1BIGDREAM's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=1BIGDREAM 1BIGDREAM's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Here I Go Again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4383564 My dad died on March 26. Since then, I've gained 20 pounds back. I swear, grief made me hungry. <BR> <BR> I'm not going to beat myself up. I've been doing a lot of thinking. I'm an emotional eater, and that's exactly what I've been doing. The shtuff hit the fan, and I reverted back to old habits. <BR> <BR> I'm surprised at how fast the weight came back. That is humbling. The only thing to do is to start right back at it again. <BR> <BR> I've been doing a lot of thinking over the p... Sun, 24 Jul 2011 20:59:30 EST Fit Survey (Snagged from Yoovie) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4063949 1 - Starting Weight/Measurements - <BR> <BR> I started losing weight at 220. <BR> <BR> <BR> 2 - What is your height? How do you feel about your height? <BR> <BR> I'm tall, about 5'10". I've never been comfortable with my height. As I've lost weight, people have asked, and I have felt like I appear taller. I'm trying to learn to appreciate that part of myself. <BR> <BR> <BR> 3 - A picture of one of your rewards (dress, shoes, etc.). Why is this a reward? At what point will you “ea... Thu, 3 Mar 2011 16:54:23 EST End of Feb Check-in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4054607 Okay, I need to keep this short and sweet, but it's high time for an update, if for no other reason than to have this as a record for me to look back on later. <BR> <BR> After getting all gung-ho again at the first of the year, then getting knocked down by illness, then losing steam over and over, I was feeling really frustrated. I couldn't figure out why I couldn't pull it together, why making the decision to go all out to lose weight wound up leaving me feeling like I was in a never-endin... Mon, 28 Feb 2011 14:05:51 EST Valentine's Weekend in Philly http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4016466 My hubby and I went to Philly for the weekend. What did we do? Well, we ate. And then we drank. And then we ate. And then we drank. And then we ate some more. <BR> <BR> It was awesome. <BR> <BR> I can't feel bad about a weekend like that. I know I'm supposed to feel bad about it, but I just can't bring myself to. <BR> <BR> Of course, this doesn't help my efforts to get sexy for Punta Cana. I'm feeling pretty bloated and huge today. But it's whatever. Life is for living, and I did... Mon, 14 Feb 2011 10:37:50 EST Trying New Things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4006648 I just did something wild and crazy. I signed myself up for two classes at the Y in the next session. I'll be taking TRX and an adult swimming lesson! <BR> <BR> I've been interested in TRX for a while, and had been wanting to either do those classes or get a personal trainer. Well, for now, TRX is it, and I'm so excited! The Y actually offers a 6AM class on Thursday mornings, and even though it will be a tight squeeze, I should be able to do everything I need to do and get to work on tim... Thu, 10 Feb 2011 11:35:05 EST Fighting It Out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3998330 So this is the point where I could go hide. I could disappear from Spark for a few weeks or months. I could lay low, feel embarrassed, think I can go off and quietly lose five pounds and plan a return like I've got it all together. <BR> <BR> I'm not going to do that. <BR> <BR> I'm going to fight it out. <BR> <BR> And I'm pretty sure this fight is going to get ugly, but whatever happens, I'm standing my ground until I can figure out what the eff is going on with me and solve it. <BR> <BR... Mon, 7 Feb 2011 14:28:32 EST whatever you gotta do to motivate yourself... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3990232 whatever you gotta do to motivate yourself... <BR> <BR> FIGURE IT THE HELL OUT. <BR> TODAY. <BR> <BR> <BR> (from YOOVIE's blog today) <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Here is what I'm going to do to motivate myself TODAY: <BR> <BR> <em>344</em> I am going to hang my blue and white sailor bikini on the bedroom wall. <BR> <em>203</em> I am going to buy whatever fitness magazines I can find in the shop downstairs. <BR> <em>347</em> I am going to track both yesterday and today's food this afternoon... Fri, 4 Feb 2011 13:29:58 EST I'm Going to Stop Trying to Be Perfect http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3987354 I laid out goals last week. I met some of them. Food tracking and staying within my nutrition goals lasted a full three days. I did all of my P90X workouts except yoga last week, plus a couple of walks, some snow shoveling, and a short rendezvous with the elliptical machine during my daughter's dance class on Saturday. I only blogged twice. I didn't blog because I didn't have a chance to get around to thank all of the people who left me such nice comments, and I always feel guilty about ... Thu, 3 Feb 2011 14:01:28 EST What's Holding Me Back? