ADARKARA's SparkPeople Blog ADARKARA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community My Crazy December I'm just going to list all the fun things I'm doing in December that will make my life crazy, along with my work schedule, haha. <BR> <BR> 1 - Work <BR> 2 - Work & Candlelight Shopping with Walking Group <BR> 3 - Work <BR> 4 - Grocery Shopping then 1/2 shift Work <BR> 5 - Haircut, 1/2 shift Work, trip to Peddler's Village to see Gingerbread Contest Display <BR> 6 - Work & Roadrunner Sports Christmas Party <BR> 7 - Work <BR> 8 - OFF but going into Philly to Christmas Market and to Amada to e... Sat, 3 Dec 2016 07:03:47 EST Post-Thanksgiving Update and Stress Eating My dietary changes have gone really, really well. Until yesterday. <BR> <BR> On Thanksgiving morning I ran my very first officially timed 5k, a Turkey Trot! I was nervous that I wasn't going to do well, but I'd told myself if I made a sub 40-minute time I'd be happy. I surprised myself and ran the whole way and finished in 32:29.3! I was so proud of myself! That was almost 10 minutes behind the winner but I wasn't worried about competing with more seasoned runners, just with myself, so I wa... Sun, 27 Nov 2016 08:23:00 EST A Wild Plan - Update I'm now a week into this plan and I have to say it's going really well. I tracked EVERYTHING I ate, used my heart rate monitor for all my workouts, and last week I had a calorie deficit of 2629. I'm very happy with that, considering one night I went a little overboard and had a few extra snacks. I did 6 workouts over 5 days. The best part? Re-incorporating peanut butter into an almost daily part of my diet has eliminated the desire to binge on it. Last Sunday I bought two jars of Crazy Richar... Sun, 20 Nov 2016 18:50:13 EST A Wild Plan Appears! I'm really toeing the line of being under 100 lbs lost. At my lowest weight I was 160, and this morning I'm 173. This is unacceptable, especially going into the holiday season. I've been stressed, and this has lead to emotional eating, especially at night right before bed, when I'm tired and my resolve is low. So I've come up with a new eating plan that hopefully will help me not eat 500 calories of peanut butter right before bed. I thought back to how I ate when I hit goal, and I realized th... Mon, 14 Nov 2016 09:10:43 EST Kettlebell Snatch Practice Plus Some Outfits I'm practicing 20 lb kettlebell snatches. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <img src=""> <BR> I got this at Kohl's for $6.80! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> The outfit I work to the Girl's Night Out at Roadrunner Sports! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.... Thu, 27 Oct 2016 16:37:10 EST Update First of all, I want to thank each and everyone one of you for commenting on my blog yesterday. I intend to personally respond to you all as I can. <BR> <BR> I think writing it out helped some. It felt like I was confessing a great secret: I am not perfect, and maintenance is not sunshine and rainbows all the time (or most of the time). It's work. <BR> <BR> After I wrote that blog I went to an Out of the Darkness walk with my walking group. For those of you that don't know, it's a charity... Mon, 17 Oct 2016 09:24:31 EST Seriously Struggling I'm overwhelmed right now. My boss caused both showroom employees to quit last week, and we've been scrambling to find new people for the holiday season. I had a really long talk with him about self-sabotage, and how it's hard to watch, and I realized I've been doing the same thing with food lately. <BR> <BR> I'm a stress eater. My life is not bad right now. Far from it. But it needs work. (Doesn't it always?) I'm dealing with a husband with self-esteem so low that when I provide constructi... Sun, 16 Oct 2016 08:50:57 EST Why I Will Never Do Whole30 I love beans and peanuts. Beans and peanuts (all legumes, actually) are nutritious. Many beans are an excellent source of vegan protein. <BR> <BR> The Whole30 plan states that: <BR> <BR> "Legumes are often recommended as a healthy dietary choice, based on their fiber, vitamins and minerals, and “high” protein content. But legumes aren’t really a dense protein source (most contain two to three times as much carbohydrate as protein), and they’re nowhere near as dense (or complete) as the pr... Sat, 8 Oct 2016 10:47:57 EST Dr. Oz The Good Life Magazine Article About ME! Remember when I shared some big news about a magazine article a while back? If not you can read it here: <BR> <BR> <link><BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=6188782 </link> <BR> <BR> Well the October Issue of Dr. Oz The Good Life is out on newsstands and you might see a familiar face on page 37! