1_AMAZING_WOMAN's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=1%5FAMAZING%5FWOMAN 1_AMAZING_WOMAN's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ -:¦:- MANY Ways to Do I.F. (Intermittent Fasting) -:¦:- http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5614231 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> POSTED: Tuesday, September 24, 2013 <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/1/l2112890881.jpg"> <BR> <BR> ~~ Alternate Day Fasting. Fast every other day / eat normally every other day. On fast ... Mon, 3 Feb 2014 17:07:39 EST Relapse http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5614227 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> POSTED: Monday, September 23, 2013 <BR> <BR> I was doing so good yesterday - improving so much - starting to feel, for me, almost normal. I even was able to exercise twice yesterday on my exercise bike, each time ... Mon, 3 Feb 2014 16:57:12 EST I'm Gonna Live Until I Die http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5614221 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> POSTED: Sunday, September 22, 2013 <BR> <BR> *~:. .:~* <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1380870563.jpg"> *~:. .:~* <BR> <BR> I am still sick - 20 days now. But, part of the time I am getting ... Mon, 3 Feb 2014 16:48:26 EST Well, I Got ‘Ur Done! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5614209 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> POSTED: Saturday, September 21, 2013 <BR> <BR> I worked 2 whole lonnnnggggg days on that file, and I just now got ‘ur done. At this point I don’t ever want to look at it again. Which defeats the purpose of why I d... Mon, 3 Feb 2014 16:38:14 EST The Color of Sexual Abuse in the 50's http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5472830 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> POSTED: Friday, September 09, 2011 <BR> <BR> I grew up with this. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/1/l51762676.jpg"> <BR> Green bedroom walls. This color was 'the rage' during and after the w... Sun, 1 Sep 2013 18:33:39 EST I'm Pooped, But Doing Better Today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5472826 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> POSTED: Monday, September 05, 2011 <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/0/l701703281.jpg"> <BR> One Tired Puppy <BR> <BR> I had a really rough night last night. Hard time going to sleep due... Sun, 1 Sep 2013 18:29:54 EST Explaining the Unexplainable - To Those Who ‘Might’ Understand http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5472823 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> POSTED: Monday, September 05, 2011 <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/6/l269315018.jpg"> <BR> <BR> ----- Written in the wee hours of the morning, before going to bed. ----- <BR> <BR> Th... Sun, 1 Sep 2013 18:28:14 EST I Hate 'THAT' Name He Called Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5472820 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> POSTED: Monday, September 05, 2011 <BR> <BR> ----- Written Sunday, September 04, 2011 ----- <BR> <BR> A couple of days ago I was out and about, and a woman who bullied me 12 years ago (a friend of James) seen me ... Sun, 1 Sep 2013 18:24:22 EST Well, He's Tougher Than I Thought --- The Abuse Started Early In My Marriage (LONG) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5472818 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> POSTED: Tuesday, August 30, 2011 <BR> <BR> After Chuck’s little (not so little) incident of falling down the stairs the other day, he has healed very rapidly and amazingly. Especially for a diabetic. Course I did ... Sun, 1 Sep 2013 18:22:06 EST HEAVY Thoughts On My Mind Tonight - Caution; Abuse Issues / LONG (Written Saterday Evening) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5472815 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> POSTED: Sunday, August 28, 2011 <BR> <BR> Today I went out for the city-wide rummage sales with Chuck, my estranged husband: he lives downstairs and I live upstairs due to circumstances that would take too long t... Sun, 1 Sep 2013 18:16:24 EST Living In The Past (And, Story In Pictures) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5421035 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> Living In The Past (And, Story In Pictures) <BR> <BR> ACTUALLY WRITTEN: July 12, 2013 <BR> <BR> Living In The Past, Cause I Have No Future, & The Past Poisons The Present <BR> <BR> To put someone in the nursing ... Sun, 14 Jul 2013 19:50:26 EST I'm Sure My Stalker Lives Below Me --- (Private) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5271664 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/2/l42640738.jpg"> <BR> Yesterday I was talking with Chuck about the cops refusal to do anything about all the stalking and destructive stuff that’s been done. And I ... Sun, 3 Mar 2013 20:04:24 EST Stalker At It Again --- (Private) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5271475 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/8/l688105540.jpg"> <BR> <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeo... Sun, 3 Mar 2013 17:50:10 EST Nature vs Nurture - The Debate Continues --- Info. On Fetal Developement --- (Private) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5240456 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> I was just watching a video online, and it plainly is showing that nurture plays a HUGE factor in how a persons personality and behavior turns out. Yet I have read several books by professionals studying psychopath... Wed, 6 Feb 2013 15:54:57 EST The Effect of Fiber On Sugar Digestion - Do You Still Digest ALL Those Calories? --- (Private) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5230656 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> <link>www.gutsense.org/reports/myth.html </link> <BR> <BR> Myth #1: For maximum health, obtain 30 to 40 g of fiber daily from fresh fruits and vegetables. <BR> <BR> Reality: Here is how many fresh fruits you'l... Wed, 30 Jan 2013 18:37:38 EST When Never EVER to Use Fish Oil - by Dr. Mercola --- (Private) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5224252 <link>articles.mercola.com/sites/articles/<BR>archive/2010/10/16/rudi-moerck-on-fish<BR>-oil.aspx </link> <BR> <BR> When Never EVER to Use Fish Oil <BR> <BR> Video Length: 27:14 <BR> Download Interview Transcript <BR> Visit the Mercola Video Library <BR> <BR> Dr. Rudi Moerck is a drug industry insider and an expert on omega-3 fats. <BR> <BR> In this interview, Dr. Rudi Moerck explains why fish oil may not be your best source of otherwise healthful omega-3 fats. <BR> <BR> ----------... Sat, 26 Jan 2013 11:12:30 EST Day 19 of Taking Back My Life - Backsliding Severely --- (Private) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5205645 I have spent the past 10 days eating practically everything in sight. Well, not quite true; on January 4th I went grocery shopping with Chuck, and that day is when I fell off the wagon. In 24 hours I had gained 1.4# back. I would have shown at least 2 .8# loss on the scale (instead of only 2.0# loss). I continued to gain through Monday January 7th, and then I started losing (DUE TO SLEEP LOSS). I was still eating fairly poorly but had improved my eating just a smidgen. Then Thursday evening I... Sun, 13 Jan 2013 20:36:52 EST Day 18 Of Taking Back My Life --- Losing Ground, Gaining Ground, Being Grateful --- (Private) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5204178 ~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> Losing ground in my goals and plans due to GOING TO BED WAY TOO LATE. <BR> <BR> RENTS in Bismarck now costing THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS. <BR> <BR> God has been - and is - taking care of me. <BR> <BR> Relax, enjoy my days, and be grateful. <BR> <BR> Gotta have my HRT for quality of life (moods, energy, coping with stresses) <BR> <BR> ~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:... Sat, 12 Jan 2013 21:12:26 EST Day 13 Of Taking Back My Life --- The Exhaustion Has Come Back --- (Private) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5195873 ~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> Still slowly & systematically cleaning up my house. <BR> <BR> Exhaustion has struck severely again. <BR> <BR> Eating too many snacks again. <BR> Gotta seriously work on improving my sleep hours and amount. <BR> <BR> I’m making really good progress on my exercise. Getting more regular. And, today I did 50 minutes hard-core exercise on the bike. Sweated big time! <BR> <BR> ~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 21:41:20 EST Day 9 Of Taking Back My Life --- Nightmares of Utter Aloneness & Loneliness --- (Private) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5188781 ~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> Nightmares of utter aloneness and loneliness are here again. Cause loneliness IS my life. <BR> <BR> With Chia Seeds or Konsyl Fiber my blood sugar never gets over 97, even after meals! Stable blood sugar will = wt loss. <BR> <BR> Doing great with my food, and doing short bursts of high-intensity work today, but otherwise have spent most the day in my chair. <BR> <BR> ~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*... Thu, 3 Jan 2013 19:28:26 EST Day 8 Of Taking Back My Life - Thinking About What Is To Become of Me & My Dogs --- (Private) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5187333 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> I did (really) good with my food today. The ‘Life Extension Natural Appetite Control’, the Chia Seeds, & the Konsyl Fiber are really reining in my appetite. I did have about 2 tbls dark chocolate chips at breakfast, and 4 oz orange soda in the evening, but otherwise my food is 'fantastic'. <BR> <BR> AND, I did a FULL ONE HOUR heavier intensity aerobic workout on the exercise bike (116-130 bpm).... Thu, 3 Jan 2013 00:16:35 EST Day 7 Of Taking Back My Life - A Cold Came & Went in ONE Day - The Power of Chia Seeds --- (Private) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5184652 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> Woke up this morning with symptoms of a cold that only got worse as the day went on… and then it just disappeared! <BR> <BR> Started using Chia Seeds Dec. 29th, and have great hopes for weight loss using them - and Life Extensions ‘Natural Appetite Control’. <BR> <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> I woke up this morning cou... