40PLUSANDFIT's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=40PLUSANDFIT 40PLUSANDFIT's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Getting Over the Mind http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4522595 I really have nothing to say, but I am back to the weight at where my plateau of over a year started. My brain of course is starting to churn. The weight is still dropping, but the what ifs are starting to hit. What if I get stuck again. What if it lasts for months..am I going off the deep end again. What if I can never get back to 150, what if, what if.... blah, I hate my brain sometimes. Right now I really hate it, because it's totally NOT comprehending algebra, but that's another sto... Thu, 6 Oct 2011 13:26:30 EST Another year http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4510014 Hello Spark Peeps... although I do admit to a total lack of inactivity on this site, I am lurking. My Texas Rangers are in the playoffs again. I get to go this year at my own expense, so life is looking up a bit. Husband's job is better and pays better. Mine is better mentally and a little financially, but the commute is harder, so still working through that. I'm back in school three nights a week, so life is hectic and tiring. Scale is moving down. Unfortunately it moved way up befor... Thu, 29 Sep 2011 10:00:25 EST Hello Spark Peeps http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4441347 So I'm officially disgusted with myself and my lifestyle, so I'm back. The stress of the last two years has really taken it's toll on me. But, the good news first... I have a new job and really love it. The commute sucks, but the job is worth it. My husband has a new job and except for the hours he absolutely loves it. The income has gone up a bit. We are still a little stressed about catching up, but we are getting there... hopefully end of September will be good to us. <BR> <BR> I... Mon, 22 Aug 2011 09:14:42 EST Hello Again World!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4300200 (This might be long) <BR> I'm back. Well I am as much as I can be. First and foremost..... <BR> <BR> <em>299</em> <em>299</em> <em>299</em> <em>299</em> <em>299</em> <em>299</em> <BR> <em>242</em> CONGRATULATIONS DALLAS MAVERICKS, NBA CHAMPS.. YOU ROCK MY WORLD!!!!! <em>242</em> <BR> <em>299</em> <em>299</em> <em>299</em> <em>299</em> <em>299</em> <em>299</em> <BR> <BR> okay got that out of the way. <BR> <BR> Well life has been quite challenging and interesting this pa... Wed, 15 Jun 2011 10:48:35 EST Getting back on track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4292542 Finally getting my head back on straight. Getting my exercise in. Got all 3750 calories burned this week. Missed a couple of days because of "stuff", but got five days in this week. <BR> <BR> Have a whole lot to say because a whole lot is going on, but have to wait until next week to share. <BR> <BR> Have a great weekend. <BR> <BR> GO MAVS!!! <BR> Sat, 11 Jun 2011 21:37:46 EST So Much, but yet so Little http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4264511 I had lots and lots to talk about but then I couldn't do it at work. Just felt guilty. I'm not sure why, I wasn't doing anything at work (there's literally no work to do). But let's see if I can start this right. <BR> <BR> Daughter calls me the day before she is to come home from college. She's wrecked her car. Not bad, but enough to kill the radiator. So I tell her to get it to a radiator shop, not even thinking about other damage (but I know she can't lift the hood). She does, we ... Mon, 30 May 2011 08:10:05 EST Did you miss me? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4213388 Yes, I went into a DEEP depression. It was scary. I didn't get suicidal, but I didn't care.. about anything. The job thing set me back, the six month plateau set me back, even all the training I got didn't bring ME back. I'm still a little shaky, but I'm going to give some effort. <BR> <BR> I had to go back on my happy pills. I even told my doctor that I'm going to have to finally realize that my brain is chemically challenged. I can't survive without them. Although I try and try to... Thu, 5 May 2011 22:46:49 EST Still here http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4092815 So I'm not going to bore you with a long drawn out blog. I'm here, barely. Almost deleted my site yesterday through a major fit of depression. I had great hopes for a new job supposedly it was one with "my name written all over it". They notified me yesterday that I was a HARD second. Well second gets you nowhere in the job market. Things here at work are deteriorating and I'm so demoralized with that and now with the fact that I'm still just NOT good enough. <BR> <BR> But yeah, my w... Tue, 15 Mar 2011 09:09:12 EST The Drama Continues http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4040763 This is a continuation of the blog from yesterday. I'm just talking to get this out of my system because unfortunately if it concerns his daughter's I can't talk to my husband, because of