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3960132 In response to my blog yesterday, RAVENSONG37 asked, "Just wondering, is there part of you that isn't ready to be at goal? Do you have any fears or anxieties about getting there or staying there?" <BR> <BR> I decided to make this the topic of today's blog. <BR> <BR> There are a lot of simple answers to this question. There are also a lot of complicated ones. In all honesty, I have been avoiding this topic, but I know that there is a certain part of me that continues to undermine my own ef... Tue, 25 Jan 2011 16:11:40 EST Starting Over. Again. And the Punta Cana Push http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3955819 Welp, 2011 hasn't exactly started with a bang. <BR> <BR> On January 2nd, I jumped right back into P90X. I worked out the first Sunday, Monday, & Tuesday of the new year with terrific food days. <BR> <BR> And then Wednesday night, I came home and felt dizzy. Like, I could barely walk in a straight line dizzy. And by Thursday, I was full-out sick. <BR> <BR> For 12 days, I was sick as a dog, with a sinus infection, ear infection, and a fever that I couldn't control no matter what I took. ... Mon, 24 Jan 2011 11:21:07 EST It's the First Monday of the New Year... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3884240 ...And just like last year, SparkPeople.com is running slowly. <BR> <BR> It's funny that I have even been around long enough to know that. <BR> <BR> I'm jumping in with both feet today, just like everyone else on the planet. I suppose I could or should feel some sort of disappointment that I am still here, still working on getting to my goal weight. Still having to start over again. I didn't follow through with P90X over the holidays like I had planned. I ate too much. I'm up 5 pound... Mon, 3 Jan 2011 12:41:15 EST Pants! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3836667 I am totally wearing size 10 pants! <BR> <BR> That is all. I just needed to say that! <BR> <BR> <em>334</em> <em>334</em> <em>334</em> <em>334</em> <em>334</em> <em>334</em> <em>334</em> <em>334</em> <em>334</em> <em>334</em> <em>334</em> <em>334</em> <em>334</em> <em>334</em> <em>334</em> <em>334</em> <em>334</em> <em>334</em> <em>334</em> <em>334</em> <em>334</em> <em>334</em> <em>334</em> <em>334</em> <em>334</em> <em>334</em> Fri, 10 Dec 2010 16:11:40 EST Christmas Questions/The 12 Gifts of Christmas http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3832062 Snagged from NOTABOUTHEFACE! <BR> <BR> <BR> <em>446</em> Have you been naughty or nice this year? <BR> <em>447</em> Mostly nice! <BR> <BR> <BR> <em>446</em> What do you want most for Christmas? <BR> <em>447</em> To have fun, laughter, and closeness with my family <BR> <BR> <BR> <em>446</em> Do you believe in Santa Claus? <BR> <em>447</em> I believe in Christmas magic. <BR> <BR> <BR> <em>446</em> What is your favorite food at Christmas? <BR> <em>447</em> My favorite me... Wed, 8 Dec 2010 12:21:54 EST The 7 Best (and Worst) Things You Can Say to a Girl http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3827984 I read this list a few years ago and tucked it away before I even had a daughter. Now I keep it in my nightstand and read it every once in a while. I think it's a great list. I hope I can teach my daughter to love her body, know herself, and be free! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/4/l540744470.jpg"> <BR> The 7 Best (and Worst) Things You Can Say to a Girl <BR> What you say does make an impression. Make sure it’s a good one. <BR> Glamour October 1, 2007 <BR> ... Mon, 6 Dec 2010 15:58:28 EST Wanted: Someone Who Appreciates a Good Cook http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3827626 Just need to gripe a little and move on... <BR> <BR> I love to cook. I'm a pretty good cook. I've done a lot of work to learn healthier cooking habits and incorporate good nutrition into the meals I make for my family, while also trying to whittle down our food expenses. <BR> <BR> My husband would rather order take-out. Half the time, he slaps whatever I make between two pieces of bread and ignores the vegetables. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, a good portion of my day was spent preparing our fre... Mon, 6 Dec 2010 13:05:30 EST The Process Is the Whole Point http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3822068 When we start out trying to lose weight, the only thing we can think about is the end result. We pick a number--sometimes even an arbitrary number--and decide that when the scale displays those digits, life will be perfect. We will be fit, healthy, have high self-esteem, be able to wear any clothes we want without any type of girdle-type device, be fantastic in bed, and make jaws drop whenever we walk into a room. <BR> <BR> Many times we fail. We fail at even getting started. Dieting is ... Fri, 3 Dec 2010 15:25:22 EST Hodge Podge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3819130 I've been trying to come up with a succinct narrative