9NINE9's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=9NINE9 9NINE9's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Diet is everything...then there is exercise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2204026 I have been really watching what I stick in my mouth, I am now down to 214.0, still 14lbs to go until I am back to where I was but its better then the 21lbs I was looking at two weeks ago. Can not wait to get back into my jeans that I was wearing in Jan....I need them back, they were my favorites. I am out of money so I am trying to try new things that will help burn some calories but will not cost me anything, thats a bit harder then it sounds. <BR> Plus nothing like having a very small bu... Sun, 5 Jul 2009 13:23:48 EST its been awhile buts it has been good http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2201212 I have great news, I have been eating reaaly well even though I was in Toronto and Winnipeg. great news i am 215.4 today....yeah. Fri, 3 Jul 2009 21:20:18 EST Slap in the face http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2114638 This weekend I walked on Sat for more then an hour, it felt great! I got lots of sun, but not enough water. <BR> Trying to eat more fruit. My workout buddy at work and I are going to train for a 10km, it should be hard but I hope it will help me cut out the fat as I can not run in this body, its too heavy for these little skinny ankles of mine. <BR> I am thinking of therapy, the binges are out of control, I am eating so much that I have a coma like feeling, come over me where I can not even... Tue, 2 Jun 2009 00:18:12 EST Slight changes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2096711 Thank you everyone for the great advice. It really was nice to hear that its not only me. Though I feel so badly that this affects everyone. Especially b/c I keep struggling with this sugar addiction. <BR> The weight is still here but I am more aware of what is going in, sugar, carbs vegatables etc. Eating the vegatables, meat and fruit, before I even think about eating sugar. So I am still struggling with the coming home from work too tired to eat thing and then eating chips for dinner ... Wed, 27 May 2009 00:56:40 EST The eating has not stopped http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2014953 I am sitting on my couch at 7pm, trying to not eat...why am I like this. <BR> If anyone has any suggestions on how to get past these cravings I am having a super hard time. If I had not been eating sugar all day it might make a little sense, but no I have been eating food totally not for my body. <BR> Bacon, perogies, full fat sourcream, Peppermint cookies, ham and pineapple pizza, ice cream drumstick, half and half in the coffee, I mean seriously how am I even thinking about food! <BR> It... Tue, 28 Apr 2009 21:03:17 EST Why can't I stop being obese? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2008812 I am addicted to sugar...I just want to eat high calorie food, eat candy and anything with sugar. Its competly out of control. As I write this i Know I HAVE to stop eating and just make myself eat the good stuff, but its so much harder then that. <BR> I have to keep in mind that being this much overwieght is like carrying around 70 pounds everywhere I go and it would make sense that I am so tired, and if I keep eating the way I am I will not go anywhere but to a place I do not want to go. ... Sun, 26 Apr 2009 23:04:44 EST Great Plans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2001328 Exercise is on plan, food is not. Not much more to say about that. Thu, 23 Apr 2009 23:27:15 EST Amazing! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1986984 Well the workouts have been going great, finally I have started to sleep threw the night from exhaustion. The weight is not going down b/c I am eating out for every meal, aweful. I feel like I am a sausage right now, but I am going to keep going to the gym and try and get to planning my meals, b/c that is the only way I am going to get out of this terrible habit. Seriously, I think the flying around is going to be on hold for the next month, so if I really focus I should make some great ... Sun, 19 Apr 2009 18:31:24 EST Wow! What has happened! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1922997 So its been a bit of a crazy couple months again! I was dumped and took the wrong road, ate my face off. So I am back up to 208.8. I really need another "real" vacation, not just these quick trips here and there, seriously Canada is cold and those are the only places I have been flying to. <BR> Sorry, I'm rambling....definitely a sign of a cluttered mind. On a different note, I have gotten a wake up call on what I am putting into my body, sugar, processed foods, meat (slaughter, hormone... Sun, 29 Mar 2009 13:06:55 EST The Vacation is over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1661617 Hawaii was once again beautiful and I kept my weight gain to a minimum. I changed jobs and have been back in the diet game since Dec 22. I started at 213, which was expected by all the travel I was doing and also b/c of everything that has been going on with me. I am now on the brink of onederland and am sure it will be any day now. <BR> My current weight is 201.8. I can see a huge change in my body and also in my face. When i reach my goal to be 196 I will post a new picture. <BR> Nothi... Tue, 6 Jan 2009 00:37:44 EST Summer