the rose colored glasses he has with them. <BR> <BR> CPS (Child Protective Services) was scheduled to come at 5 p.m. yesterday to talk to the daughter supposedly about the dog bite. This was kind of news to me because I would have thought that the hospital would tell us about this, especially if this wa... Wed, 23 Feb 2011 09:13:31 EST Small Nervous Breakdown http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4037623 This is a long blog, mostly venting, so if you are looking for positive, yeah, it's not me. <BR> <BR> Let me give you a little history. My husband's daughter moved in with us several years ago, right after my layoff, which put is EXTREMELY behind on bills. She has entitlement syndrome and is lazy. Anyway, we are already behind, she gets busted shop lifting and gets pregnant and miscarries. Long story short, this child tried to break up our marriage. She moved out, we finally hashed it o... Tue, 22 Feb 2011 08:26:41 EST The Small Things that Motivate Us http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4000587 To those who've endured my whining (I'm sorry) and those that are new, this is an FYI, I've been on a plateau since July. Yes some of it became self induced during the holidays when I lost some control of my exercise, let a major depressive episode derail me and drank WAY too much beer during the ACLS conference series and World Series.. lol.. at least the Rangers were there. Okay off that tangent. <BR> <BR> Anyway - small victory, the scale is moving in small increments downward. <BR>... Tue, 8 Feb 2011 10:22:54 EST Turkey Chili Rocks the Cookoff http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3997150 So our church had a chili cook off for Superbowl Sunday. My full intention was to start it on Saturday and let it simmer in the crockpot all night and really get the flavor in tight. Well you know the story about all good intentions. Hubby worked Saturday, forgot the turkey and his daughter decided to come up for a visit, so needless to say everything went to hell in a hand basket. <BR> <BR> So Sunday he works, so I'm stranded yet again. We get all the stuff required for chili and I th... Mon, 7 Feb 2011 08:45:54 EST My Scare and other Random Topics http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3986890 Hmm, well I will admit I've been a little Spark shy lately. I've been traveling a lot so it's hard to track food. I've still been working out, but not as much as I should because of the traveling. But I will admit to losing at least a pound while doing this, so I must be paying some attention to things. <BR> <BR> So North Texas is under an ice siege if any of you have had your head under a rock and haven't heard. tehehe, sorry I know most of the country is under that same siege. I wo... Thu, 3 Feb 2011 11:43:15 EST Just checking in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3933192 Back to work after a week in San Jose, well technically Santa Clara, but hey who counts miles. <BR> <BR> Had some training there. Off to Orlando for more training next week. <BR> <BR> Worked out in the mornings and then three times during the evenings while on the road. Drank pitchers of water. I just took one of the refreshment pitchers and put it in front of me. Training was good overall. <BR> <BR> Nothing much really to report. Just checking in and saying Hi. I guess I could... Mon, 17 Jan 2011 11:43:54 EST So 2011.. You're Here are Ya? (long) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3883738 I'm from the south can you tell by the drawl? lol. <BR> So 2011 is here. Time for a new 'tude. New plan, new thought process. <BR> I'm not good at goals. I set goals, I set good, great, and awesome goals. I fail at meeting goals. Goals don't mean anything to me. I'm not sure why. Now compete with me, that's a totally different story. I will try to beat you. I can't compete with myself. It's a character flaw, I suppose. Probably something I should work on, but, I think I will t... Mon, 3 Jan 2011 10:22:21 EST 2011 - Getting Rid of Fluffy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3866463 and no I don't mean the rabbit or the cat or any animal. I mean my "fluffy" body. I tried on clothes this past weekend. Yes I was one of those crazy people hitting the after Christmas sales and yes there were some VERY good bargains. But somehow it also turned into bra shopping. Well, needless to say you see a whole lot when you're bra shopping.. in yucky mirrors. I'm fluffy. I don't like fluffy. <BR> <BR> So, this year, I'm not making "weight goals" and I'm not even making inches g... Tue, 28 Dec 2010 09:42:03 EST Thank you http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3864253 I just wanted to thank everyone who has checked in on me, given me goodies or reminded me I still have support out here. Christmas was okay. Some things are slowly working out with a little bit of discussion. NO money actually rolling in (I wish), but we're doing okay. Job is changing so I'm interested to see how that works out. <BR> <BR> Thank you each and everyone of you who has supported