AGK3112's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=AGK3112 AGK3112's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Returning back to my healthy world. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5475965 yes I know its been 4 month or so but just could not get much time. I had time in my hand but did not know how to use it. <BR> <BR> I was running around with my new marriage life, no job and also all junky habits. But I made it this far (I mean to say without any thing serious). Now finally I am in my new job (almost 2 & 1/2 month ) but I am stressed out (due to lots of work). I am working over time every single day (first it was looking good - big pay checks - but not anymore)...no day off.... Wed, 4 Sep 2013 17:37:30 EST Welcome Back to myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5360464 I took myself a big time off...not with exercises though...I still try to manage get my exercises done time to time. Now I have more time since I am out of my job. Me and my husband were working at the same place but now my manager wants only one person to work there (just because it's not too busy). I let my husband take that chance because I have never ending work @ home <em>334</em> . <BR> <BR> So far everything is going great with me and hubby. I feel more happy then ever since we p... Sat, 18 May 2013 19:04:13 EST Story Continue..Happily Ever After http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5314747 Two love birds are finally met..."Me & My dear Husband" <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/2/l428611024.jpg"> <BR> <BR> He arrived yesterday at 11:00 pm. I was waiting for him @ airport gate eagerly. My sister was on the phone and she kept saying to me "Your eyes are not moving from gate. He will come just wait few min". Everyone was coming from the gate and my eyes were looking for him. I kept asking to so many people (air hostages) that if anyone left on the plane.... Sun, 7 Apr 2013 14:50:32 EST April 2nd..Today's activities http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5308639 I am looking forward to get things done which I am been post-ponding. <BR> <BR> 1. Clean my patio <BR> <BR> 2. Clean back room & make lots & lots of space for new baggages <BR> <BR> 3. exercise - at least get one mile run <BR> <BR> 4. 10 minute training workout & Insanity if get chance. Tue, 2 Apr 2013 09:46:27 EST Hersey Sunday Pie..in the morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5307343 Does it sound like crazy? Yes it do but I ended up eating this this morning. I woke up and had my tea. I have bad habit (a good way) that I want break fast when I wake up and today there was nothing good for me to eat as a break fast.....It is too bad.... <BR> <BR> I hit power button on my pc & TV, dial phone to my husband (talked for 1 & 1/2 hrs) and did drink my tea. It's 10:18 in the morning and I am still in front of TV and as you know on my PC. I felt like I am dying with my empty stoma... Mon, 1 Apr 2013 10:34:30 EST What should I give him for our first anniversary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5306814 I am so happy because my hubby is coming home (finally) next week. This is one of the best gift I will be receiving on my 1st anniversary (week early) . Yes he is coming exactly a week early and I am very excited about it. I want to give him welcome surprise with some home decor & very special gift but I get very confuse here. I know what he wants but unfortunately I can not afford it at this time so I am going to have to go in budget. <BR> <BR> Now I am thinking that what should I give him ... Sun, 31 Mar 2013 23:00:41 EST Just want to come back to my normal life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5280573 It's been 2 week and I stayed sick. I had fever for week and then cold and cough and much more. <BR> <BR> I was giving myself a little time on sparkpeople but not for myself. I just spent most of the time online and in front of tv. I just did exercise one day and then nose started to run. <BR> <BR> I am just tired now by staying sick and just want to live my normal life..I wish to get back in day or two..Love to be back Sat, 9 Mar 2013 21:47:38 EST not in a mood http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5267000 It's while since I am doing anything. I got sick on sunday and then missed sparking, exercise, nutrition watch and much more ...for 3 days. Now I am back. I am still weak but ready to get back in track. I am not feeling same as I used to. I am more tired and out of motivation. <BR> <BR> Whenever I turn around I just see work & work. Something to do in each and every corner of my house. Everything and every place need some cleaning (they are clean but not the way I want it) <BR> <BR> My bro... Thu, 28 Feb 2013 09:37:52 EST Sunday's activities http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5262545 Today's activity page was empty. And yes I did take it easy. Each and every workout program says that we have to give our body a rest. So I did take a day off today. Actually the real reason was that I had to go to work early and I woke up late so I did take a day off. <BR> <BR> But I still did 10 minute and I did track it to my fitness tracker. <BR> <BR> Well its new week so hope everyone enjoy your week.. Sun, 24 Feb 2013 20:31:05 EST Another day with hard workout.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5261542 Today was the second day of my insanity workout. I feel a lot good after workout. But..I am still not able to do all the workout properly. I am modifying all the workouts and also taking lots & lots of breaks to catch up my breath. <BR> <BR> It is just a beginning so I am looking forward to all other workouts. I will do it much more better after doing more workouts. It is hard at the beginning that can shows but it will also give me a wonderful result later on. <BR> <BR> The most important... Sat, 23 Feb 2013 22:27:04 EST oh boy... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5259942 Today I did my 1st day Insanity workout (beside fitness test) & 2nd day of Insanity. It was hard and tough very tough. I was taking break every 30 second and more water breaks. I love the way I feel now. I was having sore muscles which are gone <em>104</em> I was having back pain which is also gone <em>224</em> and most important I am feeling very light (my upper body ) <em>30</em> See I am smiling . I know it is still early to feel really great result. But having small results are ... Fri, 22 Feb 2013 11:55:42 EST Not a good day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5259295 Today looked like everything is against me. I woke up tired and sore. I wanted to sleep some more but then I got call from my husband and we ended up talking for hour. It was more about my Mother in Law because she is little sick and also talked about immigration. I don't know what is with Indian embassy but they are not making any progress on anyone's case. I thought things are going to be finish by last year but it did not and our status is still pending. Now we have just one & half month l... Thu, 21 Feb 2013 21:39:45 EST Behind those preety dress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5257471 Finally I got a chance to put the pictures online. They were taken 2 weeks ago but I am sure that there is not much changes so I am going to start this journey from today. It is tough call this time for me to get up and go but I know once I am done with it I am going to feel better. <BR> <BR> Here is my starting point <BR> <BR> Weight : 155 <BR> Weist : 40 <BR> <BR> and Pictures <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l148292701.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-a... Wed, 20 Feb 2013 12:12:14 EST He is in peace now http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5254827 I just found out my uncle is in peace now <em>46</em> . We lost a favorite person in our family. He has lost his life when we called the first time (last night) but we were not able to know . It is very hard to accept this for me and my family. We just hope that GOD give his family a strength for rest of their life. <BR> <BR> He got sick with Tuberculosis a month ago and then got better but that illness came back and virus took place to all over his body. He had lost his both kidney in t... Mon, 18 Feb 2013 12:09:32 EST Prayers to love ones who is about lose very special man in their life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5254225 I was about to go to sleep and we got phone call. I just found out that one of my uncle (who is very close to me and my family) in India is in very critical condition. This news just made me fall a part and made me cry. He is very young and very jolly person. He is in his 40s and a house hold person of the house. A son & brother of four sister who is in his last stage. <BR> <BR> When I heard first that he is in the hospital then I just thought that it could be an accident or minor illness. ... Sun, 17 Feb 2013 23:24:12 EST Valentines day is over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5251432 I hope everyone had wonderful valentines day. My day was ok and was as usual. I sure did get surprise from my husband. He did send me teddy and some candy. I was very surprised by seeing parcel on my mail box. I know valentines day is over but I don't want this day to go away. I had surprise for him but gift gallery people messed up my order and sent cake instead of candies. But he was happy with it. That was his way of saying to me. <BR> <BR> Today they are going to get one more cake since... Fri, 15 Feb 2013 10:19:58 EST A year ago http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5247475 Today is very special day for me because me and my husband met today last year (face to face) and we got engaged. Today I miss him so much (talking on the phone didn't change much) that I feel very sad. We were together year ago and today we are living in different country. <BR> <BR> More on that I am feeling lousy & raining weather is making it worse. <BR> <BR> Another was I was 15 lb heavier last year and now I am lighter. I am still heavy but very happy that I have lost weight. I am h... Tue, 12 Feb 2013 09:14:35 EST I missed sparking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5246421 I come on Spark People to see my progress time to time and also read blogs and article around. I am not perfect so I do miss adding nutrition and water intake. But I never missed fitness tracker. <BR> <BR> But My net was down since 3 days. I missed sparking and reading member's blog so much that can't express. As soon as I got that problem fixed I came online and start Sparking <em>104</em> Mon, 11 Feb 2013 12:49:34 EST In my head "I want to......" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5237900 I want to..... <BR> <BR> 1. learn dancing <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/3/l939855672.jpg"> <BR> 2. want to wear prom night dress <BR> <BR> This one <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l159780700.