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> PS - As a precaution I'm going to say this: if ... Fri, 2 Sep 2016 19:47:26 EST Questioning My Success (2 Year "Maintenance" Anniversary) Maintenance is so much more frustrating than losing weight. <BR> <BR> Science says that the longer you keep off weight loss, the more likely you are to keep it off in the future. In the two years since I hit my goal weight, I *have* managed to keep off 100 of the 115 lbs I've lost. This is what I wrote about maintenance last year on my 1-year anniversary: <BR> <BR> "Adding weight training makes you gain weight. In the past year I have fluctuated between 167 and 174 lbs, which, you will not... Sun, 28 Aug 2016 08:42:47 EST Miscellany! I've been sort of in introvert mode lately, so I wanted to drop in and say hi and catch you all up on what I've been up to. <BR> <BR> Reading: I've been voraciously consuming as much Hugh Howey as I can. If you like dystopian future stories he's your man. Character driven drama with a big fat dose of hope. <em>250</em> <BR> Working Out: (Duh.) I had the Adventure Run last week and a crabby lady nearly ruined it for me as she shot me dirty looks the whole night BUT I did this fun obstacl... Tue, 16 Aug 2016 11:15:54 EST Relaxation is Sometimes Necessary! In which I recommend occasional relaxation for mental and physical health! Mon, 8 Aug 2016 18:30:55 EST "Tough Love" Retaliation? On June 6, 2016 I wrote a blog called "Tough Love". You can read it here: <BR> <BR> <link><BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=6177769 </link> <BR> <BR> At the time, I received nothing but positive feedback on this blog. This past weekend, enough people had clicked "I Liked This" to make this blog a featured blog. Once the blog became featured, I began to get a few comments where I was called "judgmental". One person even wrote their own blog berating my ... Fri, 22 Jul 2016 16:39:53 EST Photoshoot Recap I posted about this on AML the other day and totally forgot to share it here! <BR> <BR> <link><BR>-happened/ </link> Fri, 1 Jul 2016 15:14:22 EST Big News Guys? <BR> <BR> I'm freaking out a little. <BR> <BR> I posted on my status recently that something big was happening in my life. <BR> <BR> The big news is I've been selected to be in a magazine and tell my weight loss story! <BR> <BR> I'm not comfortable sharing which one or when yet, but I promise I'll let you know that when it comes out. But I got the call sheet for my photoshoot this morning (it's on Tuesday) and it feels really official so I figured I'd mentioned it here. <BR> <B... Fri, 24 Jun 2016 11:07:35 EST Oh Hai! I was super thrilled with all the positive responses from my last blog. It was a bit harsh, but I didn't receive ANY negative feedback, so I must not have offended anyone, yay! <BR> <BR> I'm just checking in here to say hello. I've been super busy, but things are slowing down a bit around here. This past weekend I visited Richmond for my grandma's 80th birthday party. (Her birthday was in May but this was the actual party.) We had a fabulous time! It's so wonderful to be so fully accepted a... Wed, 15 Jun 2016 11:09:57 EST Tough Love I haven't been terribly active on here but I do read all your blogs. Being an outsider in all of your weight loss journeys, I see the patterns. I generally try to be supportive and keep my mouth shut when I don't have anything supportive to say. But I'm getting a bit fed up here. I have a LOT of SparkFriends. I read ALL of your blogs, even if I don't comment. I try to