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I'm Sure My Stalker Lives Below Me --- (Private)

Sun, 3 Mar 2013 20:04:24 EST

Yesterday I was talking with Chuck about the cops refusal to do anything about all the stalking and destructive stuff that’s been done. And I said, “that the cops didn’t even investigate what they could have investigated, such as checking with the phone company to ask what the name on the computer was that had been downloading music (before I put a password on my wi-fi), or coming and examining the screen room that was de...

Stalker At It Again --- (Private)

Sun, 3 Mar 2013 17:50:10 EST

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No matter how excited you are about doing this, the pressures and demands of life will try to rob you of that excitement nearly every day.

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Nature vs Nurture - The Debate Continues --- Info. On Fetal Developement --- (Private)

Wed, 6 Feb 2013 15:54:57 EST

I was just watching a video online, and it plainly is showing that nurture plays a HUGE factor in how a persons personality and behavior turns out. Yet I have read several books by professionals studying psychopathy, and their books show very STRONGLY that heredity is the most important factor in creating a sociopath or psychopath; though in sociopaths environment plays heavily in determining whether heredity plays it's hand in a negative way.

Here's a copy of what was said on the...

The Effect of Fiber On Sugar Digestion - Do You Still Digest ALL Those Calories? --- (Private)

Wed, 30 Jan 2013 18:37:38 EST

www.gutsense.org/reports/myth.html

Myth #1: For maximum health, obtain 30 to 40 g of fiber daily from fresh fruits and vegetables.

Reality: Here is how many fresh fruits you'll need to eat throughout the day in order to obtain those 30 to 40 grams (1-1.4 oz) of daily fiber:

That comes to five apples, three pears, and two oranges. A small apple contains 3.6 g of fibe...

When Never EVER to Use Fish Oil - by Dr. Mercola --- (Private)

Sat, 26 Jan 2013 11:12:30 EST

articles.mercola.com/sites/articles/
archive/2010/10/16/rudi-moerck-on-fish
-oil.aspx

When Never EVER to Use Fish Oil

Video Length: 27:14
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Dr. Rudi Moerck is a drug industry insider and an expert on omega-3 fats.

In this interview, Dr. Rudi Moerck explains why fish oil may not be your best source of otherwise healthful omega-3 fats.

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Day 19 of Taking Back My Life - Backsliding Severely --- (Private)

Sun, 13 Jan 2013 20:36:52 EST

I have spent the past 10 days eating practically everything in sight. Well, not quite true; on January 4th I went grocery shopping with Chuck, and that day is when I fell off the wagon. In 24 hours I had gained 1.4# back. I would have shown at least 2 .8# loss on the scale (instead of only 2.0# loss). I continued to gain through Monday January 7th, and then I started losing (DUE TO SLEEP LOSS). I was still eating fairly poorly but had improved my eating just a smidgen. Then Thursday evening I...

Day 18 Of Taking Back My Life --- Losing Ground, Gaining Ground, Being Grateful --- (Private)

Sat, 12 Jan 2013 21:12:26 EST

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Losing ground in my goals and plans due to GOING TO BED WAY TOO LATE.

RENTS in Bismarck now costing THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS.

God has been - and is - taking care of me.

Relax, enjoy my days, and be grateful.

Gotta have my HRT for quality of life (moods, energy, coping with stresses)

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Day 13 Of Taking Back My Life --- The Exhaustion Has Come Back --- (Private)

Mon, 7 Jan 2013 21:41:20 EST

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Still slowly & systematically cleaning up my house.

Exhaustion has struck severely again.

Eating too many snacks again.
Gotta seriously work on improving my sleep hours and amount.

I’m making really good progress on my exercise. Getting more regular. And, today I did 50 minutes hard-core exercise on the bike. Sweated big time!

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Day 9 Of Taking Back My Life --- Nightmares of Utter Aloneness & Loneliness --- (Private)

Thu, 3 Jan 2013 19:28:26 EST

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Nightmares of utter aloneness and loneliness are here again. Cause loneliness IS my life.

With Chia Seeds or Konsyl Fiber my blood sugar never gets over 97, even after meals! Stable blood sugar will = wt loss.

Doing great with my food, and doing short bursts of high-intensity work today, but otherwise have spent most the day in my chair.

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Day 8 Of Taking Back My Life - Thinking About What Is To Become of Me & My Dogs --- (Private)

Thu, 3 Jan 2013 00:16:35 EST

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I did (really) good with my food today. The ‘Life Extension Natural Appetite Control’, the Chia Seeds, & the Konsyl Fiber are really reining in my appetite. I did have about 2 tbls dark chocolate chips at breakfast, and 4 oz orange soda in the evening, but otherwise my food is 'fantastic'.

AND, I did a FULL ONE HOUR heavier intensity aerobic workout on the exercise bike (116-130 bpm)....

Day 7 Of Taking Back My Life - A Cold Came & Went in ONE Day - The Power of Chia Seeds --- (Private)

Tue, 1 Jan 2013 19:51:16 EST

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Woke up this morning with symptoms of a cold that only got worse as the day went on… and then it just disappeared!

