream in which my father had died some time ago, but my mom was still alive. (IRL, my mom died in 2000 and my dad died in 2008.) In my dream, she was diagnosed with leukemia before we went on a trip (IRL, she had breast cancer 3 times), and while we were on the trip we went to a botanical ... Thu, 15 Sep 2011 18:07:29 EST Jamie Eason's LiveFit Day 2 ARMS. THEY ARE JELLO. <BR> <BR> Backing up. <BR> <BR> Got up late again, thanks to a nice bout of insomnia last night. Ended up tweeting with Jezzie most of the morning until I was finally tired enough to sleep. <BR> <BR> Had a ton of errands to do today, and debated what order to do them in. In the end, I decided to get the errands done before the workout because then I wouldn't have to shower before going out. <BR> <BR> In our talk last night, I mentioned to Jez that I really wanted to ... Tue, 13 Sep 2011 19:17:56 EST Jamie Eason's LiveFit Day 1 Okay, trying this again. <BR> <BR> A couple weeks ago (week 3 into my last attempt at Blizzcon or Bust) I tweaked my back. I wrote about it on my wordpress journal if anyone cares to read about it ( <link><BR>and-just-when-the-motivation-had-struc<BR>k-again/ </link> ). I actually got up without any pain today, which was good because I had decided to start the LiveFit program. I'd been looking at this for a while now, and since my back was feeling better, ... Mon, 12 Sep 2011 17:57:03 EST Blizzcon or Bust! This week I started my countdown to Blizzcon. I'd really like to drop another 10 pounds, or at least another jeans size, before I go. I finally broke that 166 plateau I was facing, but now it's wanting to stall out at 164 again. Stupid body. But I'll admit, I haven't been exercising like I should have been. Stupid me. <BR> <BR> On the plus side, I'm not doing this alone. My friend Leo is getting himself back on track too. He says I've motivated him...and yet, he's motivating me. Today he cal... Wed, 24 Aug 2011 19:35:26 EST Birthday WOOHOOs! It's easy to go "Another birthday...blargh." Today was starting out like one of those days. <BR> <BR> Then, thanks to my friends and my Twitter friends, I had several birthday wishes that cheered me up. <BR> <BR> I spent a lot of time today trying to convince myself that since it's my birthday, I don't have to do a workout. I went back and forth on this one, then finally reminded myself that in the end I'd be mad and disappointed at myself if I didn't do the workout. So I got it done. <BR> ... Mon, 20 Jun 2011 17:15:13 EST Headspace: The Guy This is a very hard topic, but one I needed to post somewhere for myself to accept the inevitability, whatever it may turn out to be. <BR> <BR> I've been in the same relationship for 10 years now. We've been through many good times and many rough times. But lately I have the feeling that it'll be a miracle if it lasts the summer. <BR> <BR> I feel awful, and like it's dissolving for superficial reasons that are my own fault. I not attracted to him anymore. There are things he does ... Mon, 13 Jun 2011 15:02:56 EST Still alive! I'm still around, and joined in on the Spring into Summer Bootcamp Challenge. I'm on week 2 now, and so far I think I'm doing pretty well. <BR> <BR> I don't know why, but following "my own" workouts have always seemed easier to work into my day than doing the videos, and yet the videos are really simple to follow. I think the problem is that I live in a really cramped apartment, so finding enough space is challenge #1, and doing it when The Guy isn't home is challenge #2. But I'm improvising... Thu, 12 May 2011 15:43:41 EST Been around, kinda-sorta The holidays were a bit of a whirlwind, so I haven't been posting/tracking on SparkPeople. I know, bad Aili. But with New Year's Resolutions and all that, I'm back to it. <BR> <BR> I actually managed to keep the weight off over the holidays. I wasn't drinking enough water and wasn't getting in the exercise, but at least I didn't go TOO crazy on the holiday goodies. The Guy's family got me a mini-stepper for Christmas, so I have a new option for exercise. <BR> <BR> However, just after Christ... Tue, 4 Jan 2011 17:35:51 EST It took a Cataclysm You know that plateau I was on? BAM! <BR> <BR> I don't want to speak too soon, but I think a "bad week" took care of the problem. <BR> <BR> Let me back up... <BR> <BR> So we've been doing the diet "game" for about 6 weeks, and Cataclysm launched on the 7th. We decided that we were definitely going to take our "day off" as soon as the servers were available because we wanted to try for realm first classes to 85. We went to Target and prepared by stocking up: <BR> <BR> The stereotypical "ha... Tue, 14 Dec 2010 01:03:42 EST Playing with numbers (Headspace) I talked with Leo last night about this plateau and what to do about it. It was good to chat with a friend who also grew up playing coached sports so we could compare notes. He reminded me that