blog, but I've got a million things to write about and catch up on, so I'm just throwing stuff out there with no semblance of order. <BR> <BR> 1. P90X is going fairly well. I am currently in my 4th week, but I'm not counting Thanksgiving week (more on that in a minute), which makes it my 3rd week. I really like it, and the workouts are going well. I feel bad that I've cut a couple of them short and skipped/slept through a couple of th... Thu, 2 Dec 2010 10:43:26 EST I'm Just a Girl http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3794226 I'm just a girl. <BR> <BR> Okay, not a girl, really, a 32-year-old woman, although sometimes I don't feel nearly that old. I worry all the time. I am looking for happiness, have gotten closer to it than ever before, but I don't know if I'll ever be able to sit still and allow myself to just BE happy. I am stupid busy and terribly dissatisfied with my job, which affects everything in my life, including, most unfortunately, my relationship with my husband. I want to make some major changes... Fri, 19 Nov 2010 13:07:27 EST P90X So Far http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3775498 It's been a busy week, so I haven't had much of a chance to update on the beginning of my newest challenge: P90X. If you aren't familiar with the program, basically, it's a 12-workout, 90-day home fitness program on dvd. The workouts are scheduled so that there is a rotation throughout the week, and the program changes up several times over the course of the three months. The 12 workouts include upper body, lower body, back, yoga, stretch, cardio, and plyometrics (jumping). It's definite... Wed, 10 Nov 2010 15:14:51 EST How Did You Lose the Weight? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3763993 I keep getting asked how I lost my weight. This is NOT an easy question to answer, and yet, invariably, the person asking really wants to hear some simple, magic solution. In trying to answer, I end up just as disappointed as the person who asked the question when I realize that I can't adequately communicate what I know and have learned. I wish I could wrap up "How To Lose Weight, Find Self-Confidence, and Be Happy" as a gift for all of the people I love so that they could share in how co... Fri, 5 Nov 2010 11:37:26 EST Changin' It Up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3761989 I've been changin' it up in a lot of ways lately... <BR> <BR> Well, I completed my first-ever Craig's List transaction today, and I am now the proud owner of P90X! I've been thinking about doing it for a while... GORDIESMOMMY had AMAZING results with it (check out her page!), plus, I really like having a plan/program to follow. Ever since I stopped half marathon training, I've been floating around, still exercising, but I haven't had much direction. I like the idea of having a program fo... Thu, 4 Nov 2010 13:45:10 EST What I've Been Up To http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3759256 So, I haven't been around much on Spark, and, as I said in my last blog, I'm having some conflicting feelings about that. I miss the support and friends I've found here, but I also think it's really good for me to limit my time online. Hopefully I can strike a balance, but I'm still looking for it. The good news is that maybe, just maybe, I will get to meet HAPPYPATTY1! I'm so excited about that! <BR> <BR> So, in September, I withdrew from my class and decided I needed to get serious abo... Wed, 3 Nov 2010 11:51:54 EST Does Anyone Else Ever Feel Like This? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3748315 Thank you so much to everyone who have checked in on me. I really appreciate it! I know I've been out of the loop, but the good news is that things are going pretty well. I'm maintaining my weight and still exercising, but not pushing it. I haven't fallen off the wagon or anything, but I'm trying to be content with what I have right now. I'm trying to find balance and patience. <BR> <BR> The thing is that I'm not sure where SP fits in with that right now, but I know I need to cut down on ... Fri, 29 Oct 2010 11:40:03 EST Choosing My Attitude. Plus, WTF Check-in. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3677192 I've been on a little bit of an emotional whirlwind over the past couple of weeks. Sometimes emotional whirlwinds are bad, but honestly, it's been mostly good. I've always been someone who tries to learn from things and move forward. After a horrible fight with my hubby that resulted in the plug getting pulled on my 5-year plan, I've been doing a lot of thinking about my relationship and what I want out of life. <BR> <BR> I've spent the past year in school part-time while working full-tim... Tue, 28 Sep 2010 14:32:07 EST I am literally 3 points away from my next trophy... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3668564 ...so I will have it after posting this! Sorry it's off the cuff--I just couldn't not get my trophy today! I've been working on this one for months! <BR> <BR> As an update, I've been busy this week, so there hasn't been much time for Sparking. I am doing okay, and hubby and I have had some good conversations. We set a budget and talked extensively about our communication, so I feel like we're headed in the right direction. Again, I thank everyone for the support and concern! <BR> <BR> ... Fri, 24 Sep 2010 22:35:29 EST Channeling Awesome http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3662402 Thank you all bunches for the support and hugs from yesterday's blog. I haven't had much time to be on Spark today, but I until I get a chance to send individual thank-you's, here's my inspiration for today: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/4/l344154662.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I hope you are awesome, not sad, today too! <BR> <em>220</em> Wed, 22 Sep 2010 16:24:42 EST Life Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3658976 Things took a turn for me over the weekend. I was going to write it all out, but it's too complicated, too emotional, and not suitable for wide-open viewing on the internet. Let just say it was a bad weekend, things are a little rough with hubby right now, and the end result is that all of the plans we've had are now scrapped. I withdrew from my class yesterday. Also, I know I've talked a little about maybe trying for another baby soon, but that ain't happening right now either. <BR> <BR... Tue, 21 Sep 2010 16:26:30 EST Excuses? Banished! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3641964 For the WTF challenge, the 3 excuses I wiped out for the week are: <BR> <BR> <em>15</em> I'm PMS-ing. <BR> <em>22</em> I love cheese. <BR> <em>18</em> Oh eff it! <BR> <BR> I fought all of them tonight. It was hard as hell, but just having written down what I knew I would say to myself made me realize what I was doing, so I didn't make the giant drippy nacho I really wanted! Yay! <BR> <BR> Have you joined the WTF challenge yet? <BR> <em>148</em> Wed, 15 Sep 2010 20:18:47 EST ~*~ WTF??? Entry Card- for 9/15-9/19 ~*~ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3634235 <em>40</em> <em>128</em> <em>423</em> <em>344</em> <em>40</em> <em>128</em> <em>423</em> <em>344</em> <BR> ~*~ WTF??? Entry Card- for 9/15-9/19 ~*~ <BR> <em>40</em> <em>128</em> <em>423</em> <em>344</em> <em>40</em> <em>128</em> <em>423</em> <em>344</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> <em>249</em> ENTRY CARD <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Starting Weight: 170 <BR> Starting Measurements: <BR> 1: Chest - 36.5 <BR> 2: Left Thigh - 24 <BR> 3: Natural Waist - 32 <BR> 4: Belly Butt... Mon, 13 Sep 2010 14:58:31 EST The Food Thing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3633582 Last week, I was fantastically consistent with exercise. On each of the four workdays, I spent my lunch break walking to the gym, doing ST, walking back, and then took the 9 flights of stairs back up to my office. It was awesome. I also got up at 5 AM three of those mornings to work out. I was so happy with my consistency and how many calories I burned. I love how working out makes me feel. <BR> <BR> Oh but food... <BR> <BR> Food is what holds my weight in the 170's. Food is what ke... Mon, 13 Sep 2010 11:57:36 EST Tiki Challenge Endplate 9/9/10 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3621588 <em>67</em> <em>184</em> <em>464</em> <em>67</em> <em>184</em> <em>464</em> <BR> Tiki Challenge Endplate 9/9/10 <BR> <em>67</em> <em>184</em> <em>464</em> <em>67</em> <em>184</em> <em>464</em> <BR> <BR> STARTING WEIGHT: 170 <BR> ENDING WEIGHT: 169 <BR> TOTAL LOSS/GAIN: -1 <BR> <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> STARTING MEASUREMENTS : <BR> 1: Chest - 37 <BR> 2: Left Thigh - 25 <BR> 3: Natural Waist - 33 <BR> 4: Belly Button - 36 <BR> 5: Hips - 40 <BR> <BR> ENDING MEASUREMENTS: ... Thu, 9 Sep 2010 10:50:45 EST It's the Food That's Hard http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3619134 The stupid nutrition information for pasta is 2 ounces, uncooked. How much is that cooked? How the heck am I supposed to make dinner for my family and know how much I get in a serving after it's cooked? Grr... <BR> <BR> I threw my lunch together this morning and had about 1.5 cups of leftover cooked whole wheat pasta in the fridge. Great, throw that in a container with some frozen broccoli, 1/4 cup of reduced fat shredded cheese, 3 ounces of grilled chicken breast, and 1 cup of low sodiu... Wed, 8 Sep 2010 15:30:03 EST I Found What Motivates Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3615686 Sunday was a beach day with my family in Brigantine, New Jersey. I got to play in the water, take a nap in the sun, and make sandcastles with my 2-year-old. Does life get any better than that? <BR> <BR> In the afternoon, my daughter took her nap in the arms of her grandmother, so I decided to go for a walk on the beach. <BR> <BR> I started at the 26th Street lifeguard station, heading south towards Atlantic City. <BR> <BR> After a few minutes, I thought, why am I walking? I could run.... Tue, 