like all of your statuses (unless they're bad news). And I've noticed some stuff. Here's some tough love for you: <BR> <BR> ... Mon, 6 Jun 2016 17:21:00 EST Hectic but Good It's been a few weeks since I've blogged. Things have been hectic and crazy! Work still continues to exhaust me. On top of hiring and training new people, my boss's 22-year-old-son cried out for help and attempted suicide. My boss spent more than a week driving the 3-4 hours up to NYC to see him. He'll be okay, he's going to be attending a day camp psychiatric program and has been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder and will be under psychiatric care from now on. But it's made my j... Thu, 26 May 2016 06:21:06 EST Kettlebell Full Swings/American Swings This may be sideways because SparkPeople is stupid about videos but it's short. <BR> <BR> This is a full kettlebell swing, also known as an American Swing. Don't try this until you've mastered the Russian Swing first, as this is a more complicated exercise. I'm doing this with 40 lbs, and I could use heavier, but I don't own heavier. <BR> <BR> Just for fun! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Mon, 9 May 2016 11:17:30 EST Why Motivation Isn't Important Plus Kettlebell Vid <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Source: <link>https://adventurefoxblog.wordpress.c<BR>om/2015/02/04/motivation-is-an-obstacl<BR>e-not-an-advantage/ </link> <BR> <BR> The video is part of my kettlebell routines on Mondays and Fridays. It's called a kettlebell pullover. I'm doing it here with 30 lbs. Give it a shot! <BR> <BR> Not much to say here. I think I've made it over the "hungry week" hump, because today I'm not... Fri, 6 May 2016 14:55:12 EST My Weekend My weekend, for those who don't know, is Sunday and Monday. So I NEVER say TGIF because I always work Saturdays. And I don't hate Mondays either. <BR> <BR> Sunday morning I weighed in EXACTLY AT 165.0! Yay! Here's how I track and see my patterns, btw. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Next I went to the March of Dimes walk with walking group. It was POURING but we went anyway. Bingley knew I was going somewher... Tue, 3 May 2016 07:45:57 EST Happy Monday! The one where I describe my weekend. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Mon, 25 Apr 2016 17:39:34 EST I Have Too Much Self Respect to Put Up With Your Bullsh*t I'm a very open, friendly person. I have no problems chatting with someone online if we have things in common. I don't hide who I am. I am who I represent myself to be. <BR> <BR> I started talking to someone I met in a Facebook group through Facebook messenger. We had casual conversation almost every day for 3 weeks. Last night, this person initiated conversation with me, talked for a few minutes, then completely disappeared. For hours. Without saying a word. This, of course, irritated me. ... Fri, 22 Apr 2016 16:25:05 EST Updating My Weight & Other Things When I first started here on SparkPeople my goal weight was 160 lbs. Once I got there, I added in strength training and exercise. I added muscle (and pounds) and lost inches. It took me a few months to figure out how to maintain, and my weight fluctuated a bit. I was never able to get back to my goal weight of 160 lbs. I've been hovering between 164 and 170 ever since. It's been 20 months since I hit goal. 20 months since I haven't gotten back to goal. 20 months of maintaining a 105 lb weight... Tue, 19 Apr 2016 07:07:29 EST Strength <img src=""> <BR> <BR> How happy we are in life is often a matter of perspective. To say our pasts define us isn't exactly true: it's how we have dealt with events in our past that defines us. How has your past molded you into who you are today? <BR> <BR> If I look into my past I see spikes of painful moments. Heck, if I look into my very recent past there's a cluster of spikes: 2015 was a difficult year. But whi... Fri, 15 Apr 2016 07:13:26 EST I Was Meant to be Sideways I've tried 4 different ways to rotate this video. It isn't happening. I'm just posting it because I'm about to throw sh*t. <BR> <BR> (It's been 4 hours since I recorded this and my mood has TANKED, mostly due to this video not behaving itself, the fact that it's raining, and PMS.) Tue, 12 Apr 2016 13:26:49 EST Be Proud of Yourself Yeah, yeah, it's been a week since I've updated. It's not you, it's me. I'm still feeling overwhelmed with what I have on my plate. Today I have a kettlebell workout, a haircut and counseling, and somehow in between those I need to cram in some creative stuff I've wanted to do but haven't had time. