4BUBBLES2011's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=4BUBBLES2011 4BUBBLES2011's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Excuses http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4455962 "Success doesn't come to you...you go to it" - Marva Collins <BR> <BR> This quote could not be better timed. I need to stop HOPING that I can get back on track with exercise and JUST DO IT. GO GET IT! <BR> <BR> I'm just finding myself making 1,000 excuses about why it's ok to not exercise, wtf! It's never ok to NOT exercise. Today will be my first day back in my workout clothes in about 2 weeks....I hate when I get lazy. <BR> <BR> I want to spend the fall getting into awesome shape cos le... Tue, 30 Aug 2011 07:44:50 EST Focusing.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4453995 "Success is a state of mind. If you want success, start thinking of yourself as a success." - Dr. Joyce Brothers <BR> <BR> I have a new found resolution to get my life together here. I spent the weekend boarded up in my house without electricity (thanks Irene) and so what did I do? Stewed about my situation and than ate and ate and ate. Ugh. <BR> <BR> So, this morning, I wake up knowing that I will not see "him" until Friday-- which means, I have a few days to get my life in order and to n... Mon, 29 Aug 2011 07:58:27 EST Gotta work on that.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4447297 I feel like it's been forever since I've logged onto SP! But, all is not lost, I didn't forget about my weight loss goals. I merely put them on a mild hiatus and although in the past 3 weeks, I've only lost .4lbs-- it's something. I'm taking it and I'll be happy with it. <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> Why the hiatus? Ugh. So many reasons. Mostly emotional. Of course, I was distracted with work and to be honest, I was distracted by a man at work too. Which, embarrassingly enough to admit, is still o... Thu, 25 Aug 2011 08:23:44 EST I have to tip-toe around my weight loss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4376545 It's been a few days since my last blog post. Busy I guess? I've been a bit lazy with the workouts BUT I've been pretty good with eating. So long as I get in 90 minutes of exercise before Sunday, I'll be fine. And I'm planning one doing an hour today and tomorrow so I think I'll be fine. <BR> <BR> It's been 3 weeks since I started SP. I've been hesitant to log my weekly weights because I feel like committing things to paper (or the internet) might be too much pressure for me. It's like I'm ... Thu, 21 Jul 2011 09:08:48 EST Good day. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4363439 Ok, back on track. BARELY thought about food today. Good day. <BR> <BR> I am exhausted though. Long day. Tomorrow I will get back to the gym and burn some energy and calories off. I have one week until the Bahamas so one week to feel better about myself. <BR> <BR> I need to get my head straight though. I'm all over the place Thu, 14 Jul 2011 22:25:33 EST I acknowledge the error in this http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4360879 I forced myself to throw up last night. <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> Now before I continue, I just wanted to say that (1) I acknowledge the error in this and (2) I have an established issue with this. In fact, I've been seeing someone for it. And to be honest, it's being about 5 years since I attempted anything of that nature. and (3) I did it once, it wasn't a repetitive issue. I just felt really out of control and needed something to grasp on to. <BR> <BR> That doesn't justify the behavior or ... Wed, 13 Jul 2011 18:46:04 EST I need to take a deep breathe and consider: http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4356673 I'm annoyed for going over calories today. FOR NO REASON. Other than I was just in an eating trance. I need to take a deep breathe and consider: <BR> <BR> (1) I only went over by a few hundred calories so in the grand scheme of things, it's not bad. The rest of the week will even this out and it will be like it never happened. Besides, it's a lifestyle about BALANCE. And so, not all days are going to be 100%, it's about balance the good days with the bad <BR> <BR> (2) I at least acknowledge... Mon, 11 Jul 2011 22:36:15 EST Feeling so much better about myself. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4353716 The more active I am, the less I eat. And it's fantastic! <BR> <BR> I went hiking all day on Saturday. And after an hour long jog in Central Park this morning, I went to the beach--- IN A BATHING SUIT!!! Can I just explain how much of an effort that takes? I am one of those girls who would normal never be caught dead in a bathing suit. But, I had such an active weekend that I thought to myself: "who cares if anyone thinks I'm gross". Besides, I was not NEARLY the most inappropriately dresse... Sun, 10 Jul 2011 19:39:40 EST At least that is something http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4348125 Forced myself to go to the gym today. It wasn't a very sweaty workout but I got 15 minutes on the elliptical and 30 minutes on the bike so at least that is something. <BR> <BR> I'm, in general, frustrated with the world today :-( Tomorrow is a new day! Thu, 7 Jul 2011 21:20:30 EST First day in quite sometime! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4345891 Why has running become so difficult for me? It's totally a mental thing. Within a 5 miles run, I have to stop and walk several times. I'm not out of breathe, I'm out hurting-- it's all mental. But, I figure if I kept at it, I will eventually be able to go for long distances. <BR> <BR> And, my eating has been going today-- first day in quite sometime!!! <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> Let's keep the ball rolling. Wed, 6 Jul 2011 22:08:03 EST to be great http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4343751 Went over my calories-- only by a little. But, I'm annoyed that I didn't exercise today. I'm so lazy. I hate it. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow is a a new day to be great Tue, 5 Jul 2011 23:17:55 EST Looking forward to the weeks vs. weekends?!? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4341243 Ok, what is wrong with me that I'm actually starting to look forward to the weekdays because it's infinitely easier to stick to a healthier eating pattern?! I should be celebrating the weekends, just stressing because weekends usually mean lots of eating for me. <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> But, overall, it was a positive weekend. I've gotten back into running (3 days thus far), which is great because of all the exercises I do, running and spinning make me feel the strongest. So, I'm going to con... Mon, 4 Jul 2011 21:06:20 EST Tomorrow is a new day. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4339623 Tomorrow is a new day. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow is a new day. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow is a new day. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow is a new day. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow is a new day. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow is a new day. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow is a new day. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow is a new day. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow is a new day. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow is a new day. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow will be a better day. Sun, 3 Jul 2011 22:55:24 EST I need to sit with these feelings, not eat them http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4336293 I do not like being home at my parents house. It's nothing against my parents but this house is just depressing. I lost my two bestfriends here (Tank and Rosie- English bulldogs) within the past 8 months and now, coming back here just isn't the same. I lost both of them suddenly (Tank, unknown reasons, just found him that way; and Rosie got ran over by a FedEx driver). Everything in my old room reminds me of them. I went in to the garage this evening where I kept most of their dog supplies an... Fri, 1 Jul 2011 22:43:00 EST Giving up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4334077 I thought I massively overdid it today. I went out with some co-workers today and ate GARBAGE all night. And if it wasn't for having not eaten lunch, I definitely would have gone over my calories. And though, I'm glad i didn't go over my calories, I'm not thrilled at the fact that I ate a fried dinner. <em>234</em> <BR> <BR> Everything is a learning process. <BR> <BR> But, I am proud that I logged the food and didn't just throw my hands up and give up....like I usually do. <BR> <BR> S... Thu, 30 Jun 2011 22:48:02 EST Here goes nothing. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4331483 Wow. I've been eating, on average, 1,000 more calories than I should be. NO WONDER I'M GAINING WEIGHT! <em>101</em> It's amazing what you learn about yourself when you put it into visible measurements, such as a daily log of calories. <BR> <BR> <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> Today is the first day of the first of my life...... <em>211</em> HA! Yeah, how many times have I said that before?! This is no longer about being a size 8, or being the most attractive one in the room for me. It's about s... Wed, 29 Jun 2011 20:51:45 EST