it's been 6 weeks on the Game On diet, and I've really only been riding the bike and doing the 100/200/200 sets, so it's time to shock my body by changing that up a bit. He reminded me about how your muscles figure out loopholes to expend the least amount of energy to get the job done. <BR> <BR> Well,... Sat, 4 Dec 2010 16:12:26 EST Shaping up I mentioned yesterday that Leo said he could tell that my face was thinning out. Today The Guy said he could tell that I'm losing in all the right places and also firming up in all the right places. It feels really good to get that kind of remark from people who see you just to know that the work is paying off. <BR> <BR> I'm still disappointed in the scale's stubbornness to cooperate--I know, I know: muscle is more dense, so I am losing fat but putting on muscle so the scale isn't moving, et... Thu, 2 Dec 2010 14:49:43 EST Catching up I really haven't had much to say lately. Trying to not lay in bed all day in a puddle of my own sweat and used tissues and cough drop wrappers kinda saps your will to blog about anything. Hold on... <BR> <BR> ...sneezed again. <BR> <BR> I really wish the last of this cold would finally go away. It's not stopping me from getting in my exercise or meals (most of the time...I WAS too fatigued on Monday, but that was the only day since Wednesday when I was asleep all day) so I'm proud of that. ... Wed, 1 Dec 2010 13:34:08 EST Happy(?) Thanksgiving! We've started the second round of our diet Game, and already I'm off to a bad start. But at least I have a reasonable excuse: It's been a while since I've been sick, and right now I have a terrible head cold that I picked up while we were in Charlotte. So I'm still doing what I can to stay on plan even though this is setting me back a bit. I'm unable to eat like I should, and while I'm drinking the water I can, it's not enough. I didn't exercise yesterday, but I think I'm going to tough it ou... Thu, 25 Nov 2010 14:40:10 EST More traveling Ugh, got up late today and am having the hardest time moving. <BR> <BR> I need to get in some meals, water, and exercise before we leave later today for Charlotte. We're going to the Ren Faire to see some of our friends in our annual raid. <BR> <BR> Unfortunately, Tollus has to work on Saturday (he usually works at the Faire on Saturday, but they couldn't find a substitute mail carrier for his route because ANOTHER carrier decided to do some welding without a mask of any kind and burned his... Fri, 19 Nov 2010 15:22:04 EST And now time for a REAL entry Dear Body, <BR> <BR> I don't know what obsession you have with the number 178, but it's time to let that go. It's okay. The number will still be there, but other numbers need love too. How about 175? 160? Maybe even 130? You don't have to get there today or tomorrow, but try to open up to the potential joy that other numbers may bring you, okay? <BR> <BR> And I appreciate the reminder that it's not ALL about the number on the scale, as evidenced by my jeans becoming more and more comfortabl... Thu, 18 Nov 2010 13:02:14 EST Gentle reminder (Okay, it's really a pet peeve) -Grammar Nazi mode ON- <BR> <BR> Lose/Loose <BR> <BR> You LOSE weight. Your clothes feel LOOSE. <BR> <BR> You know you're a successful LOSER when your clothes feel LOOSER. <BR> <BR> When you've been LOSING inches from your waist, (well, I guess the best phrase is that) it *feels* like you've been LOOSENING your belt, and then you check and it's still on the same notch. <BR> <BR> -Grammar Nazi mode OFF- Thu, 18 Nov 2010 12:44:31 EST Just a quickie: Why did I pass up this shirt? <link><BR>=8168 </link> <BR> <BR> Reckoned... QQ Wed, 17 Nov 2010 00:38:04 EST Note to self... Cottage cheese isn't so bad. <BR> <BR> That is all. <BR> <BR> ^_^ Mon, 15 Nov 2010 20:04:14 EST There's a trick that always works I want to thank the two wonderful ladies who commented on my blog yesterday. When I'm the one who's always the "cheerleader" for our fitness group, it's nice to get that support when I need it too. <BR> <BR> We have a "trick" in our WoW guild that always works when you're having problems with something not happening at the rate you want it to happen. This may be a loot item not dropping, a mob not spawning, you're having troubles with a quest, etc.: Complain openly. Complain about it in vent... Sat, 13 Nov 2010 15:45:42 EST A plateau already? I weighed in on Monday, managed to go slightly over my weightloss goal, and was happy. <BR> <BR> Tuesday I weighed in, and was still at 178.4. Same as Monday. <BR> <BR> Wednesday weigh-in, went up .6 pounds. Okay. <BR> <BR> Thursday...the same. <BR> <BR> Hmph! Not cool. I'm doing everything I should: I'm not over-exercising. (Although I seem to be burning more calories than the SparkPeople fitness tracker says I should? It's so hard to tell when all the numbers are different and the bike ... Fri, 12 Nov 2010 05:12:10 