2013SWEETJANE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=2013SWEETJANE 2013SWEETJANE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Weariness is a Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5712298 It's a beautiful day here. Sunshine, blue skies, puffy white clouds, nice cool breeze...and....ah-choo!!! I had to resort to taking my OTC allergy pill (in addition to my prescription inhaler and nasal spray) just to venture out to a movie, this afternoon. About 4 hours later, the allergy pill drowsiness hit hard. Yawn. Now, what did I used to do when I felt tired and didn't have a solution? Why, eat, of course! Now that I'm trying to be more mindful about eating, I realize that while... Fri, 6 Jun 2014 18:45:03 EST Tired? Get Your Thyroid Checked! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5686364 I've been struggling, as I always do, with the motivation to exercise. It seemed to me that just getting through the day was enough of a challenge. I felt tired ALL the time, and had to grit my teeth just to get myself out of the chair and up and doing ANYTHING. I'd vacuum, then take a long rest break. Do the dishes and throw in laundry. Rest break. While I'm not young (62), I'm not THAT old! I just figured it was all due to the fact that I'm nearly 100 pounds overweight. So there was... Sat, 3 May 2014 10:19:32 EST Spring, Time for New Beginnings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5653752 My new beginnings for this year's season of growth and rebirth are focused on changing some of my "default" responses to life. Instead of being caught up in my usual patterns, my intent is going to be to stop, reflect and decide whether how I reflexively act or think is how I WANT to act and think. It will take some attention and will occasion some uneasy moments, undoubtedly, as change is hard to do, and because most of my life, I've looked to others to tell me who I "should" be. <BR> I wa... Sat, 22 Mar 2014 08:25:05 EST Hyper-vigilance is NOT the way! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5652216 In the past year, I've been here on Spark most of the time. I've also read another boatload of books on diet, emotional eating, healthy lifestyles, etc., etc., etc. I could teach a class in nutrition and I know all the right things to think about staying active and types of exercise, and so on. But the mad little gnome that lives inside my brain still takes over when it comes to food. I've wrestled the controls away for brief periods, and like a good girl, logged my food, ate "healthy" an... Thu, 20 Mar 2014 09:05:54 EST Change Scares Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5637461 I really hate to have to admit it, but it's true. While I often seek new experiences, the changes that either require me to put myself out there or to forge ahead when I'm not too certain of the outcome are scary. <BR> Recently my efforts in maintaining my focus on my goals have been pretty wimpy. I've slowly sunken back into a defeated and hopeless state of mind. Some of it has been due to the effects of this LONG hard winter we've had. Too much huddling inside the house, unable to go ... Sun, 2 Mar 2014 08:27:31 EST Spring Cleaning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5630980 Usually when I think of spring cleaning, I mean the kind that happens seasonally for me: taking stuff out of closets, deciding what goes to Goodwill and what to keep, paring down, and buffing up my surroundings to welcome the new season of life. <BR> This year, my spring cleaning is taking a different direction: a journey of reflection into my thoughts and emotions. I am one of those people who believes in little nudges from the Universe (God) when I am being given a new direction. And ju... Sat, 22 Feb 2014 15:53:11 EST Late Winter Doldrums http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5629117 For those who live in the "frozen" locations, it is now the grit-my-teeth-and-hang-on-till-springtime season. I find myself both restless and listless. I don't want to do nothing, and yet there is nothing I WANT to do. I find myself daydreaming escapist fantasies: sell my house and move to some exotic (to me) location, such as Hawaii; stay here, but totally remodel my house and buy all new furniture to express my inner vision of how I'd like my home to look; sell everything and rent a stu... Thu, 20 Feb 2014 11:01:18 EST I Wish I Could "Share" to Spark from Facebook http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5611377 Because I just received a post "shared" by a friend that was one of the most reassuring and inspiring things I've read in awhile! It was headed by two photos of a woman who looks to be in her mid-late 30's. In the first photo she is running in a race with a bunch of other people. She explained it was taken one year after she had become a loyal adherent to her healthy lifestyle; having lost weight, consistently eating right, exercising every day, etc. And she looks pretty good. Not someon... Fri, 31 Jan 2014 16:56:32 EST May the Spark Be With You http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5597057 There was a dangerous disruption in the Spark. I was feeling blah and the Blue Meanies (negative self-talk voices) were growing louder. My "pattern" with trying to make a NEW pattern of a healthy lifestyle was emerging, once again. A bad case of the "I can'ts" or the "But..." or the "don't WANT to...". So discouraging. In desperation, I turned to the one thing that never fails to make me happy...a book. This time, I picked up "The Spark", and began reading. As I read I began to rememb... Fri, 17 Jan 2014 13:34:51 EST Oh Yay! Walking is Great! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5548335 I've owned a pedometer for awhile now, and go through times of wearing it and then forgetting about it. Lately I've been wearing it again. I was curious about how much walking I do in my part-time job, working in a school as a one-to-one aide with a young man living with autism. We do a lot of "jobs" around the school that involve walking, mostly delivering mail or bulletins to all the classrooms, teachers, etc. We often walk pretty much all morning, with perhaps brief breaks, from 9 a.m.... Sat, 23 Nov 2013 10:31:29 EST Avoiding the Evening Snack Attack http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5545540 My hard time to stay within my calorie limit and food plan is from 7 to 9 pm in the evening. Whether it's boredom, loneliness, tiredness or whatever...the siren call of the cupboard and 'fridge scream loudest, then. Tonight, I won the battle! <BR> First I called a friend. Then I cleared off the clutter on the table, and put each thing away where it goes. Then I washed the dishes and mopped the kitchen floor. Then I tidied up some stuff in my bedroom. I gathered the Christmas gifts bough... Tue, 19 Nov 2013 19:53:45 EST No Wind Beneath My Wings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5467717 Here it is, the dreaded unchanging scale. That sinking feeling as I realize that although I've faithfully measured, weighed and recorded all my food and kept to my calorie range, the scale is stuck at one spot. <BR> <BR> I wouldn't be as discouraged if this happened to me after I'd already seen a big number drop. But (as usual) I seem to only lose a few pounds, and then....stasis. No change. Status quo. <BR> <BR> No matter the diet or plan I try, this is uniformly the result for me. Wh... Tue, 27 Aug 2013 10:07:24 EST Slaying the Exercise Dragon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5461841 Maybe some of you are like me: I don't enjoy exercising. I've tried to convince myself it's fun, it's good for me, etc. and it still feels like WORK. I'd almost rather go to the dentist than put on my workout clothes and engage in a half hour or so of movement, loathing every minute. Almost. <BR> <BR> Once upon a time (40 years and over 100 pounds ago) I used to love ONE form of exercise. It was the only thing I ever truly enjoyed: taking ballet classes. But all the rest (which is all... Wed, 21 Aug 2013 09:50:20 EST A Journey Is Best Made in the Company of Others http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5457291 Today I am feeling so very thankful! I'm thankful for SparkPeople Community in general, and my Spark partner, PUREHEART_315, in particular. This is what I was always lacking, in all my previous efforts at changing my lifestyle and losing weight/getting healthier...community. <BR> <BR> As someone who learned growing up that the only person I could count on was ME, it's a revelation to me to discover (so belatedly!) the real help and love and support that is out there for me, if only I am wi... Fri, 16 Aug 2013 14:12:59 EST Hope Can Be a Fragile Thing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5455910 Now that I'm settled into my SparkPeople nutrition tracking for a few weeks, I've seen very small losses, despite I really DO track every single day and track honestly, and I'm staying in my "goal" (if at the high end of it) most days...only a few "oops" of going "over" by 100 or 200 calories. <BR> <BR> It's hard to fathom, in my little brain, why when I'm eating FAR less calories per day than I was previously, the weight isn't just dropping off! I'm easily eating 500 to 1000 calories per ... Thu, 15 Aug 2013 09:16:25 EST My Insanity Can Be Cured http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5441355 I joined the Spark Community online last spring, and promptly did nothing at all after a couple of stabs at tracking my food intake. I'm of the generation that didn't grow up "blogging" or using a computer to journal my thoughts. Paper and pen are much more natural and comfortable, for me! So, having almost immediately "fallen away" from SparkPeople, I resumed my long-standing search for THE diet, THE food plan, THE guru or book or magic that would finally put me on the path to curing my i... Thu, 1 Aug 2013 17:36:15 EST