http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1395605 The summer is flying by!! I can not get over how fast it seems to be passing. I have been stable on the weight side of things, have not gone up but have gone down. Been travelling allot, I went to Kamloops, Kelowna, Montreal, Charlettown, Edmonton, Vancouver and i am going to BC this weekend, <BR> Work has been uneventful, so no stress. I have tons of time off in November, I plan on taking the entire month off. I already have the 5-22 off and still have 5 more days that I can use to bo... Mon, 11 Aug 2008 23:56:00 EST Mind set http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1278960 Its back because I have been doing super. No excuses!! I have not even been having chocholate which is what I have been craving for the past 3 days!! So far so good and I am even thinking of going to the GYM!! Wed, 18 Jun 2008 18:09:33 EST Stayed the course http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1272043 I did my best to eat what my body needed, no junk no take out. I really could have had a cheeseburger, but instead I ate some vegetables and chicken that was BBQ'd. One day down. Sun, 15 Jun 2008 22:03:15 EST New Way to think http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1270741 Okay Okay I agree, my negative thinking must be making people gag. I am going to start to be grateful for my job and for my situation. I am going to be grateful I can clean my house with such ease and rather then let it become a complete disgrace I know I need to maintain the clean house. So guess what, I cleaned the floors all of them and even under the stove!! Thats right I took a couple hours and did something. <BR> Weighed myself and wanted to cry but rather I went grocery shopping, I... Sun, 15 Jun 2008 02:13:32 EST Why so sad? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1267847 My motivation right now is up there with Zero. I am trying to keep on a good track though, no eating out. I have not binged in almost a week, so I am very happy about that. Though now that I think of it, I did eat about 10 ginger cookies yesterday so I am not so sure I can say that now. Well its not my usual binge, eat takeout for four has not been the habit lately. <BR> I know I have all the makings in my fridge for some good cooking, I had some raspberries and a tomato with my supper. <... Fri, 13 Jun 2008 10:28:31 EST Changed before I had regrets http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1247222 I have changed my ways!! I have bought some frozen meals and have not been eating out. I am up 4lbs from my lowest weight, so I have actually not done too badly. Snacking on good food and just getting by everyday. Tue, 3 Jun 2008 15:21:05 EST Middle of May already!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1232327 Well the month is flying by on me....I have been travelling folks to Prince George, Toronto and now I find out PEI. I am not doing any cooking or really any exercise yet I have somehow not gained any more weight actually lost. I check daily...right now my goal is to not eat out. I mean when the delivery guy reconizes you its bad. I do not eat much, I end up throwing all sorts of food out, as I eat my bit and do not want the take out anymore. For example I ordered pizza ate my two peices ... Tue, 27 May 2008 15:05:26 EST My vacation is over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1175359 I went away and did not pay attention to any calories. Hawaii is the most beautiful place if you need a quick 10 day get-away. We went to Maui this time and I really enjoyed it. I did workout to my tape 2x. Yes I did take it and the condo had weights, so me and my mom worked out. Plus we went out for a hike and walks in the evening, but I did eat and drank quite a bit. I ended up gaining 7lbs when I got home. I went down to 208.0lbs, so I was up only 4lbs. Its been exactly a week and ... Tue, 29 Apr 2008 13:31:41 EST (no title) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1098061 I am depressed really really bad today, I am extremely tired feeling and want to leave work. Since I know I would most likely be fired if I just got up and left, I best not do such a odd thing. <BR> If I eat good today and exercise it would be a mircle. <BR> I had two medium pizza's last night and did not do one form of exercise. Wed, 26 Mar 2008 11:53:09 EST Pays off http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1089627 Still doing the workout and eating well....then I got some company and got sucked in tonight. They were saying how much I have been changing blah blah and then we ate Chinese food, chips with dip and some m&m's......Why I ate that stuff....now I feel absolutly sick. <BR> Moving on....tommorrow is another workout and another day of success...can not wait. Sat, 22 Mar 2008 01:02:13 EST Hard work http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1082811 I have been secretly working very hard. The diet is going and so is the exercise. I have been lifting weights like its my last workout and suddenly am starting to see some change. <BR> I did see a glimse of 203.8 on my new scale, a new number. I also got to get on my old scale, I know I said I would throw her out, but we have been through so much together, she saw me at 242, anyway I was 199. So I reached my goal on the old scale, now to get rid of the 3.8lbs to get there on my new scal... Tue, 18 Mar 2008 14:50:50 EST i will take that...and run