ADARKARA's SparkPeople Blog ADARKARA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Hectic but Good It's been a few weeks since I've blogged. Things have been hectic and crazy! Work still continues to exhaust me. On top of hiring and training new people, my boss's 22-year-old-son cried out for help and attempted suicide. My boss spent more than a week driving the 3-4 hours up to NYC to see him. He'll be okay, he's going to be attending a day camp psychiatric program and has been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder and will be under psychiatric care from now on. But it's made my j... Thu, 26 May 2016 06:21:06 EST Kettlebell Full Swings/American Swings This may be sideways because SparkPeople is stupid about videos but it's short. <BR> <BR> This is a full kettlebell swing, also known as an American Swing. Don't try this until you've mastered the Russian Swing first, as this is a more complicated exercise. I'm doing this with 40 lbs, and I could use heavier, but I don't own heavier. <BR> <BR> Just for fun! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Mon, 9 May 2016 11:17:30 EST Why Motivation Isn't Important Plus Kettlebell Vid <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Source: <link>https://adventurefoxblog.wordpress.c<BR>om/2015/02/04/motivation-is-an-obstacl<BR>e-not-an-advantage/ </link> <BR> <BR> The video is part of my kettlebell routines on Mondays and Fridays. It's called a kettlebell pullover. I'm doing it here with 30 lbs. Give it a shot! <BR> <BR> Not much to say here. I think I've made it over the "hungry week" hump, because today I'm not... Fri, 6 May 2016 14:55:12 EST My Weekend My weekend, for those who don't know, is Sunday and Monday. So I NEVER say TGIF because I always work Saturdays. And I don't hate Mondays either. <BR> <BR> Sunday morning I weighed in EXACTLY AT 165.0! Yay! Here's how I track and see my patterns, btw. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Next I went to the March of Dimes walk with walking group. It was POURING but we went anyway. Bingley knew I was going somewher... Tue, 3 May 2016 07:45:57 EST Happy Monday! The one where I describe my weekend. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Mon, 25 Apr 2016 17:39:34 EST I Have Too Much Self Respect to Put Up With Your Bullsh*t I'm a very open, friendly person. I have no problems chatting with someone online if we have things in common. I don't hide who I am. I am who I represent myself to be. <BR> <BR> I started talking to someone I met in a Facebook group through Facebook messenger. We had casual conversation almost every day for 3 weeks. Last night, this person initiated conversation with me, talked for a few minutes, then completely disappeared. For hours. Without saying a word. This, of course, irritated me. ... Fri, 22 Apr 2016 16:25:05 EST Updating My Weight & Other Things When I first started here on SparkPeople my goal weight was 160 lbs. Once I got there, I added in strength training and exercise. I added muscle (and pounds) and lost inches. It took me a few months to figure out how to maintain, and my weight fluctuated a bit. I was never able to get back to my goal weight of 160 lbs. I've been hovering between 164 and 170 ever since. It's been 20 months since I hit goal. 20 months since I haven't gotten back to goal. 20 months of maintaining a 105 lb weight... Tue, 19 Apr 2016 07:07:29 EST Strength <img src=""> <BR> <BR> How happy we are in life is often a matter of perspective. To say our pasts define us isn't exactly true: it's how we have dealt with events in our past that defines us. How has your past molded you into who you are today? <BR> <BR> If I look into my past I see spikes of painful moments. Heck, if I look into my very recent past there's a cluster of spikes: 2015 was a difficult year. But whi... Fri, 15 Apr 2016 07:13:26 EST I Was Meant to be Sideways I've tried 4 different ways to rotate this video. It isn't happening. I'm just posting it because I'm about to throw sh*t. <BR> <BR> (It's been 4 hours since I recorded this and my mood has TANKED, mostly due to this video not behaving itself, the fact that it's raining, and PMS.) Tue, 12 Apr 2016 13:26:49 EST Be Proud of Yourself Yeah, yeah, it's been a week since I've updated. It's not you, it's me. I'm still feeling overwhelmed with what I have on my plate. Today I have a kettlebell workout, a haircut and counseling, and somehow in between those I need to cram in some creative stuff I've wanted to do but haven't had time. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I went to walking group and went grocery shopping. By the time that was done it was 2:30 and I felt like I'd done NOTHING. (Because 12k steps and 4 stores is nothing.) I prepp... Mon, 4 Apr 2016 08:14:02 EST I'm a STRESS eater not an EMOTIONAL eater (and yes, they're different) Last week I was super stressed, what with work, marriage counseling, off-Spark blogging, walking group, planning a cooking class to teach, etc. I was mentally drained. I'll own up to it: Friday night I had to stop at the grocery store to get my free Easter turkey. While there, I decided I didn't have it in me to cook my planned pork chops. I'd worked in the showroom for the second day that week with hardly any help because we were short staffed, and I hadn't slept well the night before. I wou... Mon, 28 Mar 2016 21:40:50 EST Quick Video Hello Just saying hi! Fri, 25 Mar 2016 12:27:57 EST So Tired I've been awake since 4:30 am. I never sleep well during TOM, and I was extra crampy last night. Add to that the time change and I'm wiped out. There's nothing good on tv at 4:30 am, either. <BR> <BR> So here's an update: <BR> <BR> My workouts have been consistent for months. Six days a week. <BR> <BR> My eating hasn't been. <BR> <BR> My weight is up every month since December. The more I think it over, the more I think it's due to stress. Work has been more work than it used to be. I ... Sat, 19 Mar 2016 07:05:58 EST Taking a Socializing Time Out Wow. <BR> <BR> So I got back from my trip to my mom's yesterday afternoon. It was a nice weekend but I got ZERO alone time and my normal regimented schedule got thrown for a loop. It made me crabby. I like my schedule, I NEED my alone time, and i realized I haven't had enough lately. Training chatty women at work takes a lot out of me, even if I enjoy it most of the time. But this month alone I already have 3 social outings not including my regular Sunday walks and Wednesday night workouts ... Tue, 8 Mar 2016 16:42:57 EST Sunshine is healthy So, in spite of my dramatic status update yesterday, counseling went well. I just cried a LOT. As in, couldn't stop. Our counselor is very Eastern-minded, so he had me do some breathing exercises to try to calm down. I just felt very vulnerable. I felt it the night before when I brought up something that upset me to my husband, calmly. He listened and said he thought he understood, but I guess it was late and I was tired and I felt hurt regardless, so when I went to bed I cried myself to slee... Tue, 1 Mar 2016 15:27:57 EST Reduce your Excuses (Build Your Home Gym on a Budget) I wrote a quite detailed blog on A Measured Life today regarding building your own home gym on a budget. I've lost all my weight without paying a gym membership. You don't need to use the excuse of being too broke to get fit. <BR> <BR> Check it out if you're interested! <BR> <BR> <link><BR>our-home-gym-on-a-budget/ </link> Sat, 27 Feb 2016 14:46:24 EST Odd Day for Food <img src="">My food intake yesterday was weird. I got up in the morning and ate my usual breakfast of a chicken sausage and two eggs, then we went to counseling. Counseling was fine, our guy says he focuses a lot on balance and mind/body things like meditation, yoga and tai chi (mostly for The Hubs, who has ADHD and frequent insomnia) and that there was clearly an imbalance in our relationship. Now he didn't say th... Tue, 23 Feb 2016 07:00:20 EST So, yeah... According to the scale I've gained almost 4 lbs in the last month. Ugh. Now, I've been eating a lot of sodium this week, which could have skewed my results, but I won't be able to find out until NEXT month. (My weight has a low point just before TOM, and since TOM has now arrived, it will be 3.5 weeks until my next low point.) I have a list of reasons why my eating has been awful (fighting an infection, sleepyness, etc) but they're just that: excuses. I need to get a grip on my eating. I'm st... Mon, 