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I went to walking group and went grocery shopping. By the time that was done it was 2:30 and I felt like I'd done NOTHING. (Because 12k steps and 4 stores is nothing.) I prepp... Mon, 4 Apr 2016 08:14:02 EST I'm a STRESS eater not an EMOTIONAL eater (and yes, they're different) Last week I was super stressed, what with work, marriage counseling, off-Spark blogging, walking group, planning a cooking class to teach, etc. I was mentally drained. I'll own up to it: Friday night I had to stop at the grocery store to get my free Easter turkey. While there, I decided I didn't have it in me to cook my planned pork chops. I'd worked in the showroom for the second day that week with hardly any help because we were short staffed, and I hadn't slept well the night before. I wou... Mon, 28 Mar 2016 21:40:50 EST Quick Video Hello Just saying hi! Fri, 25 Mar 2016 12:27:57 EST So Tired I've been awake since 4:30 am. I never sleep well during TOM, and I was extra crampy last night. Add to that the time change and I'm wiped out. There's nothing good on tv at 4:30 am, either. <BR> <BR> So here's an update: <BR> <BR> My workouts have been consistent for months. Six days a week. <BR> <BR> My eating hasn't been. <BR> <BR> My weight is up every month since December. The more I think it over, the more I think it's due to stress. Work has been more work than it used to be. I ... Sat, 19 Mar 2016 07:05:58 EST Taking a Socializing Time Out Wow. <BR> <BR> So I got back from my trip to my mom's yesterday afternoon. It was a nice weekend but I got ZERO alone time and my normal regimented schedule got thrown for a loop. It made me crabby. I like my schedule, I NEED my alone time, and i realized I haven't had enough lately. Training chatty women at work takes a lot out of me, even if I enjoy it most of the time. But this month alone I already have 3 social outings not including my regular Sunday walks and Wednesday night workouts ... Tue, 8 Mar 2016 16:42:57 EST Sunshine is healthy So, in spite of my dramatic status update yesterday, counseling went well. I just cried a LOT. As in, couldn't stop. Our counselor is very Eastern-minded, so he had me do some breathing exercises to try to calm down. I just felt very vulnerable. I felt it the night before when I brought up something that upset me to my husband, calmly. He listened and said he thought he understood, but I guess it was late and I was tired and I felt hurt regardless, so when I went to bed I cried myself to slee... Tue, 1 Mar 2016 15:27:57 EST Reduce your Excuses (Build Your Home Gym on a Budget) I wrote a quite detailed blog on A Measured Life today regarding building your own home gym on a budget. I've lost all my weight without paying a gym membership. You don't need to use the excuse of being too broke to get fit. <BR> <BR> Check it out if you're interested! <BR> <BR> <link><BR>our-home-gym-on-a-budget/ </link> Sat, 27 Feb 2016 14:46:24 EST Odd Day for Food <img src="">My food intake yesterday was weird. I got up in the morning and ate my usual breakfast of a chicken sausage and two eggs, then we went to counseling. Counseling was fine, our guy says he focuses a lot on balance and mind/body things like meditation, yoga and tai chi (mostly for The Hubs, who has ADHD and frequent insomnia) and that there was clearly an imbalance in our relationship. Now he didn't say th... Tue, 23 Feb 2016 07:00:20 EST So, yeah... According to the scale I've gained almost 4 lbs in the last month. Ugh. Now, I've been eating a lot of sodium this week, which could have skewed my results, but I won't be able to find out until NEXT month. (My