me through this crisis. It's still ongoing but I"m feeling a little stronger. Mon, 27 Dec 2010 08:56:00 EST Probably my last blog for awhile http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3843011 Well yesterday, I picked it up. The notice of how much my bank wants and the date before they start foreclosure. I just can't seem to get ahead. I've had a lot of tears this past week. Finding out some stuff from my past that I know has affected me for my whole life. My mother finally admitting to my brother that yes she and my father were trying to live through us and I guess we failed them. At least in my mind I failed them because I was never perfect enough, didn't have the right jo... Tue, 14 Dec 2010 08:37:16 EST The Battle Within http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3834584 Yesterday I learned some disturbing news about my boss; that he was really the instigator in trying to get rid of me last year. Whole long story, turmoil, anyway the inbetween guy got let go because he did more than try to fire me... he was just a plain idiot. <BR> <BR> Then someone else just kind of pissed me off royally with attitude. <BR> <BR> Needless to say I came in today with a bad attitude. Morale is down here at my company as it is with a lot of decisions that have been made,... Thu, 9 Dec 2010 15:10:48 EST Christmas Quiz http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3831618 Christmas Quiz <BR> Wednesday, December 08, 2010 <BR> Swiped from Notabout the face. <BR> <BR> Just a note: No, I'm not asking you to do one but if you wanna! <BR> <BR> Have you been naughty or nice this year? For the most part nice <BR> <BR> What do you want most for Christmas? a heart rate monitor <BR> Do you believe in Santa Claus? uh yeah sure. <BR> <BR> What is your favorite food at Christmas? Honey pecan balls <BR> Have you started your Christmas shopping yet? N... Wed, 8 Dec 2010 09:10:23 EST My Love Affair http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3829410 With Pepsi.... <BR> <BR> Why can't I break the spell? My children and all their friends know.. "Don't take the last Pepsi, it's Mom's". People who've been in my house who don't know have done this and my children cower in fear because they know that I won't have my Pepsi. I get irrational, I get headaches, I get MEAN. I'm not a mean person. <BR> <BR> Now Pepsi and I came to an agreement. Instead of the big 44 ouncers that I previously indulged in twice a day, we've reduced our affair... Tue, 7 Dec 2010 09:08:43 EST Is it Monday again? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3829326 The only thing that I didn't do wrong was wake up late. I did sleep through the night (yes with a little pharmaceutical assistance) but sleeping is good. Barely realized when my husband left for work. <BR> <BR> Managed to get showered and dressed in time. Went to fix my lunch and proceeded to dump all of my lunch on the floor. The dogs had a nice treat. So the cupboards are a little bare, I'm thinking hopefully I have a can of soup at work, which I do. <BR> <BR> Get to work and loo... Tue, 7 Dec 2010 08:28:33 EST Oops started December a little late http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3827746 I haven't worked out in 13 (count em) 13 days. That's the longest hiatus I've had since April when I started this journey. I almost forgot what the gym looked like. But it's not because I've been busy, I've been mad at my plateau (which by the way is still happening), or I'm being too lazy. No, it's because I've been SICK and not the sick where it knocks you out and you lie in bed all day, no I get the kind of functional but I know I can't breath if I try to work out and every time I bend... Mon, 6 Dec 2010 13:57:59 EST Status Update, Compliments, Not beating myself up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3816363 Wow, it's been two weeks since I posted a blog. and I'm a venter, whiner, complainer, motivator, talker, etcer... is there such a word. Needless to say, it's still be rough. Financially things have not improved, gotten worse, but it's life. I'm looking into other employment because I am quite miserable at work, but it's a slow progress. <BR> <BR> Thanksgiving came and went. I stayed up pretty much most of the night defrosting a 20 pound turkey (bought it way late and it was bigger tha... Wed, 1 Dec 2010 09:04:08 EST Yay.. me... I think http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3790229 Was at work this morning, talking work at first, and then the guy asked what does that mean. I had 11/1/2010 and the number 8 below it. I'm like uh a goal that I didn't make. So I tried to talk around it and I told him I wanted to lose 8 more pounds before that date. and it didn't happen. He was like "you're fine, you don't need to lose any more". You've done an awesome job the last few months. Wow.. that is coming from a gym rat. So then of course my profile pic pops up on my screen... Wed, 17 Nov 2010 13:33:50 EST Still Frustrated but had wake up call http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3784685 Okay