ADARKARA's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=ADARKARA ADARKARA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Growing Pains http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5915625 My SparkBuddy AHTRAP commented on my last blog and reminded me that I haven't updated in a few days. <BR> <BR> I'm doing better, yes. <BR> <BR> Sunday was a good day: my bestie and I met in Toms River, NJ for lunch, where we had dirt cheap yet delicious and filling falafel! Seriously, $6 for 6 falafel balls, salad and a ton of rice plus a fountain soda for six bucks. Insane! They used nutmeg in it though, which really threw me off. <BR> <BR> Then we headed to Island Beach State Park whe... Wed, 22 Apr 2015 08:11:19 EST Exercise is the Best Medicine http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5913592 Ugh. This week? It's totally sucked. I've been a wreck: crying everyday due to a) hormones b) depression c) abandonment issues AGAIN and d) as of last night, the death of a friend. (And my frickin' butthole neighbor was screaming at his wife again.) I know feeling like this isn't going to last forever. I haven't lost hope. But EFFFF. Seriously. EFFF. <BR> <BR> I postponed my workout yesterday due to "feminine issues". Okay, look, I had cramps, but it was mostly my lower back hurting. So I d... Sat, 18 Apr 2015 19:23:24 EST Hi. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5912867 Don't have much to say lately, hence the lack of blogs. Having a very hard time right now. Sick of dealing with women's hormones, sick of weather that makes me feel awful, sick of crying or feeling like I want to. I need to just breathe and get through today. It sucks feeling this way, and I hate it. <BR> <BR> I'll be back when I have something to bring to the table. Fri, 17 Apr 2015 10:27:04 EST It Was A Good Day... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5909594 Because it was the day of my Godmother's annual egg hunt! <BR> <BR> It started off by me not working. I relaxed and grocery shopped and walked Bingley. I saw these on our walk: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/5/l654841669.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Then I had a HUGE lunch for 240 calories: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1966939271.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Then Bingley and I went to the farm: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/... Sat, 11 Apr 2015 20:50:10 EST An Athlete? A Beautiful Spirit? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5909050 I live in a large apartment complex. The complex has 21 2-story buildings with 4-16 apartments per building. It backs up to a golf course on one side, single family homes on another side, and townhomes on the third side. (The 4th side is a road.) I often walk Bingley around the complex, and since it sort of makes a figure 8 pattern, I consider the small loop his "short" walk and the total loop his "long walk". The long walk goes out to the main road, as we live in one of the golf course build... Fri, 10 Apr 2015 19:16:55 EST Rain, TV, Boredom http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5908142 It's only been 2 days since I blogged, but it feels longer. Maybe it's because I've been both tired and feeling like a bottomless pit (TOM is due in a few days). I've been remembering my dreams the last few days. Some of them have been a little sad. The weather has been overcast and rainy, and, as you well know, this brings me down a little. I'm trying to keep myself distracted with TV, blogging, and researching blog topics for A Measured Life. <BR> <BR> Here is a list of the shows I'm curr... Thu, 9 Apr 2015 08:21:59 EST My Weekend & New Post on A Measured Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5906873 I hope you all had a wonderful weekend! Mine was pretty darn good. <BR> <BR> My Easter morning started with sleeping in to an INSANE 7:15 am. <em>100</em> I got Bingley out for his first emptying of the day and then prepped the cottage pies for dinner before hopping in the shower. Upon exiting the shower I was greeted by an e-mail from the Animal Adoption Center telling me the name of the dog I would be handling at the adoption event. Dinah. I checked their website: no photo. BUT... DINA... Tue, 7 Apr 2015 07:01:52 EST It's My THIRD Sparkaversary! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5905149 <em>384</em> <BR> <BR> In honor of my THIRD year here at SparkPeople, I decided I would go back and poke through my previous anniversary posts. <BR> <BR> On April 4, 2013 I posted that I had lost 58 lbs and 29 inches in my first year on Spark. <BR> <BR> On April 3, 2014 (I think I was celebrating early) I posted that I had lost 84 lbs total but neglected the inches. (I'm terrible with logging inches, but turns out it was 8 inches total.) I also posted this pic on Facebook: <BR> <BR> ... Sat, 4 Apr 2015 06:29:32 EST Easter Plans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5904953 I'm not religious. I grew up Presbyterian but pretty much stopped going to church after confirmation except for Christmas Eve (because it was a candlelight service and I loved that), and then when my dad got married to my step-mom, we stopped going to church all together, because she had kind of a vendetta against Christianity due to her upbringing in a fundamentalist church. Even when I was young, Easter was never my favorite holiday. It's either about death to me (crucifixion) or bunnies an... Fri, 3 Apr 2015 19:03:06 EST Phew - What A Day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5903754 So, so, SO many factors go into how I feel in the morning. The weather is one, it was overcast yesterday and rained last night. I am particularly sensitive to changes in barometric pressure. On top of this, I'm dead in the center of my cycle, and my anxiety is always highest around ovulation. TMI I know, but sorry. Third, I'm worried about a close friend. Fourth, I didn't sleep well last night, waking at 2 am for some unknown reason. And fifth and final (as far as I'm aware), the alarm woke m... Wed, 1 Apr 2015 19:29:35 EST 2 Minutes 30 Seconds http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5902500 So I mentioned recently that I haven't really been pushing myself as much as I should with my workouts. Well, this morning I was feeling gloomy (I'm tellin' ya, mornings are made of hell for me these days) and I finally hauled my ass off the computer around 7:15 and did my ladder workout. I alternated regular 2-handed swings with full swings each round to add a little pep, and tried to take shorter breaks in between rounds. But the kicker was when I did abs, I told myself to try a 2 minute 30... Mon, 30 Mar 2015 18:18:41 EST Audio Blog Regarding Self-Consciousness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5902168 Apparently this didn't work. Click here to listen: <BR> <link>drive.google.com/file/d/0By-FS8bhzrH<BR>wM2N2VE5HYk5sRXM/view?usp=sharing </link> <BR> <BR> <BR> I recorded this in my car yesterday on the way to the Produce Market, but it's about feeling self-conscious about your looks. I'd like to add that in the last 6 months, there has only been one day where I was absolutely 100% confident about my looks. <BR> <BR> I'm also thinking about creating a spark team for A Measured Life rea... Mon, 30 Mar 2015 08:58:16 EST Holy Mackarel, she VLOGGED http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5901776 It's short, but I'm easing back into it. I've actually already gone to the walking meetup by the time I'm posting this, and had a great time! <BR> <BR> Also, does anyone know how to upload just an AUDIO file? I recorded something this morning that's way more verbose than this vlog and I'd like to post it but I'm not sure how. Maybe I'll need to host it somewhere else and link it here. Hope you all had a great weekend! Sun, 29 Mar 2015 15:47:02 EST Weather, Cooking and Comedy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5900717 So after having a relatively decent week despite major technological aggravation at work, the overcast weather is taking its toll on me again. I'm pretty sure I forgot to take my vitamin D this morning, and I didn't use my Happy Light. I don't have enough to do at work to distract me, either, because my work computer is dead and I'm waiting for a replacement. I don't have any plans for this weekend, and that freaks me out a little. Am I going to be okay on my own? I don't know. Maybe I'll go ... Fri, 27 Mar 2015 14:30:11 EST Sabotage, Selfishness and Gratefulness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5899296 So my SparkBuddy BOBCATGIRL76 posted a blog about self sabotage, and I realized I've been justifying extra food lately for no reason. I was fixing Josh's computer at work yesterday when I noticed his dry roasted peanuts sitting on the windowsill. I decided I would have 3 or 4 peanuts while I was installing some software. That 3-4 peanuts turned into 3-4 handfuls. I didn't weigh or measure, but I can only estimate that I ate 300-400 CALORIES worth of peanuts. On top of not paying attention to ... Wed, 25 Mar 2015 09:11:18 EST Pin Up Girl & Positivity http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5898970 While my Tuesday hasn't been as great as Saturday, Sunday and Monday, it didn't suck. I had a couple gloomy moments late morning because it was overcast, but I spent my time at work installing a new harddrive and all the subsequent software on my coworkers computer so that we'd have one functioning computer as I waited for the video card for mine to come in. The video card came in, and I installed it in about 60 seconds. But when I went to plug in my monitor cable I realized I needed an adapt... Tue, 24 Mar 2015 17:58:19 EST A Mood Swing I'm Okay With http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5897766 Have you ever watched a hawk soar? It's beautiful: wings stretched out against a clear blue sky as the body tips slightly left or right with the wind to maintain balance. Occasionally the raptor will appear to falter as a strong gust upsets the delicate balance of feathers and air, but the bird always