EST Still going! The Guy said to me the other day, "I really like this diet. I don't know how anyone can have a hard time with it!" <BR> <BR> To think, I practically had to drag him kicking and screaming into the idea of dieting again. Stubborn Tauren. =P <BR> <BR> But we are having an easy time of it. The hardest part is that our sleep schedules are messed up so fitting in our meals and water can drive us to really late hours, and of course we don't want to eat just before bed. <BR> <BR> Some of my teamma... Sun, 7 Nov 2010 18:28:53 EST Goodbye, 180's. Again. I MEAN IT THIS TIME! I put on some weight during our Blizzcon trip, and have slowly been peeling it off again. But I'm back below 180, and am planning to continue dropping. By the time Thanksgiving rolls around, I want to be low enough so when we go to The Guy's family's house for the holiday, even the expected gorging for Thanksgiving dinner won't bring me back up and cross that line. We have already talked about what we're going to do for the holiday, and have agreed that while we're going to enjoy Thanksgiving... Wed, 3 Nov 2010 14:16:16 EST These jeans... You know how you put on a pair of jeans that have just been washed and dried, and they initially feel tight but soon stretch to fit you? <BR> <BR> The day we left for Blizzcon, I decided that my size 14 jeans were just too big to wear comfortably. I brought them along for the end of the trip (because I knew we'd be eating and getting the travel bloats), but never wore them. So I wore my size 12's the entire time, and by the end of the trip they had stretched to fit my "end of a trip" body. T... Tue, 2 Nov 2010 17:10:45 EST Walkies Just got back from a walk with The Guy. I feel like I could have gone longer, but he didn't. He has a bum knee from an injury when he was younger, so even if his muscles are good to go, his knee keeps him from doing what he wants. It's kind of frustrating because I was still ready to go another mile. Oh was still 25 minutes of something a little more interesting than the bike, and it's a gorgeous evening for it. <BR> <BR> We were tempted the last time we went to the grocery store, ... Sun, 31 Oct 2010 17:51:35 EST Day 5 Today is Day 5 of our guild's Game On! Diet plan. Been doing well so far. Yesterday was my "Day Off" (the plan allows for a day off of hitting your requirements, although you can split that day off into its components, as well as allowing another "meal off") and while I intended to just take a "food" day off, I also ended up not doing my exercise too. <BR> <BR> Two days ago, The Guy got on the bike, did his ride, everything was hunky-dory. Then I got on the bike about an hour later, Sat, 30 Oct 2010 15:46:32 EST O HAI! The past couple of days have been very busy. Lots of shopping, I had a doctor's appointment, and other things to do since coming home. <BR> <BR> We started the Game On challenge with my guildies on Tuesday. So far I've posted 2 "Perfect Days" (getting all your points while not losing any), so I'm really proud of that. Some of the others are struggling more, and I'm not sure why. Then again, I think some people were taking a "We'll do it when it starts" approach, while we were beginning to ea... Thu, 28 Oct 2010 14:42:49 EST Back! And Day 1... We got back from Anaheim yesterday morning, and I STILL feel thrashed. But it was awesome. As a guildie said, "I've been to two epic BlizzCons. This year's was LEGENDARY." We met Mike Morhaime, Ghostcrawler, Oxhorn, Clint Hackleman, Daewin (of Polygamerous), and got to see Brigwyn (of Brigwyn's Corner) again. Cadistra had to go to the WoW Insider Meetup, and she got to meet several others. Felicia Day and the rest of "The Guild" cast was there, for example. She even gave her card to Ghostcraw... Tue, 26 Oct 2010 17:09:44 EST This time tomorrow... This time tomorrow, we'll be driving to the airport! I'm so excited! This will be the third consecutive BlizzCon I've gone to, and I wouldn't miss it for the world! We should have 10 guildies there, plus 4 more who live locally (but couldn't get tickets) who will at least be going to dinner with us. <BR> <BR> In the meantime, I still have some things to take care of. I have one more load of laundry to do, I need to run the dishwasher so my water bottle is clean so I can bring it, I need to d... Tue, 19 Oct 2010 11:53:29 EST The Countdown is On! We leave Wednesday, so there's still a lot to do. <BR> <BR> Mostly, I'm trying to make sure that the Game is set up and ready for when we get back. I want to have confirmation/commitment by people, make sure they understand the rules, make sure they know what to shop for, and have their teams set before we leave so they can start pumping each other up. <BR> <BR> But it's like herding cats. <BR> <BR> I've posted to the guild "Got Game" blog, posted to Twitter, posted to our guild forum, men... Mon, 18 Oct 2010 13:52:53 EST