I binged a little.. a lot this weekend. So I have to work a lot extra. Can't complain about a plateau if I'm screwing it up right? <BR> <BR> Since I've lost the 20+ pounds, the knee pain that I have had in my left knee has all but gone away. Well until last Wednesday. I had achiness in both knees Wednesday. Okay, they are arthritic, and the weather is changing, so maybe that's it. Thursday I was bowling and by the third game, I was almost in tears. The left knee hurt as bad as ... Mon, 15 Nov 2010 08:56:54 EST I'm Done http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3770667 Wish I could say it was with this plateau or with losing weight. But no, nothing that good will come out of this blog. This is a dark depressing blog, if you want motivation, I'm not your girl. <BR> <BR> I spoke with my mother Saturday. My mother is toxic to my life. I haven't talked to her since mother's day this year. Okay, haven't talked or communicated. My mother expected perfection out of me. Hence my self esteem issues, my self loathing, my disgust and my fear of failure and s... Mon, 8 Nov 2010 15:06:58 EST This picture should have done it.. but it took a year http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3761118 for me to finally start losing the weight and working out again. Yes I did have another surgery between that picture and actually wasn't released from the previous surgery, but I should have started adjusting my eating then. I didn't. I probably put another ten pounds on after this? Who knows, I lost count. I didn't have a scale. I wasn't happy. Well I was in this picture, it was my daughter's graduation party, but still... why did I wait. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.spark... Thu, 4 Nov 2010 07:43:52 EST No Turning Back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3753498 This weekend, I should have been finishing the yard, but I didn't. The weather was gorgeous and I should have been outside. Okay, so I let the Rangers schedule influence my decisions for the weekend. I cleaned inside, well to a point. I didn't make any extra effort, but the thing that I did do ----- <BR> <BR> Threw out ALL of my old/new baggy clothes. If it's a size 12 or up, it's gone. Even a dress I've worn once but bought last year (I think a 14), all are out of my house. There is ... Mon, 1 Nov 2010 09:20:36 EST This Trainer is GOOOOOOOD!!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3744234 Yeah, I'm sure you're expecting a blog on how great he trained me and I'm sore and all that. Well, yes, but... <BR> <BR> Trainer: Sherri, I never asked you what you do for work. <BR> Sherri: I uh, yeah I'm in IT (this was after my workout and I'm still trying to figure out if I can stand up) <BR> Trainer: Oh, I thought you might have been a model or something. <BR> Sherri: Yeah uh no, but thank you.... I'll keep coming back. <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> So for six months, I've been t... Wed, 27 Oct 2010 14:29:33 EST Going to the big game http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3735599 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/4/l640977777.jpg"> <BR> Due to the graciousness of a new friend from Spark people I was able to go to game 6.. the clinch game. It was a great game - for the Rangers. My Texas Rangers are going to the World Series for the first time. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/8/l382988277.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/0/l909976433.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/9/l2993197... Sat, 23 Oct 2010 20:01:49 EST 50 things about me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3733474 Stole this from iwillbefit2010 <BR> What time did you get up this morning? 5:11 am <BR> <BR> 2. How do you like your steak? medium rare <BR> <BR> 3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Shutter Island <BR> <BR> 4. What is your favorite TV show? NCIS LA or one of the CSIs <BR> <BR> 5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be? clear ocean, white sandy beach (caribbean works for me right now) <BR> <BR> 6. What did you have for breakfast? Two eggs with cay... Fri, 22 Oct 2010 15:17:06 EST Don't Despair!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3730608 For all of you who are fighting a plateau or watching your scale go up and down even though you know you are doing the right thing, keep fighting the good fight. Don't despair, don't let it affect your mood. <BR> <BR> I for one admit - the scale has been my enemy. I've been on a plateau since mid July (wow coincides with exactly the same time my husband got laid off). Then suddenly my weight changed within two week.... UP..... eight pounds at the highest point. I work out 5-6 days per ... Thu, 21 Oct 2010 10:56:53 EST Figures http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3728011 So if you couldn't tell I'm a sports nut. Big time Ranger fan, uh hum cough, choke, Cowboy fan and Dallas Stars fan. Anyway, Rangers are one game away from taking down the Evil Empire called the New York Yankees and going