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This one <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1994067718.jpg"> <BR> <BR> or This one <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1837469454.jpg"> <BR> 3. try sky diving <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.... Mon, 4 Feb 2013 22:05:40 EST What does work better - a word or a sign http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5236314 Today I was posting on message board and I answered one question (which I do it everyday). And the question is "Are you feeling positive or negative?" . My answer is "Positive " / "+" always. But today this question just made me wonder what does work better?? <BR> <BR> <BR> word "POSITIVE" OR sign "+" <BR> word "NEGATIVE" or sing " - " <BR> <BR> If it is stupid then let it be that way because we never know what does our mind think time to time. <BR> Sun, 3 Feb 2013 22:09:29 EST I am going to rewarding myself little early http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5231785 I just found out that my shoe is falling a part <em>30</em> so I will reward myself a running pair of shoe before I reach to my next goal. Should I change my reward to something else or just leave it the way it is? Thu, 31 Jan 2013 13:37:14 EST 01/29/2013..very easy day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5229409 I had day off so I thought let me go ahead and clean out my room (all paperwork) and re arrange things around. But it always not happens what we wants. I called hubby and then found out my sister in law is coming online to meet me. I log in and - first my brother in law, then sister in law. I talked to them and then my husband & my mother in law came online. one after another . It took my 4 hrs of morning time. It was fun with talking to them. But still time did matter but what could I do. ... Tue, 29 Jan 2013 21:48:28 EST I need some exercise change.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5227943 I am planning to have these 2 new workouts... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/5/l355307347.jpg"> <BR> <BR> 4 days : Monday, Wednesday, Friday, Saturday <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1669074710.jpg"> <BR> <BR> 2 days: Tuesday & Thursday <BR> <BR> I will post my beginning pictures in day or two and also my measurements. Mon, 28 Jan 2013 22:40:00 EST Fasting and exercise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5219028 I had fast today so had not much food except fruits. I sure will get some food at night. No more food before midnight. I wanted to do some exercise but I could not. I did workout for 15 min and then felt bad (due to fasting) so I decided to stop it. Now I will do some more exercise after I eat something. <BR> <BR> I got wireless keyboard & mic today. I got really good deal on it. I know its kind of old in technology but when we get something new then we get more excited. I also received 2 DV... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 18:33:25 EST Another day when I had to push myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5217767 I stayed up for quite late last night. I would say just could not sleep because did some exercise before going to bed. So I had restless morning. I was feeling very tired when I woke up. I had to make myself get up because had to drop my mom at work. I came home and had break fast and then did some sparking. Then finally I decided to do some exercise by thinking that might get some energy. I did exercise but no energy after doing exercise. <BR> <BR> So just spent a day or should say day wen... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 22:18:06 EST I still walked http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5216346 Today I took day off just to spend with family. We had community event so decided to take mom & dad there because they don't go out much. Community event was ok but I was happy that had chance to spend time with mom and dad. I did not do anything thru out the day except cleaning and checking out all the mail. I realized when I came home from event that I had not done my exercise. I am starting this week by having one day missing exercise and I did not wanted that. Finally I did 45 minute walk... Sun, 20 Jan 2013 23:56:43 EST I am too attached to my family and now I can't make move http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5212280 I am too attached to my family and now I can't make move toward my future. I know days come and go all the time. I am also doing everything to keep my family out of problem. I have make sure that whatever comes to my family members I take care of it. I am at front whatever problem come in and I am at last when something good comes up. I am not worry about that but now I am falling behind in my life. <BR> <BR> My brother has moved and so does my sister. I have left behind with mom and dad. My... Thu, 17 Jan 2013 22:55:36 EST I was little over on my food tracker http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5204330 I was over to my food traker which is not good. But I am not going to take that seriously. I just need to make sure that I watch my food from tomorrow so it won't go over. <BR> <BR> So far busy day. I am tired but don't want to go to sleep. I guess it is because it's weekend. I sure have to work tomorrow afternoon though and I have also promissed my mom that I will cook tomorrow. I am making veggie enchilladas tomorrow for the first time. will see how it taste. Sat, 12 Jan 2013 23:00:27 EST I am learning to plan ahead of time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5200195 This probably sound like stupid and I never thought about it till last week. I have left alone with my mom & dad. My brother moved out (2 yrs ago) and now my sister also moved out (a week ago). Now I have to take care of my mom & dad. They are doing very fine but health wise my mom does not. She is been having some problem. All her reports are coming normal but she is not ok. I could tell by just looking at her. <BR> <BR> She was sick for almost 6 month (from May to Nov/Dec 2012). Whenever ... Thu, 10 Jan 2013 09:50:42 EST "The Spark" - I finished it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5188947 Today I finished the whole book. It took me long time to finish it but finally I finished reading it. I will be starting new book soon and hope fully I can continue reading at work on my iPod. I am so happy that I downloaded kindle on my iPod. I can continue spending time and won't get bored. <BR> <BR> Today we had rain