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 19:51:16 EST Day 6 Of Taking Back My Life - Angry at Chuck (again) ----- (Private) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5182974 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> It’s really hard to let C.G. “suffer the consequences’ when I will also suffer consequences for what he does. But, I’m ‘letting go’ & wishing for the best. <BR> <BR> I am ‘step by step’ cleaning up the kitchen, as well as making inroads on other housework. <BR> <BR> Today I did 50 minutes exercise, with (3) one minute high speed intervals. <BR> <BR> Lately my knee has been hurting all the w... Mon, 31 Dec 2012 23:27:38 EST Day 4 Of Taking Back My Life - Flopped Bigtime Today... --- (Private) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5180318 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> I Need To Choose The Path I Am Going to Take (Every Single Day). <BR> <BR> I Need to Put My Mental & Physical Energy Towards Making The Positive Changes In My Life, Instead of (Letting) Myself Be Derailed By Anybody. <BR> <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> Today I started taking my vitamins again - before breakfast and brea... Sat, 29 Dec 2012 22:23:48 EST Day 3 Of Taking Back My Life - It Just Keeps Getting Better... --- (Private) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5179421 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> Still A ‘Happy Camper’ Since Taking My Page Offline. <BR> <BR> Done MUCH Better On My Food Today - Natural Appetite Control Working. Or Maybe <BR> It’s The Happiness Working… <BR> <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> I weighed 1.6# more this morning than yesterday morning, which was quite a shock. Especially since I had done... Sat, 29 Dec 2012 00:23:29 EST Day 2 Of Taking Back My Life --- (Private) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5178279 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> There's been negatives & positives in my efforts today. <BR> Overall though I'm happy with what I've done. <BR> <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> Today I didn’t do very good on my food. I started Life Extensions ‘Natural Appetite Control’. It is supposed to increase the substances that decrease appetite. I didn’t notice a... Thu, 27 Dec 2012 23:41:03 EST Today Is The First Day of The Rest of My Life --- (Private) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5176820 :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> Friends Who Aren't Friends Are Worse Than Having No Friends At All. <BR> <BR> :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~:. .:~*~:.:~*~: <BR> <BR> Today Is The First Day of The Rest of My Life <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/4/l941675320.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Today is the first day of the rest of my life. <BR> <BR> Today is the first day without f... Wed, 26 Dec 2012 15:39:51 EST Mocha Has to Stop Watching TV http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5175924 Mocha is being a little thief lately, repeatedly stealing a rope toy off the table. I don’t know how he does it when the table is way taller than him, but he just keeps going at it. I keep taking it away and putting it back on the table - in the center of the table. He will not get it until ( I ) give it to him. And I’m not going to give it to him until he leaves it alone. <BR> <BR> He has been watching TV with me. He loves watching TV with dogs in the shows. But I think I will have to put ... Tue, 25 Dec 2012 15:15:49 EST Wouldn't 'Ya Hate This Coming At 'Ya http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5175291 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1373426467.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1736337554.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1061835570.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1071469362.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1170985773.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1651200790.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http:/... Mon, 24 Dec 2012 15:37:03 EST Consider... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5174622 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1603818265.jpg"> <BR> . Sun, 23 Dec 2012 18:39:20 EST I Can't - But Maybe He Can... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5173811 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/9/l292803414.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I have been trying and trying to learn to hoola hoop, but that thing is pulled to the floor with such gravity you would swear that both it and the floor has magnets. Half a turn and it drops like a rock to the floor. <BR> <BR> But, it just dawned on me another use I could have for it. I could teach Mocha to jump through. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1567740698.jpg"> <BR> It would use up... Sat, 22 Dec 2012 16:49:18 EST Another Bad Day In The Neighborhood http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5173668 Well, C.G. babysat Mocha last evening so I could get a break. Mocha was awfully quiet down there, and came upstairs ‘wired’. Actually, he came up and leaped high through the air into my arms, so happy to see me. But, then from that moment on he was ‘h#ll on wheels. <BR> <BR> Other times that C.G. has babysat, Mocha has come back wilder than ever, and I wondered why. Now I know. Instead of C.G. letting Mocha burn off some energy he makes him lay at his feet the whole time. Doesn’t even hold h... Sat, 22 Dec 2012 12:20:17 EST I Talked to The Vet About Mocha http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5172987 I talked to the vet, and she said that although Mocha has a lot of the same behaviors as Whisper did, that Mocha issues do not come from mental imbalance as Whispers did. That Mocha's issues are because he is a very high-intensity dog who is living in a quiet home where he does not get the working out that he needs. That he really needs to be in a home with a couple of children who will run him ragged. That I am too old and too ill to be having such a high-intensity dog. And that yes, the sle... Fri, 21 Dec 2012 14:54:07 EST Not A Thing Wrong With Kenneling Dogs - It's Me or The Dog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5172963 I realize these dogs do not see me as pack leader. I have raised dogs for 17 years without these problems, except for one dog that I finally rehomed when he was 10. (After) I rehomed him the vet said about that dog (Whisper), “That he had serious mental issues from the time he was born and should have been put to sleep instead of being adopted out as a pup.” About Mocha; I personally see the same extreme unbalance in him as I did in Whisper. I don’t know if Mocha can be saved, but I am trying... Fri, 21 Dec 2012 14:17:50 EST Things Could Be Worse... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5172925 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1897714443.jpg"> <BR> Better Not Have An Emergency Today <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/7/l674779972.jpg"> <BR> I Think It's A Trap <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/1/l817222462.jpg"> <BR> Proof <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1117016879.jpg"> <BR> Do I Have Your Attention Now? <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/8/l286806871.jpg"> ... Fri, 21 Dec 2012 13:19:59 EST Another Day In H#LL! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5172848 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/0/l905040697.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I couldn’t get to sleep last night because I got into a tiff with C.G. again right at bedtime. Every evening he lets me know what gifts he has received for Christmas, or what gifts of money. Like, “Here, I got this from so and so, and this from so and so, and $150 from this boss, and I got over $400 from all the fellow employees at my main job, cause they all got together and took out a collection for me” (apparent... Fri, 21 Dec 2012 11:55:01 EST Mocha’s Life Is Going to Change for the Worse - Cause Once Again I Am FED UP! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5172360 Well, Mocha was to come back upstairs, so I went to spray the wood parts of his fence with ‘bitter apple’. No need to do that. It isn’t working to stop his chewing. Even with using it he has chewed halfway through the center post supporting his fence. <BR> <BR> I had planned today to order a gallon of ‘bitter apple’ but didn’t get the chance to. Now I’m glad I didn’t. The stuff would have cost me about $45. bucks; bucks that would have been utterly wasted since it isn’t stopping his chewing... Thu, 20 Dec 2012 20:28:00 EST Ahhhh - Getting A Break http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5172291 This morning I was once again ‘wishing’ that I had never gotton Mocha. But, I do keep in mind that for Shatzi’s first 1 1/2 years I felt that way about him too. Just not NEAR SO OFTEN. So, I keep just biding my time with the knowledge that “surely it is going to get better”. It has been; just not fast enough. <BR> <BR> Shatzi too was a hyper dog, and to top it off he acted out with the other dogs. He still doesn’t actually like other dogs - even Mocha - but he tolerates Mocha much better tha... Thu, 20 Dec 2012 18:31:40 EST School Shootings Have Me Thinking More of My Daughter - The Makings of A Psychopath http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5171375 I have been trying not to watch much tv since the school shootings, but yesterday I did watch a program with Dr. Drew, and one other about it, and I got very stressed out and have not done so well emotionally since then. My nerves have been just an utter wreck and I am having problems coping with stress since watching those programs. And everywhere I go people want to talk about it, and I just want to avoid it. <BR> <BR> I haven’t seen my daughter for most of her grown-up life. She is about... Wed, 19 Dec 2012 19:32:45 EST Christmas Pics http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5171034 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/9/l398676817.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1046303539.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1060262706.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1638617879.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/9/l797889342.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/4/l44094306.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://pho... Wed, 19 Dec 2012 11:32:55 EST Feeling Invisible? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5169294 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l133550942.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/5/l254628696.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/4/l846222140.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/3/l637588294.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/9/l699749187.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/1/l2102973185.jpg"> <BR> . Mon, 17 Dec 2012 16:15:39 EST Redneck Boat http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5168645 Here's a 'Redneck Boat'. Geez! Wouldn't this be interesting... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l114873183.jpg"> <BR> . Mon, 17 Dec 2012 00:17:49 EST Are You Smarter than a Sixty Year Old - A Test For 'Older' Kids http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5168353 DON'T LOOK BELOW FOR THE ANSWERS UNTIL YOU HAVE TRIED IT OUT. <BR> <BR> Have some fun my sharp-witted friends. This is a test for us 'older kids'! The answers are printed below, (after the questions) but don't cheat! answer them first..... <BR> <BR> 01. After the Lone Ranger saved the day and rode off into the sunset, the grateful citizens would ask, "Who was that masked man?" Invariably, someone would answer, "I don't know, but he left this behind." What did he leave behind?___________... Sun, 16 Dec 2012 18:59:58 EST Putting It All Together - New Food Plan - Lots of New Books! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5168300 I’ve been to several Christmas parties lately - and ate what I wanted in between them; cause, after all, why go through withdrawals by getting on plan, only to go to another party... SO, my weight shows it. I am up 3 pounds again. Actually, I this is ‘normal’ for me: up - down - up - down. My Spark People weight report looks like a mini mountain range, gradually climbing higher and higher. I’d just give up fighting it except that wouldn’t be good as who knows then how high it would climb. <B... Sun, 16 Dec 2012 17:58:40 EST More Zzzzzz Pleazzz - And - Early Christmas http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5165861 The night before last Mocha woke me after ONLY 5 hours sleep. I was a zombie for the day. I literally felt like I was walking drunk I was SO exhausted. Then in the afternoon I put both Mocha & Shatzi in the far other end of the basement and (tried) to take a nap. They just amped up the volume and I got no real nap. Yesterday he knew I was mad at him - even though I never said a thing - and he spent the day trying to make up to me. Everything except be a good boy and let me get some rest that ... Thu, 13 Dec 2012 21:17:44 EST Some of My Favorite Plants http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5164806 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/7/l771838784.jpg"> <BR> Milkweed <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/4/l943510328.jpg"> <BR> Milkweed Seed Pod - Green <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1510593309.jpg"> <BR> Milkweed Seed Pod - Green, Starting to Open <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1090802481.jpg"> <BR> Milkweed Seed Pod - Opening <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/1/l... Wed, 12 Dec 2012 21:17:04 EST Running From This Guy - And - Dog Problems Again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5163203 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1417990945.jpg"> <BR> <BR> .•*´¨ ) ..•*¨) -:¦:- <BR> (. ;.•.&#9829; Reaper &#9829;.•*¨) <BR> &#9829;.•*¨-:¦:-. ;.•.&#9829; -:¦:- <BR> &#9829; .•*´¨ ) Wants me now.....•*¨) -:¦:- <BR> &#9829;.•*¨-:¦:-. ;.•.&#9829; -:¦:- <BR> (. ;.•.&#9829; But I want to wait for later....&#9829;.•*¨) <BR> &#9829;.•*¨-:¦:-. ;.•.&#9829; -:¦:- <BR> <BR> Ever since my December 6 appointment with my therapist, my heart has been in REALLY bad shape. Like d... Tue, 11 Dec 2012 11:57:26 EST Stop Quitting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5163103 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1279912104.jpg"> <BR> . Tue, 11 Dec 2012 10:24:37 EST Encouragement http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5162076 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/5/l65819489.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/1/l2144195327.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/1/l712266563.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/5/l458904398.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1109938992.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/7/l971794614.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://phot... Mon, 10 Dec 2012 11:24:49 EST The Cancelation Letter to My Therapist http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5161068 December 10, 2012 <BR> <BR> Dr. ________________ <BR> <BR> You are like a bull in a china closet. <BR> <BR> You are a loose cannon. <BR> <BR> There has been irreparable harm done from our last session. <BR> <BR> If I keep coming to you I won’t be alive much longer. <BR> <BR> Due to the harm done I may not be anyway. It has seriously added to my heart problems. And, it has devastated my ability to function on almost any level. <BR> <BR> We previously had a long history, and you knew my... Sun, 9 Dec 2012 12:33:22 EST