ACTIONHEROFOX's SparkPeople Blog ACTIONHEROFOX's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Death and Renewal I feel as though my heart is wanting me to say something about losing my friend and what transpired because of it. So here it goes.... <BR> <BR> His name was Chris. He was 25 and had a daughter who was 6. He died the first week of December. From what I've been told he was hiding out in the woods from his probation officer and froze to death in the snow. <BR> <BR> He had always had trouble with the law and drugs. That was just Chris. I met him when I was 14, we went to school together. He w... Fri, 20 Dec 2013 19:56:00 EST Back again I keep thinking that I can leave this site and do it all on my own, that I don't need anyone. Then I get a reality check. I saw pictures of me at a wedding and I thought to myself, "How embarrassing. You look like you're pregnant." I wanted to delete all those photos off the computer but they belonged to someone else. I may be slowly shrinking from a size 28 to a size 24-22 now but I still look the same. It's awful to think about that. I'm not truly any thinner. <BR> <BR> I know my high sch... Wed, 13 Nov 2013 11:45:12 EST My Motivational Video I created a little video to bring me up when I lose hope. Mon, 23 Sep 2013 01:31:13 EST I started a Sparkteam named The Cumbercollective I needed something new, something that would hold me up to the light and make it possible for me to fight. Being a leader of a group would definitely do that. I didn't have to think long before I knew what kind of group I wanted to be a leader of. It was staring right at me on my Sparkpage: Benedict Cumberbatch. <BR> <BR> I'm a fan of his, mind you - not a fanatic. Us fans call ourselves a myriad of nicknames: Cumberbabes, Benaddicts, Cumbercookies, Cumberb*tches, and The Cumbercollective. ... Sun, 22 Sep 2013 19:17:45 EST Update #A - Ampere I've been on a water drinking streak for the last 4 days. It hasn't been easy. I always feel bloated when I drink 8+ glasses of water. My skin looks clearer and I don't look so tired. The dark circles under my eyes are looking, well - less dark. <BR> <BR> I've got some ideas rolling around in my head. Classes start in the late part of September. I leave for vacation on the 29th of this month. I figure that when I get back I could see if I can fit yoga and zumba into my busy schedule. Zumba ... Thu, 22 Aug 2013 10:57:21 EST Everything is a challenge when you're overweight Everything is a challenge when you're overweight. <BR> <BR> I find this to be true. Everything takes effort. Getting up off the couch is like trying to propel myself into space with a slingshot. One....two....three.... and up. What happened to the days when I could get up without "looking like a pregnant person trying to get up"? <BR> <BR> Do I want to go to the gym? Heck no. Do I want to do the at home Jane Fonda workout? Not really. WHY? Because they both hurt. <BR> <BR> Maybe I'm jus... Thu, 18 Jul 2013 11:26:07 EST From Here to There ~ Well, I'd like to say I've got off track but I suppose that wouldn't be entirely true. I've been a solid 260 for approx a month now, maintaining - if you will. However, even though I haven't been at this weight since a year ago, it's not my big goal. It's my partial goal.... like a 1/4 goal. I wear a comfortable size 22 Tall (and sometimes if I'm lazy, a baggy 26 that shows my undergarments). Drawstrings have been a god-send. I actually pose for group and single photos now instead of hiding i... Fri, 28 Jun 2013 10:58:19 EST The Diet Diet is a four letter word, both figuratively and actual. Diets make me feel like I'm in a pit. Everyone around me is eating nummy cookies and fried Chinese food ~ both of which I love.... <BR> <BR> So, here's my confession. I've been eating whatever and going to the gym. I go to the gym 3-5x a week for 30-60 minutes at a time. I love the elliptical with the moving arm bars. I've been eating things like cookies, brie, fried squid, fried eggs, bread, and drinking wine/beer. <BR> <BR> I've n... Sun, 2 Jun 2013 14:57:14 EST "You Will Never Be That Skinny." I've heard this thing lately. It slips into casual conversation and bites at me. "You will never be that skinny." <BR> <BR> Oddly enough, I'm not the one saying it. I'm shooting for the stars and talking about someday wearing a bikini. It doesn't stop me from thinking about it. How does one know how skinny I can be? Am I destined to always be shaped like a linebacker who ate one too many croissants? <BR> <BR> Hmm, it makes me think. I've never been skinny in my adult life. I wouldn't know... Mon, 20 May 2013 19:33:14 EST My Week of Acceptance (Challenge for week 13) <BR> <BR> During this week I had a challenge