7 Sep 2010 16:24:02 EST Favorite Oatmeal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3603806 1 small apple, diced <BR> 1/2 c. old-fashioned oats <BR> 1 Tbls. peanut butter <BR> about 1/2 tsp. (give or take) each of: vanilla extract, cinnamon, cocoa powder <BR> Splenda <BR> <BR> ~330 calories <BR> <BR> Yum! I don't know why the cinnamon works so well with the chocolate and the peanut butter, but it does! Yum! This fills me up and holds me to lunchtime! <BR> <BR> What's your favorite way to make oatmeal? <BR> <em>148</em> Fri, 3 Sep 2010 12:23:53 EST I Can Totally Do This http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3601183 So... <BR> <BR> Yesterday, after about 6 months without a heart rate monitor, I bought a Garmin Forerunner 110. Because of it, I know how long I ran this morning, I know my pace, and I know how many calories I burned. <BR> <BR> Fun! Awesome! EMPOWERING! <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I sat down and made a spreadsheet for the month. My "free" time (ha!) every day is always going to be in the morning, during lunch (weekdays) or my daughter's nap (weekends), and in the evening. So I went through... Thu, 2 Sep 2010 16:46:17 EST Shake Up September! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3596184 First off, I want to say thank you to everyone who has been checking in on me over the past few weeks. Yesterday, especially, I got a lot of great ideas and insightful comments on my blog, and I totally appreciate every word. I need to shake up my frame of mind, work through the emotional junk that is holding me back, and get on with this! And it's working. Allowing myself to be vulnerable, seeking advice, and thinking through these things is helping me to pick through the obstacles I've ... Wed, 1 Sep 2010 10:52:27 EST I Can't Picture It http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3592864 I know why I'm stuck. <BR> <BR> I can't picture myself weighing any less than 170. I've been in the 170's my entire adult life. <BR> <BR> I can't picture myself wearing less than a 12. The last time I was a size 10, I was a freshman in college. Can I really expect to get to the size I was at 18? <BR> <BR> I can't picture myself comfortably wearing a bikini. I wore bikinis pre-baby, but looking back at pictures, I'm thinking I shouldn't have. I wore them because I had the confidence of... Tue, 31 Aug 2010 12:49:50 EST Vacation Pics http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3589003 Sorry for 2 blogs in one day, but I wanted to post a few pics from my vacation! <BR> <BR> Eating an apple on the beach: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/6/l363365416.jpg"> <BR> <BR> On the boat with SUNSHINEBLUE77: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/8/l287692559.jpg"> <BR> <BR> My daughter chasing seagulls: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/7/l570468410.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Captain Maddie: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.... Mon, 30 Aug 2010 12:39:59 EST Weekend Recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3588550 I had a 3-day weekend, which was wonderful, although I didn't track my food like I said I would. I'm proud of myself for what I accomplished last week--four days straight of 100% food tracking, staying within range, and lunchtime workouts--so I have to acknowledge that progress, and know that I have to figure out better strategies for handling PMS weekends like this one was. I have jumped right back in and tracked my food for today, and I am within all ranges, even sodium! I didn't get up ... Mon, 30 Aug 2010 10:55:37 EST I Have Delicious and Healthy Food in My Food Tracker! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3570245 I'm on day 2 of tracking my food, yee ha! <BR> <BR> I know, it's so basic. I'm sure all of you do it every day and are wondering how I'm only doing this for the second day in a row. <BR> <BR> I tracked daily for my first three months on Spark. In fact, I initially started Spark only for the food tracker, a tool I had previously utilized through myfooddiary.com. The only reason I switched to SP was because it was free. Free was good. <BR> <BR> How was I supposed to know all of the aweso... Tue, 24 Aug 2010 14:50:50 EST Today Is a New Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3565420 Today is my first day back from a MUCH needed vacation. We all need a break now and then--a time to regroup and take a breath to gain strength. Never before do I remember getting to the point of needing a vacation to badly. I swear, I was seriously in danger of having a Jerry Maguire-style freak-out two weeks ago. I had gotten to the point of feeling downright panicked every morning before work, and dangerously aggressive throughout the day. Not good. <BR> <BR> Fortunately, I also wound... Mon, 23 Aug 2010 10:44:42 EST Challenge Check-in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3525265 <em>141</em> <em>184</em> <em>67</em> <em>462</em> <em>464</em> <em>87</em> <BR> Tiki