weight has a low point just before TOM, and since TOM has now arrived, it will be 3.5 weeks until my next low point.) I have a list of reasons why my eating has been awful (fighting an infection, sleepyness, etc) but they're just that: excuses. I need to get a grip on my eating. I'm st... Mon, 15 Feb 2016 19:00:13 EST I've walked the Sahara! It's been an odd week. <BR> <BR> Work is fine. <BR> <BR> I'm no longer in pain for my tooth, which is good. My root canal isn't until the 22nd though, so keep your fingers crossed that the pain won't return before then. (Side note: I have bad teeth. I take care of them as best I can but they're bad. I have 4 crowns already and this will be my 2nd root canal at 34. I realized yesterday that the amount of money I've spent on my teeth since 2010 would have been a small down payment for a hou... Thu, 11 Feb 2016 14:43:53 EST Updates! My tooth is feeling much better. I'm painless for the most part, now that I'm halfway through the antibiotics. It doesn't hurt when I bite down or prod it with my tongue. Every now and then though it feels inflamed without being painful. When that happens I pop some good old ibuprofen. My dental appointment is on the 22nd in the afternoon, which is the same day as our first session of marriage counseling (9 am). At some point I'm going to need to squeeze in some kettlebells. I was slightly an... Fri, 5 Feb 2016 13:57:03 EST Quickie I'm pretty sure I have pulpitis in a tooth I just got a crown on in October. The pain is intermittent, which is good, but severe when it is here, which is bad. I'm not so much upset about getting the root canal because it will hurt as much as having to PAY FOR IT. There goes my tax refund. *sigh* I had a root canal about 12 years ago and it took 45 minutes, was mostly painless and I went out to eat right afterward. Maybe I got lucky but it wasn't bad at all. <BR> <BR> I was really hoping to... Mon, 1 Feb 2016 08:25:46 EST My Car of the Rollercoaster Called Life is Climbing the Hill Life is a rollercoaster. You have ups and downs. Nothing lasts forever: not the good times nor the bad. This is comforting to me. <BR> <BR> I'm feeling a lot better today. The sun is shining and despite the giant piles of snow outside it's a really beautiful day and it's lifting my spirits. <BR> <BR> My husband finally made the call and got recommendations for marriage counselors. He's going to read reviews of the two recommendations and make an appointment by the end of the week. We get 5... Tue, 26 Jan 2016 14:53:23 EST I'm Tired of All of This Not you guys. Not working out. Not eating healthy. I'm tired of feeling lost and sad. I've been depressed. No I don't need medication, it's situational. Things at home aren't bad, per se, but they aren't great. I'm unhappy. My husband has done nothing wrong, which is why I feel so terrible about it. I feel guilty for being unhappy when he's a good man who'd never hurt me. I guess if I had to put words to it, we've "grown apart". Or I have, anyway. We're waiting to hear from HR on marriage cou... Thu, 21 Jan 2016 19:54:38 EST Goodbye 2015, Hello 2016 It's 9 PM on New Years Eve and I'm pretty tired, but I figured I owed you all a blog. <BR> <BR> The last 2 weeks have been a whirlwind at work. The good news is I've hired 2 new employees, one of which has already started and seems to be working out just fine. The even BETTER news is that SALESLADY WAS FIRED ON DECEMBER 26th!!! She's gone she's gone she's gone! *happy dance* The semi-bad news is she was fired on Saturday at noonish with no warning for me so I had to work the showroom becaus... Thu, 31 Dec 2015 21:58:22 EST Latkes, donuts, chocolate chips, ugh I'm in a much better state emotionally this week. Things still aren't great at home, but they're better. My eating, however, has been terrible. <BR> <BR> Sunday night was my boss's annual latke party. The previous week I had an accurate 4300 calorie deficit. I was golden with tracking and workouts, despite skipping Fridays workout because I was emotional. So I knew I'd be okay at the party. I ate PLENTY of latkes (5 or 6 large ones) plus not one but