to accept myself the way I am as a part of the "Springing into Action" team and boy did I work. <BR> <BR> Accepting myself has always been hard. I've always wanted to be just like everyone else and perhaps maybe even a little bit better. (What can I say? I'm competitive and a perfectionist.) So, I tasked myself 4 goals. <BR> <BR> 1. Accept that you are smart, wholeheartedly. <BR> <BR> 2. Accept that your body has some great stuff going on a... Sat, 18 May 2013 13:41:47 EST Change is Scary So, while some people may be excited and overjoyed with weight-loss, I have a fear. I'm not saying I'm any different than anyone else. I'm sure a lot of people fear losing weight and here's why: Change is scary! <BR> <BR> Why is change scary? If you are stuck or stagnant at a certain place, that's all you know. Changing or moving forth from that place is going into an unknown charter. You don't know what you're supposed to do here or how to do it. It's like trying to use quantum physics or a... Tue, 7 May 2013 13:35:56 EST 16 pounds lost - complete with pictures and future goals <img src=""> <BR> Currently at 263 <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Previously at 278 <BR> <BR> So, it's the inevitable, the 16 pound weight loss blog. <em>409</em> <BR> <BR> Wow, I was pretty sure I wasn't going to see that number again anytime soon. I've been here before. I've lost up to 30 pounds and then turned around and gained it back. What's different this time? I'm doing i... Sat, 4 May 2013 13:59:01 EST The Slow Life <img src=""> <BR> Me at Lost Lake, Oregon. We took an impromptu trip up to Sisters, Oregon and I just had to stop here and play in the snow. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> In this busy world of hustle and bustle, we take little to no time to stop and savor all the things that life provides us. We shuttle ourselves off and on the tram, to and from work, to the park to take care of the kids, and to a low-brow hamburger joint where we'll inevitably... Sat, 4 May 2013 13:17:06 EST Eww and Icky I'm simply confounded. I can wear smaller pants but I still get that "icky" feeling like I'm gaining weight. Perhaps it's just bloating. Perhaps it's my guilt coming to haunt me because my incapability to get to the gym as often as I would like. <BR> <BR> I feel gross. I feel I look gross. It's just awful. I've been downing smoothies for breakfast or lunch, trying to make myself feel better about all this. I'm afraid to even check that scale. Okay, I checked: 272. Okay, it's not the million... Mon, 25 Mar 2013 23:31:56 EST Gym Inspiration (Warning: Sauciness is Present) <img src=""> <BR> <BR> So, above you are looking at what I look at when I do my hour of cardio at the gym. His name is Sam Witwer, a major science fiction actor and my uber crush. I uploaded a picture of him to my mp3 to encourage myself to go the extra mile (or minutes). <BR> <BR> The thinking behind this action is that if I really want to have someone like him (obviously not actually him) in my life who is that fit and that awesome a... Tue, 19 Mar 2013 16:11:47 EST A Long Awaited Reunion <img src=""> <img src=""> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Above are some photos of the happy and amazing reunion of 5 girls who met in 3-5th grade. I was absolutely elated to be meeting up with everyone after 13 years! We started up right where we left off. We have all changed so much yet it seems as though we all still love the same thin... Sun, 17 Mar 2013 15:44:42 EST Pictures That Mean A Lot To Me <img src=""> <BR> This is Jenessa. A close friend of mine that I grew up with. She's the mom of Lyndel. I'm honored she chose me to be his godmom. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> This is my good friend Jordan. We are thick as thieves. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> This is my godfather Michael. He is like a second dad. <BR> <BR> <i... Tue, 19 Feb 2013 18:03:00 EST Everything You Could Ever Want To Know About Me People who know me out here, in the physical world, know something you may not. I'm tall. I'm 5'10". <BR> <BR> I'm also joyful and playful to the point where somber people think it's a major issue. <em>334</em> I'm a bookworm! I'm such a bookworm that when I was in grade school my math teacher called in my parents to talk about my deviant behavior of reading chapter books under the desk while he was teaching math. <em>20</em> I also know all my local librarians by name and I'm friends... Tue, 19 Feb 2013 10:23:39 EST The Gym Sneak Oh yes, crafty I, have been sneaking off to the gym while people sleep. I go early in the morning while my dad leaves for work and my mom and grandpa are still a ' snooze in their beds. I