15 Feb 2016 19:00:13 EST I've walked the Sahara! It's been an odd week. <BR> <BR> Work is fine. <BR> <BR> I'm no longer in pain for my tooth, which is good. My root canal isn't until the 22nd though, so keep your fingers crossed that the pain won't return before then. (Side note: I have bad teeth. I take care of them as best I can but they're bad. I have 4 crowns already and this will be my 2nd root canal at 34. I realized yesterday that the amount of money I've spent on my teeth since 2010 would have been a small down payment for a hou... Thu, 11 Feb 2016 14:43:53 EST Updates! My tooth is feeling much better. I'm painless for the most part, now that I'm halfway through the antibiotics. It doesn't hurt when I bite down or prod it with my tongue. Every now and then though it feels inflamed without being painful. When that happens I pop some good old ibuprofen. My dental appointment is on the 22nd in the afternoon, which is the same day as our first session of marriage counseling (9 am). At some point I'm going to need to squeeze in some kettlebells. I was slightly an... Fri, 5 Feb 2016 13:57:03 EST Quickie I'm pretty sure I have pulpitis in a tooth I just got a crown on in October. The pain is intermittent, which is good, but severe when it is here, which is bad. I'm not so much upset about getting the root canal because it will hurt as much as having to PAY FOR IT. There goes my tax refund. *sigh* I had a root canal about 12 years ago and it took 45 minutes, was mostly painless and I went out to eat right afterward. Maybe I got lucky but it wasn't bad at all. <BR> <BR> I was really hoping to... Mon, 1 Feb 2016 08:25:46 EST My Car of the Rollercoaster Called Life is Climbing the Hill Life is a rollercoaster. You have ups and downs. Nothing lasts forever: not the good times nor the bad. This is comforting to me. <BR> <BR> I'm feeling a lot better today. The sun is shining and despite the giant piles of snow outside it's a really beautiful day and it's lifting my spirits. <BR> <BR> My husband finally made the call and got recommendations for marriage counselors. He's going to read reviews of the two recommendations and make an appointment by the end of the week. We get 5... Tue, 26 Jan 2016 14:53:23 EST I'm Tired of All of This Not you guys. Not working out. Not eating healthy. I'm tired of feeling lost and sad. I've been depressed. No I don't need medication, it's situational. Things at home aren't bad, per se, but they aren't great. I'm unhappy. My husband has done nothing wrong, which is why I feel so terrible about it. I feel guilty for being unhappy when he's a good man who'd never hurt me. I guess if I had to put words to it, we've "grown apart". Or I have, anyway. We're waiting to hear from HR on marriage cou... Thu, 21 Jan 2016 19:54:38 EST Goodbye 2015, Hello 2016 It's 9 PM on New Years Eve and I'm pretty tired, but I figured I owed you all a blog. <BR> <BR> The last 2 weeks have been a whirlwind at work. The good news is I've hired 2 new employees, one of which has already started and seems to be working out just fine. The even BETTER news is that SALESLADY WAS FIRED ON DECEMBER 26th!!! She's gone she's gone she's gone! *happy dance* The semi-bad news is she was fired on Saturday at noonish with no warning for me so I had to work the showroom becaus... Thu, 31 Dec 2015 21:58:22 EST Latkes, donuts, chocolate chips, ugh I'm in a much better state emotionally this week. Things still aren't great at home, but they're better. My eating, however, has been terrible. <BR> <BR> Sunday night was my boss's annual latke party. The previous week I had an accurate 4300 calorie deficit. I was golden with tracking and workouts, despite skipping Fridays workout because I was emotional. So I knew I'd be okay at the party. I ate PLENTY of latkes (5 or 6 large ones) plus not one but TWO cut cream donuts. I stuck to water, h... Fri, 18 Dec 2015 08:57:46 EST Some serious thoughts and some good news I've had a lot of stuff on my mind lately. A lot. Most of it is entirely too personal for even ME to share here, and if you've known me long enough you know I share a lot. But I'm going through a bit of a transitional period in my life. I'll be 35 in May, and for the first time in