2KRAYZEE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=2KRAYZEE 2KRAYZEE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ August has been rough on me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5027977 I was just getting my knee injury under control and just started feeling good.... WAM! I am in the emergency room for what I thought was a burst appendix. I was a hurting unit. I found out it was just a really bad urinary tract infection with a bad case of Gasritus. I am only 42.... am I not to young to have so many problems and why all in the same year? I feel a little deflated. It really took me out for a while. <BR> The Doc said I needed to eat a really bland diet ( this will help with wei... Thu, 23 Aug 2012 13:32:16 EST Good News! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4974825 It has been about 6 weeks since I hurt my knee and I went to the Docs today. He said that I am healing really well on my own. He also said that if I keep up on the physical therapy and lose a bit more weight he does not believe I will need surgery. What a relief and a motivator. <em>244</em> <em>386</em> <em>345</em> <em>334</em> <em>8</em> <em>306</em> Tue, 17 Jul 2012 15:54:43 EST I'm doing alright http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4973039 I doing pretty good. <BR> -I starting back down the scale and I think I have figured out what works (lots of fruit, veggies & exercise). <BR> - My knee is getting stronger every week and its not hurting as much as it did. <BR> - I know I need 7 to 8 hours of sleep <BR> - I am still struggling with giving myself the attention I need, but I know its necessary. Ill keep working at it. <BR> - I know I do better breaking my goals into small goals ( thanks SP). If I take it one step at a time I ... Mon, 16 Jul 2012 15:32:17 EST Knee Surgery Pending http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4897856 Last week I stepped into a hole in the yard while mowing the lawn. I heard a loud pop sound and then crawled back to the house. I immediately put ice on my knee and propped it up. The next day I was feeling pretty good. Well, yesterday I stepped out of a truck and I heard that pop sound again. This time I didnt get back up to easy. I hate going to the doctors, but I figured I better, because I could not walk. <BR> I am glad I did. I have dislocated my knee and I guess its pretty bad. He gave... Fri, 25 May 2012 16:00:21 EST 2 weeks Vegan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4887630 I have been struggling a lot with my health. My husband, Chip, has diabetes and I am obese. I am having a terrible time with my knees and feet. I have tried so many diet ideas, but none of them really clicked. My husband and I watched a video called "Fork Over Knives" . It is all about the vegan life style and how it has helped many people with over coming cancers and things like diabetes. We have a small farm so I was blown away when Chip said he felt we should try a vegan diet for 30 days. ... Fri, 18 May 2012 17:35:38 EST Never Quit Pledge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4855237 I was visiting one of my SP friends page (NPA4LOSS) and she had posted this pledge. I love it so I thought I would share. <BR> <BR> <BR> Today, I promise I will not quit. <BR> I pledge that no matter, how many ups and <BR> downs I pass through, <BR> I will continue on my journey. <BR> I pledge to make a NEW START today, <BR> and forgive myself for my past, <BR> and to stop being so critical of myself. <BR> I pledge to take control of myself, <BR> To Stop making excuses, <BR> And st... Fri, 27 Apr 2012 17:18:59 EST just thinking out loud http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4765092 It seems to me that this healthy life style does not only pertain to diet and exercise. I have always focused on this part of health. I have gone on countless diets and exercise programs and they work for a short time. BUT I always end up gaining it back+. There is a 3rd component that is crucial to my success and that is dealing with my emotional baggage. <BR> I am loving, friendly person and I love to take care of the people in my life. I am not sure how someone who takes care of other peo... Thu, 1 Mar 2012 10:54:27 EST I hired an Excuse Buster! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4753854 I have an excuse for everything and I can rationalize plenty of things too. I am especially good at it when it comes to food. I read an SP article (can’t find the title) that suggested that I employ an excuse buster. This excuse buster needs to be someone who you are willing to share with and someone who you respect their opinion (for me this is my Mom). Whenever I have an excuse why can’t do something, I write it down and then call my excuse buster. The excuse buster helps me decide weather... Thu, 23 Feb 2012 19:15:22 EST tomorrow http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4715311 Tomorrow I go to the Dr. I am dreading it. I feel like I am going to confess my sins. I know she is going to talk to me about my weight. It is higher than the last visit and she told me then it was way to high. I have to tell her about my new health issues and I know my weight affects them all. I am so frustrated by my weight. I am embarrassed, I fell like a failure and I feel like my weight has taken over all that I am. I know I am getting all worked up. I just hate sharing this ugly struggl... Tue, 31 Jan 2012 22:15:24 EST Why? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4616864 Well I am back to square one. I have all the excuses.... my business moved locations, I now have a huge mortgage, I'm working too many hours and my family is really having a hard time right now. I dont feel good about myself. I know food is not the answer, but I do not seem to have the will power to talk myself out of eating. I am a 42 year old woman who has learned how to stuff her feelings and I am afraid that I will never break this terrible cycle. I could use some prayer Wed, 7 Dec 2011 19:57:25 EST Week 2 progress report for my SB adventure http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4545355 I had a hard week this week, but I ended up with a lose. I lost 1.2 lbs this week and I am happy with that. <em>8</em> Thu, 20 Oct 2011 18:16:21 EST I am a work in progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4543573 I am naturally a glass half full kind of girl. I seem to focus on what I have not done and it gets me down. That is why today I took a moment and forced myself to think about the things I have accomplished. I think they are pretty good <BR> I have given up caffeine <BR> I have given up pop <BR> I am doing Yoga <BR> I can take a 2 mile walk and enjoy it <BR> I have given up sugar in my tea and now use Stevia <BR> <em>244</em> <em>8</em> <em>26</em> <em>345</em> Wed, 19 Oct 2011 15:05:37 EST Man I have a hard time on the weekends! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4540235 I really lose it on the weekends. I messed up multiple times. I just have the hardest time passing up all the yummy foods that come with socializing. In my mind I try to talk myself through it... but I always cave. I can not believe the amount of control I let food have over me. <BR> BUT I didnt eat what I would have before, I had a little. I feel good about that and I am hoping that my weekend will not show to badly on the scale on Thursday. I'm just going to try a little harder next weeken... Mon, 17 Oct 2011 17:25:47 EST Results of week 1, Phase 1 on the South Beach http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4533610 I am so excited! I lost 8 lbs in one week. I can not believe it. I had to weigh myself 5 times. Thu, 13 Oct 2011 11:12:04 EST 1st Yoga Class http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4532266 Last night I tried Yoga for the very 1st time. I almost didnt go cause I was afraid I would make a fool of myself. I am so glad I went. There ended up being a lot of my friends there and I felt very comfortable. I was unable to do a lot of the poses, but I left feeling great! I felt revived. Wed, 12 Oct 2011 14:10:04 EST Putting food in its place http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4530795 I have been trying really hard this week to stick with the South Beach Diet. It has been a struggle and its not because I am hungry. I am finding that food has taken over my mind. It seems to be something I want to run to for every mood and social event. I have been asking myself ....are you really hungry?.... and most of the time I am not. It is a true struggle within myself. Is this something that I can over come or is it something I will struggle with for the rest of my life? Tue, 11 Oct 2011 18:26:38 EST Tough Weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4527643 This weekend was rough. I cant say I did really well on my South Beach Plan, but I still feel confident. I really believe this time is diffrent. <BR> Sun, 9 Oct 2011 23:31:44 EST Day 2 went soooooo much better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4524176 Day 2 went so much better than day 1. I had a headache, but nothing an Tylenol couldnt cure. Day 3 is starting out great. I feel like I have some energy coming back, Im not hungry, and I am feelin very possitive about my diet adventure. <BR> <BR> I feel like this is might be something I can do. <BR> <em>334</em> Fri, 7 Oct 2011 12:45:01 EST Tough 1st day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4522835 Yesterday was my 1st day of the South Beach Diet Phase 1. I had such a headache. my stomach was queasy, and I had no energy. I went home