feel rather mischievous sneaking out at 7 am to go exercise, which only makes it that much more fun. <BR> <BR> I come home an hour sometimes an hour and a half later and everyone is still a ' snooze. None the wiser. I take my shower and enjoy my coffee for a few hours before everyone else wakes. This way n... Tue, 5 Feb 2013 13:50:34 EST Hawaii Next Christmas has been planned as a tropical oasis kind of holiday. We are going to go to Hawaii. I've been collecting my pennies and working hard to earn money. I've been doing some thinking and slimming down for this holiday would really be the ticket. Besides, my plan was to be at my goal weight by next November for my 25th birthday. This is just more incentive to do what I need to do. I don't think I'll be doing the whole bikini thing. I haven't worn one of those since I was 11. I'm goin... Sun, 20 Jan 2013 12:38:05 EST Inspiration:The Bar I went to last month posted an unflattering picture of me <img src=""> <BR> This is the photo. <BR> <BR> I'm the one in the brown jacket. The guy sitting next to me is my good friend. I thought I looked good that night. Obviously, I did not. This photo is now used for their advertising. Oh joy. <BR> <BR> This photo represents my shame and heartache for being obese. This is the person I never wanted to be. This person looks tired. I refuse to be her anymore. She does not do justice to the am... Sat, 15 Dec 2012 10:26:40 EST WHAT?! Grandma - I can wear your pants! Haha! I'm gonna cut straight to the chase on this. I went over to my grandma's house to visit and she had some cast offs that she wanted me to try on. <BR> <BR> They were a pretty decent pair of size 20 blue jeans so I went into her room to try them on - totally not thinking they would fit because I'm used to wearing a 26-24. Umm.... I got them on, snapped the button, and then ZIPPED THEM UP. That's right... ZIPPED THEM UP! I went to show my grandma and you should have seen her face. Eviden... Fri, 14 Dec 2012 17:36:43 EST Calorie Overload and Hypoglycemia Calories. CALORIES. <em>234</em> <BR> <BR> My recommended amount is 1600 calories a day for weight loss. I began a log to really see what I put in my mouth. The first day was approx 1800, the second - 2300 approx, and the third - almost 3000. As you can probably see there is something not right here. <BR> <BR> I can do all the exercise I want but if I am going around eating 3000 calories it's just not going to work. But how do I consume just 1600 calories and still feel okay? I have hy... Tue, 11 Dec 2012 10:57:49 EST Name of the game So, here's a thought that I came up with while some dog I didn't know was barking in my house all night long. Things are simple and I like to make them hard. (No - I didn't go in there and kick the dog out... that was my dad.) <BR> <BR> Orange juice instead of coffee in the morning, because it only takes one cup to get you where 4 cups of coffee gets you. Take water to bed because chances are if you were to get it from the kitchen in the middle of the night you would also come back with some... Thu, 6 Dec 2012 09:44:44 EST Oh, Foxy - What have you done? I've got off track. Heck, I'm completely derailed. I haven't exercised in five days and even longer before that. I haven't been eating healthy at all - in fact - I've been binge eating. I've been beating myself up and not journaling. And you all know I haven't been blogging.... <BR> <BR> SO- <BR> <BR> What do we do here, Foxy, to correct what we have done? Small steps. SMALL steps. Positive sticky notes, journal entries, healthy eating, and exercise. TRY AGAIN, FOXY! Try again try again....... Mon, 26 Nov 2012 09:31:34 EST Day Four: Bang A Gong In this video blog I am talking about what I have been up to recently and what I would like to do more of. I also go into my favorite workout music selection. Any ideas for new songs? Sat, 17 Nov 2012 16:55:43 EST Day Three: (written blog due to head cold) Thoughts About Exercise As many of you know I recently checked out the Spark from my local library. I am obsessed with reading or at least I was at some point. <BR> Anyhoo- I'm in the Cornerstone: Fitness section on page 35 (marked by my special "hope" bookmark). <BR> <BR> A couple of things are striking a chord with me. "The exercise tipping point" that Mr. Downie refers to is right on point. I want things now. When I was a teenager I was on a dancing team that used flags. I would practice everyday and I was pret... Sun, 11 Nov 2012 16:04:37 EST Day 2: Depression and Trying to Get Back on Track A little blurp about my problems with depression and how I might be able to relieve some of the "dark cloud" feelings. Tue, 6 Nov 2012 15:20:19 EST Day 1: Spark Recipe and a Plan Here I am cooking