recovers. I caught a glimpse of this on my way home from having brunch with my cousin and her bestie and I couldn't help but smile. We are hawks, you and I, free and soaring on the periphery of ... Sun, 22 Mar 2015 21:21:47 EST An Apology and a Plea for Help http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5897027 I'm really sorry to all of you for being a terrible SparkFriend lately. I know all I've been doing here is coming here and being a downer. I know I don't need to apologize for having a rough time, but you guys are always there to support me, and I want to give that back. I haven't felt much like I've been worth anyone's time lately. I know that's the depression talking, I really do, but it's how I feel. I feel like a burden. I feel best about myself when I'm out there making other people feel... Sat, 21 Mar 2015 13:58:01 EST Quickie http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5895389 I want to come here and tell you that I'm peachy keen jelly bean. It's not true. But things aren't bad, either. Just... meh. <BR> <BR> The truth is I've kind of been in an angry phase the last day or two. There are a whole bunch of things I was hoping to do this year, and a good chunk of them aren't going to happen now, and I'm feeling like a pouty little kid about it. That isn't the normal me. I try really hard to go with the flow and let things slide off my back, and I don't really like a... Wed, 18 Mar 2015 16:51:37 EST Disclosure http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5894171 Yesterday ended on a high note. Josh & Andrea came over and we had a fabulous St. Patty's Day celebration. Everything was delicious (if I do say so myself). So delicious, in fact, that I ate twice as much corned beef as I should, and two pieces of Irish soda bread with butter instead of one. Not a huge deal. Except Andrea makes incredible desserts, and is seemingly incapable of making small desserts. She buys those disposable aluminum lasagna pans, the big ones, and fills it. I had leftover G... Mon, 16 Mar 2015 19:43:23 EST Rambling ala Hormones http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5893402 So yesterday was a rough day, emotionally, due to PMS. When I PMS, I often have to work very, VERY hard to not flip out on everyone I meet. Luckily, it was a work day. *sarcasm* So I get to work and attempt to function, despite the rainy/overcast day contributing to my major funk. Well, within FIVE MINUTES of sitting down at my work computer, the display drivers crashed. In short, the mouse froze, then the screen went black, came back on, and an error message came up saying the display driver... Sun, 15 Mar 2015 15:07:33 EST Phone blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5892832 I'm blogging from my phone because my work computer is borked. I am PMSing and have a headache due to rain. My boss is trying to calm me down but is only succeeding in making me more annoyed. The only reason I haven't flipped out on him is because he brought in coconut custard pie for Pi Day. If I had brought my Chromebook with me today at least I could have gotten some work done. Or finished watching season 7 of Parks and Recreation, which is so phoned in it's awful. So I'm relegated to blo... Sat, 14 Mar 2015 13:23:06 EST My Morning, Spring, & Request for Netflix Recommendations http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5891669 I kept waking up for no reason all night, so I stayed in bed until 6:30 this morning, sort of half-waking/half-sleeping. Not really sure why, but my guess is that it was too warm in the bedroom. Plus with the time change, it's still dark when I get up now. Hubs was watching Cars and Coffee on Velocity this morning when I got out of bed, so I had coffee and goofed around on the net before putting the turkey chili in the crockpot. It's a gorgeous, warm spring day, but this morning I was feeling... Thu, 12 Mar 2015 10:37:15 EST She-Hulk & Cauliflower Chowder http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5891336 First off, I posted a blog entry on A Measured Life about my Wednesday Kettlebell Workout. You can find it here: <link>ameasuredlife.com/2015/03/11/wednesd<BR>ays-kettlebell-workout-the-circuit/ </link> <BR> <BR> Second, a message board thread popped up the other day talking about what your fears are in your weight loss journey. My fear is injuring myself so I can't do kettlebells anymore. My right shoulder has been bothering me a little bit lately. Not pain, really. Not a pulled muscle.... Wed, 11 Mar 2015 20:51:51 EST Busy Sunday! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5889701 (This blog brought to you by Fever Ray's "If I Had A Heart" because I'm watching Vikings right now.) <BR> <BR> I had quite the busy day yesterday. The Hubs woke me up at 6 in a panic because we forgot to change the clocks back and he was running out the door to work, so I started the day out a little groggily. I got up, made coffee, emptied the dishwasher, tossed the sweet potatoes for dinner into the oven to roast, then sat down with a cup of coffee to browse ye olde interwebs and finish th... Mon, 9 Mar 2015 08:53:36 EST Weekly Menu http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5888687 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1113005232.jpg"> Sat, 7 Mar 2015 13:01:45 EST Letter to My Future Self http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5888081 Borrowing this idea from JENSTRESS. <BR> <BR> Dear Future Andrea, <BR> <BR> You've struggled this year emotionally. You've fought anxiety, depression and loneliness, and been on a rollercoaster of emotion. You've had some rough times, and some pretty amazing days. But the thing you have to remember is, no matter how bad things got, you didn't collapse into a meat puddle of self-pity. You put on your big girl panties and did something about it. You never gave up. You f*cking dealt with it. ... Fri, 6 Mar 2015 11:05:38 EST Kettlebells, Virginia and the Animal Shelter (Long and Pic Heavy) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5887127 Hey everyone! <BR> <BR> Its been almost a week since my last blog, and I have a lot to catch you all up on. <BR> <BR> First off, I posted a new blog post on A Measured Life today about learning to love kettlebells. You can find it here: <link>ameasuredlife.com/2015/03/04/kettleb<BR>ells-my-introduction-to-loving-exercis<BR>e-part-i/ </link> <BR> <BR> Okay so I'll go back to last Friday. I left work around 1 pm and headed south to Richmond, VA to visit my mom. I got there a little afte... Wed, 4 Mar 2015 20:43:30 EST Affirmations and Regarding Friends http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5883361 Yesterday's Affirmations <BR> - I have people in my life that love me and are there for me; they are always with me in spirit. <BR> - If I cannot solve a problem on my own, I am resourceful enough to search out the answers. <BR> - I embrace our differences because that is what makes us all special. These differences can teach me something about life and about myself. <BR> <BR> Today's Affirmations <BR> - I have overcome many obstacles and difficult times in my life and I know that this may c... Thu, 26 Feb 2015 21:03:04 EST Daily Affirmations, Temporary Veganism and an OOPS http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5882081 - Creative energy surges through me and leads me to new and brilliant ideas. <BR> <BR> - I am blessed with an incredible family and wonderful friends. <BR> <BR> - Though these times are difficult, they are only a short phase of life. <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1665383830.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Tonight's dinner was VEGAN. This was not the reason I chose it. I chose the recipe because it sounded delicious, and it WAS. <BR> <BR> Quinoa seasoned with chives... Tue, 24 Feb 2015 20:59:39 EST New Blog Post on A Measured Life Plus Affirmation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5881390 New post up about working out even when you feel like poo! <BR> <BR> <link>ameasuredlife.com/2015/02/23/when-th<BR>e-going-gets-tough-the-tough-make-a-plan/ </link> <BR> <BR> Affirmations: <BR> <BR> - It is safe for me to be vulnerable. <BR> <BR> - Today I can listen and respond to my own needs. <BR> <BR> - I need care and attention. I am responsible for seeing that this need is met. <BR> <BR> <BR> Today was pretty good. I had some really vulnerable moments, and there were tears,... Mon, 23 Feb 2015 19:53:35 EST Affirmations & My Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5880801 -My ability to conquer my challenges is limitless; my potential to succeed is infinite. <BR> -Everything that is happening now is happening for my ultimate good. <BR> -I am at peace with all that has happened, is happening, and will happen. <BR> <BR> I had a good day. It started off precariously because of the weather, but by the time we were supposed to leave the roads were okay. Mia and I got to Lynn's at 1 pm, and we headed out for a new Korean restaurant, where I had bibimbap, beef and r... Sun, 22 Feb 2015 22:11:27 EST Daily Affirmations http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5880155 -I listen to my body’s needs with respect and kindness. <BR> <BR> -I am patient with myself and worthy of all the waiting. <BR> <BR> -I am responsible for what I do with my body so I only do what’s best. <BR> <BR> It's bedtime, so I'll keep this short. <BR> <BR> My day? There were moments that were hard. It snowed this afternoon, a few inches, and the overcast part of the day was difficult. But I found that big band and swing music helps me work on my smile. I actually felt like cleaning... Sat, 21 Feb 2015 21:15:54 EST I Think I See the Light at the End of the Tunnel http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5879543 I'm not here for long today, but I wanted to post my affirmations, and say that I didn't cry today. I almost cried, but I didn't. So that's good. I also smiled today. Double bonus. I did NOT work out this morning, but that was planned, and I will work out tomorrow instead. Tonight is date night, so we're going to see Anything Goes performed by a local community