all day. I had really bad day. I went to sleep early last night but I still felt tired this morning. And weather made it worse. I felt restless & out of energy all day. I als... Thu, 3 Jan 2013 21:06:50 EST I am cutting down online time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5187027 I have notice that I am spending too much time online. I have already stop going on facebook but I still need more time to cut down. It is just too hard to make time when you are taking care of your family & their problems. I need one more thing to let it go. Let's see how I do it Wed, 2 Jan 2013 21:21:17 EST 1st day of new year http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5184972 I have always heard in india that "whatever you do on the new year day, that's what you do in whole year - means if you wake up early then you wake up early whole year" . This is funny because whatever I do on the new year day that I hardly do thru out the year. I stick to do as much as I can (most of the time) <em>30</em> . Let's see what will I do entire year. <BR> <BR> Today I woke up late because stayed till late last night watching NY New Year live. I had fun watching NY live. I am... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 22:22:08 EST Just few hrs to go. I am looking forward to 2013 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5182946 I usually does not stay up late but I am going stay up tonight to watch "Time Square live". I am looking forward to 2013 where I can finish what I want to achieve. <BR> <BR> I am still working on my 2013 resolution <em>24</em> . I am working on it and I might be done by tomorrow. <BR> But here is short list of mine. I will be still adding some thru out the year and crossing some when I start achieving others. <BR> <BR> <em>52</em> loose last 30 lb . <BR> <em>52</em> Take more ti... Mon, 31 Dec 2012 23:02:30 EST Day 3 Left http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5179239 I am not going to say much today. I am just tired. I wish I won't feel this tomorrow because I will be working 9 hrs tomorrow. Hope I get all the rest tonight Fri, 28 Dec 2012 21:08:13 EST Day 4 left.. & The Spark http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5178172 Today I finished all the chapters in "The Spark" book. I also had chance to spread it one more time at work. I am happy that I am getting close to the end of the book. I have downloaded Kindle in my iPod so I am reading thru the tiny pages. But whenever I read at work (when I am free and no customer around) I feel so great. I feel like I am reading so many pages.. <em>246</em> . I have also started reading a book while I am doing my cardio on treadmill <em>224</em> so I won't feel guilty... Thu, 27 Dec 2012 21:44:14 EST Day 5 left.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5177126 Today was very decent day. It was sunny and also very cold. We got rain last night for whole night. Rain was so heavy that I had trouble sleeping also. But I still managed and did not know when I went to sleep. It is really cold outside. We have temperature around 35 degree but it feels like 10 or so. <BR> <BR> I met an old friend today. I have met his since I have joined this job but today was something different. I actually did talk to him and also talked about weight loss. He has several... Wed, 26 Dec 2012 22:00:45 EST Day 6 left..again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5176020 I almost forgot that there are 31 days in Dec. Now we have 6 days left till 2013. Today is Christmas & Merry Christmas to everyone. There is just nothing going today. I went to work for a while and I felt like town was almost empty. I was seeing cars on a road but it felt it like this is not the same street where I always go. Anyways it was just another day for me. I just feel like everything is going out of the way. I just don't feel my life same anymore. <BR> <BR> I want to go out and spen... Tue, 25 Dec 2012 18:30:53 EST Day 6 left http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5175464 I am very excited about next year. Yes I am still living happy and healthy 2012. I got my next year planner today. I am so happy. When I saw the delivery date (29th) I was worried that when I will be able to plan it. Now I have it and I am very excited about it. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow is Christmas and my day off at one place but will be working at the other place. But I still will be able to get all my exercise done so that is + for me. <BR> <BR> I have no presents to open up so I will be sle... Mon, 24 Dec 2012 21:41:05 EST Last 7 Days of 2012 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5174812 I still can't figure it out that how I spent whole year. It was tough and excited. But finally I had made some achievements. I am not worry much about what I have not done. <BR> <BR> I have last 7 days so I can continue 2013 with those exercise and also can add some later on. <BR> <BR> This week's Challenge <BR> <BR> 1. at least 10 min run everyday <BR> 2. do some push ups <BR> 3. 20 min insanity workout <BR> 4. add at least 2 fruits & veggies <BR> 5. no more staying hungry at work. <BR... Sun, 23 Dec 2012 23:34:38 EST I do look "Big / Fat" from the side http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5172375 Yesterday I took myself a picture to see how I am doing and what is my progress. I have lost 17 lb but still I have to go more (another 50 lb). I do look big / fat from the side. I was making progress but I still decided to take picture. I knew that I am going to make a difference because I have read and by other's successful journey that "Take a Picture and see your Progress" . <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1927941897.