one of my favorite Spark Recipes, Sausage Scramble. My little brother is staying over recovering from a kidney stone surgery and needs to eat healthy. So, I whip us up some num-nums. In this video I also talk about a plan I made to post a vlog everyday. The vlogs will be of me doing or talking about something healthy. These vlogs will help to keep me in check and make me expect more from myself. <BR> <BR> <img src="">... Fri, 2 Nov 2012 16:08:26 EST Yesterday You Said Tommorow Too often we tell ourselves tomorrow is the day. We know that it is an empty promise yet we continue to tell ourselves the same story over and over. It's beating us into submission and we're letting it. Its time to take a stand against the word "tomorrow" and start doing things today. Thu, 1 Nov 2012 12:29:18 EST Grandma Patty Cakes busts a move Actionherofox's "grandma" Patty Cakes shows Fox that she can bust a move to "Hey Ya." Wed, 31 Oct 2012 20:00:05 EST Early morning thoughts Ah, the irrevocable sound of the clicking keyboard. It's time for a blog post once again. <BR> <BR> I woke this morning to find myself full of energy and did not need coffee but for the taste of it. It's the first morning in a long time that I've felt this way. Mind you, I still heard the snapping of aching joints when I rose. I also found myself hungry, which is never the case so early in the morning. So I ate and bathed, then came a thought. <BR> <BR> Things are changing for me. I will ... Mon, 22 Oct 2012 14:18:19 EST Are you in a pickle? I've been so inspired by picture blogs lately that I thought I'd make one myself! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> When you think that you're in too deep.... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> and you've got yourself in a jam.... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> turn to a friend and continue hand in hand. <BR> <BR> <BR> Sun, 30 Sep 2012 14:08:21 EST Gaining again So here I am blogging it out. I lost 18 pounds over 4 months and worked really hard for it. I finally got down to 260. Then, I gained all the way back up to 272. How I hate that number. It seems as though every time I make some progress I backtrack again. What is going on here? Am I slacking when I make progress? What am I doing?! I almost feel that there is no way out of these big clothes and fat rolls. I look at everyone else and they are doing so well! Why can't I do that well? I don't kno... Tue, 18 Sep 2012 12:41:48 EST My Belly Hurts I woke up this morning about 5 am to go jogging with my dad. We got suited up and took off down the trail just like every Thursday for the last month. We talked about his great ideas for work (military) and how better lighting should be installed on the trail. We also talked about getting me on a regular exercise program for consistency. <BR> <BR> We were about a quarter way there when I stopped and grabbed my belly. He looked at me kind of alarmed and asked me if I was okay. I nodded and l... Thu, 13 Sep 2012 11:18:18 EST Obstacles are just something to pass by on your way elsewhere There's a story I once heard about someone I really admire, Bruce Lee. I heard that he hurt his upper back in 1970 and his doctors said he would never be able to walk normally or practice martial arts again. He fought hard and soon he was not only walking again but he was also in the best shape he had ever been in. He coined a phrase "Walk on" to encourage others to reach their goals as well. <BR> <BR> I wanted to share this simple, yet amazing story of perseverance because often we give up... Wed, 12 Sep 2012 20:36:52 EST Changing my life (slowly) Today I set a goal that by my 25th birthday next year 11/07/2013, I will have lost 100 pounds. It's a big goal and a big task, but I'm taking it on. <BR> <BR> I'm tired of hiding and using my weight as an excuse to not do the things I want to do. Of the things that I miss, I miss interaction with people the most. Seclusion is not a friendly place. I'm tired of shopping in the Plus-Size department. Why are the clothes so ugly?! <BR> <BR> I need to find time to exercise. I can set aside a ti... Mon, 30 Apr 2012 10:21:52 EST Tricky Devious Monster Scallywag of a Scale I've been working hard and sweating bricks, but my weight is adding up. Am I in some sort of parallel universe where everything is opposite? <BR> <BR> It seems to me that when I work hard I get pretty hungry and will eat a little more to satisfy that need. But something is off kelter here because I'm getting bigger but working harder. I'm really confused and befuddled. I lose weight when I don't eat and don't work. But when I do eat and do work - I gain weight. <BR> <BR> I'm working overt... Mon, 23 Apr 2012 21:18:09 EST