http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1040182 I got on the scale and somehow I am 205.7!! Well I will take that and run...I mean it....I will take it. That is on my new scales folks! I think the time has come for me to throw the old one out and really work hard to get under 200lbs on this scale...its the real thing. <BR> So I have two spare rooms, so I put the computer in the closet on a desk that is built into the closet and put down a sponge/gym floor and made myself a workout room. I love it! I could spend every second of my day... Wed, 27 Feb 2008 18:23:54 EST Bad bad bad http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1037314 Do I need to tell you how I did? There is a reason why I have been hiding out....eating out...whatever you want to call it. I have gone up up up....do I record it do I want to?? Nope not at all...but here it is the big number....209.4....this is on the new devil scale, so on my old one this would be about 204...so I am not to the point of not fitting clothes but I am not going down. <BR> <BR> thats all the news for today on my weight. Tue, 26 Feb 2008 15:39:38 EST London Ont has good room service http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1009642 I had a lunch packed and I had all I needed in regards to food. Still I was enticed by the room service..who seriously can say no when its free! So I ordered and ordered and ordered....and it was good...but not worth the numbers on the scale. <BR> Today I am back at work and I did not have breakfast....it seems to throw me right off my normal eating plans and I remain hungry all day. Tommorrow I am going to have to focus on exactly what I am sticking in my mouth. We are trying the balloo... Thu, 14 Feb 2008 14:05:26 EST Visiting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=991928 I am visiting and being faced with many challenges. Eating out, desserts etc etc. I hope I am making the right choices. I am not sure right now, b/c I am full....which is not normal. <BR> I guess the scale with tell me in the morning....not a good thing to rely on as we know it can be delayed. <BR> <BR> Gunn - Guess what happened yesterday!! WE went on a hike that turned into a thing of willpower!! About 1/4 up the mountain I was ready to throw in the towel, if I was in the gym I woul... Thu, 7 Feb 2008 02:46:30 EST Not good http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=976656 I fell off the train tonight....I let myself get soooo hungry I completly gorged in Chinese. Hang my head in shame....and I wonder why my stomach is so huge and the rolls are not going anywhere, get out the calenders it was not even two weeks ago I had Chinese too! Fri, 1 Feb 2008 00:22:08 EST The day is finally over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=973983 I will admit today was a hard one. A really tough day and there is no reason it was all in my mind. I weighed myself on this new scale and I saw the numbers 204.8, they followed me around in my head at work all day. All day all I could think about was how I was 204 and how I just wanted to eat. Eat bread, eat cheese and binge on junk food. <BR> On my way to work this morning I thought about how I have given up so much food and drinks that I used to devour with out thought. One of those s... Wed, 30 Jan 2008 23:56:57 EST Abbottsford today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=969068 Going on a day trip to the airport. I can not beleive how tired this cold weather makes me! Exhausted. I was not going to run in weather like this, so I ended up just staying in and getting 30min of stepping in. <BR> minimum effort put in and minimum output received. Oh well...it was at least something. <BR> Best get ready to fly out of here, I have yet to prepare my snacks and such for today. <BR> <BR> Have a good one!! Tue, 29 Jan 2008 11:02:42 EST Brrrr....its cold out there http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=966261 Well a couple things happened. I worked out last night even though C was at the house. I also did 15 push ups proper form and everything. <BR> Then I got up this morning and came to work. <BR> Which airport Regina??? is only 30min from you?? If I had known I would have for sure called it was a painful day sitting around like that! We could have had lots of time to meet up. <BR> My old scale said I was 199lbs!! My new scale was 208.3. R says the gym scale is less then my new one, so I... Mon, 28 Jan 2008 13:10:12 EST Brrrr....its cold out there http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=966260 Well a couple things happened. I worked out last night even though C was at the house. I also did 15 push ups proper form and everything. <BR> Then I got up this morning and came to work. <BR> Which airport Regina??? is only 30min from you?? If I had known I would have for sure called it was a painful day sitting around like that! We could have had lots of time to meet up. <BR> My old scale said I was 199lbs!! My new scale was 208.3. R says the gym scale is less then my new one, so I... Mon, 28 Jan 2008 13:10:10 EST Weekend blues http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=964435 WE are having a blizzard and I do not want to go to work tommorrow! It is -27!!! <BR> I am so sad about it, it is so depressing how weather can affect our moods. <BR> I really really want to be doing my weigth routine, but my sister's boyfriend is over and well he is watching TV. I guess I do not