ADARKARA's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=ADARKARA ADARKARA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Recovering! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5968463 As you probably know, I completed not only my first 5K this weekend but it was also a mud run. You can find the full write up on my experience at my off-Spark blog: <BR> <BR> <link>www.ameasuredlife.com </link> <BR> <BR> Sunday I was tired and achy. Monday I still hurt but I dove right back into my workout routine. Tuesday I did my Brutal Abs workout and I think I may have wrenched my neck. It bugged me all day long. I got a neck and shoulder massage from the Hubs last night and it fel... Wed, 29 Jul 2015 07:58:57 EST Update: Emotions, Physical, Ramblings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5964957 Monday evening I got walloped by a bout of major pity party. My anxiety has been a thousand times better ever since I had that epiphany, but I've just had a lot of crap on my mind lately. A lot of people around me seem to be having relationship issues, and I've unfortunately been letting it affect me. A good friend of mine just got separated from her husband of 9 years and she's very distraught, another friend is struggling with sexual identity at 34 years old, and yet another friend is havin... Wed, 22 Jul 2015 14:07:52 EST The Truth of Weighing During Maintenance http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5963098 Here are my last 9 weigh-ins: <BR> <BR> 169.8 <BR> 169.2 <BR> 169 <BR> 170.2 <BR> 173.4 (Chinese food!) <BR> 174.2 (SALT) <BR> 171.6 (see?) <BR> 171 <BR> 170.4 <BR> <BR> Average: 171 <BR> <BR> My DANGER weight is 175, so all is good! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/7fe0dd79-ecb0-4576-91d9-1802248d0f95.gif"> <BR> Sun, 19 Jul 2015 07:51:53 EST Tired, but Better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5961834 I was venting in my last blog. I don't think one episode of bad PMS is enough to run to the doctor for, but I will address it during my annual which should be in the next few weeks. I will not be going back on birth control, it gives me high blood pressure and it makes me crazier, so I'll try to deal with it in other ways. <BR> <BR> Last night I went to the gym as a guest with some friends from my walking group. I did: <BR> <BR> 10 minutes elliptical / 1 mile <BR> some weight machines (I o... Thu, 16 Jul 2015 16:22:39 EST Being a Woman is Stupid Sometimes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5960762 My PMS is ridiculous this month. RIDICULOUS. My mood swings are so bad I'm giving myself whiplash. I go from being angry about something, to sobbing for no reason, to being calm and mostly fine within minutes. I am feeling INCREDIBLY insecure about my relationships, especially those where we haven't spoken in a few days. I'm craving reassurance, and I know it's all hormones, but these feelings are so very real. I feel needy, desperately needy. I'm eating more than I should and I'm eating junk... Tue, 14 Jul 2015 14:55:59 EST Wanna Be A Guest Blogger? Plus Positivity Stuff http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5958642 I'm looking for people who want to write a guest blog for my off-Spark blog <link>www.ameasuredlife.com </link> It has to be about one of the following topics: food, fitness or frugality. You can even write how you lost weight, or how you got really into a specific form of workout, etc. Please send me a SparkMail if you're interested. Make sure you include the topic you'd like to write about. My next post will be a review of the "Brutal Abs" video! <BR> <BR> Now onto positivity. I'm PMSin... Fri, 10 Jul 2015 13:57:03 EST I AM Maintaining plus Running Alternative Workout Plan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5957510 So I've been writing that I've been "maintaining". In quotes. My "panic weight" was 175, up 15 lbs from from my goal of 160. I've never weighed in at 175 or more since I hit goal. In fact, I've managed to stay between 165 and 175 since October. Maybe my maintenance range is slightly higher and slightly wider than I'd like, but I've been maintaining. Period. I might as well give myself credit for it, right? <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/8994434c-0884-4a4b-ae8b-f0... Wed, 8 Jul 2015 12:04:10 EST My Left Foot http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5957043 I tried to run a 5K this morning and ran for less than 3 minutes before I stopped. My left foot immediately started hurting. I think I may have a metatarsal stress fracture. Boo. So I'm going to pause my running for a few weeks so I'm able to do my mud run. I didn't pay anything for entry, but I DID rope a friend into paying the $70 entry fee, so I'll feel really bad if I can't do it. Plus I'd really like to not injure myself further, because if I can't keep doing kettlebells I think I might ... Tue, 7 Jul 2015 16:33:33 EST I'm Here, I Swear! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5955954 I have had a very busy week. I almost wrote drama filled, but in all honesty none of the drama was mine. I'm rife with PMS, though. It's like I want to murder anyone I spend more than 10 minutes with. I told my husband today that I would strangle him in his sleep if he didn't get rid of the balloons work gave him THREE WEEKS AGO. They're gone now! <BR> <BR> Thursday I ran almost a 5k. Josh and I didn't do sprints this week because he hurt his foot, and I haven't run since Thurs, because my k... Sun, 5 Jul 2015 18:25:48 EST Busy Weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5953418 Sunday was the Mini Mega Adoption Event for the Animal Adoption Center (the animal shelter where I volunteer). I arrived at the shelter at 9:30 AM where I got lucky enough to "claim" little 5-month-old Blondie. Here she is napping on a blanket while waiting for her new family to go get her new big brother for a meet and greet. (And yes, she has her paw on my leg! *squee*) <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/791bdd4b-1e78-48ff-895f-0c4b884d78d8.jpg"> <BR> <BR> She got... Tue, 30 Jun 2015 15:15:08 EST The Bad, the Good and the Awesome http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5951408 (This blog is brought to you by the entire Offspring album Smash because it's effing awesome. Period.) <BR> <BR> I've been super tired this week. I haven't wanted to go to work, and when I'm at work, I want to go home. No reason other than the air conditioner was broken until today and the heat made me cranky and there wasn't enough for me to do. My tiredness has contributed to some poor planning and some poor eating. Yesterday I had my quarterly doc appointment, which went better than expec... Fri, 26 Jun 2015 15:35:06 EST Good Weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5949808 With Father's Day having been Sunday The Hubs and I were a little worried the two of us would be a bit gloomy (we have both lost our dads in the last 5 years) so we decided we'd go to a minor league baseball game on Father's Day to get us out of the house. Mother Nature, however, decided we'd be better off going to the movies to see Jurassic World and sent thunderstorms our way! So we saw the movie at matinee pricing (which is good because Chris Pratt didn't take his shirt off ONCE so it wasn... Tue, 23 Jun 2015 15:02:28 EST Hammock Weather http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5948220 (Ahhhh! This blog is brought to you by a song today! Can you believe it? It's been ages! Okay, so it's Maroon 5's "This Summer's Gonna Hurt Like A Motherf*****" because I can't stop listening to it and I'm not ashamed of that! Anything that makes me feel good enough to dance in my chair is good enough for me.) <BR> <BR> So since my epiphany the other day I've felt a sort of... lightness of spirit? My anxiety has been low (still journaling that, so some of it could have to do with hormones) ... Sat, 20 Jun 2015 13:08:26 EST Worthiness Quickie http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5947335 I'm going to go back to doing affirmations if I can, but my breakthrough yesterday has really helped me realize a bunch of stuff about myself. I think it's less that I don't love myself (I do, actually) and more that I don't trust my own decisions and choices, despite having an excellent track record. So anyway, I want to share a photo of myself from the Adventure Run the other night. I had a lot of candid photos of myself taken, and I didn't hate any of them. Bonus! This one isn't candid, bu... Thu, 18 Jun 2015 16:45:50 EST Being Worthy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5946632 There hasn't been a ton to say in the food or fitness department these days. I haven't been perfect, but I haven't been bad either. But I know you won't mind when I tell you that this blog is about emotions and self-worth, because you really seem to like that I share this stuff! <BR> <BR> I've always, as long as I can remember, questioned the validity of my personal relationships. I've always felt insecure and had doubts as to whether or not I'm truly loved. I've always had insecurity about ... Wed, 17 Jun 2015 11:49:02 EST Haha, I Love The Universe http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5943288 From my "A Note From the Universe" e-mail subscription: <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> If I were a business professor and you were my student, Andrea, today's lesson might sound like this: <BR> <BR> In the "real" world, it's better to have loved and lost, tried and failed, dreamed and missed, than to sit out your turn in fear. Because the loss, the failure, and the miss, however painful, are merely temporary market adjustments, soon forgotten. Whereas the love, the adventure, and the dream are like ... Thu, 11 Jun 2015 06:33:26 EST Guess Who Has Two Thumbs and a Case of the Rambles? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5942373 This gal! <BR> <BR> Quick recap since my last blog. I've been doing well with keeping my anxiety journal. I'm tracking anxiety levels on a 10 scale, my exercise, the weather, and the barometric pressure in hopes of seeing a pattern. I've only been tracking this since June 1st, so I'm not jumping to any conclusions just yet. <BR> <BR> Friday <BR> Friday I was alone in the back room. My anxiety levels were relatively low (2/10) and the sun was peeking out of the clouds for the most part. I ... Tue, 9 Jun 2015 13:44:38 EST Being My Own Anchor http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5939582 Lots of stuff going on in my world this week. Nothing terrible. <BR> <BR> We got a letter informing us that our apartment complex wants to raise the rent AGAIN, another 4.5%, which would be the equivalent of about $150 a month. For the third year in a row. Our lease expires in January. I'd love to be able to move, but they keep raising our rent and we can't save a significant enough amount of money to do so. <BR> <BR> We're considering getting dog training for Bingley to quell the leash a... Thu, 4 Jun 2015 10:38:33 EST Cake Confession http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5938032 Remember back when my coworker Josh's wife (who is also named Andrea) made a pound cake and brought it over for St. Patty's Day? Remember that work was closed the next day so I stayed home and ate four pieces of cake? And remember (I don't think I actually told you about this so just pretend you remember) last week when The Hubs made Portuguese Golden cake for his coworkers but he overbeat the batter so it was tough and dense and he left it all cut up on the dining room table and I came home... Mon, 1 Jun 2015 18:18:21 EST It's Only Stormy on the Outside http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5935811 Today has been a good day. I set the alarm for 6 am, made coffee and goofed off until 6:30 when I ate a banana and got changed for my run. I did a good job planning the run so I didn't have to spend too much time during the 8 minute run segments going uphill. Because uphills suck. (And seriously, C25K App, Tuesday was 3 5-minute runs, today was 2 8-minute runs, and the next day is 20 minutes with no breaks? Kind of a leap, amirite?) I didn't really think I could do 2 8-minute runs, but I figu... Thu, 28 May 2015 16:39:43 EST A Pretty Good Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5933649 The Hubs has snagged a job in a different department at work, and his schedule has changed again, putting him back on the same days off as me! Since I JUST LAST MONTH got used to not having him around on my weekend, it's been an adjustment, and today is only the first day of many. I'm not giving up my walking group or the shelter, and he doesn't want me to, so that's good. And now, instead of being home alone in the mornings, I'll be home along after work for about 2 hours, which isn't bad. ... Sun, 24 May 2015 21:06:51 EST New Blog on AML http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5932696 Thanks for all the wonderful comments on my body image blog "Untitled Blog"! <BR> <BR> I am so appreciative that it was received so well. I've written a blog about positive body image over on A Measured Life. <BR> <BR> You can find it here: <BR> <BR> <link>ameasuredlife.com/2015/05/22/inspira<BR>tion-in-strange-places-ronda-rousey/ </link> <BR> <BR> I hope you all have a great weekend! Fri, 22 May 2015 19:29:28 EST Did I Pinpoint It? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5932158 I thought I'd been getting better emotionally. Last week was pretty good. The week before was pretty good, too. This week? EPIC CRASH. Sobbing during yoga in the morning (mornings are my worst times for my anxiety) and rainy/overcast/cool days didn't help. <BR> <BR> This morning I did yoga, and I got choked up but didn't cry. (Thanks to a SparkFriend who assured me that crying during yoga is apparently a common practice.) It has been really overcast and rainy today. I got into work and Watc... Thu, 21 May 2015 19:12:01 EST Night and Day (IT'S MAH BIRFDAY) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5931015 This day started out poorly. As many of you know, my emotions are incredibly affected by the weather. It's super annoying. This morning I woke up, not sad, but with tension. Like I wanted to cry for NO REASON. It was foggy and humid and generally icky outside. I watched a couple episodes of Game of Thrones, which is not a show to watch if you're already feeling sort of bad, then did a yoga video. It was only 12 minutes long, and I felt physically fine afterwards, and I saw the next one was on... Tue, 19 May 2015 20:51:59 EST In Which I Am a Little Dumb - Plus Birthday Plans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5929785 So I'm a little behind with my 30-day yoga challenge, and I was feeling guilty about it. I'm not feeling well today. I think it's just a combination of lady things and the humidity. Today is my rest day usually, but I figured I'd get in 2 yoga videos to make up some times. I don't feel well enough to do the second one. I felt really awful about it, and was complaining about it to my buddy CATUTT. I said I didn't feel like I'd done anything this week, and that I was being a lazy bum basically.... Sun, 17 May 2015 