my life I feel like I'm running out of time. I feel like something in my life really needs to change, and that change may need to be really drastic. <BR> <BR> I'm sure this sounds really repetitive, but when I los... Fri, 11 Dec 2015 07:32:33 EST Oh hey guess who's a weekly blogger apparently? This blog will be rather disjointed. <BR> <BR> I survived Black Friday. It was dead at work. Small Business Saturday was much much better. Saleswoman is still here and still having hissyfits. Interviewing someone on Weds, keep your fingers crossed for me. <BR> <BR> I'm beginning to think I suddenly am not a fan of Mondays. Mondays seem to make me feel sad and alone. Maybe it's been the weather, or the fact that I am least busy on Mondays. Or maybe I'm just sad today because I'm tired. Or ... Mon, 30 Nov 2015 21:21:55 EST Wow, it's been more than a week? I'm sitting here at my desktop, sipping my Melitta Hazelnut Creme coffee with cashew milk, listening to Core, a podcast about the Blizzard game Heroes of the Storm, which I don't even play, and don't plan to play. Why do I enjoy listening to podcasts about video games I'll never play? I don't know, haha. <BR> <BR> I can feel the cold seeping in through the window, but my pink fluffy robe is keeping me warm. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I went to walking group, and then Hubs and I did our holiday g... Mon, 23 Nov 2015 07:54:28 EST Not a Whole Lot to Say I've worked out 6 days a week 3 out of the last 4 weeks, and the 4th week I had 5 workouts. So that's good. My reduced carb diet is going well, despite last night's random binge. Binges have been much better, so one bad one isn't too bad in my opinion. It was peanut butter and chips. TOM is due today or tomorrow (although since I upped my kettlebell weight recently it may vary a few days) so that's a possible reason why. My weight is ONE TENTH of a pound higher than my ticker currently says, ... Sat, 14 Nov 2015 11:34:41 EST Work and Miscellany So I wanted to be able to come here and tell you all that we hired two new people and they're great and SALESLADY is on her way out. Well, we hired two people. Julie is GREAT. She's seasonal. Marsha was also picking things up fine. She was supposed to come back tomorrow for her second day. Instead I get a phone call that she received another job offer that was better and she won't be returning. I nearly cried when I got off the phone with her. I want Saleslady gone SO BAD. She makes every day... Fri, 6 Nov 2015 19:43:57 EST The Worst Weight Loss Advice I blogged about mine here: <BR> <BR> <link><BR>tells-a-story-the-worst-weight-loss-ad<BR>vice-ive-ever-received/ </link> Mon, 26 Oct 2015 21:25:17 EST The Word of the Weekend is SHOPPING Yesterday morning started out kind of low key. The Hubs had taken the day off from work so I left Bingley at home with him and headed to work, making sure to grab a delicious French Vanilla mixed with Hazelnut coffee for only $1 from Wawa. I never stop at Wawa on the way to work when I have Bingley because I have to get out of the car. No Drive-Thru. So I enjoyed that while at my desk, haloed in sunshine. <BR> <BR> <img src=" Sun, 25 Oct 2015 17:41:15 EST Insecurities What is it about our brains that cause us to feel insecure even when we logically know we have nothing to be insecure about? I've been feeling insecure lately. Not good enough. And I think I may have pinpointed why. Are you ready for this? <BR> <BR> I miss my dad. <BR> <BR> My dad was one of those guys who was so open about his feelings and so ready to tell me how proud he was of me, even when I wasn't giving him a reason to be proud of me. He was my cheerleader, my backup, and occasional... Fri, 23 Oct 2015 20:21:22 EST Out of the Funk and Back Again I had a couple of good days. Nothing bad really happening. I was exhausted on Sunday and Monday (my weekend) and slept in until 7:30 on Monday I was so wiped. Well I guess I got caught up on my sleep because last night I slept like crap. I had trouble falling asleep, then had trouble staying asleep. I'd wake up and be wide awake. And when I got out of bed, I got up on the "not good enough" side. <BR> <BR> I guess I'm just tired but my brain is asking me if I'm a good enough friend, a good e... Tue, 20 Oct 2015 16:07:26 EST AML Blog about Pumpkin & Chickpea Stew I wrote a big blog full of pics about Pumpkin & Chickpea Stew. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>l-blog-about-pumpkin-sigh/ </link> <BR> <BR> Really tired, so that's about it for tonight. Fri, 16 Oct 2015 19:45:53 EST Reduced Carb Days 7-10 Day 7 - Saturday <BR> Friday I ran out of cottage cheese, so I subbed in Greek yogurt. I was much hungrier on Saturday due to this, and it sucked! I a) never knew I'd LIKE cottage cheese and b) never thought the difference in satiety between the two would be so different! My macros were off this day, too: 42% fat, 21% protein and 37% carbs, so I think protein gives me the highest satiety of all the macros. The hunger made me a little pouty, too. I finished the day at 1880 calories, which I de... Tue, 13 Oct 2015 14:23:56 EST Reduced Carb Day 6 Plus Adventure Run Stuff Previously on Andrea's Adventure Run - Andrea was given about 4 hours warning that she'd be leading the walking group BY HERSELF having never done it before. Panic ensues. Will she survive?! Find out on tonight's episode! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> All dressed up to be the Walking Group Tour Guide! (The theme was glow in the dark. I told people if they couldn't see me they must be Stevie Wonder.) <BR> <BR>... Fri, 9 Oct 2015 18:32:34 EST Reduced Carb Day 5 - Oddly Unhungry So, I didn't do bells yesterday because I was a slacker. So I did my Intermediate Workout this morning. The Adventure Run is tonight, so I'm going to be out of the house until around 10 pm. I decided I'd break my breakfast into two halves, so I could spread out my meals throughout the day. I ate my sweet potato and egg around 8, made my shake and packed it with my lunch. I wasn't hungry until around 11, and I pushed it until 11:30 then just ate my Paleo beef soup for lunch. Around 1:30 I had ... Thu, 8 Oct 2015 16:00:37 EST Reduced Carb Cut Phase Day 3/4 I was a little concerned yesterday because it was my first day back to work after starting this thing, but it went well! I did eat a smidge more but I was hungry and I ate a packet of tuna so it was no big deal. I did lick the spoon and bowl of my husbands birthday cake as I was making it, and I will have a piece tonight, but again this is reduced carb not low carb. Low carb is generally considered 50-150 grams of carbs per day, lower if you want to pee on a stick and do that ketosis thing. N... Wed, 7 Oct 2015 14:09:00 EST Reduced Carb "Cut Phase" Day 2 It's 8 PM and day 2 has been a success so far! <BR> <BR> Last night our dinner was amazing, but I have no clue how to track it. I'm going to write a big long blog post about my dinner on A Measured Life for Wednesday so you'll hear more about that later in the week, complete with pictures! But, I had only eaten about 800 calories before the gigantic meal, and I wasn't starving all day. <BR> <BR> Today was much the same. I got up, drank my coffee, had my sweet potato with and egg in it, plu... Mon, 5 Oct 2015 20:19:42 EST Okay okay, I'm sorry I insulted myself I referred to myself as being "not very bright" in my status update, and several people got on my case about it. That's the problem with the internet/text based communications. You can't hear my tone of voice or see the look on my face. I promise you I don't actually think I'm a failure or stupid. I just got distracted and forgot to plan for extra fat. <BR> <BR> I have binged before bed the last 3 days, but I felt less out of control and I feel like I've eaten smaller amounts. No way to tel... Sun, 4 Oct 2015 13:36:25 EST My Beat The Binge Plan It seems like just last month I was bingeing my full head off around ovulation time. (Oh WAIT, it WAS last month <em>20</em> ) I really should buy stock in Skippy peanut butter. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> So this morning I got a text from telling me that I should be ovulating on Tuesday. So I know the binge monster is going to rear his ugly head at me. What a jerkface. <BR> <BR> So I'... Sat, 26 Sep 2015 08:48:21 EST Done Misbehaving? (WARNING: There WILL be some censored foul language in this post. Deal with it or don't read this blog.) <BR> <BR> The last few weeks have been a bit of a clusterf*ck for me. First I had PMS, and with it, PMS binges. But for some reason those binges extended through my TOM a bit. Like, handfuls of dark chocolate chips (not that bad) and multiple spoonfuls of peanut butter out of the jar (very, very bad). I don't remember binges before I hit goal. In fact, it only seems like it's been the las... Tue, 22 Sep 2015 12:36:29 EST Looking Forward I have a lot coming up in the next few weeks: the Renaissance Faire, my anniversary, my mom's birthday (still have no clue what to get her). I feel like I need a vacation from all this stuff. I'm pretty sure I'm going to "play hooky" from work one day at the end of the month and have a "me" day where I go off the grid for a while and enjoy nature before it gets too cold. <BR> <BR> My back is better, but still pretty stiff. I was really hoping I'd be able to get back to bells today, or runni... Fri, 18 Sep 2015 08:20:25 EST Fun, Free Shoes and Plans To everyone who wanted to hear about my FREE SHOES experience you can read all about it here: <BR> <link><BR>er-adventure-run-winning-big/ </link> <BR> This morning I'm being lazy. I woke up around 5 and just stayed in bed until 6. It's now 8:30 and I'm eating my breakfast, then I'm going to work out once my stomach settles a bit. The sun is shining, it's cool and it's SO QUIET and peaceful right now. I love it. <BR> <BR> TOM arrived this morning, whi... Mon, 14 Sep 2015 08:36:48 EST How I'm Feeling I want to preface this with telling you that it's the week before my period, so all emotions herein are probably all false! <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> Taking vitamin B complex has really helped my moods these last 2 PMS cycles. This month I actually haven't felt like crying at all, although I still have a week so that could change. I am, however, still bingeing, but at what seems to be a much lower level! I only really binged ONE DAY this time. (I did eat a couple handfuls of dark chocolate ... Wed, 9 Sep 2015 14:34:44 EST More About Me (Copied from LIVEDAILY's entry) Copy and Paste into your own blog, change the answers to suit you. <BR> <BR> Where is your cell phone? Touching my left leg. <BR> <BR> Spouse? The Hubs, of course! <BR> <BR> Your hair? very dark brown with the underside dyed auburn and with a speckling of gray <BR> <BR> Your mother? My birth mom's name is Jill and she lives in Richmond, VA. :) <BR> <BR> Your father? I don't know my birth dad but my adoptive dad passed a few years ago. I miss him a lot. <BR> <BR> Your favorite thing? ... Sat, 5 Sep 2015 17:29:33 EST The Mad Ravings of a Jersey Girl This had nothing to do with me being from Jersey, I just needed a clever title. <BR> <BR> I am ON TRACK for workouts this week! It's Thursday and I've done four workouts (five if you count my very short run on Tuesday evening) plus my walking group on Sunday. <BR> <BR> I upped my calorie range from 1700-1900 (for when I wasn't running or working out regularly) to 1800-2100 again. What's funny is when I was 1700-1900 I COULD NOT eat within range. I was regularly eating 2100-2200 calories a... Thu, 3 Sep 2015 11:00:49 EST Great Weekend! I am accomplishing things! <BR> <BR> This morning I woke up around 7 and just enjoyed laying in bed for another half hour. I NEVER do this, I'm always up and out of bed by 6:30 at the latest, and it was just wonderful. I got up, had coffee, ate a half of a delicious cantaloupe and around 9 I figured I should probably workout, so I did! I showered, goofed off for a bit, then did my hair with my new salt water spray. LIVEDAILY was right, it makes you look like you've been swimming in the oc... Mon, 31 Aug 2015 19:57:46 EST Update Update Did my Fitness Blender Kettlebell workout yesterday morning, which makes 5 workouts for the week (okay, 4 3/4 since I didn't finish Wednesdays but I'm getting there.) Check. <BR> <BR> Wrote a blog on AML yesterday about hitting my 1-year anniversary of maintenance, which you can find here: <BR> <link><BR>of-maintenance-a-retrospective/ </link> Check. <BR> <BR> Went to walking group this morning, then had coffee with the ladies. Check. <BR> <BR> Wen... 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