get to do the tape tonight. <BR> I bought a new scale from Costco and it is 9lbs higher then my old one. So now I am 209. Is that fair? I was down to 200 and now I am 209. Depressing. Sun, 27 Jan 2008 21:23:34 EST Travel behind me until next week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=957086 I made it! I made it with little to be ashamed about. <BR> I had starbucks, but I never said I wouldn't. I also love those cookies they serve with the jelly little middle and the shortbread bookie with some white cream! So I would say cookies and I had one of the pack and gave the other one back. So I had my cheat but did not have lunch or breakfast. I took my lunch and snacks and ate breakfast at home. <BR> I normally get coffee with the contractors manager, so I would grab a coffee and... Thu, 24 Jan 2008 22:19:36 EST Sometimes the Scale is a surpirse http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=949320 I was surprised by the number on display this morning. It was lower then I thought it would be. It was a new low on here! <BR> I worked out like it was my last workout and it must have done the trick to get rid off all of those calories. I do not really deserve the number but I am taking it! <BR> I had to not workout yesterday, as I was way too sore. So looking back at my workout, I have zero arm strengh and my core is very weak. Most of the things I could not do were b/c of my core not ... Tue, 22 Jan 2008 15:02:09 EST Weekend overveiw http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=942008 This weekend was horrible. <BR> I ate everything I wanted and have been feeling ill b/c of it. <BR> Back to square one. <BR> I have the food, just not the want this time. <BR> My head is not in the game. Today is re-focus and get back in the game, as I do want to be 190, I do. <BR> Sun, 20 Jan 2008 10:18:26 EST No change-disappointed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=931884 I am disappointed to say the least. I have been eating very well and have been getting in a min of 30 min of exercise a day. <BR> I was down to 200lbs on Sun and thought for sure I would be able to get back down in 3 days. This morning, no change. I did my measurements and does everyone want to hear what they were. <BR> Down an inch in my thigh!! I do not need to loose in my thigh area, I have no cellulite, I have no fat, they don't giggle. My legs are my best feature. They are fine the... Wed, 16 Jan 2008 15:45:23 EST Scale hopping http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=927557 I got on the scale this morning sure I had lost the excess pounds I had put on Sunday...nope. Stil 205. <BR> I walked last night 3min, ran 1min for 30min. I have a running date tonight at 5pm, so hopefully will be able to put in 30min of a run. <BR> I had a coffee this morning with milk. Other then that, pretty boring, just waiting for the scale to go down. <BR> I made salmon yesterday and since I am not a fan, was surprised I liked it. It was marinated in olive oil, soya sauce, garlic, g... Tue, 15 Jan 2008 12:23:25 EST Too bad, so sad http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=924288 I gained and am at 205lbs again....so lesson learned. I can not keep doing this. <BR> I am back on plan as of this morning, b/c of yesterday, this girl is working off of no coffee, no cream, no milk....cause I had it yesterday and had such a great time. <BR> It might just be salt, so I am drinking water like it my run out and hopefully that is all it is. Mon, 14 Jan 2008 14:21:26 EST Weekend is almost over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=920347 The last tempting day of the week. I love my weekends, but when I diet, oh how I wish I could continue the way I was during the week. <BR> I did not do too bad, yesterday I did have a couple more sweet things like cookies!! Damn those sugar cookies. <BR> I have had my breakfast and am about to have a little snack to tide me over until lunch. <BR> One thing about weekends, I am not watching the clock to eat. <BR> <BR> Weigh in 200lbs <BR> <BR> Tonight I went to the Keg, now I know a diet i... Sun, 13 Jan 2008 12:43:22 EST Movies on a diet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=918350 All you can do is smell popcorn and milk chocholate. I am very happy to report I did not eat any. <BR> Today however, I had 3 peppermint patties. <BR> Time to stop craving the chinese and make some almond chicken for supper. <BR> <BR> See ya! Sat, 12 Jan 2008 17:32:42 EST Starving myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=914439 I realize that I do not want to eat, I have to b/c I reach a point of hunger where I do not have a choice. <BR> How do I know I am actually getting enough or maybe I am doing more harm then good? Its hard, b/c I am fat and I look in the mirror and see the fat and think you need to burn that and then just suffer through the hunger. <BR> I am eating breakfast, snack, lunch, snack and supper, snack. <BR> So I am eating, but I also know I am not stupid and I am much to hungry to be eating enoug... Fri, 11 Jan 2008 09:32:16 EST Staying strong http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=909793 No change in the scale, I also slept really bad again. I was up until 1230am with a new found energy that I wish I could have had in the afternoon or when I got home from work. <BR> Still feeling hollow, but not starving. <BR> I am not really struggling, just going along trying to keep myself