Started using Chia Seeds Dec. 29th, and have great hopes for weight loss using them - and Life Extensions ‘Natural Appetite Control’.

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I woke up this morning cou...

Day 6 Of Taking Back My Life - Angry at Chuck (again) ----- (Private)

Mon, 31 Dec 2012 23:27:38 EST

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It’s really hard to let C.G. “suffer the consequences’ when I will also suffer consequences for what he does. But, I’m ‘letting go’ & wishing for the best.

I am ‘step by step’ cleaning up the kitchen, as well as making inroads on other housework.

Today I did 50 minutes exercise, with (3) one minute high speed intervals.

Lately my knee has been hurting all the w...

Day 4 Of Taking Back My Life - Flopped Bigtime Today... --- (Private)

Sat, 29 Dec 2012 22:23:48 EST

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I Need To Choose The Path I Am Going to Take (Every Single Day).

I Need to Put My Mental & Physical Energy Towards Making The Positive Changes In My Life, Instead of (Letting) Myself Be Derailed By Anybody.

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Today I started taking my vitamins again - before breakfast and brea...

Day 3 Of Taking Back My Life - It Just Keeps Getting Better... --- (Private)

Sat, 29 Dec 2012 00:23:29 EST

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Still A ‘Happy Camper’ Since Taking My Page Offline.

Done MUCH Better On My Food Today - Natural Appetite Control Working. Or Maybe
It’s The Happiness Working…

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I weighed 1.6# more this morning than yesterday morning, which was quite a shock. Especially since I had done...

Day 2 Of Taking Back My Life --- (Private)

Thu, 27 Dec 2012 23:41:03 EST

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There's been negatives & positives in my efforts today.
Overall though I'm happy with what I've done.

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Today I didn’t do very good on my food. I started Life Extensions ‘Natural Appetite Control’. It is supposed to increase the substances that decrease appetite. I didn’t notice a...

Today Is The First Day of The Rest of My Life --- (Private)

Wed, 26 Dec 2012 15:39:51 EST

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Friends Who Aren't Friends Are Worse Than Having No Friends At All.

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Today Is The First Day of The Rest of My Life

Today is the first day of the rest of my life.

Today is the first day without f...

Mocha Has to Stop Watching TV

Tue, 25 Dec 2012 15:15:49 EST

Mocha is being a little thief lately, repeatedly stealing a rope toy off the table. I don’t know how he does it when the table is way taller than him, but he just keeps going at it. I keep taking it away and putting it back on the table - in the center of the table. He will not get it until ( I ) give it to him. And I’m not going to give it to him until he leaves it alone.

He has been watching TV with me. He loves watching TV with dogs in the shows. But I think I will have to put ...

Wouldn't 'Ya Hate This Coming At 'Ya

Mon, 24 Dec 2012 15:37:03 EST

Feeling Invisible?

Mon, 17 Dec 2012 16:15:39 EST

Redneck Boat

Mon, 17 Dec 2012 00:17:49 EST

Here's a 'Redneck Boat'. Geez! Wouldn't this be interesting...

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Are You Smarter than a Sixty Year Old - A Test For 'Older' Kids

Sun, 16 Dec 2012 18:59:58 EST

DON'T LOOK BELOW FOR THE ANSWERS UNTIL YOU HAVE TRIED IT OUT.

Have some fun my sharp-witted friends. This is a test for us 'older kids'! The answers are printed below, (after the questions) but don't cheat! answer them first.....

01. After the Lone Ranger saved the day and rode off into the sunset, the grateful citizens would ask, "Who was that masked man?" Invariably, someone would answer, "I don't know, but he left this behind." What did he leave behind?___________...

Putting It All Together - New Food Plan - Lots of New Books!

Sun, 16 Dec 2012 17:58:40 EST

I’ve been to several Christmas parties lately - and ate what I wanted in between them; cause, after all, why go through withdrawals by getting on plan, only to go to another party... SO, my weight shows it. I am up 3 pounds again. Actually, I this is ‘normal’ for me: up - down - up - down. My Spark People weight report looks like a mini mountain range, gradually climbing higher and higher. I’d just give up fighting it except that wouldn’t be good as who knows then how high it would climb.

More Zzzzzz Pleazzz - And - Early Christmas

Thu, 13 Dec 2012 21:17:44 EST

The night before last Mocha woke me after ONLY 5 hours sleep. I was a zombie for the day. I literally felt like I was walking drunk I was SO exhausted. Then in the afternoon I put both Mocha & Shatzi in the far other end of the basement and (tried) to take a nap. They just amped up the volume and I got no real nap. Yesterday he knew I was mad at him - even though I never said a thing - and he spent the day trying to make up to me. Everything except be a good boy and let me get some rest that ...

Some of My Favorite Plants

Wed, 12 Dec 2012 21:17:04 EST

Milkweed

Milkweed Seed Pod - Green

Milkweed Seed Pod - Green, Starting to Open

Milkweed Seed Pod - Opening

The Cancelation Letter to My Therapist

Sun, 9 Dec 2012 12:33:22 EST

December 10, 2012

Dr. ________________

You are like a bull in a china closet.