from work. I guess I had more of an issue with caffeine than I had thought. I hear it takes about 3 days to start feeling better. OH I hope they are right. Thu, 6 Oct 2011 15:52:59 EST I went off the deep end http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4520287 May 20th was the last day I did anything healthy for myself. Work got crazy, the kids schedules got crazier and I lost control. I did not eat right, exercise or journal. <BR> <BR> I gained 25lbs. <BR> <BR> Man I am so mad at myself. I know what I am doing. I know what is going to happen. I have done this before. Yet I just cant seem to pull myself out of the funk. <BR> <BR> I do not want to repeat this ever again. ( I have said this before) I do not want to be as heavy as I am. My winter ... Wed, 5 Oct 2011 08:13:51 EST keeping it simple http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4123229 There is a lot going on right now. My business is really growing and we decided to take on buying land and building. My kids school schedules are picking up and we are trying to prepare our home for sale. <BR> In the past this is usually where I start to melt down. The crazier life gets the more I put me and my health on the back burner. I start just eating whatever gets in my way and forget my exercise all together. Then I gain weight, get more depressed, tired and then eat more to feel bett... Mon, 28 Mar 2011 08:24:56 EST Yikes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4075899 I ate my breakfast, but I was still hungry. I left my snack at home on the counter so a co-worker offered my some raw almonds. In my mind I thought that should be a healthy option. I ate a cup of almonds. I just posted it on my food log and those almonds are worth over 800 calories. Wow I ate most of my calories for breakfast. <BR> I guess I should have checked their worth before I ate them. <BR> <em>29</em> Tue, 8 Mar 2011 11:35:43 EST Minor set back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4073363 I always seem to go through these periods of time when I go backwards. I've gained back 3lbs. I think Ill be okay as long as I dont let it go any further. I need to get off the couch and get my work out in. I need to make sure I eat my veggies and drink my water. I can do this.... I think. <BR> <em>24</em> Mon, 7 Mar 2011 13:47:33 EST reminder to self http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4060524 My motivational poster is words that I read everyday. <BR> ARE YOU READY.... to live life, change your world, ICAN get fit, Get seriously Sexy, Look Great, Change your mind, change your body and change your life, support your feet, SHAPE Your life. <BR> <BR> Some weeks seem so hard and you get down. Dont let the cants take over. Dont let life get in the way of you succeeding. YOU can Do IT! You are ready. <BR> <BR> I think I can, I think I must, I think I will Wed, 2 Mar 2011 13:03:29 EST Today was a great day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3993624 Today I got to spend the day with my hubby. We are together 24-7 because We work together. The difference of today is that we had fun....no work talk, no family talk, no bill talk, just fun. It was do nice. I feel uplifted. Sat, 5 Feb 2011 21:09:33 EST I am hungry http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3981051 I started a clense diet 9 days ago. I have 5 more days to go and I am very determind to see this through, BUT I am very hungry today. Its not a stomache hunger its a mind hunger. The mind wants what it wants and thats why am where I am. This fast has been a very good experience. I have had more energy than I have in a long time. Oh I hope I dont mess it up today. <BR> <BR> Has anyone else done a fast? What helped you get through the rough spots? Was it a possitive experience for you? Tue, 1 Feb 2011 15:07:45 EST Not giving up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3832728 The Holidays are awesome! I love all the great parties and social get togethers. I enjoy seeing friends and family and catching up. The issue is there is always great food and drinks and I am ex busy so I am tired and don’t want to exercise. This is a problem 'cause I love all the bad for me stuff. This year is different. This year it is the year I have learned about life changing habits verses crash diets. I am going to allow a little indulgence. I am not going to beat myself up for it. I am... Wed, 8 Dec 2010 18:36:11 EST A different kind of success http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3790674 I started the zone diet and I have wrestled with the no bread thing. I have yet to make it a day without cheating. I have not lost any weight, but I feel great. I have energy and I haven't been as tired in the afternoon. I have energy at the end of the day to get my workout in and my