theater. <BR> <BR> - I accept others as they are and they in turn accept me as I am. <BR> - I am free to make my own choices and d... Fri, 20 Feb 2015 17:49:14 EST Muddling Through http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5878990 I'm still here, still tracking. I've lost a couple pounds in the last week. Probably a combination of anxiety and the cut phase catching up with me, but I'm happy. Down to 167.8 this morning, well on my way to getting back into maintenance range. Once I get below 165 I'll be back in range, so not far now, although I do expect to have a small setback while at my mom's, with the eating out and stuff. <BR> <BR> I have to tell you, though, I'm still looking forward to visiting her, but my anxie... Thu, 19 Feb 2015 20:30:48 EST Hey All http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5876933 I got walloped with a huge case of the lonelies again today, so I'm here, sharing with you, because I don't know where else to rant. <BR> <BR> If you asked me, I would never say I had a ton of friends. I have quite a few, even fewer really close friends, and very, very few I could tell anything to. The few I can tell anything to (or almost anything) have had schedule changes lately, and I haven't been able to talk to them much. Even less now. The truth is, I have you guys, and I have severa... Mon, 16 Feb 2015 18:00:48 EST New Post on AML, Sex Stories, Poor Planning and A Little Humor (with a dash of randomosity) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5875179 My last blog here received a lot of great comments, and I took it to AMeasuredLife.com and ran with it there: <BR> <BR> <link>ameasuredlife.com/2015/02/13/when-th<BR>e-scale-lies-the-importance-of-progres<BR>s-shots/ </link> <BR> <BR> I post there 3X a week, I just try not to bombard you guys with telling you about it. <em>100</em> <BR> <BR> So today I think I have a sign on my forehead that says "tell me your kinky sex stories" because I have heard some whoppers today. Nothing I c... Fri, 13 Feb 2015 14:26:56 EST Strength Training: Proof It Works http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5873936 So remember how a few weeks ago I was questioning if I was doing things right because my weight was up? I was cranky because it had been a year since I had gotten to 100 lbs down and I couldn't see any changes at all despite doing kettlebells for 5 months? Remember how I let the scale get me down despite all my hard work? Yeah, I'm an idiot. <BR> <BR> It took me until today to look at my 100 lb down photos and actually stick them side by side with photos I took this morning during my workou... Wed, 11 Feb 2015 14:25:22 EST NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5873121 I just went to check my FitBit and I FORGOT IT AT HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *sobs* I got over 8k steps the last 2 days and was really hoping to continue the trend today. *sigh* The day was starting off so well, too! <BR> <BR> I woke up, as usual, at 5, peed, weight myself, 170.4, same as two days ago, boo, made coffee, and decided that instead of sitting on my butt that I was going to work on a copycat recipe for A Measured Life: NatureBox's Coconut Date Energy Bites. When I was done with that th... Tue, 10 Feb 2015 10:21:45 EST More Clothes, Plus Friends & Tacos http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5872465 I had a "shopping spree" recently, AKA, I went to the thrift store and actually bought stuff! The Hubs was home sick yesterday, which was bad for him considering my PMS was peaking. He had some sort of gastrointestinal bug that didn't make him feel sick, but made him need to use the bathroom rather urgently at times, which as a phone tech support agent, is pretty impossible for him to do at work. So, he was "sick". He went grocery shopping with me in the morning, then after lunch we went to t... Mon, 9 Feb 2015 11:09:17 EST So Sleepy! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5871283 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1857035405.jpg"> <BR> <BR> While the tiny germaphobe inside of me wonders how you would clean this pillow blanket, I have to say I would love a nap in one of these things. I'm super sleepy today! I woke up in the very middle of a dream this morning, so I was groggy, plus the dream was me being really angry at my husband for spending $650 on like 5 things at the grocery store. $250 of that was for a "duck butt". Bizarre. Despite it being in ... Sat, 7 Feb 2015 13:46:11 EST Adapting Recipes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5870774 Hey all! Don't have a ton to say today (except I AM RAVENOUS), but I did want to mentioned I posted a new blog today on A Measured Life. It's all about adapting delicious-looking recipes to fit into your calorie count. I took a Pork and Cider Stew recipe from Food & Wine magazine that was 742 calories per serving and 58 grams of fat and turned it into a delicious, healthy (and COMPLETE) meal at 440 calories and 18.5 grams of fat. Check it out! <BR> <BR> <link>ameasuredlife.com/2015/02/06/h... Fri, 