You are a loose cannon.

There has been irreparable harm done from our last session.

If I keep coming to you I won’t be alive much longer.

Due to the harm done I may not be anyway. It has seriously added to my heart problems. And, it has devastated my ability to function on almost any level.

We previously had a long history, and you knew my...

Let’s Be Honest

Sun, 9 Dec 2012 10:46:05 EST

Let’s Be Honest

The Revolutionary War 1775-1783
The War of 1812 1812-1814
The Mexican American War 1836-1848
The American Civil War 1861-1865
The Spanish American War 1897-1898
The Indian American Wars 1775-1918
World War 1 - 1914-1918
World War 11 - 1941-1945
Cold War 1945-1992
The Vietnam War 1962-1973
The Invasion of Grenada 1963-1984
The...

(Mostly) Against Therapy

Sat, 8 Dec 2012 14:42:15 EST

CAUTION: This is heavier material. If you are fragile you may not want to read it.

On Thursday when I went to the city I ate ‘off plan’ and felt so much better for it. But, the emotions and stress of the day were not handled, so yesterday I ended up bingeing. For dinner I had a personal pan pizza, a bowl of frozen yogurt and half a sandwich bag of chocolate covered peanuts. That was ONE meal. I had eaten some junk food throughout the day yesterday too before the binge. After that b...

I Hope I Got Someone Fired Today

Fri, 7 Dec 2012 19:02:57 EST

Yesterday I was at Wal-M, at the checkout isle when the clerk asked to look in my cloth bag that I had a book and a bottle of water in, and she said, “You could be a shoplifter”. I explained to her “That I brought the bus down to the city and that he drops us off somewhere to spend our time, and so I had my book and water”, and I further volunteered, “If you want to see in my bag that’s ok, but security needs to be...

Here’s The Scoop

Wed, 5 Dec 2012 16:49:58 EST

This morning I felt fine when I woke up, except from being really tired from hearing Mochas nails scratch his crate a hundred times last night.

At 9:30 am this morning I ate breakfast of imitation crab, raw baby spinach, 1 cup of brown rice with 1 tsp butter, and a little salt and pepper. Felt fine all day.

Just now I ate a fresh cooked sweet potato.

Before I was even one-third the way throug...

I (AM) Going to Keep At It Till I Figure This Out - NO More Giving Up

Wed, 5 Dec 2012 13:34:34 EST

One day after getting ‘on plan’ - down 1.6#’s
Two days after getting ‘on plan’ - down 3#’s

Yesterday evening I drank 500 mg of sodium in the form of chicken broth, so that I could slow down this reaction of severe chills and muscle cramping. Well, it didn’t seem to help. All it accomplished is that when my body decided to ‘release’ the sodium, I spent numerous trips to the bathroom in the middle of the night. Bummer! Between my bladder, and my dogs waking me repeatedly (cause ...

ONLY Day #1, And Once Again Facing The #1 Cause of My Failure to Stick to My Diet

Tue, 4 Dec 2012 18:59:50 EST

I am now a about 24 hours into my diet of removing sugar and gluten from my diet. The ‘side-effects’ have hit hard and fast.

I woke up in the night with severe leg cramps. I haven’t had this for a long time; because I haven’t done my diet for a long time. From what I can figure out the leg cramps are from dehydration. With my multiple organ failure I dehydrate quickly. I have at times landed in the hospital from dehydration because I dehydrate so easily (even though I drink plenty ...

Do I Have the ‘Fortitude’ to Go Through the Withdrawals?

Mon, 3 Dec 2012 22:19:51 EST

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First of all I want to say that I am doing what always improves my mood and brings me up out of ‘that dark pit’ I have been in from my therapy. And, that is research. I love researching information, and even reading reviews on very informative books on Amazon.com. Of course I am researching and using the information for...

Taking The Reins Back

Mon, 3 Dec 2012 13:42:54 EST

I canceled my appointment with my therapist for Thursday. I have a pap and a mammogram on that day, and I definitely felt it would be destructive to my psyche to have therapy with (him) on THAT day.

I have written a letter to him that I will give him at the start of therapy the next day I see him. I expect his reaction to be really bad. Though my letter is appropriate - though firm and confronting his behavior - I don’t expect it will be taken well because I am calling him on what ...

Don't Want to Dig Up The Whole Graveyard

Sun, 2 Dec 2012 19:37:26 EST

Psychotherapy: To Repair The Broken Parts

Several weeks ago I entered intense psychotherapy. I expected to deal with certain issues I felt needed dealt with to (add to) the quality of my life, not dig up the whole graveyard... It is beyond painful. Now I am wondering if I will survive the 'cure'. You know the old joke, "The treatment was a success but the patient died." I am sincerely wondering if it is right...

Don’t Deprive Your Friends & Relatives

Sun, 2 Dec 2012 18:19:39 EST

Strength

Sat, 1 Dec 2012 18:16:14 EST