chores. I think I might have found something that is going to help me live a healthier, happier life. <BR> WOO HOO! I am very excited Wed, 17 Nov 2010 17:26:19 EST I am thankful 11/17/10 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3790539 I am thankful to be alive and to have the opportunity to love, grow, change and be. Wed, 17 Nov 2010 16:05:29 EST I am thankful 11/16/10 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3788363 I have not been keeping up with this a s I should. It is so good to be thankful. I find myself looking at my glass half empty and it really isnt. <BR> <BR> Today I am thankful for the wet wintry weather. It has given me a nice quiet day at the office. I have been able to catch up on some paper work. I've got a little screw off time to play on the internet. It has been great!. Plus, the mountains look so pretty with their coat of white. <BR> Tue, 16 Nov 2010 17:18:55 EST I am thankful 11/10/10 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3774993 I am listing 1 thing a day that I am thankful for until Thanksgiving Day. I was stuck at home with down internet yesterday so I am going to do 2 things I am thankful for. <BR> 1) I am so thankful for my business. It is a bit rocky right now, but it has taken good care of my family for many years. Being my own boss has allowed me the freedom to be a mom and wife. It has been good to me and my family. <BR> 2) I am thankful for my Bunco friends and Bunco. Lol, I know it sounds a bit silly, but ... Wed, 10 Nov 2010 11:31:28 EST I am thankful 11/8/10 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3770901 I have joined a challenge. The challenge is to make a point of being thankful for something everyday until Thanksgiving. I have many things to be thankful for and it is a great idea to make the time to think of such things. <BR> I am blessed with a wonderful family. I have a hard working husband. He is big and strong and handsome. I have 2 beautiful boys that make my heart sing. They are also strong and handsome. <BR> I am thankful for loving parents that have supported me through it all. M... Mon, 8 Nov 2010 16:48:46 EST feeling better about things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3757045 I was a reck last week. I can be so self destructive. I am starting back a zero on my weight lose, but I will try again............I really need to get a hobby. <BR> Thanks again to everyone who posted on my blog. I was really low and you picked me up. I love my SP Friends. Tue, 2 Nov 2010 13:36:27 EST I fell out of the wagon! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3748991 It seems to be an all to familar story. I fell and fell hard. I gave up my all my new healthy routines and traded them for the old FAT habits. Sometimes I wonder if this old girl will ever learn. <BR> Life is a bit rocky right now. My business is really slow, my 14 yr old is testing every limit and my husband I are not communicating very well. I am depressed and crying a lot. Its halloween and the chocolate candy is calling my name. <BR> <BR> I tell myself well maybe I am meant to be heavy,... Fri, 29 Oct 2010 18:10:17 EST I'm getting over this weekend hurdle! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3702020 I have a terrible time controlling my calorie intake on the weekends. I want to eat what my kids are eating, I have more time to snack and there are more social things that happen on the weekend (all excuses I Know) Well I am mentally prepared for this weekend. I have already scheduled walks with 2 of my buds. I have dove into my spark recipe books and I am planning 2 new healthy dinners. I've asked the boys to not bring junk food in the house. <BR> It feels good to have a plan <BR> <em>334<... Fri, 8 Oct 2010 15:20:54 EST Stress Eating Ideas http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3696858 The other day I asked everyone about how they dealt with stress eating and I got the impression that a lot of you are having a hard time with this too. I asked everyone I know and I wanted to share some of the ideas I received. <BR> <BR> 1) Dr. Roizen and Dr. Oz. They have a section on stress management. In addition to exercise and meditation, here are a few quick stress relievers from the book: <BR> -"Scrunch your face tightly for fifteen seconds, then release. Repeat several times. This ... Wed, 6 Oct 2010 13:42:17 EST I got off track a little bit, but I am back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3680193 The last month has been a little rocky. I slipped and gained a couple of pounds . I let it get to me and instead of getting back on track I ran the other way. Why do I do this to myself? It is a pattern that I have repeated for many years!!!! <BR> <BR> NO worries, I am back and focused. I am going to beat this weight thing. I have a plan. <BR> <BR> I am going to keep a journal so that I can learn what my triggers are and prepare for them. <BR> I am going to give myself 30 min a day for ... Wed, 29 Sep 2010 17:17:48 EST How do you get there? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3622096 How does one get from the have to -to the want to. I am really not sure how to get to highly motivated to lose weight. I know I need to. I do want to and I have the plan. I just have a hard time fitting me in my life. It seems easier to focus on other things. The giddy up isnt there. Thu, 9 Sep 2010 13:21:17 EST Stress Eater http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3574181 This month has been very stressful. I am learning new tasks for work and business is up and I am falling behind. My kids start school this Monday and I am not prepared. My husband and I have been fighting because of all the pressure. This is about the time I usually throw in the towel and eat everything I can think of. It is my go to thing. I know its crazy, but I just am not sure how to get past this. <em>46</em> Wed, 25 Aug 2010 16:47:55 EST What SparkPeople does for me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3519324 Setting goals isn’t enough. Taking steps to achieve the goals is progress. Surrounding yourself with people who are achieving their goals is key. Removing people from your life who hold you back from your goals is essential. <BR> I do not know who wrote this, but for me it sums up what SP does for me. I am very grateful <BR> <BR> <BR> <em>252</em> Mon, 9 Aug 2010 18:47:29 EST Gained Weight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3478888 The last time I wrote in my blog I had lost 2 lbs. Today's weight is at he start weight +. I am so frustrated and angry with myself. I hate to tell you how many times I have restarted in my life, but I refuse to quit. <BR> I have started many good thing since I joined SP. I am keeping track of my intake ( good or bad), I am working out more, I am learning to destress, I am taking the time for more rest and I am feeling more hopeful than I have in a long time. I just wish the scale was showin... Wed, 28 Jul 2010 14:10:05 EST 2 Weeks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3455454 Time has flew by! It has been two weeks since I joined. I have lost 2 lbs and gained a lot of knowledge and support. SP is a wonderful tool. I have a long journey ahead of me, but I know I can make the changes necessary. Wed, 21 Jul 2010 15:58:47 EST learning how to de-stress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3448508 I am learning that learning to de-stress is going to be a key factor in my weight lose. I have been working on putting time in my day to relax and it has already made a difference in how I feel. Taking the time for a bath, visiting with friends, and listening to my favorite songs have really made me more relaxed and able to take on my everyday challenges. In the past I would run to food for comfort and I am finding out that there are alternatives that really work for me. Mon, 19 Jul 2010 19:45:33 EST Went to my Doc today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3435142 I went o my Doctor today and it went pretty well. I have lost a couple of pounds, my bp is good, things are okay. She did bring up the fact that I have to make a workout a part of my everyday. That if I am really serious about weight lose and good health- it must be. I know this and I avoid this. I have it on my goals and I know it is important. <BR> I want to be healthy more than I hate working out so I will do this! Starting with 20 min today. Wish me luck! Thu, 15 Jul 2010 13:15:37 EST SP is very helpful http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3432386 I am feeling better about things today and it has a lot to do with SP. There is so much good info and great insperation by the team leaders and other members. I am loving it! Wed, 14 Jul 2010 18:10:38 EST Self Destructive http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3428774 Why is it that I keep running to the habits that got me to this point in my life? I fool myself into thinking that its easier . I keep saying tomorrow, but tomorrow has not come. I get angry at myself . If I do not stop this madness I will be fat forever, die from a heart attach or diabetes. I know what I need to do. Where has the will power gone? Tue, 13 Jul 2010 19:03:51 EST Up, Down, & Back again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3412067 I have gained, lost and regained the same weight for many years. <em>39</em> I am really needing to think outside the box. I want to try new ideas and make life changes. I am fully aware that the quick fix will never work for me. Do any of you have any great ideas for making real change? Thu, 8 Jul 2010 17:06:24 EST