TWO cut cream donuts. I stuck to water, h... Fri, 18 Dec 2015 08:57:46 EST Some serious thoughts and some good news I've had a lot of stuff on my mind lately. A lot. Most of it is entirely too personal for even ME to share here, and if you've known me long enough you know I share a lot. But I'm going through a bit of a transitional period in my life. I'll be 35 in May, and for the first time in my life I feel like I'm running out of time. I feel like something in my life really needs to change, and that change may need to be really drastic. <BR> <BR> I'm sure this sounds really repetitive, but when I los... Fri, 11 Dec 2015 07:32:33 EST Oh hey guess who's a weekly blogger apparently? This blog will be rather disjointed. <BR> <BR> I survived Black Friday. It was dead at work. Small Business Saturday was much much better. Saleswoman is still here and still having hissyfits. Interviewing someone on Weds, keep your fingers crossed for me. <BR> <BR> I'm beginning to think I suddenly am not a fan of Mondays. Mondays seem to make me feel sad and alone. Maybe it's been the weather, or the fact that I am least busy on Mondays. Or maybe I'm just sad today because I'm tired. Or ... Mon, 30 Nov 2015 21:21:55 EST Wow, it's been more than a week? I'm sitting here at my desktop, sipping my Melitta Hazelnut Creme coffee with cashew milk, listening to Core, a podcast about the Blizzard game Heroes of the Storm, which I don't even play, and don't plan to play. Why do I enjoy listening to podcasts about video games I'll never play? I don't know, haha. <BR> <BR> I can feel the cold seeping in through the window, but my pink fluffy robe is keeping me warm. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I went to walking group, and then Hubs and I did our holiday g... Mon, 23 Nov 2015 07:54:28 EST Not a Whole Lot to Say I've worked out 6 days a week 3 out of the last 4 weeks, and the 4th week I had 5 workouts. So that's good. My reduced carb diet is going well, despite last night's random binge. Binges have been much better, so one bad one isn't too bad in my opinion. It was peanut butter and chips. TOM is due today or tomorrow (although since I upped my kettlebell weight recently it may vary a few days) so that's a possible reason why. My weight is ONE TENTH of a pound higher than my ticker currently says, ... Sat, 14 Nov 2015 11:34:41 EST Work and Miscellany So I wanted to be able to come here and tell you all that we hired two new people and they're great and SALESLADY is on her way out. Well, we hired two people. Julie is GREAT. She's seasonal. Marsha was also picking things up fine. She was supposed to come back tomorrow for her second day. Instead I get a phone call that she received another job offer that was better and she won't be returning. I nearly cried when I got off the phone with her. I want Saleslady gone SO BAD. She makes every day... Fri, 6 Nov 2015 19:43:57 EST The Worst Weight Loss Advice I blogged about mine here: <BR> <BR> <link><BR>tells-a-story-the-worst-weight-loss-ad<BR>vice-ive-ever-received/ </link> Mon, 26 Oct 2015 21:25:17 EST The Word of the Weekend is SHOPPING Yesterday morning started out kind of low key. The Hubs had taken the day off from work so I left Bingley at home with him and headed to work, making sure to grab a delicious French Vanilla mixed with Hazelnut coffee for only $1 from Wawa. I never stop at Wawa on the way to work when I have Bingley because I have to get out of the car. No Drive-Thru. So I enjoyed that while at my desk, haloed in sunshine. <BR> <BR> <img src=" Sun, 25 Oct 2015 17:41:15 EST Insecurities What is it about our brains that cause us to feel insecure even when we logically know we have nothing to be insecure about? I've been feeling insecure lately. Not good enough. And I think I may have pinpointed why. Are you ready for this? <BR> <BR> I miss my dad. <BR> <BR> My dad was one of those guys who was so open about his feelings and so ready to tell me how proud he was of me, even when I wasn't giving him a reason to be proud of me. He was my cheerleader, my backup, and occasional... Fri, 23 Oct 2015 20:21:22 EST