to the World Series. First time in their history (Rangers have been in Texas since 1972 and were previously the Washington Senators since 1961). <BR> <BR> Well, I have tickets to game six. I was given them by someone else that couldn't go (well not given, but she's ha... Wed, 20 Oct 2010 10:03:55 EST Four Things about Me, stolen from another sparkie http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3726355 Four jobs I have had in my life: <BR> <BR> 1. Technical Writer <BR> 2. Compliance Analyst <BR> 3. Ice cream slinger <BR> 4. Medical Transcriptionist <BR> <BR> Four movies I have watched more than once: <BR> <BR> 1. Tombstone <BR> 2. Independence Day <BR> 3. Bad Boys (both of them) <BR> 4. National Treasure <BR> <BR> Four places I have lived: <BR> <BR> 1. Lewisville, Texas (Dallas) <BR> 2. Wichita Falls, TX <BR> 3. Salt Lake City, UT <BR> 4. Yuma, Arizona <BR> Guess if I was to claim w... Tue, 19 Oct 2010 16:08:37 EST Slightly Discouraging News http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3726156 We had a health screening today at work to help keep our insurance premiums down for next year. I figured I would be okay except I know the weight is still a little high. Thought the body fat would be in the 20s somewhere, albeit high. Oh no, 33.1%, I was NOT happy. Now I realize as a 47 year old woman, that this is in the healthy range. Not healthy in my mind. So I guess it's time to ramp up the intensity of the workouts and decrease the fun of the foods for a little while and get that... Tue, 19 Oct 2010 14:30:28 EST Project from He** http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3722631 Thank goodness the weather in Texas has been awesome because I in my infinite wisdom took on a project that I've been ignoring for two years. Figured I didn't have a truck to take stuff to the dump, might as well ignore it. Well, it all started two weeks ago (really back in May but you woud have to go back in my blogs for that), my hubby and neighbor cut down my very old, and well established tree. While they were doing that I decided to clean the flower bed alongside the house. Let me p... Mon, 18 Oct 2010 08:56:20 EST The Goal of the 4 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3698806 I've never worn a size 4 in my life. I actually don't really remember what size I wore in high school. I've seen a picture where, I really was kind of thin, but I don't remember being thin. I always thought I was the chunky, ugly girl. I always swore I went from a girls size 14 to a size 9 over night. I think that's the truth. But then again, I've blocked so much of a my childhood out (that's another blog). <BR> <BR> Anyway, I was looking in the mirror a few minutes ago. I'm feeling... Thu, 7 Oct 2010 09:47:34 EST Old News but a picture http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3696399 So a few weeks ago I did reach a milestone, I got into some pants that haunt me from my closet regularly. Thought I would show a couple of pictures. That's about it. I'm a little flustered today trying to figure out what the heck happened to my husband's overtime, so I'll keep quiet for the most part. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l11055330.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/4/l448555525.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Man I need some boobs. Front shot, the shirt ... Wed, 6 Oct 2010 10:56:37 EST Seriously??? This is ridiculous http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3690787 This plateau has GOT to stop. I've been on this same ride for over two months. I've got another tracker and at ONE pound (now that's a reasonable ONE pound) per week, I should be down at least six pounds from where I am. I haven't dropped ANYTHING. The inches are not moving either, although I'm back on the weights. I'm eating within range, I'm exercising. I've added my upper body weight training back in slowly so as to not re-injure the elbow. This has GOT to stop, because I need somet... Mon, 4 Oct 2010 08:48:14 EST Well darn http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3684402 My State Fair day got canceled. I was really looking forward to it. I could still go, but the people that I was going with aren't going so it won't be as much fun. Oh well. Irritated, VERY irritated with hubby. Hopefully that will pass. <BR> <BR> So tried a new concoction this morning. I am still on my plateau from hell (60 days and counting, actually if weight going up counts, then I'm not on a plateau), and I thought I would try something in the realm of metabolism kick starting (ca... Fri, 1 Oct 2010 10:27:08 EST Those rubbing thighs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3677160 I'm blogging really just to blog. I'm so busy at work I can't even think straight, but wanted to say something while I had it in my head. Been reading a lot of blogs about the aha moment that it's a lifestyle, what's your motivation to continue, starting over, new goals, coming back and it's just crazy, but it's life. I found it funny though because as I was coming back from