Challenge Check-in 8/10 <BR> <em>141</em> <em>184</em> <em>67</em> <em>462</em> <em>464</em> <em>87</em> <BR> <BR> I am proud to announce that I have started to notice changes in my LEGS lately and I know that it's because I have been RUNNING AND DOING LOWER BODY STRENGTH TRAINING. <BR> <BR> But I have also been dealing with negative emotions regarding FEELING OVERWHELMED AND BURNT OUT and... Wed, 11 Aug 2010 11:31:13 EST August Is a Clean Slate http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3494758 Every month I do a little recap of the previous month and set up some new goals. I also record my weigh-in, the only offical time I ever do. So, that's what this blog will be, but I have to tell you--this is painful. I don't want to think about July--it kinda sucked, and I would like to just move forward. However, I need to hold myself accountable in order to wipe the slate clean, so that's what I'll do. <BR> <BR> July 1 starting weight: 170 <BR> August 2 starting weight: 172 <BR> <BR... Mon, 2 Aug 2010 11:35:48 EST My Favorite Kind of Cardio! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3492781 Dancing with my daughter last weekend! I don't know why she always wears her tiara like that! <BR> <em>148</em> Sun, 1 Aug 2010 21:11:03 EST The Effects of Exercise on Depression http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3482807 I finally finished my research paper, presented my oral report, and I am officially done with my technical writing & communication class! Woo hoo! My topic of research was "The Effects of Exercise on Depression," and I am pasting the slides from my presentation below! Enjoy! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l188846312.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/2/l924492070.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.spa... Thu, 29 Jul 2010 15:36:50 EST I am in such an unbelievable funk. Blech. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3475212 I feel like crying. Please tell me this is not depression coming. Please tell me I can whip my stupid neurotransmitters into shape merely through determination and exercise alone. <BR> <BR> The sun is shining. It is summer. It's my daughter's birthday. I am almost done with my classes for the summer. I have been getting along great with hubby. I have a vacation coming. I am healthy and fit. I have goals and dreams and I am makin' 'em happen. I have people who love and support me. ... Tue, 27 Jul 2010 14:06:09 EST Peaches http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3442393 My mom and sister came down to visit today, and we took my daughter to the nearby orchard/farm to get some fruit to play with. We got peaches, blackberries, some funky yummy yellow plums, and my mom took home some melons. It was fun! We canned blackberry jam, peach jam, and peach topping (for French toast or ice cream or whatever), all of which were low sugar recipes and turned out well. I also made fresh blueberry muffins this morning! <BR> <BR> I'd like to report more on what I've bee... Sat, 17 Jul 2010 22:12:47 EST Optimism Questionnaire http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3434769 For the second day in a row, I am giving GOGOSHIRE free advertising. Her blogs have been mind-bending for me two days in a row now. Check it out here: <BR> <BR> <link>www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo<BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=3434520#c<BR>omments </link> <BR> <BR> I'll let you read her explanation (please do), but here are my own answers to the questions for today: <BR> <BR> 1. Who or what in your life are you committed to? <BR> I am committed to my husband--he is a good m... Thu, 15 Jul 2010 11:37:22 EST Charms, Kid Food Rant, HFCS, & Before/After/Before Pics http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3421756 I am so behind on blogs, it's scary. I've got a mountain of stuff that I want to report on, then a bunch more stuff I've got on my mind, emotional junk to sort through, and then all kinds of other things to talk about. And you know what? I have a 5,000 (only a slight exaggeration) page paper, plus another 9 pages for another class, due next week! And a test this Thursday! And a heck of a lot of laundry (WHY OH WHY is there so much laundry?). <BR> <BR> Anyway, this is a hodge-podge of ... Sun, 11 Jul 2010 22:31:14 EST 2 More Things Off of My 33 Before 33 List! (with pics) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3418878 I think I might somehow be behind pace to get done everything on my list by March, but it feels great to be crossing things off! Pics are below, although I have to tell you, my camera is awful, so I'm stuck with blurry ones! <BR> <BR> First, I have a couple of pictures from taking my daughter to the Delaware Children's Museum that I never posted: <BR> <BR> Weighing vegetables: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/6/l662532841.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Want some corn? <BR> <img src... Sat, 10 Jul 2010 22:47:34 EST