20:01:13 EST Roadrunner Cherry Hill Adventure Run: Walking Edition http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5928302 The walking group I joined a couple months back did an Adventure Run tonight for our local branch of Roadrunner running stores. It was my first time doing one of these, and it was a blast! The premise is simple: your run or walk to different checkpoints and do a task to earn tickets, which are entries into the prize drawing afterwards. <BR> <BR> Our first checkpoint was a CrossFit Box. We had to hold dumbbells at our shoulders and do a squat press. Everyone was scrambling for the light weig... Thu, 14 May 2015 21:44:12 EST Untitled Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5927042 So I've been at the "maintenance" game for going on 9 months now. I put it in quotes because I've maintained 100 lbs lost the entire time, but I haven't stayed within 3% of my goal weight. It's been bugging me lately that I can't seem to get back to my goal weight. I'm WAY more fit than I was at goal, but I'm letting the number get to me. Why? Because I hit the number before. It bugs me that I can't seem to do it again. <BR> <BR> I'm also struggling with my body image right now. (Hey, liste... Tue, 12 May 2015 15:48:11 EST It Was Supposed to be a Rest Day... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5925941 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/9/l299273302.jpg"> <BR> <BR> That's over 12k steps before 6 pm. I haven't done a workout. <BR> <BR> Yesterday my anxiety was crazy high in the morning. Then I did a 30 minute yoga video before work, and I felt sick to my stomach when I was done. I don't know if it was anxiety or what I ate before yoga, but I almost called out of work. And this says something, because I NEVER call out of work. But I decided that I wasn't going to actually BE ... Sun, 10 May 2015 19:28:57 EST The Magic of Spring and the Magic of My Screwy Brain http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5924446 I slept in a little today, as has become my norm on Thursdays. I had been wide awake in the middle of the night from about 3 - 4 am, so I managed to fall back to sleep until about 5:45. I got put, made coffee, putzed around, then did one of the two yoga videos I knew I had to do today, then went for my run. It was harder today than it was on Tuesday, but I chalked it up to a hard workout the day before, plus the general lows of hungry week! I got home, took a cool shower, prepped dinner and... Thu, 7 May 2015 19:48:12 EST Weekend Recap! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5922335 Okay so it's technically still MY weekend for another 12 hours, but here's a recap of the "weekend" thus far. <BR> <BR> Friday <BR> Josh made me rearrange my entire week to run after work on Friday. We got into a little tiff Friday morning at work. In summary, I had to be "the boss" and get him back on track in terms of his work performance. He spent most of the day giving me the silent treatment, but we worked it out before the end of the day and went for our run. Well, half of our run. J... Mon, 4 May 2015 10:06:06 EST The Universe http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5920576 Got this in my inbox this morning: <BR> <BR> "The evolution of faith, Andrea, usually spanning millions of years, typically looks like this: <BR> <BR> Not believing in "the Universe." <BR> <BR> Believing in "the Universe," but secretly doubting it, too. <BR> <BR> Fearing "the Universe," but secretly loving it, too. <BR> <BR> Loving "the Universe," but secretly fearing it, too. <BR> <BR> Realizing that "the Universe" was you, all along. <BR> <BR> Yours truly, <BR> The Universe" <BR>... Fri, 1 May 2015 05:41:47 EST Pho, Flowers & Rest http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5920428 Yesterday I left Bingley at home because I was meeting my bestie for dinner. She was in town taking a nursing class, and we decided to meet for Vietnamese pho. Pho, if you don't know, is a noodle soup known for its exceptional broth. It's like chicken soup for the Vietnamese, it cures what ails ya! I decided to be adventurous and have the pho made with rare eye round beef, brisket, and beef tendon. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/3/l835587133.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Beef... Thu, 30 Apr 2015 21:22:14 EST Thank You! (Motivator of the Day) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5919500 I woke up this morning and checked my phone to find a notification about being Motivator of the Day! Talk about waking up to good news! It's also a beautiful day outside and I'm meeting my bestie for dinner after work, so this is really starting off on the right foot. <BR> <BR> For those of you who may be meeting me for the first time, I hit my goal weight of 160 lbs after losing 115 lbs at the end of August 2014, and have spent the last 8 months maintaining 100+ lbs of that lost while buil... Wed, 29 Apr 2015 07:16:20 EST I Swear To You I'm Not Avoiding You! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5918719 I am exhausted. Which is good. Because tired means too tired to have a bad day! I woke up with the alarm at 5 am, and goofed off for a while until 7 when I started my ladder workout. It took me 90 minutes to get through it and the ab workout! Planks were SO HARD this morning. Then I ate breakfast and showered and walked Bing (short) then headed to Wegman's to find some cheese curds for the poutine The Hubs will be making me on Thursday. <BR> <BR> On the way there I was treated poorly by an ... Mon, 27 Apr 2015 20:41:26 EST Growing Pains http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5915625 My SparkBuddy AHTRAP commented on my last blog and reminded me that I haven't updated in a few days. <BR> <BR> I'm doing better, yes. <BR> <BR> Sunday was a good day: my bestie and I met in Toms River, NJ for lunch, where we had dirt cheap yet delicious and filling falafel! Seriously, $6 for 6 falafel balls, salad and a ton of rice plus a fountain soda for six bucks. Insane! They used nutmeg in it though, which really threw me off. <BR> <BR> Then we headed to Island Beach State Park whe... Wed, 22 Apr 2015 08:11:19 EST Exercise is the Best Medicine http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5913592 Ugh. This week? It's totally sucked. I've been a wreck: crying everyday due to a) hormones b) depression c) abandonment issues AGAIN and d) as of last night, the death of a friend. (And my frickin' butthole neighbor was screaming at his wife again.) I know feeling like this isn't going to last forever. I haven't lost hope. But EFFFF. Seriously. EFFF. <BR> <BR> I postponed my workout yesterday due to "feminine issues". Okay, look, I had cramps, but it was mostly my lower back hurting. So I d... Sat, 18 Apr 2015 19:23:24 EST Hi. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5912867 Don't have much to say lately, hence the lack of blogs. Having a very hard time right now. Sick of dealing with women's hormones, sick of weather that makes me feel awful, sick of crying or feeling like I want to. I need to just breathe and get through today. It sucks feeling this way, and I hate it. <BR> <BR> I'll be back when I have something to bring to the table. Fri, 17 Apr 2015 10:27:04 EST It Was A Good Day... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5909594 Because it was the day of my Godmother's annual egg hunt! <BR> <BR> It started off by me not working. I relaxed and grocery shopped and walked Bingley. I saw these on our walk: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/5/l654841669.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Then I had a HUGE lunch for 240 calories: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1966939271.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Then Bingley and I went to the farm: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/... Sat, 11 Apr 2015 20:50:10 EST An Athlete? A Beautiful Spirit? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5909050 I live in a large apartment complex. The complex has 21 2-story buildings with 4-16 apartments per building. It backs up to a golf course on one side, single family homes on another side, and townhomes on the third side. (The 4th side is a road.) I often walk Bingley around the complex, and since it sort of makes a figure 8 pattern, I consider the small loop his "short" walk and the total loop his "long walk". The long walk goes out to the main road, as we live in one of the golf course build... Fri, 10 Apr 2015 19:16:55 EST Rain, TV, Boredom http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5908142 It's only been 2 days since I blogged, but it feels longer. Maybe it's because I've been both tired and feeling like a bottomless pit (TOM is due in a few days). I've been remembering my dreams the last few days. Some of them have been a little sad. The weather has been overcast and rainy, and, as you well know, this brings me down a little. I'm trying to keep myself distracted with TV, blogging, and researching blog topics for A Measured Life. <BR> <BR> Here is a list of the shows I'm curr... Thu, 9 Apr 2015 08:21:59 EST My Weekend & New Post on A Measured Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5906873 I hope you all had a wonderful weekend! Mine was pretty darn good. <BR> <BR> My Easter morning started with sleeping in to an INSANE 7:15 am. <em>100</em> I got Bingley out for his first emptying of the day and then prepped the cottage pies for dinner before hopping in the shower. Upon exiting the shower I was greeted by an e-mail from the Animal Adoption Center telling me the name of the dog I would be handling at the adoption event. Dinah. I checked their website: no photo. BUT... DINA... Tue, 7 Apr 2015 07:01:52 EST It's My THIRD Sparkaversary! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5905149 <em>384</em> <BR> <BR> In honor of my THIRD year here at SparkPeople, I decided I would go back and poke through my previous anniversary posts. <BR> <BR> On April 4, 2013 I posted that I had lost 58 lbs and 29 inches in my first year on Spark. <BR> <BR> On April 3, 2014 (I think I was celebrating early) I posted that I had lost 84 lbs total but neglected the inches. (I'm terrible with logging inches, but turns out it was 8 inches total.) I also posted this pic on Facebook: <BR> <BR> ... Sat, 4 Apr 2015 06:29:32 EST Easter Plans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5904953 I'm not religious. I grew up Presbyterian but pretty much stopped going to church after confirmation except for Christmas Eve (because it was a candlelight service and I loved that), and then when my dad got married to my step-mom, we stopped going to church all together, because she had kind of a vendetta against Christianity due to her upbringing in a fundamentalist church. Even when I was young, Easter was never my favorite holiday. It's either about death to me (crucifixion) or bunnies an... Fri, 3 Apr 2015 19:03:06 EST Phew - What A Day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5903754 So, so, SO many factors go into how I feel in the morning. The weather is one, it was overcast yesterday and rained last night. I am particularly sensitive to changes in barometric pressure. On top of this, I'm dead in the center of my cycle, and my anxiety is always highest around ovulation. TMI I know, but sorry. Third, I'm worried about a close friend. Fourth, I didn't sleep well last night, waking at 2 am for some unknown reason. And fifth and final (as far as I'm aware), the alarm woke m... Wed, 1 Apr 2015 19:29:35 EST 2 Minutes 30 Seconds http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5902500 So I mentioned recently that I haven't really been pushing myself as much as I should with my workouts. Well, this morning I was feeling gloomy (I'm tellin' ya, mornings are made of hell for me these days) and I finally hauled my ass off the computer around 7:15 and did my ladder workout. I alternated regular 2-handed swings with full swings each round to add a little pep, and tried to take shorter breaks in between rounds. But the kicker was when I did abs, I told myself to try a 2 minute 30... Mon, 30 Mar 2015 18:18:41 EST Audio Blog Regarding Self-Consciousness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5902168 Apparently this didn't work. Click here to listen: <BR> <link>drive.google.com/file/d/0By-FS8bhzrH<BR>wM2N2VE5HYk5sRXM/view?usp=sharing </link> <BR> <BR> <BR> I recorded this in my car yesterday on the way to the Produce Market, but it's about feeling self-conscious about your looks. I'd like to add that in the last 6 months, there has only been one day where I was absolutely 100% confident about my looks. <BR> <BR> I'm also thinking about creating a spark team for A Measured Life rea... Mon, 30 Mar 2015 08:58:16 EST Holy Mackarel, she VLOGGED http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5901776 It's short, but I'm easing back into it. I've actually already gone to the walking meetup by the time I'm posting this, and had a great time! <BR> <BR> Also, does anyone know how to upload just an AUDIO file? I recorded something this morning that's way more verbose than this vlog and I'd like to post it but I'm not sure how. Maybe I'll need to host it somewhere else and link it here. Hope you all had a great weekend! Sun, 29 Mar 2015 15:47:02 EST Weather, Cooking and Comedy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5900717 So after having a relatively decent week despite major technological aggravation at work, the overcast weather is taking its toll on me again. I'm pretty sure I forgot to take my vitamin D this morning, and I didn't use my Happy Light. I don't have enough to do at work to distract me, either, because my work computer is dead and I'm waiting for a replacement. I don't have any plans for this weekend, and that freaks me out a little. Am I going to be okay on my own? I don't know. Maybe I'll go ... Fri, 27 Mar 2015 14:30:11 EST Sabotage, Selfishness and Gratefulness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5899296 So my SparkBuddy BOBCATGIRL76 posted a blog about self sabotage, and I realized I've been justifying extra food lately for no reason. I was fixing Josh's computer at work yesterday when I noticed his dry roasted peanuts sitting on the windowsill. I decided I would have 3 or 4 peanuts while I was installing some software. That 3-4 peanuts turned into 3-4 handfuls. I didn't weigh or measure, but I can only estimate that I ate 300-400 CALORIES worth of peanuts. On top of not paying attention to ... Wed, 25 Mar 2015 09:11:18 EST Pin Up Girl & Positivity http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5898970 While my Tuesday hasn't been as great as Saturday, Sunday and Monday, it didn't suck. I had a couple gloomy moments late morning because it was overcast, but I spent my time at work installing a new harddrive and all the subsequent software on my coworkers computer so that we'd have one functioning computer as I waited for the video card for mine to come in. The video card came in, and I installed it in about 60 seconds. But when I went to plug in my monitor cable I realized I needed an adapt... Tue, 24 Mar 2015 17:58:19 EST