busy. <BR> No change in the weight department. Wed, 9 Jan 2008 19:23:59 EST Going strong http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=906988 I have been doing great! No problem. Yeah right! <BR> I am still hungry, not to the extent i was before. Still going to sleep afte r10pm is a problem. <BR> I am stressing a bit and am feeling supreme anger towards nothing. Looks like I need to have a soak in the tub and maybe a massage. <BR> Actually what makes me feel like a million bucks is when I get my hair done, so I have an appointment for a dye and cut on Sat. <BR> Cheers me up just thinking about it. Tue, 8 Jan 2008 22:28:16 EST Gasp http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=903634 I got on the scale and weighed 205lbs!!! I am back to pre-vegas weight. I am so thankful it did not stick. Now to get to my next goal, 199. My reward is still up in the air..... <BR> Awesome start to my week. <BR> I ate on plan today and have prepared my food for tomorrow. <BR> Squeezed in 30 min exercise and cut up my veggies for the week. <BR> Well I am off to bed so that I am not hungry. <BR> Going to try and have eggs/egg whites in the morning...try get that protein in. <BR> Thank... Tue, 8 Jan 2008 00:43:02 EST Planned ahead Sat http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=895115 Well it is a hard day I will give in to that. Am I tempted to eat, yes but amazing the cravings are gone. I am wanting to snack on something crunchy. I have 23 more min until I can have that snack, so I am sure I can make it. <BR> I got up this morning and ate my breakfast, but missed out on the fruit, b/c I was up late last night unable to fall asleep due to hunger again. So at 7am, I woke up starving, ran downstairs ate a cup of cheerios and went back to bed. I got back up at 10am and ... Sat, 5 Jan 2008 16:15:04 EST Friday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=892562 Kept to the plan so far, I have been watching the clock to eat. Probably not a good thing to be doing. It is only day 4, I feel like its day 400. My body amazingly feels thinner, not puffy. I can tell in my face and stomach that they are not puffy. In four days?? How is that possible? I am not asking and I am so grateful that it seems to be coming off as quickly as it had gone on. I was 209 this morning. I really really want to be back at 205 by the end of next week. That takes me b... Fri, 4 Jan 2008 14:45:41 EST Getting better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=890346 Last night my cheeks went bright red and I felt aweful...what time did I fall asleep at...oh not until 2am. <BR> I have that headache again! It feels aweful. It hurts. <BR> Today again was hard, harder then I would have expected it to be. I am still going, and strong. <BR> weighed in - 210 <BR> I got up at 730pm due to be hungry and had a snack. Then I got up off the couch put my shoes on and worked out for 30min exactly. <BR> Took my shoes off and layed on the couch until 11pm, drinkin... Thu, 3 Jan 2008 20:07:17 EST Middle of the night http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=887431 I was up last night until 130am b/c I was so hungry, I was tempted to get up and eat my breakfast at 3am. I didn't. The moment I was up at 7 I was downstairs eating though. <BR> I had a shot of espresso with 1/4 cup skim steamed milk for a coffee. That's right your looking at a girl who loves her cream, who paid $10 for one in Europe and treked around Greece paying top dollar for them. Today for the first time in a long time I did not have cream or half and half or no fat cream. Nada. I... Wed, 2 Jan 2008 22:26:39 EST Plans are meant to be broken...NOT http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=883436 Fell off the wagon last night...oops. <BR> So today I got back up and started again. <BR> Something to try <BR> 1 can of no sugar added, in water sliced peaches drained <BR> 1tsp cinnimon and a pinch of nutmeg, mix with peaches <BR> add 1/4 cup raspberries and 1/4 cup blueberries mixed <BR> top off with 1.5 tsp of semi sweet chocholate chips <BR> Makes two servings <BR> Only 46 calories, but gets rid of sugar craving and gives you some chocholate <BR> I started this morning off with bacon, eg... Tue, 1 Jan 2008 21:34:12 EST Surviving http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=879557 I made it thru yesterday. It was one of those days, skin crawling....I beleive I went thru my cupboards 3 times....but I made it thru. I know today will most likely be the same kind of feeling but its New Years Eve and I am not going to be home. <BR> I have my list of groceries I need for the week, I also have my days all worked out for meals. I was very bored yesterday. <BR> I swear my stomach was burning, but I do not know if it was my mind playing tricks on me or in fact it was actual... Mon, 31 Dec 2007 10:16:41 EST Make it easy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=877173 Somewhere or at sometime, i have been led to believe that the only way to lose weight is to eat perfectly all the time. That has become a known unrealistic goal. Its not fair to expect that from me. I think that is why most diets fail. Perfection is impossible. I am going to have ready-made meals and snacks that I can turn to when I am stressed, tired or bored. My three triggers of binging. This will get me thru my cravings and help in making good choices to avoid all the bad foods. <B... Sat, 29 Dec 2007 20:28:10 EST