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photo... Thu, 20 Dec 2012 20:55:00 EST 10 min walk did change my day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5171447 I was not feeling good since morning so I decided to take day off from exercise. I just read book nothing else. When it was time for me to go to work then I decided to take walk to the post box. It usually takes 5 min for me to get there and 5 min back. I felt so good. I wish I would had done that sooner..just a walk around neighborhood. I just finished another 10 min and I am feeling more better now. I sure will have good night sleep. <BR> <BR> Good Night everyone Wed, 19 Dec 2012 21:20:40 EST What a day?? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5170141 I thought I am going to do some exercise today. I will give myself some time today. I will also wake up early but things always don't happened that we are looking for. This is what happened to me. <BR> <BR> I had rest less night on sunday and due to that I slept till afternoon yesterday. Due to that I had rest less night again. I just could not sleep till 2 yesterday. I was just turning myself from right to left but no luck in sleeping. Finally I got up around 1 in the morning and decided to... Tue, 18 Dec 2012 12:41:13 EST "I am trying to loss weight" . Seriously are you? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5169358 It is more fun to go for shopping when you know what is in your mind. Yes of course it is about weight loss. I have noticed that when I go for shopping I always make sure that I pick out the best food I can either it is fruits & veggies or something to snack on. Beside fruits and veggies I always make sure that I check nutrition box before I choose the food. <BR> <BR> Oh yes I make sure that I check what I eat. This was happened to me today when I went for shopping. I have a day off so I dec... Mon, 17 Dec 2012 17:39:54 EST day 1 out of 15 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5168522 Today was wonderful day for me. I had to work at the place which is my favorite. My boss has two store and she has kept me in one store which I don't like. She called me before my shift and said that I can go to other store because it is very slow and I can go and work at the other store. I was so happy. <BR> <BR> I know that I have made myself some commitment yesterday. I am looking forward to this week where I can do something for myself. I am also going to buy new book which will give me... Sun, 16 Dec 2012 21:46:51 EST Next 15 days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5167702 Today I am really tired. I just had busy day because today we had a small event at home. Mom wanted to do some prayers at home and wanted to call some family members at home. I was not going to be in it because I had to work so I was not much worry about this event. But I had to help her to cook some food. <BR> <BR> So far had really busy day. I wanted to make some plans but I could not do it either. So for tonight I will leave it..I am just <em>198</em> . <BR> <BR> Tomorrow I will be s... Sat, 15 Dec 2012 23:10:34 EST Just happy.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5166383 I am just happy. yes so many reasons are included but don't know where to start. I can just tell I am listening my favorite song and it is just making me happy. I should listen to this song when I feel stressed out..I am sure it will make me feel much better. It is really surprising that how 4 min song work with you heart & mind and make you happy <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> I am hoping to be this way all day. I am looking forward to this day because I need to get back to my routine and start ... Fri, 14 Dec 2012 10:56:28 EST Busy day... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5164808 I had a busy day but I was not able to achieve anything for me. I just did everyone else's work. Now I am so tired that I don't want to anything. I just want to go to sleep. I am just tired of adjusting myself with everyone. I should learn how to stick to myself. No one want to adjust them for me then I don't need to adjust myself for them Wed, 12 Dec 2012 21:19:00 EST Day is over & so does Audit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5163736 Today was another day of Audit. It is done. I am more relaxed now. But I was stressed out in the afternoon. The officers were not looking papers properly and keep adding list that we don't have this papers and that papers. And I was ended up with showing each and every papers to them (around more then 200 papers). I was happy that they were keep marking things from the list.. we got this and that..one by one. But I was stressed out at that time. <BR> Tue, 11 Dec 2012 21:59:37 EST One day is gone.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5162522 Today was really bad day..We had Audit in store (where I worked) from govt and it is still going on. It is like so much headache. They have all the papers but still they keep asking all the questions. I guess it is their way to figure it out if we are doing something wrong..Those guys came in 2 hrs late and did not finish everything in one day. They are coming back in the morning and they said they will finish everything and just wait for me to come there and then again questions. I wish they... Mon, 10 Dec 2012 20:01:26 EST How to SHUT UP?? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5160196 I know it is kind of stupid question but I really need to know how to shut up / shut my mouth saying something. I have really bad problem that I can not see anything wrong and can't keep my mouth shut for saying anything about it. <BR> <BR> Now a days my problem is getting more and more problem. I speak up because there is something wrong going on around and in return I have to hear stuff from people. Now is the situation that I can't even keep my mind focus and I feel stress all the time wi... 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