6 Feb 2015 15:40:58 EST Skin pics (*gasp*) and a question http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5869491 (This blog is brought to you in part by the following songs: Hozier's "Take Me To Church", Vance Joy's "Riptide", and Maroon 5's "Coming Back For You". I admit I haven't been listening to a lot of music lately except the crap on the radio because I've been avoiding music that makes me emotional AT ALL, because, you know, emotions and stuff.) <BR> <BR> So, I've had several questions recently about my skin and how it looks after losing a hundred pounds plus. I have a few pics posted on my main... Wed, 4 Feb 2015 16:01:53 EST Clothes Shopping is Ridiculous (And Sometimes Fun) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5868630 So I spent most of Monday being really FRACKING bored. It was the first Monday in weeks I had been totally alone, the weather was sh*t and I had cabin fever. We got our tax refund already (I am so on top of this it's not funny) so I decided I was going to go check out the clearance rack at Kohl's. What I discovered was shopping by myself can be both fun and kind of ridiculous. <BR> <BR> I sorted through a bunch of racks and grabbed a few things to bring with me into the dressing room. Pleas... Tue, 3 Feb 2015 12:07:52 EST Yearly Goals In Review - January http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5867331 On January 1st I made some year-long goals to work on. January was a difficult month for me, but overall I think it went pretty well! <BR> <BR> Long Term Goals: <BR> -Do kettlebells 3x per week (I haven't missed a day since the beginning of September so I think this should be easy). Missed ONE planned day. Did some extra cardio instead that day. <BR> -Drink 16+ glasses of water every day (I aim for 20 but sometimes I slack a little and end up with 12 or 14). SUCCESS! <BR> -Blog on ameasur... Sun, 1 Feb 2015 17:50:18 EST The Perfect Storm Gives Away to Clear Skies http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5865976 Once again, I've recognized something about myself with the help of friends and family. <BR> <BR> I'm not particularly new age-y. I don't follow alternative medicine or get my tarot read. I only occasionally read my horoscope. I am interested in astrological sun signs (I am a Taurini, aka a Taurus-Gemini cusp baby) and I do believe that different people have different sensitivities to the world. I have, over time, come to believe that I am a bit of an empath. I used to just say I was a good... Fri, 30 Jan 2015 14:17:05 EST Of Inspiration, Impostors and Perspective http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5861733 First off, I'm going to apologize for something I don't need to apologize for. I apologize for my blogs being less about weight and physical health and food and more about my personal psychological issues. I don't need to apologize for this because to be honest, I think you guys like hearing about it. And today, I'm writing this not just to get it off my chest, but because I think it might be useful to someone out there. <BR> <BR> I've been hearing a word lately, spoken directly in relation... Sat, 24 Jan 2015 17:51:11 EST Is it Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD)? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5859675 Thanks to my SparkMama GSEATON for blogging about her SAD today. It got me thinking. <BR> <BR> My mood this winter has been fairly grim. I've noticed a leaning towards negativity (I'm no optimist on my best days, but I'm a realist) and frankly, it bothers me. I hate feeling down. I love to laugh and I want to laugh more. The last day or two I've felt really glum. I thought it was my anxiety, and while I do feel a very slight anxiety it's certainly not to the extent that it was around Thanks... Wed, 21 Jan 2015 16:37:40 EST Am I Doing This Right? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5858584 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1609057304.jpg"> <BR> <BR> At the very end of August of 2014 I hit my goal weight of 160 lbs. Not long after I added kettlebells to my workout routine and started eating to maintenance calories. Over the last 4 months, my weight has climbed 11 pounds. I wondered if I was screwing it up, if I was a failure at this maintenance thing. I justified the weight gain by saying that my clothes still fit fine, and even seemed looser. This was true, b... Tue, 20 Jan 2015 09:39:58 EST We're All Mad Here Plus A Measured Life Blog Post http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5858240 Thanks for all the lovely comments on my blog Saturday. Yesterday wasn't great for me either but today was good. Today was my TEA PARTY! I started out the day with a great workout (3 2-minute planks without a fail), then commenced prepping food: cucumber sandwiches, coronation chicken salad, scones, tiny corn muffins topped with ham and cheese, almond sandies, butternut squash tarts. While I prepped, I texted a friend, which lifted my mood considerably. Then I had my last session with Brian, ... Mon, 19 Jan 2015 20:39:55 EST