my workout, I was thinking to myself.. Okay I need a kickstart. I've been hovering at this same weight for almost t... Tue, 28 Sep 2010 14:21:03 EST Nothing to do with Weight Loss or Fitness (well maybe Mental) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3666868 I have a peeve. It may be my own personal issue, but it bothers me. As you may or may not know, my husband and I have gone through some really rough financial times for the past five years. He has been laid off three times, quit one job and I have been laid off once. I am the primary breadwinner (income 2-3X his), but still his hurt our household. This was after him paying off a VERY expensive divorce that netted him nothing but a black hole of debt. and the IRS reamed us for getting ma... Fri, 24 Sep 2010 08:19:34 EST WT Fall Challenge - Week One http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3654858 <em>134</em> <em>141</em> <em>134</em> <em>141</em> <em>134</em> <em>141</em> <em>134</em> <em>141</em> <em>134</em> <em>141</em> <BR> <BR> Part One - Exercise & Nutrition! <BR> <BR> Last week, I was went to the driving range, played a round of golf and still got in my cardio. <BR> I did not do my ST on my legs of which I wanted to get one more in before P90x, but my bad, I let my life get in the way. <BR> <BR> This week, I know that I will be able to do P90X every day exc... Mon, 20 Sep 2010 11:33:57 EST WTF(all) Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3634122 <em>134</em> <em>141</em> <em>134</em> <em>141</em> <em>134</em> <em>141</em> <em>134</em> <em>141</em> <em>134</em> <em>141</em> <em>134</em> <BR> <BR> ENTRY CARD <BR> <BR> Starting Weight: 175 <BR> Starting Measurements: (choose any 4 or more- or use the sames ones as me- whatev) <BR> Measure your Waist - 30.75 <BR> Measure your Hips - 40.75 <BR> Measure your Thigh - 24.75 <BR> Measure your Calf - 15.5 <BR> Measure your Upper Arm - 13 <BR> Measure your Boobies - 35 <BR> Cu... Mon, 13 Sep 2010 14:24:12 EST So Much Stuff, So Little Space and I don't feel guilty http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3614568 Wow... summer is offiicially over. I'm sad. Another summer wasted in my life with no vacation, no time with my children, just work and stress. So in the words of Danny Glover in Lethal Weapon.. "I'm too old for this sh**". <BR> <BR> My weekend started at the neighbors house. Went over for a "drink" that turned into several drinks and I finished my rant and hated on the world. Then I went home and gorged on pizza and then went to sleep. Got up the next morning thinking I wasn't going ... Tue, 7 Sep 2010 10:51:41 EST It's been over 45 days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3604187 Since my husband was let go from work. I've somehow managed to not lose any weight, but I've continued to work out and eat fairly well. Not sure why I'm not losing weight though. Guess the ole cortisol hormone is working overdrive because I'm still majorly stressed. <BR> <BR> Which I know I am because I am RAGING... all the time. I'm just PISSED OFF. and I hate it. I don't like being this way. I'm having road rage screaming, well yelling a little loudly at idiots. I am frustrated a... Fri, 3 Sep 2010 14:32:07 EST Yay for the Small Things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3600985 Well I wish I could say I busted through my plateau but no, that's not my news or small thing. I love to play golf. It's a passion that I've never gotten to fully invest in because it's so FREAKING expensive (did I say expensive?, yeah Expensive). Anyway the last time I played was a year ago, in between foot surgeries. <BR> <BR> our company is a sponsor of a child advocacy center here in our county so we get two four man teams in a scramble coming up in two weeks. I played in it last ... Thu, 2 Sep 2010 15:37:06 EST Rocking the 8.. and the sporty new tendonitis band http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3592931 It's been an interesting week and a half to say the least. We've had some changes at work that have NOT been perceived as good. We all still have our jobs, but there is going to be some movement out the door. Too many bosses demoted, too new of people promoted (because they are the big boss's buddy) and too much confusion and not enough organization around the reorganization. Nothing is getting done and lots of gossip in the halls. Unfortunately my back stepping on his way to the top boss... Tue, 31 Aug 2010 13:07:33 EST Our bodies are NOT machines http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3580718 So I have the Spark Nutrition tracker calorie differential set for losing 1 1/2 pounds per week and the fitness tracker set for the same, burn 3500 calories minimum per week. Almost every week it yells at me that I'm over on burned calories and not eating enough, blah, blah, blah, blah. If it told me that last night I would have yelled back at it... (I was kinda moody and it's not TOM, so just pure rage). <BR> <BR> This was for the NEW goals that I set in July after I set my goals too hi... Fri, 27 Aug 2010 14:47:41 EST